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I. KİTAP: YARATILIŞ
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1 00:00:06,250 --> 00:00:09,750 BİR NETFLIX DİZİSİ 2 00:00:41,875 --> 00:00:46,541 I. KİTAP: YARATILIŞ 3 00:01:11,500 --> 00:01:12,750 O iyi mi? 4 00:01:14,458 --> 00:01:16,791 İyi olacak mı? 5 00:01:24,291 --> 00:01:26,208 Hayır. Tanrım. 6 00:01:29,541 --> 00:01:33,375 Cennetteki babamız. Adın kutlu olsun. 7 00:01:33,458 --> 00:01:36,708 Krallığın gelecek ve cennetteki gibi dünyada da… 8 00:01:36,791 --> 00:01:40,375 Hazır başlamışken sor bakalım, neden hep çocukları alıyormuş. 9 00:01:41,250 --> 00:01:43,750 Hem de adi sarhoşlar çiziklerle kurtulurken. 10 00:02:04,083 --> 00:02:06,291 Bence gayet uygun Sayın Dava Vekili. 11 00:02:06,375 --> 00:02:07,583 Devam edeyim mi 12 00:02:07,666 --> 00:02:10,375 yoksa müvekkiliniz davanın görülmesini mi ister? 13 00:02:15,166 --> 00:02:17,375 Hükmü kabul ediyorum Sayın Yargıç. 14 00:02:17,958 --> 00:02:21,291 Mahkemenin kararı, Illinois Ceza İnfaz Kurumu'nda 15 00:02:21,375 --> 00:02:23,791 dört ila 10 yıl arasında hapis cezasıdır. 16 00:02:23,875 --> 00:02:29,625 Kurbanın ailesine verilecek tazminat miktarı 140.900,11 dolardır. 17 00:02:39,458 --> 00:02:41,000 RILEY, UMARIM İYİSİNDİR… 18 00:03:03,458 --> 00:03:09,625 ONUN SENİN YANINDA OLDUĞUNU, BENİM DE SENİ SEVDİĞİMİ BİL. ANNEN 19 00:04:11,416 --> 00:04:16,083 DÖRT YIL SONRA 20 00:04:22,208 --> 00:04:26,083 CROCKETT ADASI NÜFUS 127 21 00:04:26,166 --> 00:04:29,083 CROCKETT ADASI'NA HOŞ GELDİNİZ 22 00:04:33,291 --> 00:04:34,750 Odan hazır. 23 00:04:35,625 --> 00:04:37,125 Seni kim alacak? 24 00:04:38,458 --> 00:04:41,250 Tamam, saat 9.00'da rıhtımda ol 25 00:04:41,333 --> 00:04:45,083 yoksa Meltem'i kaçırırsın ve Ada Güzeli'ni beklemen gerekir. 26 00:04:45,166 --> 00:04:47,500 Bugünlerde sadece iki feribot var. 27 00:04:47,583 --> 00:04:49,333 Gemi tarifesini biliyor Annie. 28 00:04:50,458 --> 00:04:52,958 Hayır, tarifeyi bilip bilmediğini sordu, 29 00:04:53,041 --> 00:04:54,666 seni görmeye can atıyor da. 30 00:04:54,750 --> 00:04:59,375 Başka bir şey lazım mı? Kıyafet, ayakkabı falan? 31 00:05:04,375 --> 00:05:06,583 Girerken üstündekileri geri veriyorlar mı? 32 00:05:06,666 --> 00:05:07,958 Kıyafetleri falan? 33 00:05:08,041 --> 00:05:09,708 -Ben çıkıyorum. -Nereye? 34 00:05:09,791 --> 00:05:11,333 Marinada Ooker'la buluşacağım. 35 00:05:11,416 --> 00:05:13,166 Yemek yemeyecek misin yani? 36 00:05:15,666 --> 00:05:17,583 Babana merhaba demek ister misin? 37 00:05:18,875 --> 00:05:22,125 Tamam. Ed, Riley merhaba demek istiyor. 38 00:05:23,916 --> 00:05:26,875 Hayatım, baban az önce çıktı, 39 00:05:26,958 --> 00:05:29,833 beni duymadı ama o da selam söylüyor. 40 00:05:30,666 --> 00:05:31,541 Tamam. 41 00:05:32,333 --> 00:05:37,041 Tamam. Seni seviyorum, yarın görüşeceğiz. 42 00:05:37,958 --> 00:05:39,000 Tamam. 43 00:05:40,041 --> 00:05:40,916 Dinle şimdi. 44 00:05:42,125 --> 00:05:46,791 Bayan Keane "Ooker, Kuzey Bölgesi'nde kim bilir neyin peşinde" diyor. 45 00:05:46,875 --> 00:05:48,750 Bayan Keane delinin teki anne. 46 00:05:48,833 --> 00:05:52,791 Ben de 16 yaşında oldum, orada neler döndüğünü bilirim, oraya gitme. 47 00:05:53,375 --> 00:05:55,625 -Sorun istemem, vaktinde gel. -Biliyorum. 48 00:05:55,708 --> 00:05:58,166 Tanrı aşkına Warren, içme. 49 00:05:58,250 --> 00:05:59,250 Söz. 50 00:06:00,375 --> 00:06:02,375 Ağabeyin yarın eve dönüyor. 51 00:06:04,791 --> 00:06:06,041 Bu harika anne. 52 00:06:07,083 --> 00:06:08,416 Gerçekten öyle. 53 00:06:08,500 --> 00:06:09,666 Git bakalım. 54 00:06:39,666 --> 00:06:40,625 BEBEK BEKLEMEK 55 00:07:08,291 --> 00:07:12,875 AZİZ PATRICK KATOLİK KİLİSESİ KURULUŞU 1824 56 00:07:12,958 --> 00:07:16,458 MONSENYÖR PRUITT GERİ DÖNDÜ PAZAR AYİNLERİ TEKRAR BAŞLIYOR 57 00:07:16,541 --> 00:07:20,250 O'CONNOR VE OĞULLARI DENİZ ÜRÜNLERİ LTD. 58 00:07:29,500 --> 00:07:33,291 ADA GÜZELİ 59 00:07:35,666 --> 00:07:37,125 -Selam Flynn. -Merhaba. 60 00:07:38,166 --> 00:07:41,500 Bayan Keane, Kuzey Bölgesi'nde bir iş çevirdiğini söylemiş. 61 00:07:42,000 --> 00:07:43,208 Şiir gibi konuşmuş. 62 00:07:43,291 --> 00:07:45,791 Hayır, kıçım gibi konuşmuş. 63 00:07:47,625 --> 00:07:50,166 -Onu gördün mü? -Daha görmedim. 64 00:07:50,750 --> 00:07:51,583 Selam beyler! 65 00:07:53,375 --> 00:07:54,208 Aman be. 66 00:07:54,291 --> 00:07:57,250 -Aladdin'i çağırmış olamazsın. -Hadi. Ona fırsat ver. 67 00:07:58,458 --> 00:07:59,583 -N'aber? -Selam Ali. 68 00:07:59,666 --> 00:08:03,000 -Baban çıkmana izin vermiş, şaşırdım. -İstersem çıkarım. 69 00:08:04,833 --> 00:08:05,750 İşte orada. 70 00:08:08,541 --> 00:08:11,083 Parayı ulu orta sallamasana. Tanrım. 71 00:08:15,250 --> 00:08:16,125 Ne? 72 00:08:17,083 --> 00:08:18,375 Ona güvenebilirsin. 73 00:08:19,625 --> 00:08:20,583 Ya öterse? 74 00:08:21,791 --> 00:08:23,666 -Ötmem. -Seni tanımıyorum. 75 00:08:24,791 --> 00:08:27,958 Yapma Bowl. Babasını seçemez ya. Anlaşmıştık. 76 00:08:28,041 --> 00:08:30,250 -Anlaşmada o yoktu. -Haklı. 77 00:08:30,333 --> 00:08:33,250 Babamı siktir et. Duymak istediğin bu, değil mi? 78 00:08:33,333 --> 00:08:35,791 Peki, siktir et. Hepsini siktir et. Şerifi de. 79 00:08:36,916 --> 00:08:37,750 Oldu mu? 80 00:08:40,250 --> 00:08:42,666 -Söylemezsin, değil mi? -Söylemem dedim ya. 81 00:08:42,750 --> 00:08:44,875 Bowl'dan başkasından alamayız çünkü. 82 00:08:44,958 --> 00:08:46,416 Adı gerçekten Bowl mu? 83 00:08:46,500 --> 00:08:48,500 Baban onu enselerse veya o tırsarsa 84 00:08:48,583 --> 00:08:49,833 torbacımız kalmaz. 85 00:08:49,916 --> 00:08:51,375 Bir şey söylemeyecek. 86 00:08:57,958 --> 00:08:59,208 Selam Leeza. 87 00:09:00,458 --> 00:09:02,916 -Haytalık peşindesin. -Dolaşıyorum işte. 88 00:09:03,000 --> 00:09:06,041 -Bowl sayesinde uçacağız. -Yok artık! 89 00:09:06,916 --> 00:09:07,916 Benden kıllanana bak! 90 00:09:08,000 --> 00:09:09,458 Keşke bizimle gelebilsen. 91 00:09:09,541 --> 00:09:12,958 Kalsın. Kedi boku gibi kokmak istemiyorum. 92 00:09:14,958 --> 00:09:16,541 Akşam yemeği vakti Leeza. 93 00:09:18,458 --> 00:09:19,416 Bayan Scarborough. 94 00:09:19,500 --> 00:09:20,833 Merhaba Warren. 95 00:09:20,916 --> 00:09:22,125 Hadi gel canım. 96 00:10:43,250 --> 00:10:45,583 -Cankurtaran yeleği getirdin mi? -Ne? 97 00:10:45,666 --> 00:10:48,458 -Cankurtaran yeleği. -Hayır. Sen ciddi misin? 98 00:10:48,541 --> 00:10:51,750 Ters dönersek ayağını kurtar yoksa boğulursun. 99 00:10:51,833 --> 00:10:53,208 Berbat bir ölüm şekli. 100 00:10:55,500 --> 00:10:57,750 Bu, kuşaklar boyu yaptığımız bir şey, 101 00:10:57,833 --> 00:11:00,208 yani içine edersen ve babana söylersen… 102 00:11:00,958 --> 00:11:04,083 -Senin için kötü olur. -Söyleyemeyeceğim. Hadi ama. 103 00:11:04,166 --> 00:11:07,541 Yamadım, artık su almıyor. Sanırım. 104 00:11:25,458 --> 00:11:28,291 -El fenerin var mı? -Evet. Bak, onu aldım işte. 105 00:11:36,958 --> 00:11:38,333 -Gördünüz mü? -Neyi? 106 00:11:38,875 --> 00:11:43,500 Balıkçıl veya dev bir pelikan. Tepemizden uçtu. 107 00:11:44,583 --> 00:11:46,791 Dev gibiydi. Kanat açıklığını gördüm. 108 00:11:48,583 --> 00:11:50,750 Başıboş hayvanlar için bir şey yapılmalı. 109 00:11:51,333 --> 00:11:53,833 Eskiden bu kadar yoktu, şimdi ordu gibiler. 110 00:11:53,916 --> 00:11:56,041 Babam ana karadan geldiklerini söylüyor. 111 00:11:56,125 --> 00:11:57,708 Evet. Öyle olmalı. 112 00:11:57,791 --> 00:12:01,000 Buraya ne zaman kedi getirmişler, bilmem 113 00:12:01,083 --> 00:12:02,750 ama birden çok getirdikleri kesin. 114 00:12:02,833 --> 00:12:04,791 Yiyecek bulmalarına şaşıyorum. 115 00:12:04,875 --> 00:12:06,583 Ne yedikleri malum. 116 00:12:06,666 --> 00:12:10,208 Eskiden burada oturanlar ölülerini bahçelerine gömerlermiş. 117 00:12:10,291 --> 00:12:12,125 1920'lere dek. Babam öyle diyor. 118 00:12:12,208 --> 00:12:14,000 Bazen fırtına kopunca 119 00:12:14,083 --> 00:12:18,208 sel oluyor, cesetler topraktan çıkıyor. Al sana kedi maması. 120 00:12:19,083 --> 00:12:23,750 O cesetler yüzlerce yıllık, sırf kemik kalmıştır. 121 00:12:23,833 --> 00:12:28,041 Fırtınada selle birlikte bizim oradaki batı kıyısına sürükleniyorlar. 122 00:12:28,125 --> 00:12:30,375 Biliyorum çünkü Kuzey Bölgesi'ndeki her şey 123 00:12:30,458 --> 00:12:34,583 batı kıyısına sürükleniyor ve temizlemesi bana kalıyor gerzek. 124 00:12:37,958 --> 00:12:39,291 -O ne? -Al. 125 00:12:41,291 --> 00:12:42,500 Yok, istemem. 126 00:12:43,083 --> 00:12:45,083 -İçmiyor musun? -Onu içmem. 127 00:12:45,166 --> 00:12:47,458 Genelde buraya gelip ot içiyoruz. 128 00:12:48,041 --> 00:12:50,000 Şu sakat kız aklına düşüyor. 129 00:12:51,583 --> 00:12:54,666 Saygısızlık etmeyeyim. Sandalyeye mahkûm olmak berbat. 130 00:12:55,750 --> 00:12:57,208 Merhaba pisiler. 131 00:12:58,375 --> 00:13:02,083 Ağabeyim Bobby ve Warren'ın ağabeyi 132 00:13:02,166 --> 00:13:04,250 Kuzey Bölgesi için perili derdi. 133 00:13:04,333 --> 00:13:07,625 -Bir balıkçının hayaleti gezermiş. -Evet. Zıpkın Harry. 134 00:13:07,708 --> 00:13:08,875 Zıpkın Harry. 135 00:13:09,791 --> 00:13:11,791 Evet, zıpkınladığı çocukları yermiş. 136 00:13:11,875 --> 00:13:13,125 Hepsi zırva tabii. 137 00:13:13,208 --> 00:13:15,291 Peşlerine takılmayalım diye. 138 00:13:15,375 --> 00:13:16,958 Takılmazdık. 139 00:13:17,041 --> 00:13:18,500 Ben takıldım. Bir kere. 140 00:13:19,708 --> 00:13:21,875 Bobby üniversiteye gitmeden önce. 141 00:13:22,500 --> 00:13:25,250 Gördüğüm tek korkunç şey Heather Delman'ı düzmesiydi. 142 00:13:26,666 --> 00:13:28,000 -Evet. -Öyle. 143 00:13:33,750 --> 00:13:35,291 Of, kavga ediyorlar. Yok. 144 00:13:36,375 --> 00:13:37,458 Çiftleşiyorlar. 145 00:13:38,291 --> 00:13:39,875 Bobby de böyle ses çıkarıyordu. 146 00:13:44,041 --> 00:13:45,416 Ha siktir! 147 00:13:47,791 --> 00:13:50,083 Warren? Ne oluyor lan? 148 00:13:52,500 --> 00:13:54,125 Bir şey gördüğümü sandım. 149 00:13:57,208 --> 00:14:00,833 Zıpkın Harry gelmiştir nihayet! 150 00:14:00,916 --> 00:14:02,208 Kes şunu. 151 00:14:03,458 --> 00:14:05,208 Of ya. Kedi bokuna batmışım. 152 00:14:19,625 --> 00:14:22,666 KÖRFEZ MELTEMİ 153 00:14:52,458 --> 00:14:55,458 Şükürler olsun. 154 00:14:56,333 --> 00:15:00,041 Ah, oğlum. Evindesin, ait olduğun yerdesin. 155 00:15:01,500 --> 00:15:03,291 Seni besleyelim. Yemek yemelisin. 156 00:15:03,791 --> 00:15:06,333 Yalnız mısın? Babam nerede? Ya Warren? 157 00:15:06,416 --> 00:15:09,291 Bilirsin, teknedeler. 158 00:15:09,375 --> 00:15:12,625 Vardiya kaçırmaması lazım. Bir kere bile. 159 00:15:13,291 --> 00:15:15,583 Durumumuz elvermez. Eve gidelim hadi. 160 00:15:30,708 --> 00:15:33,583 CROCKETT ADASI FERİBOT BİLGİLERİ 161 00:15:33,666 --> 00:15:36,125 -Baksana Sturge! -Günaydın Bayan Keane. 162 00:15:36,208 --> 00:15:40,291 Monsenyör Pruitt gemide olacaktı. Onu gördün mü? 163 00:15:40,375 --> 00:15:44,000 Hayır. Belki öğleden sonraki Ada Güzeli'yle gelecektir. 164 00:15:44,083 --> 00:15:45,375 Hayır, Meltem dedi. 165 00:15:45,458 --> 00:15:47,625 Yola çıkmadan önce. Onu görmedin mi? 166 00:15:48,583 --> 00:15:51,083 Gözden kaçırman zor Sturge. 167 00:15:51,833 --> 00:15:53,166 Evet, haklısınız. 168 00:15:55,125 --> 00:15:57,750 Belki kalabalığa karışmıştır. 169 00:15:59,458 --> 00:16:01,458 Evet, hadi bakalım. 170 00:16:06,083 --> 00:16:07,083 Merhaba. 171 00:16:09,291 --> 00:16:10,500 Bu da… 172 00:16:10,583 --> 00:16:13,750 Omurgası. Mükemmel. 173 00:16:16,708 --> 00:16:22,375 Şu da minik ayağı. Hatta tekme atıyor biraz. 174 00:16:22,458 --> 00:16:24,000 Ayağını ölçeyim. 175 00:16:25,125 --> 00:16:26,500 Pekâlâ bebecik. 176 00:16:26,583 --> 00:16:28,166 Merhaba Minik Ayak. 177 00:16:29,250 --> 00:16:32,291 Her şey 20. haftada olması gerektiği gibi. 178 00:16:33,250 --> 00:16:36,041 -Son zamanlarda kanaman oldu mu? -Hayır. 179 00:16:37,708 --> 00:16:38,750 Neden? 180 00:16:38,833 --> 00:16:40,750 -İçeride azıcık kanama var. -Tanrım. 181 00:16:40,833 --> 00:16:43,708 Endişelenmiyorum. Çok küçük. Takip edeceğiz. 182 00:16:50,666 --> 00:16:51,708 Eve döndü galiba. 183 00:16:54,750 --> 00:16:55,833 Zavallı kadın. 184 00:16:58,541 --> 00:17:01,041 Peggy? Sen misin Peg? 185 00:17:01,125 --> 00:17:04,041 -Tanrım, anne. Ne yapıyorsun? -Peggy. 186 00:17:04,625 --> 00:17:07,916 Hayır anne. Erin o. Peggy'nin kızı Erin Greene. 187 00:17:08,000 --> 00:17:10,375 -Hatırlıyor musun? -Merhaba Bayan Gunning. 188 00:17:13,875 --> 00:17:17,041 Beni yanlış odaya koymuşsun. 189 00:17:18,291 --> 00:17:20,041 Benim odam üst katta. 190 00:17:20,125 --> 00:17:22,791 Hayır anne. Merdiven yasak. Bir yıldan beri öyle. 191 00:17:22,875 --> 00:17:24,125 Kalçanı kırdığından beri. 192 00:17:30,291 --> 00:17:32,375 Al bakalım. Aferin. 193 00:17:32,458 --> 00:17:36,000 -Günaydın Şerif. -Selam. Günaydın Annie. 194 00:17:36,083 --> 00:17:38,875 Bu sabah biraz geç kalacağım. Vardiyamı değiştirdim. 195 00:17:38,958 --> 00:17:42,458 Acele etme. Bu da oğlun olmalı. Riley, değil mi? 196 00:17:53,791 --> 00:17:56,875 ŞERİF OFİSİ 197 00:18:01,708 --> 00:18:04,333 -Kalk bakalım Joe. -Siktir. 198 00:18:05,041 --> 00:18:06,291 Kahve ister misin? 199 00:18:11,750 --> 00:18:14,208 -Bana ne yaptın Sharif? -Şerif. 200 00:18:14,916 --> 00:18:18,041 Şaşırmana şaşırdım. Burada olmak istiyorsun sanmıştım. 201 00:18:18,125 --> 00:18:19,791 İzinsiz girmeye çalıştın ya. 202 00:18:19,875 --> 00:18:22,166 Bakkala yani. 203 00:18:22,250 --> 00:18:24,583 Gece 12.30'da terinden viski akıyordu. 204 00:18:24,666 --> 00:18:25,958 Cama kürekle daldın. 205 00:18:26,041 --> 00:18:28,875 İsabet ettirsen hâlâ cam kırığı süpürüyor olurduk. 206 00:18:28,958 --> 00:18:30,458 Üzerime kilit vurdun, ha? 207 00:18:35,666 --> 00:18:39,333 İçmeni engellemeye çalışmanın nafile olduğunu biliyorum artık. 208 00:18:39,416 --> 00:18:42,916 Senin için söylemesi kolay. Allah içmeni yasaklıyor. 209 00:18:43,000 --> 00:18:46,000 Dev bir albatrosun seni takip ettiğini söyledin. 210 00:18:47,208 --> 00:18:50,708 Evet. "Kanatları plaj sandalyesi kadar iriydi" dedin. 211 00:18:52,208 --> 00:18:59,083 Eh, çok anlamsız sayılmaz çünkü albatros uğursuzluk getirir. 212 00:18:59,875 --> 00:19:02,958 Balıkçı olsan bunu bilirdin. 213 00:19:08,000 --> 00:19:10,541 Yavaş ol koca adam. Yavaş. Merhaba. 214 00:19:10,625 --> 00:19:14,750 Beni ısırmak istedi. Sadece geçiyordum, kapmaya çalıştı. 215 00:19:14,833 --> 00:19:15,833 Pike ısırmaz. 216 00:19:15,916 --> 00:19:19,500 Bazen havlar. Çoğu kez merhaba demek için. 217 00:19:19,583 --> 00:19:22,791 Sadece iri, o kadar. Sesi gür çıkıyor. 218 00:19:22,875 --> 00:19:26,583 Kapmaya çalıştı. Uzatsam elimi ısıracaktı. 219 00:19:26,666 --> 00:19:29,333 Haberin olsun Şerif, başa bela bu. 220 00:19:29,416 --> 00:19:31,666 Pardon Bayan Keane. Babasını bekliyor. 221 00:19:31,750 --> 00:19:33,250 Bela bir değil ki. 222 00:19:33,333 --> 00:19:36,625 Ne o Beverly? Biz de duyalım. 223 00:19:38,250 --> 00:19:43,333 Sen ona bakma oğlum. Kötü o. Kötü bir kadın. 224 00:19:43,416 --> 00:19:46,125 Rahatsızlık verdiğim için üzgünüm. Cidden. 225 00:19:46,208 --> 00:19:48,458 Bu işi kabul ederken sürekli benimle 226 00:19:48,541 --> 00:19:50,208 uğraşacağını düşünmemişsindir. 227 00:19:50,291 --> 00:19:53,375 Düşünecek olsam rahatsız ederdi. 228 00:19:56,583 --> 00:19:57,583 Gel oğlum. 229 00:19:58,625 --> 00:20:00,000 Görüşürüz Şerif. 230 00:20:01,458 --> 00:20:02,583 Selametle Joe. 231 00:20:05,083 --> 00:20:06,083 Yakında görüşürüz. 232 00:20:09,833 --> 00:20:13,333 Evet, Miller'lar geçen sene gitti. 233 00:20:14,458 --> 00:20:15,958 Satmaya kalkmadılar bile. 234 00:20:17,250 --> 00:20:21,708 Artık kimse satmaya çalışmıyor. Bırakıp gittiler. 235 00:20:23,916 --> 00:20:26,041 Frank, Oregon'da iş buldu. 236 00:20:27,333 --> 00:20:28,291 Fabrika işi. 237 00:20:32,041 --> 00:20:35,000 Evine hoş geldin canım. Evine hoş geldin. 238 00:20:45,375 --> 00:20:46,416 Geliyor musun? 239 00:20:57,458 --> 00:21:01,375 Kusura bakma. Baban buraya bir şeyler koyuyor. 240 00:21:01,458 --> 00:21:04,666 Başka yer yok da ondan. Kusura bakma. 241 00:21:06,625 --> 00:21:09,833 -Karşılamaya gelmedi. -Öyle deme. 242 00:21:09,916 --> 00:21:13,125 Artık evdesin. Normal davranıyor. Hepsi bu. 243 00:21:13,625 --> 00:21:15,458 Bugünlerde hâlimizi hiç bilmiyorsun. 244 00:21:15,541 --> 00:21:19,041 Sadece belli yerlerde, belli günlerde balık veya yengeç avlanıyor. 245 00:21:19,666 --> 00:21:20,708 Su kirlendi ya. 246 00:21:20,791 --> 00:21:25,041 Tanker kazasının üzerinden üç yıl geçti, çok fenaydı. 247 00:21:25,125 --> 00:21:28,041 Tanrı biliyor, o sudan çıkan hiçbir şey yenmiyordu. 248 00:21:28,125 --> 00:21:31,125 Baban her gün leş gibi mazot kokarak eve geliyordu, 249 00:21:31,208 --> 00:21:33,416 temizlendi dedikleri hâlde hem de. 250 00:21:33,500 --> 00:21:37,833 Çevreciler bizden yana sanıyordum. 251 00:21:38,416 --> 00:21:43,625 Balık popülasyonu azalınca sınırlama getirmeye kalktılar. 252 00:21:43,708 --> 00:21:45,125 Birdenbire kota kondu. 253 00:21:45,208 --> 00:21:48,208 Ama petrol şirketine değil, bize. Teknelere. 254 00:21:49,041 --> 00:21:51,291 Ne kadar balık tutacağımıza karışıyorlar. 255 00:21:51,375 --> 00:21:54,833 Ama balıkçı falan değiller. Bu sularda hiç çalışmamışlar. 256 00:21:55,500 --> 00:21:57,750 Popülasyon azalmasından söz edilecekse 257 00:21:57,833 --> 00:21:59,708 insan nüfusuna baksınlar. 258 00:21:59,791 --> 00:22:03,416 Bu adada yüzlerce insan yaşardı. 259 00:22:04,875 --> 00:22:06,208 Şimdi birkaç düzineyiz. 260 00:22:08,958 --> 00:22:11,000 Buraya mahalle denemez artık. 261 00:22:11,708 --> 00:22:12,750 Hayalet gibi. 262 00:22:14,375 --> 00:22:18,625 -Baban gelebilse gelirdi. -Tabii anne. 263 00:22:20,833 --> 00:22:21,833 CROCKETT KARMA OKULU 264 00:22:21,916 --> 00:22:24,500 Şerif Hassan böyle bir fırtınada 265 00:22:24,583 --> 00:22:26,500 ilk kez bizimle olduğu için 266 00:22:26,583 --> 00:22:28,833 bilgileri tazeleyelim, dedim. 267 00:22:29,458 --> 00:22:30,416 Sağ ol Başkan. 268 00:22:30,500 --> 00:22:32,666 Tam üstümüze inecek gibi görünüyor. 269 00:22:32,750 --> 00:22:34,833 Meteoroloji büyük fırtına diyor, 270 00:22:34,916 --> 00:22:37,458 yarın gece şiddetlenecekmiş. 271 00:22:37,541 --> 00:22:40,333 Bizi vurursa ve dedikleri şiddette vurursa diye 272 00:22:40,416 --> 00:22:42,708 yakıt stokumuzu konuşmak istedim. 273 00:22:42,791 --> 00:22:43,625 Sturge? 274 00:22:43,708 --> 00:22:46,541 Her zamanki gibi pompaları kapatırım. 275 00:22:46,625 --> 00:22:50,833 Günbatımını beklerim ki balıkçılar seferden sonra yakıt alabilsin. 276 00:22:51,416 --> 00:22:53,375 Marinanın elektriğini de kapar mısın? 277 00:22:53,458 --> 00:22:56,208 -Zaten elektrik kesilir muhtemelen. -Evet. 278 00:22:56,291 --> 00:23:00,250 Buradaki sınıfları da ihtiyaç durumunda sığınak olarak… 279 00:23:00,333 --> 00:23:01,166 Pardon. 280 00:23:02,333 --> 00:23:05,166 Burada yenisin, dolayısıyla bilmiyor olabilirsin 281 00:23:05,250 --> 00:23:07,041 ama sığınağımız kilisedir. 282 00:23:07,125 --> 00:23:09,958 Portatif karyolalar hazırlarız hep. 283 00:23:10,041 --> 00:23:13,208 Artık… Evet, artık yeni kültür merkezimiz de var. 284 00:23:13,291 --> 00:23:17,666 Henüz tamamlanmadı ama az kaldı, üstelik iki kat kapasiteli. 285 00:23:17,750 --> 00:23:22,166 İki kat kapasite bir fark oluşturur mu, bilmem. 286 00:23:22,250 --> 00:23:23,666 Hesaba vurunca… 287 00:23:26,000 --> 00:23:29,000 -Pardon Bayan Keane. Bilmiyordum. -Özre gerek yok. 288 00:23:29,958 --> 00:23:31,666 Nereden bilecektin? 289 00:23:31,750 --> 00:23:32,583 Pekâlâ… 290 00:23:32,666 --> 00:23:34,750 Aklında bulunsun, 291 00:23:34,833 --> 00:23:37,625 feribota atlayıp camiye gitmeyi düşünmüyorsan 292 00:23:37,708 --> 00:23:39,666 bizimle birlikte sığınman gerekecek. 293 00:23:39,750 --> 00:23:41,333 Kapımız daima açık tabii. 294 00:23:42,625 --> 00:23:43,625 Sağ olun. 295 00:23:44,250 --> 00:23:48,083 Durum kötüleşirse kiliseye gidileceğini herkese bildiririz. 296 00:23:48,166 --> 00:23:49,416 Biliyorlar zaten. 297 00:23:49,500 --> 00:23:53,500 Anlaşıldı. Şimdi teknelere geçelim. Önce marina emniyete alınmalı. 298 00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:09,958 Ana karaya ne sıklıkta gideceksin? 299 00:24:11,625 --> 00:24:12,958 Haftada bir. 300 00:24:13,041 --> 00:24:14,625 Warren, yemeğini ye. 301 00:24:14,708 --> 00:24:18,166 Sorun değil. Anonim Alkolikler toplantısı. 302 00:24:18,750 --> 00:24:21,291 -Şartlı tahliye anlaşması öyle. -Warren. 303 00:24:21,833 --> 00:24:24,000 Günün nasıl geçti? Okul nasıldı? 304 00:24:24,083 --> 00:24:27,791 İyiydi. Bayan Greene çoğunlukla fırtınadan söz etti. 305 00:24:27,875 --> 00:24:30,208 Bayan Greene mi? Hâlâ ders mi veriyor? 306 00:24:30,291 --> 00:24:33,541 Yok, ihtiyar Bayan Greene bu bahar öldü. 307 00:24:33,625 --> 00:24:35,916 Bu genç Bayan Greene, onun kızı. 308 00:24:37,791 --> 00:24:38,916 Erin geri mi döndü? 309 00:24:39,750 --> 00:24:42,708 Sana söyleyecektim. Birkaç aylığına geldi. 310 00:24:42,791 --> 00:24:45,333 Peggy'nin evine taşındı. Eski işini de aldı. 311 00:24:45,416 --> 00:24:46,875 Ne kadar kalır, bilmem 312 00:24:46,958 --> 00:24:49,250 ama birinin adaya gelmesi çok güzel. 313 00:24:49,333 --> 00:24:51,041 Hem de genç birinin. 314 00:24:51,625 --> 00:24:54,125 Nereden geldi? Ne yapıyormuş? 315 00:24:54,208 --> 00:24:55,750 Ona sorsan daha iyi olur. 316 00:24:56,875 --> 00:24:58,500 Yaptığı bir şeyi biliyoruz. 317 00:24:58,583 --> 00:25:00,166 -Warren. -Ne? Kendi söyledi. 318 00:25:00,250 --> 00:25:01,958 Hem karnı belli olmaya başladı. 319 00:25:02,041 --> 00:25:04,291 Uzun süre sır olarak kalmaz. 320 00:25:04,375 --> 00:25:06,208 Buradan giderken ne olduysa oldu, 321 00:25:06,291 --> 00:25:09,333 şimdi hoş bir genç hanım, iyi de bir öğretmen. 322 00:25:09,416 --> 00:25:11,375 Döndüğü için şanslıyız. 323 00:25:11,458 --> 00:25:13,625 Pişman kız. Yarın onu göreceksin. 324 00:25:14,208 --> 00:25:17,041 Ortalarda, sancak tarafında, tıpkı annesi gibi. 325 00:25:17,125 --> 00:25:19,375 -Yarın mı? -Kilisede. 326 00:25:21,291 --> 00:25:25,458 Kiliseye gitmeyi düşünmüyordum. 327 00:25:26,625 --> 00:25:29,541 Saçmalama. Tabii ki gideceksin. 328 00:25:30,166 --> 00:25:34,583 Hayır, işler değişti anne. Ben artık eskisi gibi değilim. 329 00:25:36,333 --> 00:25:41,458 Monsenyör Pruitt hacca gitmeden önce dedi ki… 330 00:25:41,541 --> 00:25:44,625 Seyahat için biraz yaşlı değil mi? 80 yaşında vardır. 331 00:25:44,708 --> 00:25:46,958 Bütün cemaat katkıda bulundu. 332 00:25:47,583 --> 00:25:49,708 -Kutsal topraklarda iki hafta. -Tanrım. 333 00:25:49,791 --> 00:25:52,541 Hayatını adada geçirdi, 334 00:25:52,625 --> 00:25:56,083 sonunda kendi adımlarıyla İsa'nın izinden gitme fırsatı buldu. 335 00:25:56,166 --> 00:25:58,500 -Evet. -Bunu hak etmişti… 336 00:25:58,583 --> 00:26:01,083 Ona izin vermelerine şaştım, sağlığı malum. 337 00:26:01,166 --> 00:26:03,291 O yaşta öyle zinde olursan şanslısın. 338 00:26:03,375 --> 00:26:04,500 Aklı başında değil. 339 00:26:04,583 --> 00:26:07,250 Geçen ayinde kutsanmış ekmeği üç kere kaldırdı. 340 00:26:07,333 --> 00:26:10,125 -Çanı çalmak çok saçma geldi. -Hepimize olur. 341 00:26:10,208 --> 00:26:12,791 Geceleri etrafta dolaştığını görenler olmuş. 342 00:26:12,875 --> 00:26:14,083 Geç saatte. 343 00:26:14,166 --> 00:26:18,041 Gece yarısı falan. Marinada, rıhtımda, bakkal dükkânında. 344 00:26:18,125 --> 00:26:20,708 Sen gördün mü? O olduğundan emin misin? 345 00:26:20,791 --> 00:26:22,916 Tabii, onunki gibi fötr şapkalı, 346 00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:25,416 uzun paltolu başka bir 80'liktir. 347 00:26:25,500 --> 00:26:28,791 Kafası biraz karışmaya başlamış olsa da 348 00:26:28,875 --> 00:26:31,750 onun yeri bu ada, bizim yanımız. 349 00:26:31,833 --> 00:26:35,166 Başpiskoposluğun onu göndereceği bir bakımevi değil. 350 00:26:35,750 --> 00:26:37,375 Yerine kim bilir kimi yollarlar. 351 00:26:37,958 --> 00:26:40,083 Yani onu azıcık mazur görsek… 352 00:26:40,166 --> 00:26:42,458 Sunağın başında onu yönlendirmemiz gerekiyor. 353 00:26:42,541 --> 00:26:43,583 Bu doğru değil. 354 00:26:43,666 --> 00:26:46,458 Yapma. Sunaktaki yardımcılar her şeyi fark eder. 355 00:26:46,541 --> 00:26:49,250 -Buhurdan mı taşıyorsun? -Evet. 356 00:26:49,333 --> 00:26:52,250 Rahip yardımcılığından ötesinde gözüm olmadı hiç. 357 00:26:52,333 --> 00:26:54,916 Sefil bir sunak yardımcısını kimse sevmez. 358 00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:58,541 Ben kızlar için yapıyordum. Resmî giysilerle göz boyamak için. 359 00:27:01,041 --> 00:27:02,000 Komik değil. 360 00:27:04,291 --> 00:27:05,708 Hiç komik değil. 361 00:27:08,375 --> 00:27:11,833 Bu masada oturup yaptığın… 362 00:27:13,541 --> 00:27:15,083 Yaptığın şeyden sonra 363 00:27:16,833 --> 00:27:18,833 "Kilise bana göre değil" mi diyorsun? 364 00:27:20,333 --> 00:27:24,958 Monsenyör Pruitt ve yardımcıları hakkında espriler mi yapıyorsun? 365 00:27:28,208 --> 00:27:29,250 Hayır. Olmaz. 366 00:27:31,250 --> 00:27:33,083 Yarın kiliseye gideceksin. 367 00:27:33,166 --> 00:27:35,291 -Baba… -Diğer pazar günleri de. 368 00:27:37,041 --> 00:27:41,166 Hevesinin veya keyfinin olmaması umurumda değil. 369 00:27:41,750 --> 00:27:44,083 Tahliye şartlarından biri gibi kabul et. 370 00:27:48,666 --> 00:27:50,416 PAZAR 371 00:28:11,791 --> 00:28:13,041 Monsenyör! 372 00:28:16,041 --> 00:28:17,541 Monsenyör! 373 00:28:23,583 --> 00:28:27,083 Monsenyör, dönmüşsünüz. Hoş geldiniz. 374 00:28:28,125 --> 00:28:32,583 İyi olmanıza çok sevindim. Bu sabah sizi bekledim. 375 00:28:33,166 --> 00:28:36,000 Anlaştığımız gibi Meltem'e binmemişsiniz. 376 00:28:36,625 --> 00:28:39,250 Herhâlde unuttunuz, bazen oluyor ya… 377 00:28:39,958 --> 00:28:43,416 Rıhtımda öyle kalakaldım. 378 00:28:43,500 --> 00:28:47,666 Mezuniyet balosuna gidecekken ekilmiş biri gibi. 379 00:28:47,750 --> 00:28:51,500 Şu yeni şerif de bir âlem. 380 00:28:51,583 --> 00:28:53,666 Ömer Şerif midir, nedir… 381 00:28:54,416 --> 00:28:57,791 Okulu yeni fırtına sığınağı yapmaya kalktı. 382 00:29:57,000 --> 00:29:58,083 Yerleştin mi? 383 00:30:00,833 --> 00:30:02,666 Evet. Hallettim. 384 00:30:04,291 --> 00:30:09,791 Kazadan beri her gün kiliseye gidiyor. 385 00:30:11,166 --> 00:30:16,041 Ayin olmasa bile gidip senin için dua ediyor. 386 00:30:17,250 --> 00:30:18,333 Her gün. 387 00:30:19,166 --> 00:30:21,708 Ondan özür dileyeceğim baba. 388 00:30:26,458 --> 00:30:27,958 Annem bana haberleri verdi. 389 00:30:29,458 --> 00:30:32,000 Kirlenme yüzünden zorlanmanıza üzüldüm. 390 00:30:35,791 --> 00:30:38,083 Kilise sana göre değil, öyle mi? 391 00:30:41,041 --> 00:30:42,916 Hayır, bana göre değil. 392 00:30:47,416 --> 00:30:50,875 Komünyon sırasında yerinden kalkma öyleyse. Bu uygun olur. 393 00:30:52,916 --> 00:30:56,458 Günah çıkarmadığını varsayarsak, ki öyledir sanırım. 394 00:30:59,208 --> 00:31:00,916 Annen üzülecek. 395 00:31:02,000 --> 00:31:03,833 Ayine katılmıyorsun diye. 396 00:31:06,708 --> 00:31:08,500 Ama aksi saygısızlık olurdu. 397 00:31:11,000 --> 00:31:11,916 Peki. 398 00:31:12,458 --> 00:31:13,500 Tamam. 399 00:31:20,208 --> 00:31:21,208 İyi geceler. 400 00:31:31,666 --> 00:31:32,833 Tamam. 401 00:31:52,708 --> 00:31:55,083 -Telefon yok. -Peki. 402 00:31:55,166 --> 00:31:56,916 Mesajlaştığını duymayayım. 403 00:31:57,000 --> 00:31:58,291 Mesajlaşırsan duyarım. 404 00:31:58,833 --> 00:32:00,500 Şerif her şeyi duyar. 405 00:32:01,125 --> 00:32:02,291 Tamam baba. 406 00:32:02,375 --> 00:32:03,208 Anneni öp. 407 00:32:09,250 --> 00:32:11,500 -İyi geceler delikanlı. -Sana da ihtiyar. 408 00:32:17,666 --> 00:32:20,083 On dakika, sonra telefon kapanacak! 409 00:32:37,250 --> 00:32:39,375 Korkma anne. Benim. 410 00:32:40,416 --> 00:32:41,833 Odam. 411 00:32:42,750 --> 00:32:45,083 Bir adım at. Aşağıya bir adım. 412 00:35:00,583 --> 00:35:03,541 Akşam kızılsa gökyüzü güler denizcinin yüzü. 413 00:35:04,958 --> 00:35:06,500 Sabah kızılsa gökyüzü… 414 00:35:06,583 --> 00:35:09,083 -Uyarıyı görür gözü. -Aynen öyle. 415 00:35:09,166 --> 00:35:12,958 TANRI IŞIK OLSUN DİYE BUYURDU VE IŞIK OLDU - YARATILIŞ 1:3 416 00:35:18,041 --> 00:35:20,333 Sandalla bir saatten az sürdü. 417 00:35:20,416 --> 00:35:23,833 Fırtına, dedikleri kadar kötü olmaz bence. Hiç olmuyor zaten. 418 00:35:23,916 --> 00:35:25,541 Babam pencerelere tahta çakmadı, 419 00:35:25,625 --> 00:35:29,333 oysa abartmakta üstüne yoktur, oradan anla. 420 00:35:30,291 --> 00:35:32,750 -Şişeleri doldurur musun? -Tabii. 421 00:35:41,333 --> 00:35:42,250 Biri doldurmuş. 422 00:36:09,416 --> 00:36:10,666 Herkese günaydın. 423 00:36:11,375 --> 00:36:15,125 Bugün Olağan Devre'nin yedinci pazarı. 424 00:36:15,208 --> 00:36:17,625 Açılış ilahimiz "Babalarımızın İnancı." 425 00:36:17,708 --> 00:36:21,250 Kırmızı ilahi kitabınızda 787 numara. 426 00:36:48,625 --> 00:36:49,458 O kim? 427 00:37:18,875 --> 00:37:19,916 Günaydın. 428 00:37:20,458 --> 00:37:23,625 Biliyorum, bu sabah beni görmeyi beklemiyordunuz. 429 00:37:23,708 --> 00:37:25,333 Ben Peder Paul Hill. 430 00:37:25,416 --> 00:37:30,416 Birkaç hafta Monsenyör Pruitt'in yerini almak üzere gönderildim. 431 00:37:30,500 --> 00:37:34,875 Maalesef seyahatteyken hastalandı. Durumu iyi. 432 00:37:35,458 --> 00:37:38,916 Ana karada bir hastanede iyileşiyor. 433 00:37:39,000 --> 00:37:41,041 Adada olmaması daha iyi. 434 00:37:41,125 --> 00:37:46,041 Durumu, yolculuğu sırasında başkaları tarafından fark edilmiş ve… 435 00:37:46,708 --> 00:37:50,250 Piskoposluk o sağlığına kavuşana dek yerine bakmamı istedi 436 00:37:50,333 --> 00:37:54,166 ama emin olun, endişelenecek bir şey yok. 437 00:37:54,250 --> 00:37:57,416 Rahibinizden olmayacaksınız. Size söz veriyorum. 438 00:37:57,500 --> 00:37:59,750 Bu geçici bir durum 439 00:37:59,833 --> 00:38:04,750 ve burada Aziz Patrick kilisesinde aranızda olmak benim için büyük bir zevk. 440 00:38:05,666 --> 00:38:10,041 Bilin ki buraya yardım etmeye geldim ve hepinizle tanışmaya can atıyorum. 441 00:38:12,333 --> 00:38:16,250 Baba, Oğul ve Kutsal Ruh adına. 442 00:38:17,083 --> 00:38:20,500 "Rabb'imiz İsa Mesih'in lütfu, Tanrı'nın sevgisi 443 00:38:20,583 --> 00:38:23,083 ve Kutsal Ruh'un kudreti sizinle olsun." 444 00:38:23,166 --> 00:38:25,041 "Ekmeği aldı ve sana şükretti. 445 00:38:25,916 --> 00:38:30,208 Ekmeği böldü ve havarilerine vererek şöyle dedi, 446 00:38:30,291 --> 00:38:33,541 'Bunu alın ve hepiniz bundan yiyin. 447 00:38:33,625 --> 00:38:37,708 Bu, sizler için kurban edilen benim bedenimdir.'" 448 00:38:53,416 --> 00:38:56,333 "Yemek sona erdiğinde kadehi aldı. 449 00:38:56,916 --> 00:39:02,125 Tekrardan teşekkür etti ve övgüler düzdü. Kadehi havarilerine verdi ve şöyle dedi, 450 00:39:03,250 --> 00:39:06,166 'Bunu alın ve hepiniz bundan için. 451 00:39:06,916 --> 00:39:11,125 Bu kadehte kanım var. Yeni ve sonsuz anlaşmanın kanı. 452 00:39:11,208 --> 00:39:16,625 Siz ve herkes için günahlarınızın affedilmesi için akıtıldı. 453 00:39:16,708 --> 00:39:19,833 Bunu beni hatırlamak için yapın.'" 454 00:39:25,083 --> 00:39:27,000 -İsa'nın bedeni. -Âmin. 455 00:39:27,083 --> 00:39:28,625 -İsa'nın bedeni. -Âmin. 456 00:39:30,208 --> 00:39:31,125 İsa'nın kanı. 457 00:39:31,208 --> 00:39:33,750 İsa'nın bedeni. 458 00:39:34,458 --> 00:39:35,333 İsa'nın kanı. 459 00:39:43,416 --> 00:39:45,000 -İsa'nın bedeni. -Riley. 460 00:39:45,583 --> 00:39:47,541 Ben burada kalayım. 461 00:39:48,666 --> 00:39:50,000 İsa'nın bedeni. 462 00:39:54,250 --> 00:39:57,375 İsa'nın bedeni. 463 00:39:59,125 --> 00:40:00,791 İsa'nın kanı, Erin Greene. 464 00:40:02,666 --> 00:40:03,791 İsa'nın bedeni. 465 00:40:04,958 --> 00:40:06,000 İsa'nın kanı. 466 00:40:06,083 --> 00:40:08,750 Dün gece rahip konutunda onunla tanıştım tabii. 467 00:40:08,833 --> 00:40:10,458 Uzun uzun konuştuk. 468 00:40:10,541 --> 00:40:13,041 Burada işlerin nasıl yürüdüğünü ona anlattım. 469 00:40:13,125 --> 00:40:16,875 Monsenyör ona bayılıyor, şimdi sebebini anlıyorum. 470 00:40:16,958 --> 00:40:19,500 -Leeza Scarborough! -Adımı biliyorsunuz! 471 00:40:19,583 --> 00:40:21,208 Monsenyör hepinizden söz etti. 472 00:40:21,291 --> 00:40:24,958 Günlük ayinlerde seni göreceğimi, baş başa olacağımızı söyledi. 473 00:40:25,041 --> 00:40:28,583 Peder. Wade Scarborough. Eşim Dolly. 474 00:40:28,666 --> 00:40:31,875 -Sizinle tanışmak bir zevk. -Elbette Bay ve Bayan Başkan. 475 00:40:31,958 --> 00:40:34,416 Sizi böyle şaşırttığım için üzgünüm. 476 00:40:34,500 --> 00:40:36,875 Piskoposluk size haber verecekti. 477 00:40:36,958 --> 00:40:37,958 Lütfen Wade deyin. 478 00:40:38,041 --> 00:40:40,708 Yeni bir yüz görmek ne büyük mutluluk. 479 00:40:40,791 --> 00:40:43,250 Tencere'ye hoş geldiniz, artık ne kaldıysa. 480 00:40:43,333 --> 00:40:44,333 Güveç Tenceresi! 481 00:40:44,416 --> 00:40:46,458 Evet, çok şirin bir takma isim. 482 00:40:46,541 --> 00:40:51,083 Ama doğru. Burası bir eritme potası, çekiliş torbası… 483 00:40:51,666 --> 00:40:52,916 Hatta bir pinyata. 484 00:40:53,500 --> 00:40:55,541 Bir sürü çeşni bir arada, 485 00:40:55,625 --> 00:40:59,041 arada da dev bir sopayla dövülüyoruz. 486 00:40:59,125 --> 00:41:01,458 Sizi de seve seve güvece katarız. 487 00:41:01,541 --> 00:41:04,000 -Annie Flynn, Peder. -Annie Flynn. 488 00:41:04,083 --> 00:41:06,291 -Bu da eşim Ed. -Ed Flynn. 489 00:41:06,375 --> 00:41:07,250 Peder. 490 00:41:08,250 --> 00:41:10,625 Komünyonda yerinden kalkmadığını gördüm. 491 00:41:13,416 --> 00:41:15,458 Sessizlik oldu, değil mi? 492 00:41:16,166 --> 00:41:18,125 Oğlum Riley… 493 00:41:18,208 --> 00:41:21,000 Şu sıra Tanrı'nın huzuruna çıkamam. 494 00:41:21,083 --> 00:41:22,916 Bence bu harika. 495 00:41:23,791 --> 00:41:27,000 Kendini Tanrı'ya emanet edebilenlere pek faydam olmuyor. 496 00:41:27,083 --> 00:41:28,291 İsa da 497 00:41:29,500 --> 00:41:33,125 öyleleriyle pek ilgilenmemişti. 498 00:41:33,208 --> 00:41:35,708 O doğruca, Tanrı'nın huzuruna çıkacak durumda 499 00:41:35,791 --> 00:41:37,333 olmayanların yanına gitti. 500 00:41:38,666 --> 00:41:42,125 En sevdikleri, arkadaş dedikleri onlardı. 501 00:41:42,875 --> 00:41:44,875 Evet, bunun üstünde çalışabiliriz. 502 00:41:46,541 --> 00:41:49,666 Evet, Güveç Tenceresi'ne hoş geldiniz. 503 00:41:52,833 --> 00:41:55,666 Eski çeviriyi tekrar işitmek hoş bir sürpriz oldu. 504 00:41:55,750 --> 00:41:58,541 -En son ne zaman duyduk, on yıl önce mi? -Evet. 505 00:41:58,625 --> 00:42:00,166 Hâlâ olabiliyormuş demek. 506 00:42:00,250 --> 00:42:04,083 Fark ettiniz mi? Yeni dua kitabı orijinal Latinceye daha yakın ama… 507 00:42:04,166 --> 00:42:05,958 Vay, vay, vay. 508 00:42:08,000 --> 00:42:09,625 Pişman olup eve dönen oğul. 509 00:42:10,333 --> 00:42:13,333 Hayır, pişman olup eve dönen sensin bence. 510 00:42:14,208 --> 00:42:15,250 Ben günah keçisiyim. 511 00:42:16,750 --> 00:42:17,958 Sana eşlik edeyim mi? 512 00:42:18,875 --> 00:42:20,958 Evet. Yürüyelim. 513 00:42:30,750 --> 00:42:31,833 Neredeydin? 514 00:42:33,250 --> 00:42:35,625 New York'ta. Eyaletin kuzeyinde. 515 00:42:37,125 --> 00:42:38,208 Tahmin etmiştim. 516 00:42:39,166 --> 00:42:44,708 Kaçıp gittiğin zaman bu konu çok konuşuldu. 517 00:42:45,583 --> 00:42:48,583 Pek çok kişi varsayımda bulundu, çoğu da Hollywood dedi 518 00:42:49,875 --> 00:42:51,375 ama ben tahmin etmiştim. 519 00:42:51,458 --> 00:42:52,333 Neden? 520 00:42:53,500 --> 00:42:54,666 Kapalı köprüler. 521 00:42:57,416 --> 00:42:58,625 Hatırlıyor musun? 522 00:42:59,375 --> 00:43:01,583 Yarım ömür önce söylemiştim. 523 00:43:04,458 --> 00:43:05,708 Önce oraya gitmedim. 524 00:43:06,875 --> 00:43:09,083 Güneye, sonra da batıya gittim. 525 00:43:09,708 --> 00:43:13,708 Bir süre Austin'deydim. Bir rock grubuna katıldım. 526 00:43:13,791 --> 00:43:14,750 Yok artık. 527 00:43:14,833 --> 00:43:16,291 Salağın tekiydim. 528 00:43:18,625 --> 00:43:20,291 Galiba ikimiz de salaktık. 529 00:43:21,375 --> 00:43:26,083 Hâlimize bak, başladığımız yere döndük. Asla dönmem dediğimiz yere. 530 00:43:28,875 --> 00:43:29,916 Ya sen? 531 00:43:31,708 --> 00:43:32,916 Şikago. 532 00:43:33,833 --> 00:43:35,041 Rock grubu yok ama. 533 00:43:35,916 --> 00:43:39,958 Sadece finans işleri. Okula gittim, bol bol partiledim. 534 00:43:40,041 --> 00:43:40,916 Çok şaşırdım. 535 00:43:41,000 --> 00:43:43,333 Çok para kazandım. Bir süre. 536 00:43:44,458 --> 00:43:47,500 Borsa, sonra iş kurdum. Sonra hepsi… 537 00:43:49,208 --> 00:43:50,375 Geçti gitti işte. 538 00:43:52,375 --> 00:43:55,708 -Evlendin mi? -Hayır. Sen? 539 00:43:57,875 --> 00:44:00,375 Evet. Yani kanunen öyle… 540 00:44:01,000 --> 00:44:03,875 Ama bitti. O da uzun hikâye. 541 00:44:09,791 --> 00:44:11,458 Kiliseye gelmene şaştım. 542 00:44:13,500 --> 00:44:14,958 Evet, ben de. 543 00:44:16,708 --> 00:44:19,583 Hiç tahmin etmezdim ama bana iyi geliyor. 544 00:44:21,125 --> 00:44:23,541 Komünyonda yerinden kalkmadın. 545 00:44:25,250 --> 00:44:27,875 Çok garip, çoğu kişi hapiste İsa'yı bulur. 546 00:44:27,958 --> 00:44:29,708 Sen hep bildiğini okurdun. 547 00:44:30,375 --> 00:44:31,958 Evet, sebep o değildi ama. 548 00:44:34,125 --> 00:44:36,750 İlk gece İncil'i bir kenara koydum. Ama… 549 00:44:37,791 --> 00:44:39,125 Aniden olmadı. 550 00:44:41,125 --> 00:44:43,333 Arayışa çıktım. Gerçekten. 551 00:44:44,541 --> 00:44:47,500 İçeride okumak için vakit boldu, hepsini okudum, 552 00:44:47,583 --> 00:44:52,041 Tevrat, Kuran, Talmud, Tao Te Ching. 553 00:44:52,750 --> 00:44:56,125 Yahudilik, Budizm, İslam, Caynizm. 554 00:44:57,416 --> 00:45:00,166 Tanrı'yı arıyorsam her yere bakmalıyım, dedim. 555 00:45:02,291 --> 00:45:03,750 Sonunda ateist oldum. 556 00:45:04,541 --> 00:45:05,541 Ne? 557 00:45:06,125 --> 00:45:09,458 Kâfir olan bendim, sen rahip yardımcısıydın. 558 00:45:09,541 --> 00:45:11,375 Annem görse inanmazdı. 559 00:45:12,916 --> 00:45:14,250 Üstelik hamilesin. 560 00:45:15,791 --> 00:45:17,041 Evet, öyleyim. 561 00:45:20,541 --> 00:45:21,541 Bir hikâyesi vardır. 562 00:45:23,458 --> 00:45:24,625 Hem var hem yok. 563 00:45:26,375 --> 00:45:27,750 Minik Ayak beni kurtardı. 564 00:45:37,333 --> 00:45:40,291 Bugün başka bir şeye ihtiyacınız var mı Peder? 565 00:45:40,375 --> 00:45:41,916 Fırtına için veya… 566 00:45:42,583 --> 00:45:44,458 Hayır. Sağ olun Bayan Keane. 567 00:45:46,958 --> 00:45:48,333 Bir şey sorabilir miyim? 568 00:45:49,250 --> 00:45:50,958 Merakımı bağışlayın. 569 00:45:52,041 --> 00:45:54,916 Bugün yaldızlı cüppe giymişsiniz. 570 00:45:56,875 --> 00:45:57,916 Öyle. 571 00:45:58,625 --> 00:46:01,791 O, bayram günleri için değil miydi? 572 00:46:02,708 --> 00:46:05,083 Bugün yeşil giymeniz gerekmez miydi? 573 00:46:06,041 --> 00:46:10,541 Olağan Devre'deyiz. Olağan Devre'nin yedinci pazarı. 574 00:46:11,750 --> 00:46:15,666 Maalesef bu sabah yeşil cüppeyi bulamadım. 575 00:46:15,750 --> 00:46:18,000 Monsenyör Pruitt 576 00:46:18,083 --> 00:46:22,291 onu farklı bir yere koymuş olacak. Gitmeden önce aklı biraz karışıktı ya. 577 00:46:23,041 --> 00:46:25,916 Pijamadan iyidir, diye düşündüm. 578 00:46:27,125 --> 00:46:30,541 Açıkçası, fark edileceğini ummazdım. 579 00:46:30,625 --> 00:46:33,333 Bundan böyle her sorunu bana haber verin. 580 00:46:33,416 --> 00:46:37,208 Benim görevim bu. Başka cüppe de ısmarlayabilirim. 581 00:46:37,291 --> 00:46:41,916 Eminim bulurum. Sadece tüm dolapları açacak vakte ihtiyacım var. 582 00:46:42,583 --> 00:46:43,583 Elbette. 583 00:46:45,208 --> 00:46:46,416 Ayin harikaydı. 584 00:46:47,416 --> 00:46:50,625 İyi günler Peder. İyi ki buradasınız. 585 00:46:51,291 --> 00:46:52,250 Teşekkür ederim. 586 00:46:52,750 --> 00:46:53,833 Bilmukabele. 587 00:46:58,333 --> 00:47:01,625 Annen yokken o evde oturmak garip geliyordur. 588 00:47:02,250 --> 00:47:05,625 O varken olduğundan bin kat iyi. Sen de evde misin? 589 00:47:06,791 --> 00:47:07,666 Evet. 590 00:47:09,000 --> 00:47:10,375 Garip geliyordur. 591 00:47:11,250 --> 00:47:15,041 -Küçük oda, tek kişilik yatak. -Aslında bunlara alışkınım. 592 00:47:16,708 --> 00:47:22,791 Sonuçta sen buraya geri geldin. 593 00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:26,583 Bile isteye döndün. 594 00:47:27,875 --> 00:47:28,875 Neden? 595 00:47:33,333 --> 00:47:34,375 Nasılsın Riley? 596 00:47:37,208 --> 00:47:38,125 İdare ediyorum. 597 00:47:38,208 --> 00:47:41,416 Hayır, yani gerçekten nasılsın? 598 00:47:48,416 --> 00:47:49,500 Bilmiyorum. 599 00:47:51,125 --> 00:47:52,166 Sanki… 600 00:47:54,291 --> 00:47:57,166 Sanki hepsi bu. Bilmiyorum. Hiçbir fikrim yok. 601 00:47:58,875 --> 00:48:00,916 Hapishanede hayat kolaydı. 602 00:48:01,000 --> 00:48:04,833 Yapılacak şeyler vardı, gün sayar, yer, içer, uyur, okurdum. 603 00:48:04,916 --> 00:48:10,208 Her şey en ince ayrıntısına kadar düzenlenmişti. Ama burada… 604 00:48:12,416 --> 00:48:13,500 Burada… 605 00:48:18,875 --> 00:48:19,875 Hiçbir şeyim yok. 606 00:48:21,125 --> 00:48:22,750 İş mi bulayım? 607 00:48:23,958 --> 00:48:26,791 Okula mı gideyim? Param yok, geleceğim yok, sadece… 608 00:48:33,541 --> 00:48:36,375 Artık sadece varım. 609 00:48:39,291 --> 00:48:40,458 Hepsi bu. Benim… 610 00:48:42,500 --> 00:48:45,083 …hiçbir amacım yok. 611 00:48:50,000 --> 00:48:52,875 Ailemin evinde oturuyorum, nefes alıyorum. 612 00:48:54,583 --> 00:48:57,833 Hiçbir şeye, hiç kimseye hayrım dokunmuyor. Sadece… 613 00:49:02,291 --> 00:49:03,250 …yaşıyorum. 614 00:49:07,041 --> 00:49:10,291 En kötüsü de bu çünkü hayatta olmamalıydım Erin. 615 00:49:16,125 --> 00:49:16,958 Yani bilmiyorum. 616 00:49:19,625 --> 00:49:20,791 Burada ne yapıyorum… 617 00:49:21,416 --> 00:49:23,250 Yiyorum. Uyuyorum. 618 00:49:25,041 --> 00:49:26,750 Sıçıyorum. Bilmiyorum işte. 619 00:49:29,125 --> 00:49:32,333 Eve gidip yemek yiyeceğim, fırtınayı bekleyeceğim. 620 00:49:32,416 --> 00:49:33,791 Aynen öyle. 621 00:49:35,208 --> 00:49:36,125 Öyle yap. 622 00:49:36,875 --> 00:49:39,208 Bu gece fırtınanın dinmesini bekle, yarın da… 623 00:49:42,083 --> 00:49:45,250 Yarının ne getireceğine bak. Başka bir proje bul. 624 00:49:49,625 --> 00:49:50,666 Üzgünüm. 625 00:49:53,458 --> 00:49:55,041 Başına gelenler için. 626 00:49:57,208 --> 00:49:58,750 Gerçekten çok üzgünüm. 627 00:50:41,166 --> 00:50:42,166 Sadece… 628 00:50:42,833 --> 00:50:44,666 Sadece bu. Büyük olan. 629 00:50:44,750 --> 00:50:47,500 Küçük olanları yenilerim ama bunu kapatalım. 630 00:50:49,583 --> 00:50:51,458 Evet. Tamam. 631 00:52:01,333 --> 00:52:04,291 -Ne oluyor? -Anne. Yok bir şey. 632 00:52:25,583 --> 00:52:27,750 Yemin ederim orada, kumsalda yürüyor. 633 00:52:27,833 --> 00:52:30,000 Ne? Hayır, ana karada o. 634 00:52:30,083 --> 00:52:31,375 Belki geri gelmiştir, 635 00:52:31,458 --> 00:52:34,000 yine nöbet geçirip kendini dışarı atmıştır. 636 00:52:34,083 --> 00:52:36,458 -Ben bir şey görmüyorum. -Onu görmüyorum. 637 00:52:36,541 --> 00:52:39,583 Hayır. Yeminle, şapka, palto. Kıyafeti tanıyorum, o. 638 00:52:39,666 --> 00:52:41,208 Hayır, ana karada. 639 00:52:42,458 --> 00:52:43,500 Pruitt işte! 640 00:52:43,583 --> 00:52:46,125 Hayatım, gözlerim eskisi gibi görmüyor… 641 00:52:54,875 --> 00:52:55,875 Peder Pruitt! 642 00:52:57,833 --> 00:52:59,041 Monsenyör! 643 00:53:02,750 --> 00:53:05,541 Monsenyör! 644 00:53:14,791 --> 00:53:15,791 Peder! 645 00:53:57,041 --> 00:53:58,250 Telefon hâlâ kesik. 646 00:53:59,750 --> 00:54:03,041 Rahibin evine gidip durumu açıklığa kavuşturalım. 647 00:54:03,125 --> 00:54:04,791 İyi mi, anlarız. 648 00:54:04,875 --> 00:54:07,041 Zaten tekneye bakmam lazım. 649 00:54:53,541 --> 00:54:55,958 Baba. Nedir bu? 650 00:57:44,458 --> 00:57:49,458 Alt yazı çevirmeni: Selen Akhuy

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1 00:00:12,000 --> 00:00:17,125 ["And the Grass Won't Pay No Mind" playing] 2 00:00:25,833 --> 00:00:27,791 ♪ Listen easy ♪ 3 00:00:30,166 --> 00:00:32,958 ♪ You can hear God calling ♪ 4 00:00:34,750 --> 00:00:38,250 ♪ Walking barefoot by a stream ♪ 5 00:00:42,916 --> 00:00:45,000 ♪ Come on to me ♪ 6 00:00:47,208 --> 00:00:50,041 ♪ Your hair's softly falling ♪ 7 00:00:50,125 --> 00:00:51,416 [indistinct chatter] 8 00:00:51,500 --> 00:00:55,416 ♪ On my face as in a dream ♪ 9 00:00:58,833 --> 00:01:04,166 ♪ And the time will be our time ♪ 10 00:01:07,000 --> 00:01:11,416 ♪ And the grass won't pay no mind… ♪ 11 00:01:11,500 --> 00:01:12,750 Is she is okay? 12 00:01:14,458 --> 00:01:16,791 [slurring] She's gonna be okay? 13 00:01:24,291 --> 00:01:26,208 No, no, no. Oh, God. 14 00:01:29,541 --> 00:01:33,375 Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name. 15 00:01:33,458 --> 00:01:36,708 Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on Earth as-- 16 00:01:36,791 --> 00:01:40,375 While you're at it, ask him why he always takes the kids, 17 00:01:41,250 --> 00:01:43,750 while the drunk fucks walk away with scratches. 18 00:01:45,250 --> 00:01:47,791 ♪ No mind ♪ 19 00:01:49,083 --> 00:01:56,000 ♪ No, the grass won't pay no mind ♪ 20 00:02:02,375 --> 00:02:04,000 [gavel banging] 21 00:02:04,083 --> 00:02:06,291 [judge] I find this recommendation very appropriate, Counsel. 22 00:02:06,375 --> 00:02:08,208 And I ask, do you want me to proceed, 23 00:02:08,291 --> 00:02:10,375 or would your client prefer I set the matter for trial? 24 00:02:10,458 --> 00:02:11,750 [imperceptible] 25 00:02:12,958 --> 00:02:13,958 [hesitates] 26 00:02:15,166 --> 00:02:17,375 I… I accept the sentencing, Your Honor. 27 00:02:17,958 --> 00:02:21,291 [judge] It is the sentence of this court that you be incarcerated for 4-10 years 28 00:02:21,375 --> 00:02:23,791 in the custody of the Illinois Department of Corrections. 29 00:02:23,875 --> 00:02:29,625 The restitution amount that is owed is $140,900.11 to the victim's family. 30 00:02:30,166 --> 00:02:31,208 [cell door slams] 31 00:02:32,958 --> 00:02:35,583 -[indistinct chatter in distance] -[cell door buzzing] 32 00:03:09,708 --> 00:03:11,875 [alarm buzzing] 33 00:03:15,291 --> 00:03:17,458 [inmates speaking indistinctly] 34 00:03:23,041 --> 00:03:24,625 [inmates clamoring] 35 00:03:43,583 --> 00:03:45,625 [sound fading] 36 00:03:45,708 --> 00:03:47,333 [thudding] 37 00:04:20,458 --> 00:04:21,583 [wind blowing] 38 00:04:33,291 --> 00:04:34,750 [Annie] Your room is all ready. 39 00:04:35,625 --> 00:04:37,791 -Who's picking you up? -[sighs] 40 00:04:38,458 --> 00:04:41,250 [Annie] Okay, so get to the dock by 9:00, 41 00:04:41,333 --> 00:04:45,083 otherwise you'll miss the Breeze and you'll have to wait for the Belle. 42 00:04:45,166 --> 00:04:47,500 There's only two ferries these days. 43 00:04:47,583 --> 00:04:49,916 He knows the boat schedule, Annie. [clears throat] 44 00:04:50,000 --> 00:04:52,958 Hmm? No, he was just asking if you knew the boat schedule 45 00:04:53,041 --> 00:04:54,666 because he just can't wait to see you. 46 00:04:54,750 --> 00:04:59,375 Do you need anything else? Clothes or shoes or anything? 47 00:04:59,458 --> 00:05:02,458 -["Soolaimon" playing on record] -[coughing] 48 00:05:04,375 --> 00:05:06,583 They give it all back to you, right? What you went in with? 49 00:05:06,666 --> 00:05:07,958 The clothes and such? 50 00:05:08,041 --> 00:05:09,708 -I'm goin' out. -Out where? 51 00:05:09,791 --> 00:05:11,333 I'm meeting Ooker at the marina. 52 00:05:11,416 --> 00:05:13,166 What, so you're not gonna eat? 53 00:05:15,666 --> 00:05:17,583 Do you wanna say hi to Dad? 54 00:05:18,875 --> 00:05:22,125 Okay. Ed, Riley wants to say hi. 55 00:05:23,916 --> 00:05:26,875 Honey, you know, your dad just stepped out, 56 00:05:26,958 --> 00:05:29,833 and so he didn't hear me, but he says hi. 57 00:05:30,666 --> 00:05:31,541 Okay. 58 00:05:32,333 --> 00:05:37,041 Okay. I love you and I will see you tomorrow. 59 00:05:37,958 --> 00:05:39,000 Okay. 60 00:05:40,041 --> 00:05:40,916 Now listen. 61 00:05:41,000 --> 00:05:42,041 [frustrated sigh] 62 00:05:42,125 --> 00:05:46,791 Miss Keane says that Ooker's been up to God-knows-what in the Uppards. 63 00:05:46,875 --> 00:05:48,750 Miss Keane is crazy, Mom. 64 00:05:48,833 --> 00:05:52,791 Well, I was 16 once and I know what goes on up there, so no Uppards. 65 00:05:53,375 --> 00:05:55,625 -No trouble, be back by curfew. -I know, Ma. 66 00:05:55,708 --> 00:05:58,166 And for Jesus' sake, Warren, no drinking. 67 00:05:58,250 --> 00:05:59,250 I promise. 68 00:06:00,375 --> 00:06:02,375 Your brother comes home tomorrow. 69 00:06:04,791 --> 00:06:06,041 That's great, Ma. 70 00:06:07,083 --> 00:06:08,416 Good and truly. 71 00:06:08,500 --> 00:06:09,666 Off you go. 72 00:06:13,166 --> 00:06:15,291 -[Ed continues coughing] -[door closes] 73 00:06:17,750 --> 00:06:20,666 ♪ Soo, soolaimon ♪ 74 00:06:21,166 --> 00:06:24,375 ♪ Soolai, soolai, soolaimon ♪ 75 00:06:24,875 --> 00:06:28,000 ♪ Soo, soolaimon ♪ 76 00:06:28,583 --> 00:06:31,583 ♪ Soolai, soolai, soolaimon ♪ 77 00:06:32,125 --> 00:06:35,416 ♪ Soo, soolaimon ♪ 78 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:38,833 ♪ Soolai, soolai, soolaimon ♪ 79 00:06:39,666 --> 00:06:42,583 ♪ Soo, soolaimon ♪ 80 00:06:43,458 --> 00:06:46,208 ♪ Soolai, soolai, soolaimon ♪ 81 00:06:49,291 --> 00:06:53,041 ♪ Hey! God of my want, want, want ♪ 82 00:06:53,125 --> 00:06:56,750 ♪ Lord of my need, need, need ♪ 83 00:06:56,833 --> 00:07:00,458 ♪ Leading me on, on, on ♪ 84 00:07:00,541 --> 00:07:04,125 ♪ On to the woman, she dance for the sun ♪ 85 00:07:04,708 --> 00:07:07,875 ♪ God of my want, want, want ♪ 86 00:07:07,958 --> 00:07:11,750 ♪ Lord of my need, need, need ♪ 87 00:07:11,833 --> 00:07:15,333 ♪ Leading me on, on, on ♪ 88 00:07:15,416 --> 00:07:18,791 ♪ On to the woman, she dance for the sun ♪ 89 00:07:19,375 --> 00:07:22,666 ♪ God of my day, day, day ♪ 90 00:07:22,750 --> 00:07:26,416 ♪ Lord of my night, night, night ♪ 91 00:07:26,500 --> 00:07:30,333 ♪ Seek for the way, way, way ♪ 92 00:07:30,416 --> 00:07:33,291 ♪ Taking me home and she callin' ♪ 93 00:07:33,375 --> 00:07:34,500 [music stops] 94 00:07:35,666 --> 00:07:37,125 -[Ooker] Hey, Flynn. -[Warren] Hey. 95 00:07:38,166 --> 00:07:41,500 Miss Keane says you've been up to no good in the Uppards, apparently. 96 00:07:41,583 --> 00:07:43,208 Oh. Her lips to God's ears. 97 00:07:43,291 --> 00:07:45,791 No, her lips to my ass. 98 00:07:45,875 --> 00:07:46,916 [laughs] 99 00:07:47,625 --> 00:07:50,166 -You seen him yet? -[chuckling] No, not yet. 100 00:07:50,750 --> 00:07:51,583 Hey, guys! 101 00:07:53,375 --> 00:07:54,208 Oh, shit. 102 00:07:54,291 --> 00:07:57,250 -You didn't invite Aladdin, did you? -Come on. Give him a chance. 103 00:07:58,458 --> 00:07:59,583 -What's up? -Hey, Ali. 104 00:07:59,666 --> 00:08:03,000 -I'm surprised your dad let you out. -If I wanna go out, I go out. 105 00:08:04,833 --> 00:08:05,750 [Warren] There he is. 106 00:08:08,541 --> 00:08:11,083 Don't wave the cash around. Jesus. 107 00:08:14,250 --> 00:08:16,125 [scoffs] What? 108 00:08:17,083 --> 00:08:18,375 Uh, he's cool. 109 00:08:19,625 --> 00:08:21,708 -What if he narcs? -[chuckles] 110 00:08:21,791 --> 00:08:23,666 -I wouldn't. -I don't know you. 111 00:08:24,791 --> 00:08:27,958 Come on, Bowl. He can't help who his dad is. We had a deal. 112 00:08:28,041 --> 00:08:30,250 -He wasn't part of that deal. -He's got a point. 113 00:08:30,333 --> 00:08:33,250 Fuck my dad. That's what you wanna hear, right? 114 00:08:33,333 --> 00:08:35,791 Fine, fuck him. Fuck 'em all. Fuck the sheriff. 115 00:08:36,916 --> 00:08:37,750 How about now? 116 00:08:40,250 --> 00:08:42,666 -[Ooker] You're not gonna tell, right? -I said I wouldn't. 117 00:08:42,750 --> 00:08:44,875 'Cause Bowl's the only guy that would get us anything. 118 00:08:44,958 --> 00:08:46,416 Is his name actually Bowl? 119 00:08:46,500 --> 00:08:48,500 And if your dad hauls him in or he gets spooked, 120 00:08:48,583 --> 00:08:49,833 that's the last contact we got. 121 00:08:49,916 --> 00:08:51,375 He won't say anything. 122 00:08:57,958 --> 00:08:59,541 -Hey, Leeza. -[chuckles] 123 00:09:00,458 --> 00:09:02,916 -Up to no good I can tell. -Just goin' for a ride. 124 00:09:03,000 --> 00:09:06,041 -A short trip courtesy of Bowl. -Yo. For real? 125 00:09:06,916 --> 00:09:07,916 You're worried I'd narc? 126 00:09:08,000 --> 00:09:09,458 I wish you could come with us. 127 00:09:09,541 --> 00:09:12,958 I'm good. I actually prefer not to smell like cat shit. 128 00:09:14,958 --> 00:09:16,541 Time for supper, Leeza. 129 00:09:18,458 --> 00:09:19,416 Hey, Ms. Scarborough. 130 00:09:19,500 --> 00:09:20,833 Hey there, Warren. 131 00:09:20,916 --> 00:09:22,125 Come along, dear. 132 00:09:31,125 --> 00:09:32,083 [door opens] 133 00:09:43,333 --> 00:09:45,708 [eerie choral music playing] 134 00:10:07,125 --> 00:10:08,291 [banging in trunk] 135 00:10:43,250 --> 00:10:45,583 -[Warren] Did you bring a life jacket? -[Ali] What? 136 00:10:45,666 --> 00:10:48,458 -[Warren] A life jacket. -[Ali] No. Are you serious? 137 00:10:48,541 --> 00:10:51,750 [Ooker] Hey, if we flip, don't get your foot under the seat. You'll drown. 138 00:10:51,833 --> 00:10:53,208 It's an awful way to go. 139 00:10:55,500 --> 00:10:57,750 This is a thing we've been doin' for generations, man, 140 00:10:57,833 --> 00:11:00,208 so you fuck this up and tell your dad… 141 00:11:00,958 --> 00:11:04,083 -It's gonna be bad for you, man. -[Ali] I'm not gonna tell my dad. Come on. 142 00:11:04,166 --> 00:11:07,541 [Ooker sighs] I patched it, so no more leaks. I think. 143 00:11:25,458 --> 00:11:28,291 -[Warren] You got a flashlight? -[Ali] Oh, yeah. I got that. 144 00:11:35,416 --> 00:11:36,875 [air whooshing] 145 00:11:36,958 --> 00:11:38,333 -You guys see that? -[Ali] What? 146 00:11:38,875 --> 00:11:43,500 Like a heron, or a monster pelican. It flew right over us. 147 00:11:44,583 --> 00:11:46,791 It was huge. I saw the wingspan. 148 00:11:46,875 --> 00:11:47,791 [cats yowling] 149 00:11:48,583 --> 00:11:50,750 [Warren] Somebody's gotta do something about these strays. 150 00:11:51,333 --> 00:11:53,833 It didn't used to be this bad, but it's an army now. 151 00:11:53,916 --> 00:11:56,041 My dad says they're all from the mainland? 152 00:11:56,125 --> 00:11:57,708 [Warren] Yeah. Technically, they have to be. 153 00:11:57,791 --> 00:12:01,000 I mean, I don't know when people brought cats up here, 154 00:12:01,083 --> 00:12:02,750 but they definitely brought more than one. 155 00:12:02,833 --> 00:12:04,791 [Ali] I can't believe there's enough for them to eat. 156 00:12:04,875 --> 00:12:06,416 [Ooker] Well, we know what they're eating. 157 00:12:06,500 --> 00:12:10,125 When people actually lived up here, they'd bury their dead in their yards, 158 00:12:10,208 --> 00:12:12,125 up until the '20s, my dad says. 159 00:12:12,208 --> 00:12:14,000 You know, sometimes there's a storm, 160 00:12:14,083 --> 00:12:18,208 and it floods and those bodies just pop up right out the ground. Cat food. 161 00:12:19,083 --> 00:12:23,750 You know, those bodies are hundreds of years old and just bones. 162 00:12:23,833 --> 00:12:28,041 And when it storms, they wash up on the west bank by my house. 163 00:12:28,125 --> 00:12:30,375 And I know, because everything from the Uppards 164 00:12:30,458 --> 00:12:34,583 washes up on the west bank, and I gotta clean it up, moron. 165 00:12:35,125 --> 00:12:37,875 -[Ali coughs] -[Warren and Ooker laugh] 166 00:12:37,958 --> 00:12:39,291 -[Ali] What is this? -[Ooker] Take it. 167 00:12:39,958 --> 00:12:41,208 [Ali coughs] 168 00:12:41,291 --> 00:12:42,500 Uh, no, thanks. 169 00:12:43,083 --> 00:12:45,083 -You don't drink? -Not that one. 170 00:12:45,166 --> 00:12:47,458 Usually, we just come up here, smoke a joint. 171 00:12:48,041 --> 00:12:50,000 He starts pining after roller girl. 172 00:12:51,583 --> 00:12:54,666 Hey, no disrespect. It sucks being stuck in that chair. 173 00:12:55,750 --> 00:12:57,208 [Ali] Hello, kitties. 174 00:12:58,375 --> 00:13:02,083 You know, my brother Bobby, and Warren's brother too, 175 00:13:02,166 --> 00:13:04,250 used to tell us that the Uppards was haunted. 176 00:13:04,333 --> 00:13:07,625 -Ghost of a dead fisherman. -Yeah, Harpoon Harry. 177 00:13:07,708 --> 00:13:09,708 -Harpoon Harry. -[Warren chuckles] 178 00:13:09,791 --> 00:13:11,791 Yeah, he harpooned kids for their meat. 179 00:13:11,875 --> 00:13:13,125 It's all bullshit though, 180 00:13:13,208 --> 00:13:15,291 so we wouldn't follow them when they came here to drink. 181 00:13:15,375 --> 00:13:16,958 I mean, we didn't. 182 00:13:17,041 --> 00:13:18,500 I did. Once. 183 00:13:19,708 --> 00:13:21,875 I followed Bobby up here before he went to college. 184 00:13:22,500 --> 00:13:25,250 The only scary thing I saw was him fucking Heather Delman. 185 00:13:25,333 --> 00:13:26,583 Oh. [laughs] 186 00:13:26,666 --> 00:13:28,000 -Yeah. -Yup. 187 00:13:28,083 --> 00:13:29,583 [cats yowling] 188 00:13:30,791 --> 00:13:31,750 Oh. 189 00:13:33,750 --> 00:13:35,291 Shit, they're fighting. Nope. 190 00:13:36,375 --> 00:13:37,458 They're fucking. 191 00:13:38,291 --> 00:13:39,875 Bobby sounded just like that. 192 00:13:39,958 --> 00:13:41,625 [Warren laughs] 193 00:13:43,333 --> 00:13:44,500 -[twig snaps] -Shit! 194 00:13:47,791 --> 00:13:50,083 Warren? What the fuck? 195 00:13:51,083 --> 00:13:51,916 Uh… 196 00:13:52,500 --> 00:13:54,125 I thought I saw something. 197 00:13:57,208 --> 00:14:00,833 I guess it was Harpoon Harry, cometh at last! Ah! 198 00:14:00,916 --> 00:14:02,666 [Ali chuckles] Yo, stop. 199 00:14:03,458 --> 00:14:05,208 [Ooker] Oh, man. I laid in cat shit. 200 00:14:05,291 --> 00:14:07,291 [mysterious music playing] 201 00:14:52,458 --> 00:14:55,458 [Annie] Thank God. Thank God. Thank God. 202 00:14:56,333 --> 00:15:00,041 Oh, my boy. Home, where you belong. 203 00:15:00,666 --> 00:15:03,291 Oh. Let's get you fed. You gotta eat. 204 00:15:03,375 --> 00:15:06,333 Uh, just you? Where's Dad? And Warren? 205 00:15:06,416 --> 00:15:09,291 Well, you know, they're on the boat. 206 00:15:09,375 --> 00:15:12,625 He just can't miss a shift. Not a single one. 207 00:15:13,291 --> 00:15:16,500 We can't afford it. But let's get you home. [sighs] 208 00:15:33,666 --> 00:15:36,125 -[Bev] Excuse me, Sturge. -Mornin', Miss Keane. 209 00:15:36,208 --> 00:15:40,291 Monsignor Pruitt was supposed to be on board. Did you see him? 210 00:15:40,375 --> 00:15:44,000 Nope. Uh, maybe he's gonna catch the Belle later on this afternoon. 211 00:15:44,083 --> 00:15:45,375 [Bev] No, he said the Breeze. 212 00:15:45,458 --> 00:15:47,625 We agreed before he left. You didn't see him? 213 00:15:48,583 --> 00:15:51,083 He's not easy to miss, Sturge. 214 00:15:51,833 --> 00:15:53,166 Yeah, well, you're right. 215 00:15:53,250 --> 00:15:54,208 Uh… 216 00:15:55,125 --> 00:15:57,750 Maybe I just, uh, lost him in the crowd. 217 00:15:59,458 --> 00:16:01,458 [Sarah] Okay, here we go. 218 00:16:01,541 --> 00:16:02,458 [Erin] Hmm. 219 00:16:03,208 --> 00:16:04,291 [rhythmic whirring] 220 00:16:06,083 --> 00:16:07,083 Hi there. 221 00:16:08,208 --> 00:16:09,208 [typing] 222 00:16:09,291 --> 00:16:10,500 And that's the-- 223 00:16:10,583 --> 00:16:13,750 The spine, and it's perfect. 224 00:16:16,708 --> 00:16:22,375 And that's the little foot, and it's kicking a little bit. 225 00:16:22,458 --> 00:16:24,000 Let me measure your foot. 226 00:16:25,125 --> 00:16:26,500 Okay, baby. 227 00:16:26,583 --> 00:16:28,166 Hi, Littlefoot. 228 00:16:29,250 --> 00:16:32,291 Everything is exactly where I want it to be at 20 weeks. 229 00:16:33,250 --> 00:16:36,041 -Have you had any spotting recently? -No. 230 00:16:37,708 --> 00:16:38,750 Why? 231 00:16:38,833 --> 00:16:40,750 -There's a little bleed in there. -Oh, God. 232 00:16:40,833 --> 00:16:43,708 I'm not worried about it. It's very small. We'll keep an eye on it. 233 00:16:50,208 --> 00:16:51,708 [sighs] I guess he's home. 234 00:16:54,750 --> 00:16:55,833 Poor woman. 235 00:16:58,541 --> 00:17:01,041 Peggy? Is that you, Peg? 236 00:17:01,125 --> 00:17:04,041 -Oh, my God, Ma. What are you doing? -Peggy. 237 00:17:04,625 --> 00:17:07,916 No, Ma. That's Erin. Peggy's daughter, Erin Greene. 238 00:17:08,000 --> 00:17:10,375 -Do you remember Erin Greene? -Hi, Mrs. Gunning. 239 00:17:11,041 --> 00:17:12,208 Oh. 240 00:17:12,750 --> 00:17:13,791 [hesitates] 241 00:17:13,875 --> 00:17:17,041 I think you've put me in the wrong room. 242 00:17:18,291 --> 00:17:20,041 My room is upstairs. 243 00:17:20,125 --> 00:17:22,791 [Sarah] No, Ma. No more stairs. Not for a year now. 244 00:17:22,875 --> 00:17:24,125 Not since you broke your hip. 245 00:17:29,125 --> 00:17:30,208 [whimpers] 246 00:17:30,291 --> 00:17:32,375 [Hassan] Hey. Good boy. 247 00:17:32,458 --> 00:17:36,000 -[Annie] Morning, Sheriff. -Hey. Morning, Annie. 248 00:17:36,083 --> 00:17:38,541 I'll be in a little later this morning. I switched my shift. 249 00:17:38,625 --> 00:17:42,458 [Hassan] Oh. Take your time. Yeah, this must be your son. Riley, is it? 250 00:18:01,708 --> 00:18:04,333 -Rise and shine, Joe. -Oh, shit. 251 00:18:04,416 --> 00:18:06,291 -[coughing] -You want some coffee? 252 00:18:11,750 --> 00:18:14,208 -What did you do to me, Sharif? -Sheriff. 253 00:18:14,916 --> 00:18:18,041 I'm surprised you're surprised. I figured this is where you wanted to be. 254 00:18:18,125 --> 00:18:19,791 You were trying to break in, after all. 255 00:18:19,875 --> 00:18:22,166 Well, into the general store anyway. 256 00:18:22,250 --> 00:18:24,583 Half past midnight and sweating pure Jim Beam. 257 00:18:24,666 --> 00:18:25,958 Havin' at the windows with an oar. 258 00:18:26,041 --> 00:18:28,875 We'd still be sweepin' up glass if your aim had been any good. 259 00:18:28,958 --> 00:18:30,458 So you lock me up? 260 00:18:35,666 --> 00:18:39,333 Well, Joe, I learned early there's no point trying to stop you drinking. 261 00:18:39,416 --> 00:18:42,916 Yeah, easy for you to say. Allah doesn't let you drink. 262 00:18:43,000 --> 00:18:46,000 You said you were being followed by a giant albatross. 263 00:18:46,583 --> 00:18:47,750 -Huh? -Oh, yeah. 264 00:18:47,833 --> 00:18:50,708 [imitates Joe] "Wings as big as lawn chairs," you said. 265 00:18:52,208 --> 00:18:59,083 Well… that makes a little sense, actually, because albatross is bad luck. 266 00:18:59,875 --> 00:19:02,958 You'd know that if you was a fisherman. 267 00:19:03,041 --> 00:19:04,250 [barking] 268 00:19:06,458 --> 00:19:08,000 [chuckling] Whoa. 269 00:19:08,083 --> 00:19:10,541 Easy, big fella. Easy. Hello. 270 00:19:10,625 --> 00:19:14,750 Snapped at me. Snapped right at me, just passing by. 271 00:19:14,833 --> 00:19:15,833 Pike didn't snap. 272 00:19:15,916 --> 00:19:19,500 Barks sometimes. Mostly just to say hello. 273 00:19:19,583 --> 00:19:22,791 He's just big is all. He just sounds bigger than he means to. 274 00:19:22,875 --> 00:19:26,583 Snapped. Thought he might have a go at my hand if I reached out. 275 00:19:26,666 --> 00:19:29,333 I'm telling you, Sheriff, it's a menace. 276 00:19:29,416 --> 00:19:31,666 I'm sorry, Miss Keane. He's just waiting for his dad. 277 00:19:31,750 --> 00:19:33,250 Speaking of a menace. 278 00:19:33,333 --> 00:19:36,625 Hey, what's that, Beverly? You wanna speak up? 279 00:19:38,250 --> 00:19:43,333 Yeah, you just ignore her, buddy. She's just mean. She's just a meanie. 280 00:19:43,416 --> 00:19:46,125 I'm sorry for the hassle. I mean it. 281 00:19:46,208 --> 00:19:48,458 Can't be what you pictured when you took this job, 282 00:19:48,541 --> 00:19:50,208 dealing with me all the time. 283 00:19:50,291 --> 00:19:53,375 Ah, it might bother me if I gave you much thought. 284 00:19:53,458 --> 00:19:55,083 [laughs] 285 00:19:56,083 --> 00:19:57,583 [clicks tongue] Come on, buddy. 286 00:19:58,625 --> 00:20:00,000 Later, Sharif. 287 00:20:01,458 --> 00:20:02,583 Take care, Joe. 288 00:20:05,083 --> 00:20:06,083 See you soon. 289 00:20:08,416 --> 00:20:09,750 [Annie sighs] 290 00:20:09,833 --> 00:20:13,333 Yeah, the Millers went last year. 291 00:20:14,458 --> 00:20:15,958 They didn't even list. 292 00:20:17,250 --> 00:20:21,708 I don't think anyone's trying to sell anymore. They just left. 293 00:20:23,916 --> 00:20:26,041 Frank's got a job in Oregon now. 294 00:20:27,333 --> 00:20:28,291 Factory job. 295 00:20:31,333 --> 00:20:35,000 Oh. Welcome home, honey. Welcome home. 296 00:20:36,833 --> 00:20:37,750 [Annie sighs] 297 00:20:45,375 --> 00:20:46,416 You comin'? 298 00:20:46,500 --> 00:20:48,458 [objects clattering] 299 00:20:57,458 --> 00:21:01,375 Sorry. Your dad's been using this to store some stuff in. 300 00:21:01,458 --> 00:21:04,666 Don't have room for it anywhere else. Sorry. 301 00:21:06,625 --> 00:21:09,833 -He really didn't show up. -Don't look at it like that. 302 00:21:09,916 --> 00:21:13,125 You're home now. He's treatin' you normal. That's all. 303 00:21:13,625 --> 00:21:15,458 You don't know what it's like these days. 304 00:21:15,541 --> 00:21:19,041 You can only fish certain spots, certain days, crab certain spots, 305 00:21:19,666 --> 00:21:20,708 since the spill. 306 00:21:20,791 --> 00:21:25,041 Three years since the spill, yeah, which was bad enough. 307 00:21:25,125 --> 00:21:28,041 God only knows. I mean, you couldn't eat anything out of that water. 308 00:21:28,125 --> 00:21:31,125 Your father smelled like diesel every day he came home, 309 00:21:31,208 --> 00:21:33,416 even after they said it was all cleaned up. 310 00:21:33,500 --> 00:21:37,833 I mean, I thought the environmentalists were on our side. 311 00:21:38,416 --> 00:21:43,625 These limits, these retention limits, going on about population decline, 312 00:21:43,708 --> 00:21:45,125 and suddenly, there's a limit. 313 00:21:45,208 --> 00:21:48,208 But not for the oil company, for us. For the boats. 314 00:21:49,041 --> 00:21:51,291 We can only catch as much as they say? 315 00:21:51,375 --> 00:21:54,833 But they've never been watermen. Never worked these waters. 316 00:21:55,500 --> 00:21:57,750 I mean, you want to talk population decline, 317 00:21:57,833 --> 00:21:59,708 let's talk about the people. 318 00:21:59,791 --> 00:22:03,416 The people on this island, we used to be hundreds. 319 00:22:04,875 --> 00:22:06,208 Now we're just dozens. 320 00:22:08,958 --> 00:22:11,000 This isn't a community anymore, honey. 321 00:22:11,708 --> 00:22:12,750 It's a ghost. 322 00:22:14,375 --> 00:22:18,625 -He'd be here if he could. -Sure, Mom. 323 00:22:21,916 --> 00:22:24,500 I figured this is the first time Sheriff Hassan 324 00:22:24,583 --> 00:22:26,500 has been with us for a storm like this, 325 00:22:26,583 --> 00:22:28,833 and I thought we could all use a refresher. 326 00:22:29,458 --> 00:22:30,416 Thank you, Mayor. 327 00:22:30,500 --> 00:22:32,666 Um, still looking like it'll hit us right in the face. 328 00:22:32,750 --> 00:22:34,833 Weather services are calling it a major storm, 329 00:22:34,916 --> 00:22:37,458 forecasting to have the worst of it landing tomorrow night. 330 00:22:37,541 --> 00:22:39,750 Assuming it does hit and hits like they say, 331 00:22:39,833 --> 00:22:42,708 the biggest thing I wanted to talk about was our fuel supply. 332 00:22:42,791 --> 00:22:43,625 Sturge? 333 00:22:43,708 --> 00:22:46,541 Yeah, I'll make sure the pumps are off, as usual. 334 00:22:46,625 --> 00:22:48,083 Uh, just before sundown 335 00:22:48,166 --> 00:22:50,833 so that the, uh, watermen can fuel up after the catch. 336 00:22:51,416 --> 00:22:53,375 And I'm assuming you'll cut the power to the marina? 337 00:22:53,458 --> 00:22:56,208 -Oh, we'll likely lose power anyways. -Oh, yeah. 338 00:22:56,291 --> 00:22:59,958 Then I'm thinking we make the classrooms available here for shelters if we need. 339 00:23:00,041 --> 00:23:02,250 -We could always-- -I'm sorry. [chuckles] 340 00:23:02,333 --> 00:23:05,166 You're new, so you wouldn't be expected to know this, 341 00:23:05,250 --> 00:23:07,041 but St. Patrick's is always the shelter. 342 00:23:07,125 --> 00:23:09,958 We set out cots as a matter of rule, always have. 343 00:23:10,041 --> 00:23:13,208 Now… Well, now, we have the new rec center. 344 00:23:13,291 --> 00:23:17,666 It's not completely done, but close, and it holds twice as many. 345 00:23:17,750 --> 00:23:22,166 I mean, I'm not sure holding twice as many makes a material difference. 346 00:23:22,250 --> 00:23:23,666 When you do the math, you… 347 00:23:26,000 --> 00:23:29,000 -Apologies, Miss Keane. I wasn't aware. -[Bev] No need to apologize. 348 00:23:29,958 --> 00:23:31,666 You'd have no reason to know that. 349 00:23:31,750 --> 00:23:32,583 All right, um-- 350 00:23:32,666 --> 00:23:34,750 Bear it in mind for yourself as well, 351 00:23:34,833 --> 00:23:37,625 unless you plan on hopping a ferry to the mosque, 352 00:23:37,708 --> 00:23:39,666 you'll have to hunker down with us too. 353 00:23:39,750 --> 00:23:41,333 And you'd be so welcome, of course. 354 00:23:41,958 --> 00:23:43,625 [smacks lips] Thank you. 355 00:23:44,250 --> 00:23:47,791 Uh, we'll let everybody know to head to St. Patrick's if things get bad. 356 00:23:47,875 --> 00:23:49,416 [chuckling] They know that. 357 00:23:49,500 --> 00:23:53,500 Understood. Uh, now, let's talk boats. Securing the marina for starters. 358 00:24:00,833 --> 00:24:02,208 [wind chimes clanging] 359 00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:09,958 How often do you have to go to the mainland? 360 00:24:11,625 --> 00:24:12,958 Once a week. 361 00:24:13,041 --> 00:24:14,625 Warren, eat your food. 362 00:24:14,708 --> 00:24:18,166 Uh, it's fine. It's, um… AA meetings. 363 00:24:18,750 --> 00:24:20,375 Part of the deal. Condition of my parole. 364 00:24:20,458 --> 00:24:21,750 [Annie] Warren. 365 00:24:21,833 --> 00:24:24,000 How was your day? How was school? 366 00:24:24,083 --> 00:24:27,791 It was good. Miss Greene was mostly on about the storm. 367 00:24:27,875 --> 00:24:30,208 Miss Greene? That old bird's still teaching? 368 00:24:30,291 --> 00:24:33,541 Nah, the old Miss Greene died in the spring. 369 00:24:33,625 --> 00:24:35,916 This is the new Miss Greene, her daughter. 370 00:24:37,791 --> 00:24:38,916 -Erin's back? -[Annie] Mmm-hmm. 371 00:24:39,750 --> 00:24:42,708 I meant to tell you about that. She's only been back a few months. 372 00:24:42,791 --> 00:24:45,333 She moved into Peggy's house. Her old job too. 373 00:24:45,416 --> 00:24:46,875 I don't know how long she's staying, 374 00:24:46,958 --> 00:24:49,250 but it was so nice to have someone move to the island. 375 00:24:49,333 --> 00:24:51,541 -And a young person at that. -[Riley] Um… 376 00:24:51,625 --> 00:24:54,125 Where is she back from? What was she doing? 377 00:24:54,208 --> 00:24:55,750 Mmm, I suppose you'd have to ask her. 378 00:24:56,875 --> 00:24:58,500 We know one thing she was doing. 379 00:24:58,583 --> 00:25:00,166 -Warren. -What? She told us herself. 380 00:25:00,250 --> 00:25:01,958 Besides, she's starting to show, 381 00:25:02,041 --> 00:25:04,291 so if it was a secret, it's not going to be for long. 382 00:25:04,375 --> 00:25:06,208 [Annie] Whatever happened when she ran away, 383 00:25:06,291 --> 00:25:09,333 she has grown into a fine young woman and a fine teacher, 384 00:25:09,416 --> 00:25:11,375 and we're lucky that she's back. 385 00:25:11,458 --> 00:25:13,625 Prodigal daughter. You'll see her tomorrow, in fact. 386 00:25:14,208 --> 00:25:15,833 She sits in the starboard side, halfway back, 387 00:25:15,916 --> 00:25:17,041 just like her mother, every week. 388 00:25:17,125 --> 00:25:19,375 -Tomorrow? -[Annie] At church. 389 00:25:21,291 --> 00:25:25,458 I wasn't… planning on going to church. 390 00:25:26,625 --> 00:25:29,541 [Annie chuckling] Don't be silly. Of course you are. 391 00:25:30,166 --> 00:25:34,583 No, things have changed for me, Ma. I'm not… That's not me anymore. 392 00:25:36,333 --> 00:25:41,458 Well, see, Monsignor Pruitt said, before he went on pilgrimage. He said-- 393 00:25:41,541 --> 00:25:44,625 Isn't he a little bit old to be traveling? He's gonna be 80 now. 394 00:25:44,708 --> 00:25:46,958 Mmm, well, the whole congregation pitched in. 395 00:25:47,583 --> 00:25:49,708 -Two weeks in the Holy Land. -Jesus. 396 00:25:49,791 --> 00:25:52,541 He spent his whole life on the island, 397 00:25:52,625 --> 00:25:56,083 and the chance to walk in Jesus' footsteps, in his actual footsteps. 398 00:25:56,166 --> 00:25:58,500 -[Riley] Yeah. -We thought he deserved that before-- 399 00:25:58,583 --> 00:26:01,083 I'm surprised they let him go, though, considering his health. 400 00:26:01,166 --> 00:26:03,291 You should be so lucky to be as fit as him at his age. 401 00:26:03,375 --> 00:26:04,500 He's losing it. 402 00:26:04,583 --> 00:26:07,250 He held up the host three times during Consecration the other day. 403 00:26:07,333 --> 00:26:10,125 -I felt ridiculous ringing the bell. -[Annie] We all have our moments. 404 00:26:10,208 --> 00:26:12,791 [Warren] People have been seeing him wandering around at night, 405 00:26:12,875 --> 00:26:14,083 like late at night. 406 00:26:14,166 --> 00:26:18,041 Like, midnight. At the marina, the docks, the general store. 407 00:26:18,125 --> 00:26:20,708 Did you see him, Warren? Do you know it was him? 408 00:26:20,791 --> 00:26:22,916 No, I'm sure it was some other 80-year-old man 409 00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:25,416 wearing a fedora and the long coat he always wears. 410 00:26:25,500 --> 00:26:28,791 [Annie] Even if he was getting a little bit scattered, 411 00:26:28,875 --> 00:26:31,750 he belongs here on the island with us. 412 00:26:31,833 --> 00:26:35,166 Not in some home, put out to pasture by the archdiocese. 413 00:26:35,750 --> 00:26:37,375 Who knows who they'd send in his place? 414 00:26:37,958 --> 00:26:40,083 So if we do cover for him, just a little-- 415 00:26:40,166 --> 00:26:42,458 We're practically steering him around the altar half the time. 416 00:26:42,541 --> 00:26:43,583 That is not true. 417 00:26:43,666 --> 00:26:46,458 [chuckles] Come on. You can't fool the altar boys. 418 00:26:46,541 --> 00:26:49,250 -You a thurifer? -That's right. 419 00:26:49,333 --> 00:26:52,250 I never had any ambitions past acolyte myself. 420 00:26:52,333 --> 00:26:54,916 No one likes a downwardly mobile altar boy. 421 00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:56,750 I was really only in it for the chicks. 422 00:26:56,833 --> 00:26:58,541 -[chuckles] -You know, man in uniform. 423 00:26:58,625 --> 00:27:00,250 -[Warren] Mmm-hmm. -[chuckles] 424 00:27:01,041 --> 00:27:02,000 It's not funny. 425 00:27:04,291 --> 00:27:05,708 It's not funny at all. 426 00:27:08,375 --> 00:27:11,833 You're gonna sit here at this table, after what you… 427 00:27:13,541 --> 00:27:15,083 After what you've done, 428 00:27:16,833 --> 00:27:18,833 and say, "Oh, church isn't for me"? 429 00:27:20,333 --> 00:27:24,958 And make jokes about altar boys and Monsignor Pruitt? 430 00:27:27,041 --> 00:27:29,250 Mmm-mmm. No. Nope. 431 00:27:31,250 --> 00:27:33,083 You are going to church tomorrow, Riley. 432 00:27:33,166 --> 00:27:35,291 -Dad-- -And every other Sunday. 433 00:27:37,041 --> 00:27:41,166 I don't care if your heart's not in it or the mood doesn't strike you. 434 00:27:41,750 --> 00:27:44,083 You can consider it a condition of your parole. 435 00:28:11,791 --> 00:28:13,041 Monsignor! 436 00:28:16,041 --> 00:28:17,541 Monsignor! 437 00:28:23,583 --> 00:28:27,083 Monsignor, you are home. Welcome back. 438 00:28:28,125 --> 00:28:32,583 I'm so relieved you're okay. I waited for you this morning. 439 00:28:33,166 --> 00:28:36,000 You weren't on the Breeze like we agreed. 440 00:28:36,625 --> 00:28:39,250 I'm sure you just forgot, had one of your… 441 00:28:39,958 --> 00:28:43,250 Still, you have no idea how it makes me look, 442 00:28:43,333 --> 00:28:47,666 standing there on the dock like some jilted prom date. 443 00:28:47,750 --> 00:28:51,500 And, oh, you won't believe that new sheriff. 444 00:28:51,583 --> 00:28:53,666 Omar Sharif, or whatever. 445 00:28:54,416 --> 00:28:57,791 He's trying to set the school as the new storm shelter. [chuckles] 446 00:28:57,875 --> 00:28:58,916 Oh! 447 00:29:02,125 --> 00:29:03,333 [chuckles] 448 00:29:22,875 --> 00:29:24,750 [insects trilling] 449 00:29:25,458 --> 00:29:26,500 [meows] 450 00:29:29,000 --> 00:29:29,916 [twig snaps] 451 00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:40,250 -[twig snaps] -[cat snarls] 452 00:29:40,333 --> 00:29:42,833 [squelching] 453 00:29:54,250 --> 00:29:55,458 [clears throat] 454 00:29:57,000 --> 00:29:58,083 Y'all settled? 455 00:30:00,833 --> 00:30:02,666 Yeah. I'm good. 456 00:30:04,291 --> 00:30:09,791 She's been goin' to St. Patrick's every day since the accident. 457 00:30:11,166 --> 00:30:16,041 Even if there weren't a mass, she'd go, say a rosary for you. 458 00:30:16,125 --> 00:30:18,333 -[clears throat] Every day. -I'll… 459 00:30:19,166 --> 00:30:21,708 I'll apologize to her, Dad. 460 00:30:24,583 --> 00:30:25,416 Um… 461 00:30:26,458 --> 00:30:27,958 Mom caught me up. 462 00:30:29,458 --> 00:30:32,000 I'm sorry things have been so hard since the spill. 463 00:30:35,791 --> 00:30:38,083 So church isn't for you, huh? 464 00:30:41,041 --> 00:30:42,916 No, it's not for me. 465 00:30:45,625 --> 00:30:46,458 [Ed] Uh… 466 00:30:47,416 --> 00:30:50,875 You should sit back then, during Communion. That's proper. 467 00:30:50,958 --> 00:30:51,958 [clears throat] 468 00:30:52,916 --> 00:30:56,458 Assuming you haven't been to confession, and I'm assuming you haven't. 469 00:30:59,208 --> 00:31:00,916 That'll upset your mother, 470 00:31:02,000 --> 00:31:03,833 you not taking the sacrament, but… 471 00:31:06,708 --> 00:31:08,500 wouldn't be respectful if you did. 472 00:31:11,000 --> 00:31:11,916 Okay. 473 00:31:12,458 --> 00:31:13,500 Okay. 474 00:31:16,291 --> 00:31:17,208 [Ed sighs] 475 00:31:20,208 --> 00:31:21,208 Good night. 476 00:31:24,541 --> 00:31:26,541 ["Abide with Me" playing] 477 00:31:31,166 --> 00:31:32,833 [clears throat] Okay. 478 00:31:37,750 --> 00:31:39,208 [praying indistinctly] 479 00:31:52,708 --> 00:31:55,083 -No phone. -Okay, okay. 480 00:31:55,166 --> 00:31:56,916 I don't wanna hear you texting. 481 00:31:57,000 --> 00:31:58,291 I can hear you texting. 482 00:31:58,833 --> 00:32:00,500 The sheriff can hear everything. 483 00:32:01,125 --> 00:32:02,291 All right, Dad. 484 00:32:02,375 --> 00:32:03,208 Kiss your mother. 485 00:32:09,250 --> 00:32:11,500 -Good night, young man. -Night, old man. 486 00:32:17,666 --> 00:32:20,083 [Hassan] Just ten minutes, then the phone goes off! 487 00:32:22,375 --> 00:32:28,041 ♪ What but Thy grace can ♪ 488 00:32:28,125 --> 00:32:33,000 ♪ Foil the tempter’s power? ♪ 489 00:32:33,666 --> 00:32:37,166 ♪ Who like Thyself… ♪ 490 00:32:37,250 --> 00:32:39,375 Don't be scared, Mom. It's just me. 491 00:32:40,416 --> 00:32:41,833 My room. 492 00:32:42,750 --> 00:32:45,083 -Take a step. One step down. -[groans] 493 00:32:45,166 --> 00:32:49,541 ♪ Through cloud and sunshine ♪ 494 00:32:49,625 --> 00:32:54,166 ♪ Lord, abide with me ♪ 495 00:32:54,250 --> 00:32:55,291 [Mildred sighs] 496 00:32:57,291 --> 00:33:02,625 ♪ Hold Thou Thy cross ♪ 497 00:33:02,708 --> 00:33:03,541 [window opening] 498 00:33:03,625 --> 00:33:07,666 ♪ Before my closing eyes ♪ 499 00:33:08,541 --> 00:33:11,791 ♪ Shine through the gloom ♪ 500 00:33:11,875 --> 00:33:12,791 [chuckles] 501 00:33:12,875 --> 00:33:19,291 ♪ And point me to the skies ♪ 502 00:33:19,791 --> 00:33:23,916 ♪ Heaven's morning breaks ♪ 503 00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:30,458 ♪ And earth's vain shadows flee ♪ 504 00:33:31,250 --> 00:33:36,625 ♪ In life, in death, o Lord ♪ 505 00:33:36,708 --> 00:33:42,875 ♪ Abide with me ♪ 506 00:33:44,583 --> 00:33:50,333 ♪ In life, in death, o Lord ♪ 507 00:33:50,416 --> 00:33:56,333 ♪ Abide with me ♪ 508 00:33:56,416 --> 00:33:57,541 [song fades] 509 00:34:08,583 --> 00:34:10,125 [water flowing] 510 00:34:13,291 --> 00:34:14,291 [thudding] 511 00:34:16,750 --> 00:34:17,833 [birds screeching] 512 00:34:22,500 --> 00:34:23,541 [thudding] 513 00:34:30,041 --> 00:34:31,583 [bell dinging] 514 00:34:34,958 --> 00:34:36,291 [thudding] 515 00:34:37,333 --> 00:34:39,333 [sinister choral music playing] 516 00:34:43,625 --> 00:34:44,916 [music stops] 517 00:34:59,708 --> 00:35:03,541 [Ed sighs] Red sky at night, sailor's delight. 518 00:35:04,958 --> 00:35:06,500 Red sky in the morning… 519 00:35:06,583 --> 00:35:09,083 -Sailor take warning. -That's right. 520 00:35:13,041 --> 00:35:14,666 [organ music playing] 521 00:35:18,041 --> 00:35:20,333 It took us less than an hour with the boat. 522 00:35:20,416 --> 00:35:23,833 I bet the storm's not as bad as they say. It feels like they never really are. 523 00:35:23,916 --> 00:35:25,541 My dad didn't board the windows, 524 00:35:25,625 --> 00:35:29,333 and he basically invented overreacting, so that should tell you something. 525 00:35:30,291 --> 00:35:32,750 -You wanna fill the cruets? -Yeah. 526 00:35:41,333 --> 00:35:42,250 Somebody already did. 527 00:35:56,875 --> 00:35:58,208 [indistinct chatter] 528 00:36:09,416 --> 00:36:11,291 -[Bev] Morning, everyone. -[crowd mumbles] 529 00:36:11,375 --> 00:36:15,125 Today is the seventh Sunday of Ordinary Time. 530 00:36:15,208 --> 00:36:17,625 Our opening hymn is "Faith of Our Fathers," 531 00:36:17,708 --> 00:36:21,250 number 787 in your red hymnal. 532 00:36:21,333 --> 00:36:23,208 [bell dings] 533 00:36:30,791 --> 00:36:37,708 ♪ Faith of our fathers, living still ♪ 534 00:36:38,416 --> 00:36:42,333 ♪ In spite of dungeon ♪ 535 00:36:42,416 --> 00:36:45,958 ♪ Fire and sword ♪ 536 00:36:46,041 --> 00:36:48,541 ♪ Oh, how our hearts ♪ 537 00:36:48,625 --> 00:36:49,458 Who's that? 538 00:36:49,541 --> 00:36:53,291 ♪ Beat high with joy ♪ 539 00:36:53,916 --> 00:37:00,875 ♪ Whene'er we hear that glorious word ♪ 540 00:37:01,791 --> 00:37:08,750 ♪ Faith of our fathers, holy faith ♪ 541 00:37:09,416 --> 00:37:16,375 ♪ We will be true to thee till death ♪ 542 00:37:18,875 --> 00:37:19,916 Good morning. 543 00:37:20,458 --> 00:37:23,625 I know I'm not who you expected to see this morning. 544 00:37:23,708 --> 00:37:25,333 I'm Father Paul Hill, 545 00:37:25,416 --> 00:37:30,416 and I was sent by the diocese to fill in for Monsignor Pruitt for a few weeks. 546 00:37:30,500 --> 00:37:33,458 He fell ill, I'm afraid, on his trip. 547 00:37:33,541 --> 00:37:34,875 -He's fine. -[crowd murmuring] 548 00:37:35,458 --> 00:37:38,916 [Father Paul] He's recovering in a hospital on the mainland. 549 00:37:39,000 --> 00:37:41,041 He's better off off-island, 550 00:37:41,125 --> 00:37:46,041 and, well, his condition was noticed by some others on his trips, so… 551 00:37:46,708 --> 00:37:50,250 The diocese has asked me to step in until he is up and about again, 552 00:37:50,333 --> 00:37:54,166 but I assure you there is absolutely nothing to worry about. 553 00:37:54,250 --> 00:37:57,416 You are not losing your pastor. I can promise you that. 554 00:37:57,500 --> 00:37:59,750 This is a temporary situation, 555 00:37:59,833 --> 00:38:04,750 and it is my absolute pleasure to be here with you all at St. Patrick's. 556 00:38:05,666 --> 00:38:10,041 Just know, I'm only here to help, and I look forward to meeting you all. 557 00:38:12,333 --> 00:38:16,250 [all] In the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. 558 00:38:17,083 --> 00:38:20,500 "The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, 559 00:38:20,583 --> 00:38:23,083 and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit, be with you all…" 560 00:38:23,166 --> 00:38:25,041 "He took bread and gave you thanks." 561 00:38:25,916 --> 00:38:30,208 "He broke the bread, gave it to his disciples and said, 562 00:38:30,291 --> 00:38:33,541 'Take this, all of you, and eat it.'" 563 00:38:33,625 --> 00:38:37,708 "'This is my body, which will be given up for you.'" 564 00:38:40,416 --> 00:38:41,791 [dinging] 565 00:38:41,875 --> 00:38:43,916 [eerie choral music playing] 566 00:38:53,416 --> 00:38:56,333 "When supper was ended, he took the cup." 567 00:38:56,916 --> 00:39:02,125 "Again, he gave you thanks and praise, gave the cup to his disciples and said, 568 00:39:03,250 --> 00:39:06,166 'Take this, all of you, and drink from it.'" 569 00:39:06,916 --> 00:39:11,125 "'This is my blood, the blood of the new and everlasting covenant.'" 570 00:39:11,208 --> 00:39:16,625 "'It will be shed for you and for all so that sins may be forgiven.'" 571 00:39:16,708 --> 00:39:19,833 "'Do this in remembrance of me.'" 572 00:39:20,958 --> 00:39:22,375 [bell dinging] 573 00:39:25,083 --> 00:39:27,000 -Body of Christ. -[Dolly] Amen. 574 00:39:27,083 --> 00:39:28,625 -Body of Christ. -[Wade] Amen. 575 00:39:30,208 --> 00:39:31,125 Blood of Christ. 576 00:39:31,208 --> 00:39:33,750 Body of Christ. Body of Christ. 577 00:39:34,458 --> 00:39:35,333 [Bev] Blood of Christ. 578 00:39:37,500 --> 00:39:38,750 [Annie grunts] 579 00:39:38,833 --> 00:39:40,500 [Ed groans] 580 00:39:43,416 --> 00:39:45,000 -[Father Paul] Body of Christ. -Riley. 581 00:39:45,583 --> 00:39:47,541 I'll sit down here. 582 00:39:48,666 --> 00:39:50,666 -[Father Paul] Body of Christ. -[Ed clears throat] 583 00:39:54,250 --> 00:39:57,375 [Father Paul] Body of Christ. Body of Christ. 584 00:39:59,125 --> 00:40:00,791 [Bev] Blood of Christ, Erin Greene. 585 00:40:02,666 --> 00:40:03,791 [Father Paul] Body of Christ. 586 00:40:04,958 --> 00:40:06,000 [Bev] Blood of Christ. 587 00:40:06,083 --> 00:40:08,750 Well, I met him last night, of course, at the rectory. 588 00:40:08,833 --> 00:40:10,458 We had a lot to talk about, 589 00:40:10,541 --> 00:40:13,041 just catching him up on how things work around here. 590 00:40:13,125 --> 00:40:16,875 Monsignor just loves him, and I can see why. 591 00:40:16,958 --> 00:40:19,500 -Leeza Scarborough! -[chuckles] How do you know my name? 592 00:40:19,583 --> 00:40:21,208 Monsignor's told me all about you. 593 00:40:21,291 --> 00:40:24,958 He says I'll see you at daily mass, and that it may just be the two of us. 594 00:40:25,041 --> 00:40:28,583 Father. Wade Scarborough. My wife, Dolly. 595 00:40:28,666 --> 00:40:31,875 -[Dolly] Such a pleasure to meet you. -Of course, Mr. Mayor, Mrs. Mayor. 596 00:40:31,958 --> 00:40:34,416 I am so sorry to surprise you like this. 597 00:40:34,500 --> 00:40:36,875 The diocese was supposed to contact you directly. 598 00:40:36,958 --> 00:40:37,958 [Wade] Please, call me Wade. 599 00:40:38,041 --> 00:40:40,708 Golly, it's such a joy to see a new face. 600 00:40:40,791 --> 00:40:43,250 Welcome to the Pot, what's left of it anyway. 601 00:40:43,333 --> 00:40:44,333 The Crock Pot! 602 00:40:44,416 --> 00:40:46,458 [Wade] Yeah, well, it's a cute nickname, yeah. 603 00:40:46,541 --> 00:40:51,083 But you know, it's true. We are a melting pot, a grab bag… 604 00:40:51,666 --> 00:40:52,916 -A piñata, even. [chuckles] -Mmm. 605 00:40:53,500 --> 00:40:55,541 [Dolly] A whole variety of different flavors 606 00:40:55,625 --> 00:40:59,041 that just keeps getting pummeled with some huge awful stick. [chuckles] 607 00:40:59,125 --> 00:41:01,458 [Wade] We sure are glad to add you to the stew. 608 00:41:01,541 --> 00:41:04,000 -[Annie] Annie Flynn, Father. -Annie Flynn. 609 00:41:04,083 --> 00:41:06,291 -And this is my husband, Ed. -Ed Flynn. 610 00:41:06,375 --> 00:41:07,250 Father. 611 00:41:08,250 --> 00:41:10,625 And I noticed you sat back for Communion. 612 00:41:13,416 --> 00:41:15,458 That got rather quiet, didn't it? 613 00:41:16,166 --> 00:41:18,125 My son Riley, he's-- 614 00:41:18,208 --> 00:41:21,000 Not exactly in a state of grace right now. 615 00:41:21,083 --> 00:41:22,916 [Father Paul] Hey, look, I think that's great. 616 00:41:23,000 --> 00:41:27,000 Uh, turns out I'm not much use to people who are in a state of grace. 617 00:41:27,083 --> 00:41:29,416 Jesus, uh, 618 00:41:29,500 --> 00:41:33,125 he didn't really have that much interest for those kind of people, either. 619 00:41:33,208 --> 00:41:35,708 No, he seemed to go straight for those folks 620 00:41:35,791 --> 00:41:37,333 who weren't in a state of grace. 621 00:41:38,666 --> 00:41:42,125 They were his favorite people, turns out. They were the ones he called friends. 622 00:41:42,875 --> 00:41:44,875 Yeah, we can work with that. 623 00:41:46,541 --> 00:41:49,666 Yeah, uh, welcome to the Crock Pot. 624 00:41:52,833 --> 00:41:55,666 It was a nice surprise to hear the old translation again. 625 00:41:55,750 --> 00:41:58,541 -We haven't heard that in what, ten years? -Yeah. 626 00:41:58,625 --> 00:42:00,166 Didn't know you were still doing that. 627 00:42:00,250 --> 00:42:04,083 You noticed, huh? I know, the new missal is closer to the original Latin, but… 628 00:42:04,166 --> 00:42:05,958 Well, well, well. 629 00:42:06,041 --> 00:42:07,916 [Father Paul speaking indistinctly] 630 00:42:08,000 --> 00:42:09,625 [Erin] It's the prodigal son. 631 00:42:09,708 --> 00:42:13,333 [chuckles] No, I think, uh, you're the prodigal one. 632 00:42:14,208 --> 00:42:16,041 -I'm just the black sheep. -[chuckles] 633 00:42:16,750 --> 00:42:17,958 Can I walk you home? 634 00:42:18,875 --> 00:42:20,958 Yeah. Let's walk. 635 00:42:22,916 --> 00:42:24,916 [uplifting choral music playing] 636 00:42:30,750 --> 00:42:31,833 Where were you? 637 00:42:33,250 --> 00:42:35,625 In New York. Upstate New York. 638 00:42:37,125 --> 00:42:38,208 I guessed that. 639 00:42:39,166 --> 00:42:44,708 I mean, when you ran away, it was the subject of a lot of debate. 640 00:42:45,583 --> 00:42:48,583 A lot of people had theories and most of them were Hollywood, 641 00:42:49,875 --> 00:42:51,375 but that was one of my guesses. 642 00:42:51,458 --> 00:42:52,333 Why? 643 00:42:53,500 --> 00:42:54,666 Covered bridges. 644 00:42:57,416 --> 00:42:59,291 -You remember that? -Mmm-hmm. 645 00:42:59,375 --> 00:43:01,583 I told you that like half our lives ago. 646 00:43:04,458 --> 00:43:05,708 I didn't start there. 647 00:43:06,875 --> 00:43:09,083 I went south, then I went west. 648 00:43:09,708 --> 00:43:13,708 And I was in Austin for a while. And I joined up with a rock band. 649 00:43:13,791 --> 00:43:14,750 [chuckling] You're kidding. 650 00:43:14,833 --> 00:43:16,291 I was such an idiot. 651 00:43:16,875 --> 00:43:17,791 Um… 652 00:43:18,625 --> 00:43:20,583 -Well, I guess we both were idiots. -Hmm. 653 00:43:21,375 --> 00:43:26,083 Look at us, back where we started. The one place we swore we'd never end up. 654 00:43:28,875 --> 00:43:29,916 What about you? 655 00:43:31,708 --> 00:43:32,916 Chicago. 656 00:43:33,833 --> 00:43:35,291 -No rock band though. -Mmm. 657 00:43:35,916 --> 00:43:39,958 Just financial stuff. Went to school, partied too much. 658 00:43:40,041 --> 00:43:40,916 I'm shocked. 659 00:43:41,000 --> 00:43:43,333 Made a lot of money. For a bit. 660 00:43:44,458 --> 00:43:47,500 Stocks, then a startup. But then all… 661 00:43:49,208 --> 00:43:50,375 That all went away. 662 00:43:52,375 --> 00:43:55,708 -Married? -No, no. You? 663 00:43:57,875 --> 00:44:00,375 Yeah. I mean, technically, it… 664 00:44:01,000 --> 00:44:03,875 But it's over. It's also a long story. 665 00:44:09,791 --> 00:44:11,458 Surprised to see you in church. 666 00:44:13,500 --> 00:44:14,958 Yeah, me too. 667 00:44:16,708 --> 00:44:19,583 I would have never guessed it, but it's been good for me. 668 00:44:21,125 --> 00:44:24,000 -I saw you sit back during Communion. -[sighs] 669 00:44:25,250 --> 00:44:27,875 It's funny, most guys find Jesus in prison. 670 00:44:27,958 --> 00:44:29,708 Well, you always went your own way. 671 00:44:30,375 --> 00:44:31,958 Yeah, that wasn't it though. 672 00:44:34,125 --> 00:44:36,750 I threw away the Bible the first night. But it… 673 00:44:37,791 --> 00:44:39,125 It wasn't instant. 674 00:44:41,125 --> 00:44:43,333 I did go looking. I really did. 675 00:44:44,541 --> 00:44:47,500 There's a lot of time to read in there and I read it all, 676 00:44:47,583 --> 00:44:52,041 Torah, Quran, Talmud, Tao Te Ching. 677 00:44:52,750 --> 00:44:56,125 Judaism, Buddhism, Islam, Jainism. 678 00:44:57,416 --> 00:45:00,166 Figured if I was lookin' for God, I should look everywhere. 679 00:45:02,291 --> 00:45:03,750 Came out of that an atheist. 680 00:45:04,541 --> 00:45:05,541 What? 681 00:45:06,125 --> 00:45:09,458 I'm supposed to be the godless heathen, and you are the altar boy. 682 00:45:09,541 --> 00:45:11,375 My mom wouldn't believe any of this. 683 00:45:12,916 --> 00:45:14,250 And you're pregnant. 684 00:45:15,791 --> 00:45:17,041 Yeah, I am. 685 00:45:20,541 --> 00:45:21,541 Bet that's a story. 686 00:45:23,458 --> 00:45:24,625 It is and it isn't. 687 00:45:26,375 --> 00:45:27,750 Littlefoot saved my life. 688 00:45:37,333 --> 00:45:40,291 Is there anything else you need this afternoon, Father? 689 00:45:40,375 --> 00:45:41,916 For the storm or… 690 00:45:42,000 --> 00:45:44,458 Oh. No. No, thank you, Miss Keane. 691 00:45:46,958 --> 00:45:48,333 Can I ask you something? 692 00:45:49,250 --> 00:45:50,958 Forgive me, I don't mean to… 693 00:45:52,041 --> 00:45:54,916 It's just you're wearing a gold chasuble today. 694 00:45:56,583 --> 00:45:57,916 Uh, yes, I am. 695 00:45:58,625 --> 00:46:01,791 Isn't that for feast days and special… 696 00:46:02,708 --> 00:46:05,083 Shouldn't it be green today? 697 00:46:06,041 --> 00:46:10,541 We're in Ordinary Time. It's the seventh Sunday of Ordinary Time. 698 00:46:11,750 --> 00:46:15,666 No, I'm afraid I wasn't able to locate the green chasuble this morning. 699 00:46:15,750 --> 00:46:18,000 Perhaps Monsignor Pruitt, 700 00:46:18,083 --> 00:46:22,291 he stored it somewhere unusual given his mental state before he left. 701 00:46:23,041 --> 00:46:25,916 I just figured this was better than my pajamas. 702 00:46:26,000 --> 00:46:27,041 [chuckles] 703 00:46:27,125 --> 00:46:30,541 Honestly, I didn't expect that anyone would notice. 704 00:46:30,625 --> 00:46:33,333 Well, in the future, let me know if there's an issue. 705 00:46:33,416 --> 00:46:37,208 That's what I'm here for. I can order more as well. 706 00:46:37,291 --> 00:46:41,916 I'm sure I'll find it. I just need some time to open up all the cabinets. 707 00:46:42,583 --> 00:46:43,583 Of course. 708 00:46:45,208 --> 00:46:46,416 This was excellent. 709 00:46:47,416 --> 00:46:50,625 Have a good afternoon, Father. I'm glad you're here. 710 00:46:50,708 --> 00:46:52,250 Oh, thank you. 711 00:46:52,750 --> 00:46:53,833 And likewise. 712 00:46:58,333 --> 00:47:01,625 [Riley] Must be weird, I mean, living there with her gone? 713 00:47:02,250 --> 00:47:05,625 [Erin] It's a lot better than when she was here. You at home? 714 00:47:06,791 --> 00:47:07,666 [Riley] Oh, yeah. 715 00:47:09,000 --> 00:47:10,375 [Erin] That's gotta feel weird. 716 00:47:11,250 --> 00:47:15,041 -Tiny room, twin bed. -Actually, I'm kinda used to that. 717 00:47:16,708 --> 00:47:22,791 So, I mean, you came back… here. 718 00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:26,583 Like, you came back here on purpose. 719 00:47:27,875 --> 00:47:28,875 Why? 720 00:47:33,333 --> 00:47:34,375 How are you, Riley? 721 00:47:37,208 --> 00:47:38,125 Hangin' in. 722 00:47:38,208 --> 00:47:41,416 No, I mean, how are you? 723 00:47:48,416 --> 00:47:49,500 I don't know. 724 00:47:51,125 --> 00:47:52,166 That's kinda… 725 00:47:54,291 --> 00:47:57,166 That's kinda the whole thing. I don't know. I have no idea. 726 00:47:58,875 --> 00:48:01,791 I mean, in prison, it was easy. I had things to do, you know. 727 00:48:01,875 --> 00:48:04,833 Count the days, count down the sentence, eat, sleep, read. 728 00:48:04,916 --> 00:48:10,208 It's all pretty carefully spelled out for you. Regimented. But here… 729 00:48:12,416 --> 00:48:13,500 Here… 730 00:48:16,833 --> 00:48:17,833 [chuckles softly] 731 00:48:18,875 --> 00:48:19,875 I have nothing. 732 00:48:21,125 --> 00:48:22,750 What, am I gonna get a job? 733 00:48:23,958 --> 00:48:26,791 Go to school? I have no money, no prospects, I just… 734 00:48:33,541 --> 00:48:36,375 I just exist now. 735 00:48:39,291 --> 00:48:40,458 That's it. I have… 736 00:48:42,500 --> 00:48:45,083 absolutely no purpose at all. 737 00:48:50,000 --> 00:48:52,875 I'm just sitting in my parents' house, breathing, 738 00:48:54,583 --> 00:48:57,833 and serving no purpose to anyone whatsoever. I'm just… 739 00:49:02,291 --> 00:49:03,250 living. 740 00:49:07,041 --> 00:49:10,291 And that's the worst part, because I shouldn't be alive, Erin. 741 00:49:16,125 --> 00:49:16,958 So I don't know. 742 00:49:19,625 --> 00:49:20,791 What I do here. 743 00:49:21,416 --> 00:49:23,250 I eat. Sleep. 744 00:49:25,041 --> 00:49:26,750 Shit, I don't know. 745 00:49:29,125 --> 00:49:32,333 Walk home now, eat dinner, wait out this fuckin' storm. 746 00:49:32,416 --> 00:49:33,791 There you go. 747 00:49:35,208 --> 00:49:36,125 Do that. 748 00:49:36,875 --> 00:49:39,208 Ride out the storm tonight, and then tomorrow… 749 00:49:42,083 --> 00:49:45,250 you'll see what tomorrow's all about. Find another project. 750 00:49:49,625 --> 00:49:50,666 I'm sorry. 751 00:49:53,458 --> 00:49:55,041 For what you've been through. 752 00:49:57,208 --> 00:49:58,750 I'm really, really sorry. 753 00:50:12,416 --> 00:50:13,333 [sighs] 754 00:50:14,000 --> 00:50:15,208 [door opens, closes] 755 00:50:41,166 --> 00:50:42,166 [Annie] So it's just… 756 00:50:42,833 --> 00:50:44,666 Just this one. Just the big one. 757 00:50:44,750 --> 00:50:47,500 The little ones I can replace, but just this one. 758 00:50:49,583 --> 00:50:51,458 Yeah. Okay. 759 00:51:28,208 --> 00:51:29,458 [thunderclap] 760 00:51:32,375 --> 00:51:33,750 [wind howling] 761 00:51:46,083 --> 00:51:47,750 [thunder rumbling] 762 00:52:01,333 --> 00:52:04,291 -[Mildred] What's happening? -[Sarah] Mom, it's okay. 763 00:52:25,583 --> 00:52:27,750 [Riley] I swear he's out there, just walking on the beach. 764 00:52:27,833 --> 00:52:30,000 What? No, he's on the mainland. 765 00:52:30,083 --> 00:52:31,375 [Riley] Okay, maybe he came back, 766 00:52:31,458 --> 00:52:34,000 and he wandered out, having one of those spells. 767 00:52:34,083 --> 00:52:36,458 -I'm not seeing anything. -I don't see him. 768 00:52:36,541 --> 00:52:39,583 No, I swear, it's the hat, the coat. I know the outfit, and it's him. 769 00:52:39,666 --> 00:52:41,208 No, he's on the mainland. 770 00:52:42,458 --> 00:52:43,500 It's Pruitt! 771 00:52:43,583 --> 00:52:46,125 Honey, my eyes aren't what they used to be, so I can't… 772 00:52:54,875 --> 00:52:55,875 [Riley] Father Pruitt! 773 00:52:57,833 --> 00:52:59,041 Monsignor! 774 00:53:02,750 --> 00:53:05,541 Monsignor! Monsignor! 775 00:53:14,791 --> 00:53:15,791 Father! 776 00:53:45,375 --> 00:53:46,791 [birds screeching] 777 00:53:57,041 --> 00:53:58,250 [Annie] The phones are still down. 778 00:53:59,750 --> 00:54:03,041 We should just walk to the rectory and settle this. 779 00:54:03,125 --> 00:54:04,791 Make sure he's okay. 780 00:54:04,875 --> 00:54:07,041 I have to check on the boat anyway. 781 00:54:07,125 --> 00:54:08,708 [screeching continues] 782 00:54:53,541 --> 00:54:55,958 Dad. What is that? 783 00:55:07,416 --> 00:55:09,416 [sinister music playing] 784 00:55:41,666 --> 00:55:43,041 [screeching] 785 00:55:52,541 --> 00:55:54,541 -[waves crashing] -[seagulls screeching]

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1 00:00:06,250 --> 00:00:09,833 BİR NETFLIX DİZİSİ 2 00:00:17,375 --> 00:00:22,000 II. KİTAP: MEZMURLAR 3 00:00:40,375 --> 00:00:41,291 Hey, Warren. 4 00:00:42,125 --> 00:00:43,041 Gelsene. 5 00:00:45,791 --> 00:00:47,833 Selam. Başkan'la Bayan Keane'e söyle, 6 00:00:47,916 --> 00:00:50,458 eldiven ve galoş olmadan kıyıya inmesinler. 7 00:00:50,541 --> 00:00:52,041 -Birazdan oradayım. -Peki. 8 00:00:54,000 --> 00:00:58,833 Başkanım, Şerif diyor ki, kıyıya eldivensiz ve… 9 00:00:58,916 --> 00:01:01,291 -Ne diyor? Ne olmuş? -Bana ver… 10 00:01:01,375 --> 00:01:03,166 Hanımları götürsene Warren. 11 00:01:03,250 --> 00:01:05,375 Wade, bunu konuşmalıyız. 12 00:01:05,458 --> 00:01:06,708 -Birazdan. -Biz… 13 00:01:07,375 --> 00:01:10,916 Gerek yok delikanlı. Kendim yürürüm. Sağ ol. 14 00:01:11,000 --> 00:01:12,500 Fikrini söylersin Bev. 15 00:01:13,166 --> 00:01:14,916 Zaten kim tutar seni. Şerif! 16 00:01:15,750 --> 00:01:16,791 Günaydın. 17 00:01:16,875 --> 00:01:19,833 Dedim ki… Ne olduğu anlaşılana dek yaklaşmasaydın. 18 00:01:19,916 --> 00:01:22,333 Hastalık ya da enfeksiyon olabilir. 19 00:01:22,416 --> 00:01:25,791 Hatırlıyorum da 2002'de koca bir sürü… 20 00:01:26,416 --> 00:01:28,125 Sığırcık. Sığırcıktı. 21 00:01:28,208 --> 00:01:30,666 Yüzlercesi gökten düşüp kumsalı kapladı. 22 00:01:30,750 --> 00:01:32,541 Mahalle meydanını da. 23 00:01:32,625 --> 00:01:35,125 Sebebi bulunamadı. Bir sürü teori vardı. 24 00:01:35,208 --> 00:01:38,833 Şimşek, gürültü, hastalık. Hiç anlayamadık. 25 00:01:38,916 --> 00:01:41,083 Batı kıyısına da yunuslar vurmuştu. 26 00:01:41,166 --> 00:01:43,666 Bir düzineden fazla. Dişleri eksikti. 27 00:01:43,750 --> 00:01:46,208 Şimdi yine oluyor. Acaba sebebi ne? 28 00:01:47,666 --> 00:01:50,500 -Kuzey Bölgesi'nden sürüklenmişlerdir. -Herhâlde. 29 00:01:51,166 --> 00:01:52,375 Boğulmuşlar mı? 30 00:01:53,041 --> 00:01:54,541 Kuzey Bölgesi'nde 31 00:01:54,625 --> 00:01:58,125 20 küsur yıldır su baskını olmadı ama o fırtına acayipti. 32 00:01:58,208 --> 00:01:59,333 Olabilir. 33 00:01:59,416 --> 00:02:02,791 Ama hastalık veya enfeksiyon mu dedin? Öyle mi dersin? 34 00:02:03,625 --> 00:02:05,791 Petrol falan yok ama, değil mi? 35 00:02:06,791 --> 00:02:08,166 İşte, bak. 36 00:02:09,166 --> 00:02:10,750 -Fazla yaklaşma. -Olur. 37 00:02:10,833 --> 00:02:13,250 Parazit bulaşmasın. İşte. 38 00:02:16,750 --> 00:02:18,750 Yok, petrol yok. 39 00:02:19,250 --> 00:02:21,416 Bu da bir şeydir. Görmeliydin… 40 00:02:21,500 --> 00:02:25,625 Denize petrol karışınca kıyıya korkunç şeyler vurdu. 41 00:02:26,166 --> 00:02:28,875 Ama görürdün. Kokardı da. Yani bu… 42 00:02:29,833 --> 00:02:32,458 Bu da bir şey, değil mi? Rahatlatıcı bir şey. 43 00:02:32,541 --> 00:02:35,000 Boynu kırılmış. Biraz paralanmış. 44 00:02:35,083 --> 00:02:37,250 Evet, martılar sabahtan beri yiyor. 45 00:02:37,333 --> 00:02:38,958 Doğru ama mesele de bu ya. 46 00:02:39,458 --> 00:02:43,000 Hiç kan yok. Hiçbir yerde. Ne kedilerde ne kumsalda. 47 00:02:43,083 --> 00:02:46,208 Ne olduysa suya girmelerinden önce veya suda olmuş. 48 00:02:46,291 --> 00:02:48,041 Evet. Bir yırtıcı, ha? 49 00:02:49,041 --> 00:02:52,375 Balık kartalı olabilir mi? Ya da bir tür köpek balığı? 50 00:02:52,458 --> 00:02:54,833 Bir sürü yavru köpek balığı. Bilmem ki. 51 00:02:54,916 --> 00:02:57,333 Şeyden önce onlardan vardı… 52 00:02:57,416 --> 00:03:00,166 Çok değillerdi ama belki onlardır. 53 00:03:00,250 --> 00:03:01,625 Belki geri geliyorlardır. 54 00:03:01,708 --> 00:03:03,541 İllaki kötü bir şey olmayabilir 55 00:03:03,625 --> 00:03:06,958 çünkü köpek balığı olan yerde balık da vardır, değil mi? 56 00:03:07,041 --> 00:03:09,291 Buralarda yeniyim ya… 57 00:03:09,375 --> 00:03:11,875 Adanızdaki yaban hayatını pek tanımıyorum. 58 00:03:11,958 --> 00:03:14,166 "Adanız" mı? Burası senin de adan Şerif. 59 00:03:14,250 --> 00:03:17,250 Bizim adamız. Ed Flynn'e de öyle dedim. 60 00:03:17,333 --> 00:03:19,833 -Öyle mi? O burada mı? -Sabahtan beri. 61 00:03:19,916 --> 00:03:22,041 Balık kartalları bir iki tane avlarmış 62 00:03:22,125 --> 00:03:23,958 ama bu kadarı az ihtimal diyor. 63 00:03:24,041 --> 00:03:26,333 Belki kediler kavga etmişlerdir. 64 00:03:26,416 --> 00:03:28,750 Kuzey Bölgesi Sineklerin Tanrısı'ndaki gibi. 65 00:03:28,833 --> 00:03:30,375 Fırtınadan ürkmüşlerdir. 66 00:03:30,458 --> 00:03:31,833 -Bir tane vardı. -Ne bu? 67 00:03:31,916 --> 00:03:34,875 -Gerekirse yollayacak. -Gerekecek. Sayı söyledin mi? 68 00:03:34,958 --> 00:03:36,291 Bilmiyordum ki. 69 00:03:36,375 --> 00:03:39,958 Kumsalda birkaç kedi var sanıyor. Yüzlerce, de. Hatta var ya… 70 00:03:40,041 --> 00:03:41,958 -Söyle gelsin. -Ne oluyor şimdi? 71 00:03:42,041 --> 00:03:43,791 Hastalık ihtimaline karşı yakalım. 72 00:03:43,875 --> 00:03:45,750 Yığın yapıp yakalım. Kimse yaklaşmasın 73 00:03:45,833 --> 00:03:47,250 çünkü şimdi kötü kokuyorsa… 74 00:03:47,333 --> 00:03:49,208 -Dur biraz. -Daha da getireyim. 75 00:03:49,291 --> 00:03:50,583 Söyle, buraya gelsin! 76 00:03:50,666 --> 00:03:52,708 İnsanlar bundan pek hoşlanmaz. 77 00:03:52,791 --> 00:03:55,625 Abartılı olur. Daha önce de garip şeyler oldu. 78 00:03:55,708 --> 00:03:59,125 Bak, halkın güvenliği için. Sahiden. Sana teşekkür ederler. 79 00:03:59,208 --> 00:04:01,541 Başkanları halk sağlığını riske atmamış olur. 80 00:04:05,500 --> 00:04:09,500 Oğlun iyi bir çocuk. Sana yardım ediyor. 81 00:04:10,125 --> 00:04:13,333 Evet, o… Olayların içinde olmak istiyor. 82 00:04:13,416 --> 00:04:15,375 Yerinde bir içgüdü. Böyle bir yerde 83 00:04:15,458 --> 00:04:18,583 kendini soyutlamaya çalışmak sakıncalı… 84 00:04:20,250 --> 00:04:23,583 Yakında ikinizi de kilisede görmek isteriz. 85 00:04:23,666 --> 00:04:25,333 Din değiştirin diye değil. Yok. 86 00:04:25,416 --> 00:04:27,500 Sizin inancınız ayrı, Tanrı korusun. 87 00:04:27,583 --> 00:04:30,791 Saygı duyarım. Ayrıca biliyorum ki feribota atlayıp 88 00:04:30,875 --> 00:04:33,750 pazar günleri ana karadaki camiye gidiyorsun ama… 89 00:04:33,833 --> 00:04:34,958 Cuma günleri. 90 00:04:35,041 --> 00:04:37,625 Cuma mı? Demek pazarları buradasın, ne âlâ. 91 00:04:37,708 --> 00:04:39,916 Sen de kiliseye uğrasan ileride 92 00:04:40,000 --> 00:04:41,375 bunun getirisi olur. 93 00:04:41,458 --> 00:04:44,125 Bir şey okursun, duyuru yaparsın, küçük şeyler. 94 00:04:44,208 --> 00:04:46,125 Üye olman falan gerekmez, 95 00:04:46,208 --> 00:04:48,375 halk buraya ait olduğunu görsün. 96 00:04:48,458 --> 00:04:50,125 Anlatabiliyor muyum Şerif? 97 00:04:50,208 --> 00:04:51,541 Evet, bence yakalım! 98 00:04:52,708 --> 00:04:55,125 -Mantıklı. İşi sağlama alalım. -Değil mi? 99 00:04:55,208 --> 00:04:57,625 Benzin alalım, çukur kazıp biraz kum dökelim. 100 00:04:57,708 --> 00:04:58,958 Günaydın Ed. 101 00:04:59,041 --> 00:05:02,250 Riley. Çok acayip, hiç böyle şey gördün mü? 102 00:05:02,333 --> 00:05:05,750 Doğal sebepler. Petrolden değil, doğal sebeplerden. 103 00:05:05,833 --> 00:05:07,791 Hatırlıyorum da, 2002'de 104 00:05:07,875 --> 00:05:10,583 gökten koca bir sürü sığırcık düşmüştü. 105 00:05:10,666 --> 00:05:12,041 Evet, esaslı fırtınaydı. 106 00:05:12,833 --> 00:05:16,041 Riley dışarı çıktı ama kumsalda kedi falan görmemiş. 107 00:05:16,125 --> 00:05:18,875 -Fırtınada dışarıda mıydın? -Neden ki? 108 00:05:18,958 --> 00:05:21,500 Ben… Bir şey gördüğümü sandım. 109 00:05:21,583 --> 00:05:23,625 Evet. Monsenyör Pruitt'i. 110 00:05:23,708 --> 00:05:25,750 -Ne? -Ne gördüğümü bilmiyorum. 111 00:05:25,833 --> 00:05:28,291 -Dün gece emindin. -Bilmiyorum işte. 112 00:05:28,375 --> 00:05:31,041 -O ana karada. -Evet, biliyorum. 113 00:05:31,125 --> 00:05:34,833 Belki başkasını görmüşsündür. Biri kedilere bir şey mi yapıyordu? 114 00:05:34,916 --> 00:05:37,291 Yok, kedi görmedim. Yani öyle sanıyorum. 115 00:05:37,375 --> 00:05:39,041 Dalgalara bakmıyordum. 116 00:05:40,125 --> 00:05:43,166 Nasılsın Riley? Geri dönmek nasıl geldi? 117 00:05:44,125 --> 00:05:46,333 Her hafta sana dua ettik. İnan ki. 118 00:05:46,416 --> 00:05:49,333 Evet. Teşekkürler. İdare ediyorum. 119 00:05:51,291 --> 00:05:52,208 Günaydın! 120 00:05:53,625 --> 00:05:55,708 Sana da günaydın. Tanrım. 121 00:05:55,791 --> 00:05:58,333 Evet. Ben olsam fazla yaklaşmam. 122 00:05:58,416 --> 00:06:01,833 Kediler ve hamileler hakkında bir şey okumuştum. 123 00:06:02,333 --> 00:06:04,916 -Hamile kadınlar. -Evet. Genelde kadın olur. 124 00:06:05,625 --> 00:06:08,041 Tokso bir şey. Kedi bokundaki bir parazit 125 00:06:08,125 --> 00:06:09,458 hamilelere zararlıymış. 126 00:06:09,541 --> 00:06:12,916 Toksoplazmoz. Aslında hurafe. 127 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:14,791 Bahçeyle uğraşırken de oluyor. 128 00:06:14,875 --> 00:06:17,958 Neyse… Çok kedi var. Tedbirli olmak lazım. 129 00:06:18,041 --> 00:06:21,333 Ne oldu? Kuzey Bölgesi'ndeki tüm kediler burada sanki. 130 00:06:21,416 --> 00:06:23,083 Evet. Hepsini yakacaklar. 131 00:06:26,166 --> 00:06:30,958 Dün gece için kusura bakma. Özür dilemek istiyordum. 132 00:06:31,041 --> 00:06:32,000 Niye ki? 133 00:06:32,083 --> 00:06:35,041 Sana öyle içimi döktüğüm için. Bir daha olmaz. 134 00:06:35,125 --> 00:06:38,416 Sorun yok. Bak, işe yaramış. Kendine bir amaç bulmuşsun. 135 00:06:38,500 --> 00:06:41,541 -Evet, kedi imha etmek. -Bir yerden başlamak lazım. 136 00:06:42,208 --> 00:06:45,291 Çılgın bir geceydi. Yemin ederim gördüm… 137 00:06:46,541 --> 00:06:49,541 Monsenyör Pruitt hep palto ve şapka giyer ya? 138 00:06:49,625 --> 00:06:50,791 Evet, sanırım öyle. 139 00:06:50,875 --> 00:06:52,375 Dün gece gördüm… 140 00:06:55,250 --> 00:06:58,208 Boş ver. Ana karada o. Ben… Çok saçma. 141 00:07:03,250 --> 00:07:08,083 Kedileri yakmaya başlasam iyi olacak. Feribotu kaçırmayayım. 142 00:07:09,125 --> 00:07:11,916 -Daha iyi bir yer mi buldun? -Yok, toplantı var. 143 00:07:12,000 --> 00:07:14,375 -İyi bir şey mi? -Hayır, şey… 144 00:07:16,083 --> 00:07:17,458 Kedilerden uzak dur. 145 00:07:17,541 --> 00:07:20,666 Tokso-kedi-moz falan olmanı istemem. 146 00:07:20,750 --> 00:07:22,000 Bana akıl verme. 147 00:07:51,625 --> 00:07:55,208 Bu sabahki ilahimiz kırmızı kitaptaki 400 numara. 148 00:07:55,291 --> 00:07:57,541 "Kutsal, kutsal, kutsal." Lütfen kalkın. 149 00:08:08,708 --> 00:08:13,916 Kutsal, kutsal, kutsal 150 00:08:14,000 --> 00:08:18,791 Rab Tanrı heybetli 151 00:08:19,291 --> 00:08:23,750 Sabahları erkenden 152 00:08:23,833 --> 00:08:28,458 Sana yükselir ilahi 153 00:08:29,791 --> 00:08:34,500 Kutsal, kutsal, kutsal 154 00:08:35,166 --> 00:08:39,791 Güçlü ve şefkatli 155 00:08:40,583 --> 00:08:45,541 İlahi üçlü 156 00:08:45,625 --> 00:08:49,625 Kutsal Üçlü 157 00:08:50,958 --> 00:08:52,083 TOPLANTI HERKESE AÇIK! 158 00:09:01,333 --> 00:09:05,250 "Mesih İsa ele verilip kendi iradesiyle ölüme doğru yürüdüğü zaman, 159 00:09:05,333 --> 00:09:08,250 ekmeği aldı ve sana şükretti. 160 00:09:08,333 --> 00:09:11,958 Ekmeği böldü, onu havarilerine vererek şöyle dedi…" 161 00:09:12,041 --> 00:09:13,458 KENDİNE KARŞI DÜRÜST OL - IV 162 00:09:19,875 --> 00:09:23,250 Güzel bir haftaydı. Hepinize tebrikler. Bunu hak ettiniz. 163 00:09:42,583 --> 00:09:44,416 -İsa'nın Bedeni Leeza. -Âmin. 164 00:09:44,958 --> 00:09:46,625 İsa'nın Bedeni. 165 00:09:49,375 --> 00:09:51,125 -İsa'nın Kanı. -Âmin. 166 00:10:15,583 --> 00:10:17,166 Buradan önce neredeydiniz? 167 00:10:19,083 --> 00:10:22,916 Herkes soruyor. Cemaatte dedikodu bol. 168 00:10:23,500 --> 00:10:24,500 Hem de çok bol. 169 00:10:24,583 --> 00:10:27,291 Sorsalar seve seve anlatırım. Ama… 170 00:10:27,375 --> 00:10:29,708 Geldiğimiz yer meselesi… 171 00:10:29,791 --> 00:10:31,208 Önemli tabii. 172 00:10:31,291 --> 00:10:33,375 Ama gideceğimiz yer kadar önemli değil. 173 00:10:33,875 --> 00:10:36,250 Şimdiki yerimden önce bulunduğum her yer 174 00:10:36,333 --> 00:10:38,875 beni buraya getirdi. 175 00:10:38,958 --> 00:10:42,125 O sırada bilmiyor olsam bile. Fark etmemiş olsam bile. 176 00:10:42,791 --> 00:10:44,375 Bir nevi senin gibi. 177 00:10:45,625 --> 00:10:47,250 Ben hep burada yaşadım. 178 00:10:47,333 --> 00:10:50,625 Tabii ama senin için de bir öncesi vardı. 179 00:10:51,250 --> 00:10:53,250 Seni buraya yönlendirdi. O ne? 180 00:10:53,333 --> 00:10:56,583 Bilsek de bilmesek de bizi gittiğimiz yere yönlendiren ne? 181 00:10:57,791 --> 00:10:58,750 Tanrı. 182 00:10:59,416 --> 00:11:02,583 Beni nasıl buraya yönlendirdiyse seni de yönlendirdi. 183 00:11:10,750 --> 00:11:11,583 Günaydın! 184 00:11:15,500 --> 00:11:16,833 Evet. Gel oğlum. 185 00:11:19,958 --> 00:11:20,833 İyi misin? 186 00:11:23,541 --> 00:11:24,500 Leeza? 187 00:11:25,333 --> 00:11:26,333 İyiyim. 188 00:11:27,416 --> 00:11:28,291 Yok bir şey. 189 00:11:34,291 --> 00:11:40,833 OKUL PROGRAMI 190 00:12:01,583 --> 00:12:02,583 İyi misin Bev? 191 00:12:03,625 --> 00:12:04,583 Erin. 192 00:12:06,250 --> 00:12:09,375 -Afallattın beni. Ne lazımdı? -Cam silme deterjanı. 193 00:12:09,458 --> 00:12:14,000 İçine biraz su eklemeyi denedin mi? Bu şekilde dibini de kullanabilirsin. 194 00:12:14,083 --> 00:12:17,375 Şişeyi attım bile. Ama gelecek sefere denerim. 195 00:12:17,458 --> 00:12:21,875 Annen boş şişeleri tekrar aldığı yere koyardı. 196 00:12:22,541 --> 00:12:24,250 İşte bu dolaba. 197 00:12:24,333 --> 00:12:27,291 Bazen yarısının içinde sudan başka bir şey olmazdı. 198 00:12:27,375 --> 00:12:28,791 Ziyana çok karşıydı. 199 00:12:29,541 --> 00:12:33,625 Onları ben atardım. Derdim ki, "Peggy. Peggy Greene, 200 00:12:33,708 --> 00:12:36,458 bu gidişle bizi şişelerin altına gömeceksin." 201 00:12:37,500 --> 00:12:40,416 Sense boşalanı atmışsın. 202 00:12:41,875 --> 00:12:43,625 Çok ilginç, değil mi? 203 00:12:45,708 --> 00:12:49,875 Gerçekten ilginç çünkü evde ona dolu şişe dayandıramazdık. 204 00:12:54,416 --> 00:12:55,375 Al bakalım. 205 00:12:59,833 --> 00:13:02,333 -O ne için? -Fareler. 206 00:13:03,333 --> 00:13:05,458 Tanker kazasından sonra sorun oldu. 207 00:13:06,666 --> 00:13:08,791 Her yanı çekirge sürüsü gibi fare bastı. 208 00:13:08,875 --> 00:13:11,708 Sanırım her zamanki besin kaynakları kirlenmişti. 209 00:13:11,791 --> 00:13:13,083 Marinada balık kalmayınca 210 00:13:13,166 --> 00:13:15,291 adadakilere dadandılar. 211 00:13:15,375 --> 00:13:20,708 Bu çok işe yarıyor. Ama kedilere olanlar… 212 00:13:21,708 --> 00:13:24,666 Bunun sorumlusu vahşi hayvanlarsa, 213 00:13:24,750 --> 00:13:27,333 adadaki bir tür yırtıcı 214 00:13:27,416 --> 00:13:30,541 o zavallı kediciklere bunu yaptıysa… Bu çok… 215 00:13:31,541 --> 00:13:35,125 Evin dışına biraz bundan serpmeyi düşünüyorum. Tedbir olarak. 216 00:13:36,916 --> 00:13:39,625 İstersen senin evine de yaparım. 217 00:13:39,708 --> 00:13:41,250 Hayır, ben hallederim. 218 00:13:41,916 --> 00:13:43,708 Elbette hayatım. 219 00:13:57,125 --> 00:13:58,166 Sarah. 220 00:13:58,250 --> 00:14:00,250 Evet. Sarah Gunning. 221 00:14:01,416 --> 00:14:04,125 Siz de… Sizi duymuştum Peder. 222 00:14:04,208 --> 00:14:05,458 Paul. Hill. 223 00:14:07,458 --> 00:14:08,666 Buyurun? 224 00:14:08,750 --> 00:14:11,750 Monsenyör'ün görevini devraldığımı duymuşsunuzdur. 225 00:14:12,375 --> 00:14:13,416 Duydum. 226 00:14:13,500 --> 00:14:16,291 Cemaatten söz ederken bana bir şey söyledi. 227 00:14:16,375 --> 00:14:19,375 Anneniz… Sağlığı bozulmadan önce… 228 00:14:19,458 --> 00:14:25,041 Hiç ayin kaçırmazmış. Günlük ayinleri bile. Doğru mu bu? 229 00:14:25,750 --> 00:14:26,875 Annem… 230 00:14:27,708 --> 00:14:29,583 Çok dindardı. 231 00:14:30,958 --> 00:14:32,791 Evet, diyeceğim şu… 232 00:14:33,833 --> 00:14:35,625 Anne, ziyaretçin var. 233 00:14:38,833 --> 00:14:40,708 -John? -Hayır. 234 00:14:41,208 --> 00:14:44,208 Sizi Monsenyör Pruitt sandı. Kusura bakmayın, karıştırıyor. 235 00:14:44,291 --> 00:14:46,208 Bu kıyafetle bu çok mümkün. 236 00:14:47,833 --> 00:14:49,333 Anne, bu Peder Paul. 237 00:14:49,416 --> 00:14:53,500 Monsenyör Pruitt bir süre yok, onun yerine… 238 00:14:54,250 --> 00:14:57,541 Ayin yapmaya geldim küçük hanım. 239 00:15:14,791 --> 00:15:17,416 Bir şey lazım olursa ben muayenehanemdeyim. 240 00:15:17,500 --> 00:15:20,125 Kriz geçirmeye başlarsa haber verin. 241 00:15:20,208 --> 00:15:21,083 Elbette. 242 00:15:38,666 --> 00:15:41,916 "Rabb'imiz İsa Mesih'in lütfu, Tanrı'nın sevgisi 243 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:44,583 ve Kutsal Ruh'un kudreti sizinle olsun." 244 00:16:02,083 --> 00:16:03,541 İsa'nın bedeni, Millie. 245 00:16:10,541 --> 00:16:11,791 İsa'nın kanı. 246 00:16:39,125 --> 00:16:41,833 Merhaba demeden geçecek miydin? 247 00:16:42,833 --> 00:16:45,291 Rahatsız etmek istemedim. 248 00:16:46,083 --> 00:16:47,458 Çok düşüncelisin. 249 00:16:48,791 --> 00:16:51,583 -Çay ister misin? -İstemem, geri dönüyordum. 250 00:16:52,583 --> 00:16:53,750 Günün nasıl geçti? 251 00:16:57,541 --> 00:17:00,708 Vay. Biri bana bunu sormayalı amma çok oldu. 252 00:17:00,791 --> 00:17:02,291 Hapishanede kimse sormaz mı? 253 00:17:03,416 --> 00:17:06,333 Hayır, orada sormaya gerek yok. Her gün aynı. 254 00:17:09,083 --> 00:17:10,333 Senin günün nasıldı? 255 00:17:11,833 --> 00:17:13,583 Açıkçası sıkıcıydı. 256 00:17:14,833 --> 00:17:16,833 Günlük işlerimi sayayım. Bedavaya. 257 00:17:16,916 --> 00:17:20,166 Bedava mı? Bu iyi çünkü meteliksizim. 258 00:17:20,875 --> 00:17:21,833 Sunum mu yapacaksın? 259 00:17:22,500 --> 00:17:24,125 Vay, sunum mu istiyorsun? 260 00:17:25,333 --> 00:17:26,625 Çok sunum dinledim. 261 00:17:26,708 --> 00:17:28,958 Tabii, kısa süre Shark Tank'teydin ya. 262 00:17:29,041 --> 00:17:31,500 Evet, Shark Tank Silikon Vadisi'nde. 263 00:17:32,083 --> 00:17:33,583 Bana Bay Harika de. 264 00:17:34,708 --> 00:17:35,875 Pekâlâ köpek balıkları. 265 00:17:37,500 --> 00:17:40,583 Uyanıp ana karada AA toplantısına gittiğinde 266 00:17:40,666 --> 00:17:42,708 "Daha iyisi olmalı" dedin mi hiç? 267 00:17:42,791 --> 00:17:43,708 Dinliyorum. 268 00:17:43,791 --> 00:17:47,583 Patentli Erin rutinimiz 40 dakikalık sabah bulantısıyla başlıyor. 269 00:17:47,666 --> 00:17:48,541 Devam et. 270 00:17:48,625 --> 00:17:51,833 Sonra hepsi de seni salak sanan bir sınıf dolusu ergenlesin. 271 00:17:51,916 --> 00:17:55,250 Yarısı sabahları çalıştığı için balıkçı teknesi kokuyor. 272 00:17:55,333 --> 00:17:56,375 Güzel. 273 00:17:56,458 --> 00:17:58,958 Sonra belediye meclisinde Bev Keane'den 274 00:17:59,041 --> 00:18:01,416 üstü kapalı edep dersi alıyorsun. 275 00:18:02,166 --> 00:18:04,166 Korkunç anneni gerçekten özlüyor. 276 00:18:04,250 --> 00:18:07,291 Sırada bir saatlik akşam bulantısı var. 277 00:18:07,375 --> 00:18:10,500 Akşam bulantısı, sabah bulantısından daha mı kötü? 278 00:18:10,583 --> 00:18:12,208 Büyük ölçüde. 279 00:18:12,291 --> 00:18:14,166 O zaman ben almayayım. 280 00:18:14,250 --> 00:18:15,333 Çok yazık. 281 00:18:20,250 --> 00:18:22,791 Gitmem lazım. Bizimkileri bekletmeyeyim. 282 00:18:24,666 --> 00:18:26,250 Bazı şeyler değişmiyor. 283 00:18:29,833 --> 00:18:34,000 Yatak odası penceremden sıvışan 15 yaşındaki Riley'yi hatırlıyorum. 284 00:18:34,750 --> 00:18:35,958 Eve koşardı. 285 00:18:39,833 --> 00:18:41,458 Ailesini üzmek istemezdi. 286 00:18:42,833 --> 00:18:43,791 İyi geceler Erin. 287 00:18:46,458 --> 00:18:47,333 Sana da. 288 00:19:35,333 --> 00:19:36,208 Merhaba canım. 289 00:19:38,708 --> 00:19:39,750 Günün nasıldı? 290 00:20:23,416 --> 00:20:24,500 Senin günün nasıldı? 291 00:22:13,625 --> 00:22:14,458 Tamam. 292 00:22:16,208 --> 00:22:17,125 Hazır mısınız? 293 00:22:31,125 --> 00:22:34,250 İşte geldiler. Dolly, Wade. 294 00:22:35,166 --> 00:22:36,750 Bugün daha kalabalık. 295 00:22:37,458 --> 00:22:38,375 Paskalya'yı bekle. 296 00:22:38,958 --> 00:22:42,416 Paskalya ve Noel olmasa bazıları hiç gelmez. 297 00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:43,750 Bizim gibi değiller. 298 00:22:43,833 --> 00:22:46,583 Bugün hepinizi burada görmek ne güzel. 299 00:22:47,916 --> 00:22:50,750 Ama neden her pazar böyle olmuyor? 300 00:22:51,791 --> 00:22:53,958 Noel, Paskalya, bunu anlıyorum. 301 00:22:54,041 --> 00:22:59,541 Ama Büyük Perhiz'in başlangıcında da kilise kalabalıklaşıyor. 302 00:23:00,583 --> 00:23:03,166 Neden böyle? Bugünün özelliği ne? 303 00:23:04,291 --> 00:23:08,583 Kül Çarşambası, Perhiz'in başlangıcı. Herkesin hoşuna gidecek şey değil. 304 00:23:08,666 --> 00:23:12,375 Tövbenin, günahları telafi etmenin başladığı zaman. 305 00:23:13,416 --> 00:23:14,625 Günah. 306 00:23:15,250 --> 00:23:19,666 İçimize karışan bu karanlık, bu kapkara hâl. 307 00:23:20,625 --> 00:23:24,875 Bugün alnımızda taşıyacağımız kara iz. 308 00:23:24,958 --> 00:23:26,083 Ondan bir leke. 309 00:23:26,833 --> 00:23:33,375 Ölümün, külün, tövbe edilen günahın lekesi. 310 00:23:34,250 --> 00:23:38,500 Çünkü tüm bunlar sonunda Paskalya'ya varıyor. 311 00:23:39,125 --> 00:23:43,875 Yeniden doğuş, diriliş, ebedî hayat. Yeniden doğan yaşam. 312 00:23:45,958 --> 00:23:49,791 Karanlıktan bile sevgi yeniden yükselir. 313 00:23:49,875 --> 00:23:53,041 Günahtan bile. Ve bu ada yeniden yükselecek. 314 00:23:53,125 --> 00:23:57,708 Felaketten bile yeniden doğuş, yenilenme, ebedî hayat fışkıracak. 315 00:23:57,791 --> 00:23:59,041 İsa sizi görüyor. 316 00:24:00,000 --> 00:24:02,958 Hepinizi, en iyi yanınızı ve hakikatinizi görüyor. 317 00:24:03,041 --> 00:24:05,083 Çünkü unutmayın, o kimi aradı? 318 00:24:05,166 --> 00:24:08,750 Kilisesini inşa etmek için kime yöneldi? 319 00:24:08,833 --> 00:24:10,166 Havarilerine. 320 00:24:10,833 --> 00:24:14,166 İsa'nın ilk müritleri balıkçılardı. 321 00:24:14,250 --> 00:24:16,750 İlk mucizelerinden biri, değil mi? 322 00:24:16,833 --> 00:24:19,041 Ağlar boş, balıkçılar çaresiz. 323 00:24:19,125 --> 00:24:23,708 İsa diyor ki, "Açık denize çıkın ve ağlarınızı atın." 324 00:24:23,791 --> 00:24:28,208 Ağları çektiklerinde bir de bakıyorlar ki balık dolu. 325 00:24:28,291 --> 00:24:31,291 O sizi görüyor. Evet, sizi görüyor kardeşlerim 326 00:24:31,375 --> 00:24:36,041 ve bu adayı yeniden diriltecek, ağlarınızı yeniden dolduracak. 327 00:24:36,125 --> 00:24:39,000 Bugün burada olmanız harika ama gelmeye devam edin. 328 00:24:39,083 --> 00:24:42,916 Bu kapılar daima açık, girişler daima açık. 329 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:45,458 Siz gelin yeter. Tanrı gerisini halleder. 330 00:24:45,541 --> 00:24:47,666 60. Mezmur'da dendiği gibi, 331 00:24:47,750 --> 00:24:51,708 "Bizi reddettin, parladın bize karşı, ey Tanrı. 332 00:24:51,791 --> 00:24:54,958 Öfkelendin. Eski hâlimize döndür bizi." 333 00:24:55,041 --> 00:24:58,041 Mezmurlar nedir, biliyor musunuz? Şarkılardır. 334 00:24:58,125 --> 00:25:01,250 Yunanca psalmoi, "müzik" anlamına gelir. 335 00:25:01,333 --> 00:25:03,833 Dua şarkıları. Övgü şarkıları. 336 00:25:03,916 --> 00:25:06,583 Biz buyuz. Öyle olmalıyız. 337 00:25:06,666 --> 00:25:09,000 İnançlı olmak budur, 338 00:25:09,083 --> 00:25:12,208 karanlıkta, en kötü anda, 339 00:25:12,291 --> 00:25:16,416 ışığın ve umudun yokluğunda şarkı söyleriz. 340 00:25:17,500 --> 00:25:22,666 "Eski hâlimize getir bizi" diye yakarırız göklere. Tanrı da yapar dostlarım. Yapar. 341 00:25:22,750 --> 00:25:26,166 Size zorluklar yaşatan eldir o, 342 00:25:26,250 --> 00:25:29,375 aynı el, sizi tamamlar ve bütün kılar. 343 00:25:36,333 --> 00:25:38,541 Topraktan yaratıldın, yine toprağa döneceksin. 344 00:25:38,625 --> 00:25:39,625 Topraktan yaratıldın… 345 00:25:39,708 --> 00:25:40,708 Topraktan yaratıldın. 346 00:25:40,791 --> 00:25:42,541 Yine toprağa döneceksin. 347 00:25:42,625 --> 00:25:46,541 Ben, topraktan yaratıldın ve yine toprağa döneceksin. 348 00:25:46,625 --> 00:25:49,708 Fiona, topraktan yaratıldın ve yine toprağa döneceksin. 349 00:25:50,416 --> 00:25:53,916 Erin, topraktan yaratıldın ve yine toprağa döneceksin. 350 00:25:56,666 --> 00:25:59,875 Tom, topraktan yaratıldın ve yine… 351 00:25:59,958 --> 00:26:01,958 Riley, gel. 352 00:26:02,041 --> 00:26:03,833 Anne, sorun değil. Sen git. 353 00:26:03,916 --> 00:26:06,125 Hayır hayatım. Bu kutsal ekmek değil. 354 00:26:06,208 --> 00:26:08,375 Bir kutsama. Lütfen. 355 00:26:08,458 --> 00:26:12,583 Edward, topraktan yaratıldın ve yine toprağa döneceksin. 356 00:26:16,750 --> 00:26:19,500 Riley, topraktan yaratıldın… 357 00:26:23,583 --> 00:26:25,416 …ve yine toprağa döneceksin. 358 00:26:28,208 --> 00:26:29,250 Tanrı seni kutsasın. 359 00:26:31,375 --> 00:26:32,375 Âmin. 360 00:26:37,166 --> 00:26:41,333 Peder Paul, topraktan yaratıldın ve yine toprağa döneceksin. 361 00:26:43,250 --> 00:26:46,791 GÜVEÇ TENCERESİ'Nİ BİRLİKTE DOLDURALIM 362 00:27:18,583 --> 00:27:19,708 Olayı biliyorsun. 363 00:27:19,791 --> 00:27:21,958 Balık artınca devlet desteği azalır. 364 00:27:22,041 --> 00:27:24,333 -Artış az. -Başladığımız yere döndük. 365 00:27:24,416 --> 00:27:26,833 -%3. %2 bile olur. -Yapamam. Keşke olsa. 366 00:27:36,666 --> 00:27:38,458 Büyük şenlik olurdu. 367 00:27:38,541 --> 00:27:41,708 Karşılaştıramazsın, ilk kez katılıyorsun… 368 00:27:41,791 --> 00:27:44,708 Eskiden sadece bahar festivaliydi, 369 00:27:44,791 --> 00:27:46,541 sonra kilise devreye girdi 370 00:27:46,625 --> 00:27:50,250 ve "Güveç Tenceresi'ni Birlikte Dolduralım" dedik. 371 00:27:50,333 --> 00:27:52,833 Önemli bir olay hâline getirmeye çalıştık. 372 00:27:53,541 --> 00:27:56,208 Burada olmaktan mutluyuz. Değil mi? 373 00:27:56,916 --> 00:27:58,083 Öyle. 374 00:27:59,083 --> 00:28:01,250 -Ben Warren'la takılacağım. -İyi eğlenceler. 375 00:28:03,583 --> 00:28:04,875 Geldiğine memnun musun? 376 00:28:04,958 --> 00:28:06,583 Evet. İkinci randevum. 377 00:28:08,291 --> 00:28:10,041 Tanker kazasından sonra 378 00:28:10,125 --> 00:28:13,291 haberlerde gördüğümden beri burayı merak ediyordum. 379 00:28:14,041 --> 00:28:18,500 Ama tam dediğin gibiymiş. Buradan gitmelisin. 380 00:28:19,166 --> 00:28:21,958 Annemi başka bir yere nasıl götürürüm bilmem. 381 00:28:22,041 --> 00:28:23,541 Bence o treni kaçırdık. 382 00:28:24,166 --> 00:28:28,250 Zaten burada olmak istiyor. Bildiği tek yer. 383 00:28:29,041 --> 00:28:31,875 Tanımadığı bir yerde ölsün istemiyorum. 384 00:28:32,958 --> 00:28:34,166 Ama evet. 385 00:28:35,083 --> 00:28:36,916 Ondan sonra buradan gitmeliyim. 386 00:28:37,666 --> 00:28:40,958 Şimdi bakma ama rahibini üzüyoruz sanırım. 387 00:28:43,416 --> 00:28:44,791 Benim değil. 388 00:28:44,875 --> 00:28:48,041 Yeni geldi. Ama sanırım hepsi aynı… 389 00:28:49,666 --> 00:28:53,208 Ben doğmadan önce bile aynı monsenyör buradaymış. 390 00:28:53,875 --> 00:28:57,500 O da bana böyle bakıp dururdu. 391 00:28:57,583 --> 00:29:00,000 Sürekli. Ben çocukken bile. 392 00:29:00,583 --> 00:29:02,625 Kafayı yediğimi hatırlıyorum… 393 00:29:02,708 --> 00:29:05,375 -Biliyor. -Evet. Doğru, biliyordu! 394 00:29:19,208 --> 00:29:20,750 Çok hoş, değil mi? 395 00:29:21,375 --> 00:29:23,333 Evet. Herkes eğleniyor galiba. 396 00:29:24,083 --> 00:29:28,458 Crockett Adası'nda Paskalya Festivali. Özel bir şey. 397 00:29:28,541 --> 00:29:31,958 Paskalya'yı hep sevmişimdir, hatta Noel'e bile yeğlerim. 398 00:29:32,833 --> 00:29:36,666 Yılın en sevdiğim zamanı. Yenilenme, diriliş. 399 00:29:37,375 --> 00:29:39,125 Monsenyör Pruitt nasıl? 400 00:29:39,791 --> 00:29:41,500 Yakında gelecek mi? 401 00:29:41,583 --> 00:29:44,541 Bu etkinlik onun da en sevdiği şeylerden biriydi. 402 00:29:44,625 --> 00:29:46,250 Adını da o vermişti galiba. 403 00:29:46,333 --> 00:29:48,375 Evet, durumu iyi. Daha iyi. 404 00:29:49,375 --> 00:29:50,208 Harika değil. 405 00:29:50,291 --> 00:29:53,958 Ama senden sevgiyle söz etti. Seni iyi hatırlıyor. 406 00:29:55,791 --> 00:29:58,750 Ayağa kalktı mı? 407 00:29:58,833 --> 00:29:59,833 Neden soruyorsun? 408 00:30:01,375 --> 00:30:02,750 Hiç, sadece… 409 00:30:04,833 --> 00:30:07,458 Geçen gece rüzgâr kuvvetlendiği sırada 410 00:30:08,833 --> 00:30:12,666 onu kumsalda gördüğüme yemin edebilirim. Yağmurda yürüyordu. 411 00:30:13,833 --> 00:30:14,916 Az ihtimal. 412 00:30:15,000 --> 00:30:17,791 Evet, herhâlde başkasıydı ama… 413 00:30:18,750 --> 00:30:21,166 O şapka, o palto. Bu… 414 00:30:22,416 --> 00:30:26,458 Çok saçma, biliyorum. Adada değil ki. 415 00:30:28,500 --> 00:30:31,041 O gece onunla telefonda konuştum. 416 00:30:31,125 --> 00:30:35,333 Fırtınadan önceydi. İlk günümü anlattım. 417 00:30:35,416 --> 00:30:38,500 Akşam feribotundan sonraydı. 418 00:30:39,083 --> 00:30:44,625 Odasında sabit telefon var. Yani buraya yüzmediyse… 419 00:30:45,875 --> 00:30:48,916 Aramızda kalsın Riley, bunu söylemek beni üzse de 420 00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:51,583 o adam uzun süre hiçbir yere gidemez. 421 00:30:53,500 --> 00:30:54,666 Buna üzüldüm. 422 00:30:56,583 --> 00:30:57,500 Evet. 423 00:30:58,250 --> 00:30:59,791 Her şeyin bir vakti var. 424 00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:04,541 Vaktinizi ayırdınız, sağ olun Peder 425 00:31:04,625 --> 00:31:07,833 ama başkaları da sizinle sohbet etmek isteyecektir. 426 00:31:07,916 --> 00:31:11,083 Kasabanın paryası olarak sizi tutmayayım. 427 00:31:12,125 --> 00:31:15,541 Parya. Hayır… Ağzımdan aldın. 428 00:31:15,625 --> 00:31:18,416 Aslında sana bir şey diyecektim. Annen bana 429 00:31:18,500 --> 00:31:22,791 AA toplantıları için ana karaya gitmen gerektiğini söyledi. 430 00:31:22,875 --> 00:31:26,291 Şartlı tahliye kurulu için kâğıt mühürletiyormuşsun, öyle mi? 431 00:31:26,375 --> 00:31:27,291 Sağ ol anne. 432 00:31:27,375 --> 00:31:30,833 Burada da toplantı düzenleyebiliriz diye düşündüm. 433 00:31:30,916 --> 00:31:32,833 Ana karaya gidip gelmen gerekmez. 434 00:31:32,916 --> 00:31:36,041 Gün boyu Ada Güzeli'ni beklemekten kurtulursun. 435 00:31:36,625 --> 00:31:38,458 Kültür merkezinde buluşuruz. 436 00:31:38,541 --> 00:31:42,833 Crockett'te AA toplantısı yapılmamasını anlıyorum. 437 00:31:42,916 --> 00:31:44,791 Pek talep olmamış. 438 00:31:44,875 --> 00:31:47,416 Ama ihtiyaç olmadığı söylenemez. 439 00:31:48,166 --> 00:31:51,083 Sıkıntıdan içen çok, hele bugünlerde. 440 00:31:51,166 --> 00:31:52,875 Bir alkoliğimiz var zaten, 441 00:31:52,958 --> 00:31:55,916 sarhoşken bir av kazasında 442 00:31:56,000 --> 00:31:59,041 Leeza'nın felçli kalmasına sebep olmuş. 443 00:31:59,541 --> 00:32:02,291 "Av kazası" denebilir mi bilmem. 444 00:32:03,250 --> 00:32:08,875 Buralarda pek av hayvanı yok. Bence Joe öylesine ateş ediyordu. 445 00:32:09,833 --> 00:32:11,583 Hâlâ da içkiyi bırakmıyor. 446 00:32:11,666 --> 00:32:14,958 Ama Riley, senin gibi içkiyi bırakmış biri 447 00:32:15,041 --> 00:32:17,083 örnek oluşturabilir. 448 00:32:17,166 --> 00:32:19,083 Düşünsene. Ne büyük iyilik olur. 449 00:32:19,166 --> 00:32:21,375 Üstelik ana karaya gitmen gerekmez. 450 00:32:22,166 --> 00:32:23,875 Pardon, gelebilir miyim? 451 00:32:24,708 --> 00:32:26,250 Buyurun Bayan Greene. 452 00:32:26,333 --> 00:32:28,250 Bugün vaazınızdan çok keyif aldım. 453 00:32:29,166 --> 00:32:30,916 Teşekkürler. Güzel bir gün, ha? 454 00:32:32,416 --> 00:32:34,875 Dediğimi düşün. Ben kararına uyarım. 455 00:32:55,875 --> 00:32:58,041 Sana üç tane vermişler. Abartmışlar. 456 00:32:58,125 --> 00:33:00,000 -Haberi duymadılar galiba. -Öyle. 457 00:33:00,583 --> 00:33:03,875 Eskiden "Büyüyünce içki fişi alacağım 458 00:33:03,958 --> 00:33:06,166 ve onlarla şarap içeceğim" derdim. 459 00:33:06,250 --> 00:33:08,208 "İşte o zaman yetişkin sayılırım." 460 00:33:09,375 --> 00:33:10,875 Şimdi hâlimize bak. 461 00:33:10,958 --> 00:33:15,375 Elinde içki fişi olan iki yetişkiniz ama ikimize de faydası yok. 462 00:33:17,791 --> 00:33:21,166 Annem herkesten kullanmayacakları fişleri isterdi, 463 00:33:21,250 --> 00:33:24,666 sonunda bu mavi fişlerden bir dolu toplamış olur 464 00:33:24,750 --> 00:33:26,333 ve hepsini de kullanırdı. 465 00:33:28,166 --> 00:33:30,958 Piknik gecesi bizim evin hâli hiç hoş olmazdı. 466 00:33:31,041 --> 00:33:32,250 Üzgünüm. 467 00:33:32,916 --> 00:33:35,416 Sorun değil. Burada her yerde anılar var. 468 00:33:35,500 --> 00:33:38,375 Onun anısı. Aynı işte çalışıyorum. 469 00:33:38,458 --> 00:33:40,875 Aynı evde yaşıyorum, aynı yatakta uyuyorum. 470 00:33:40,958 --> 00:33:42,208 Ve onun kadar yalnızım. 471 00:33:42,291 --> 00:33:45,625 Bu geçici, deyip duruyorum ama ben… 472 00:33:45,708 --> 00:33:46,916 Onun gibi değilsin. 473 00:33:48,791 --> 00:33:51,416 O kadarını hatırlıyorum. Ve şey olacaksın… 474 00:33:53,208 --> 00:33:54,916 -İyi. -Harika. 475 00:33:56,375 --> 00:33:59,708 Öğretmen ve anne olarak ve başka ne yapacaksan. 476 00:34:01,000 --> 00:34:03,625 Artık senin her şeyini bilmesem de bunu biliyorum. 477 00:34:04,500 --> 00:34:06,000 Harika olacaksın. 478 00:34:06,083 --> 00:34:09,000 Pike! 479 00:34:10,416 --> 00:34:15,375 Pike! 480 00:34:16,416 --> 00:34:20,166 Tanrım, hayır. Pike. Pike! 481 00:34:23,416 --> 00:34:25,791 Tanrım, hayır! 482 00:34:26,541 --> 00:34:27,791 Hayır Pike! 483 00:34:29,958 --> 00:34:35,708 Hayır. Bebeğim, hayır. Ah, oğlum. 484 00:34:41,875 --> 00:34:43,375 Ne oldu? 485 00:34:44,791 --> 00:34:47,083 Kim yaptı bunu? Kim yaptı? 486 00:34:50,208 --> 00:34:52,916 Kim yaptı? Hanginiz yaptınız? 487 00:34:54,708 --> 00:34:59,250 Zavallı bir köpeğe bunu kim yaptı? 488 00:34:59,333 --> 00:35:02,291 Tanrım. Pike. 489 00:35:03,833 --> 00:35:06,333 Hey. Sakin ol Joe. 490 00:35:07,791 --> 00:35:10,750 -Ne olmuş dersin? -Zehirlenmiş! 491 00:35:11,541 --> 00:35:13,000 Olan bu. 492 00:35:13,875 --> 00:35:16,166 Beni beğenmiyor musunuz? Tamam! 493 00:35:16,791 --> 00:35:19,791 Yaptığım şeyden sonra ben de kendime metelik vermem. 494 00:35:19,875 --> 00:35:23,916 Ama o ne yaptı? O size ne yaptı? 495 00:35:24,000 --> 00:35:26,750 Şerif, Joe, veteriner olmasam da bakayım mı? 496 00:35:29,583 --> 00:35:30,833 Yardım eder misin? 497 00:35:33,708 --> 00:35:35,500 Onu bir şey yerken gören var mı? 498 00:35:36,083 --> 00:35:38,791 Belki yememesi gereken bir şey yemiştir. 499 00:35:39,583 --> 00:35:42,375 Ya da korkunç bir kaza olmuştur. 500 00:35:42,458 --> 00:35:43,833 Kaza mı? 501 00:35:55,333 --> 00:35:56,208 Joe. 502 00:35:56,791 --> 00:35:57,625 Nasıl… 503 00:35:58,166 --> 00:36:01,041 Ah, minik oğlum öldü işte. 504 00:36:01,541 --> 00:36:03,958 Tamam, hadi millet. Gidelim. Hadi gelin. 505 00:36:04,041 --> 00:36:06,708 Herkes uzaklaşsın. Şerifi duydunuz. Gidelim. 506 00:36:06,791 --> 00:36:08,375 Onları rahat bırakalım. 507 00:36:44,250 --> 00:36:45,083 Günaydın. 508 00:36:48,375 --> 00:36:50,041 Günaydın. Erken kalkmışsın. 509 00:36:50,708 --> 00:36:54,083 Evet, teknede yardım edebilirim diye umuyordum. 510 00:36:56,041 --> 00:36:59,250 İşe yaramak istiyorum baba. 511 00:37:02,208 --> 00:37:04,583 Daha iyi ayakkabılar giymen lazım. 512 00:37:07,583 --> 00:37:10,041 Bakayım, bulabilecek miyim. 513 00:37:11,958 --> 00:37:13,666 RAB IŞIĞIM VE KURTULUŞUMDUR 514 00:37:13,750 --> 00:37:16,083 Yine normale döndük. 515 00:37:17,291 --> 00:37:21,958 Herkes külünü aldıktan sonra sıralar yine boşaldı, değil mi? 516 00:37:47,916 --> 00:37:49,333 İsa'nın Kanı Leeza. 517 00:37:49,416 --> 00:37:50,541 Âmin. 518 00:38:01,541 --> 00:38:03,958 -Baba, belin! -Hayır. Bu… 519 00:38:06,000 --> 00:38:07,333 Sorun yok, iyiyim. 520 00:38:08,500 --> 00:38:09,375 İyiyim. 521 00:38:21,791 --> 00:38:24,791 Sen, doğru eve. Yaramazlık yok. 522 00:38:32,833 --> 00:38:33,916 Yardım edeyim mi? 523 00:38:36,041 --> 00:38:37,000 Şerif. 524 00:38:37,500 --> 00:38:41,375 Tanrım, korkuttun beni. Hangi rüzgâr attı seni buraya? 525 00:38:42,416 --> 00:38:44,916 İşin nedeniyle gelmemişsindir herhâlde. 526 00:38:45,000 --> 00:38:47,416 Bir çocuğumuzun başı dertte değildir umarım. 527 00:38:47,500 --> 00:38:48,875 Öyle bir şey değil. 528 00:38:48,958 --> 00:38:52,000 Adamızdaki küçük esrarı çözmeye çalışıyorum. 529 00:38:52,750 --> 00:38:53,875 Kediler. 530 00:38:54,791 --> 00:38:55,916 Köpek. 531 00:38:57,375 --> 00:38:58,791 Zehir olduğu doğrulandı. 532 00:38:59,625 --> 00:39:00,750 Çok yazık. 533 00:39:00,833 --> 00:39:01,708 Merak ettim, 534 00:39:02,583 --> 00:39:08,166 bir süre önce bir bileşimden, fare zehrinden söz etmiştin, neydi… 535 00:39:08,250 --> 00:39:09,166 1080. 536 00:39:09,250 --> 00:39:11,916 1080. Arkanda duruyor, değil mi? 537 00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:13,000 Öyle. 538 00:39:14,166 --> 00:39:15,541 Evet, doğru. 539 00:39:15,625 --> 00:39:17,291 Kedilerden sonra 540 00:39:17,375 --> 00:39:19,791 bunu yapanın ne olduğunu bilmediğimden 541 00:39:19,875 --> 00:39:23,041 evimin çevresine biraz serptim, tabii dikkatli bir şekilde. 542 00:39:23,125 --> 00:39:25,458 Başkaları da rica etti. 543 00:39:25,541 --> 00:39:29,458 O zavallı köpek kazara yediyse 544 00:39:30,458 --> 00:39:31,916 mahvolurum. 545 00:39:32,708 --> 00:39:33,875 Söylediğin bu mu? 546 00:39:34,958 --> 00:39:37,583 Lütfen, olan buysa, eminsen… 547 00:39:38,125 --> 00:39:40,458 Kendimi nasıl affederim, bilmem. 548 00:39:41,625 --> 00:39:42,833 Öyle mi? 549 00:39:43,958 --> 00:39:45,125 Öyle misin? 550 00:39:46,333 --> 00:39:48,333 Emin misin yani? 551 00:39:49,791 --> 00:39:51,166 Bunu söyleyemem. 552 00:39:51,916 --> 00:39:54,041 Kesin konuşamam. 553 00:39:55,625 --> 00:39:59,041 Bu kimyasallara başkasının erişimi var mı? 554 00:39:59,125 --> 00:40:00,666 Umarım vardır. 555 00:40:00,750 --> 00:40:03,583 Bunlar bütün ada için. Sadece burada saklıyoruz. 556 00:40:04,583 --> 00:40:07,708 Sen içeri giriverdin, değil mi? 557 00:40:08,208 --> 00:40:12,333 Bir kutu almak istesen kimin haberi olurdu? 558 00:40:14,708 --> 00:40:16,166 Haklısın Şerif. 559 00:40:17,375 --> 00:40:19,583 Ne kastettiğini anlıyorum, haklısın. 560 00:40:21,416 --> 00:40:23,541 Bunları kilit altına almalıyım. 561 00:40:30,541 --> 00:40:31,958 İyi günler Bev. 562 00:40:32,041 --> 00:40:34,041 Sana da Şerif. 563 00:40:47,583 --> 00:40:50,500 Sonra gelip yağı ve hava filtresini değiştiririm. 564 00:40:50,583 --> 00:40:51,833 Bir süre idare eder. 565 00:40:51,916 --> 00:40:55,291 Bana bunu yapma ya… Kolayı bırakmaya çalışıyorum. 566 00:40:56,375 --> 00:40:59,458 Üzerimde yeterince para yok galiba. Çek yazayım. 567 00:41:00,541 --> 00:41:01,625 Bu yeter. 568 00:41:02,416 --> 00:41:03,458 Gelecek sefere. 569 00:41:04,250 --> 00:41:06,541 Evet, iş görür. Yeter ki fazla çalıştırma. 570 00:41:07,041 --> 00:41:09,500 -Sadece acil durumlar için. -Peki. 571 00:41:09,583 --> 00:41:10,708 Joe. 572 00:41:13,125 --> 00:41:14,083 Sharif. 573 00:41:15,166 --> 00:41:16,500 Burada ne işin var Bowl? 574 00:41:17,250 --> 00:41:19,958 Dostum Joe'ya yardım ediyorum. Her ay olduğu gibi. 575 00:41:20,041 --> 00:41:23,541 Jeneratörümü çalıştırıyor. Ara sıra filtrelerini değiştiriyor. 576 00:41:23,625 --> 00:41:27,541 Ceplerini arasam ne bulurum? Hava filtresi mi? 577 00:41:28,500 --> 00:41:31,583 Ceplerimi ararsan yumruğumu götüne yersin. 578 00:41:31,666 --> 00:41:34,750 Tamam. Dalga geçme delikanlı. Bu… 579 00:41:34,833 --> 00:41:39,166 Şerif, arazimi istediğin kadar ara. Elinden geleni ardına koyma. 580 00:41:39,875 --> 00:41:43,583 Arkadaşım gitmek üzere, kötü bir niyeti yok. 581 00:41:43,666 --> 00:41:47,708 Espriden hiç anlamaması onun suçu değil. 582 00:42:00,208 --> 00:42:01,833 Çocuk bana yardım ediyor. 583 00:42:01,916 --> 00:42:03,250 Çocuk, torbacı. 584 00:42:03,333 --> 00:42:04,958 Buradayken değil. 585 00:42:05,750 --> 00:42:09,333 Adada bana insan gibi davranan tek kişi. 586 00:42:09,416 --> 00:42:11,541 Sebebi buysa 587 00:42:11,625 --> 00:42:14,333 keşke hepiniz torbacı olsanız. 588 00:42:14,916 --> 00:42:16,083 Suçlama yaptın mı? 589 00:42:16,166 --> 00:42:18,833 Bayan Keane olayla ilgisi olmadığında ısrarcı. 590 00:42:18,916 --> 00:42:23,458 Israrcı mı? Öyle desene. Bu her şeyi değiştirir. 591 00:42:23,541 --> 00:42:26,041 Civarda fare falan için kimyasallar vardı. 592 00:42:26,125 --> 00:42:26,958 Fareler. 593 00:42:27,041 --> 00:42:29,291 -Eğer köpek kazara… -Pike. 594 00:42:30,500 --> 00:42:31,583 Adı Pike'tı. 595 00:42:32,416 --> 00:42:34,666 Pike kazara bir şey… 596 00:42:34,750 --> 00:42:37,166 Kaza falan değildi, tamam mı? 597 00:42:37,791 --> 00:42:39,500 Ama biliyor musun Şerif? 598 00:42:39,583 --> 00:42:41,958 Başka türlüsünü de beklemezdim. 599 00:42:42,541 --> 00:42:45,791 Benden, buradan, ondan başka sonuç çıkmazdı. 600 00:42:45,875 --> 00:42:49,041 O anlaşma yüzünden adanın yarısını öldürdü. 601 00:42:49,125 --> 00:42:51,916 -Bir köpek daha ölse ne yazar? -Anlıyorum Joe. 602 00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:55,458 O kadını ilkokuldan beri tanırım. 603 00:42:55,541 --> 00:42:58,250 Yaptığı veya yapacağı hiçbir şey… 604 00:42:58,958 --> 00:43:00,750 Neyse ya, boş ver. 605 00:43:01,375 --> 00:43:03,500 Sen zeki adamsın Şerif. 606 00:43:03,583 --> 00:43:07,333 Ama bu olayda neden söz ettiğinden haberin yok. 607 00:43:07,416 --> 00:43:09,541 İşi oluruna bırakalım. 608 00:43:09,625 --> 00:43:12,250 Bev Keane'i ben de tanıyorum. Senin kadar değil 609 00:43:12,916 --> 00:43:14,958 ama senin yanılmadığını bilecek kadar. 610 00:43:16,458 --> 00:43:17,708 Yanılmıyorsun Joe. 611 00:43:20,333 --> 00:43:21,500 Sağ ol. 612 00:43:25,666 --> 00:43:28,625 MONSENYÖR JOHN MICHAEL PRUITT KÜLTÜR MERKEZİ 613 00:43:36,166 --> 00:43:39,083 Açıkçası sadece iki kişiyle 614 00:43:39,166 --> 00:43:41,083 garip kaçacağını düşünmemiştim. 615 00:43:41,166 --> 00:43:43,125 Nasıl başlayacağımı bilmiyorum. 616 00:43:44,250 --> 00:43:46,958 -Riley. Alkolik. -Merhaba Riley. 617 00:43:48,291 --> 00:43:51,625 Huzur duasıyla başlamama itirazın var mı? 618 00:43:52,625 --> 00:43:54,000 Ne demek. 619 00:43:54,083 --> 00:43:55,166 Pekâlâ. 620 00:43:56,833 --> 00:44:00,000 Tanrım, bana değiştiremeyeceğim şeyleri kabullenmek için… 621 00:44:01,916 --> 00:44:03,666 Birlikte söyleyelim. 622 00:44:04,291 --> 00:44:06,333 Dinginlik, değiştirebileceğim şeyleri 623 00:44:06,416 --> 00:44:11,583 değiştirmek için cesaret ve aradaki farkı anlayabilmem için bilgelik ver. 624 00:44:12,333 --> 00:44:13,291 Âmin. 625 00:44:14,833 --> 00:44:18,416 Başlamış olduk. Nasıl yapalım? 626 00:44:19,250 --> 00:44:20,750 Konuşalım işte. 627 00:44:22,250 --> 00:44:23,333 Peki. 628 00:44:28,208 --> 00:44:30,791 Buradan söz etmek istiyorum. 629 00:44:32,458 --> 00:44:35,083 Duyduğuma göre Bev Keane başından beri herkesi 630 00:44:35,166 --> 00:44:38,958 petrol şirketlerinin anlaşma teklifini kabul etmesi için teşvik etmiş. 631 00:44:39,041 --> 00:44:40,666 Başta çok para gibi gelmiş 632 00:44:40,750 --> 00:44:43,750 ama birkaç yıllık gelir kaybının yanında ne ki? 633 00:44:43,833 --> 00:44:46,791 Gerçi çoğu kişi o sırada bu hesabı yapmamıştır. 634 00:44:48,750 --> 00:44:49,833 Bev de şöyle deyince… 635 00:44:49,916 --> 00:44:52,416 "Hadi, parayı alın. Tanrı'nın lütfu. 636 00:44:52,500 --> 00:44:55,333 Belki birazını da Tanrı için harcarsınız." 637 00:44:55,916 --> 00:44:56,833 Öyle yapmışlar. 638 00:44:56,916 --> 00:45:00,166 Parayı alıp bir kısmını kiliseye vermişler. 639 00:45:00,250 --> 00:45:06,916 Pruitt de hasta olduğu için aslında Bev'e vermiş oluyorlar. 640 00:45:07,500 --> 00:45:09,333 Bu hoş görünmezdi tabii. 641 00:45:09,416 --> 00:45:12,500 Bir de bakıyorsun bu kültür merkezini inşa ediyor. 642 00:45:14,208 --> 00:45:16,666 Kim bilir aldığı paraya mı mal oldu. 643 00:45:17,416 --> 00:45:20,625 Çoğu kişi çekip gittiği için bilmek imkânsız. 644 00:45:21,500 --> 00:45:23,125 Özetle Katolik Kilisesi. 645 00:45:23,750 --> 00:45:24,833 Dünyanın her yanında 646 00:45:25,416 --> 00:45:30,791 küçük, yoksul köyler ve kocaman, şık kiliseler. 647 00:45:31,583 --> 00:45:34,375 Kentler çürürken onlar büyüyüp zenginleşiyor. 648 00:45:34,458 --> 00:45:40,041 Kiliseler kentin kanını emen keneler gibi şişip duruyor. 649 00:45:41,500 --> 00:45:46,041 Pekâlâ… İbadetlerini yerine getirmediğini kesinlikle söyleyebiliriz sanırım. 650 00:45:46,125 --> 00:45:47,958 -Orası kesin. -Ama hep böyle değilmiş. 651 00:45:48,041 --> 00:45:49,500 Rahip yardımcısıymışsın. 652 00:45:50,250 --> 00:45:51,750 Şaşırdınız mı? 653 00:45:51,833 --> 00:45:55,083 Monsenyör Pruitt dedi ki, bir zamanlar 654 00:45:55,166 --> 00:45:57,541 inancın ve imanın tammış. 655 00:45:57,625 --> 00:46:02,000 Bu gece oralara girmesek iyi olur. 656 00:46:02,083 --> 00:46:03,708 İyi birine benziyorsunuz. 657 00:46:03,791 --> 00:46:07,166 Bana iyilik yapıyorsunuz. Sizi gücendirmek istemem. 658 00:46:07,250 --> 00:46:08,416 Bu kolay olmaz. 659 00:46:09,000 --> 00:46:13,166 AA toplantılarının amacı kimseyi gücendirmemek değil, öyle değil mi? 660 00:46:13,250 --> 00:46:16,000 Amaç iyileşme, sorumluluk, dürüstlük, 661 00:46:16,083 --> 00:46:18,125 her şeyden çok da destek olmak. 662 00:46:18,208 --> 00:46:22,458 -Ve tabii yüce kuvvet. -Evet, o mesele. 663 00:46:23,250 --> 00:46:24,208 Bakın, bu… 664 00:46:25,375 --> 00:46:28,750 Tek tedavi yöntemi değil. 665 00:46:28,833 --> 00:46:30,291 RT'yi duydunuz mu? 666 00:46:31,000 --> 00:46:33,541 -RT mi? -Korsan AA gibi. 667 00:46:35,500 --> 00:46:40,083 "Rasyonel Terapi." Akla ve psikolojiye dayanıyor. 668 00:46:40,166 --> 00:46:42,625 İnsanlara güçsüz olduklarını söylemiyor. 669 00:46:42,708 --> 00:46:45,250 Yani yüce kuvvet sensin, öyle mi? 670 00:46:45,333 --> 00:46:49,250 Bağımlılık Yapan Sesi Tanıma Tekniği. Böyle işliyor. 671 00:46:49,333 --> 00:46:52,166 İçindeki bağımlılık yapan sesi tanıyorsun. 672 00:46:52,250 --> 00:46:56,000 İçmek isteyen ben değilim, içimdeki bağımlı ses. 673 00:46:56,083 --> 00:47:00,625 Onu tanıyıp ayırmayı ve kontrol etmeyi öğreniyorsun. 674 00:47:00,708 --> 00:47:03,750 Kendi yüce kuvvetin olmak senin işine yaradı mı? 675 00:47:03,833 --> 00:47:05,750 Dört yıldır tek damla içmedim. 676 00:47:05,833 --> 00:47:08,541 Hapisteyken başka çaren yoktu, değil mi? 677 00:47:09,125 --> 00:47:09,958 Yoktu. 678 00:47:10,041 --> 00:47:13,583 Bak, İsa'nın ilk mucizesi suyu şaraba dönüştürmektir. 679 00:47:13,666 --> 00:47:18,583 Alkol kendi başına iyi veya kötü değildir. Bu, insana bağlıdır. 680 00:47:21,000 --> 00:47:22,458 Kaçımızın bu sorunu var? 681 00:47:22,541 --> 00:47:24,416 Pek çoğumuzun. 12 kişide bir. 682 00:47:25,708 --> 00:47:27,500 -Saymadım. -Evet, 12. 683 00:47:27,583 --> 00:47:30,833 Bu sayıya İncil'de çok rastlanması ilginç bir tesadüf 684 00:47:30,916 --> 00:47:33,875 ama kendi başına iyi ya da kötü olmayan alkol 685 00:47:33,958 --> 00:47:36,958 12 kişiden birinin canını yakıyor. 686 00:47:37,041 --> 00:47:38,291 Senin canını yaktı. 687 00:47:39,250 --> 00:47:40,625 Bunu biliyorum. 688 00:47:40,708 --> 00:47:45,500 Tanrı o acıyı alıp iyi bir şeye dönüştürebilir. 689 00:47:45,583 --> 00:47:47,291 Bir amaca. 690 00:47:48,333 --> 00:47:50,125 Acı çekmek bir lütuf olabilir. 691 00:47:50,208 --> 00:47:51,708 Hepsi bize bağlı. 692 00:47:52,500 --> 00:47:54,541 Buna cevabımıza, tepkimize. 693 00:47:54,625 --> 00:47:58,041 Yani alkol kendi başına iyi ya da kötü değil. 694 00:47:58,833 --> 00:48:02,708 Aynı şey suçluluk, yas ve keder için geçerli. 695 00:48:02,791 --> 00:48:05,208 Her şey bunlarla ne yaptığımıza bağlı. 696 00:48:06,208 --> 00:48:08,083 Daha güçlendirici ne olabilir? 697 00:48:08,166 --> 00:48:09,125 Hayır. 698 00:48:10,416 --> 00:48:13,083 Alkol iyi ya da kötü değil. 699 00:48:14,250 --> 00:48:18,000 Ama yeterince içtiğimde ortaya çıkan versiyonum 700 00:48:19,500 --> 00:48:20,458 kötü biriydi. 701 00:48:21,750 --> 00:48:24,583 Bencil ve kayıtsızdı, hayatımı mahvetti. 702 00:48:25,666 --> 00:48:29,458 İçimde bir sabotajcı var. 703 00:48:29,541 --> 00:48:32,041 Hep hallederiz diye düşündüm. 704 00:48:32,125 --> 00:48:36,041 Birlikte yaşamayı öğreniriz çünkü bana zarar vermez, dedim. 705 00:48:36,708 --> 00:48:39,375 Bana yapmazdı. Beni incitmesin diye onu besledim. 706 00:48:40,916 --> 00:48:43,666 Sonra bir sabah uyandım, birini öldürmüştü. 707 00:48:52,583 --> 00:48:54,875 Ben birini öldürmüştüm. 708 00:48:55,958 --> 00:48:59,791 Burada suçlu kim? Benim. 709 00:49:01,875 --> 00:49:03,125 Ya Tanrı? 710 00:49:05,333 --> 00:49:07,041 Buna izin verdi, değil mi? 711 00:49:08,291 --> 00:49:11,833 Gördünüz mü? Kabullenemediğim kısım bu. 712 00:49:11,916 --> 00:49:15,291 Çünkü haklısınız, dünyada çok acı var. 713 00:49:16,000 --> 00:49:18,083 Çok fazla. Bir de şu yüce kuvvet var. 714 00:49:18,166 --> 00:49:22,000 Tüm o acıyı dindirebilir, elini bir salladı mı 715 00:49:22,083 --> 00:49:25,541 hepsini yok edebilir ama yapmıyor, öyle mi? 716 00:49:27,208 --> 00:49:28,250 Hayır. 717 00:49:29,541 --> 00:49:30,791 Hayır, ben almayayım. 718 00:49:30,875 --> 00:49:34,083 En kötü kısmı da bizi sorumluluktan kurtarması. 719 00:49:34,166 --> 00:49:36,166 Hepimiz durup 720 00:49:36,250 --> 00:49:39,208 Leeza Scarborough'yu tekerlekli sandalyede izliyoruz. 721 00:49:39,291 --> 00:49:41,750 Joe Collie'nin kendini içkiye boğmasını. 722 00:49:41,833 --> 00:49:45,708 Bir sürü kişinin dipsiz kuyulara düşmesini izleyip 723 00:49:46,291 --> 00:49:48,500 buna dayanabiliyoruz. 724 00:49:49,291 --> 00:49:51,500 Buna tahammül ediyoruz 725 00:49:51,583 --> 00:49:54,666 çünkü "Tanrı'nın işine akıl ermez" diyebiliyoruz. 726 00:49:54,750 --> 00:49:58,708 Bir planı varmış, her şerde bir hayır varmış gibi. 727 00:49:58,791 --> 00:50:01,083 İçmem hayırlı olmadı. 728 00:50:01,666 --> 00:50:04,333 O zavallı kızı öldürmem hayırlı olmadı. 729 00:50:04,416 --> 00:50:06,541 Joe Collie'nin içmesi hayırlı olmadı. 730 00:50:06,625 --> 00:50:09,416 Leeza'nın tekrar yürüyemeyecek olması hayırlı değil. 731 00:50:10,083 --> 00:50:14,041 Körfezi dolduran bir ton ham petrol hayırlı olmadı. 732 00:50:14,125 --> 00:50:18,000 İnsanların durup tüm bu acıları izlemesine 733 00:50:18,083 --> 00:50:21,833 ve hiçbir şey yapmamasına sebep olan tek şey 734 00:50:23,000 --> 00:50:25,708 acının, Tanrı'nın lütfu olabileceği fikri. 735 00:50:28,791 --> 00:50:30,750 Ne canavarca bir fikir Peder. 736 00:50:30,833 --> 00:50:31,750 Evet. 737 00:50:34,458 --> 00:50:35,291 Evet. 738 00:50:39,041 --> 00:50:43,000 Bak, kutsal metinlerde ya da hatta dünyada 739 00:50:43,083 --> 00:50:45,208 hiçbir şey Tanrı'nın 740 00:50:46,666 --> 00:50:50,583 kişisel sorumluluğu geçersiz kıldığına işaret etmez. 741 00:50:51,416 --> 00:50:55,166 Bunu ima eden hiçbir şey yok. 742 00:50:55,250 --> 00:50:56,833 Kesinlikle yok. 743 00:50:57,666 --> 00:51:01,333 Tanrı'nın eylemlerimizi, hatta korkunç eylemlerimizi alıp 744 00:51:01,416 --> 00:51:08,000 onları başka bir şeye dönüştürebileceğine inanıyorum. 745 00:51:08,750 --> 00:51:10,708 Onlardaki iyiyi bulabilir, 746 00:51:10,791 --> 00:51:13,958 onlardaki sevgiyi bulabilir. Biz görsek de görmesek de. 747 00:51:14,958 --> 00:51:18,416 Bunu biliyorum Riley Flynn. 748 00:51:20,166 --> 00:51:21,291 Bunu biliyorum. 749 00:53:22,541 --> 00:53:23,750 Çok özür dilerim. 750 00:53:24,541 --> 00:53:25,791 Doğru olanı yaptın. 751 00:53:25,875 --> 00:53:27,500 Tedbir iyidir, değil mi? 752 00:53:28,750 --> 00:53:29,958 Her şey yolunda. 753 00:53:30,041 --> 00:53:31,375 Şükürler olsun. 754 00:53:33,208 --> 00:53:34,541 Evet, her şey yolunda. 755 00:53:35,291 --> 00:53:36,833 Sadece lekelenme. 756 00:53:38,833 --> 00:53:40,375 Uyandırdığım için üzgünüm. 757 00:53:42,208 --> 00:53:46,000 Uyandırmayıp sabahı beklesen ve gerçekten bir sorun olsa… 758 00:53:46,083 --> 00:53:50,833 Hayır canım. Ben bu yüzden buradayım. Sen doğru olanı yaptın. Al, dinle. 759 00:53:55,875 --> 00:53:57,583 Merhaba bebecik. 760 00:53:57,666 --> 00:53:59,458 Gördün mü? Bebek iyi. 761 00:54:00,708 --> 00:54:02,875 Annen biraz endişelenmiş Minik Ayak. 762 00:54:02,958 --> 00:54:04,791 Seni çok sevdiği için. 763 00:54:05,500 --> 00:54:07,333 -Tekrar teşekkürler. -Ne demek. 764 00:54:25,125 --> 00:54:27,291 Sarah! 765 00:54:27,375 --> 00:54:28,375 Tanrım, anne! 766 00:54:28,875 --> 00:54:30,500 -Çabuk gel! Gel! -Tanrım. 767 00:54:30,583 --> 00:54:32,958 Babanı gördüğümü sandım. 768 00:54:33,041 --> 00:54:35,791 Onun giysileri. Baban sandım. 769 00:54:36,458 --> 00:54:38,166 Babam öleli 15 yıl oluyor. 770 00:54:39,291 --> 00:54:40,916 Sana bir türlü anlatamıyorum. 771 00:54:41,000 --> 00:54:45,125 Hayır, başka bir şeydi. Pencereye doğru geldi. 772 00:54:45,208 --> 00:54:47,375 Ah, Sarah. O yüz. 773 00:54:49,291 --> 00:54:53,166 O yüz. 774 00:55:37,625 --> 00:55:38,458 Merhaba? 775 00:55:39,333 --> 00:55:40,333 Biri mi var? 776 00:55:48,125 --> 00:55:49,000 Merhaba? 777 00:55:50,916 --> 00:55:51,750 Biri mi var? 778 00:56:09,708 --> 00:56:10,625 Kim o? 779 00:56:14,125 --> 00:56:15,208 Kim o? 780 00:56:29,208 --> 00:56:30,333 BU MÜLK LANETLİ 781 00:56:30,416 --> 00:56:32,166 Sen misin Ooker? 782 00:56:56,875 --> 00:56:59,875 PERHİZ'İN İKİNCİ PAZARI 783 00:57:03,666 --> 00:57:05,541 -Günaydın Peder. -Leeza. 784 00:57:16,125 --> 00:57:19,291 Bugünkü ilahimiz 27. Mezmur. 785 00:57:20,083 --> 00:57:24,625 "Rab benim ışığım, kurtuluşumdur, kimseden korkmam. 786 00:57:25,375 --> 00:57:31,041 Rab yaşamımın kalesidir, kimseden yılmam. 787 00:57:31,125 --> 00:57:34,041 Hasımlarım olan kötüler, 788 00:57:34,125 --> 00:57:38,083 beni yutmak için üzerime gelirken tökezleyip düşerler. 789 00:57:38,166 --> 00:57:43,375 Karşımda bir ordu konaklasa kılım kıpırdamaz. 790 00:57:43,458 --> 00:57:46,291 Bana karşı savaş açılsa 791 00:57:46,375 --> 00:57:48,208 yine güvenimi yitirmem. 792 00:57:48,791 --> 00:57:52,625 Rab'dan tek dileğim, tek isteğim, 793 00:57:52,708 --> 00:57:57,291 ömrümün bütün günlerini onun evinde geçirmektir." 794 00:58:11,708 --> 00:58:13,000 İsa'nın bedeni Leeza. 795 00:58:13,833 --> 00:58:14,958 Âmin. 796 00:58:22,916 --> 00:58:24,458 Hadi gel. İsa'nın bedeni. 797 00:58:25,250 --> 00:58:27,250 Peder, ne yapıyorsun? 798 00:58:31,166 --> 00:58:32,833 -İsa'nın bedeni. -Ne yapıyorsun? 799 00:58:38,291 --> 00:58:39,625 Hayır. 800 00:58:49,666 --> 00:58:50,625 Hadi. 801 00:58:52,125 --> 00:58:53,250 İsa'nın bedeni. 802 00:58:53,333 --> 00:58:54,250 Hayır, durun. 803 00:58:55,291 --> 00:58:56,166 -Zalimlik. -Hadi. 804 00:58:56,250 --> 00:58:58,666 Leeza, hayatım. Bu da ne şimdi? 805 00:58:58,750 --> 00:59:01,250 Bu şakaysa hiç komik değil. 806 00:59:05,708 --> 00:59:06,666 Leeza. 807 00:59:17,625 --> 00:59:18,708 Ne? 808 00:59:51,541 --> 00:59:52,958 İsa'nın bedeni. 809 00:59:53,625 --> 00:59:54,458 Âmin. 810 01:01:53,000 --> 01:01:58,000 Alt yazı çevirmeni: Selen Akhuy

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1 00:00:09,541 --> 00:00:11,125 [seagulls screeching] 2 00:00:23,000 --> 00:00:23,875 [screeches] 3 00:00:40,375 --> 00:00:41,291 [Hassan] Hey, Warren. 4 00:00:42,125 --> 00:00:43,041 Come here. 5 00:00:45,791 --> 00:00:47,833 Hey. Would you tell the mayor and Miss Keane 6 00:00:47,916 --> 00:00:50,458 to keep off the shoreline unless they have gloves and galoshes? 7 00:00:50,541 --> 00:00:52,041 -I'll be over directly. -[Warren] Yeah. 8 00:00:54,000 --> 00:00:58,833 Hey, Mr. Mayor, Sheriff says to keep off the shoreline unless you've got-- 9 00:00:58,916 --> 00:01:01,291 -What's he saying? What happened? -Give me your, um… 10 00:01:01,375 --> 00:01:03,166 See these ladies off the beach, would you, Warren? 11 00:01:03,250 --> 00:01:05,375 Wade, we need to talk about this. 12 00:01:05,458 --> 00:01:06,708 -[Wade] In a bit. -[Bev] We've got… 13 00:01:07,375 --> 00:01:10,916 Sweet boy, no need. I can walk on a beach just fine. Thank you. 14 00:01:11,000 --> 00:01:12,500 You'll have your say, Bev. 15 00:01:13,166 --> 00:01:14,916 Lord knows you always do. Sheriff! 16 00:01:15,750 --> 00:01:16,791 Mornin'. 17 00:01:16,875 --> 00:01:19,833 I thought I said… You should stay back till I know more, Mr. Mayor. 18 00:01:19,916 --> 00:01:22,333 It could be this is some kinda disease or infection. 19 00:01:22,416 --> 00:01:25,791 You know, I remember 2002, whole flock of, uh… 20 00:01:26,416 --> 00:01:28,125 Starlings. It was starlings. 21 00:01:28,208 --> 00:01:30,666 Hundreds of 'em just fell out of the sky, covered the beach. 22 00:01:30,750 --> 00:01:32,541 The whole town. The square too. 23 00:01:32,625 --> 00:01:35,125 Never did get a satisfying answer. Lots of theories. 24 00:01:35,208 --> 00:01:38,833 Lightning, noises, disease. Never did find out. 25 00:01:38,916 --> 00:01:41,083 Whole pod of dolphins once too, on the west bank. 26 00:01:41,166 --> 00:01:43,666 More than a dozen, and they had bites missing. 27 00:01:43,750 --> 00:01:46,208 And now here we are again. What in the world? 28 00:01:47,666 --> 00:01:50,500 -They washed up from the Uppards, right? -Yeah, looks like. 29 00:01:51,166 --> 00:01:52,375 They drowned, right? 30 00:01:53,041 --> 00:01:54,541 The Uppards haven't flooded in, 31 00:01:54,625 --> 00:01:58,125 well, 20 years or more, but that storm, wowzers. 32 00:01:58,208 --> 00:01:59,333 [Hassan] Maybe. 33 00:01:59,416 --> 00:02:02,791 But you said some kind of disease or infection? You think so? 34 00:02:03,625 --> 00:02:05,791 But you don't see any oil now, do you? 35 00:02:06,791 --> 00:02:08,166 Well, here, look. 36 00:02:09,166 --> 00:02:10,750 -Try not to get too close. -[Wade] Yep. 37 00:02:10,833 --> 00:02:13,250 [Hassan] Don't want to pick up parasites. Here. 38 00:02:15,500 --> 00:02:16,666 Whoa, whoa, whoa. 39 00:02:16,750 --> 00:02:18,750 Nah, no oil. 40 00:02:19,250 --> 00:02:21,416 That's something, anyway. You should have seen… 41 00:02:21,500 --> 00:02:25,625 Well, folks around here, they seen some horrible things wash up after the spill. 42 00:02:26,166 --> 00:02:28,875 But you'd see it, you know. You'd smell it for sure. So that's… 43 00:02:29,833 --> 00:02:32,458 That's somethin' isn't it? That's a relief, anyway. 44 00:02:32,541 --> 00:02:35,000 [Hassan] The neck's broke. Ripped up a bit. 45 00:02:35,083 --> 00:02:37,250 Yeah, the gulls have been at 'em all morning. 46 00:02:37,333 --> 00:02:38,958 [Hassan] All right, but that's the thing though. 47 00:02:39,458 --> 00:02:43,000 There's no blood. Anywhere. In the cats, or on the beach. 48 00:02:43,083 --> 00:02:46,208 So I think it happened before they got in the water or in the water maybe. 49 00:02:46,291 --> 00:02:48,041 Yeah. A predator, huh? 50 00:02:49,041 --> 00:02:52,375 Ospreys maybe? Or some kind of shark? 51 00:02:52,458 --> 00:02:54,833 Maybe lots of baby sharks. I don't know. 52 00:02:54,916 --> 00:02:57,333 You know, we used to have those before the… 53 00:02:57,416 --> 00:03:00,166 Haven't seen many around, you know, but maybe that's it. 54 00:03:00,250 --> 00:03:01,625 Maybe the sharks are coming back. 55 00:03:01,708 --> 00:03:03,541 And that wouldn't necessarily be a bad thing, 56 00:03:03,625 --> 00:03:06,958 because where there's sharks, there's fish, right? 57 00:03:07,041 --> 00:03:09,291 You know, being new around here, I, uh… 58 00:03:09,375 --> 00:03:11,875 I wouldn't know what sort of wildlife you have on the island. 59 00:03:11,958 --> 00:03:14,166 "You"? It's your island too, Sheriff. 60 00:03:14,250 --> 00:03:17,250 We have on the island. So I put it to Ed Flynn. 61 00:03:17,333 --> 00:03:19,833 -Yeah? He out here? -Yeah, he's been out here all morning. 62 00:03:19,916 --> 00:03:22,041 He says ospreys could get one or two on a good day, 63 00:03:22,125 --> 00:03:23,958 but this many, it's unlikely. 64 00:03:24,041 --> 00:03:26,333 Maybe it was the cats themselves. Maybe they fought. 65 00:03:26,416 --> 00:03:28,750 The Uppards is like Lord of the Flies for those cats. 66 00:03:28,833 --> 00:03:30,375 Spooked by the storm or whatnot. 67 00:03:30,458 --> 00:03:31,791 -He only had one. -[Wade] What's this? 68 00:03:31,875 --> 00:03:33,250 He said he'd send more if we need. 69 00:03:33,333 --> 00:03:34,875 Oh, we're gonna need. Did you tell him how many? 70 00:03:34,958 --> 00:03:36,291 I didn't know how many. 71 00:03:36,375 --> 00:03:39,958 He thinks there's a few cats on the beach. Tell him it's hundreds. You know what? 72 00:03:40,041 --> 00:03:41,958 -Tell him to come down here. -What's this now? 73 00:03:42,041 --> 00:03:43,791 I figured we'd burn them in case there's disease. 74 00:03:43,875 --> 00:03:45,000 Get 'em in a pile and burn 'em. 75 00:03:45,083 --> 00:03:47,250 Keep people back, 'cause if you think it smells bad now-- 76 00:03:47,333 --> 00:03:49,208 -Hang on a bit, okay? -I'll go get more. 77 00:03:49,291 --> 00:03:50,583 Just tell him to come down here! 78 00:03:50,666 --> 00:03:52,708 I don't think the folks are gonna much like that. 79 00:03:52,791 --> 00:03:55,625 That seems a little drastic. We've had strange things happen before. 80 00:03:55,708 --> 00:03:59,125 Hey, look. It's public safety. Really. And they'll thank you for it. 81 00:03:59,208 --> 00:04:01,541 Their mayor isn't willing to gamble with public health. 82 00:04:05,500 --> 00:04:07,666 Hey, you know, that's a good kid you got there. 83 00:04:07,750 --> 00:04:09,541 It's a good kid, lending a hand like that. 84 00:04:10,125 --> 00:04:13,333 Yeah, he, uh… Well, he wants to be a part of things. 85 00:04:13,416 --> 00:04:15,375 Well, that's a good instinct. A place like this, 86 00:04:15,458 --> 00:04:18,583 someone tries to stay separate or isolated, it just hurts the whole… 87 00:04:20,250 --> 00:04:23,583 We really would love to see you two in mass one of these days. 88 00:04:23,666 --> 00:04:25,333 Not as a convert, mind you. No, no, no. 89 00:04:25,416 --> 00:04:27,500 You've got your faith, and, well, God bless. 90 00:04:27,583 --> 00:04:30,791 Nothing but respect. And I know that you hop the ferry 91 00:04:30,875 --> 00:04:33,750 and you spend your Sundays on mainland for mosque, but-- 92 00:04:33,833 --> 00:04:34,833 Fridays. 93 00:04:34,916 --> 00:04:37,625 Oh, Fridays? Then you're here Sundays, which is perfect. 94 00:04:37,708 --> 00:04:39,916 You know, I think it would pay dividends with the community 95 00:04:40,000 --> 00:04:41,375 if you put in an appearance. 96 00:04:41,458 --> 00:04:44,125 Maybe did a reading, help announcements, nothing major. 97 00:04:44,208 --> 00:04:46,125 You don't have to sign up for membership or anything, 98 00:04:46,208 --> 00:04:48,375 just show the people you're here, part of the whole. 99 00:04:48,458 --> 00:04:50,125 You know what I'm sayin', right, Sheriff? 100 00:04:50,208 --> 00:04:51,541 Yeah, I think we burn 'em! 101 00:04:52,708 --> 00:04:55,125 -[Ed] Makes sense. Better safe. -[Hassan] Yeah? 102 00:04:55,208 --> 00:04:57,625 [Hassan] Get some gas, dig a pit, get some sand around 'em. 103 00:04:57,708 --> 00:04:58,958 Mornin', Ed. 104 00:04:59,041 --> 00:05:02,250 Riley. Wowzers, you ever seen something like this, huh? 105 00:05:02,333 --> 00:05:05,750 And natural causes, not the spill, mind you, but this is natural causes. 106 00:05:05,833 --> 00:05:07,791 You know, I remember 2002 it was, 107 00:05:07,875 --> 00:05:10,583 a whole flock of starlings just fell outta the sky. 108 00:05:10,666 --> 00:05:12,041 Yeah, some storm. 109 00:05:12,833 --> 00:05:16,041 Riley was out in it, but he didn't see any cats on the beach. 110 00:05:16,125 --> 00:05:18,875 -You were out here during the storm? -Why the hell would you do that? 111 00:05:18,958 --> 00:05:21,500 I saw… I thought I saw something. 112 00:05:21,583 --> 00:05:23,375 Yeah. Monsignor Pruitt. 113 00:05:23,458 --> 00:05:25,750 -[chuckles] What? -I don't… I don't know what I saw. 114 00:05:25,833 --> 00:05:28,291 -You said you were sure last night. -Well, I don't know. 115 00:05:28,375 --> 00:05:31,041 -Well, he's on the mainland. -Yes, I know. 116 00:05:31,125 --> 00:05:34,833 So then maybe you saw someone else? Someone doing somethin' to these cats? 117 00:05:34,916 --> 00:05:37,291 No, I didn't see any cats. I think, anyway. 118 00:05:37,375 --> 00:05:39,041 I wasn't lookin' at the breakers. 119 00:05:40,125 --> 00:05:43,166 How you doing, Riley? How's it treatin' you, being back? 120 00:05:44,125 --> 00:05:46,333 Prayed for you every week. We certainly did. 121 00:05:46,416 --> 00:05:49,333 Yeah. Uh, thanks. It's fine. 122 00:05:51,291 --> 00:05:52,208 Morning! 123 00:05:53,625 --> 00:05:55,708 Morning yourself. Jesus. 124 00:05:55,791 --> 00:05:58,333 Yeah. I wouldn't get too close. 125 00:05:58,416 --> 00:06:01,833 I read this thing somewhere about cats and pregnant people. 126 00:06:02,333 --> 00:06:04,916 -Pregnant women, I guess. -Yeah. Tend to be women. 127 00:06:05,625 --> 00:06:08,041 Toxo-something. There's this parasite in cat shit 128 00:06:08,125 --> 00:06:09,458 that can be bad for pregnant women. 129 00:06:09,541 --> 00:06:12,916 Toxoplasmosis. It's kind of a myth, really. 130 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:14,791 More likely to get it from gardening. 131 00:06:14,875 --> 00:06:17,958 All right, well… Lotta cats. Better safe, you know? 132 00:06:18,041 --> 00:06:21,333 What happened? This really looks like every stray from the Uppards. 133 00:06:21,416 --> 00:06:23,083 Yeah. They're just gonna burn 'em all. 134 00:06:24,708 --> 00:06:25,541 Uh… 135 00:06:26,166 --> 00:06:30,958 Hey, sorry about last night. I just wanted to apologize. 136 00:06:31,041 --> 00:06:32,000 What for? 137 00:06:32,083 --> 00:06:35,041 For unloading on you like that. It won't happen again. 138 00:06:35,125 --> 00:06:38,416 It's fine. And look, it all worked out. You found your purpose. 139 00:06:38,500 --> 00:06:41,541 -Yeah, cat disposal. -You gotta start somewhere. 140 00:06:42,208 --> 00:06:45,291 Wild night. I swear I saw… 141 00:06:46,541 --> 00:06:49,541 You know how Monsignor Pruitt always wears that coat and hat? 142 00:06:49,625 --> 00:06:50,791 Yeah, I guess so. 143 00:06:50,875 --> 00:06:52,375 All right, last night I saw… 144 00:06:54,333 --> 00:06:58,208 Uh… Never mind. He's on the mainland. I'm just… It's crazy. 145 00:07:02,083 --> 00:07:03,166 [sighs] 146 00:07:03,250 --> 00:07:08,083 Well, I guess I'd better start burning these cats. Got a boat to catch. 147 00:07:09,125 --> 00:07:11,916 -Greener pastures already? -Nah, I got a meeting. 148 00:07:12,000 --> 00:07:14,375 -Something good? -No, it's… 149 00:07:16,083 --> 00:07:17,458 Stay away from the cats, all right? 150 00:07:17,541 --> 00:07:20,666 I don't want you catchin' toxo-cat-mosis or whatever. 151 00:07:20,750 --> 00:07:22,000 Don't tell me what to do. 152 00:07:23,416 --> 00:07:26,041 [seagulls screeching] 153 00:07:51,625 --> 00:07:54,166 [Father Paul] Our processional hymn this morning is number 400 154 00:07:54,250 --> 00:07:57,541 in the red hymnal. "Holy, Holy, Holy." Please rise. 155 00:07:58,208 --> 00:08:00,208 -[bell dings] -[organ playing] 156 00:08:08,708 --> 00:08:13,916 [all] ♪ Holy, holy, holy ♪ 157 00:08:14,000 --> 00:08:18,791 ♪ Lord God Almighty ♪ 158 00:08:19,291 --> 00:08:23,750 ♪ Early in the morning ♪ 159 00:08:23,833 --> 00:08:28,458 ♪ Our song shall rise to Thee ♪ 160 00:08:29,791 --> 00:08:34,500 ♪ Holy, holy, holy ♪ 161 00:08:35,166 --> 00:08:39,791 ♪ Merciful and mighty ♪ 162 00:08:40,583 --> 00:08:45,541 ♪ God in three persons ♪ 163 00:08:45,625 --> 00:08:49,625 ♪ Blessed Trinity ♪ 164 00:08:50,958 --> 00:08:56,083 ♪ Holy, holy, holy ♪ 165 00:08:56,166 --> 00:09:01,250 ♪ Though the darkness hide Thee… ♪ 166 00:09:01,333 --> 00:09:05,250 "Before he was given up to death, a death he freely accepted, 167 00:09:05,333 --> 00:09:08,250 he took bread and gave you thanks." 168 00:09:08,333 --> 00:09:11,958 "He broke the bread, gave it to his disciples, and said…" 169 00:09:12,041 --> 00:09:14,500 [all applauding] 170 00:09:19,875 --> 00:09:23,250 [man] It was a good week. Congratulations to all of you. You all deserve it. 171 00:09:24,833 --> 00:09:26,666 [conversation continues indistinctly] 172 00:09:26,750 --> 00:09:32,541 ♪ In love and purity ♪ 173 00:09:33,083 --> 00:09:38,333 ♪ Holy, holy, holy ♪ 174 00:09:38,416 --> 00:09:42,500 ♪ Lord God Almighty… ♪ 175 00:09:42,583 --> 00:09:44,416 -[Father Paul] Body of Christ, Leeza. -Amen. 176 00:09:44,958 --> 00:09:46,625 [Father Paul] Body of Christ. 177 00:09:49,375 --> 00:09:51,125 -Blood of Christ. -Amen. 178 00:09:54,125 --> 00:09:59,291 ♪ Holy, holy, holy ♪ 179 00:09:59,375 --> 00:10:04,458 ♪ Merciful and mighty ♪ 180 00:10:05,000 --> 00:10:10,333 ♪ God in three persons ♪ 181 00:10:10,416 --> 00:10:15,500 ♪ Blessed Trinity ♪ 182 00:10:15,583 --> 00:10:17,166 Where were you before this? 183 00:10:19,083 --> 00:10:22,916 Everyone asks, you know? Lots of gossips in our parish. 184 00:10:23,500 --> 00:10:24,500 Like, lots. 185 00:10:24,583 --> 00:10:27,291 I'd be happy to tell them if they'd ask me. But… 186 00:10:27,375 --> 00:10:29,708 Well, that's the thing about where we've been. 187 00:10:29,791 --> 00:10:31,208 It's important, sure. 188 00:10:31,291 --> 00:10:33,375 But it's not as important as where we're going. 189 00:10:33,875 --> 00:10:36,250 And every place I was before where I am now, 190 00:10:36,333 --> 00:10:38,875 well, they were just leading me here. 191 00:10:38,958 --> 00:10:42,125 Even if I didn't know it at the time. Even if I didn't see it. 192 00:10:42,791 --> 00:10:44,375 It's kind of like you. 193 00:10:45,625 --> 00:10:47,250 I've lived here my whole life. 194 00:10:47,333 --> 00:10:50,625 Sure, but there was a before for you too. 195 00:10:51,250 --> 00:10:53,250 It was pointing you here, and you know what that is? 196 00:10:53,333 --> 00:10:56,583 That's pointing us where we're going, whether we know it or not? 197 00:10:57,791 --> 00:10:58,750 It's God. 198 00:10:59,416 --> 00:11:02,583 He was pointing you here the same way He was pointing me here. 199 00:11:10,750 --> 00:11:11,583 Morning! 200 00:11:12,666 --> 00:11:13,666 [sighs] 201 00:11:15,500 --> 00:11:16,833 Yeah. Come on, bud. 202 00:11:19,958 --> 00:11:20,833 [Father Paul] You all right? 203 00:11:23,541 --> 00:11:24,500 Leeza? 204 00:11:25,333 --> 00:11:26,333 Oh, I'm fine. 205 00:11:27,416 --> 00:11:28,291 It's fine. 206 00:12:01,583 --> 00:12:02,583 [Erin] You okay, Bev? 207 00:12:03,625 --> 00:12:05,083 Erin. [chuckles nervously] 208 00:12:06,250 --> 00:12:09,375 -You surprised me. What do you need? -The Windex. 209 00:12:09,458 --> 00:12:14,000 Did you try adding a bit of water to it? Usually, you can get more out that way. 210 00:12:14,083 --> 00:12:17,375 I already threw out the bottle. But I'll try that next time. 211 00:12:17,458 --> 00:12:21,875 You know, your mother used to put back the empties, 212 00:12:22,541 --> 00:12:24,250 right back into this closet. 213 00:12:24,333 --> 00:12:27,291 Half of them filled with nothing but water sometimes. 214 00:12:27,375 --> 00:12:28,791 She was so against waste. 215 00:12:29,541 --> 00:12:33,625 I'd have to throw them out myself. I would say, "Peggy. Peggy Greene, 216 00:12:33,708 --> 00:12:36,458 you are going to bury us in bottles if you keep it up." 217 00:12:37,500 --> 00:12:40,416 And here you threw it away. 218 00:12:41,875 --> 00:12:43,625 Isn't that just a gas? 219 00:12:45,708 --> 00:12:49,875 You know, it is funny, because at home, she never met a bottle she couldn't empty. 220 00:12:54,416 --> 00:12:55,375 Here you go. 221 00:12:59,833 --> 00:13:02,333 -What's that for? -Ugh, rats. 222 00:13:03,333 --> 00:13:05,458 Had a big problem after the spill. 223 00:13:06,666 --> 00:13:08,791 The rats came upon us like locusts. 224 00:13:08,875 --> 00:13:11,708 I guess their regular food source was polluted. 225 00:13:11,791 --> 00:13:13,083 No fish to eat at the marina, 226 00:13:13,166 --> 00:13:15,291 so they were in every pantry on the island. 227 00:13:15,375 --> 00:13:20,708 This works like a charm. But with what happened with those cats… 228 00:13:21,708 --> 00:13:24,666 If there are some wild animals out there responsible, 229 00:13:24,750 --> 00:13:27,333 some kind of predator on the island, 230 00:13:27,416 --> 00:13:30,541 what did that to those poor kittens? Well, this… 231 00:13:31,541 --> 00:13:35,125 I plan to just sprinkle a little bit outside the house, just to be safe. 232 00:13:36,916 --> 00:13:39,625 I could do your house as well, if you like. 233 00:13:39,708 --> 00:13:41,250 Oh, no. I'll be fine. 234 00:13:41,916 --> 00:13:43,708 Of course you will, dear. 235 00:13:50,625 --> 00:13:51,458 [knocking on door] 236 00:13:55,166 --> 00:13:56,000 [Sarah] Oh. 237 00:13:57,125 --> 00:13:58,166 Sarah. 238 00:13:58,250 --> 00:14:00,250 Yes. Sarah Gunning. 239 00:14:01,416 --> 00:14:04,125 You're… I've heard about you, Father. 240 00:14:04,208 --> 00:14:05,458 Paul. Hill. 241 00:14:07,458 --> 00:14:08,666 What can I do for you? 242 00:14:08,750 --> 00:14:11,750 I'm sure you've heard that I'm taking over for Monsignor. 243 00:14:12,375 --> 00:14:13,416 I have. 244 00:14:13,500 --> 00:14:16,291 He told me something as we were discussing the congregation. 245 00:14:16,375 --> 00:14:19,375 Your mother… He said prior to her health declining… 246 00:14:19,458 --> 00:14:25,041 Prior to that, that she never missed mass. Not even daily mass. Is that right? 247 00:14:25,750 --> 00:14:26,875 My mother is… 248 00:14:27,708 --> 00:14:29,583 Was very devout. 249 00:14:30,958 --> 00:14:32,791 Well, here's the thing… 250 00:14:33,833 --> 00:14:35,625 [Sarah] Mom, someone's here to see you. 251 00:14:38,833 --> 00:14:40,708 -John? -[Sarah] No. 252 00:14:41,208 --> 00:14:44,208 She thinks you're Monsignor Pruitt. Sorry, she gets confused. 253 00:14:44,291 --> 00:14:46,666 -That's an easy mistake, same tailor. -[chuckles] 254 00:14:47,833 --> 00:14:49,333 Mom, this is Father Paul. 255 00:14:49,416 --> 00:14:53,500 Monsignor Pruitt is away for a while, and he came to… 256 00:14:54,250 --> 00:14:57,541 Well, I've come to celebrate mass, young lady. 257 00:14:59,041 --> 00:15:00,083 Ah… 258 00:15:14,791 --> 00:15:17,416 I'll be in there in my office if you need anything. 259 00:15:17,500 --> 00:15:20,125 If she starts to have an episode, come get me. 260 00:15:20,208 --> 00:15:21,083 [Father Paul] Of course. 261 00:15:38,666 --> 00:15:41,916 "The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, 262 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:44,583 and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all." 263 00:16:02,083 --> 00:16:03,541 Body of Christ, Millie. 264 00:16:10,541 --> 00:16:11,791 Blood of Christ. 265 00:16:39,125 --> 00:16:41,833 Are you really walking by without saying hi? 266 00:16:42,833 --> 00:16:45,291 [Riley] Uh, I didn't want to bother you. 267 00:16:46,083 --> 00:16:48,166 [Erin] You're very considerate. Um… 268 00:16:48,791 --> 00:16:51,583 -Do you want some tea? -No, I'm just heading back. 269 00:16:52,583 --> 00:16:53,750 How was your day? 270 00:16:57,541 --> 00:17:00,708 Wow. It's been a long time since anyone asked me that. 271 00:17:00,791 --> 00:17:02,291 In prison nobody asks? 272 00:17:03,416 --> 00:17:06,333 No, in prison no one needs to ask. Every day is exactly the same. 273 00:17:09,083 --> 00:17:10,333 How was your day? 274 00:17:11,833 --> 00:17:13,583 [Erin] Honestly, it was dull. 275 00:17:14,833 --> 00:17:16,833 Do you want my routine? I'll give it away cheap. 276 00:17:16,916 --> 00:17:20,166 Cheap? Well, it better be 'cause I'm literally broke. 277 00:17:20,875 --> 00:17:21,833 You got a pitch? 278 00:17:22,500 --> 00:17:24,125 God, you want an actual pitch? 279 00:17:25,333 --> 00:17:26,625 Used to hear a lot of pitches. 280 00:17:26,708 --> 00:17:28,958 Right, 'cause you were all Shark Tank for a second there. 281 00:17:29,041 --> 00:17:31,500 Yeah, Shark Tank meets Silicon Valley. 282 00:17:32,083 --> 00:17:33,583 Just call me Mr. Wonderful. 283 00:17:34,708 --> 00:17:35,875 Now, sharks. 284 00:17:35,958 --> 00:17:37,416 [chuckles] Mmm. 285 00:17:37,500 --> 00:17:40,583 Have you ever woken up and went to AA on the mainland, 286 00:17:40,666 --> 00:17:42,708 and thought, "There's got to be a better way." 287 00:17:42,791 --> 00:17:43,708 I'm listenin'. 288 00:17:43,791 --> 00:17:47,000 So our patented Erin Routine starts with 40 minutes of morning sickness. 289 00:17:47,083 --> 00:17:48,166 Huh, go on. 290 00:17:48,250 --> 00:17:51,833 Then, a classroom full of teenagers, all of whom think you're an idiot, 291 00:17:51,916 --> 00:17:55,250 but half of whom smell like fishing boats that they spent their mornings working. 292 00:17:55,333 --> 00:17:56,375 Nice. 293 00:17:56,458 --> 00:17:58,958 Then city council, where you will be kind of, 294 00:17:59,041 --> 00:18:02,083 -but not really, slut-shamed by Bev Keane. -Ah. 295 00:18:02,166 --> 00:18:04,166 She really misses your awful mother, by the way. 296 00:18:04,250 --> 00:18:07,291 And that is followed by an hour of evening morning sickness. 297 00:18:07,375 --> 00:18:10,500 Is evening morning sickness worse than morning morning sickness? 298 00:18:10,583 --> 00:18:12,208 Oh, substantially. 299 00:18:12,291 --> 00:18:14,166 See, for those reasons, I am out. 300 00:18:14,250 --> 00:18:15,333 That's a bummer. 301 00:18:20,250 --> 00:18:22,791 I should get going. I don't wanna keep my parents waiting. 302 00:18:24,666 --> 00:18:26,250 Some things never change. 303 00:18:29,833 --> 00:18:34,000 I remember a 15-year-old Riley sneaking out of my bedroom window, 304 00:18:34,750 --> 00:18:35,958 trying to make curfew. 305 00:18:39,833 --> 00:18:41,458 Don't want to upset the parents. 306 00:18:42,833 --> 00:18:43,791 Have a good night, Erin. 307 00:18:46,458 --> 00:18:47,333 [Erin] You too. 308 00:18:51,666 --> 00:18:57,416 ♪ Saturday morning And it's growing light ♪ 309 00:18:58,583 --> 00:19:04,833 ♪ I look out my window And remember the night ♪ 310 00:19:06,625 --> 00:19:12,125 ♪ A story is starting And this story ends ♪ 311 00:19:13,000 --> 00:19:17,666 ♪ And I feel like I need you again ♪ 312 00:19:20,458 --> 00:19:26,791 ♪ Time used to move softly When I was at home ♪ 313 00:19:27,583 --> 00:19:30,541 ♪ It went on without me… ♪ 314 00:19:32,625 --> 00:19:34,000 [door opens] 315 00:19:35,333 --> 00:19:36,208 Hi, honey. 316 00:19:38,000 --> 00:19:39,750 -[door closes] -How was your day? 317 00:19:42,041 --> 00:19:43,000 [sighs] 318 00:19:43,083 --> 00:19:47,583 ♪ And I feel like I need you again ♪ 319 00:19:50,125 --> 00:19:54,208 ♪ Ooh ♪ 320 00:19:57,708 --> 00:20:03,041 ♪ A song needs a reason and rhyme ♪ 321 00:20:05,625 --> 00:20:09,958 ♪ Ooh ♪ 322 00:20:12,916 --> 00:20:19,208 ♪ My love needs a little more time ♪ 323 00:20:21,041 --> 00:20:22,875 -[thudding] -[seagull screeches] 324 00:20:23,416 --> 00:20:24,500 How was your day? 325 00:20:24,583 --> 00:20:27,166 ♪ I recall September ♪ 326 00:20:28,916 --> 00:20:31,500 ♪ The leaves turned brown ♪ 327 00:20:34,708 --> 00:20:36,791 -[song fading] -[sound distorting] 328 00:21:00,375 --> 00:21:01,500 [air whooshing] 329 00:21:34,125 --> 00:21:35,500 [air whooshing] 330 00:22:02,083 --> 00:22:03,250 [birds squawking] 331 00:22:13,625 --> 00:22:14,458 Okay. 332 00:22:16,208 --> 00:22:17,125 Ready? 333 00:22:26,916 --> 00:22:28,333 [indistinct chatter] 334 00:22:31,125 --> 00:22:34,250 There they are. Dolly, Wade. 335 00:22:35,166 --> 00:22:36,750 Little more crowded today. 336 00:22:36,833 --> 00:22:38,375 [Bev] Mmm. Just wait till Easter. 337 00:22:38,958 --> 00:22:42,416 If it weren't for that and Christmas, some people would never come at all. 338 00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:43,750 Not like us though. 339 00:22:43,833 --> 00:22:46,583 [Father Paul] It's great to see so many of you here today. 340 00:22:47,916 --> 00:22:50,750 But I do have to ask, why not every Sunday? 341 00:22:51,791 --> 00:22:53,958 Christmas, Easter, I get that. 342 00:22:54,041 --> 00:22:59,541 But there's also always an uptick around the start of Lent. 343 00:23:00,583 --> 00:23:03,166 Why is that? What's so special about today? 344 00:23:04,291 --> 00:23:08,583 Ash Wednesday, beginning of Lent. It's hardly a crowd-pleaser. 345 00:23:08,666 --> 00:23:12,375 The beginning of repentance, making amends for our sins. 346 00:23:13,416 --> 00:23:14,625 Sin. 347 00:23:15,250 --> 00:23:19,666 This darkness, this blackness that spilled into us. 348 00:23:20,625 --> 00:23:24,875 That darkness, we wear it on our forehead today. 349 00:23:24,958 --> 00:23:26,750 Just a smudge of it. Uh… 350 00:23:26,833 --> 00:23:33,375 A smudge of death, of ash, of sin for repentance. 351 00:23:34,250 --> 00:23:38,500 Because of where this is all actually heading, which is Easter. 352 00:23:39,125 --> 00:23:43,875 Rebirth, resurrection, eternal life. Life that rises again. 353 00:23:45,958 --> 00:23:49,791 Even out of blackness, love rises again. 354 00:23:49,875 --> 00:23:53,041 Even out of sin. And this island, it will rise again. 355 00:23:53,125 --> 00:23:57,708 Even out of disaster, rebirth, restoration, eternal life. 356 00:23:57,791 --> 00:23:59,041 Jesus sees you. 357 00:24:00,000 --> 00:24:02,958 Sees you, best of all, and he sees you true. 358 00:24:03,041 --> 00:24:05,083 Because, don't forget, who did he seek out? 359 00:24:05,166 --> 00:24:08,750 Who did he turn to, to build his church? 360 00:24:08,833 --> 00:24:10,166 His apostles. 361 00:24:10,833 --> 00:24:14,166 Jesus' first disciples, they were fishermen. 362 00:24:14,250 --> 00:24:16,750 One of his first miracles, right? 363 00:24:16,833 --> 00:24:19,041 The nets are empty, fishermen desperate. 364 00:24:19,125 --> 00:24:23,708 Jesus says, "Put out into deep water and let down your nets for a catch," 365 00:24:23,791 --> 00:24:28,208 and when they pulled up those nets, a bounty of fish. 366 00:24:28,291 --> 00:24:31,291 He sees you. Oh, yes, he sees you, brothers and sisters, 367 00:24:31,375 --> 00:24:36,041 and he will resurrect this island, and he will again fill your nets. 368 00:24:36,125 --> 00:24:39,000 It's great you're here today, but please keep coming back. 369 00:24:39,083 --> 00:24:42,916 Those doors, they're always open, as the gates are always open. 370 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:45,458 You just bring yourself. God will do the rest. 371 00:24:45,541 --> 00:24:47,666 As Psalm 60 tells us, 372 00:24:47,750 --> 00:24:51,708 "God, You have rejected us, You have broken us down, 373 00:24:51,791 --> 00:24:54,958 You have been angry. Restore us again." 374 00:24:55,041 --> 00:24:58,041 Do you know what psalms are? They're songs. 375 00:24:58,125 --> 00:25:01,250 The word psalm from the Greek psalmoi. It means "music." 376 00:25:01,333 --> 00:25:03,833 Songs of prayer. Songs of praise. 377 00:25:03,916 --> 00:25:06,583 That's who we are. That's who we must be. 378 00:25:06,666 --> 00:25:09,000 That's what it means to have faith, 379 00:25:09,083 --> 00:25:12,208 that in the darkness, in the worst of it, 380 00:25:12,291 --> 00:25:16,416 in the absence of light and hope, we sing. 381 00:25:17,500 --> 00:25:22,666 "Restore us," we sing to the sky. And He will, my friends. He will. 382 00:25:22,750 --> 00:25:26,166 That same hand that dealt you your hardship, 383 00:25:26,250 --> 00:25:29,375 that same hand will make you whole. 384 00:25:36,333 --> 00:25:38,541 Remember you are dust and to dust you shall return. 385 00:25:38,625 --> 00:25:39,625 Remember you are dust… 386 00:25:39,708 --> 00:25:40,708 Lorraine, remember you are dust. 387 00:25:40,791 --> 00:25:43,125 To dust you shall return. To dust you shall return. 388 00:25:43,208 --> 00:25:46,541 Ben, remember you are dust and to dust you shall return. 389 00:25:46,625 --> 00:25:49,708 Fiona, remember you are dust and to dust you shall return. 390 00:25:50,416 --> 00:25:53,916 Erin, remember you are dust and to dust you shall return. 391 00:25:56,666 --> 00:25:59,875 Tom, remember you are dust and to dust… 392 00:25:59,958 --> 00:26:01,958 Riley, come. 393 00:26:02,041 --> 00:26:03,791 No, Mom, it's okay. Just go ahead. 394 00:26:04,375 --> 00:26:06,125 No, honey. It's not a sacrament. 395 00:26:06,208 --> 00:26:08,375 It's a blessing. Please. 396 00:26:08,458 --> 00:26:12,583 Edward, remember you are dust and to dust you shall return. 397 00:26:16,750 --> 00:26:19,500 Riley, remember you are dust… 398 00:26:23,583 --> 00:26:25,416 and to dust you shall return. 399 00:26:28,208 --> 00:26:29,250 Bless you, son. 400 00:26:31,375 --> 00:26:32,375 Amen. 401 00:26:37,166 --> 00:26:41,333 Remember, Father Paul, you are dust and to dust you shall return. 402 00:26:43,250 --> 00:26:46,875 ♪ It's comin' through a hole in the air ♪ 403 00:26:48,333 --> 00:26:52,083 ♪ From those nights in Tiananmen Square ♪ 404 00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:59,083 ♪ It's coming from the feel That this ain't exactly real ♪ 405 00:26:59,166 --> 00:27:02,833 ♪ Or it's real But it ain't exactly there ♪ 406 00:27:03,875 --> 00:27:05,541 [indistinct chatter] 407 00:27:05,625 --> 00:27:09,666 ♪ From the war against disorder From the sirens night and day ♪ 408 00:27:10,333 --> 00:27:12,916 ♪ From the fires of the homeless ♪ 409 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:15,208 ♪ From the ashes of the gay… ♪ 410 00:27:15,291 --> 00:27:16,916 [singing continues] 411 00:27:18,583 --> 00:27:19,708 [Ed] You know how it works. 412 00:27:19,791 --> 00:27:21,958 The catch goes up and the subsidies go down. 413 00:27:22,041 --> 00:27:24,333 -Just a bump. -And we're right back where we started. 414 00:27:24,416 --> 00:27:26,833 -It's 3%. Even two would help. -I can't. Wish I could. 415 00:27:30,875 --> 00:27:32,208 [indistinct chatter] 416 00:27:36,666 --> 00:27:38,458 [Bev] This used to be quite the event. 417 00:27:38,541 --> 00:27:41,708 You'd have nothing to compare it to, your first one and all, but… 418 00:27:41,791 --> 00:27:44,708 Well, it used to just be a spring festival, 419 00:27:44,791 --> 00:27:46,541 but then St. Patrick's came in 420 00:27:46,625 --> 00:27:50,250 and we coined the phrase, you know, "Crock Pot Luck." 421 00:27:50,333 --> 00:27:52,833 Tried to make it really something. 422 00:27:53,541 --> 00:27:56,208 Well, we're thrilled to be here. Aren't we? 423 00:27:56,916 --> 00:27:58,083 Yeah. Yeah. 424 00:27:59,083 --> 00:28:01,250 -I'm gonna go hang out with Warren. -Yeah, have fun. 425 00:28:03,583 --> 00:28:04,875 [Sarah] Are you glad you came? 426 00:28:04,958 --> 00:28:06,583 Oh, yeah. My kinda second date. 427 00:28:06,666 --> 00:28:08,208 [Sarah chuckles] 428 00:28:08,291 --> 00:28:10,041 Now, I've been curious about this place 429 00:28:10,125 --> 00:28:13,291 ever since I saw it on the news, after that tanker crashed. 430 00:28:14,041 --> 00:28:18,500 It is, though, everything you said. You've gotta get outta here. 431 00:28:19,166 --> 00:28:21,958 Well, I don't know how to move my mother anywhere else. 432 00:28:22,041 --> 00:28:23,541 I think that time has passed. 433 00:28:24,166 --> 00:28:28,250 And this is where she wants to be. It's the only place she ever knew. 434 00:28:29,041 --> 00:28:31,875 I don't want her dying anywhere unfamiliar. 435 00:28:32,958 --> 00:28:34,166 But yes. 436 00:28:35,083 --> 00:28:36,916 After that, I gotta get out of here. 437 00:28:37,666 --> 00:28:40,958 Well, don't look now, but I think we're upsetting your clergy. 438 00:28:41,916 --> 00:28:42,750 [Sarah] Oh. 439 00:28:43,416 --> 00:28:44,791 He's not mine. 440 00:28:44,875 --> 00:28:48,041 He's new. But I guess they all kind of have that same… 441 00:28:49,666 --> 00:28:53,208 They have had the same old monsignor here since before I was born. 442 00:28:53,875 --> 00:28:57,500 And he would stare at me just like that. 443 00:28:57,583 --> 00:29:00,000 All the time. Even back when I was a kid. 444 00:29:00,583 --> 00:29:02,625 I remember it freaking me out, thinking-- 445 00:29:02,708 --> 00:29:05,375 -He knows. -Oh, yeah. Exactly, he knew! [chuckles] 446 00:29:06,083 --> 00:29:07,083 [singing continues] 447 00:29:14,666 --> 00:29:15,750 [sighs] 448 00:29:19,208 --> 00:29:20,750 This is nice, isn't it? 449 00:29:20,833 --> 00:29:23,333 Uh, yeah. Everybody seems to be havin' fun. 450 00:29:24,083 --> 00:29:28,458 [Father Paul] Easter Festival on Crockett Island. It's a special thing. 451 00:29:28,541 --> 00:29:31,958 I've always preferred Easter, even to Christmas, if I'm honest. 452 00:29:32,833 --> 00:29:36,666 This is my favorite time of year. Renewal, resurrection. 453 00:29:37,375 --> 00:29:39,125 How's Monsignor Pruitt doin'? 454 00:29:39,791 --> 00:29:41,500 Is he comin' back anytime soon? 455 00:29:41,583 --> 00:29:44,541 This was one of his favorites too, the Crock Pot Luck. 456 00:29:44,625 --> 00:29:46,250 I think he coined that. 457 00:29:46,333 --> 00:29:48,375 Yeah, he's doin' well. He's better. 458 00:29:49,375 --> 00:29:50,208 Not great. 459 00:29:50,291 --> 00:29:53,958 He speaks fondly of you, though, by the way. Remembers you well. 460 00:29:55,791 --> 00:29:58,750 Is he, uh, up and about at all? 461 00:29:58,833 --> 00:29:59,833 Why do you ask? 462 00:30:01,375 --> 00:30:02,750 Nothing, just… 463 00:30:04,833 --> 00:30:07,458 The other night when it was really blowing, I… 464 00:30:08,833 --> 00:30:12,666 I swear I saw him down on the beach. Just walking in the rain. 465 00:30:12,750 --> 00:30:14,916 Uh-huh. Seems unlikely. 466 00:30:15,000 --> 00:30:17,791 Yeah, I suppose it could have been someone else, but… 467 00:30:18,750 --> 00:30:21,166 The hat, the coat. It… 468 00:30:22,416 --> 00:30:26,458 It's nuts, I know. If he's off-island, that is. 469 00:30:27,041 --> 00:30:31,041 Uh, I spoke to him that night on the phone. 470 00:30:31,125 --> 00:30:35,333 This was before the storm, to bring him up to speed on my first day. 471 00:30:35,416 --> 00:30:38,500 It was after the afternoon ferry. 472 00:30:39,083 --> 00:30:44,625 It was a landline in his room, so, I mean, unless he swam here. 473 00:30:45,875 --> 00:30:48,916 Between you and I, Riley, and I am sorry to say this to you, 474 00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:51,583 that man isn't going anywhere. Not anytime soon. 475 00:30:53,500 --> 00:30:54,666 I'm sorry to hear that. 476 00:30:56,583 --> 00:30:57,500 Yeah. 477 00:30:58,250 --> 00:30:59,791 Everything has its season. 478 00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:04,541 Well, I appreciate your time, Father, 479 00:31:04,625 --> 00:31:07,833 but I bet there's a lot of people here who'd like your company too. 480 00:31:07,916 --> 00:31:11,083 I don't wanna hold you up with the town pariah. 481 00:31:12,125 --> 00:31:15,541 Pariah. Well, no… Okay, you smoked me out. 482 00:31:15,625 --> 00:31:18,416 I actually have an agenda. Your mother mentioned to me 483 00:31:18,500 --> 00:31:22,791 that you have to travel to the mainland for your AA meetings. 484 00:31:22,875 --> 00:31:26,291 Get that stamp for the parole board. Yes? 485 00:31:26,375 --> 00:31:27,291 Thanks, Mom. 486 00:31:27,375 --> 00:31:30,833 Well, it got me thinking that I can start a chapter here, anytime. 487 00:31:30,916 --> 00:31:32,833 I could save you that trip to the mainland. 488 00:31:32,916 --> 00:31:36,041 Spare you having to burn through a whole day waiting on the Belle. 489 00:31:36,625 --> 00:31:38,458 We could meet at the rec center. 490 00:31:38,541 --> 00:31:42,833 I… I understand why Crockett doesn't have a chapter already. 491 00:31:42,916 --> 00:31:44,791 I can't imagine that there's much of a demand. 492 00:31:44,875 --> 00:31:47,416 But that doesn't mean that there isn't a need. 493 00:31:48,166 --> 00:31:51,083 Plenty of problem drinkers, especially these days. 494 00:31:51,166 --> 00:31:52,875 One full-blown alcoholic already, 495 00:31:52,958 --> 00:31:55,916 who's responsible for the drunken hunting accident 496 00:31:56,000 --> 00:31:59,041 that paralyzed little Leeza, I'm told. 497 00:31:59,541 --> 00:32:02,291 [Riley] Yeah, I don't know that I'd call it a "hunting accident." 498 00:32:03,250 --> 00:32:08,875 There's not much big game around here. I think Joe was just shootin' to shoot. 499 00:32:09,833 --> 00:32:11,833 [Father Paul] Yeah, and he still won't put down the bottle. 500 00:32:11,916 --> 00:32:14,958 But someone like you, Riley, someone who already has, 501 00:32:15,041 --> 00:32:17,083 could set quite the example. 502 00:32:17,166 --> 00:32:19,083 Can you imagine that? The good you could do? 503 00:32:19,166 --> 00:32:21,375 Just by skipping a trip to the mainland? 504 00:32:22,166 --> 00:32:23,875 Sorry, do you mind if I interrupt? 505 00:32:24,708 --> 00:32:26,250 Not at all, Miss Greene. 506 00:32:26,333 --> 00:32:28,250 Really enjoyed your homily today, Father. 507 00:32:28,333 --> 00:32:31,583 -Oh, thank you. Beautiful day, isn't it? -[Erin] Mmm-hmm. 508 00:32:32,416 --> 00:32:34,875 Think about what I said. No hard feelings either way. 509 00:32:39,666 --> 00:32:41,291 [vocalizes] 510 00:32:44,291 --> 00:32:46,208 -[music stops] -[all applauding] 511 00:32:48,458 --> 00:32:51,833 ♪ If you could read my mind, love ♪ 512 00:32:51,916 --> 00:32:55,166 ♪ What a tale my thoughts could tell ♪ 513 00:32:55,875 --> 00:32:58,041 They gave you three. That's ambitious. 514 00:32:58,125 --> 00:33:00,000 -I guess they didn't get the memo. -Yeah. 515 00:33:00,583 --> 00:33:03,875 I used to think, "One day I'll be older, and I'll get drink tickets 516 00:33:03,958 --> 00:33:06,166 and I will exchange them for a glass of wine." 517 00:33:06,250 --> 00:33:08,208 "And that's when I'll feel like an adult." 518 00:33:09,375 --> 00:33:10,875 And now here we are. 519 00:33:10,958 --> 00:33:15,375 Two adults with drink tickets that neither of us can use. 520 00:33:17,791 --> 00:33:21,166 My mom used to go around and ask everybody if they were gonna use theirs, 521 00:33:21,250 --> 00:33:24,666 and at the end of the day she would have a handful of these blue tickets 522 00:33:24,750 --> 00:33:26,333 that she would dutifully spend. 523 00:33:28,166 --> 00:33:30,958 Night after the potluck was not great at my house. 524 00:33:31,041 --> 00:33:32,250 I'm sorry. 525 00:33:32,916 --> 00:33:35,416 It's okay. She's just everywhere here. 526 00:33:35,500 --> 00:33:38,375 Her memory. I work in the same job. 527 00:33:38,458 --> 00:33:40,875 I live in the same house, sleep in the same bed. 528 00:33:40,958 --> 00:33:42,208 And I'm alone just like her. 529 00:33:42,291 --> 00:33:45,625 And I keep telling myself it's only temporary, but I-- 530 00:33:45,708 --> 00:33:46,916 You're nothin' like her. 531 00:33:48,791 --> 00:33:51,416 I remember that much. And you're gonna be… 532 00:33:53,208 --> 00:33:54,916 -Fine. -Great. 533 00:33:56,375 --> 00:33:59,708 As a teacher, as a mother, whatever else you do. 534 00:34:01,000 --> 00:34:03,625 There's a lot I don't know about you anymore, but I know that. 535 00:34:04,500 --> 00:34:06,000 You're gonna be great. 536 00:34:06,083 --> 00:34:09,000 -[Joe] Pike! Pike! -[Pike yelping] 537 00:34:10,416 --> 00:34:14,000 -[Joe] Pike! Pike! Pike! -[Pike whimpers] 538 00:34:14,083 --> 00:34:15,500 -[woman] Is he okay? -[Joe] Pike! 539 00:34:16,416 --> 00:34:20,166 [sobbing] Oh, God, no. Pike. Pike! 540 00:34:20,250 --> 00:34:21,458 [Pike whimpering] 541 00:34:23,416 --> 00:34:25,791 [Joe] Oh, my God, no! 542 00:34:26,541 --> 00:34:27,791 No, Pike. 543 00:34:27,875 --> 00:34:29,000 [Pike whines] 544 00:34:29,958 --> 00:34:32,333 No. Baby boy, no. 545 00:34:32,416 --> 00:34:35,708 -[Pike gurgles] -[Joe] Oh, my boy. 546 00:34:35,791 --> 00:34:37,541 [sobbing] 547 00:34:41,875 --> 00:34:43,375 What happened? 548 00:34:44,791 --> 00:34:47,083 Who did this? Who did it? 549 00:34:50,208 --> 00:34:52,916 Who did this? Which one of you? 550 00:34:54,708 --> 00:34:59,250 Who did this to a helpless little dog? 551 00:34:59,333 --> 00:35:02,291 Oh, my God. Pike. 552 00:35:03,833 --> 00:35:06,333 Hey. Easy now, Joe. 553 00:35:07,791 --> 00:35:10,750 -Any idea what happened? -Yes. He was poisoned! 554 00:35:11,541 --> 00:35:13,000 That's what happened. 555 00:35:13,875 --> 00:35:16,166 You don't like me? That's fine! 556 00:35:16,791 --> 00:35:19,791 Shit I done, I don't care about me so much either. 557 00:35:19,875 --> 00:35:23,916 But what did he ever do? What did he ever do to you? 558 00:35:24,000 --> 00:35:26,750 Sheriff, Joe, I'm not a vet but, may I? 559 00:35:29,583 --> 00:35:30,833 Can you help? 560 00:35:33,708 --> 00:35:35,500 Did anybody see him eat anything? 561 00:35:36,583 --> 00:35:38,791 Maybe he got into something that he shouldn't have. 562 00:35:39,583 --> 00:35:42,375 Or maybe it was a horrible accident. 563 00:35:42,458 --> 00:35:44,583 An accident? [scoffs] 564 00:35:51,958 --> 00:35:52,958 [clears throat] 565 00:35:55,333 --> 00:35:56,208 Joe. 566 00:35:56,791 --> 00:35:57,625 How… 567 00:35:58,166 --> 00:36:01,041 Oh, my baby boy is dead. 568 00:36:01,541 --> 00:36:03,958 All right, everybody, come on. Let's go. Come on. 569 00:36:04,041 --> 00:36:06,708 Let's go, everybody. You heard the sheriff. Let's go. 570 00:36:06,791 --> 00:36:08,041 Let's give them some room, huh? 571 00:36:08,708 --> 00:36:13,541 ♪ Amid th’ encircling gloom ♪ 572 00:36:14,041 --> 00:36:17,125 ♪ Lead thou me on ♪ 573 00:36:17,208 --> 00:36:18,916 [muttering indistinctly] 574 00:36:19,583 --> 00:36:23,875 ♪ The night is dark ♪ 575 00:36:23,958 --> 00:36:28,708 ♪ And I am far from home ♪ 576 00:36:28,791 --> 00:36:33,750 ♪ Lead thou me on ♪ 577 00:36:34,416 --> 00:36:38,500 ♪ Keep thou my feet ♪ 578 00:36:38,583 --> 00:36:43,625 ♪ I do not ask to see… ♪ 579 00:36:44,250 --> 00:36:45,083 Mornin'. 580 00:36:48,375 --> 00:36:50,041 Mornin'. You're up early. 581 00:36:50,708 --> 00:36:54,083 Yeah, I was hopin' maybe I can help out on the boat. 582 00:36:56,041 --> 00:36:59,250 Just… I wanna be of use, Dad. 583 00:37:00,416 --> 00:37:01,416 [sighs] 584 00:37:02,208 --> 00:37:04,583 Well, you're gonna need better shoes. 585 00:37:07,583 --> 00:37:10,041 I'll go see if I can find some. 586 00:37:13,750 --> 00:37:16,083 [Bev] Here we are again. Back to normal. 587 00:37:17,291 --> 00:37:21,958 Funny how the pews empty back out once everyone has their ashes, isn't it? 588 00:37:27,166 --> 00:37:28,416 [indistinct chatter] 589 00:37:30,375 --> 00:37:34,500 ♪ So long thy pow'r ♪ 590 00:37:34,583 --> 00:37:39,500 ♪ Hath blest me, sure it still ♪ 591 00:37:39,583 --> 00:37:44,458 ♪ Will lead me on… ♪ 592 00:37:47,916 --> 00:37:49,333 Blood of Christ, Leeza. 593 00:37:49,416 --> 00:37:50,541 Amen. 594 00:38:01,541 --> 00:38:03,958 -Whoa, Dad, your back! -[Ed] No, no. It's… 595 00:38:06,000 --> 00:38:07,333 It's okay, I'm good. 596 00:38:08,500 --> 00:38:09,375 I'm good. 597 00:38:10,000 --> 00:38:14,666 ♪ Which I have loved ♪ 598 00:38:15,208 --> 00:38:20,666 ♪ Long since, and lost awhile ♪ 599 00:38:21,791 --> 00:38:24,791 You, straight home. No funny stuff. 600 00:38:32,833 --> 00:38:33,916 [Hassan] Can I help you there? 601 00:38:35,000 --> 00:38:37,000 [exhales] Sheriff. 602 00:38:37,500 --> 00:38:41,375 My goodness, you startled me. What on earth brings you here? 603 00:38:42,416 --> 00:38:44,916 Can't imagine your job brings you here, does it? 604 00:38:45,000 --> 00:38:47,416 Last thing we need is one of our kids in trouble. 605 00:38:47,500 --> 00:38:48,875 No, no, it's nothing like that. 606 00:38:48,958 --> 00:38:52,000 I'm just following up on our little island mystery. 607 00:38:52,750 --> 00:38:53,875 The cats. 608 00:38:54,791 --> 00:38:55,916 The dog. 609 00:38:57,375 --> 00:38:58,791 We confirmed that it was poison. 610 00:38:58,875 --> 00:39:00,750 Oh. That's tragic. 611 00:39:00,833 --> 00:39:01,708 [Hassan] I was wondering, 612 00:39:02,583 --> 00:39:08,166 you were talkin' a while back about that rat stuff, compound, what was it-- 613 00:39:08,250 --> 00:39:09,166 Ten-eighty. 614 00:39:09,250 --> 00:39:11,916 Ten-eighty. That's it behind you, isn't it? 615 00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:13,000 It is. 616 00:39:14,166 --> 00:39:15,541 And yes, you're correct. 617 00:39:15,625 --> 00:39:17,291 After those cats, 618 00:39:17,375 --> 00:39:19,791 not knowing what on earth could have done it, 619 00:39:19,875 --> 00:39:23,041 I put some out, strategically, carefully, around my property. 620 00:39:23,125 --> 00:39:25,458 A few others requested I do the same for them. 621 00:39:25,541 --> 00:39:29,458 And if that poor dog, if it ingested some, accidentally, 622 00:39:30,458 --> 00:39:31,916 well, I'll just be a wreck. 623 00:39:32,708 --> 00:39:33,875 Is that what you're telling me? 624 00:39:34,958 --> 00:39:37,583 Please, if that's what occurred, if you're certain… 625 00:39:38,125 --> 00:39:40,458 Well, I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself. 626 00:39:41,625 --> 00:39:42,833 So is it? 627 00:39:43,958 --> 00:39:45,125 And are you? 628 00:39:46,333 --> 00:39:48,333 Certain, I mean. 629 00:39:49,791 --> 00:39:51,166 I'm not telling you that. 630 00:39:51,916 --> 00:39:54,041 Can't say just about anything for certain. 631 00:39:55,625 --> 00:39:59,041 Anyone else tend to have access to those chemicals? 632 00:39:59,125 --> 00:40:00,666 Well, I should hope so. 633 00:40:00,750 --> 00:40:03,583 They're for the whole island, after all. We just store them here. 634 00:40:04,583 --> 00:40:07,708 Heck, you walked right on in here, didn't you? 635 00:40:08,208 --> 00:40:12,333 If you had wanted to grab a gallon, who would have known it? 636 00:40:14,708 --> 00:40:16,166 You are right, Sheriff. 637 00:40:17,375 --> 00:40:19,583 I see what you're getting at and you are right. 638 00:40:21,416 --> 00:40:23,541 I should really lock these up. 639 00:40:30,541 --> 00:40:31,958 You have a good day, Bev. 640 00:40:32,041 --> 00:40:34,041 You do the same, Sheriff. 641 00:40:47,583 --> 00:40:50,500 I'll come by the next couple weeks, change the oil and air filter for you. 642 00:40:50,583 --> 00:40:51,833 Should be good for a while though. 643 00:40:51,916 --> 00:40:55,291 Why are you doin' this to me, man? I'm trying to quit dark sodas. 644 00:40:55,375 --> 00:40:56,291 [Joe chuckles] 645 00:40:56,375 --> 00:40:59,458 I don't know if I have enough on me. I can write ya a check. 646 00:41:00,541 --> 00:41:01,625 You're good. 647 00:41:02,416 --> 00:41:03,458 [Joe] Next time. 648 00:41:04,250 --> 00:41:06,541 Yeah, that'll work. Just try not to run it for long. 649 00:41:07,041 --> 00:41:09,500 -Only for, like, legit emergencies. -Yeah, yeah, yeah. 650 00:41:09,583 --> 00:41:10,708 [Hassan] Joe. 651 00:41:13,125 --> 00:41:14,083 [Joe] Sharif. 652 00:41:15,166 --> 00:41:16,500 What are you doing here, Bowl? 653 00:41:17,250 --> 00:41:19,958 Helping my man, Joe. Same as every month. 654 00:41:20,041 --> 00:41:23,541 He keeps my genny going. Changes the filters once in a while. 655 00:41:23,625 --> 00:41:27,541 And if I search your pockets, that's what I'll find? Air filters? 656 00:41:28,500 --> 00:41:31,583 If you try to search my pockets, you'll just find a fist up your ass. 657 00:41:31,666 --> 00:41:34,750 [Joe chuckles] Okay. Stop kiddin', you crazy little fuck. That's… 658 00:41:34,833 --> 00:41:39,166 Sheriff, you search whatever you want on my property. You knock yourself out. 659 00:41:39,875 --> 00:41:43,583 My friend here is just leaving, and he means no harm. 660 00:41:43,666 --> 00:41:47,708 Not his fault he was born woefully fuckin' unfunny. 661 00:42:00,208 --> 00:42:01,833 Kid's just helping me out. 662 00:42:01,916 --> 00:42:03,250 Kid's a drug dealer. 663 00:42:03,333 --> 00:42:04,958 Not when he's here, he's not. 664 00:42:05,750 --> 00:42:09,333 And he's about the only person on this island treats me like a human being. 665 00:42:09,416 --> 00:42:11,541 So if that's the reason, 666 00:42:11,625 --> 00:42:14,333 well, I kind of wish all you assholes was drug dealers. 667 00:42:14,916 --> 00:42:16,083 Did you charge her yet? 668 00:42:16,166 --> 00:42:18,833 Miss Keane insists she has no idea what happened. 669 00:42:18,916 --> 00:42:23,458 Oh, she insists? Why didn't you just fuckin' say so. That changes everything. 670 00:42:23,541 --> 00:42:26,041 Now, there was some chemicals nearby for rats and such. 671 00:42:26,125 --> 00:42:26,958 [Joe] Rats. 672 00:42:27,041 --> 00:42:29,291 -If the dog got into something by-- -Pike. 673 00:42:30,500 --> 00:42:31,583 His name was Pike. 674 00:42:32,416 --> 00:42:34,666 If Pike got into something by accident-- 675 00:42:34,750 --> 00:42:37,166 There weren't no accident, okay? 676 00:42:37,791 --> 00:42:39,500 But you know what, Sheriff? 677 00:42:39,583 --> 00:42:41,958 I didn't expect this would go any different. 678 00:42:42,541 --> 00:42:45,791 Not with me, not here, not with her. 679 00:42:45,875 --> 00:42:49,041 She killed half the island with that fucking settlement. 680 00:42:49,125 --> 00:42:51,916 -What's one more dog on the pile? -Look, I hear you, Joe. 681 00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:55,458 Yeah, I've known that woman since grade school. 682 00:42:55,541 --> 00:42:58,250 And nothing she's ever done or does is by… 683 00:42:58,958 --> 00:43:00,750 You know what? Forget it. 684 00:43:01,375 --> 00:43:03,500 You're a smart man, Sharif, 685 00:43:03,583 --> 00:43:07,333 but in this case, you don't know what the fuck you're talking about. 686 00:43:07,416 --> 00:43:09,541 So let's just leave it there. 687 00:43:09,625 --> 00:43:12,250 I know Bev Keane too, all right? Not as well as you, 688 00:43:12,916 --> 00:43:14,958 but enough to know you're not wrong about her. 689 00:43:16,458 --> 00:43:17,708 You're not wrong, Joe. 690 00:43:20,333 --> 00:43:21,500 Thank you. 691 00:43:36,166 --> 00:43:39,083 I gotta say, to be honest, I hadn't really considered 692 00:43:39,166 --> 00:43:41,083 how awkward this would be with just two people. 693 00:43:41,166 --> 00:43:43,625 I really don't know how to start. [chuckles] 694 00:43:44,250 --> 00:43:46,958 -Riley. Alcoholic. -Hi, Riley. 695 00:43:48,291 --> 00:43:51,625 All right, would you object if I began with Serenity? 696 00:43:51,708 --> 00:43:54,000 Uh, be my guest. 697 00:43:54,083 --> 00:43:55,166 [Father Paul] All right. 698 00:43:56,833 --> 00:44:00,000 God grant me the serenity to accept the things that I can… 699 00:44:01,916 --> 00:44:03,666 -Maybe we should do it together. -Mmm. 700 00:44:04,291 --> 00:44:06,333 [both] To accept the things I cannot change, 701 00:44:06,416 --> 00:44:11,583 the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. 702 00:44:12,333 --> 00:44:13,291 Amen. 703 00:44:13,958 --> 00:44:18,416 [clicks tongue] And we're off. So how do you wanna do this? 704 00:44:19,250 --> 00:44:20,750 I think we just talk. 705 00:44:22,250 --> 00:44:23,333 Okay. 706 00:44:24,000 --> 00:44:24,916 Um… 707 00:44:28,208 --> 00:44:31,541 -I kinda wanna talk about this place. -Oh. 708 00:44:32,458 --> 00:44:35,083 Way I hear it, Bev Keane was encouraging people 709 00:44:35,166 --> 00:44:38,958 to take the settlements from the oil companies almost from the start. 710 00:44:39,041 --> 00:44:40,666 It seemed like a lot of money, I guess, 711 00:44:40,750 --> 00:44:43,750 until you hold it up against a couple years of lost wages, 712 00:44:43,833 --> 00:44:46,791 but not a lot of people really doing that math back then. 713 00:44:48,750 --> 00:44:49,833 And there's Bev Keane saying, 714 00:44:49,916 --> 00:44:52,416 "Go ahead, take the cash. It's a gift from God." 715 00:44:52,500 --> 00:44:55,333 "And maybe give a little back to God while you're at it." 716 00:44:55,916 --> 00:44:56,833 And they do. 717 00:44:56,916 --> 00:45:00,166 Take the money, they turn around and hand some of it right to the church, 718 00:45:00,250 --> 00:45:06,916 which, with Pruitt being sick as he was, means they really were giving it to her. 719 00:45:07,500 --> 00:45:09,333 And that won't look right, I guess. 720 00:45:09,416 --> 00:45:13,083 So, lo and behold, she builds this rec center. [scoffs] 721 00:45:14,208 --> 00:45:16,666 Who knows if it actually cost as much as people gave her. 722 00:45:17,416 --> 00:45:20,625 With so many of them gone now, there's really no way to know for sure. 723 00:45:21,500 --> 00:45:23,125 Catholic Church in a nutshell. 724 00:45:23,750 --> 00:45:24,833 All over the world, 725 00:45:25,416 --> 00:45:30,791 these small, starving villages with big, fancy churches. 726 00:45:31,583 --> 00:45:34,375 Gettin' bigger and fancier, while the towns dry up. 727 00:45:34,458 --> 00:45:40,041 Churches just poppin' up like fat, plump little ticks suckin' the town dry. 728 00:45:40,916 --> 00:45:46,041 [hesitates] Okay, so… We can safely say you're not practicing. 729 00:45:46,125 --> 00:45:47,958 -That's safe. -Not always the case, though. 730 00:45:48,041 --> 00:45:49,500 You were an altar boy. 731 00:45:50,250 --> 00:45:51,750 Does that surprise you? 732 00:45:51,833 --> 00:45:55,083 Monsignor Pruitt said that, uh, back in the day, 733 00:45:55,166 --> 00:45:57,541 he didn't think you lacked for belief or faith. 734 00:45:57,625 --> 00:46:02,000 Yeah, I'd rather not go too far down that road tonight. 735 00:46:02,083 --> 00:46:03,708 I mean, you seem like a nice guy. 736 00:46:03,791 --> 00:46:07,166 You're doin' me a favor. I just would not want to offend you. 737 00:46:07,250 --> 00:46:08,416 That's tough to do. 738 00:46:09,000 --> 00:46:13,166 And AA, it's not about protecting people's feelings, is it? 739 00:46:13,250 --> 00:46:16,000 It's about recovery, responsibility, honesty, 740 00:46:16,083 --> 00:46:18,125 support, more than anything else. 741 00:46:18,208 --> 00:46:22,458 -And of course, the higher power. -Yeah, that part. 742 00:46:22,541 --> 00:46:24,208 -Mmm-hmm. -See, it's… 743 00:46:25,375 --> 00:46:28,750 It's not the only game in town as far as recovery, you know? 744 00:46:28,833 --> 00:46:30,291 You ever heard of RR? 745 00:46:31,000 --> 00:46:33,541 -RR? -AA for pirates? 746 00:46:33,625 --> 00:46:35,416 Oh. [chuckles] 747 00:46:35,500 --> 00:46:40,083 "Rational Recovery." It's based more on reason and psychology. 748 00:46:40,166 --> 00:46:42,625 It's about empowering people instead of saying they're powerless. 749 00:46:42,708 --> 00:46:45,250 So you're the higher power, is that how it works? 750 00:46:45,333 --> 00:46:49,000 Addictive Voice Recognition Technique, that's how it works. AVRT. 751 00:46:49,083 --> 00:46:52,166 -Oh. -Recognizing the addictive voice inside. 752 00:46:52,250 --> 00:46:56,000 It's not that I want to drink, it's that the addictive voice wants to, the AV. 753 00:46:56,083 --> 00:47:00,625 So you learn to identify it, separate it and control it. 754 00:47:00,708 --> 00:47:03,750 Being your own higher power, how is that working out for you? 755 00:47:03,833 --> 00:47:05,750 I haven't had a drop in four years. 756 00:47:05,833 --> 00:47:08,541 Not much of a selection in prison though, is there? 757 00:47:08,625 --> 00:47:09,958 [chuckles] No. 758 00:47:10,041 --> 00:47:13,583 Look, Jesus' first miracle was turning water into wine. 759 00:47:13,666 --> 00:47:18,583 Alcohol isn't good or bad. Not itself. But it's people. 760 00:47:19,250 --> 00:47:20,166 Mmm? 761 00:47:21,000 --> 00:47:22,458 Do you know how many of us have this problem? 762 00:47:22,541 --> 00:47:24,416 It's a lot actually, 1 in 12 of us. 763 00:47:25,708 --> 00:47:27,500 -I haven't counted. -Yeah, 12. 764 00:47:27,583 --> 00:47:30,833 That's a funny coincidence, that number pops up a lot in the Bible, 765 00:47:30,916 --> 00:47:33,875 but there's 1 in 12 of us for whom alcohol, 766 00:47:33,958 --> 00:47:36,958 this thing which isn't good or bad, causes great suffering. 767 00:47:37,041 --> 00:47:38,291 Caused you suffering. 768 00:47:39,250 --> 00:47:40,625 I know it did that. 769 00:47:40,708 --> 00:47:45,500 God can take that pain and turn it into something good. 770 00:47:45,583 --> 00:47:47,291 Something with purpose. 771 00:47:48,333 --> 00:47:50,125 Suffering can be a gift. 772 00:47:50,208 --> 00:47:51,708 It all just depends on us. 773 00:47:52,500 --> 00:47:54,541 What we do with it, how we react to it. 774 00:47:54,625 --> 00:47:58,041 So, alcohol, that isn't good or bad. 775 00:47:58,833 --> 00:48:02,708 The same with guilt, grief, suffering. 776 00:48:02,791 --> 00:48:05,208 It just depends on what we do with it. 777 00:48:06,208 --> 00:48:08,083 What's more empowering than that? 778 00:48:08,166 --> 00:48:09,125 No. 779 00:48:10,416 --> 00:48:13,083 Alcohol isn't good or bad. 780 00:48:14,250 --> 00:48:18,000 But the version of me that would come out when I had enough to drink, 781 00:48:19,500 --> 00:48:20,458 he was bad. 782 00:48:21,750 --> 00:48:24,583 He was selfish and careless, and he ruined my life. 783 00:48:25,666 --> 00:48:29,458 There is a saboteur inside of me, 784 00:48:29,541 --> 00:48:32,041 and I always thought, you know, we'd work it out. 785 00:48:32,125 --> 00:48:36,041 We'd learn to live with each other, because he wouldn't really hurt me. 786 00:48:36,708 --> 00:48:39,375 Not me. I fed him, so he wouldn't hurt me. 787 00:48:40,916 --> 00:48:43,666 And then one morning I woke up and found out he killed someone. 788 00:48:52,583 --> 00:48:54,875 I had killed someone. 789 00:48:55,958 --> 00:48:59,791 So who's to blame there? I am to blame there. 790 00:49:01,875 --> 00:49:03,125 And God? 791 00:49:03,833 --> 00:49:04,708 [scoffs] 792 00:49:05,333 --> 00:49:07,041 He just kinda let it happen, didn't he? 793 00:49:08,291 --> 00:49:11,833 See that? That's the part I cannot square. 794 00:49:11,916 --> 00:49:15,291 Because you're right, there is so much suffering in the world. 795 00:49:16,000 --> 00:49:18,083 So much. And then there's this higher power. 796 00:49:18,166 --> 00:49:22,000 This higher power who could erase all that pain, 797 00:49:22,083 --> 00:49:25,541 just wave his hand and make it all go away, but doesn't? 798 00:49:27,208 --> 00:49:28,250 No. 799 00:49:29,541 --> 00:49:30,791 No, thank you. 800 00:49:30,875 --> 00:49:34,083 The worst part is that it lets all the rest of us off the hook. 801 00:49:34,166 --> 00:49:36,166 We can all just stand by 802 00:49:36,250 --> 00:49:39,208 and watch Leeza Scarborough wheel herself around town. 803 00:49:39,291 --> 00:49:41,750 We can watch Joe Collie slowly drink himself to death. 804 00:49:41,833 --> 00:49:45,708 We can watch so many people just slip into these bottomless pits of… 805 00:49:46,291 --> 00:49:48,500 of awful and we can stand it. 806 00:49:49,291 --> 00:49:51,500 We can tolerate it 807 00:49:51,583 --> 00:49:54,666 because we can say things like, "God works in mysterious ways." 808 00:49:54,750 --> 00:49:58,708 Like there's a plan? Like something good's gonna come out of it? 809 00:49:58,791 --> 00:50:01,083 Nothing good came out of my drinking. 810 00:50:01,666 --> 00:50:04,333 Nothing good came out of me killing that poor girl. 811 00:50:04,416 --> 00:50:06,541 Nothing good came out of Joe Collie's drinking. 812 00:50:06,625 --> 00:50:09,416 Not a single good thing comes out of Leeza never being able to walk again. 813 00:50:10,083 --> 00:50:14,041 Nothing good came out of a metric ton of crude oil filling up the bay. 814 00:50:14,125 --> 00:50:18,000 And the only thing, the only fucking thing that lets people stand by, 815 00:50:18,083 --> 00:50:21,833 watching all this suffering, doing nothing, doing fucking nothing, 816 00:50:23,000 --> 00:50:25,708 is the idea that suffering can be a gift from God. 817 00:50:28,791 --> 00:50:30,750 What a monstrous idea, Father. 818 00:50:30,833 --> 00:50:31,750 Yeah. 819 00:50:34,458 --> 00:50:35,291 Yeah. 820 00:50:37,416 --> 00:50:38,291 [inhales] 821 00:50:39,041 --> 00:50:43,000 Look, there's nothing in the scripture, or in the world for that matter, 822 00:50:43,083 --> 00:50:45,208 that suggests 823 00:50:46,666 --> 00:50:50,583 God negates personal accountability. 824 00:50:51,416 --> 00:50:55,166 There's certainly nothing in the program to suggest that. 825 00:50:55,250 --> 00:50:56,833 Not at all, in fact. 826 00:50:57,666 --> 00:51:01,333 I believe God can take our work, 827 00:51:01,416 --> 00:51:08,000 even our awful works, and turn them into something else. 828 00:51:08,750 --> 00:51:10,708 I know He can find the good in them, 829 00:51:10,791 --> 00:51:13,958 and find the love in them, whether we see it or not. 830 00:51:14,958 --> 00:51:18,416 That I know… Riley Flynn. 831 00:51:20,166 --> 00:51:21,291 That I know. 832 00:51:36,666 --> 00:51:37,541 [thudding] 833 00:51:53,833 --> 00:51:54,916 [thudding continues] 834 00:51:55,583 --> 00:51:57,375 [floorboard creaking] 835 00:52:09,125 --> 00:52:10,041 [thudding] 836 00:52:52,083 --> 00:52:53,083 [urinating] 837 00:53:18,375 --> 00:53:19,333 [inhales sharply] 838 00:53:22,541 --> 00:53:23,750 I'm so sorry. 839 00:53:24,541 --> 00:53:25,791 You did the right thing. 840 00:53:25,875 --> 00:53:27,500 It's better to be safe, you know? 841 00:53:28,750 --> 00:53:29,958 Everything's just fine. 842 00:53:30,041 --> 00:53:31,375 Oh, thank you, God. 843 00:53:33,208 --> 00:53:34,541 Yeah, everything's fine. 844 00:53:35,291 --> 00:53:37,041 -Just a little spotting. -[Erin sighs] 845 00:53:38,833 --> 00:53:40,375 I'm sorry I woke you up. 846 00:53:42,208 --> 00:53:46,000 If you hadn't, if you'd waited until tomorrow and something really was wrong? 847 00:53:46,083 --> 00:53:50,833 No, honey. That's why I'm here. You did the right thing. Here, listen. 848 00:53:51,708 --> 00:53:52,791 [heart beating] 849 00:53:55,875 --> 00:53:57,583 Hi, baby. 850 00:53:57,666 --> 00:53:59,458 See? Baby's just fine. 851 00:54:00,708 --> 00:54:02,875 Mom's a little worked up though, Littlefoot. 852 00:54:02,958 --> 00:54:04,791 It's just 'cause she loves you, though. 853 00:54:05,500 --> 00:54:07,333 -Thank you again. -Of course. 854 00:54:25,125 --> 00:54:27,291 -Sarah! Sarah! -[Sarah gasps] 855 00:54:27,375 --> 00:54:28,375 Jesus, Mom! 856 00:54:28,875 --> 00:54:30,500 -Come quick! Come! -[Sarah] Jesus. 857 00:54:30,583 --> 00:54:32,958 [Mildred] I thought I saw your father. 858 00:54:33,041 --> 00:54:35,791 His clothes. I thought it was your dad. 859 00:54:36,458 --> 00:54:38,166 Dad's been dead for 15 years. 860 00:54:39,291 --> 00:54:40,916 It's not getting any easier to tell you that. 861 00:54:41,000 --> 00:54:45,125 No, it was something else. It came right up to the window. 862 00:54:45,208 --> 00:54:47,375 Oh, Sarah. That face. 863 00:54:49,291 --> 00:54:53,166 [breathing heavily] That face. Oh. That face. 864 00:55:10,291 --> 00:55:11,375 [creaking] 865 00:55:37,625 --> 00:55:38,458 Hello? 866 00:55:39,333 --> 00:55:40,333 Somebody there? 867 00:55:48,125 --> 00:55:49,000 [echoing] Hello? 868 00:55:50,916 --> 00:55:51,750 Somebody there? 869 00:56:09,708 --> 00:56:10,625 Who's that? 870 00:56:14,125 --> 00:56:15,208 [echoing] Who's that? 871 00:56:30,416 --> 00:56:32,166 That you, Ooker? 872 00:56:43,500 --> 00:56:44,375 [thudding] 873 00:56:54,750 --> 00:56:55,666 [door shuts] 874 00:57:03,666 --> 00:57:05,541 -Good morning, Father. -[Father Paul] Leeza. 875 00:57:16,125 --> 00:57:19,291 [Bev] Our responsorial psalm today is Psalm 27. 876 00:57:20,083 --> 00:57:24,625 "The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom then shall I fear?" 877 00:57:25,375 --> 00:57:31,041 "The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom then shall I be afraid?" 878 00:57:31,125 --> 00:57:34,041 "When evildoers came upon me to eat up my flesh, 879 00:57:34,125 --> 00:57:38,083 it was they, my foes and adversaries, who stumbled and fell." 880 00:57:38,166 --> 00:57:43,375 "Though an army should encamp against me, yet my heart shall not be afraid." 881 00:57:43,458 --> 00:57:46,291 "And though war should rise up against me, 882 00:57:46,375 --> 00:57:48,208 I will put my trust in Him." 883 00:57:48,791 --> 00:57:52,625 "One thing I have asked of the Lord, one thing I seek, 884 00:57:52,708 --> 00:57:57,291 that I may dwell in the house of the Lord, all the days of my life." 885 00:57:58,750 --> 00:57:59,958 [organ playing softly] 886 00:58:11,708 --> 00:58:13,000 Body of Christ, Leeza. 887 00:58:13,833 --> 00:58:14,958 Amen. 888 00:58:22,916 --> 00:58:24,458 Come on. Body of Christ. 889 00:58:25,250 --> 00:58:27,250 Father, what are you doing? [chuckles nervously] 890 00:58:31,166 --> 00:58:32,833 -Body of Christ. -What are you doing? 891 00:58:38,291 --> 00:58:39,625 No. No. 892 00:58:39,708 --> 00:58:41,458 [crowd murmuring] 893 00:58:49,666 --> 00:58:50,625 Come on. 894 00:58:52,125 --> 00:58:53,250 Body of Christ. 895 00:58:53,333 --> 00:58:54,250 No, stop it. 896 00:58:55,291 --> 00:58:56,166 -That's cruel. -Come on. 897 00:58:56,250 --> 00:58:58,666 Leeza, honey. What is wrong with you? 898 00:58:59,250 --> 00:59:01,875 [Wade] If this is a joke, Father, it's not funny. I… 899 00:59:05,708 --> 00:59:06,666 Leeza. 900 00:59:07,750 --> 00:59:09,375 -[exclaims] -[crowd gasps] 901 00:59:16,458 --> 00:59:17,541 [breath trembling] 902 00:59:17,625 --> 00:59:18,708 [Wade] What? 903 00:59:47,125 --> 00:59:48,041 [gasps] 904 00:59:51,541 --> 00:59:52,958 Body of Christ. 905 00:59:53,625 --> 00:59:54,458 Amen. 906 01:00:01,083 --> 01:00:03,083 [serene instrumental music playing]

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3. KİTAP: ÖZDEYİŞLER
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1 00:00:06,250 --> 00:00:09,666 BİR NETFLIX DİZİSİ 2 00:00:29,416 --> 00:00:34,083 III. KİTAP: ÖZDEYİŞLER 3 00:00:51,625 --> 00:00:53,625 Bağışla beni Rab, günah işledim. 4 00:00:55,250 --> 00:00:56,375 Hayır, doğru değil. 5 00:00:59,458 --> 00:01:01,458 Bağışla beni Rab, günah işleyeceğim. 6 00:01:04,416 --> 00:01:07,166 Yarın sabah cemaate kendimi tanıtıp 7 00:01:07,250 --> 00:01:10,875 Monsenyör John Pruitt hakkında onlara yalan söyleyeceğim. 8 00:01:17,208 --> 00:01:19,708 İhmalden değil, doğrudan yalan. 9 00:01:20,833 --> 00:01:24,083 John Pruitt'i yolculuğa uğurladıklarında 10 00:01:24,166 --> 00:01:26,458 sanılandan daha hasta olduğunu söylemeyeceğim. 11 00:01:26,541 --> 00:01:29,958 Monsenyör? Monsenyör Pruitt? Nereye gidiyorsunuz? 12 00:01:30,041 --> 00:01:31,958 Bu taraftan. Grup bu tarafta. 13 00:01:32,041 --> 00:01:34,250 Sık sık tur grubundan ayrılıyordu. 14 00:01:34,333 --> 00:01:38,000 Daha ilk gün Kudüs'te kaybolup saatlerce dolaşmıştı 15 00:01:38,083 --> 00:01:39,625 ve tam anlamıyla 16 00:01:41,000 --> 00:01:42,083 dehşet içindeydi. 17 00:02:21,333 --> 00:02:24,125 Bu, yaşlılığına verilecek basit bir şey değildi. 18 00:02:24,208 --> 00:02:26,333 Hayır, o bunamış bir adamdı, 19 00:02:26,416 --> 00:02:29,666 ve cemaatte kimse itiraf etmese de hastalık ilerlemişti. 20 00:02:29,750 --> 00:02:31,083 Adamcağız… 21 00:02:33,083 --> 00:02:36,916 …dünyada ona ayrılan vakti fazlasıyla geçirmişti. 22 00:02:39,333 --> 00:02:41,916 Bunların hiç birini onlara söylemeyeceğim. 23 00:02:43,666 --> 00:02:46,166 Ana karada bir hastanede iyileşmekte olduğunu, 24 00:02:46,250 --> 00:02:49,291 her şeyin normale dönebileceğini, 25 00:02:49,375 --> 00:02:51,708 hatırladıkları gibi biri olabileceğini, 26 00:02:51,791 --> 00:02:55,041 yeniden yıllar boyunca alışıp sevdikleri 27 00:02:56,708 --> 00:03:00,291 liderleri ve çobanları olabileceğini söyleyeceğim. 28 00:03:00,791 --> 00:03:03,625 Onlara kendi iyilikleri için 29 00:03:05,583 --> 00:03:10,125 bu yalanı söyleyeceğim, böylece başlarına gelecek şeylere… 30 00:03:12,291 --> 00:03:13,708 …hazır olacaklar. 31 00:03:15,125 --> 00:03:16,833 Meydana gelecek mucizelere. 32 00:04:16,458 --> 00:04:17,458 Peder? 33 00:04:24,041 --> 00:04:25,000 Peder! 34 00:04:57,166 --> 00:04:59,625 Peder? İyi misiniz? 35 00:05:04,000 --> 00:05:05,750 Dr. Gunning'i çağırayım mı? 36 00:05:25,500 --> 00:05:28,041 Bu bir mucize. Gerçek bir mucize. 37 00:05:29,125 --> 00:05:32,125 Öyle değil mi? Mucize yani. 38 00:05:32,791 --> 00:05:34,916 Müthiş bir şey elbette. 39 00:05:35,000 --> 00:05:37,625 Yani refleksleri zayıf ama mevcut. 40 00:05:39,041 --> 00:05:40,166 Bir şey hissettin mi? 41 00:05:40,250 --> 00:05:43,041 Bu sabahtan önce bir his var mıydı? 42 00:05:43,125 --> 00:05:46,333 Bilmiyorum. Bacaklarımı duyumsamasam bile 43 00:05:46,416 --> 00:05:49,916 hissediyordum. Konuştuğumuz gibi, hayalet… 44 00:05:50,000 --> 00:05:53,791 Hayalet uzuv sendromu, evet. Yeni bir şey yok muydu? Farklı bir şey? 45 00:05:53,875 --> 00:05:55,666 -Hayır. -Şey, ben… 46 00:05:56,458 --> 00:06:01,583 Ayakta duruyorsun, yürüyorsun, en önemlisi bu. 47 00:06:02,375 --> 00:06:04,791 Senin için seviniyorum Leeza. 48 00:06:05,791 --> 00:06:09,541 Kasların biraz zayıflamış, ki bu anlaşılabilir. İzninizle… 49 00:06:10,875 --> 00:06:12,416 Şu bastonu kullan. 50 00:06:12,500 --> 00:06:15,041 Şimdilik kısa mesafelerde bile. 51 00:06:15,125 --> 00:06:17,875 Ağırlığını buna verip adım at. 52 00:06:17,958 --> 00:06:20,208 -Sence makul mü? -Hiç böyle bir… 53 00:06:20,708 --> 00:06:22,750 Hiç böyle bir şey gördün mü? 54 00:06:22,833 --> 00:06:27,041 Bu bir mucize, değil mi? İncil'dekiler gibi gerçek bir mucize. 55 00:06:27,125 --> 00:06:31,166 Bugünden önce mi? Yok, daha önce böyle bir şey görmemiştim. 56 00:06:31,250 --> 00:06:36,625 Ama artık gördüm. Omurga sakatlıkları zamanla kendi kendine iyileşebiliyor. 57 00:06:36,708 --> 00:06:39,041 Çok nadiren de olsa bu mümkün. 58 00:06:39,125 --> 00:06:42,750 Leeza'yı ana karaya götürüp gelişmiş testler yapmak isterim. 59 00:06:42,833 --> 00:06:43,666 Bilmem ki. 60 00:06:44,833 --> 00:06:46,250 Olanı ne kadar iyi anlarsak 61 00:06:46,333 --> 00:06:47,750 başkalarına o kadar yardımcı… 62 00:06:47,833 --> 00:06:50,166 Biliyorum, sorun o değil. Sadece 63 00:06:51,166 --> 00:06:54,666 yıllar boyunca randevular, uzman görüşleri 64 00:06:54,750 --> 00:06:57,000 ve deneysel tedaviler derken… 65 00:06:57,875 --> 00:06:59,500 İşin aslı Sarah… 66 00:07:00,500 --> 00:07:02,833 Eski evimizde kirada oturuyoruz. 67 00:07:03,708 --> 00:07:06,250 Yediğimiz gıdanın yarısı devlet yardımı, 68 00:07:06,333 --> 00:07:09,083 diğer yarısı kilisenin bağışı. 69 00:07:09,166 --> 00:07:11,541 Şikâyet etmiyoruz canım. Hayır. 70 00:07:11,625 --> 00:07:14,666 Her kuruşu, hatta daha fazlası sana helal olsun. 71 00:07:14,750 --> 00:07:16,708 Ama tomografi taraması yapmadan 72 00:07:16,791 --> 00:07:19,708 veya omurilikten sıvı almadan ne olduğunu… 73 00:07:19,791 --> 00:07:23,500 Yürüyor ve ayakta duruyor. Minnettarız. 74 00:07:24,083 --> 00:07:28,500 Bir mucizeyi sorgulamak yanlış geliyor, öyle değil mi? 75 00:07:28,583 --> 00:07:30,458 Tanrı'nın lütfundan şüphe mi edelim? 76 00:07:46,708 --> 00:07:48,625 Nereye gittin? 77 00:07:55,083 --> 00:07:58,125 Anne? Anne, buraya nasıl çıktın? 78 00:07:59,083 --> 00:08:02,375 Benim odam… Burası benim odam. 79 00:08:02,458 --> 00:08:04,958 -Evet anne ama… -Farklı. 80 00:08:05,041 --> 00:08:07,916 -Merdiven çıkamazsın. Olmaz. -Benim odam… 81 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:10,583 Kızım Sarah'yı tanıyor musun? 82 00:08:10,666 --> 00:08:12,541 -Doktor. -Seni nasıl indireceğim? 83 00:08:12,625 --> 00:08:14,833 Sana anlatır, kalçam sakat. 84 00:08:14,916 --> 00:08:16,458 Acaba… Karım. 85 00:08:16,541 --> 00:08:19,916 -Karım için bir dua etse. -Kocam öyle hasta ki. 86 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:24,791 Hepiniz sakin olun. Bu işler böyle yürümez, biliyorsunuz. 87 00:08:24,875 --> 00:08:31,458 Abartmayalım. Tanrı şan ve şöhret aramaz, bu şekilde olmaz. 88 00:08:32,791 --> 00:08:33,666 Dua edelim. 89 00:08:36,166 --> 00:08:39,083 "Tanrı'ya şükredin çünkü o iyidir. 90 00:08:39,166 --> 00:08:43,458 Sarsılmaz sevgisi ebedîdir. 91 00:08:43,541 --> 00:08:49,250 İlahların ilahına şükredin çünkü sarsılmaz sevgisi ebedîdir. 92 00:08:49,333 --> 00:08:54,541 Efendilerin efendisine şükredin çünkü sarsılmaz sevgisi ebedîdir. 93 00:08:54,625 --> 00:08:59,166 Ona şükredin, büyük mucizeleri sadece o yaratabilir. 94 00:08:59,250 --> 00:09:02,416 Onun sarsılmaz sevgisi ebedîdir." 95 00:09:09,541 --> 00:09:11,958 MONSENYÖR JOHN MICHAEL PRUITT KÜLTÜR MERKEZİ 96 00:09:12,541 --> 00:09:16,750 Dördüncü adım çok zor olabilir ama yapabileceğini biliyorum. Gerçekten. 97 00:09:17,791 --> 00:09:21,166 Sahiden bundan söz etmeyecek miyiz? 98 00:09:23,208 --> 00:09:25,000 Hayır, söz edebiliriz. 99 00:09:27,500 --> 00:09:29,166 Mahalle çalkalanıyor. 100 00:09:30,125 --> 00:09:33,250 Aziz Patrick kilisesinde mucize. Kimin dizi berelense, 101 00:09:33,333 --> 00:09:35,791 kim üşütüp hastalansa kiliseye koşacak. 102 00:09:37,250 --> 00:09:40,458 Ana karadan bir gazeteci sizi arasa şaşırmam. 103 00:09:41,333 --> 00:09:44,541 Leeza'nın iyileşmesi ve onu iyileştiren rahip hakkında 104 00:09:44,625 --> 00:09:46,791 haber yapmak isteyebilirler. 105 00:09:47,750 --> 00:09:50,083 Reklamı yapılacak şey değil. Geri çevirirdim. 106 00:09:50,166 --> 00:09:54,333 Matta'da dendiği gibi, "Siz sadaka verirken, 107 00:09:54,416 --> 00:09:57,541 sol eliniz sağ elinizin ne yaptığını bilmesin." 108 00:09:57,625 --> 00:10:00,208 Dolly ve Wade 109 00:10:00,291 --> 00:10:03,125 kızlarını kullanıp sansasyon yaratma peşinde değil. 110 00:10:03,208 --> 00:10:04,958 Zaten Crockett dışında 111 00:10:05,041 --> 00:10:08,875 fazla ilgi çekeceğini sanmıyorum ve bunda sorun yok. 112 00:10:08,958 --> 00:10:10,166 En hayırlısı da bu. 113 00:10:11,166 --> 00:10:12,791 Önemli olan Leeza. 114 00:10:13,833 --> 00:10:14,833 Öyle. 115 00:10:15,791 --> 00:10:19,291 Bakın, ben oldukça rasyonel biriyim 116 00:10:19,375 --> 00:10:21,666 ve bilirsiniz, efsanelerimiz, dinlerimiz 117 00:10:21,750 --> 00:10:25,208 açıklayamadığımız doğal olaylardan kaynaklanır. 118 00:10:25,291 --> 00:10:28,000 Dolayısıyla bunu açıklamanın yolunu bulabilirim. 119 00:10:29,333 --> 00:10:30,583 Aferin sana. 120 00:10:30,666 --> 00:10:33,291 Yanlış teşhis aklıma yatıyor. 121 00:10:34,208 --> 00:10:37,625 Baktım. Bu olabiliyor. Nadiren de olsa oluyor. 122 00:10:37,708 --> 00:10:43,416 Yani vücudu bunca zamandır yavaş yavaş iyileşmiş olabilir. 123 00:10:43,500 --> 00:10:48,166 Hepsini açıklayabilirim. Açıkçası tüm bunlar açıklanabilir. 124 00:10:48,250 --> 00:10:51,166 -Bu harika, çok samimiyim. -Bir tek şey dışında. 125 00:10:53,208 --> 00:10:54,208 Bilmeniz gerekirdi. 126 00:10:55,791 --> 00:10:58,250 Yürüyebileceğini bilmeniz gerekirdi. 127 00:10:58,333 --> 00:11:02,666 Birkaç basamak çıktınız. Onu çağırdınız. Yürümeseydi 128 00:11:03,708 --> 00:11:05,083 ne duruma düşerdiniz? 129 00:11:05,583 --> 00:11:08,666 Yürümeseydi bu cemaat hakkınızda ne düşünürdü? 130 00:11:08,750 --> 00:11:10,541 -Ama yürüdü. -Bilmeniz gerekirdi. 131 00:11:10,625 --> 00:11:14,791 -Peki. Sorduğun şey ne? -Nasıl bildiğinizi soruyorum. 132 00:11:19,958 --> 00:11:22,791 Seni tatmin edecek bir cevabım yok. 133 00:11:24,333 --> 00:11:25,541 Senin için yok. 134 00:11:27,083 --> 00:11:29,500 Bir başkasına şunu söyleyebilirdim, 135 00:11:29,583 --> 00:11:32,250 rampada yanımdan geçerken hissettim, 136 00:11:32,333 --> 00:11:37,791 neredeyse gördüm, onun sesini zihnimde duydum. 137 00:11:38,541 --> 00:11:41,041 O anda onunla bir bağ kurduğumu hissettim. 138 00:11:41,125 --> 00:11:44,125 Bu açıklama bazılarına yeterli gelse de sana gelmez, 139 00:11:45,375 --> 00:11:46,916 öyle değil mi Riley Flynn? 140 00:11:49,583 --> 00:11:51,083 Daha fazlasını isterdim. 141 00:11:53,125 --> 00:11:57,333 Evet, ben de sana daha fazlasını verebilmeyi isteyeceğim hep. 142 00:11:59,291 --> 00:12:01,291 Ama elimdeki bu. 143 00:12:15,041 --> 00:12:16,166 Canın yanıyor mu? 144 00:12:17,458 --> 00:12:18,375 Hayır. 145 00:12:22,625 --> 00:12:25,416 Sırt çantanı taşıyayım mı? 146 00:12:25,500 --> 00:12:27,125 Tabii, sağ ol. 147 00:12:55,291 --> 00:12:57,125 -İyi misin? -Nasıl hissediyorsun? 148 00:12:57,708 --> 00:12:59,833 Hadi ama. Rahat bırakın onu. 149 00:13:01,625 --> 00:13:02,583 Günaydın. 150 00:13:02,666 --> 00:13:04,541 -Günaydın Bayan Greene. -Günaydın. 151 00:14:14,666 --> 00:14:15,541 Ne yapıyorsun? 152 00:14:20,125 --> 00:14:21,500 Belin ne olacak? 153 00:14:22,750 --> 00:14:24,125 Dans et benimle. 154 00:14:25,375 --> 00:14:26,458 Peki. 155 00:14:50,291 --> 00:14:51,166 Ne? 156 00:16:58,958 --> 00:17:00,500 İsa'nın Bedeni. 157 00:17:24,208 --> 00:17:28,041 BİLEŞİM 1080 - SODYUM MONOFLUOROASETAT ÖLÜMCÜL ZEHİR 158 00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:50,166 AZİZ PATRICK MUCİZESİ 159 00:18:52,250 --> 00:18:55,750 Bu hafta fazladan şişe doldurun. İçerisi epey kalabalık. 160 00:18:55,833 --> 00:18:57,000 Çok kalabalık. 161 00:18:57,708 --> 00:18:59,208 Başka şişemiz var mı? 162 00:18:59,291 --> 00:19:02,125 Burada bir yerlerdeydi ama son zamanlarda görmedim. 163 00:19:02,208 --> 00:19:04,291 Siz yerinize geçin. Ben hallederim. 164 00:19:13,958 --> 00:19:16,708 -Yanmıyor galiba. -Tüh, benim hatam. 165 00:19:30,625 --> 00:19:31,458 Çakmak. 166 00:19:34,041 --> 00:19:34,875 Gidelim! 167 00:19:36,125 --> 00:19:39,875 Üç hafta önce bu kefaret yolculuğuna başladığımızda 168 00:19:39,958 --> 00:19:44,125 o gün burada olanlardan bazı sözleri düşünmelerini istemiştim. 169 00:19:44,791 --> 00:19:48,875 Yeniden doğuş, ikinci fırsat, ebedî hayat. 170 00:19:51,208 --> 00:19:53,708 İdrak edilecek çok şey var, değil mi? 171 00:19:53,791 --> 00:19:57,458 Ebediyeti bırakın, gelecek haftayı bile tahayyül edemiyorum. 172 00:19:57,541 --> 00:20:01,583 Ama çoğumuz için ebediyet bir soyutlama. 173 00:20:01,666 --> 00:20:04,958 Bir mecaz, renkli bir abartı. 174 00:20:05,041 --> 00:20:08,625 Arzu ettiğimiz şeyi bekleyişimiz bize sonsuzluk gibi gelir. 175 00:20:08,708 --> 00:20:12,583 Trafikte bekleyişimizin sonu gelmeyecek gibidir. 176 00:20:13,541 --> 00:20:16,500 Soyutlamalar, mecazlar, renkli mübalağalar. 177 00:20:17,250 --> 00:20:21,333 Bize göre öyle belki ama Tanrı için öyle değil. 178 00:20:22,041 --> 00:20:25,458 Onun için öyle değil. Bizim için de öyle olmamalı. 179 00:20:26,083 --> 00:20:29,750 Komünyon, ekmekle şarabın 180 00:20:29,833 --> 00:20:32,458 İsa'nın bedenine ve kanına dönüşmesi. 181 00:20:32,541 --> 00:20:35,583 Bir mecaz mı? Hayır. Tanrı bize söylüyor. 182 00:20:35,666 --> 00:20:40,166 Mucizeler, suyun üzerinde yürümek, ölümden dönmek. Soyutlama mı? 183 00:20:40,250 --> 00:20:44,958 Hayır. Tanrı bize söylüyor. Ebedî hayat, renkli bir mübalağa mı? 184 00:20:45,041 --> 00:20:48,291 -Hayır. -Hayır mı? Doğru. Yüksek sesle söyleyin. 185 00:20:48,375 --> 00:20:54,333 Tanrı'nın lütufları ayağımızın altındaki zemin kadar somuttur. 186 00:20:54,416 --> 00:20:56,875 Onun akdi de soyut değildir. 187 00:20:56,958 --> 00:21:01,750 Hayır. Şehitlerin etine kazınmış, kanlarıyla yazılmış bir sözleşmedir. 188 00:21:01,833 --> 00:21:06,083 Yine de ne kadar uğraşsak da vadedilen ödülleri 189 00:21:06,166 --> 00:21:10,750 hayal edemeyiz, zihnimizde canlandıramayız. 190 00:21:12,500 --> 00:21:16,541 Bilinmeyen hakkında cevapları öğrenmek için geldiyseniz 191 00:21:16,625 --> 00:21:20,666 bende cevap olmadığını söylemek boynumun borcudur. 192 00:21:21,291 --> 00:21:27,000 Tanrı iradesinin dünyayı neden ve nasıl şekillendirdiğini bilmek istiyorsanız 193 00:21:27,083 --> 00:21:32,958 kardeşlerim, bunu ben de merak ediyorum. Tüm yanıtlar bende yok. Kimsede yok. 194 00:21:33,041 --> 00:21:37,291 Ama bende olan ve Tanrı'nın hepimize bolca verdiği şey 195 00:21:37,375 --> 00:21:39,416 gizemlerdir. 196 00:21:40,291 --> 00:21:44,708 Tanrı, mucizeleri bize nadiren, ara sıra verir ama ya gizemler? 197 00:21:50,875 --> 00:21:51,791 Pardon. 198 00:21:52,750 --> 00:21:55,958 Yetişkinler olarak 199 00:21:56,625 --> 00:21:59,833 gizemlerden hoşlanmayız pek. 200 00:22:00,541 --> 00:22:02,708 Bilmemek bizi rahatsız eder. 201 00:22:03,666 --> 00:22:06,791 Öyle. Çocuk olmak. 202 00:22:08,958 --> 00:22:13,333 Huşu ve hayranlıkla bakıp şaşırtıcı bir dürüstlükle yaşamak. 203 00:22:13,416 --> 00:22:17,750 Günahsız, hava kadar hafif olmak. 204 00:22:18,958 --> 00:22:24,041 Tanrı'nın sözünün karşısında yumuşakça eğilmek… 205 00:22:27,208 --> 00:22:28,958 Çok özür dilerim. Ben… 206 00:22:31,416 --> 00:22:34,000 Pardon, bugün biraz yorgunum. 207 00:22:35,041 --> 00:22:36,458 Başım döndü biraz. 208 00:22:37,166 --> 00:22:40,083 Geçti. İyiyim. Pardon. Çok özür dilerim. 209 00:22:43,250 --> 00:22:45,916 Ne kadar bilirsek o kadar az eğiliriz. 210 00:22:46,541 --> 00:22:49,708 Daha kırılgan oluruz, bizi kırmak kolaylaşır. 211 00:22:50,666 --> 00:22:54,083 Bazıları bu ada iflas etti diyor. Bozuldu. 212 00:22:56,250 --> 00:22:57,916 Ama size diyorum ki… 213 00:23:00,208 --> 00:23:06,833 Diriliş, beden ve ruh, kefaret, beden ve ruh, 214 00:23:06,916 --> 00:23:11,791 Crockett Adası'nda bizi bekleyen mucizeler. 215 00:23:11,875 --> 00:23:18,166 Bunlar mecaz değil, soyutlama değil, renkli mübalağalar değil, hayır. 216 00:23:18,250 --> 00:23:21,916 Yeniden doğum, ikinci fırsat. Ebedî… 217 00:23:29,500 --> 00:23:30,666 Dr. Gunning'i çağırın! 218 00:23:33,083 --> 00:23:34,625 Üzerine üşüşmeyelim. 219 00:23:34,708 --> 00:23:38,083 Saul'un dönüşümü Şam yolunda gerçekleşti. 220 00:23:39,000 --> 00:23:42,375 Saul, Hristiyanlara zulüm eden bir Kilise düşmanıydı. 221 00:23:42,458 --> 00:23:46,333 İnananları toplayıp esir almak için Şam'a gidiyordu. 222 00:23:46,416 --> 00:23:49,666 Ama malum, Şam'a yaklaştığında 223 00:23:49,750 --> 00:23:53,333 onu yere çalacak parlaklıkta bir ışık gördü. 224 00:23:54,250 --> 00:23:57,333 Ve gözü görmez oldu. Sonra İsa onunla konuştu. 225 00:23:58,375 --> 00:24:03,416 Günler sonra gözlerindeki perdeler düştü ve Saul önce İsa'nın müridi, 226 00:24:03,500 --> 00:24:07,375 sonra da Havari Paul oldu. 227 00:24:08,166 --> 00:24:12,250 Şehrin dışındaki aynı yol üzerinde Monsenyör Pruitt 228 00:24:12,333 --> 00:24:16,583 şaşkın ve kafası karışık hâlde tur grubundan son kez uzaklaştı. 229 00:24:17,333 --> 00:24:19,250 Kaybolduğunu fark etmediler. 230 00:24:19,333 --> 00:24:24,583 Bulanık zihni ona yardımcı olmadı ve çöle doğru yürüyüp gitti. 231 00:24:25,833 --> 00:24:27,208 Hayır Monsenyör… 232 00:24:28,083 --> 00:24:32,000 Kafası karışmış, şaşırmış, dünyadan kopmuş, zihni bulanmış, 233 00:24:32,083 --> 00:24:34,125 grubundan ayrı düşmüştü. 234 00:24:34,208 --> 00:24:38,750 O çölde, Şam yolunda öleceği kesindi. 235 00:24:39,625 --> 00:24:44,041 Derken korkunç bir kum fırtınası koptu. 236 00:24:44,125 --> 00:24:47,791 Kısa süre önce bölgede korkunç fırtınalar olmuştu. 237 00:24:47,875 --> 00:24:52,500 Bunu duymuştu. Şaşırtıcı, yeri göğü sarsan fırtınalardı bunlar. 238 00:24:52,583 --> 00:24:59,541 Öyle fırtınalar ki… Bunların çöldeki eski harabeleri gün yüzüne çıkardığını, 239 00:24:59,625 --> 00:25:02,416 yeri sarsıp toprağı çalkaladığını, 240 00:25:02,500 --> 00:25:07,875 çok eski bina ve yapıların girişlerini temizleyip açtığını duymuştu. 241 00:25:07,958 --> 00:25:11,666 Uzun süre gömülü kalan harabelerdi bunlar. 242 00:25:13,000 --> 00:25:19,041 Böylece Monsenyör Pruitt fırtınada yolunu kaybetmiş hâlde yürürken 243 00:25:20,875 --> 00:25:24,250 ve kum gözlerine dolup yüzünü keserken 244 00:25:24,333 --> 00:25:28,083 kumulun içinde tam önünde bir karaltı gördü. 245 00:25:29,125 --> 00:25:31,291 Belki de bir mağaranın ağzıydı. 246 00:25:32,458 --> 00:25:34,875 Eski bir harabenin kapısıydı. 247 00:25:34,958 --> 00:25:38,041 Sığınacak yer arayan bunamış adam 248 00:25:38,125 --> 00:25:41,375 bir heves karanlığın içine daldı. 249 00:25:42,166 --> 00:25:47,083 Mağaraya benzeyen giriş önünde birden açılıvermişti. 250 00:25:47,166 --> 00:25:48,875 Sonra ışık kayboldu… 251 00:25:53,500 --> 00:25:56,583 -Sadece başım döndü. -Olabilir. 252 00:25:57,291 --> 00:25:59,458 Yine de muayene edeyim. 253 00:26:01,958 --> 00:26:03,041 Derin nefes alın. 254 00:26:03,708 --> 00:26:06,416 -Emin ol, iyiyim. -Verin. 255 00:26:12,125 --> 00:26:15,083 Nabzınız hızlanmış, ateşiniz de var. 256 00:26:15,166 --> 00:26:19,083 Sanki vücudunuz bir virüsle savaşıyor ama telaşlanmaya gerek yok. 257 00:26:19,708 --> 00:26:20,750 İyi mi yani? 258 00:26:21,541 --> 00:26:22,541 Yaşayacak. 259 00:26:23,250 --> 00:26:27,250 Ama susuz kalmışsınız Peder. Tuzlu gıdalardan uzak durun, 260 00:26:27,333 --> 00:26:30,041 bol bol su için ve dinlenin. 261 00:26:30,125 --> 00:26:33,083 Vücudunuzdan atmaya bakın. 262 00:26:34,541 --> 00:26:35,458 Teşekkürler. 263 00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:38,333 Sadece işimi yapıyorum. 264 00:26:38,416 --> 00:26:42,125 Hayır, daha fazlası da var. İnsanlarla ilgileniyorsun. 265 00:26:42,208 --> 00:26:47,250 Benimle, annenle, bütün adayla. Sayende herkesin içi rahat. 266 00:26:48,333 --> 00:26:49,500 Gurur verici. 267 00:26:51,125 --> 00:26:52,041 Teşekkür ederim. 268 00:26:52,875 --> 00:26:54,291 Doktoru duydunuz. İçin. 269 00:26:54,791 --> 00:26:57,333 Öğleden sonraki randevularınızı iptal ediyorum. 270 00:26:57,416 --> 00:26:59,791 -Bev. -Dinlenmeniz lazım, dinleneceksiniz. 271 00:27:01,333 --> 00:27:04,041 Hepsini iptal etme. Kaçırmak istemediklerim var. 272 00:27:07,708 --> 00:27:09,625 -Yemek hazır. -Geliyorum! 273 00:27:22,083 --> 00:27:24,000 KUTSAL İNCİL 274 00:27:36,041 --> 00:27:37,333 Siktir git. 275 00:27:42,250 --> 00:27:43,958 Ne istiyorsun be? 276 00:27:44,041 --> 00:27:46,250 Adamı rahat bırakmıyorsunuz. Ne var? 277 00:27:53,791 --> 00:27:54,958 Merhaba. 278 00:28:18,625 --> 00:28:19,666 Bu o mu? 279 00:28:24,333 --> 00:28:26,125 -Öyle mi? -Hayır. 280 00:28:27,458 --> 00:28:28,458 Burada mı? 281 00:28:29,166 --> 00:28:30,583 Buradaysa görmek istiyorum. 282 00:28:30,666 --> 00:28:33,875 Hayır, dedemin tüfeği o. 283 00:28:34,791 --> 00:28:38,750 Ötekini hemen olaydan sonra körfeze attım. 284 00:28:38,833 --> 00:28:40,791 Gözüm görmesin diye. 285 00:28:43,750 --> 00:28:45,500 Tam düşündüğüm gibi. 286 00:28:49,208 --> 00:28:50,208 Diyeceğim şu. 287 00:28:53,291 --> 00:28:55,041 Babamla yürüyordum, 288 00:28:55,875 --> 00:28:59,250 özel bir yere gitmiyorduk, öylesine yürürdük. 289 00:29:00,208 --> 00:29:03,333 Benimle en çok o zaman konuşurdu, ben de soru sorardım, 290 00:29:03,416 --> 00:29:05,041 küçük bir kızdım çünkü. 291 00:29:05,125 --> 00:29:07,416 Yürüyorduk, 292 00:29:08,208 --> 00:29:11,750 sıradan bir akşamdı, sonra o olay oldu. 293 00:29:12,541 --> 00:29:14,875 Sanki gök gürledi ve kendimi yerde buldum. 294 00:29:14,958 --> 00:29:16,125 Ama hissetmedim. 295 00:29:17,333 --> 00:29:20,416 Babam çığlık atıyordu, bir hayvan gibi. 296 00:29:21,125 --> 00:29:24,333 Ondan hiç böyle bir ses duymamıştım ama hissetmiyordum. 297 00:29:25,833 --> 00:29:27,041 Hiç hissetmiyordum. 298 00:29:27,666 --> 00:29:30,833 Sonra ne kadar hissedemediğimi fark ettiğimde 299 00:29:30,916 --> 00:29:32,708 gerçekten çok korktum. 300 00:29:35,208 --> 00:29:36,250 Sana kin duyuyorum. 301 00:29:37,583 --> 00:29:39,833 Dürüstlük önemli, açık konuşacağım. 302 00:29:40,708 --> 00:29:42,875 Senden nefret ediyorum Joe Collie. 303 00:29:44,583 --> 00:29:46,708 Yıllarca senden nefret ettim 304 00:29:46,791 --> 00:29:51,000 ve sana türlü türlü şeyler yaptığımı hayal ettim. Canın yansın istiyorum. 305 00:29:52,166 --> 00:29:53,458 Acı çekmeni istiyorum. 306 00:29:53,958 --> 00:29:56,083 Omurgamdaki kurşun deliğinin üzerine 307 00:29:56,166 --> 00:29:59,583 elini koyan babamın çıkardığı sesleri çıkar istiyorum. 308 00:29:59,666 --> 00:30:03,250 Hayır diyebileyim diye benden af dilemeni istiyorum. 309 00:30:05,541 --> 00:30:09,125 Katıksız bir sefalet içinde yaşamanı istiyorum. 310 00:30:09,208 --> 00:30:11,291 Burası hayal ettiğim gibi dediğimde 311 00:30:11,375 --> 00:30:14,125 aslında tam da umduğum gibi demek istiyorum. 312 00:30:14,208 --> 00:30:17,166 -Çok üzgünüm. -Tabii ya, üzgünsün! 313 00:30:20,833 --> 00:30:21,791 Benden çaldın. 314 00:30:22,541 --> 00:30:24,875 Olduğum ve olabileceğim kişiyi. 315 00:30:25,541 --> 00:30:27,791 Henüz sahip olmadığım şeyleri çaldın benden. 316 00:30:27,875 --> 00:30:30,791 Zamanın ötesine uzandın Joe Collie! 317 00:30:30,875 --> 00:30:33,541 Zamanın ötesine ulaşıp çaldın… 318 00:30:38,000 --> 00:30:39,250 Tüm bunlar doğru 319 00:30:40,750 --> 00:30:42,208 ve hepsi hâlâ burada 320 00:30:44,333 --> 00:30:46,041 ama bugün bunun için gelmedim. 321 00:30:49,333 --> 00:30:50,875 Bugün buraya geldim… 322 00:30:55,250 --> 00:30:56,541 Bugün buraya geldim… 323 00:30:59,875 --> 00:31:00,916 Seni affediyorum. 324 00:31:04,541 --> 00:31:05,875 Affediyorum Joe Collie. 325 00:31:08,625 --> 00:31:11,500 Seni affediyorum ve artık seni görüyorum. 326 00:31:14,791 --> 00:31:19,500 Seni görüyorum. Sana hâlâ kızgınım. 327 00:31:21,458 --> 00:31:24,500 Ama farklı. Şimdi söylerken bile farklı. 328 00:31:24,583 --> 00:31:26,708 -Neden, söyleyeyim mi? -Evet. 329 00:31:26,791 --> 00:31:31,541 Çünkü seninle daha iyi bir hayat arasında tek engel sensin. 330 00:31:32,666 --> 00:31:34,833 Bana engel olan tek şey nefretti. 331 00:31:34,916 --> 00:31:37,208 Sana engel olan tek şey sensin. 332 00:31:39,541 --> 00:31:43,375 "Sabırlı kişi yiğitten üstündür. 333 00:31:44,375 --> 00:31:48,458 Kendini denetleyen de kentler fethedenden üstündür." 334 00:31:49,166 --> 00:31:52,375 Özdeyişler 16:32, Joe. Özdeyişler nedir, biliyor musun? 335 00:31:53,041 --> 00:31:54,625 Özdeyişler Kitabı nedir? 336 00:31:55,208 --> 00:31:56,208 Bilgeliktir. 337 00:31:58,375 --> 00:32:02,000 Bilgelik ve irfan. Yani… 338 00:32:04,375 --> 00:32:06,916 Tanrı seni affedebiliyorsa ki öyle söylüyor, 339 00:32:07,416 --> 00:32:09,041 her yerde bunu diyor, 340 00:32:11,875 --> 00:32:12,875 ben de affedebilirim. 341 00:32:14,458 --> 00:32:16,375 Ben seni affedebiliyorsam 342 00:32:17,250 --> 00:32:18,458 herkes affedebilir. 343 00:32:26,791 --> 00:32:29,291 Anlıyorum, bazılarınız kızgınsınız 344 00:32:29,375 --> 00:32:32,541 ama sizi sakinleştirecek ilk kişi ben olayım. 345 00:32:32,625 --> 00:32:35,875 Kimsenin bir şeyi iptal ettiği yok. 346 00:32:35,958 --> 00:32:38,708 Zorunlu dersler öğretilmeye devam edecek. 347 00:32:38,791 --> 00:32:43,291 Müfredata dokunmadık, bir kere bu konuda anlaşalım. 348 00:32:43,375 --> 00:32:44,791 Pardon, mesele o değil… 349 00:32:44,875 --> 00:32:47,625 Anlıyorum, mensup olduğun din başka olunca 350 00:32:47,708 --> 00:32:52,666 oğlunun İncil'e ilgi duymasına bozulmuş olabilirsin… 351 00:32:52,750 --> 00:32:53,916 -Alakası yok. -…sanırım. 352 00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:57,833 Ama bence İsa ile ilgileniyorsa 353 00:32:57,916 --> 00:33:00,416 neden biraz daha öğrenmesin? 354 00:33:00,500 --> 00:33:05,250 Mesele bu değil, açıklama fırsatı verdiğiniz için sağ olun. 355 00:33:06,625 --> 00:33:07,916 İsa'yı gayet iyi tanıyor. 356 00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:10,333 Her bakımdan tanıyor olamaz. 357 00:33:10,416 --> 00:33:13,458 Müslümanlar, İsa'nın Tanrı'nın peygamberi olduğuna inanır 358 00:33:14,041 --> 00:33:15,625 ve İncil'in 359 00:33:15,708 --> 00:33:19,708 ona indirildiğine de. Tıpkı daha önce Tevrat'ın Musa'ya indirildiği gibi. 360 00:33:20,833 --> 00:33:24,500 Biz İsa'yı severiz. Ona vahyolunan mesajı da severiz. 361 00:33:24,583 --> 00:33:25,416 Vay! 362 00:33:26,291 --> 00:33:29,000 Her gün yeni bir şey öğreniyoruz, öyle değil mi? 363 00:33:29,083 --> 00:33:32,125 Ama İsa'dan sonra insanların müdahalesiyle 364 00:33:32,708 --> 00:33:36,500 Hristiyanlıkta sapmalar olduğuna da inanıyoruz. 365 00:33:37,958 --> 00:33:41,291 Mesaj değiştirildi. Rahipler, papalar, krallar tarafından. 366 00:33:42,458 --> 00:33:45,208 O yüzden İncil'in bu kadar çok versiyonu var. 367 00:33:45,291 --> 00:33:48,500 -Değişiklikler yapıldı. -Konumuzla alakası yok. 368 00:33:48,583 --> 00:33:52,250 İncil'in Tanrı'nın bazı sözlerini içerdiğine de inanıyoruz. 369 00:33:52,333 --> 00:33:53,708 Çok cömertsin. 370 00:33:53,791 --> 00:33:57,375 Ama Kuran'ın Tanrı'nın nihai mesajı olduğuna da inanıyoruz. 371 00:33:58,083 --> 00:33:59,458 Değiştirilmemek üzere. 372 00:33:59,541 --> 00:34:02,083 Önceki peygamber vahiylerini doğrulamak için indi. 373 00:34:02,166 --> 00:34:04,875 Bence burası kutsal kitaba dair inançlarımızın 374 00:34:04,958 --> 00:34:07,750 nerede ayrıldığını tartışacağımız yer değil. 375 00:34:07,833 --> 00:34:08,791 Çok doğru. 376 00:34:10,416 --> 00:34:12,541 İşte bu. Mesele bu. 377 00:34:13,166 --> 00:34:14,875 Bu yüzden bence buradaki 378 00:34:14,958 --> 00:34:17,250 ben de dâhil bazı kişiler biraz endişeli. 379 00:34:17,333 --> 00:34:19,625 Müslümanlar bilgi arayışını teşvik eder, 380 00:34:19,708 --> 00:34:23,541 yani oğlumun İncil'i incelemesi beni hiç rahatsız etmiyor. 381 00:34:23,625 --> 00:34:25,625 Hatta sevinirim. Kendim de inceledim. 382 00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:31,416 Ama sorun buranın devlet okulu olmasından kaynaklanıyor. 383 00:34:32,166 --> 00:34:33,458 Mesele bu. 384 00:34:33,541 --> 00:34:36,791 Bazılarımızı endişelendiren şey İncil'in kendisi değil, 385 00:34:37,375 --> 00:34:41,458 onun dağıtılmış olması. Buradaki çocuklara verilmesi. 386 00:34:41,541 --> 00:34:44,458 Bir düşünün, çocuğunuzu 387 00:34:44,541 --> 00:34:47,000 devlet okuluna gönderseniz… 388 00:34:47,083 --> 00:34:48,000 Şerif. 389 00:34:48,083 --> 00:34:49,791 …elinde Kuran'la eve gelse 390 00:34:49,875 --> 00:34:53,916 ve Muhammet Peygamber hakkında sorular sorsa bunu mesele ederdiniz. 391 00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:55,833 Ben bu adadaki çocuklara 392 00:34:55,916 --> 00:34:57,500 Kuran dağıtmaya başlasam 393 00:34:57,583 --> 00:35:01,083 ve bunu sadece bilgilendirme gayesiyle yapsam 394 00:35:01,666 --> 00:35:03,875 beni buradan kovardınız Bayan Keane. 395 00:35:03,958 --> 00:35:05,000 İzninizle… 396 00:35:08,541 --> 00:35:09,833 Burası devlet okulu. 397 00:35:10,625 --> 00:35:13,458 Ve Şerif çok haklı. 398 00:35:13,541 --> 00:35:16,041 Ben de çoğunuzla aynı cemaate mensubum, 399 00:35:16,125 --> 00:35:19,041 inancım malum ama sınıfta kutsal metinleri okumak… 400 00:35:19,125 --> 00:35:24,041 Şerif, tabii ki seni bu adadan kovmam. 401 00:35:25,125 --> 00:35:28,708 Hakkımda böyle bir şey düşünmen beni üzdü. 402 00:35:29,750 --> 00:35:35,500 Hangi inanç olursa olsun, inançlı kişiler aynı kumaştandır. 403 00:35:35,583 --> 00:35:37,000 Kuzenlerdir hatta. 404 00:35:37,666 --> 00:35:41,500 Herhangi birine saygısızlık etmek aklımdan bile geçmez. 405 00:35:41,583 --> 00:35:44,250 Bunu asla istemem. Sadece… 406 00:35:47,166 --> 00:35:49,583 Sınıfta İncil olması, 407 00:35:50,500 --> 00:35:56,916 sınıfta fen veya tarih kitabı olmasından farklı değil. 408 00:35:57,000 --> 00:35:58,541 Aslında çok farklı. 409 00:35:58,625 --> 00:36:00,375 Çocuklar ister alır ister almaz. 410 00:36:01,166 --> 00:36:06,083 Tabii sınıfta ara sıra ilham verici bir pasaj okuyabilirim 411 00:36:06,166 --> 00:36:08,458 ama kimseyi dine döndürmeye çalışmam. 412 00:36:08,541 --> 00:36:12,333 Sadece inancımı çocuklarla paylaşıyorum 413 00:36:12,416 --> 00:36:15,500 ve ilham almalarını umuyorum. 414 00:36:15,583 --> 00:36:19,875 Müslüman bir öğretmenimiz olsa ve çocuklara Kuran'dan alıntı yapsa 415 00:36:19,958 --> 00:36:23,208 metin gücendirici olmadığı sürece itiraz etmezdim. 416 00:36:23,291 --> 00:36:28,000 Kusura bakmayın ama bu metinler zaman zaman öyle olabiliyor. 417 00:36:28,083 --> 00:36:31,375 Bu bir saldırı değil Şerif. 418 00:36:31,458 --> 00:36:36,541 Kutsal İncil'in, özellikle de Eski Ahit'in 419 00:36:36,625 --> 00:36:40,000 çocuklara uygun olmayan kısımları olduğu malum. 420 00:36:40,625 --> 00:36:42,833 Yetişkinler için çok değerli elbette 421 00:36:42,916 --> 00:36:47,833 ama Lut ve karısının hikâyesini çocuklara asla okumam. 422 00:36:47,916 --> 00:36:51,916 Yapacağım her alıntıyı önceden araştırırım. 423 00:36:52,000 --> 00:36:53,458 Demek istediği bu değil… 424 00:36:53,541 --> 00:36:55,583 Ayrıca eğitim dediğimiz şey 425 00:36:55,666 --> 00:36:59,625 öğrencilere öğrenme fırsatı sunmaktan başka nedir ki? 426 00:36:59,708 --> 00:37:02,791 Belirli bir metni okumalarından neden korkalım? 427 00:37:02,875 --> 00:37:07,083 Birazcık olsun tartışmalı bulduğumuz kitapları yakacak mıyız yani? 428 00:37:07,916 --> 00:37:10,500 Ve bu durumda güncel olaylar, 429 00:37:11,583 --> 00:37:16,208 yerel olaylar, daha fazla araştırmayı gerektirmiyor mu? 430 00:37:16,291 --> 00:37:17,333 Şunu söyleyeyim, 431 00:37:17,416 --> 00:37:20,166 konuşmaktan kaçındığımız bir şey var. 432 00:37:20,250 --> 00:37:26,125 Mucizevi bir zamanda yaşıyoruz. Şu anda burada, Crockett Adası'nda 433 00:37:26,208 --> 00:37:29,333 gerçek mucizeler gözlerimizin önünde, 434 00:37:29,416 --> 00:37:32,125 Aziz Patrick Kilisesi'nde vuku buluyor. 435 00:37:32,208 --> 00:37:34,833 Ve bu toplum… Şerif, bunu bilmen lazım, 436 00:37:34,916 --> 00:37:37,375 bu toplumu gözetmekten sorumlusun. 437 00:37:37,458 --> 00:37:41,541 Bu toplum şu anda müthiş bir dinî canlanma 438 00:37:41,625 --> 00:37:42,625 yaşıyor. 439 00:37:43,291 --> 00:37:49,666 Bu toplumun çocukları bunu okullarında tartışamayacaksa 440 00:37:49,750 --> 00:37:51,916 ben daha ne diyeyim? 441 00:38:00,458 --> 00:38:04,583 Orada kalıp saçmalıklarını bir dakika daha dinleyemezdim. 442 00:38:04,666 --> 00:38:07,958 Dindarların belli bir kesimine özgü 443 00:38:08,041 --> 00:38:11,500 ben bilirimcilik bu. 444 00:38:14,375 --> 00:38:15,791 Hiç sevemedim. 445 00:38:16,833 --> 00:38:17,833 Asla. 446 00:38:20,666 --> 00:38:22,833 -Pardon, bu… -Hayır. 447 00:38:26,208 --> 00:38:28,291 Sen nasılsın? Nasıl gidiyor? 448 00:38:30,541 --> 00:38:36,291 Yavaş. Sanırım incittiğim insanlarla doğrudan temas kurup 449 00:38:36,791 --> 00:38:40,208 yaptıklarımı telafi etme aşamasında zorlanıyorum. 450 00:38:40,291 --> 00:38:43,708 Bundan ötürü Peder Paul mektup yazmamı söyledi, 451 00:38:43,791 --> 00:38:48,333 ben de mektup yazıyorum. Bir sürü hem de. 452 00:38:48,416 --> 00:38:51,250 -Çok zor. -Mektup yazmak zor. 453 00:38:52,041 --> 00:38:55,125 Teslim etmek daha da zor olacak. 454 00:38:56,083 --> 00:38:58,208 Buna can attığım söylenemez. 455 00:39:01,166 --> 00:39:07,875 Korkusuzca ahlaki envanterimi çıkardım ve gördüm ki 456 00:39:09,375 --> 00:39:10,541 ben bir korkağım. 457 00:39:11,416 --> 00:39:12,500 Yapma bunu. 458 00:39:13,458 --> 00:39:15,125 Kendinden bu şekilde söz etme. 459 00:39:15,916 --> 00:39:18,458 Başkası senin için böyle dese ben… 460 00:39:20,416 --> 00:39:21,375 Ne? 461 00:39:26,041 --> 00:39:27,166 Kıçını tekmelerdim. 462 00:39:28,166 --> 00:39:29,250 -Öyle mi? -Öyle. 463 00:39:29,333 --> 00:39:31,625 -Kıçını mı tekmelerdin? -Tekmelerdim, böyle. 464 00:39:33,500 --> 00:39:35,416 Orası uyluğum gerçi… 465 00:39:35,500 --> 00:39:37,541 -Uyluğunu tekmelerdim o zaman. -Peki. 466 00:39:44,041 --> 00:39:45,750 Tamam anne, yıkanma vakti… 467 00:39:49,125 --> 00:39:50,083 Tanrım, anne. 468 00:39:50,625 --> 00:39:54,083 İki kalçanı da kırma diye seni yatırmak zorunda kalacağız. 469 00:39:54,166 --> 00:39:55,083 Sarah. 470 00:39:55,166 --> 00:39:58,541 Sana bir türlü anlatamıyorum. Almanca konuşuyorum sanki. 471 00:39:58,625 --> 00:39:59,791 Sarah, hayatım. 472 00:40:01,083 --> 00:40:01,916 Anne. 473 00:40:07,416 --> 00:40:08,750 Ben… 474 00:40:10,750 --> 00:40:15,958 Neredeydim ben? Karanlık bir yerdi. 475 00:40:17,166 --> 00:40:22,250 Ama şimdi sanki uyandım 476 00:40:23,250 --> 00:40:26,791 ve buradasın. 477 00:40:28,125 --> 00:40:29,291 Benim güzel… 478 00:40:34,875 --> 00:40:35,833 Anne? 479 00:40:51,458 --> 00:40:53,708 Beni ne zaman oturma odasına taşıdın? 480 00:41:10,125 --> 00:41:11,333 Geciktim, üzgünüm. 481 00:41:12,541 --> 00:41:15,458 Gelir demiştim. Artık üçlü olduk. 482 00:41:18,041 --> 00:41:18,875 Selam Joe. 483 00:41:19,833 --> 00:41:22,458 Anonimlik buraya kadarmış, ha ortak? 484 00:41:23,541 --> 00:41:27,000 O gittikten sonra içmek bile istemedim. 485 00:41:27,083 --> 00:41:31,666 Yani içtim ama istemiyordum. 486 00:41:32,916 --> 00:41:35,500 Ne anlamı varsa artık. Yani bilmiyorum. 487 00:41:35,583 --> 00:41:40,125 Bilmiyorum işte. Adanın bir ucundan ötekine yürüdüm 488 00:41:40,208 --> 00:41:43,000 ve düşündüm ki onun başına gelen şey burada, 489 00:41:43,083 --> 00:41:45,250 Aziz Patrick Kilisesi'nde oldu. 490 00:41:45,333 --> 00:41:47,500 Herkes öyle diyor, değil mi? 491 00:41:47,583 --> 00:41:49,041 Ben de siktir et, dedim. 492 00:41:49,125 --> 00:41:53,958 Buraya geldim ve Peder Paul 493 00:41:55,583 --> 00:41:56,833 toplantınızdan söz etti. 494 00:41:56,916 --> 00:42:00,083 Leeza seni affetmiş demek. 495 00:42:00,958 --> 00:42:04,750 Bugün günah çıkarmanı da dinledim ve Tanrı seni bağışladı. 496 00:42:05,708 --> 00:42:06,833 Geriye kim kaldı? 497 00:42:11,208 --> 00:42:13,625 Galiba ben onlar kadar kolay bağışlayamıyorum. 498 00:42:16,208 --> 00:42:17,708 Peki. Sen ne dersin Riley? 499 00:42:19,208 --> 00:42:22,791 Bence kimseye içmesi konusunda 500 00:42:22,875 --> 00:42:25,416 bir şey diyecek durumda değilim. 501 00:42:26,000 --> 00:42:27,291 Çok saçma. 502 00:42:29,333 --> 00:42:32,458 Hayır, kusura bakma, çok saçma. Saçmalık bu. Üzgünüm. 503 00:42:32,541 --> 00:42:36,625 Haftada bir buraya geliyorsun, hatta bazen daha fazla, öyle değil mi? 504 00:42:37,208 --> 00:42:39,458 Söyleyeceğin bu mu? İlk seferi hatırlıyor musun? 505 00:42:39,541 --> 00:42:44,083 Kolları kenetli, set çekmiş Riley'yi hatırlıyor musun? Ben hatırlıyorum. 506 00:42:44,166 --> 00:42:46,833 Bir dakika onu düşün, sonra konuş. 507 00:42:46,916 --> 00:42:50,666 Çünkü bence Joe'ya ne benim ne başka birinin söyleyebileceği 508 00:42:50,750 --> 00:42:52,416 bir şey söyleyebilirsin. 509 00:42:52,500 --> 00:42:56,041 Bu toplantı da bunun için. O yüzden saçmalama da söyle. 510 00:42:56,833 --> 00:42:57,791 Tamam mı Riley? 511 00:43:06,541 --> 00:43:07,916 Buraya geldin Joe. 512 00:43:09,416 --> 00:43:12,333 Buradasın, bu yeterli. 513 00:43:13,666 --> 00:43:15,958 Sonsuza dek sürmeyecek ama bu gecelik öyle. 514 00:43:16,041 --> 00:43:19,625 Bu gecelik en önemlisi bu. 515 00:43:27,875 --> 00:43:30,875 Pekâlâ, gerisini ben hallederim beyler. Siz gidin. 516 00:43:30,958 --> 00:43:32,333 Sahi mi? Kahveye yardım… 517 00:43:32,416 --> 00:43:34,500 Tabii. Sonraki toplantıda görüşürüz. 518 00:43:34,583 --> 00:43:35,791 -Evet. -Evet, tabii. 519 00:43:35,875 --> 00:43:38,666 -Geleceğim. İyi geceler Peder. -İyi geceler. 520 00:43:38,750 --> 00:43:40,208 -İyi geceler. -Sana da. 521 00:43:54,500 --> 00:43:58,000 "Pruitt Kültür Merkezi," ne miras ama. 522 00:43:59,750 --> 00:44:02,666 Niye "Bev Keane'in Para Aklama Tesisi" demiyoruz? 523 00:44:02,750 --> 00:44:04,500 Aslında öyleydi. 524 00:44:07,833 --> 00:44:09,875 "Bev Keane'in Madeni Para Çamaşırhanesi." 525 00:44:11,041 --> 00:44:13,666 Ya da "Bev Keane'in Üçkâğıt Çamaşırhanesi." 526 00:44:15,541 --> 00:44:20,500 Ya da "Beverly Keane'in Kaltak Kraliçe Ticarethanesi, 527 00:44:20,583 --> 00:44:24,791 Yolsuzluk Bizim İşimiz Limited Şirketi." 528 00:44:24,875 --> 00:44:26,333 Büyük bir tabela lazım. 529 00:44:28,958 --> 00:44:30,541 Ama mesele şu ki ben… 530 00:44:31,916 --> 00:44:34,625 O binaya adımımı atmam, diyordum. 531 00:44:35,666 --> 00:44:36,875 Asla. 532 00:44:36,958 --> 00:44:40,000 İçerisini görmeden bu adada ölüp giderim, diyordum. 533 00:44:42,875 --> 00:44:44,750 Sonra seninle ve Peder Paul'le 534 00:44:45,583 --> 00:44:49,583 orada olmak ve o şekilde konuşmak… 535 00:44:50,250 --> 00:44:53,000 Bu berbat şartlar altında bile hayatımın… 536 00:44:55,375 --> 00:44:57,291 …değerli olabileceğini hissettim. 537 00:44:58,750 --> 00:45:02,458 Yani olanlardan sonra… 538 00:45:05,625 --> 00:45:09,166 Kulağa küpe olsun, değil mi? 539 00:45:11,208 --> 00:45:12,541 Asla emin olma. 540 00:45:14,291 --> 00:45:15,958 Bunu düstur edinmek lazım. 541 00:45:17,875 --> 00:45:19,166 Asla emin olma. 542 00:45:21,833 --> 00:45:23,083 Gelmene sevindim Joe. 543 00:45:29,958 --> 00:45:32,125 Bir dakika, sen samimisin, değil mi? 544 00:45:33,750 --> 00:45:35,958 Bu… Ne acayip iş. 545 00:45:43,708 --> 00:45:47,041 Beni umursayan tek kişi kız kardeşimdi. 546 00:45:49,833 --> 00:45:52,083 Yıllar öne Crockett'tan ayrıldı. 547 00:45:52,791 --> 00:45:56,041 -Neden kaldığımı hiç anlamadı. -Neden kaldın peki? 548 00:45:56,708 --> 00:46:00,041 Bilmiyorum. Sadece… 549 00:46:02,125 --> 00:46:07,333 Gitmek fazla kolay geliyordu. Öylece gidemezmişim gibi. 550 00:46:10,708 --> 00:46:12,666 Galiba cezaya doymuyorum. 551 00:46:16,208 --> 00:46:17,833 Birkaç hafta önce öldü. 552 00:46:18,750 --> 00:46:19,958 Başın sağ olsun. 553 00:46:21,291 --> 00:46:23,541 Çocukları onu ana karada gömdü. 554 00:46:24,166 --> 00:46:26,916 Buraya dönmek istemedi, ölümünde bile. 555 00:46:27,750 --> 00:46:29,916 Keşke gidip onu görseydim. 556 00:46:30,833 --> 00:46:35,291 Çaba gösterseydim. Ben yapamadım. O sırada yapamadım. 557 00:46:37,125 --> 00:46:38,916 Ama galiba şimdi olsa yapardım. 558 00:46:41,958 --> 00:46:44,666 Ve bu… Bu… 559 00:46:46,625 --> 00:46:48,125 Bu berbat bir şey. 560 00:46:52,166 --> 00:46:53,625 Neyse, seni tutmayayım. 561 00:46:58,833 --> 00:47:00,708 Hiç değişiklik oluyor mu? 562 00:47:02,041 --> 00:47:03,416 Bizim gibiler için? 563 00:47:06,416 --> 00:47:07,375 Hiç sanmıyorum. 564 00:47:10,208 --> 00:47:12,041 Etrafımızda hiçbir şey değişmiyor. 565 00:47:13,500 --> 00:47:16,875 Belki çok çaba gösterirsek 566 00:47:18,625 --> 00:47:20,875 o zaman belki biz değişebiliriz. 567 00:47:22,750 --> 00:47:25,041 O zaman belki farklı hissederiz. 568 00:47:27,250 --> 00:47:28,125 Bilmiyorum. 569 00:47:33,416 --> 00:47:35,416 Farklı insanlar olmamızın şerefine. 570 00:47:37,416 --> 00:47:39,208 -İyi geceler Joe. -Sana da Riley. 571 00:48:01,625 --> 00:48:02,458 Konuşalım mı? 572 00:48:05,291 --> 00:48:06,166 Tabii. 573 00:48:06,958 --> 00:48:12,916 Pazar günü kiliseye gidip bir bakmak istiyorum. 574 00:48:15,583 --> 00:48:16,541 Neden? 575 00:48:17,208 --> 00:48:20,791 -Okulda herkes gidiyor, ben de… -Hayır. Hayır, gitmiyor. 576 00:48:22,375 --> 00:48:26,958 Pek çoğu gidiyor, ben de gidip bir bakmak hoş olur diye düşündüm. 577 00:48:31,125 --> 00:48:33,375 Hayır. Hiç sanmıyorum. 578 00:48:33,458 --> 00:48:36,083 Gitmemem için bir sebep göremiyorum. 579 00:48:36,166 --> 00:48:38,833 Mükemmel bir sebep var. Sen Hristiyan değilsin. 580 00:48:38,916 --> 00:48:40,750 Bu benim seçimim değildi. 581 00:48:41,333 --> 00:48:43,083 Hiçbiri benim seçimim değil. 582 00:48:44,208 --> 00:48:46,375 Müslüman olmak ister misin diye sormadın. 583 00:48:46,458 --> 00:48:47,750 Sen Müslümansın. 584 00:48:47,833 --> 00:48:49,500 Adaya taşınır mısın diye sormadın. 585 00:48:50,083 --> 00:48:51,791 -Biliyorum. -Hiçbir şey sormuyorsun. 586 00:48:51,875 --> 00:48:54,125 Annem için Müslüman olmayı seçtin, 587 00:48:54,208 --> 00:48:57,458 kendi bölgen çok ırkçı diye buraya taşınmaya karar verdin. 588 00:48:57,541 --> 00:48:59,208 -Dayanamadın… -Hey! 589 00:48:59,291 --> 00:49:02,500 Hepsi senin kararın baba. Kararları sen veriyorsun. Sen. 590 00:49:03,458 --> 00:49:08,083 Ama artık buradayız ve burada olan şeyler… 591 00:49:08,166 --> 00:49:10,083 -Hangi şeyler? -Biliyorsun işte. 592 00:49:10,750 --> 00:49:14,791 Oğlum, Leeza Scarborough'nun iyileştiğini biliyorum. 593 00:49:14,875 --> 00:49:19,458 Yanlış teşhis. Etkileyici bir şey, biliyorum. 594 00:49:19,541 --> 00:49:24,041 Baba, Leeza'yı tanıyorum, hem de çok iyi. Onun durumu… 595 00:49:25,083 --> 00:49:29,250 -Bir mucize, tamam mı? Öyle. -Hayır, bu işler öyle olmaz Ali. 596 00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:31,291 Allah bu şekilde… 597 00:49:45,333 --> 00:49:46,666 Nasıldır, biliyor musun? 598 00:49:52,458 --> 00:49:55,458 Pankreas kanseri insana ne yapar? 599 00:49:58,250 --> 00:49:59,833 Söyleyeyim ister misin? 600 00:50:00,416 --> 00:50:01,666 Çünkü ben istemem. 601 00:50:02,833 --> 00:50:07,000 Annenin çektiklerini bilmeni asla istemedim. 602 00:50:09,083 --> 00:50:12,166 İkimiz adına bu yükü taşıyorum ve bunda sorun yok. 603 00:50:13,625 --> 00:50:18,916 İnancını korudu. Son ana kadar ona saygı duydu ve eğer… 604 00:50:20,625 --> 00:50:23,916 Eğer Tanrı o şekilde iş görseydi… 605 00:50:26,500 --> 00:50:27,791 Bazılarını iyileştirip 606 00:50:29,583 --> 00:50:32,875 diğerlerini iyileştirmemeye karar verseydi, 607 00:50:32,958 --> 00:50:36,500 bazılarını koruyup diğerlerini korumamayı seçseydi, 608 00:50:37,500 --> 00:50:40,791 Leeza Scarborough'ya bir mucize bahşedip 609 00:50:43,041 --> 00:50:46,625 ana karada bir çocuğun beyin tümöründen ölmesine göz yumsaydı… 610 00:50:47,333 --> 00:50:48,166 Hayır. 611 00:50:49,750 --> 00:50:53,416 Hayır, bu işler öyle olmaz Ali. Olmaz. 612 00:50:55,250 --> 00:50:56,916 Tanrı böyle iş görmez. 613 00:51:00,958 --> 00:51:04,000 Buradaki hikâyeler ne kadar heyecan verici olursa olsun. 614 00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:09,708 Ya da Budistlerin veya Scientology'nin hikâyeleri. Sihir değil bu. Değil. 615 00:51:21,625 --> 00:51:22,791 Anneni öp. 616 00:51:30,750 --> 00:51:33,041 İstersen yarın biraz daha konuşuruz. 617 00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:38,916 Siktir! 618 00:51:43,041 --> 00:51:44,083 Ne oldu? 619 00:51:47,375 --> 00:51:48,500 Hiç. 620 00:51:51,125 --> 00:51:52,166 Hayal görüyorum. 621 00:51:55,541 --> 00:51:56,416 İyi geceler. 622 00:52:00,458 --> 00:52:04,375 Peder dönmeden önce suyu açabilecek miyiz? 623 00:52:04,458 --> 00:52:05,625 Az kaldı Bayan Keane. 624 00:52:07,250 --> 00:52:09,500 Yemek için sağ olun. 625 00:52:09,583 --> 00:52:11,583 Dondurucuyu kullanmaya başlayacağım. 626 00:52:11,666 --> 00:52:15,250 -Herkes çok cömert. -Peder Paul bunu hak ediyor. 627 00:52:15,333 --> 00:52:19,208 Evet, öyle. O yüzden bunu planlamama yardım etmenizi istedim. 628 00:52:19,291 --> 00:52:23,500 Minnettarlığımızı göstermek için toplu bir akşam yemeği düşündüm. 629 00:52:23,583 --> 00:52:25,166 Abartılı bir şey değil. 630 00:52:25,250 --> 00:52:28,041 Ama kültür merkezini doldurabiliriz. 631 00:52:28,125 --> 00:52:31,625 Sunuş konuşmasını da siz yaparsınız diye düşündüm. 632 00:52:32,166 --> 00:52:34,041 -Memnuniyetle. -Elbette. 633 00:52:34,125 --> 00:52:37,625 Pederin ailene yaptıkları ve toplumdaki yerin düşünülürse 634 00:52:37,708 --> 00:52:40,833 bir baba olarak bu çok… 635 00:52:42,125 --> 00:52:44,291 -Merhaba. -Peder? 636 00:52:45,083 --> 00:52:47,166 -Tanrım, yine mi? -Nesi var? 637 00:53:14,625 --> 00:53:15,458 Peder? 638 00:53:17,041 --> 00:53:18,125 O… 639 00:53:19,166 --> 00:53:21,333 Peder Paul? Lütfen… 640 00:53:38,166 --> 00:53:39,250 Ben… 641 00:53:41,416 --> 00:53:44,791 Anlamıyorum. 642 00:53:48,375 --> 00:53:49,750 Anlamıyorum. 643 00:54:04,208 --> 00:54:06,791 Karanlık. O harabelerde karanlık vardı. 644 00:54:06,875 --> 00:54:10,541 Işık yoktu. Öne doğru her adım, hiçliğe doğru bir adımdı. 645 00:55:44,833 --> 00:55:49,000 Ve acı… 646 00:55:49,083 --> 00:55:50,416 Acı, evet. 647 00:55:51,375 --> 00:55:54,458 Ve korku, bedeninden akıp gitti. 648 00:55:54,541 --> 00:55:59,208 Hepsi bedeninden akıp gitti, korku, acı… 649 00:55:59,291 --> 00:56:02,958 Hepsi akıp gitti. Akıp gitti. 650 00:56:10,375 --> 00:56:15,375 Cennetteki babamız. Adın kutlu olsun. 651 00:56:15,958 --> 00:56:18,416 Krallığın gelecek 652 00:56:18,958 --> 00:56:23,125 ve cennetteki gibi dünyada da kurulacak. 653 00:56:23,208 --> 00:56:24,625 O gözler. 654 00:56:25,333 --> 00:56:29,750 Gözler, ten ve eller ama kanatlar da. 655 00:56:30,750 --> 00:56:35,125 Onu sarmalayan kanatların verdiği his. 656 00:56:35,208 --> 00:56:38,375 Zihni nihayet o kelimeyi buldu. 657 00:56:38,458 --> 00:56:43,875 Fırtınanın topraktan çıkardığı mezar gibi, korkusunun gün yüzüne çıkardığı kelimeyi. 658 00:56:43,958 --> 00:56:46,250 O kelime "melek"ti. 659 00:56:48,333 --> 00:56:49,291 Melek. 660 00:56:52,208 --> 00:56:55,000 Ve çok korkuyordu. 661 00:57:00,000 --> 00:57:03,750 Karanlıkta uzanan bir el gibi. 662 00:57:03,833 --> 00:57:06,166 Damga, Rabb'in yarası. 663 00:57:06,250 --> 00:57:08,083 Meleğin bileğinden 664 00:57:08,166 --> 00:57:13,666 yaşam kanı akıyor ve yeni dünya şekilleniyordu. 665 00:57:14,583 --> 00:57:16,541 "İçin. 666 00:57:16,625 --> 00:57:17,916 İçin. 667 00:57:20,000 --> 00:57:24,375 Bunu alın ve hepiniz bundan için. Bu kadehte kanım var. 668 00:57:24,458 --> 00:57:29,416 Yeniliğin ve sonsuz anlaşmanın kanı. Siz ve herkes için 669 00:57:29,500 --> 00:57:33,041 günahlarınızın affedilmesi için akıtıldı." 670 00:57:33,125 --> 00:57:36,375 İhtiyar adamın zihninde bu sözler vardı. 671 00:57:36,458 --> 00:57:39,250 O içtikçe tekrar tekrar yankılanıyordu. 672 00:58:02,625 --> 00:58:06,041 Monsenyör John Pruitt ertesi sabah uyandı. 673 00:58:07,625 --> 00:58:09,250 Fırtına dinmişti. 674 00:58:09,958 --> 00:58:12,250 Mağaranın girişinden güneş geliyordu, 675 00:58:12,333 --> 00:58:14,875 ona doğru yürüdü. 676 00:58:15,833 --> 00:58:18,833 Güneşten korunmak için bir elini kaldırdı. 677 00:58:18,916 --> 00:58:21,041 Eli yine gençti. 678 00:58:22,500 --> 00:58:24,291 Onlarca yıl silinip gitmişti. 679 00:58:26,791 --> 00:58:32,166 Arkasında, kilisenin girişinde… Bir kilise olmalı diye düşündüm. 680 00:58:32,250 --> 00:58:36,208 Eski bir kiliseydi. Arkamda bir melek saklanıyordu. 681 00:58:37,208 --> 00:58:40,000 Rabb'in bir meleği, ışıktan korkan 682 00:58:40,083 --> 00:58:43,416 ve gölgelerde saklanan. Başımı eğip ağladım. 683 00:58:46,291 --> 00:58:47,750 Uzun bir yolculuk olacaktı. 684 00:58:50,541 --> 00:58:54,333 Ama bu meleğe ihtiyaç olduğunu biliyordum, yola çıkıp bekleyecektim 685 00:58:54,416 --> 00:58:56,958 ve melek yetişecekti. 686 00:58:57,041 --> 00:59:01,291 Yol alıp korkuyla bekleyecektim, biri onu keşfeder diye 687 00:59:01,375 --> 00:59:04,458 veya bir gece orada olmaz, bana doğru uçmaz diye. 688 00:59:06,958 --> 00:59:09,916 Uçtuğundaysa onu saklamam gerekeceğini biliyordum. 689 00:59:10,000 --> 00:59:13,583 O vakit onu toprakta saklayıp etrafını antikalarla doldurup 690 00:59:13,666 --> 00:59:15,625 gerisini Tanrı'ya bırakacaktım. 691 00:59:15,708 --> 00:59:18,958 Onu en çok ihtiyaç duyanlara götürebilmemi de öyle. 692 00:59:20,250 --> 00:59:21,750 Ve senin lütfunla başardım. 693 00:59:26,708 --> 00:59:28,833 Kurtarmaya geldiğim kişilere 694 00:59:29,458 --> 00:59:32,625 yalan söylemem gerekeceğini biliyordum. 695 00:59:33,375 --> 00:59:35,083 Bu adanın sevgili ruhlarına 696 00:59:35,166 --> 00:59:38,166 senin sevgini, merhametini ve mucizelerini 697 00:59:39,208 --> 00:59:40,458 götürebilmemiz için. 698 00:59:42,500 --> 00:59:43,375 Yani… 699 00:59:45,333 --> 00:59:49,208 Hizmetindeyken söylemek zorunda kaldığım yalanları bağışla Rabb'im. 700 00:59:50,416 --> 00:59:53,375 Ey Tanrım. Seni gücendirdiğim için gerçekten üzgünüm. 701 00:59:53,458 --> 00:59:56,583 Günahlarımdan tiksiniyorum zira cenneti yitirmekten, 702 00:59:56,666 --> 00:59:59,583 cehennem acılarından ve seni gücendirmekten korkuyorum. 703 00:59:59,666 --> 01:00:03,500 Tüm iyiliğiyle tüm sevgimi hak eden Rabb'im, 704 01:00:04,583 --> 01:00:09,041 senin lütfunla tüm günahlarımı itiraf etmeye, kefaret ödeyip 705 01:00:09,833 --> 01:00:12,875 hayatımı iyileştirmeye kararlıyım. Âmin. 706 01:00:22,666 --> 01:00:25,125 Monsenyör! Çok şükür! 707 01:00:25,916 --> 01:00:27,291 Bu bir mucize! 708 01:00:28,541 --> 01:00:30,750 Çok şükür! 709 01:00:31,791 --> 01:00:33,000 Bu bir mucize. 710 01:00:39,666 --> 01:00:42,666 Çok şükür. Şükürler olsun Monsenyör. 711 01:00:43,708 --> 01:00:44,875 Bu bir mucize. 712 01:00:49,375 --> 01:00:51,166 Geçti. 713 01:01:01,291 --> 01:01:02,375 Geçti. 714 01:03:27,500 --> 01:03:32,500 Alt yazı çevirmeni: Selen Akhuy

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1 00:00:51,625 --> 00:00:53,625 [Paul] Bless me, Lord, for I have sinned. 2 00:00:55,250 --> 00:00:56,375 No, that's not right. 3 00:00:57,791 --> 00:00:58,625 [inhales] 4 00:00:59,458 --> 00:01:01,458 Bless me, Lord, for I am going to sin. 5 00:01:04,416 --> 00:01:07,166 Tomorrow morning, I'm going to introduce myself to the parish 6 00:01:07,250 --> 00:01:10,875 and lie to them about Monsignor John Pruitt. 7 00:01:17,208 --> 00:01:19,708 A lie directly, not a lie by omission. 8 00:01:20,833 --> 00:01:24,083 I won't tell them that John Pruitt was a lot sicker than they thought 9 00:01:24,166 --> 00:01:26,458 when they sent him on that trip. 10 00:01:26,541 --> 00:01:29,958 Monsignor? Monsignor Pruitt? Where are you going? 11 00:01:30,041 --> 00:01:31,958 We're this way. The group's this way. 12 00:01:32,041 --> 00:01:34,250 [Paul] And he wandered from his tour group frequently. 13 00:01:34,333 --> 00:01:38,000 He spent hours lost in Jerusalem that first day, 14 00:01:38,083 --> 00:01:39,625 and that he was 15 00:01:41,000 --> 00:01:42,083 terrified. 16 00:01:46,791 --> 00:01:48,708 [men praying indistinctly] 17 00:02:21,333 --> 00:02:24,125 [Paul] This wasn't a sort of odd senior moment. 18 00:02:24,208 --> 00:02:26,333 No, this was a man in the grips of dementia, 19 00:02:26,416 --> 00:02:29,666 more advanced than anyone in the parish had admitted even to themselves. 20 00:02:29,750 --> 00:02:31,083 A man who had… 21 00:02:33,083 --> 00:02:36,916 overstayed his allotted time on this Earth. 22 00:02:37,708 --> 00:02:39,250 [breath trembling] 23 00:02:39,333 --> 00:02:41,916 [Paul] I'm not gonna tell them any of that. 24 00:02:43,666 --> 00:02:46,166 I'll say he's recovering in a hospital on the mainland. 25 00:02:46,250 --> 00:02:49,291 That things may still go back to normal, 26 00:02:49,375 --> 00:02:51,708 that he may yet be the same as they remember. 27 00:02:51,791 --> 00:02:55,041 That he may yet be the man, the leader, 28 00:02:56,708 --> 00:03:00,291 the shepherd they have grown to love over so many years. 29 00:03:00,791 --> 00:03:03,625 I am going to tell them this lie 30 00:03:05,583 --> 00:03:10,125 for their benefit, so that when it starts, they'll be ready. 31 00:03:12,291 --> 00:03:13,708 For what's to come. 32 00:03:15,125 --> 00:03:16,833 For the miracles that are to come. 33 00:03:36,083 --> 00:03:37,375 [inaudible conversation] 34 00:03:53,291 --> 00:03:54,291 [coughs] 35 00:04:00,291 --> 00:04:02,375 [sobbing] 36 00:04:16,458 --> 00:04:17,458 Father? 37 00:04:24,041 --> 00:04:25,000 Father! 38 00:04:39,958 --> 00:04:41,500 [Paul coughs and retches] 39 00:04:48,333 --> 00:04:49,541 [groans] 40 00:04:50,541 --> 00:04:51,666 [breathing heavily] 41 00:04:57,166 --> 00:04:59,625 Father? Are you all right? 42 00:05:04,000 --> 00:05:05,750 Should I call Dr. Gunning? 43 00:05:21,333 --> 00:05:22,416 [exhales] 44 00:05:25,500 --> 00:05:28,041 It's a miracle. A true miracle. 45 00:05:29,125 --> 00:05:32,125 Isn't it? A miracle, I mean. 46 00:05:32,791 --> 00:05:34,916 It's amazing, of course. 47 00:05:35,000 --> 00:05:37,625 I mean, her reflexes are weak, but they are there. 48 00:05:39,041 --> 00:05:40,166 Had you felt anything? 49 00:05:40,250 --> 00:05:43,041 Had you had any sensations prior to this morning? 50 00:05:43,125 --> 00:05:46,333 I don't know. I mean, even when I couldn't feel them, 51 00:05:46,416 --> 00:05:49,916 I could feel them. Like we talked about, the phantom-- 52 00:05:50,000 --> 00:05:53,791 Phantom limb syndrome, right. But nothing new? Nothing different? 53 00:05:53,875 --> 00:05:55,666 -[Leeza] No. -[Sarah] Well, I… 54 00:05:56,458 --> 00:06:01,583 You are standing, you are walking, that's the most important thing. 55 00:06:02,375 --> 00:06:04,791 I'm very happy for you, Leeza. 56 00:06:05,791 --> 00:06:09,541 Your muscles are a little underdeveloped, which is understandable. Let me… 57 00:06:10,875 --> 00:06:12,416 I want you to use this cane, 58 00:06:12,500 --> 00:06:15,041 even for short distances, for the time being. 59 00:06:15,125 --> 00:06:17,875 Put your weight on it and put it one step in front of you. 60 00:06:17,958 --> 00:06:20,208 -Does that make sense? -[Wade] Have you ever… 61 00:06:20,708 --> 00:06:22,750 Have you ever seen anything like this? 62 00:06:22,833 --> 00:06:27,041 I mean, it's a miracle, isn't it? A real one, like a gospels real one. 63 00:06:27,125 --> 00:06:31,166 Before today? No, I haven't seen anything like this before today. 64 00:06:31,250 --> 00:06:36,625 But now I have. Spinal injuries, they can heal themselves over time. 65 00:06:36,708 --> 00:06:39,041 It's exceedingly rare, but it does happen. 66 00:06:39,125 --> 00:06:42,750 I would love to get Leeza to the mainland for some advanced testing. 67 00:06:42,833 --> 00:06:43,666 I don't know. 68 00:06:44,833 --> 00:06:46,250 The more we know about what's happened, 69 00:06:46,333 --> 00:06:47,750 the more we can help other people suffering-- 70 00:06:47,833 --> 00:06:50,166 No, I know, it's not that. It's just that, 71 00:06:51,166 --> 00:06:54,666 over the years, all the appointments and the specialists 72 00:06:54,750 --> 00:06:57,000 and the experimental treatments that we tried-- 73 00:06:57,083 --> 00:06:59,666 [clears throat] Truth be told, Sarah, um… 74 00:07:00,500 --> 00:07:02,583 Well, we pay rent on a house we used to own. 75 00:07:02,666 --> 00:07:03,625 [Wade exhales] 76 00:07:03,708 --> 00:07:06,250 Half the food we eat is bought on SNAP benefits 77 00:07:06,333 --> 00:07:09,083 and the other half is donated from the church. 78 00:07:09,166 --> 00:07:11,541 Oh, we are not complaining, honey. No. 79 00:07:11,625 --> 00:07:14,666 You are worth every penny we'll ever have, and so much more. 80 00:07:14,750 --> 00:07:16,708 But without a CT scan 81 00:07:16,791 --> 00:07:19,708 or a spinal tap, we're in the dark about what's happening-- 82 00:07:19,791 --> 00:07:23,500 [Wade] She's walking and she's standing. And we're grateful. 83 00:07:24,083 --> 00:07:28,500 It feels wrong, doesn't it? To interrogate a miracle? 84 00:07:28,583 --> 00:07:30,458 Second guess a gift from God? 85 00:07:46,708 --> 00:07:48,625 [Sarah] Where did you wander off to? 86 00:07:50,750 --> 00:07:51,750 [muffled thudding] 87 00:07:55,083 --> 00:07:58,125 Mom? Mom, how did you get up here? 88 00:07:59,083 --> 00:08:02,375 My room is… This is my room. 89 00:08:02,458 --> 00:08:04,958 -[Sarah] Yeah, Mom, but not for-- -[Mildred] It's different. 90 00:08:05,041 --> 00:08:07,916 -You cannot do stairs. You just can't. -My room is… 91 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:10,583 Do you know my daughter, Sarah? 92 00:08:10,666 --> 00:08:12,541 -She's a doctor. -I don't know how I'll get you down. 93 00:08:12,625 --> 00:08:14,833 [Mildred] She can tell you, have a bad hip. 94 00:08:14,916 --> 00:08:16,458 If he could… My wife. 95 00:08:16,541 --> 00:08:19,916 -If he could pray over my wife. -My husband, he's been so sick. 96 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:24,791 Calm down, all of you. You know that isn't how these things work. 97 00:08:24,875 --> 00:08:31,458 Let's not overreact. God does not seek glory, not like that. 98 00:08:32,791 --> 00:08:33,666 Let's pray. 99 00:08:36,166 --> 00:08:39,083 "Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good." 100 00:08:39,166 --> 00:08:43,458 "For His steadfast love endures forever." 101 00:08:43,541 --> 00:08:49,250 "Give thanks to the God of gods, for His steadfast love endures forever." 102 00:08:49,333 --> 00:08:54,541 "Give thanks to the Lord of Lords, for His steadfast love endures forever." 103 00:08:54,625 --> 00:08:59,166 "To Him, who alone can do great wonders." 104 00:08:59,250 --> 00:09:02,416 "Whose steadfast love endures forever." 105 00:09:12,541 --> 00:09:16,750 The fourth step can be very difficult, but I know you can do it. I really do. 106 00:09:17,791 --> 00:09:21,166 We really not gonna talk about it? 107 00:09:23,208 --> 00:09:25,000 No, we can talk about it. 108 00:09:25,583 --> 00:09:26,458 [scoffs] 109 00:09:27,500 --> 00:09:29,166 Whole town's buzzin'. 110 00:09:30,125 --> 00:09:33,250 A miracle at St. Patrick's. You're gonna have every resident 111 00:09:33,333 --> 00:09:35,791 with a bum knee and a head cold in the pews. 112 00:09:37,250 --> 00:09:40,458 Wouldn't be surprised if you get a call from a reporter on the mainland. 113 00:09:41,333 --> 00:09:44,541 Might wanna do a human interest story on little Leeza's recovery 114 00:09:44,625 --> 00:09:46,791 about the priest who healed her. 115 00:09:47,750 --> 00:09:50,083 This isn't about publicity. I'd turn that down. 116 00:09:50,166 --> 00:09:54,333 As Matthew says, you know, "If you give something to someone in need, 117 00:09:54,416 --> 00:09:57,541 don't let your left hand know what your right hand is doing." 118 00:09:57,625 --> 00:10:00,208 And Dolly and Wade, you know, 119 00:10:00,291 --> 00:10:03,125 they're not looking to exploit their daughter or sensationalize anything. 120 00:10:03,208 --> 00:10:04,958 I just can't actually imagine 121 00:10:05,041 --> 00:10:08,875 that it'll summon that much interest outside of Crockett, and that's okay. 122 00:10:08,958 --> 00:10:10,166 It's for the best. 123 00:10:11,166 --> 00:10:12,791 The important thing is Leeza. 124 00:10:13,833 --> 00:10:14,833 Yeah. 125 00:10:15,791 --> 00:10:19,291 See, I'm a pretty rational guy, 126 00:10:19,375 --> 00:10:21,666 and you know that all our myths, our religions, 127 00:10:21,750 --> 00:10:25,208 come from natural occurrences that we can't explain. 128 00:10:25,291 --> 00:10:28,000 So I can pretty easily see my way through that. 129 00:10:29,333 --> 00:10:30,583 Good for you. 130 00:10:30,666 --> 00:10:33,291 I can wrap my head around a misdiagnosis. 131 00:10:34,208 --> 00:10:37,625 I looked. It happens. It's rare, but it does. 132 00:10:37,708 --> 00:10:43,416 So, like, her body could have been slowly healing this whole time. 133 00:10:43,500 --> 00:10:48,166 I can explain all of it. If I'm honest, it's all explainable. 134 00:10:48,250 --> 00:10:51,166 -That sounds wonderful, frankly. -Except one thing. 135 00:10:53,208 --> 00:10:54,208 You had to know. 136 00:10:55,791 --> 00:10:58,250 You had to know that she could walk. 137 00:10:58,333 --> 00:11:02,666 I mean, you went back up the stairs. You beckoned her. If she hadn't, 138 00:11:03,708 --> 00:11:05,083 what would've happened to you? 139 00:11:05,583 --> 00:11:08,666 What would this community have thought of you if she hadn't? 140 00:11:08,750 --> 00:11:10,541 -Well, but she did. -And you had to know that. 141 00:11:10,625 --> 00:11:14,791 -Okay. What are you asking? -I'm asking, how did you know that? 142 00:11:19,958 --> 00:11:22,791 I really don't have an answer that's gonna satisfy you. 143 00:11:24,333 --> 00:11:25,541 Not you. 144 00:11:27,083 --> 00:11:29,500 I mean, if I told somebody else that I could just feel it 145 00:11:29,583 --> 00:11:32,250 as she wheeled past me on that ramp, 146 00:11:32,333 --> 00:11:37,791 that I could almost see it, that I could almost hear her voice inside my head. 147 00:11:38,541 --> 00:11:41,041 I felt so connected to her at that moment. 148 00:11:41,125 --> 00:11:44,125 That might be good enough for someone, but not for you, 149 00:11:45,375 --> 00:11:46,916 is it, Riley Flynn? 150 00:11:49,583 --> 00:11:51,083 I suppose I'd want more. 151 00:11:53,125 --> 00:11:57,333 Yeah, and I'll always wish that I could give you more. 152 00:11:59,291 --> 00:12:01,875 -But that's all I got. -[Riley exhales] 153 00:12:15,041 --> 00:12:16,166 Does it hurt? 154 00:12:17,458 --> 00:12:18,375 No. 155 00:12:22,625 --> 00:12:25,416 Do you want me to carry your backpack or something? 156 00:12:25,500 --> 00:12:27,125 Sure, thanks. 157 00:12:50,333 --> 00:12:51,666 [indistinct chatter] 158 00:12:55,291 --> 00:12:57,125 -[girl 1] Does it hurt to walk? -[girl 2] How do you feel? 159 00:12:57,708 --> 00:12:59,833 Come on. Leave her be. 160 00:13:01,625 --> 00:13:02,583 Good morning. 161 00:13:02,666 --> 00:13:04,541 -Morning, Miss Greene. -Morning, Miss Greene. 162 00:13:04,625 --> 00:13:06,500 [indistinct chatter continues] 163 00:13:17,291 --> 00:13:18,625 [sighs] 164 00:13:23,500 --> 00:13:24,791 [Ed clears throat] 165 00:13:31,375 --> 00:13:32,250 [sighs] 166 00:13:43,250 --> 00:13:44,166 [exclaims] 167 00:14:08,000 --> 00:14:09,875 [song starts on record player] 168 00:14:14,666 --> 00:14:15,541 What are you doing? 169 00:14:20,125 --> 00:14:21,500 What about your back? 170 00:14:22,750 --> 00:14:24,125 Just dance with me. 171 00:14:25,375 --> 00:14:26,458 [Annie] All right. 172 00:14:33,666 --> 00:14:34,875 [Ed chuckles] 173 00:14:50,291 --> 00:14:52,541 What? [laughs] 174 00:14:54,458 --> 00:14:55,791 [song continues] 175 00:15:02,708 --> 00:15:04,250 [knocking at window] 176 00:15:49,541 --> 00:15:50,541 [song continues] 177 00:16:14,166 --> 00:16:15,541 [inaudible conversation] 178 00:16:35,166 --> 00:16:36,666 [inaudible singing] 179 00:16:58,958 --> 00:17:00,500 [inaudible] The body of Christ. 180 00:17:32,083 --> 00:17:34,083 [inaudible conversation] 181 00:17:45,458 --> 00:17:46,541 [inaudible conversation] 182 00:17:57,791 --> 00:17:59,791 [inaudible singing] 183 00:18:21,541 --> 00:18:23,541 [inaudible conversation] 184 00:18:25,875 --> 00:18:27,875 [song continues] 185 00:18:42,583 --> 00:18:43,583 [song stops] 186 00:18:44,375 --> 00:18:45,375 [Ed chuckles] 187 00:18:52,250 --> 00:18:55,750 [Paul] Fill up the extra cruets this week. There's quite a crowd out there. 188 00:18:55,833 --> 00:18:57,000 [Ooker] It is very crowded. 189 00:18:57,708 --> 00:18:59,208 [Warren] Do we have another bottle? 190 00:18:59,291 --> 00:19:02,125 We had some lying around, but I haven't seen them recently. 191 00:19:02,208 --> 00:19:04,291 Uh, you boys line up. I'll take care of it. 192 00:19:13,958 --> 00:19:16,708 -I don't think it's lit. -Shit, my bad. 193 00:19:28,958 --> 00:19:29,791 Uh… 194 00:19:30,625 --> 00:19:31,458 Lighter. 195 00:19:34,041 --> 00:19:34,875 Let's go! 196 00:19:36,125 --> 00:19:39,875 Three weeks ago, when we began this journey of repentance, 197 00:19:39,958 --> 00:19:44,125 I asked those of you who were here that day to keep a few words in mind. 198 00:19:44,791 --> 00:19:48,875 Rebirth, second chances, eternal life. 199 00:19:51,208 --> 00:19:53,708 [chuckles] That's a lot to wrap your head around, isn't it? 200 00:19:53,791 --> 00:19:57,458 I can barely visualize next week, let alone eternity. 201 00:19:57,541 --> 00:20:01,583 But, I mean, for most of us, eternity, it's an abstract. 202 00:20:01,666 --> 00:20:04,958 It's a metaphor, a colorful exaggeration. 203 00:20:05,041 --> 00:20:08,625 When we're waiting for something we want, it takes forever. 204 00:20:08,708 --> 00:20:12,583 We sit in traffic for an eternity. 205 00:20:13,541 --> 00:20:16,500 Abstracts, metaphors, colorful exaggerations. 206 00:20:17,250 --> 00:20:21,333 To us, maybe, but not to God. 207 00:20:22,041 --> 00:20:25,458 Not to Him. And it shouldn't be for us, either. 208 00:20:26,083 --> 00:20:29,750 Communion, the transformation of bread and wine 209 00:20:29,833 --> 00:20:32,458 into the body and blood of Christ. 210 00:20:32,541 --> 00:20:35,583 A metaphor? No. God tells us. 211 00:20:35,666 --> 00:20:40,166 Miracles, walking on water, rising from the dead. Abstracts? 212 00:20:40,250 --> 00:20:44,958 No. God tells us. Eternal life, a colorful exaggeration? 213 00:20:45,041 --> 00:20:48,291 -[Wade] No. -No? That's right. You call it out. 214 00:20:48,375 --> 00:20:54,333 God's gifts are as tangible as the ground beneath our feet. 215 00:20:54,416 --> 00:20:56,875 -[bangs pedestal] -And His covenant, it's not abstract. 216 00:20:56,958 --> 00:21:01,750 No. It's a contract, scrawled in flesh, inked in the blood of the martyrs. 217 00:21:01,833 --> 00:21:06,083 And yet, try as we might, we cannot visualize, 218 00:21:06,166 --> 00:21:10,750 we cannot mentally picture the rewards promised. 219 00:21:12,500 --> 00:21:16,541 Well, if you're here seeking to know answers to the unknowable, 220 00:21:16,625 --> 00:21:20,666 it's incumbent upon me to tell you that I have none. 221 00:21:21,291 --> 00:21:27,000 And if you want to know why or how God's will shapes the world, 222 00:21:27,083 --> 00:21:32,958 brothers and sisters, so do I. I don't have all the answers. Nobody does. 223 00:21:33,041 --> 00:21:37,291 What I do have though, and what God gives us plentifully, 224 00:21:37,375 --> 00:21:39,416 are mysteries. 225 00:21:40,291 --> 00:21:44,708 God gives us miracles very rarely, here and there, but mysteries? 226 00:21:50,875 --> 00:21:52,666 Sorry. Um… 227 00:21:52,750 --> 00:21:55,958 As… adults, 228 00:21:56,625 --> 00:21:59,833 we tend to dislike mysteries. 229 00:21:59,916 --> 00:22:02,708 We… We feel uncomfortable not knowing. 230 00:22:03,666 --> 00:22:06,791 [chuckles] No. To be a child. 231 00:22:08,958 --> 00:22:13,333 To look with awe and wonder, and live with staggering honesty. 232 00:22:13,416 --> 00:22:17,750 To be guiltless, light as air. 233 00:22:18,958 --> 00:22:24,041 To bend softly as the word of God sweeps… 234 00:22:27,208 --> 00:22:28,958 I'm very sorry. I'm… 235 00:22:31,416 --> 00:22:34,000 Sorry, I'm just a little bit tired today. 236 00:22:35,041 --> 00:22:36,458 A tiny dizzy spell. 237 00:22:37,166 --> 00:22:40,083 It's passed. I'm fine. Sorry. I'm very sorry. 238 00:22:40,958 --> 00:22:42,208 Um… 239 00:22:43,250 --> 00:22:45,916 The more that we know, the less we bend. 240 00:22:46,541 --> 00:22:49,708 The more brittle we become, the easier to break. 241 00:22:50,666 --> 00:22:54,083 Like some would say this island broke. Was broken. 242 00:22:56,250 --> 00:22:57,916 But I am here to tell you… 243 00:23:00,208 --> 00:23:06,833 the resurrection, body and soul, the redemption, body and soul, 244 00:23:06,916 --> 00:23:11,791 the miracles waiting for us here on Crockett Island. 245 00:23:11,875 --> 00:23:18,166 Not metaphors, not abstracts, not colorful exaggerations, no. 246 00:23:18,250 --> 00:23:22,583 Rebirth, second chances. Eter… [groans] 247 00:23:23,333 --> 00:23:24,916 [all gasp] 248 00:23:29,500 --> 00:23:30,666 [Wade] Go get Dr. Gunning! 249 00:23:33,083 --> 00:23:34,625 Please give him some room. 250 00:23:34,708 --> 00:23:38,083 [Paul] The conversion of Saul took place on the road to Damascus. 251 00:23:39,000 --> 00:23:42,375 Saul was a persecutor of Christians, an enemy of the Church, 252 00:23:42,458 --> 00:23:46,333 heading to Damascus to round up believers, take them prisoner. 253 00:23:46,416 --> 00:23:49,666 But as you know, as he neared Damascus, 254 00:23:49,750 --> 00:23:53,333 he saw a light so bright it knocked him to the ground. 255 00:23:54,250 --> 00:23:57,333 And he was blinded. And then Jesus spoke to him. 256 00:23:58,375 --> 00:24:03,416 Days later the scales fell from his eyes and Saul became a follower of Christ 257 00:24:03,500 --> 00:24:07,375 and then became the Apostle Paul. 258 00:24:08,166 --> 00:24:12,250 It was on the same road outside the city that Monsignor Pruitt, 259 00:24:12,333 --> 00:24:16,583 bewildered and confused, wandered from his tour group for the last time. 260 00:24:17,333 --> 00:24:19,250 They must not have noticed he was missing. 261 00:24:19,333 --> 00:24:24,583 First his failing mind didn't help him, and out he wandered, out into that desert. 262 00:24:25,833 --> 00:24:27,208 No, Monsignor… 263 00:24:28,083 --> 00:24:32,000 Lost, confused, lost in the world, lost in his mind, 264 00:24:32,083 --> 00:24:34,125 separated from his group, 265 00:24:34,208 --> 00:24:38,750 certain to die out there in that desert, on the road to Damascus, 266 00:24:39,625 --> 00:24:44,041 when a horrible sandstorm overtook him. 267 00:24:44,125 --> 00:24:47,791 There had been, recently, horrible storms in the area. 268 00:24:47,875 --> 00:24:52,500 He'd heard this. These astonishing storms, seismic storms. 269 00:24:52,583 --> 00:24:59,541 Storms that had, he'd heard, even unearthed ancient ruins in the desert, 270 00:24:59,625 --> 00:25:02,416 that churned the ground, stirred the earth, 271 00:25:02,500 --> 00:25:07,875 and pulled from it the mouths of structures and buildings from long ago. 272 00:25:07,958 --> 00:25:11,666 Ruins long sealed in the earth. 273 00:25:13,000 --> 00:25:19,041 And so as Monsignor Pruitt wandered, lost in the storm, 274 00:25:20,875 --> 00:25:24,250 the sand scratching his eyes, cutting into his face, 275 00:25:24,333 --> 00:25:28,083 he saw before him, there was a darkness in the dunes. 276 00:25:29,125 --> 00:25:31,291 Mouth of a cave, perhaps. 277 00:25:32,458 --> 00:25:34,875 A door to some ancient ruin. 278 00:25:34,958 --> 00:25:38,041 And his failing mind only sought shelter, so in he went, 279 00:25:38,125 --> 00:25:41,375 eagerly, into the darkness of the thing. 280 00:25:42,166 --> 00:25:47,083 The cave-like entrance that had just opened up in front of him. 281 00:25:47,166 --> 00:25:48,875 Until all light went… 282 00:25:53,500 --> 00:25:56,583 -It's just a dizzy spell. -Maybe so. 283 00:25:57,291 --> 00:25:59,458 Still, let me listen. 284 00:26:00,208 --> 00:26:01,166 [Paul grunts] 285 00:26:01,958 --> 00:26:03,041 Deep breath in. 286 00:26:03,125 --> 00:26:06,416 -[inhales] I promise that I'm all right. -And out. 287 00:26:08,416 --> 00:26:09,250 [Paul exhales] 288 00:26:12,125 --> 00:26:15,083 Your heart rate's elevated, and your body temperature is too. 289 00:26:15,166 --> 00:26:19,083 It's like your body is fighting a virus, but nothing jumps out as too alarming. 290 00:26:19,708 --> 00:26:20,750 So he's okay then? 291 00:26:21,541 --> 00:26:22,541 He'll live. 292 00:26:23,250 --> 00:26:27,250 You are dehydrated though, Father. So cut out all the salty foods, 293 00:26:27,333 --> 00:26:30,041 drink lots and lots of water, get some rest, 294 00:26:30,125 --> 00:26:33,083 and let this work its way out of your system. 295 00:26:34,541 --> 00:26:36,416 -Thank you. -[tap turns] 296 00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:38,333 Just doing my job. 297 00:26:38,416 --> 00:26:42,125 No, it's more than that. You take care of people. 298 00:26:42,208 --> 00:26:47,250 Me and your mother, this whole island. You are a comfort to people. 299 00:26:48,333 --> 00:26:49,500 I'm proud of you. 300 00:26:51,125 --> 00:26:52,041 Thank you. 301 00:26:52,875 --> 00:26:54,291 You heard the doctor. Drink up. 302 00:26:54,791 --> 00:26:57,333 And I'm canceling all your afternoon appointments. 303 00:26:57,416 --> 00:26:59,791 -Oh, Bev. -You need rest and you will get it. 304 00:26:59,875 --> 00:27:01,250 [sighs] 305 00:27:01,333 --> 00:27:04,041 Not all. There are some I will not miss. 306 00:27:07,708 --> 00:27:09,625 -Lunch is ready. -[Ali] Be right there! 307 00:27:29,250 --> 00:27:31,416 [knocking at door] 308 00:27:31,500 --> 00:27:33,291 [indistinct chatter on TV] 309 00:27:34,458 --> 00:27:35,958 [knocking continues] 310 00:27:36,041 --> 00:27:37,333 [Joe] Fuck off. 311 00:27:42,250 --> 00:27:43,958 Fuck you want from me? 312 00:27:44,041 --> 00:27:46,250 You won't leave a guy alone. Fuck you want? 313 00:27:53,791 --> 00:27:54,958 Hello. 314 00:28:18,625 --> 00:28:19,666 Is that the one? 315 00:28:24,333 --> 00:28:26,125 -Is it? -No. 316 00:28:27,458 --> 00:28:28,458 Is it here? 317 00:28:29,166 --> 00:28:30,583 I'd like to see it if it's here. 318 00:28:30,666 --> 00:28:33,875 No, that's my grandfather's gun. 319 00:28:34,791 --> 00:28:38,750 The other one, that one, I threw it into the bay right after. 320 00:28:38,833 --> 00:28:40,791 I couldn't look at it anymore. 321 00:28:43,750 --> 00:28:45,500 It's just like I pictured it. 322 00:28:49,208 --> 00:28:50,208 So here goes. 323 00:28:53,291 --> 00:28:55,041 I was walking with my dad, 324 00:28:55,875 --> 00:28:59,250 and we weren't going anywhere special, it's just something we did. 325 00:29:00,208 --> 00:29:03,333 It's when he'd talk the most to me, so I'd ask him, 326 00:29:03,416 --> 00:29:05,041 since I was a little girl. 327 00:29:05,125 --> 00:29:07,416 And we're walking, 328 00:29:08,208 --> 00:29:11,750 like any other evening, and then there it is. 329 00:29:12,541 --> 00:29:14,875 Like a clap of thunder, and I was just on the ground. 330 00:29:14,958 --> 00:29:16,125 But I didn't feel it. 331 00:29:17,333 --> 00:29:20,416 And my dad is screaming, like an animal. 332 00:29:21,125 --> 00:29:24,333 Never heard his voice like that, I never have since, but I didn't feel it. 333 00:29:25,833 --> 00:29:27,041 I didn't feel it at all. 334 00:29:27,666 --> 00:29:30,833 And it was when I realized just how much I couldn't feel, 335 00:29:30,916 --> 00:29:32,708 that's when I got really scared. 336 00:29:34,208 --> 00:29:36,250 -[exclaims] -I hate you. 337 00:29:37,583 --> 00:29:39,833 Honesty is important, so we'll start there. 338 00:29:40,708 --> 00:29:42,875 I hate you, Joe Collie. 339 00:29:42,958 --> 00:29:44,500 [Joe whimpers] 340 00:29:44,583 --> 00:29:46,708 I've hated you for years, 341 00:29:46,791 --> 00:29:51,000 and the things I've imagined doing to you… I want you to hurt. 342 00:29:52,166 --> 00:29:53,458 I want you to suffer. 343 00:29:53,958 --> 00:29:56,083 [voice breaking] I want you to make those noises my dad made 344 00:29:56,166 --> 00:29:59,583 when he put his hand over the bullet hole in my spine. 345 00:29:59,666 --> 00:30:03,250 I want you to beg for my forgiveness so that I can tell you no. 346 00:30:05,541 --> 00:30:09,125 I want you to live in complete, absolute misery. 347 00:30:09,208 --> 00:30:11,291 So when I say this place is just like I pictured it, 348 00:30:11,375 --> 00:30:14,125 what I really mean is it's just like I hoped it would be. 349 00:30:14,208 --> 00:30:17,166 -I'm sorry. -Damn right, you're sorry! 350 00:30:18,208 --> 00:30:19,458 [sniffles] 351 00:30:20,833 --> 00:30:21,791 You stole from me. 352 00:30:22,541 --> 00:30:24,875 Not just who I was, but who I could've been. 353 00:30:25,541 --> 00:30:27,791 You stole from me things I didn't even have yet. 354 00:30:27,875 --> 00:30:30,791 You reached through time, Joe Collie! 355 00:30:30,875 --> 00:30:33,541 You reached through time and you stole… 356 00:30:35,500 --> 00:30:37,125 [sobs softly] 357 00:30:38,000 --> 00:30:39,250 All of that is true, 358 00:30:40,750 --> 00:30:42,208 and all that is still in here, 359 00:30:44,333 --> 00:30:46,041 but that's not why I came here today. 360 00:30:49,333 --> 00:30:50,875 I came here today… 361 00:30:55,250 --> 00:30:56,541 I came here today… 362 00:30:59,875 --> 00:31:00,916 I forgive you. 363 00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:02,500 [sobs] 364 00:31:04,541 --> 00:31:05,875 I forgive you, Joe Collie. 365 00:31:08,625 --> 00:31:11,500 I forgive you, and I see you now. 366 00:31:14,791 --> 00:31:19,500 I see you. And I'm still angry with you. 367 00:31:21,458 --> 00:31:24,500 But it's different. Even now just saying it, it's different. 368 00:31:24,583 --> 00:31:26,708 -Do you wanna know why? -Yeah. 369 00:31:26,791 --> 00:31:31,541 Because the only thing standing between you and a better life is you. 370 00:31:32,666 --> 00:31:34,833 The only thing standing in my way was hate. 371 00:31:34,916 --> 00:31:37,208 The only thing standing in your way is you. 372 00:31:39,541 --> 00:31:43,375 "Whoever is slow to anger is better than the mighty." 373 00:31:44,375 --> 00:31:48,458 "And he who rules his spirit than he who takes the city." 374 00:31:49,166 --> 00:31:52,375 That's Proverbs 16:32, Joe. Do you know what Proverbs means? 375 00:31:53,041 --> 00:31:54,625 What the Book of Proverbs is? 376 00:31:55,208 --> 00:31:56,208 It means wisdom. 377 00:31:58,375 --> 00:32:02,000 Wisdom and knowledge. So… 378 00:32:04,375 --> 00:32:06,916 if God can forgive you, and He says He can, 379 00:32:07,416 --> 00:32:09,041 all over the place, He says it… 380 00:32:11,875 --> 00:32:12,875 then I can forgive you. 381 00:32:12,958 --> 00:32:14,375 [exclaims] 382 00:32:14,458 --> 00:32:16,375 And if I can forgive you, Joe Collie, 383 00:32:17,250 --> 00:32:18,458 then anyone can. 384 00:32:21,958 --> 00:32:23,458 [sobbing] 385 00:32:26,791 --> 00:32:29,291 [Bev] I understand that a few of you are upset, 386 00:32:29,375 --> 00:32:32,541 but let me be the first one to help calm you down. 387 00:32:32,625 --> 00:32:35,875 No one is taking a single thing away. 388 00:32:35,958 --> 00:32:38,708 All of the required lessons are still being taught. 389 00:32:38,791 --> 00:32:43,291 We haven't touched the curriculum, so we get that off the table right now. 390 00:32:43,375 --> 00:32:44,791 Respectfully, that's not the issue-- 391 00:32:44,875 --> 00:32:47,625 I understand given your religious affiliation, 392 00:32:47,708 --> 00:32:52,666 you might find the fact that your son is interested in the Bible offensive… 393 00:32:52,750 --> 00:32:53,916 -Not at all. -…I suppose. 394 00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:57,833 But I would say that if he's interested in Jesus, 395 00:32:57,916 --> 00:33:00,416 why not allow him to learn a little about it? 396 00:33:00,500 --> 00:33:05,250 That's so not the issue, and thank you for this opportunity to clarify. 397 00:33:05,875 --> 00:33:07,916 Uh, he knows all about Jesus. 398 00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:10,333 Well, I imagine not quite all. 399 00:33:10,416 --> 00:33:13,458 [Hassan] Muslims believe that Jesus is a prophet of God, 400 00:33:14,041 --> 00:33:15,625 and that the Injeel, the Bible, 401 00:33:15,708 --> 00:33:19,708 was revealed to him as the Torah was revealed to Moses before that. 402 00:33:20,833 --> 00:33:24,500 See, we love Jesus. And we love the message that was revealed to him. 403 00:33:24,583 --> 00:33:26,208 Well! [laughs] 404 00:33:26,291 --> 00:33:29,000 I suppose we learn something new every day, don't we? 405 00:33:29,083 --> 00:33:32,125 [Hassan] But we also believe, after the time of Jesus, 406 00:33:32,708 --> 00:33:36,500 thanks to the interference of men, there were deviations in Christianity. 407 00:33:37,958 --> 00:33:41,291 People altered the message. Priests, popes, kings. 408 00:33:42,458 --> 00:33:45,208 That's why there's so, so many versions of the Bible. 409 00:33:45,291 --> 00:33:48,500 -People got in there, made their changes. -I don't think this is relevant. 410 00:33:48,583 --> 00:33:52,250 Okay, we do though believe that the Bible contains some of the original word of God. 411 00:33:52,333 --> 00:33:53,708 That's very generous of you. 412 00:33:53,791 --> 00:33:57,375 [Hassan] But we also believe that God revealed the Quran as the final message. 413 00:33:58,083 --> 00:33:59,458 Never to be altered. 414 00:33:59,541 --> 00:34:02,083 To reassert the original revelations of the previous prophets. 415 00:34:02,166 --> 00:34:04,875 I don't think that this is the place to discuss 416 00:34:04,958 --> 00:34:07,750 where our beliefs about scripture might diverge. 417 00:34:07,833 --> 00:34:08,791 Exactly. 418 00:34:10,416 --> 00:34:12,541 There it is. That's the issue. 419 00:34:13,166 --> 00:34:14,875 That's why I think some of the people in this room, 420 00:34:14,958 --> 00:34:17,250 including myself, are a little concerned. 421 00:34:17,333 --> 00:34:19,625 See, Muslims encourage everyone to seek knowledge, 422 00:34:19,708 --> 00:34:23,541 so I am more than comfortable with my son studying a Bible. 423 00:34:23,625 --> 00:34:25,625 Thrilled, actually. I've done it myself. 424 00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:31,416 But where I think there's an issue is that this is a public school. 425 00:34:32,166 --> 00:34:33,458 That's the thing. 426 00:34:33,541 --> 00:34:36,791 And I think what's concerning some of us is not the Bible itself, 427 00:34:37,375 --> 00:34:41,458 but that it was handed out. Distributed to the kids here. 428 00:34:41,541 --> 00:34:44,458 I just ask you to consider how you'd feel, 429 00:34:44,541 --> 00:34:47,000 if you sent your child to a public school… 430 00:34:47,083 --> 00:34:48,000 Sheriff. 431 00:34:48,083 --> 00:34:49,791 …and they came home with a copy of the Quran, 432 00:34:49,875 --> 00:34:53,916 asking about the Prophet Muhammad. You'd feel it was an issue. 433 00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:55,833 If I went around handing out copies of the Quran 434 00:34:55,916 --> 00:34:57,500 to the children on this island, 435 00:34:57,583 --> 00:35:01,083 purely in the interest of the pursuit of knowledge, 436 00:35:01,666 --> 00:35:03,875 I'd expect you chase me out of town, Miss Keane. 437 00:35:03,958 --> 00:35:05,791 If I may, um… 438 00:35:08,541 --> 00:35:09,833 This is a public school. 439 00:35:10,625 --> 00:35:13,458 And he's absolutely right. 440 00:35:13,541 --> 00:35:16,041 And I belong to the same congregation as most of you, 441 00:35:16,125 --> 00:35:19,041 so you know where I fall, but reading scripture in homeroom-- 442 00:35:19,125 --> 00:35:24,041 Why, Sheriff, of course, I wouldn't run you out of town. 443 00:35:25,125 --> 00:35:28,708 And it makes me sad that you would think that of me. 444 00:35:30,250 --> 00:35:35,500 People of faith, any faith, well, we're all of the same cloth. 445 00:35:35,583 --> 00:35:37,000 Cousins, really. 446 00:35:37,666 --> 00:35:41,500 And it was never my intention to disrespect anybody. 447 00:35:41,583 --> 00:35:44,250 Never, in the least. It's just… 448 00:35:45,208 --> 00:35:46,166 [sighs] 449 00:35:47,166 --> 00:35:49,583 Having a Bible present in the room, 450 00:35:50,500 --> 00:35:56,916 why, it's just a book in the room like a science book or a history book-- 451 00:35:57,000 --> 00:35:58,541 It's actually very different. 452 00:35:58,625 --> 00:36:00,375 Kids can take them or leave them. 453 00:36:01,166 --> 00:36:06,083 Sure, I may read an inspiring passage during homeroom from time to time, 454 00:36:06,166 --> 00:36:08,458 but I am not evangelizing. 455 00:36:08,541 --> 00:36:12,333 I am simply sharing my faith with the children 456 00:36:12,416 --> 00:36:15,500 in the hopes that they might be inspired. 457 00:36:15,583 --> 00:36:19,875 If we had a Muslim faculty member, and they quoted the Quran to the kids, 458 00:36:19,958 --> 00:36:23,208 I would be fine with that so long as the text wasn't offensive, 459 00:36:23,291 --> 00:36:28,000 which, forgive me for saying so, a good deal of that text can be, at times. 460 00:36:28,083 --> 00:36:31,375 -[scoffs] -That is not an attack, Sheriff. 461 00:36:31,458 --> 00:36:36,541 I certainly admit that the Holy Bible, the Old Testament in particular, 462 00:36:36,625 --> 00:36:40,000 has passages that are not suitable for children. 463 00:36:40,625 --> 00:36:42,833 Invaluable to adults, of course, 464 00:36:42,916 --> 00:36:47,833 but I would never read the tale of Lot and his wife to a group of kids. 465 00:36:47,916 --> 00:36:51,916 Anything that I quote, I vet beforehand. 466 00:36:52,000 --> 00:36:53,458 That's not the point he's making-- 467 00:36:53,541 --> 00:36:55,583 And what is education, 468 00:36:55,666 --> 00:36:59,625 if not providing a student with the option to learn. 469 00:36:59,708 --> 00:37:02,791 Why be afraid to let them read a particular text? 470 00:37:02,875 --> 00:37:07,083 What, are we gonna burn books we find even a smidge controversial? 471 00:37:07,916 --> 00:37:10,500 And in this case, current events, 472 00:37:11,583 --> 00:37:16,208 local events, well, they beg further study, don't they? 473 00:37:16,291 --> 00:37:17,333 I'm just gonna say it, 474 00:37:17,416 --> 00:37:20,166 there is no point in pretending there isn't an elephant in the room. 475 00:37:20,250 --> 00:37:26,125 We are living in a miraculous time. Right here, right now, on Crockett Island. 476 00:37:26,208 --> 00:37:29,333 There are actual bona fide miracles 477 00:37:29,416 --> 00:37:32,125 happening before our eyes at St. Patrick's. 478 00:37:32,208 --> 00:37:34,833 And this community… Sheriff, you should know this, 479 00:37:34,916 --> 00:37:37,375 you are responsible for observing this community. 480 00:37:37,458 --> 00:37:41,541 This community is in the midst of a full-blown religious revival 481 00:37:41,625 --> 00:37:42,625 at the moment. 482 00:37:43,291 --> 00:37:49,666 And if the children of this community cannot discuss that in their local school, 483 00:37:49,750 --> 00:37:51,916 well, I just don't know what that is. 484 00:37:52,416 --> 00:37:53,458 [applauding] 485 00:38:00,458 --> 00:38:04,583 I couldn't stay in that room listening to her bullshit one more minute. 486 00:38:04,666 --> 00:38:07,958 It's like this particular brand of self-righteousness 487 00:38:08,041 --> 00:38:11,500 that is exclusive to a certain breed of religious. 488 00:38:14,375 --> 00:38:15,791 I've never liked that. 489 00:38:16,833 --> 00:38:17,833 Never. 490 00:38:20,666 --> 00:38:22,833 -Sorry, that was… -No. 491 00:38:22,916 --> 00:38:23,916 [sighs] 492 00:38:26,208 --> 00:38:28,291 How are you? How's it going? 493 00:38:30,541 --> 00:38:36,291 Slowly. I guess I'm having trouble 494 00:38:36,791 --> 00:38:40,208 approaching people directly for my amends. 495 00:38:40,291 --> 00:38:43,708 So Father Paul said I should write letters, 496 00:38:43,791 --> 00:38:48,333 so I'm writing letters. Lots of letters. 497 00:38:48,416 --> 00:38:51,250 -That's difficult. -Writing them is hard. 498 00:38:52,041 --> 00:38:55,125 Delivering them, that's gonna be harder. 499 00:38:56,083 --> 00:38:58,208 That I'm not looking forward to. 500 00:39:01,166 --> 00:39:07,875 I did my fearless moral inventory, and I found out that, 501 00:39:09,375 --> 00:39:10,541 man, I am a coward. 502 00:39:11,416 --> 00:39:12,500 Don't do that. 503 00:39:13,458 --> 00:39:15,125 Don't talk about yourself like that. 504 00:39:15,916 --> 00:39:18,458 If anyone else talked about you like that, I'd… 505 00:39:20,416 --> 00:39:21,375 You'd what? 506 00:39:26,041 --> 00:39:27,166 I'd kick their ass. 507 00:39:28,166 --> 00:39:29,250 -Oh, yeah? -Yeah. 508 00:39:29,333 --> 00:39:32,250 -You'd kick their ass? -I'd kick it, just like this. [exclaims] 509 00:39:33,500 --> 00:39:35,416 That was actually my thigh, so… 510 00:39:35,500 --> 00:39:37,541 -So I'd kick their thighs. -Yeah. 511 00:39:44,041 --> 00:39:45,750 All right, Mom, time for a bath before… 512 00:39:49,125 --> 00:39:50,083 God, Mom. 513 00:39:50,625 --> 00:39:54,083 We're gonna have to start tying you down unless you want to shatter both hips. 514 00:39:54,166 --> 00:39:55,083 Sarah. 515 00:39:55,166 --> 00:39:58,541 Don't know why I bother telling you this. It's like I'm speaking in German. 516 00:39:58,625 --> 00:39:59,791 Sarah, honey. 517 00:40:01,083 --> 00:40:01,916 Mom. 518 00:40:07,416 --> 00:40:08,750 I've been… 519 00:40:10,750 --> 00:40:15,958 Where have I been? Somewhere… somewhere dark? 520 00:40:17,166 --> 00:40:22,250 But just now… it's like I woke up, 521 00:40:23,250 --> 00:40:26,791 and… there you are. 522 00:40:28,125 --> 00:40:29,291 My beautiful… 523 00:40:34,875 --> 00:40:35,833 Mom? 524 00:40:41,833 --> 00:40:43,041 [Mildred sobs softly] 525 00:40:51,458 --> 00:40:53,708 When did you move me into the living room? 526 00:41:10,125 --> 00:41:11,333 Sorry I'm late. 527 00:41:12,541 --> 00:41:15,458 Told you he'd catch on. We're a trio now. 528 00:41:15,958 --> 00:41:16,833 [exhales] 529 00:41:18,041 --> 00:41:18,875 Hey, Joe. 530 00:41:19,833 --> 00:41:23,458 So much for the anonymous part, eh, partner? [chuckles] 531 00:41:23,541 --> 00:41:27,000 And after she left, I didn't even want to drink. 532 00:41:27,083 --> 00:41:31,666 I mean, I did, but I didn't want to. 533 00:41:32,916 --> 00:41:35,500 If that makes any sense. I mean, I don't know. 534 00:41:35,583 --> 00:41:40,125 I don't fucking know. I walked up the length of the whole goddamn island, 535 00:41:40,208 --> 00:41:43,000 and I figured, you know, what happened for her, 536 00:41:43,083 --> 00:41:45,250 it happened here, at St. Patrick's. 537 00:41:45,333 --> 00:41:47,500 That's what everybody's saying, right? 538 00:41:47,583 --> 00:41:49,041 So I figured fuck it. 539 00:41:49,125 --> 00:41:53,958 And I came here and then Father Paul tells me 540 00:41:55,583 --> 00:41:56,833 you guys have this meetin'. 541 00:41:56,916 --> 00:42:00,083 So Leeza's forgiven you. 542 00:42:00,958 --> 00:42:04,750 And I heard your confession today, and God forgave you. 543 00:42:05,708 --> 00:42:06,833 Who does that leave? 544 00:42:11,208 --> 00:42:13,625 I guess I'm not as quick to forgive as they are. 545 00:42:16,208 --> 00:42:17,708 All right. What do you think, Riley? 546 00:42:19,208 --> 00:42:22,791 I think I'm not really in a position 547 00:42:22,875 --> 00:42:25,416 to say anything to anyone about their drinking. 548 00:42:26,000 --> 00:42:27,291 That's bullshit. 549 00:42:29,333 --> 00:42:32,458 No, I'm sorry, it's bullshit. That's bullshit. I'm sorry. 550 00:42:32,541 --> 00:42:36,625 You've been coming here once a week, sometimes more, if we're honest, isn't it? 551 00:42:37,208 --> 00:42:39,458 That's all you have to say? Remember that first time? 552 00:42:39,541 --> 00:42:44,083 Remember that Riley who walked in here, arms folded, walls up? I remember him. 553 00:42:44,166 --> 00:42:46,833 Think about him for a minute, then talk. 554 00:42:46,916 --> 00:42:50,666 Because I think there's somethin' you can say to Joe that I can't, 555 00:42:50,750 --> 00:42:52,416 that nobody else can. 556 00:42:52,500 --> 00:42:56,041 And that's what this is for. So don't bullshit me and just do it. 557 00:42:56,833 --> 00:42:57,791 Okay, Riley? 558 00:43:01,083 --> 00:43:02,208 Um… 559 00:43:06,541 --> 00:43:07,916 You showed up, Joe. 560 00:43:09,416 --> 00:43:12,333 You're here, that's… that's enough. 561 00:43:13,666 --> 00:43:15,958 It won't be forever, but for tonight it is. 562 00:43:16,041 --> 00:43:19,625 For tonight, it's everything. 563 00:43:27,875 --> 00:43:30,875 [Paul] All right, I got it from here, gentlemen. You two go on ahead. 564 00:43:30,958 --> 00:43:32,333 You sure? We can help you with the coffee-- 565 00:43:32,416 --> 00:43:34,500 Absolutely. I'll see you both at the next meeting? 566 00:43:34,583 --> 00:43:35,791 -Yeah. -Yeah, of course. 567 00:43:35,875 --> 00:43:38,666 -I'll be there. Good night, Father. -Good night. 568 00:43:38,750 --> 00:43:40,208 -[Riley] Good night. -Night. 569 00:43:48,375 --> 00:43:49,375 [coughing] 570 00:43:54,500 --> 00:43:58,000 [Joe] "Pruitt Recreation Center," what a fucking legacy. 571 00:43:59,750 --> 00:44:02,666 I mean, why not just name it "Bev Keane's Money Laundry"? 572 00:44:02,750 --> 00:44:05,625 That's all it really was. Hmm? 573 00:44:07,833 --> 00:44:10,333 "Bev Keane's Coin Laundry." [chuckles] 574 00:44:11,041 --> 00:44:13,666 Or "Bev Keane's Con Laundry." 575 00:44:15,541 --> 00:44:20,500 Or "Beverly fucking Keane's Queen Evil Bitch Emporium, 576 00:44:20,583 --> 00:44:24,791 Embezzlement "R" Us Incorporated, L-L-fuckin'-C." 577 00:44:24,875 --> 00:44:26,333 Well, you'd need a bigger sign. 578 00:44:26,416 --> 00:44:27,833 [Joe laughs] 579 00:44:28,958 --> 00:44:30,541 But the point is that I… 580 00:44:31,916 --> 00:44:34,625 I never thought I'd step foot in that building. 581 00:44:35,666 --> 00:44:36,875 Never. 582 00:44:36,958 --> 00:44:40,000 Thought I'd die on this island before I ever saw the inside. 583 00:44:42,875 --> 00:44:44,750 But then being in there with you 584 00:44:45,583 --> 00:44:49,583 and Father Paul, and talking like that, 585 00:44:50,250 --> 00:44:53,000 under this fuckin' circumstance, where I feel like… 586 00:44:55,375 --> 00:44:57,291 maybe my life might be worth… 587 00:44:58,750 --> 00:45:02,458 I mean, after… all that… 588 00:45:05,625 --> 00:45:09,166 Well, it just shows to go you, don't it? 589 00:45:11,208 --> 00:45:12,541 Never assume. 590 00:45:14,291 --> 00:45:15,958 Words to live by, them. 591 00:45:17,875 --> 00:45:19,166 Never assume. 592 00:45:21,833 --> 00:45:23,083 I'm glad you were there, Joe. 593 00:45:27,250 --> 00:45:28,750 [Joe laughs] 594 00:45:29,958 --> 00:45:32,125 Wait, you really are, aren't you? 595 00:45:33,750 --> 00:45:35,958 It's… What a fucking trip. 596 00:45:43,708 --> 00:45:47,041 Only person that ever gave a damn about me was my sister. 597 00:45:49,833 --> 00:45:52,083 She left Crockett ages ago. 598 00:45:52,791 --> 00:45:56,041 -She never understood why I stayed. -Well, why did you? 599 00:45:56,708 --> 00:46:00,041 I don't know. It just seemed… 600 00:46:02,125 --> 00:46:07,333 It just felt too easy to leave. Like, I shouldn't be able to just leave. 601 00:46:10,708 --> 00:46:12,666 I guess I'm a glutton for punishment. 602 00:46:16,208 --> 00:46:17,833 She died a few weeks back. 603 00:46:18,750 --> 00:46:19,958 I'm so sorry. 604 00:46:21,291 --> 00:46:23,541 Her kids buried her on the mainland. 605 00:46:24,166 --> 00:46:26,916 She didn't want to come back here, not even in death. 606 00:46:27,750 --> 00:46:29,916 I just wish I'd gone to see her. 607 00:46:30,833 --> 00:46:35,291 You know, made the effort. I just… I couldn't. I couldn't then. 608 00:46:37,125 --> 00:46:38,916 But I think I could now. 609 00:46:40,791 --> 00:46:44,666 [exclaims] And that just… Well, that's… 610 00:46:46,625 --> 00:46:48,125 It just fuckin' sucks. 611 00:46:51,083 --> 00:46:53,625 [sighs] Well, I'll let you get to it. 612 00:46:58,833 --> 00:47:00,708 Does it ever get any different? 613 00:47:02,041 --> 00:47:03,416 For people like us? 614 00:47:06,416 --> 00:47:07,375 I don't think so. 615 00:47:10,208 --> 00:47:12,041 Nothing around us changes. 616 00:47:13,500 --> 00:47:16,875 I mean, maybe if we work really hard, then maybe 617 00:47:18,625 --> 00:47:20,875 we become different. 618 00:47:22,750 --> 00:47:25,041 Then maybe at least it feels different? 619 00:47:27,250 --> 00:47:28,125 I don't know. 620 00:47:33,416 --> 00:47:35,416 Here's to becoming different people. 621 00:47:37,416 --> 00:47:39,208 -Good night, Joe. -Night, Riley. 622 00:47:48,916 --> 00:47:50,000 [praying in Arabic] 623 00:48:00,625 --> 00:48:01,541 [sighs] 624 00:48:01,625 --> 00:48:02,458 [Ali in English] Can I talk to you? 625 00:48:05,291 --> 00:48:06,166 Sure. 626 00:48:06,958 --> 00:48:12,916 I wanted to go to St. Patrick's Sunday, just to check it out. 627 00:48:15,583 --> 00:48:16,541 Why? 628 00:48:17,208 --> 00:48:20,791 -Everyone from school goes there, so I-- -No. No, they don't. 629 00:48:22,375 --> 00:48:26,958 Well, a lot of them do, so I thought it'd be cool to go see what it's about. 630 00:48:31,125 --> 00:48:33,375 No. No, I don't think so. 631 00:48:33,458 --> 00:48:36,083 There's no good reason for me not to. 632 00:48:36,166 --> 00:48:38,833 There's an excellent reason. You're not a Christian. 633 00:48:38,916 --> 00:48:40,750 Well, that wasn't up to me, was it? 634 00:48:41,333 --> 00:48:43,083 None of this has been up to me. 635 00:48:44,208 --> 00:48:46,375 You didn't ask me if I wanted to be a Muslim. 636 00:48:46,458 --> 00:48:47,750 You are a Muslim. 637 00:48:47,833 --> 00:48:49,500 You didn't ask me if I wanted to move here. 638 00:48:50,083 --> 00:48:51,791 -I know. -You never ask me about anything. 639 00:48:51,875 --> 00:48:54,125 You're the one who decided to become Muslim for Mom, 640 00:48:54,208 --> 00:48:57,458 and you decided to move here because your precinct was too fucking racist. 641 00:48:57,541 --> 00:48:59,208 -You couldn't take it-- -Hey! 642 00:48:59,291 --> 00:49:02,500 It's always been up to you, Dad. You make the decisions. You. 643 00:49:03,458 --> 00:49:08,083 But now that we're here, and these things are happening, these-- 644 00:49:08,166 --> 00:49:10,083 -What things? -You know what things. 645 00:49:10,750 --> 00:49:14,791 Son, I know Leeza Scarborough's recovery, 646 00:49:14,875 --> 00:49:19,458 her misdiagnosis, okay, I know that's a compelling thing. 647 00:49:19,541 --> 00:49:24,041 Dad, I know Leeza, pretty well actually, and her case is… 648 00:49:25,083 --> 00:49:29,250 -It's a miracle, okay? It just is. -No, that isn't how it works, Ali. 649 00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:31,291 That isn't how Allah… 650 00:49:45,333 --> 00:49:46,666 Do you know what it does? 651 00:49:52,458 --> 00:49:55,458 What pancreatic cancer does to someone? 652 00:49:58,250 --> 00:49:59,833 Would you like me to tell you? 653 00:50:00,416 --> 00:50:01,666 Because I don't want to. 654 00:50:02,833 --> 00:50:07,000 I never, ever want you to know what she went through. 655 00:50:09,083 --> 00:50:12,166 I bear that for both of us, and that's right. 656 00:50:13,625 --> 00:50:18,916 She kept her faith. She honored Him to her last moment, and if… 657 00:50:20,625 --> 00:50:23,916 If God really worked that way… 658 00:50:26,500 --> 00:50:27,791 If He decided 659 00:50:29,583 --> 00:50:32,875 that He was gonna heal some people and not others, 660 00:50:32,958 --> 00:50:36,500 if He chose to spare some and not others, 661 00:50:37,500 --> 00:50:40,791 if He handed Leeza Scarborough a miracle, 662 00:50:43,041 --> 00:50:46,625 but let a child die of a brain tumor across the way in the mainland… 663 00:50:47,333 --> 00:50:48,166 No. 664 00:50:49,750 --> 00:50:53,416 No, that's not how it works, Ali. It's not. 665 00:50:55,250 --> 00:50:56,916 That's not how God works. 666 00:51:00,958 --> 00:51:04,000 No matter how exciting the stories are at St. Patrick's. 667 00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:09,708 Or the Buddhists or Scientologists. It's not magic. It's not. 668 00:51:21,625 --> 00:51:22,791 Kiss your mother. 669 00:51:30,750 --> 00:51:33,041 Tomorrow, we can talk about it more if you'd like. 670 00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:38,916 Fuck! 671 00:51:43,041 --> 00:51:44,083 [Ali] What happened? 672 00:51:47,375 --> 00:51:48,875 Nothin'. Um… 673 00:51:51,125 --> 00:51:52,666 I'm seeing things. Oh. 674 00:51:55,541 --> 00:51:56,416 Good night. 675 00:52:00,458 --> 00:52:04,375 Will we be able to turn the water on before the Father returns? 676 00:52:04,458 --> 00:52:05,625 [man] Almost done, Miss Keane. 677 00:52:07,250 --> 00:52:09,500 Thank you again for the dish. 678 00:52:09,583 --> 00:52:11,583 Gonna start putting things in the deep freezer. 679 00:52:11,666 --> 00:52:15,250 -People have been so generous. -Well, Father Paul deserves it. 680 00:52:15,333 --> 00:52:19,208 [Bev] Yes, he does. And that's why I wanted you to help me plan this. 681 00:52:19,291 --> 00:52:23,500 I was thinking a community dinner to show our appreciation. 682 00:52:23,583 --> 00:52:25,166 Nothing too extravagant. 683 00:52:25,250 --> 00:52:28,041 But we could fill the rec center, no doubt. 684 00:52:28,125 --> 00:52:31,625 And I thought you two could give the primary address. 685 00:52:32,166 --> 00:52:34,041 -Well, we'd be happy to. -Sure. 686 00:52:34,125 --> 00:52:37,625 Given what he's done for your family, and your standing in the community, Wade, 687 00:52:37,708 --> 00:52:40,833 it would mean a lot as a father, as a… 688 00:52:42,125 --> 00:52:44,291 -Hey. -[Bev] Father? 689 00:52:45,083 --> 00:52:47,166 -Oh, God, not again! -[Dolly] What's wrong with him? 690 00:52:47,250 --> 00:52:49,041 -[Bev screams] -[Paul gasps] 691 00:53:01,500 --> 00:53:02,958 [shrieks] 692 00:53:04,166 --> 00:53:05,916 [gurgles] 693 00:53:11,625 --> 00:53:13,000 [Bev screams] 694 00:53:14,625 --> 00:53:15,458 [Wade] Father? 695 00:53:17,041 --> 00:53:18,125 He's… 696 00:53:19,166 --> 00:53:21,333 [Wade] Father Paul? Please… 697 00:53:37,583 --> 00:53:39,250 [voice trembling] I don't… 698 00:53:41,416 --> 00:53:44,791 I don't understand. I don't understand. 699 00:53:45,458 --> 00:53:46,500 [Wade gasps] 700 00:53:48,375 --> 00:53:49,750 I don't understand. 701 00:54:04,208 --> 00:54:06,791 [Paul] Darkness. It was darkness in those ruins. 702 00:54:06,875 --> 00:54:10,541 No light. Every step forward, a step into nothing. 703 00:54:13,583 --> 00:54:15,250 [groans softly] 704 00:54:22,041 --> 00:54:23,583 [breathing heavily] 705 00:54:23,666 --> 00:54:25,125 [wind howling] 706 00:54:37,583 --> 00:54:38,583 [gasps] 707 00:54:41,458 --> 00:54:42,666 [matches rustling] 708 00:55:00,833 --> 00:55:02,083 [breath trembling] 709 00:55:02,666 --> 00:55:03,916 [metal sliding] 710 00:55:11,958 --> 00:55:13,250 [breathing heavily] 711 00:55:15,375 --> 00:55:16,375 [gasps] 712 00:55:18,791 --> 00:55:19,833 [matches rustling] 713 00:55:24,333 --> 00:55:25,208 [growls] 714 00:55:26,416 --> 00:55:28,000 [Pruitt shrieks] 715 00:55:35,125 --> 00:55:36,583 [creature sucking] 716 00:55:39,708 --> 00:55:40,625 [gulping] 717 00:55:44,833 --> 00:55:49,000 [Paul] And the pain, pain, pain. 718 00:55:49,083 --> 00:55:50,416 Pain, yes. 719 00:55:51,375 --> 00:55:54,458 And then the fear was drained from his body. 720 00:55:54,541 --> 00:55:59,208 Drained from his body was all the fear, pain… 721 00:55:59,291 --> 00:56:02,958 It was just drained. Drained. 722 00:56:05,708 --> 00:56:07,083 [creature growls] 723 00:56:08,625 --> 00:56:09,666 [smacks lips] 724 00:56:10,375 --> 00:56:15,375 [voice trembling] Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name. 725 00:56:15,958 --> 00:56:18,416 Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, 726 00:56:18,958 --> 00:56:23,125 on Earth as it is in Heaven. 727 00:56:23,208 --> 00:56:24,625 [Paul] Those eyes. 728 00:56:25,333 --> 00:56:29,750 Eyes and skin and hands, but also wings. 729 00:56:30,750 --> 00:56:35,125 A sense of great wings enfolding him, 730 00:56:35,208 --> 00:56:38,375 and his mind finally found the word. 731 00:56:38,458 --> 00:56:43,875 The word was unearthed by his fear like the tomb was unearthed by the storm. 732 00:56:43,958 --> 00:56:46,250 And the word was "angel." 733 00:56:48,333 --> 00:56:49,291 Angel. 734 00:56:52,208 --> 00:56:55,000 And he was so afraid. 735 00:57:00,000 --> 00:57:03,750 As a hand in the dark, a hand outstretched, 736 00:57:03,833 --> 00:57:06,166 stigmata, the wound of the Lord, 737 00:57:06,250 --> 00:57:08,083 and from the angel's wrist, 738 00:57:08,166 --> 00:57:13,666 the blood of life flowed, and a new word took shape. 739 00:57:14,583 --> 00:57:17,708 "Drink. Drink." 740 00:57:20,000 --> 00:57:24,375 "Take this, all of you, and drink from it. This is my blood." 741 00:57:24,458 --> 00:57:29,416 "The blood of the new and everlasting covenant shed for you 742 00:57:29,500 --> 00:57:33,041 and for all so that sins may be forgiven." 743 00:57:33,125 --> 00:57:36,375 These words in the old man's old mind 744 00:57:36,458 --> 00:57:39,250 again and again and again and again as he drank. 745 00:58:02,625 --> 00:58:06,041 Monsignor John Pruitt woke the next morning. 746 00:58:07,625 --> 00:58:09,250 The storm had passed. 747 00:58:09,958 --> 00:58:12,250 The sun was coming in through the cave's entrance, 748 00:58:12,333 --> 00:58:14,875 and he walked to it. He walked to it. 749 00:58:15,833 --> 00:58:18,833 And he raised a hand to shield him from the sun. 750 00:58:18,916 --> 00:58:21,041 His hand was young again. 751 00:58:22,500 --> 00:58:24,291 The decades washed away. 752 00:58:26,791 --> 00:58:32,166 Behind him, the entrance of the church, I thought it must've been a church. 753 00:58:32,250 --> 00:58:36,208 It was an ancient church hiding an angel behind me. 754 00:58:37,208 --> 00:58:40,000 An angel of the Lord, afraid of the light. 755 00:58:40,083 --> 00:58:43,416 Hiding in shadows. And I bowed, and I wept. 756 00:58:46,291 --> 00:58:47,750 I knew the journey would be long. 757 00:58:50,541 --> 00:58:54,333 But I knew where this angel was needed, and so I'd travel and I'd wait, 758 00:58:54,416 --> 00:58:56,958 and the angel would catch up. 759 00:58:57,041 --> 00:59:01,291 I'd travel and wait in fear, Lord, fear that someone would discover it 760 00:59:01,375 --> 00:59:04,458 or that one night it wouldn't be there, it wouldn't fly to me. 761 00:59:06,333 --> 00:59:09,916 Uh, and when it did, I knew I'd have to hide it. 762 00:59:10,000 --> 00:59:13,583 And so I'd hid it in earth, and packed it with antiquities, 763 00:59:13,666 --> 00:59:15,625 and I'd leave the rest to God. Leave it to God 764 00:59:15,708 --> 00:59:18,958 that I might bring it safely home to the people who needed it most. 765 00:59:20,250 --> 00:59:21,750 And by Your grace, I did. 766 00:59:25,458 --> 00:59:26,625 [clears throat] 767 00:59:26,708 --> 00:59:28,833 And I knew all the while that I'd have to lie… 768 00:59:29,458 --> 00:59:32,625 Lie to the very people I'm here to save. 769 00:59:33,375 --> 00:59:35,083 To the dear souls of this island, 770 00:59:35,166 --> 00:59:38,166 so that we may bring them Your love and Your mercy 771 00:59:39,208 --> 00:59:40,458 and Your miracles. 772 00:59:42,500 --> 00:59:43,375 So… 773 00:59:45,333 --> 00:59:49,208 Forgive me, Lord, for the small lies I must tell in Your service. 774 00:59:50,416 --> 00:59:53,375 Oh, my God. I am heartily sorry for having offended Thee, 775 00:59:53,458 --> 00:59:56,583 and I detest all my sins because I dread the loss of Heaven 776 00:59:56,666 --> 00:59:59,583 and the pains of Hell. But most of all because they offend Thee. 777 00:59:59,666 --> 01:00:03,500 Oh, my God, who are all good and deserving of all my love. 778 01:00:04,583 --> 01:00:09,041 I firmly resolve with the help of Thy grace to confess all my sins, 779 01:00:09,833 --> 01:00:12,875 to do penance and to amend my life. Amen. 780 01:00:12,958 --> 01:00:13,833 [sobs] 781 01:00:19,166 --> 01:00:20,833 -[Paul gasps] -[all exclaim] 782 01:00:22,666 --> 01:00:25,125 Monsignor! Oh, thank God! 783 01:00:25,916 --> 01:00:27,291 It's a miracle! 784 01:00:28,541 --> 01:00:30,750 Oh, thank God! Oh, thank God! 785 01:00:31,791 --> 01:00:33,000 It's a miracle. 786 01:00:33,083 --> 01:00:34,416 [breathing heavily] 787 01:00:39,666 --> 01:00:42,666 Thank God. Thank God for you, Monsignor. 788 01:00:43,708 --> 01:00:44,875 It's a miracle. 789 01:00:49,375 --> 01:00:51,166 It's okay. It's okay. 790 01:00:58,666 --> 01:00:59,750 [Bev shushes] 791 01:01:01,291 --> 01:01:02,375 It's okay.

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4. KİTAP: AĞITLAR
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1 00:00:06,125 --> 00:00:09,916 BİR NETFLIX DİZİSİ 2 00:00:13,833 --> 00:00:16,041 Okuldan önce kabul ettiğin için sağ ol. 3 00:00:17,333 --> 00:00:18,416 Kızı görecek miyiz? 4 00:00:18,500 --> 00:00:19,500 IV. KİTAP: AĞITLAR 5 00:00:19,583 --> 00:00:22,000 Kız mı? Bilmek istemiyorsun sanıyordum. 6 00:00:22,083 --> 00:00:24,500 Bu doğru. Ama kazara söyle istiyorum. 7 00:00:24,583 --> 00:00:26,416 Yapabilir misin? Yapma. 8 00:00:27,458 --> 00:00:29,250 Bugün sadece dinleyeceğiz. 9 00:00:30,625 --> 00:00:32,250 Genel olarak nasılsın? 10 00:00:33,291 --> 00:00:38,458 Şaşkına döndüm. Onun dışında daha ziyade heyecanlıyım. 11 00:00:38,541 --> 00:00:42,083 İyice irileşeceğim ve hamile kıyafetleri giyeceğim, 12 00:00:42,166 --> 00:00:44,833 her şeyi yiyip sürekli rahatıma bakacağım. 13 00:00:45,833 --> 00:00:47,791 Rahat etmeyeceğim, değil mi? 14 00:00:50,166 --> 00:00:53,375 Herkesin sözünü ettiği aşermeleri bekliyorum 15 00:00:53,458 --> 00:00:56,291 ama canım sadece köy peyniri ve üzüm çekti. 16 00:00:56,375 --> 00:00:58,500 Ve tahıl gevreği. Kutudan yiyorum. 17 00:01:00,541 --> 00:01:01,583 Bir sorun mu var? 18 00:01:02,541 --> 00:01:04,958 Aslında bugün baksak iyi olacak. 19 00:01:06,250 --> 00:01:08,916 Bu gerekli mi? Bunu sık kullanmayacaktık hani? 20 00:01:09,750 --> 00:01:12,583 Bugün gerekli. Hareketlilik nasıldı? 21 00:01:12,666 --> 00:01:14,041 Kıpırdanma, tekme var mı? 22 00:01:15,375 --> 00:01:20,083 Evet, küçük ayaklı bir kelebek gibi. "Pek De Minik Olmayan Ayak." 23 00:01:20,916 --> 00:01:22,833 Son bir iki günde fark etti mi? 24 00:01:23,541 --> 00:01:26,875 Sanmıyorum. Yani dün bile… 25 00:01:30,541 --> 00:01:31,958 Cinsiyetini öğreneyim. 26 00:01:33,666 --> 00:01:36,291 Söyleyebilirsin. Söyle. Hadi. 27 00:01:37,125 --> 00:01:39,375 Kramp girdi mi? Kanaman oldu mu? 28 00:01:39,458 --> 00:01:40,458 Hayır. 29 00:01:45,833 --> 00:01:48,041 Nabız nerede? Nabzı duymalıydık. 30 00:01:48,625 --> 00:01:50,583 -Bakayım. Ne görüyorsun? -Erin. 31 00:01:50,666 --> 00:01:51,625 Hiçbir şey. 32 00:01:54,000 --> 00:01:56,958 Ciddiyim. Hiçbir şey görmüyorum. 33 00:01:57,041 --> 00:01:59,375 Yani burada hiçbir şey yok. 34 00:02:01,333 --> 00:02:02,500 Anlamıyorum. 35 00:02:04,083 --> 00:02:05,875 Rahminde hiçbir şey yok. 36 00:02:09,291 --> 00:02:12,166 Dediğini anlamıyorum. 37 00:02:12,250 --> 00:02:15,375 İlk haftalarda bazen fark edilmeden düşük yapılır. 38 00:02:15,458 --> 00:02:18,000 Ama seninki kadar ilerlemiş hamileliklerde… 39 00:02:18,083 --> 00:02:20,458 Fark edilirdi, hem de çok. 40 00:02:21,333 --> 00:02:22,166 Düşük mü? 41 00:02:22,250 --> 00:02:24,041 Böyle bir şey yaşayıp da 42 00:02:24,125 --> 00:02:26,958 hafızasından silen ilk kişi sen olmazsın Erin. 43 00:02:27,041 --> 00:02:28,625 Ama hiçbir şey yok… 44 00:02:29,791 --> 00:02:33,458 -Çok üzgünüm. Çok. -Hayır, düşük yapmadım. 45 00:02:34,625 --> 00:02:37,125 Elimden fazla bir şey gelmez. 46 00:02:37,208 --> 00:02:40,458 Kan testi yapıp laboratuvara gönderelim 47 00:02:41,541 --> 00:02:43,625 ama görünüşe göre düşük yapmışsın. 48 00:02:44,208 --> 00:02:46,041 -Düşük yapmış olmalısın. -Yapmadım. 49 00:02:47,500 --> 00:02:48,708 Bebeğim nerede? 50 00:02:50,083 --> 00:02:52,916 Seni ana karada bir meslektaşıma yönlendireceğim. 51 00:02:53,000 --> 00:02:54,416 Harika bir danışmandır. 52 00:02:54,500 --> 00:02:55,750 Bebeğim nerede? 53 00:03:07,708 --> 00:03:11,625 AZİZ PATRICK KATOLİK KİLİSESİ KURULUŞ 1824 54 00:03:11,708 --> 00:03:17,750 BUGÜNKÜ AYİN İPTAL OLDU 55 00:03:29,625 --> 00:03:30,625 O nasıl? 56 00:03:32,375 --> 00:03:33,333 Emin değilim. 57 00:03:33,416 --> 00:03:35,666 AZİZ PATRICK KİLİSESİ'NDE TADİLAT TAMAMLANDI 58 00:03:35,750 --> 00:03:37,291 Müthiş, değil mi? 59 00:03:38,000 --> 00:03:40,291 Yıllardır eski fotoğraflara bakarım, 60 00:03:40,375 --> 00:03:44,291 onu bu şekilde ilk gördüğümde yine de aklıma bile gelmedi. 61 00:03:44,375 --> 00:03:45,458 Jeton düşmedi. 62 00:03:46,083 --> 00:03:47,875 Bağlam çok önemli sanırım. 63 00:03:47,958 --> 00:03:51,500 Gözümüzden perdelerin böyle kalkması müthiş, değil mi? 64 00:03:52,041 --> 00:03:54,250 Dolly ve Wade nihayet eve gitti mi? 65 00:03:55,541 --> 00:03:58,500 Güzel. Uyumaları lazım. Hepimiz uyumalıyız. 66 00:03:59,250 --> 00:04:00,333 Gün yeni başlıyor. 67 00:04:00,958 --> 00:04:04,666 Durumu nasıl? Ateşi var mı? Yemek yiyor mu? 68 00:04:06,458 --> 00:04:10,916 Ben… Fazla yaklaşmadım. 69 00:04:11,000 --> 00:04:11,916 Uzak durduk. 70 00:04:12,500 --> 00:04:13,875 Üçümüz de 71 00:04:15,416 --> 00:04:17,791 korkudan altımıza ettik, doğruya doğru. 72 00:04:18,500 --> 00:04:19,458 Korku mu? 73 00:04:26,500 --> 00:04:27,916 Peder? 74 00:04:29,250 --> 00:04:33,000 Yüce Tanrım! Burası neden bu kadar karanlık? 75 00:04:33,666 --> 00:04:35,750 Bakın, kalkmışsınız bile. 76 00:04:36,500 --> 00:04:39,458 Tanrı dualarımı işitti. Sizin için çok endişelendim. 77 00:04:39,541 --> 00:04:42,541 Kusura bakma. Gözlerimi acıtıyor da. 78 00:04:44,375 --> 00:04:45,333 Sorun değil. 79 00:04:46,666 --> 00:04:48,375 -Ne geceydi ama. -Öyle. 80 00:04:48,458 --> 00:04:49,958 Ne geceydi. 81 00:04:50,041 --> 00:04:55,250 İşte. Hastalandığımda annemin yaptığı zencefilli tavuk çorbasından yaptım size. 82 00:04:55,333 --> 00:04:58,291 Çok naziksin. Açlıktan ölüyorum. 83 00:04:58,375 --> 00:05:01,833 Daha önce bu kadar acıktığımı hatırlamıyorum. 84 00:05:02,416 --> 00:05:03,500 Çok mantıklı. 85 00:05:04,000 --> 00:05:08,750 Uzun yolculuklardan sonra acıkılır, siz de çok uzun bir yoldan geldiniz. 86 00:05:09,333 --> 00:05:10,500 Orası kesin. 87 00:05:10,583 --> 00:05:13,041 Geldiğiniz yol pek azına nasip oldu. 88 00:05:13,958 --> 00:05:17,291 Nain'li dul kadının oğlu, Yair'in kızı, Lazarus. 89 00:05:18,166 --> 00:05:21,791 İsa Mesih'in bile o yolu yürümesi üç gün sürdü, 90 00:05:21,875 --> 00:05:23,625 sizin üç dakikanız bile yoktu. 91 00:05:24,416 --> 00:05:26,875 -Ayini iptal mi ettin? -Evet. 92 00:05:26,958 --> 00:05:30,708 Sturge tabelayı görmeyenlere durumu anlatmak için kilisede bekliyor. 93 00:05:31,958 --> 00:05:33,666 Ama daha iyi görünüyorsunuz, 94 00:05:33,750 --> 00:05:36,833 yemek yerseniz yarına hazır olursunuz. 95 00:05:37,916 --> 00:05:39,416 Tabii yemeniz lazım. 96 00:05:41,458 --> 00:05:43,750 Yiyeceğim. Ama şimdi değil. 97 00:05:53,000 --> 00:05:54,625 Çabucak muayene olsanız? 98 00:05:54,708 --> 00:05:56,333 -Dr. Gunning'i… -Hayır. 99 00:05:56,416 --> 00:05:59,583 Henüz gerekmez. Ben… 100 00:06:00,541 --> 00:06:06,250 Bana öyle geliyor ki burada olanlar bilim değil, inançla ilgili 101 00:06:06,333 --> 00:06:10,041 ve bu alanı şüpheyle gölgelemek istemiyorum. 102 00:06:11,666 --> 00:06:14,458 Sen hep inançlı bir kadındın Bev. 103 00:06:16,791 --> 00:06:20,291 Elimden geldiğince. Fark etmeniz beni çok mutlu etti. 104 00:06:21,083 --> 00:06:23,708 Sana bir sır vermek istiyorum. 105 00:06:38,916 --> 00:06:39,833 İçimde… 106 00:06:42,083 --> 00:06:45,250 …bir şey oluyor, değişiyor. 107 00:06:47,291 --> 00:06:48,833 Hatırlıyorum, gençken 108 00:06:50,291 --> 00:06:55,291 büyük ruhsal gelişmeler yaşadığım zamanlar oldu. 109 00:06:57,166 --> 00:06:58,750 Ama o sadece… 110 00:06:58,833 --> 00:07:01,291 Böyle bir şey değildi. 111 00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:03,625 Sanki Tanrı içimde… 112 00:07:06,250 --> 00:07:07,500 …hareket ediyor. 113 00:07:10,083 --> 00:07:11,333 Bu muhteşem. 114 00:07:20,250 --> 00:07:21,958 En iyisi bugün 115 00:07:23,125 --> 00:07:24,375 yalnız kalayım. 116 00:07:25,583 --> 00:07:26,416 Dua edeyim. 117 00:07:48,958 --> 00:07:50,541 Dolly ve Wade iyi insanlar. 118 00:07:51,458 --> 00:07:52,791 Sır tutabilirler. 119 00:07:53,875 --> 00:07:58,291 Sturge denileni yapar, iyi bir havariniz olur. 120 00:07:58,375 --> 00:08:00,250 Sadece rehberliğe ihtiyacı var. 121 00:08:00,333 --> 00:08:03,208 Bir süre bunu saklayabiliriz. 122 00:08:05,458 --> 00:08:06,666 Ama Monsenyör… 123 00:08:09,041 --> 00:08:10,208 Onlara göstermeliyiz. 124 00:08:12,666 --> 00:08:14,916 Kim olduğunuzu söylemeliyiz. 125 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:17,083 Işığınızı saklamayın. 126 00:08:17,166 --> 00:08:18,291 Bu, mesellerden biri. 127 00:08:18,375 --> 00:08:22,916 Hem de Matta, Markos ve Luka'nın üçünde birden yazacak kadar önemli. 128 00:08:23,916 --> 00:08:25,916 Nasıl isterseniz öyle yaparız tabii. 129 00:08:26,791 --> 00:08:29,208 Hazır olduklarını düşünmüyorsanız sorun değil. 130 00:08:29,916 --> 00:08:32,958 İsa dirilişten sonra kendini yavaş yavaş gösterdi 131 00:08:33,041 --> 00:08:37,166 ama biricik Monsenyör Pruitt'lerinin 132 00:08:37,250 --> 00:08:42,791 Tanrı'nın bir meleği tarafından hayata döndürüldüğünü bilmek ne müthiş olur. 133 00:08:44,041 --> 00:08:45,000 Bir düşünün. 134 00:08:45,708 --> 00:08:46,666 Olacak. 135 00:08:48,125 --> 00:08:49,458 Tanrı dilediği vakit. 136 00:08:52,291 --> 00:08:53,958 Başka türlü olmaz zaten. 137 00:09:38,375 --> 00:09:39,833 Yardımın için sağ ol. 138 00:09:39,916 --> 00:09:42,250 Tabii. Ama yardıma ihtiyacın yok sanki. 139 00:09:42,333 --> 00:09:44,208 Belin iyi, sen de turp gibisin. 140 00:09:45,166 --> 00:09:46,291 Galiba öyle. 141 00:09:46,375 --> 00:09:48,416 Bugün Warren'a o yüzden mi izin verdin? 142 00:09:49,333 --> 00:09:50,916 Hayır, pek değil. 143 00:09:53,083 --> 00:09:56,208 İkimiz konuşabiliriz diye düşündüm. 144 00:09:56,916 --> 00:09:58,000 Erkek erkeğe. 145 00:10:02,916 --> 00:10:03,833 Peki. 146 00:10:04,875 --> 00:10:07,083 Birkaç gün önce günah çıkardım. 147 00:10:07,625 --> 00:10:12,583 Peder seninle birkaç şey konuşmam için beni teşvik etti. 148 00:10:14,125 --> 00:10:15,583 Diyeceğim şu… 149 00:10:17,416 --> 00:10:21,166 Sanırım sana gücenmiştim. 150 00:10:24,291 --> 00:10:25,250 Peki. 151 00:10:27,041 --> 00:10:29,166 Sıradan bir sürtüşmeymiş gibi gördüm. 152 00:10:29,250 --> 00:10:30,958 Şahsi algılamadım. 153 00:10:31,875 --> 00:10:35,000 Tüm bunlar sana layık değilmiş gibi davranıyordun. 154 00:10:35,083 --> 00:10:36,291 Hayır, öyle değildi. 155 00:10:36,375 --> 00:10:38,750 Ama öyle davranıyordun. 156 00:10:39,750 --> 00:10:41,166 Sonra da gittin. 157 00:10:42,541 --> 00:10:45,791 Ne yaptığını insanlara nasıl açıklayacağımı bilemedim. 158 00:10:45,875 --> 00:10:48,791 Yeni şirketlerden falan ne anlarım ben? 159 00:10:48,875 --> 00:10:49,791 Yenilikçi şirket. 160 00:10:50,958 --> 00:10:52,666 Sanırım buna da gücendim. 161 00:10:53,833 --> 00:10:58,291 Sanki aptal mavi yakalı babana neler yaptığını açıklamaya 162 00:10:58,375 --> 00:11:00,291 değmezmiş gibi davranıyordun. 163 00:11:00,375 --> 00:11:02,708 Anlatmaya çalıştım ama beceremedim. 164 00:11:02,791 --> 00:11:04,291 İnterneti ve teknolojiyi 165 00:11:04,375 --> 00:11:05,916 umursamadığını söyledin. 166 00:11:06,000 --> 00:11:07,458 Tamam. Mesele şu… 167 00:11:09,625 --> 00:11:11,750 Aslında sana dargındım zaten. 168 00:11:12,791 --> 00:11:14,000 Ama darılmamalıydım. 169 00:11:18,333 --> 00:11:19,291 Darılmamalıydım. 170 00:11:22,458 --> 00:11:24,208 Ama sonra diğer şeyler oldu. 171 00:11:25,125 --> 00:11:26,708 Ve işte ona çok darıldım. 172 00:11:28,541 --> 00:11:31,916 Sadece utanç ve damgalanma faslı değil. 173 00:11:34,125 --> 00:11:37,250 Yasal ücretlere verdiğimiz para. 174 00:11:38,583 --> 00:11:42,916 Yetişkin biri olarak şimdi bizimle burada yaşamanın masrafı. 175 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:45,208 Vay, bunu konuştuğumuz iyi oldu işte. 176 00:11:45,291 --> 00:11:46,375 Bırak, bitireyim. 177 00:11:47,791 --> 00:11:49,500 Şükretmeliyim, biliyorum. 178 00:11:50,666 --> 00:11:53,375 Oğlum evde ve özgür olduğu için şükretmeliyim. 179 00:11:53,458 --> 00:11:56,208 Tanrı biliyor, annen her gün şükrediyor. 180 00:11:58,333 --> 00:12:02,666 Çocuklar senin yaptığın şeyi durduk yerde yapmazlar, 181 00:12:02,750 --> 00:12:06,291 ebeveynleri bir şekilde onları hüsrana uğratmıştır. 182 00:12:06,375 --> 00:12:09,458 Annen bir azize olduğuna göre, geriye ben kalıyorum. 183 00:12:11,250 --> 00:12:12,875 Özür dilerim oğlum. 184 00:12:14,416 --> 00:12:15,875 Yaptıklarım için. 185 00:12:22,291 --> 00:12:23,333 Seni seviyorum. 186 00:12:24,500 --> 00:12:25,583 Gerçekten. 187 00:12:29,416 --> 00:12:31,916 Sadece benim için biraz zor… 188 00:12:34,083 --> 00:12:36,500 Sen buradayken bunu göstermek zor geliyor. 189 00:12:38,541 --> 00:12:40,291 O yüzden özür dilerim. Hepsi bu. 190 00:12:46,875 --> 00:12:48,125 Geri dönmeliyiz. 191 00:12:49,166 --> 00:12:50,458 Çok geç olmadan. 192 00:13:12,250 --> 00:13:13,375 Ne yapıyorsun? 193 00:13:14,000 --> 00:13:16,500 Anne. Yine kalkmışsın. 194 00:13:17,375 --> 00:13:18,708 Yürüyeyim dedim. 195 00:13:19,625 --> 00:13:21,958 -Tekrar yapalım. -Tamam. 196 00:13:22,041 --> 00:13:23,791 Küçükken hangi ev işlerini yapardın? 197 00:13:23,875 --> 00:13:29,833 Evi temizlerdim, bulaşıkları da hep ben yıkardım. 198 00:13:29,916 --> 00:13:32,500 Gençken eğlenmek için ne yapardınız? 199 00:13:32,583 --> 00:13:34,875 Güveç Tenceresi'nde yapacak pek bir şey yok. 200 00:13:35,583 --> 00:13:36,958 Hâlâ öyle sanırım. 201 00:13:38,541 --> 00:13:43,541 Ama içki ve erkekler için Kuzey Bölgesi'ne gidilirdi. 202 00:13:43,625 --> 00:13:45,000 Babamın adı ne? 203 00:13:47,541 --> 00:13:48,416 Anne? 204 00:13:49,083 --> 00:13:51,625 Babanın adı George'du. 205 00:13:51,708 --> 00:13:52,833 Ne iş yapardı? 206 00:13:53,500 --> 00:13:57,583 Balıkçıydı, sonra Deniz Kuvvetleri'ne katıldı. 207 00:13:57,666 --> 00:13:58,750 Nasıl tanıştınız? 208 00:13:59,541 --> 00:14:02,250 Ana karada bir dans partisinde. 209 00:14:02,333 --> 00:14:03,291 Peki, ben kimim? 210 00:14:05,333 --> 00:14:06,833 Benim bütün dünyamsın. 211 00:14:07,666 --> 00:14:09,125 Canımın içi. 212 00:14:10,333 --> 00:14:11,791 Kızım Sarah. 213 00:14:12,875 --> 00:14:13,791 Doktor. 214 00:14:15,583 --> 00:14:19,875 Çay ister misin? Ben çay yapacağım. 215 00:14:51,208 --> 00:14:53,916 Döndüğümden beri annemin eşyalarını kaldıracaktım. 216 00:14:55,875 --> 00:14:58,166 Bir sebeple başlayamamıştım. 217 00:14:59,791 --> 00:15:02,583 Haftalar ayları buldu, önceliğim değildi. 218 00:15:02,666 --> 00:15:06,166 Sonra bugün iki odayı ve tavan arasının yarısını bitirdim. 219 00:15:07,791 --> 00:15:09,291 Ne lazımsa yapabilirsin. 220 00:15:17,833 --> 00:15:20,666 Pek çok kişi İncil ayetlerini işler. 221 00:15:22,166 --> 00:15:23,166 Ama benim annem… 222 00:15:24,208 --> 00:15:28,541 Benim annem Ağıtlar'dan bir pasaj işlemiş. 223 00:15:28,625 --> 00:15:31,041 BAKIN DA GÖRÜN, BAŞIMA GELEN DERT GİBİSİ VAR MI? 224 00:15:31,125 --> 00:15:32,875 Kudüs'ün yıkılmasıyla özdeşleşmek 225 00:15:32,958 --> 00:15:35,375 kendine acımanın özel bir türü olsa gerek. 226 00:15:43,208 --> 00:15:45,500 Ben çocukken kuşlarımız vardı. 227 00:15:46,708 --> 00:15:47,708 Güvercinler. 228 00:15:49,458 --> 00:15:51,125 Annem mutfak camımızın önüne 229 00:15:51,208 --> 00:15:54,500 gülünç bir kümes yapacağım diye haftalarca uğraştı. 230 00:15:55,625 --> 00:15:57,666 Ana karadan güvercin sipariş etti. 231 00:15:58,583 --> 00:15:59,916 Nihayet geldiklerinde 232 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:03,041 ilk önce kanatlarını kırpmak istedi. 233 00:16:05,791 --> 00:16:08,833 Beni, yedi yaşındaki kızını, yanına çağırıp 234 00:16:10,958 --> 00:16:14,291 o sırada onları tutmamı istedi. 235 00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:19,958 Bunu neden yaptığını sorduğumda "Uçup gitmesinler diye" dedi. 236 00:16:20,625 --> 00:16:22,000 Ve dedi ki… Şunu dinle. 237 00:16:22,083 --> 00:16:25,583 Yedi yaşındaki kızıyla konuşuyor. 238 00:16:26,500 --> 00:16:27,333 Dedi ki, 239 00:16:28,875 --> 00:16:31,291 "Vakti gelince herkesin kanatları kırpılır." 240 00:16:32,625 --> 00:16:34,708 Bir soru daha sordum. 241 00:16:34,791 --> 00:16:38,500 Böyle bir şey duyan her çocuğun soracağı soruydu. 242 00:16:38,583 --> 00:16:41,833 "Anne, senin de kanatların kırpıldı mı?" 243 00:16:43,416 --> 00:16:45,416 "Evet. Hem de nasıl" dedi. 244 00:16:46,041 --> 00:16:47,041 "Doğduğun gün." 245 00:16:50,125 --> 00:16:51,291 "Doğduğun gün." 246 00:16:55,041 --> 00:16:58,833 Onun elinde makas, benimkinde kuş. 247 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:04,083 Avucumda gurulduyordu, mırıldayan bir kedi gibiydi. 248 00:17:04,166 --> 00:17:06,000 Ve bana güveniyordu. 249 00:17:07,083 --> 00:17:09,875 Bir anlık bir dürtüyle onu bıraktım. 250 00:17:13,375 --> 00:17:14,708 Annem de bana vurdu. 251 00:17:18,666 --> 00:17:20,000 Davranışı değişti. 252 00:17:22,291 --> 00:17:26,583 İçiyor, bağırıyor, vuruyordu. Bazen daha incelikli, 253 00:17:26,666 --> 00:17:31,125 üstü kapalı bir saldırganlık gösteriyordu ama arkasındaki mesaj açıktı. 254 00:17:33,541 --> 00:17:35,041 Hayatını mahvetmiştim. 255 00:17:37,791 --> 00:17:38,833 Ama ya Minik Ayak? 256 00:17:40,833 --> 00:17:43,708 O bebek benimkini kurtardı. 257 00:17:46,500 --> 00:17:48,916 Çünkü yaptım. Dediğim şeyi yaptım. 258 00:17:49,000 --> 00:17:52,166 16 yaşında evden kaçtım. Aktris olacaktım. 259 00:17:52,250 --> 00:17:55,541 Yıldız olacaktım. Seyahat ettim, yaşadım. 260 00:17:55,625 --> 00:17:58,500 Uyandığımda ve uyuşturucuların etkisi geçtiğinde 261 00:17:58,583 --> 00:18:01,083 bir de baktım, sanki annemle evlenmişim. 262 00:18:02,416 --> 00:18:04,708 Önce fazla bağımlıydı, sonra adileşti. 263 00:18:05,375 --> 00:18:06,791 Sürekli sarhoştu. 264 00:18:06,875 --> 00:18:10,166 Sonra bana vuruyordu. O tavrı biliyordum. Biliyordum. 265 00:18:11,083 --> 00:18:12,666 Onunla kalırdım. 266 00:18:14,208 --> 00:18:15,833 O evde ölürdüm. 267 00:18:18,500 --> 00:18:21,625 Ama bir gün uyandığımda farklı hissettim, midem bulandı. 268 00:18:23,750 --> 00:18:25,083 Test yaptım. 269 00:18:26,291 --> 00:18:31,083 O küçük artı işaretini gördüm, gözlerimi ayıramıyordum. 270 00:18:32,500 --> 00:18:36,208 Bavullarımı topladım. Arkama bile bakmadım. 271 00:18:38,458 --> 00:18:40,000 O beni kurtardı. 272 00:18:40,750 --> 00:18:42,291 Ama şimdi yok. 273 00:18:43,916 --> 00:18:45,625 Bu nasıl olur? 274 00:18:46,250 --> 00:18:47,791 Nasıl olur? 275 00:18:50,750 --> 00:18:51,708 Benim bir… 276 00:18:55,166 --> 00:18:56,000 …rüyam var. 277 00:18:58,041 --> 00:19:01,041 Hapse girdiğimden beri tekrar tekrar görüyorum. 278 00:19:02,625 --> 00:19:04,625 Körfezin ortasında ilerliyorum. 279 00:19:04,708 --> 00:19:07,791 Suyun ortasında. Sadece gri su. 280 00:19:07,875 --> 00:19:09,041 Sabahki hâli. 281 00:19:09,125 --> 00:19:12,666 Güneş doğmak üzereyken gökyüzü aydınlanıyor. 282 00:19:13,458 --> 00:19:16,916 Pruvayı doğrultabilsem, 283 00:19:18,291 --> 00:19:21,916 rüzgârla ya da kürekle, hatta gerekirse ellerimi kullanıp 284 00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:24,208 başka bir kıyıya gideceğim. 285 00:19:25,083 --> 00:19:26,208 Yeni bir hayata. 286 00:19:27,958 --> 00:19:29,708 Rüya güneşin doğuşuyla bitiyor. 287 00:19:30,791 --> 00:19:32,041 Her seferinde. 288 00:19:32,541 --> 00:19:34,666 Güneşten sonrasını göremiyorum. 289 00:19:37,041 --> 00:19:39,666 O kısım gün gibi açık. O kısım… 290 00:19:41,791 --> 00:19:45,875 O kısım gerçek ama sonrası… Sonra nasıl bir hayatım olacak? 291 00:19:45,958 --> 00:19:47,291 Onu göremiyorum. 292 00:19:49,000 --> 00:19:50,333 Bu rüyayı gördükçe 293 00:19:50,416 --> 00:19:53,750 alın yazımda bunun olmadığını biliyorum. 294 00:19:56,750 --> 00:19:58,416 Bu adadan gidemeyeceğim. 295 00:19:59,916 --> 00:20:01,083 Bunu biliyorum. 296 00:20:01,791 --> 00:20:04,708 Gece geç saatte, ne umarsam umayım 297 00:20:06,416 --> 00:20:08,666 veya annemle babama ne dersem diyeyim. 298 00:20:10,625 --> 00:20:11,708 Bunu biliyorum. 299 00:20:13,291 --> 00:20:14,458 Ama sen… 300 00:20:17,500 --> 00:20:18,625 Her şeyi yapabilirsin. 301 00:20:20,625 --> 00:20:22,083 Her zaman yapabildin. 302 00:20:24,458 --> 00:20:25,541 Dua edelim mi? 303 00:20:32,666 --> 00:20:33,666 Olur. 304 00:20:35,666 --> 00:20:36,791 Lütfen Tanrım. 305 00:20:40,250 --> 00:20:41,708 Anlamama yardım et. 306 00:20:47,458 --> 00:20:48,541 Merhamet. 307 00:20:50,583 --> 00:20:53,125 Lütfen bize merhamet et. 308 00:20:54,375 --> 00:20:58,041 Kederimiz çok büyük. Çok büyük. 309 00:21:01,000 --> 00:21:01,875 Merhamet. 310 00:21:07,958 --> 00:21:10,458 Cennetteki babamız. 311 00:21:10,541 --> 00:21:12,125 Adın kutlu olsun. 312 00:21:12,208 --> 00:21:16,916 Krallığın gelecek ve cennetteki gibi dünyada da kurulacak. 313 00:21:17,458 --> 00:21:20,125 Bize günlük ekmeğimizi ver. Bize karşı günah işleyenleri 314 00:21:20,208 --> 00:21:22,541 affettiğimiz gibi sen de günahlarımızı affet. 315 00:21:22,625 --> 00:21:25,500 Bizi ayartmalara değil de… 316 00:21:36,791 --> 00:21:38,625 Bizi kötülüklerden koru. Âmin. 317 00:21:40,208 --> 00:21:43,958 Selam sana Tanrı'nın sevgili kulu Meryem, Rab seninledir. Kadınların… 318 00:22:54,583 --> 00:22:55,625 En mübareği sensin. 319 00:22:56,791 --> 00:22:59,208 Ve mübarektir senin evladın İsa. 320 00:23:03,125 --> 00:23:04,708 Aziz Meryem, Tanrı'nın annesi, 321 00:23:06,583 --> 00:23:08,000 biz günahkârlar için şimdi… 322 00:23:08,083 --> 00:23:10,916 Ve ölüm saatimizde dua eyle. Âmin. 323 00:23:11,750 --> 00:23:14,583 BİRA 324 00:23:17,291 --> 00:23:18,416 Siktir. 325 00:23:19,333 --> 00:23:21,166 Hadi ama. 326 00:23:22,125 --> 00:23:23,041 Selam Joe. 327 00:23:24,166 --> 00:23:26,083 Şerif. Bugün nasılsın? 328 00:23:26,166 --> 00:23:27,166 İyiyim. 329 00:23:27,875 --> 00:23:29,041 Ama daha erken. 330 00:23:30,500 --> 00:23:32,083 Gecem nasıl olacak Joe? 331 00:23:32,750 --> 00:23:34,791 Aman be, ben ne bileyim? 332 00:23:37,041 --> 00:23:38,000 Sen iyi misin? 333 00:23:38,083 --> 00:23:39,666 İyi olmaya çalışıyorum. 334 00:23:41,708 --> 00:23:43,000 Çalışıyorum. 335 00:23:47,041 --> 00:23:48,166 Siktir. 336 00:24:13,166 --> 00:24:14,833 Bugün yanımda ol, 337 00:24:16,500 --> 00:24:17,791 aydınlat, koru, 338 00:24:19,291 --> 00:24:20,541 hükmet, rehberlik et. 339 00:24:21,375 --> 00:24:24,666 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum, 340 00:24:25,250 --> 00:24:27,833 Tanrı sevgisiyle ona geliyorum. 341 00:24:28,625 --> 00:24:30,416 Bugün yanımda ol, 342 00:24:31,750 --> 00:24:33,666 aydınlat, koru, hükmet, rehberlik et. 343 00:24:34,250 --> 00:24:35,833 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum, 344 00:24:36,791 --> 00:24:38,541 Tanrı sevgisiyle ona geliyorum. 345 00:24:39,208 --> 00:24:42,333 Bugün yanımda ol, aydınlat, koru, hükmet, rehberlik et. 346 00:24:43,333 --> 00:24:45,166 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum, 347 00:24:46,625 --> 00:24:48,750 Tanrı sevgisiyle ona geliyorum. 348 00:24:48,833 --> 00:24:51,791 Bugün yanımda ol, aydınlat, koru, hükmet, rehberlik et. 349 00:24:53,208 --> 00:24:54,708 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum… 350 00:24:56,541 --> 00:24:57,458 Peder Paul. 351 00:24:57,541 --> 00:25:01,583 Merhaba. Gece gece geldim. Biraz hastaydım, bütün gün meşguldüm. 352 00:25:01,666 --> 00:25:06,708 Ama şimdi ayağa kalktım ve aklıma geldi, annene ayin sözüm vardı. 353 00:25:16,291 --> 00:25:17,208 John? 354 00:25:22,583 --> 00:25:24,875 Sarah beni içeri aldı. Dedi ki… 355 00:25:28,041 --> 00:25:29,541 Daha iyiymişsin. 356 00:25:30,416 --> 00:25:31,416 Nasıl? 357 00:25:32,958 --> 00:25:34,250 Nasıl? 358 00:25:34,333 --> 00:25:37,208 "Size doğrusunu söyleyeyim, eğer imanınız olur da 359 00:25:37,291 --> 00:25:40,916 kuşku duymazsanız, şu dağa, 'Kalk, 360 00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:44,458 denize atıl' derseniz, dediğiniz olacaktır." 361 00:25:45,666 --> 00:25:47,416 Tanrı'nın yardımıyla her şey mümkün. 362 00:26:03,833 --> 00:26:05,666 Rüya sandım. 363 00:26:08,250 --> 00:26:11,375 Sonra seni başucumda gördüm. 364 00:26:13,791 --> 00:26:15,250 Çok gençtin. 365 00:26:19,250 --> 00:26:20,958 Belki de rüyadır. 366 00:26:22,750 --> 00:26:24,958 Ama rüyaysa onu hepimiz görüyoruz. 367 00:26:26,583 --> 00:26:27,583 Hepimiz. 368 00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:33,458 Sana anlatacağım öyle çok şey var ki! 369 00:26:37,125 --> 00:26:38,125 Ama… 370 00:26:39,041 --> 00:26:43,375 Ama önce ayin. 371 00:26:44,625 --> 00:26:45,791 Komünyon. 372 00:26:48,500 --> 00:26:52,958 Baba, Oğul ve Kutsal Ruh adına. 373 00:26:58,375 --> 00:26:59,291 Âmin. 374 00:27:02,958 --> 00:27:05,541 Beni aptal sanıyor olmalısın. 375 00:27:06,916 --> 00:27:07,875 Hayır. 376 00:27:08,750 --> 00:27:10,125 Bütün gün benimle dua ettin, 377 00:27:11,250 --> 00:27:12,541 seni bunun için seviyorum. 378 00:27:14,208 --> 00:27:15,375 Ama sen… 379 00:27:16,916 --> 00:27:19,416 Sen inanmıyorsun. Hiçbirine. 380 00:27:20,416 --> 00:27:21,416 Anlıyorum. 381 00:27:23,208 --> 00:27:25,833 Anlıyorum. Cazibesini. Rahatlatmasını. 382 00:27:27,416 --> 00:27:29,083 Her şeyin bir sebebi var. 383 00:27:29,166 --> 00:27:31,708 Her şeyde bir hayır var. Bir plan var. Bu… 384 00:27:36,375 --> 00:27:37,625 Bilmiyorum. 385 00:27:39,916 --> 00:27:44,208 Galiba sevgi dolu bir Tanrı'nın varlığıyla çatışan 386 00:27:44,791 --> 00:27:46,833 bir dönem yaşadım. 387 00:27:48,625 --> 00:27:49,750 Ne düşünüyorsun? 388 00:27:50,375 --> 00:27:53,250 -Hayal dünyasında mı yaşıyorum? -Hayır. 389 00:27:55,666 --> 00:27:57,916 -Beni saf sanıyorsun. -Hayır. 390 00:27:59,333 --> 00:28:00,583 Hayır, bence… 391 00:28:02,916 --> 00:28:04,416 Bence hepimiz… 392 00:28:06,583 --> 00:28:09,708 …bir sebep olmasını fena hâlde arzu ediyoruz. 393 00:28:11,000 --> 00:28:14,958 Her şey için. Biraz adalet, ölürken biraz rahatlama. 394 00:28:15,041 --> 00:28:18,416 Evet, dinler buradan çıkıyor. Bütün mesele bu. 395 00:28:19,708 --> 00:28:20,916 Öyle. 396 00:28:22,500 --> 00:28:24,041 Öldüğümüzde ne oluyor? 397 00:28:24,125 --> 00:28:25,791 Ne mi oluyor? 398 00:28:25,875 --> 00:28:27,166 Sen ne düşünüyorsun? 399 00:28:28,625 --> 00:28:30,458 Öldüğümüzde ne oluyor Riley? 400 00:28:32,500 --> 00:28:33,708 Bilmiyorum. 401 00:28:34,708 --> 00:28:37,541 Bildiğini söyleyenlere de güvenmiyorum ama… 402 00:28:41,208 --> 00:28:43,166 Sadece kendi adıma konuşabilirim. 403 00:28:44,083 --> 00:28:45,375 Öyleyse kendi adına konuş. 404 00:28:46,375 --> 00:28:48,333 Sen ölünce ne olacak? 405 00:28:55,166 --> 00:28:56,291 Ben ölünce… 406 00:28:59,666 --> 00:29:02,000 …bedensel işlevlerim durur. 407 00:29:03,375 --> 00:29:06,125 Kapanır. Hepsi birden veya aşamalı olarak. 408 00:29:06,208 --> 00:29:09,041 Nefes almam, kalbim çarpmaz. 409 00:29:10,333 --> 00:29:11,458 Klinik ölüm. 410 00:29:12,666 --> 00:29:16,708 Bir süre sonra, mesela beş dakika sonra… 411 00:29:18,875 --> 00:29:20,291 Beyin hücrelerim ölür. 412 00:29:24,791 --> 00:29:28,541 Ama bu arada, bunlar olurken… 413 00:29:30,958 --> 00:29:33,958 Belki de beynim bolca DMT salgılar. 414 00:29:34,458 --> 00:29:37,583 Rüya görürken salgıladığımız hayal gördüren madde. 415 00:29:39,416 --> 00:29:40,333 Rüya görürüm. 416 00:29:42,125 --> 00:29:46,166 Her zamankinden daha muazzam rüyalar. 417 00:29:46,250 --> 00:29:50,291 Çünkü hepsi devreye girer. Kalan DMT bir anda boşalır. 418 00:29:50,375 --> 00:29:52,750 Nöronlarım ateşlenir, 419 00:29:52,833 --> 00:29:56,583 anı ve hayallerden oluşan bir havai fişek gösterisi izlerim. 420 00:29:56,666 --> 00:29:59,708 Bir nevi… Uçarım. 421 00:30:00,250 --> 00:30:05,083 Uyuşturucu almış gibi uçarım çünkü zihnim anıdan anıya atlar. 422 00:30:05,166 --> 00:30:09,333 Eski ve yeni anılar. Düşler, anılara karışır ve… 423 00:30:12,250 --> 00:30:13,458 Perde ve alkışlar. 424 00:30:15,708 --> 00:30:18,250 Tüm düşleri sona erdirecek düş. 425 00:30:18,333 --> 00:30:24,208 Zihnim tüm cephanesini boşaltırken son bir büyük rüya ve sonra… 426 00:30:29,583 --> 00:30:30,500 Dururum. 427 00:30:33,666 --> 00:30:38,708 Beyin faaliyetlerim durur ve benden geriye hiçbir şey kalmaz. 428 00:30:40,958 --> 00:30:41,916 Acı yok. 429 00:30:44,416 --> 00:30:47,958 Anı yok, farkındalık yok, artık o her neyse… 430 00:30:51,083 --> 00:30:52,333 Ne birini incitmişim… 431 00:30:59,791 --> 00:31:01,291 Ne birini öldürmüşüm… 432 00:31:05,041 --> 00:31:08,500 Her şey benden önce 433 00:31:09,666 --> 00:31:10,750 nasılsa öyle. 434 00:31:13,416 --> 00:31:17,333 Beynimdeki elektrik boşalır, geriye sadece ölü doku kalır. 435 00:31:19,041 --> 00:31:19,916 Et. 436 00:31:21,750 --> 00:31:22,833 Unutuluş. 437 00:31:27,125 --> 00:31:29,833 Beni ben yapan ufak tefek her şey… 438 00:31:31,333 --> 00:31:34,708 Mikroplar, bakteriler ve kirpiklerimde, saçımda, ağzımda, 439 00:31:34,791 --> 00:31:39,083 tenimde, bağırsaklarımda ve diğer her yerde yaşayan 440 00:31:39,166 --> 00:31:41,458 milyarlarca başka küçük şey 441 00:31:43,208 --> 00:31:44,125 yaşamını sürdürür. 442 00:31:46,333 --> 00:31:47,333 Yemeyi sürdürür. 443 00:31:53,166 --> 00:31:55,166 Ve bir amaca hizmet etmiş olurum. 444 00:31:58,208 --> 00:31:59,500 Hayatı beslerim. 445 00:32:02,708 --> 00:32:03,833 Parçalanırım, 446 00:32:03,916 --> 00:32:07,833 küçük parçalarım dönüşür 447 00:32:07,916 --> 00:32:09,916 ve milyarlarca yere dağılırım. 448 00:32:10,000 --> 00:32:14,416 Atomlarım bitkilere, böceklere ve hayvanlara karışır. 449 00:32:14,500 --> 00:32:17,083 Ve ben gökteki yıldızlar gibi olurum. 450 00:32:19,833 --> 00:32:23,791 Bir an orada, sonra evrene dağılmış hâlde. 451 00:32:37,125 --> 00:32:38,041 Sıra sende. 452 00:32:40,500 --> 00:32:42,000 Sen öldüğünde ne olacak? 453 00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:46,083 Bana mı? 454 00:32:47,541 --> 00:32:48,750 Sana. 455 00:32:53,500 --> 00:32:54,416 Hayır. 456 00:32:56,416 --> 00:32:57,500 Bana değil. 457 00:32:59,791 --> 00:33:01,416 Bugün ölen ben değilim. 458 00:33:07,041 --> 00:33:08,375 O hiç uyanmadı. 459 00:33:10,458 --> 00:33:13,000 Bu küçük bedene geldiğinde, şekillenmekte olan 460 00:33:14,500 --> 00:33:16,750 bu küçük bedene geldiğinde uyuyordu. 461 00:33:17,458 --> 00:33:19,250 Yani tüm bildiği düş görmekti. 462 00:33:22,041 --> 00:33:25,208 Sadece düş gördü. Adı bile yoktu. 463 00:33:27,125 --> 00:33:28,375 Sonra uykusunda 464 00:33:29,791 --> 00:33:32,833 bu mükemmel ruh, yükseldi. 465 00:33:34,625 --> 00:33:37,958 Tanrı onu bu hayatta acı çekmesi için göndermedi. Hayır. 466 00:33:39,166 --> 00:33:40,208 Bu… 467 00:33:42,041 --> 00:33:43,541 Bu çok özel küçük ruhu… 468 00:33:45,458 --> 00:33:47,791 Tanrı sadece uyusun diye gönderdi. 469 00:33:50,916 --> 00:33:53,750 Küçük bir uyku. Hızlı bir düş. 470 00:33:55,666 --> 00:33:57,833 Sonra geri çağırdı. Onu geri istedi. 471 00:33:59,333 --> 00:34:00,500 O da geri döndü. 472 00:34:01,125 --> 00:34:04,916 Süzülüp indiği gibi Dünya'dan yükseldi. 473 00:34:06,250 --> 00:34:08,208 Atmosferdeki tüm ruhları 474 00:34:08,291 --> 00:34:12,041 ve gökteki tüm yıldızları geçti, sonra parlak bir ışık oldu. 475 00:34:15,500 --> 00:34:17,208 Sonra da ilk kez… 476 00:34:19,416 --> 00:34:20,875 Uyanmaya başladı. 477 00:34:26,416 --> 00:34:28,958 Bir sevgi hissiyle sarmalanmış hâlde. 478 00:34:29,625 --> 00:34:32,208 Saf, müthiş bir sevgi. Tabii ki öyle. 479 00:34:33,166 --> 00:34:34,375 O saf. 480 00:34:36,708 --> 00:34:38,000 Hiç günah işlemedi. 481 00:34:38,708 --> 00:34:41,583 Hiçbir canlıyı incitmedi, bir karıncayı bile. 482 00:34:42,375 --> 00:34:45,875 Ve o yalnız değil. Yuvada. 483 00:34:47,416 --> 00:34:49,166 Orada insanlar var, o bilmiyor 484 00:34:49,250 --> 00:34:50,583 ama onun ailesi onlar. 485 00:34:51,250 --> 00:34:56,250 Büyükbabası, büyük büyükbabası. Onu seviyorlar. Ona isim veriyorlar. 486 00:34:57,916 --> 00:35:00,500 Sonra Tanrı uzanıp alnından öpüyor 487 00:35:00,583 --> 00:35:03,541 ve adını söylediği an, o büyüyor. 488 00:35:04,375 --> 00:35:05,416 Bir çırpıda. 489 00:35:10,541 --> 00:35:11,625 Mükemmel biri o. 490 00:35:14,916 --> 00:35:18,000 Bedeni Dünya'daki en iyi gününde olacağı gibi. 491 00:35:18,583 --> 00:35:22,291 Mükemmel yaşta. Kendinin en iyi hâlinde. 492 00:35:25,583 --> 00:35:27,791 Ona Dünya'daki annesini anlatıp 493 00:35:27,875 --> 00:35:29,500 yanına geleceğimi söylüyorlar. 494 00:35:32,625 --> 00:35:37,125 Mutlu. Sonsuza dek neşeden başka bir şey bilmeyecek. 495 00:35:39,583 --> 00:35:40,708 Ve seviliyor. 496 00:35:41,875 --> 00:35:43,375 Yalnız değil. 497 00:35:48,041 --> 00:35:50,250 İşte cennet derken kastettiğimiz bu. 498 00:35:51,208 --> 00:35:56,500 Köşkler, billur nehirler, pofuduk bulutlar veya melek kanatları değil. 499 00:35:57,750 --> 00:35:58,958 Seviliyorsun. 500 00:36:00,333 --> 00:36:01,541 Yalnız değilsin. 501 00:36:08,208 --> 00:36:09,333 Tanrı bu. 502 00:36:10,958 --> 00:36:12,375 Cennet bu. 503 00:36:14,000 --> 00:36:16,541 Bu yüzden burada ne çekiyorsak çekiyoruz. 504 00:36:19,125 --> 00:36:21,875 Bu koca, mavi, hüzünlü kürede. 505 00:36:26,416 --> 00:36:27,916 Yakında orada olacağım. 506 00:36:31,666 --> 00:36:33,166 Ve babamı göreceğim. 507 00:36:35,208 --> 00:36:36,583 Büyükannemi de. 508 00:36:37,708 --> 00:36:42,500 Küçük kızımı da. O mutlu ve güvende olacak. 509 00:36:45,291 --> 00:36:48,416 Ben de onunla tanıştığıma sevineceğim. 510 00:36:57,791 --> 00:36:59,166 Umarım haklısındır. 511 00:37:14,208 --> 00:37:16,875 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum, ona geliyorum. 512 00:37:16,958 --> 00:37:20,458 Bugün yanımda ol, aydınlat, koru, hükmet, rehberlik et. 513 00:37:20,541 --> 00:37:23,291 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum, ona geliyorum. 514 00:37:23,375 --> 00:37:26,125 Bugün yanımda ol, aydınlat, koru, hükmet, rehberlik et. 515 00:37:55,000 --> 00:37:56,500 Neredesin? 516 00:38:04,833 --> 00:38:06,875 Neden gelmiyorsun? 517 00:38:09,458 --> 00:38:11,666 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum… 518 00:38:35,958 --> 00:38:36,958 Peder? 519 00:38:41,875 --> 00:38:43,875 Rahatsız ettiysem özür dilerim. 520 00:38:44,625 --> 00:38:45,625 Ben özür dilerim. 521 00:38:46,416 --> 00:38:47,708 Merhaba Joe. 522 00:38:48,333 --> 00:38:52,375 -Merhaba. -Ben sadece… Zor bir gün geçirdim. 523 00:38:53,416 --> 00:38:55,541 Ama dayandım. İçmedim. 524 00:38:55,625 --> 00:38:56,875 Evet, bu harika. 525 00:38:56,958 --> 00:39:00,125 Ama zorlu bir mücadele bu. Anlarsınız ya. Gerek duyarsam 526 00:39:01,083 --> 00:39:02,375 gelmemi söylemiştiniz. 527 00:39:03,333 --> 00:39:07,083 Zorlanırsam… Ama meşgulsünüz. 528 00:39:07,166 --> 00:39:09,708 Hayır, hiç de değil. Gel. İçeri gel. Otur. 529 00:39:13,291 --> 00:39:16,333 Hâlden anlarım. Bunu söyleyebilirim. 530 00:39:19,958 --> 00:39:21,083 İyi misiniz Peder? 531 00:39:23,166 --> 00:39:24,791 Açıkçası ben… 532 00:39:26,958 --> 00:39:30,958 Bugün pek kendimde değilim, biraz kafam karışık. 533 00:39:39,750 --> 00:39:41,000 Ne acayip, değil mi? 534 00:39:47,833 --> 00:39:49,166 Oğlu olabilirdiniz. 535 00:39:50,291 --> 00:39:52,375 Biliyor musunuz, çocukluğumda 536 00:39:52,458 --> 00:39:55,833 ihtiyarın bakir olmadığı söylenirdi. 537 00:39:55,916 --> 00:39:57,833 Onu kim suçlayabilir ki? 538 00:39:57,916 --> 00:40:00,708 Birini ahlaksızlıkla suçlamak bana mı kalmış? 539 00:40:00,791 --> 00:40:01,958 Bana mı? Yok be. 540 00:40:03,666 --> 00:40:05,750 Beni ilgilendirmez. Gerçekten. 541 00:40:07,166 --> 00:40:08,875 Hayat boyu düsturum oldu. 542 00:40:10,916 --> 00:40:11,833 Ben… 543 00:40:13,125 --> 00:40:14,916 Yarın görüşürüz… 544 00:40:16,875 --> 00:40:19,625 -Toplantıda. -Dur biraz Joe. 545 00:40:26,541 --> 00:40:28,833 Seninle gurur duyuyorum Joe. 546 00:40:29,416 --> 00:40:30,375 Sağ olun Peder. 547 00:40:31,666 --> 00:40:35,583 Kusura bakma, kimseyi beklemiyordum ama seninle gurur duyuyorum 548 00:40:35,666 --> 00:40:38,541 ve bugün kendinde o gücü bulmana sevindim. 549 00:40:40,416 --> 00:40:42,000 Çünkü o dürtüyü bilirim. 550 00:40:43,458 --> 00:40:44,875 O açlığı ve… 551 00:40:47,000 --> 00:40:49,500 Karşı koymanın ne kadar zor olduğunu. 552 00:40:50,750 --> 00:40:53,125 Seninle gurur duyuyorum. Tanrı da öyle. 553 00:40:54,750 --> 00:40:55,833 Teşekkür ederim. 554 00:41:01,750 --> 00:41:03,625 Tanrı seni kutsasın. 555 00:41:05,166 --> 00:41:07,125 Geç olsun da güç olmasın, değil mi? 556 00:41:08,416 --> 00:41:09,416 Pekâlâ. 557 00:41:10,500 --> 00:41:12,791 -Tanrı seni kutsasın. -Sağ olun. Ben… 558 00:41:13,916 --> 00:41:15,958 Ben… Ben gideyim. 559 00:41:18,541 --> 00:41:21,000 Gideyim, tamam mı? 560 00:41:21,750 --> 00:41:23,833 -Gidiyorum. -Tanrı seni kutsasın. 561 00:41:23,916 --> 00:41:25,666 Sizin neyiniz var? 562 00:41:27,666 --> 00:41:30,750 Ne oluyor be? Durun! 563 00:41:35,833 --> 00:41:40,041 Çok özür dilerim. 564 00:41:40,791 --> 00:41:41,750 Sen… 565 00:41:42,750 --> 00:41:43,875 Sen iyi misin? 566 00:41:44,791 --> 00:41:45,750 Ne oldu? 567 00:41:47,125 --> 00:41:49,625 İyi misin? 568 00:42:10,958 --> 00:42:11,958 Ne? 569 00:42:57,833 --> 00:43:00,208 -Merhaba. -Merhaba. 570 00:43:06,375 --> 00:43:08,083 Dün gece yine o rüyayı gördüm. 571 00:43:09,500 --> 00:43:12,500 -Sudakini mi? -Evet, onu. 572 00:43:13,875 --> 00:43:17,458 Bu sefer çok farklıydı. Bazen olur ya? 573 00:43:18,125 --> 00:43:19,833 Ben rüyalarımı hatırlamam. 574 00:43:21,458 --> 00:43:22,625 Farklı olan neydi? 575 00:43:22,708 --> 00:43:23,625 Sudayım, 576 00:43:25,041 --> 00:43:26,125 her zamanki gibi… 577 00:43:28,166 --> 00:43:30,000 …güneşi bekliyorum. Ama bu kez… 578 00:43:38,541 --> 00:43:39,750 Sen de oradasın. 579 00:43:42,041 --> 00:43:43,500 Sence bu ne demek? 580 00:43:50,916 --> 00:43:52,208 Gitmeliyim. 581 00:43:55,500 --> 00:43:57,083 Sana eşlik edeyim mi? 582 00:43:59,291 --> 00:44:00,375 Kiliseye kadar. 583 00:44:04,666 --> 00:44:06,583 Kiliseye gitmeyeceğim sanırım. 584 00:44:08,250 --> 00:44:10,291 Ana karaya gideceğim. 585 00:44:12,083 --> 00:44:15,291 İkinci bir fikir almak için değil de… 586 00:44:18,416 --> 00:44:19,750 İkinci bir fikir almak için. 587 00:44:20,625 --> 00:44:21,958 Elbette. 588 00:44:22,041 --> 00:44:25,000 Bir ay bu evden çıkmasan seni suçlamazdım. 589 00:44:25,083 --> 00:44:26,083 Kimse suçlamazdı. 590 00:44:29,041 --> 00:44:30,583 Ama geri gelebilirsin. 591 00:44:31,958 --> 00:44:32,875 Sonra. 592 00:44:34,708 --> 00:44:35,791 Belki bu gece. 593 00:44:37,208 --> 00:44:40,208 Bu gece tekrar gelebilirsin belki. 594 00:44:43,333 --> 00:44:44,541 Bunu yapabilirim. 595 00:44:46,375 --> 00:44:47,291 Tamam. 596 00:45:14,000 --> 00:45:16,833 -Komünyona falan katılmayacağım. -Biliyorum. 597 00:45:18,208 --> 00:45:19,208 Yapamazsın. 598 00:45:20,791 --> 00:45:23,166 Hristiyan olmadığın için izin vermezler. 599 00:45:23,250 --> 00:45:25,500 -Baba. Lütfen, bunu konuştuk. -Biliyorum. 600 00:45:25,583 --> 00:45:27,041 -Dedin ki… -Biliyorum. 601 00:45:32,916 --> 00:45:33,791 Bak. 602 00:45:35,291 --> 00:45:36,916 Merak etmeni anlıyorum. 603 00:45:38,833 --> 00:45:42,833 Oğluma Tanrı'yı aramamasını söylemeyeceğim. 604 00:45:44,833 --> 00:45:46,041 Ama oğlum… 605 00:45:46,916 --> 00:45:47,875 Ali. 606 00:45:49,708 --> 00:45:51,041 Biz ona sahibiz zaten. 607 00:45:52,583 --> 00:45:53,875 Sağ ol baba. 608 00:45:53,958 --> 00:45:58,333 Senin için kolay değil, biliyorum. O yüzden sağ ol. 609 00:46:42,916 --> 00:46:44,625 Dün gece eve gelmedin. 610 00:47:11,208 --> 00:47:12,041 Peder! 611 00:47:14,041 --> 00:47:16,041 Peder! Hepimiz bekliyoruz. 612 00:47:28,833 --> 00:47:31,083 Peder, neredeyse yarım saat geciktiniz… 613 00:47:47,833 --> 00:47:48,791 Tamam. 614 00:47:51,833 --> 00:47:52,708 Pekâlâ. 615 00:48:08,458 --> 00:48:12,125 Neden, bilmiyorum… 616 00:48:12,208 --> 00:48:15,958 Susun. Bir şey demenize gerek yok. Siz söylemeyin. Bana söylemeyin. 617 00:48:16,833 --> 00:48:17,916 Biz… 618 00:48:23,666 --> 00:48:24,833 Biz… 619 00:48:28,666 --> 00:48:29,958 Sizi temizleyelim. 620 00:48:31,083 --> 00:48:32,583 Kiliseye götürelim. 621 00:48:37,166 --> 00:48:38,125 Tamam. 622 00:48:40,833 --> 00:48:42,333 Mesele şu… 623 00:48:46,458 --> 00:48:47,541 Tamam. 624 00:48:48,625 --> 00:48:50,250 Tanrım. Tamam. 625 00:48:52,208 --> 00:48:54,500 Burada kalın. Siz… 626 00:48:55,791 --> 00:48:57,583 Siz burada kalın. 627 00:48:59,958 --> 00:49:01,625 Şöyle yapacağız. 628 00:49:06,541 --> 00:49:08,583 O iyi. Her şey yolunda. 629 00:49:25,541 --> 00:49:27,708 Beni dinleyin. 630 00:49:28,375 --> 00:49:29,625 Günaydın. 631 00:49:29,708 --> 00:49:31,583 Şunu söyleyeyim, bu kiliseyi 632 00:49:31,666 --> 00:49:34,833 her gün böyle dolu görmek büyük zevk. Ayağınıza sağlık. 633 00:49:35,500 --> 00:49:39,375 Fakat maalesef bu sabah… 634 00:49:42,541 --> 00:49:44,291 Ayini iptal etmek zorundayız. 635 00:49:45,375 --> 00:49:48,500 Peder Paul mide virüsüne yakalanmış ama iyileşiyor. 636 00:49:49,125 --> 00:49:50,375 Zavallıcık. 637 00:49:50,458 --> 00:49:54,375 O aziz insanı zapt edip yatağına yatırmam gerekti. 638 00:49:54,458 --> 00:49:57,125 Buraya gelmeye çok kararlıydı. 639 00:49:57,208 --> 00:49:59,625 En kısa zamanda ayağa kalkacak. 640 00:49:59,708 --> 00:50:03,041 Ama bu sabah belki en azından 641 00:50:04,250 --> 00:50:06,791 sevgili Dolly Scarborough… 642 00:50:08,125 --> 00:50:09,208 Gel buraya Dolly. 643 00:50:10,291 --> 00:50:11,541 Kürsüye gel. 644 00:50:11,625 --> 00:50:16,208 Belki Dolly bize ilahi söyletir, biraz okur, biraz dua ederiz. 645 00:50:16,791 --> 00:50:20,625 Rahipler rehberlik etmeden çok önce Hristiyanların yaptığı gibi 646 00:50:20,708 --> 00:50:24,666 ilahilerle Tanrı'yı övüp kutlayabiliriz. 647 00:50:25,708 --> 00:50:28,500 -473. ilahiyle başlayalım. -Tabii. 648 00:50:28,583 --> 00:50:31,750 "Toplandık." Dolly, bize liderlik eder misin? 649 00:50:37,208 --> 00:50:38,250 İzninizle. 650 00:50:39,416 --> 00:50:46,208 Toplandık Tanrı kutsasın diye… 651 00:50:46,291 --> 00:50:49,000 Halıya sarıp kamyonetine koy, batı kıyısındaki 652 00:50:49,083 --> 00:50:51,250 boş evlerden birine götür. 653 00:50:51,333 --> 00:50:53,416 Şimdi yap, adalıların çoğu kilisede. 654 00:50:53,500 --> 00:50:57,958 Sonra bu gece geç saatte bir çapa bağlayıp sekiz kilometre açıkta denize at. 655 00:51:01,041 --> 00:51:02,958 Ama ben… Biz… 656 00:51:05,333 --> 00:51:07,416 Evet. Wade, ne diyecektin? 657 00:51:08,166 --> 00:51:09,125 Yani… 658 00:51:11,750 --> 00:51:14,041 Biz aslında… 659 00:51:14,125 --> 00:51:17,500 Bev, o Joe Collie. Bu… 660 00:51:19,833 --> 00:51:22,875 Bu… Ne yaptınız siz? 661 00:51:25,958 --> 00:51:29,375 "Orada, Efendinizin, Tanrınızın önünde görev yapan rahibi 662 00:51:29,458 --> 00:51:32,208 kim dinlemeyip saygısızlık ederse 663 00:51:32,291 --> 00:51:33,958 öldürülmeli." 664 00:51:35,833 --> 00:51:36,875 Yasa'nın Tekrarı. 665 00:51:38,583 --> 00:51:39,750 Haklısın. 666 00:51:41,458 --> 00:51:42,666 Joe Collie o. 667 00:51:42,750 --> 00:51:47,750 Ed Flynn, Leeza Scarborough veya sen değilsin Wade. 668 00:51:47,833 --> 00:51:50,333 Kızını tekerlekli sandalyeye mahkûm eden adam. 669 00:51:50,416 --> 00:51:55,000 Hayatı boyunca bu toplumun başına bela olmuş biri. 670 00:51:55,083 --> 00:51:59,166 Bir günahkâr, bir zampara, tam bir kâfir. 671 00:51:59,250 --> 00:52:01,750 Çocukları sakatlayan, kimseye hayrı olmayan biri. 672 00:52:01,833 --> 00:52:03,833 Tanrı bunların bedelini ödetti. 673 00:52:04,500 --> 00:52:09,083 Peder. Monsenyör. Söyleyin onlara. Bunu neden yaptığınızı söyleyin. 674 00:52:09,166 --> 00:52:12,250 Bilmiyorum. Bana bir şey oldu ve gerçekten ben… 675 00:52:12,333 --> 00:52:15,083 Çünkü içinizde bir şey harekete geçti. 676 00:52:15,166 --> 00:52:17,125 Unutuyorsun. Wade, unutuyorsun. 677 00:52:17,208 --> 00:52:19,666 Rabb'imiz bir savaşçıdır, melekleri de öyle. 678 00:52:20,250 --> 00:52:23,500 Rab, melekleri Mısır'a gönderdi. 679 00:52:23,583 --> 00:52:26,791 Mısırlıların doğan ilk çocuklarını öldürmeleri için. 680 00:52:26,875 --> 00:52:30,583 Kadın, çocuk ayırmadan şehirlere saldırdı 681 00:52:30,666 --> 00:52:35,416 ve günahlarımıza battığımızda dünyayı sular altında bıraktı. 682 00:52:36,333 --> 00:52:41,166 Monsenyör Pruitt bizzat Tanrı'nın bir mucizesi. 683 00:52:42,416 --> 00:52:45,041 Mucizeler sergiliyor, 684 00:52:46,125 --> 00:52:49,166 bunu sen de biliyorsun Wade. O bir mucize. 685 00:52:50,041 --> 00:52:52,375 Tanrı'nın bir planı var. Onun vasıtasıyla. 686 00:52:52,458 --> 00:52:56,791 "Üzerimize düşeni yapacağız, tanıklık edip üzerimize düşeni yapacağız. 687 00:52:56,875 --> 00:52:59,958 Sakın barış getirmeye geldiğimi sanmayın. 688 00:53:00,041 --> 00:53:03,250 Ben barış değil, kılıç getirmeye geldim." 689 00:53:03,333 --> 00:53:07,208 Bunu söyleyen İsa! Bizzat İsa Mesih! 690 00:53:07,291 --> 00:53:10,166 Şimdi onu sorgulayacaksan Wade, 691 00:53:10,250 --> 00:53:15,083 onun hangi işini makul bulacağını seçmeye kalkacaksan… 692 00:53:16,250 --> 00:53:19,625 Onun lütuflarını geldiği yere gönder 693 00:53:19,708 --> 00:53:24,541 ve küçük kızının tekerlekli sandalyeye dönmesine izin ver. 694 00:53:25,708 --> 00:53:31,333 Ama Tanrı'nın lütuflarını kendi isteğine göre seçme! 695 00:53:32,625 --> 00:53:35,833 Şimdi onu 696 00:53:37,541 --> 00:53:38,625 halıya sar. 697 00:53:42,916 --> 00:53:44,625 Ben… 698 00:53:51,750 --> 00:53:53,208 Vicdanınız sızlıyor mu? 699 00:53:54,875 --> 00:53:58,208 Mecbur kaldığınız şey yüzünden suçluluk duyuyor musunuz? 700 00:54:00,125 --> 00:54:01,083 Hayır. 701 00:54:05,291 --> 00:54:06,416 Hiç. 702 00:54:06,500 --> 00:54:10,125 O hâlde Tanrı'nın sizi niye bu yükten kurtardığını sorun. 703 00:54:12,166 --> 00:54:13,416 Ve devam edin. 704 00:54:19,458 --> 00:54:21,541 Kolları. Sturge, kolları. 705 00:54:27,000 --> 00:54:28,333 Al şunu… Ve… 706 00:54:34,708 --> 00:54:40,125 Pekâlâ. Beklettiğim için üzgünüm. Test sonuçlarınızı inceledik. 707 00:54:41,083 --> 00:54:43,916 Bana verdiğiniz bilgiler tam olarak 708 00:54:44,000 --> 00:54:46,125 doğru olmayabilir mi acaba? 709 00:54:46,208 --> 00:54:48,375 Sizi doktorumla temasa geçirebilirim. 710 00:54:48,458 --> 00:54:51,166 Elinizdeki bilgileri doğrulayacaktır. 711 00:54:51,250 --> 00:54:53,125 Bu nasıl olabilir, merak ediyorum. 712 00:54:53,208 --> 00:54:56,000 Bana kalırsa hiçbir şey olmamış. 713 00:54:58,250 --> 00:55:01,666 -Ne demek o? -Yani sonuçlarınızın hepsi negatif. 714 00:55:02,500 --> 00:55:04,000 Evet. Bebeği kaybettim. 715 00:55:04,083 --> 00:55:07,291 Hayır, yani hCG seviyeniz normal. 716 00:55:07,375 --> 00:55:08,208 Yani? 717 00:55:08,291 --> 00:55:12,875 Düşükten sonra bile altı hafta kadar yüksek kalırdı. 718 00:55:12,958 --> 00:55:18,166 Evet, bende… Düşük belirtisi yoktu. 719 00:55:20,375 --> 00:55:23,916 Ben hamile olduğunuza dair de bir kanıt göremiyorum. 720 00:55:27,208 --> 00:55:28,541 Ultrason yapıldı. 721 00:55:28,625 --> 00:55:32,125 Bakın, o konuda bilgim yok. Sadece testlerinize bakıyorum. 722 00:55:32,208 --> 00:55:33,708 Nabzını pek çok kez duydum. 723 00:55:33,791 --> 00:55:36,125 Hareket ettiğini gördüm. Başparmağını emiyordu. 724 00:55:36,208 --> 00:55:38,583 Adadaki doktorunuzu ararım, 725 00:55:39,125 --> 00:55:41,708 elindeki verileri paylaşır… 726 00:55:42,958 --> 00:55:46,833 Ama vücudunuz, hamilelik yaşamış bir kadının vücudu değil. Durum bu. 727 00:55:47,416 --> 00:55:52,083 -Ben hamileydim. Hamileydim. -Kanınız veya bedeniniz öyle demiyor. 728 00:55:52,833 --> 00:55:55,375 İnsan vücudu, şey… 729 00:55:56,083 --> 00:55:58,458 Birdenbire süreci durdurup 730 00:55:58,541 --> 00:56:01,083 bir şey olmamış gibi yapamaz. Bu imkânsız. 731 00:56:03,500 --> 00:56:06,166 İsterseniz psikiyatri bölümünden biriyle 732 00:56:06,250 --> 00:56:08,625 bir görüşme ayarlayabiliriz. 733 00:56:23,541 --> 00:56:30,500 MONSENYÖR JOHN MICHAEL PRUITT KÜLTÜR MERKEZİ 734 00:56:52,333 --> 00:56:53,291 Daha iyi misiniz? 735 00:56:55,666 --> 00:56:59,083 Toplantı olacak mı, bilemedim. Rahip evini aradım, ulaşamadım. 736 00:57:00,041 --> 00:57:03,166 Endişelenecek bir şey yok. Gün ilerledikçe daha iyi oldum. 737 00:57:03,250 --> 00:57:04,375 İçeri gelsene. 738 00:57:04,958 --> 00:57:05,916 Buna üzüldüm. 739 00:57:06,000 --> 00:57:09,166 Onu ziyaret edip iyi olduğundan emin olacağım. 740 00:57:09,250 --> 00:57:10,916 Evet, dinleniyor. 741 00:57:11,000 --> 00:57:13,458 Bir süre ziyaretçi kabul etmek istemeyebilir. 742 00:57:13,541 --> 00:57:14,416 Elbette. 743 00:57:15,625 --> 00:57:21,083 Meraktan soruyorum, ona ne derdiniz? 744 00:57:24,333 --> 00:57:26,583 Mesele de bu, değil mi? Ne denir? 745 00:57:26,666 --> 00:57:28,833 "Başın sağ olsun" denir. 746 00:57:28,916 --> 00:57:31,125 "Tanrı'nın işine akıl sır ermez." 747 00:57:31,208 --> 00:57:33,041 "Yapabileceğim bir şey var mı?" 748 00:57:33,125 --> 00:57:35,416 İçi boş, değil mi? 749 00:57:35,500 --> 00:57:37,000 Ben… Yapmayacağım… 750 00:57:40,083 --> 00:57:43,750 Tanrı'nın iradesini asla anlayamayız. 751 00:57:43,833 --> 00:57:47,708 Erin Greene'e bundan başka ne denir, biliyormuş gibi yapmayacağım. 752 00:57:53,541 --> 00:57:56,208 Tanrı'ya bütün kalbimizle güvenmeliyiz. 753 00:57:58,458 --> 00:58:00,833 Kendi anlayışımıza bağlı kalmamalıyız. 754 00:58:00,916 --> 00:58:03,750 Anlasan da anlamasan da kendini teslim et. 755 00:58:03,833 --> 00:58:05,000 Doğru. 756 00:58:05,083 --> 00:58:09,000 Bu sadece… Doğru. Öyle değil mi? Senin için, benim için? 757 00:58:09,958 --> 00:58:12,375 Kendimizi teslim edelim, belki bir an için. 758 00:58:12,458 --> 00:58:17,541 Sebebini biliyor, manasını anlıyor gibi yapmayı bırakalım. 759 00:58:18,208 --> 00:58:22,291 Bazen dünyaya bakıp şunu demekte sorun yoktur, 760 00:58:22,375 --> 00:58:25,791 "Neden? Anlamıyorum." 761 00:58:27,875 --> 00:58:29,166 "Anlamayacağım da." 762 00:58:31,791 --> 00:58:33,250 Evet, bazen bu olur. 763 00:58:36,125 --> 00:58:37,791 Evet, buna katılıyorum. 764 00:58:39,125 --> 00:58:40,500 Katılmamak zor, değil mi? 765 00:58:41,875 --> 00:58:43,291 Telafi aşaması nasıl? 766 00:58:45,041 --> 00:58:48,000 Başlıyor muyuz? Joe'yu beklemeyelim mi? 767 00:58:50,625 --> 00:58:52,875 Hayır. Joe bugün bize katılmayacak. 768 00:58:52,958 --> 00:58:53,875 Olamaz. 769 00:58:55,166 --> 00:58:57,708 Hayır, lütfen yine içti demeyin. 770 00:58:59,250 --> 00:59:01,958 Nedendir bilmem, ona faydası olsun istiyordum. 771 00:59:02,041 --> 00:59:04,416 Gerçekten öyle. 772 00:59:04,500 --> 00:59:07,791 Hayır. Dün onu gördüm. O… 773 00:59:08,750 --> 00:59:11,375 Gayet iyiydi. Kendiyle gurur duyuyordu. 774 00:59:12,000 --> 00:59:14,875 Bugün adada değil, kız kardeşine gitti galiba. 775 00:59:15,583 --> 00:59:18,500 Ne zaman döneceğini bilmiyormuş. 776 00:59:19,625 --> 00:59:21,375 -Kız kardeşi mi? -Evet, öyle. 777 00:59:27,333 --> 00:59:31,250 Huzur duasıyla başlayalım mı? Gelecek hafta gelir mutlaka. 778 00:59:33,458 --> 00:59:36,166 Tanrım değiştiremeyeceğim şeyleri kabullenmek için… 779 00:59:36,250 --> 00:59:39,416 …dinginlik, değiştirebileceklerimi değiştirmek için cesaret 780 00:59:39,500 --> 00:59:41,916 ve aradaki farkı anlayabilmem için bilgelik ver. 781 00:59:42,791 --> 00:59:43,666 Âmin. 782 00:59:46,458 --> 00:59:48,625 İyi olmasına sevindim. 783 00:59:48,708 --> 00:59:51,000 Şaşırmadım, son zamanlarda çok çalışıyor. 784 00:59:51,083 --> 00:59:54,416 Günlük ayinlerde kilise dopdolu, programı da yoğun. 785 00:59:54,500 --> 00:59:58,583 Geldiğinden beri her gün Mildred Gunning'e kutsal ekmek götürdüğünü 786 00:59:58,666 --> 01:00:00,500 biliyor muydunuz? Her gün. 787 01:00:01,375 --> 01:00:02,500 Adam bir aziz. 788 01:00:03,125 --> 01:00:06,750 İyileşiyor olmasına sevindim. Arkadaşın Ali de… 789 01:00:06,833 --> 01:00:08,625 Bugün kilisede görünce duygulandım. 790 01:00:10,375 --> 01:00:12,166 Babasını nasıl razı etti, bilmem. 791 01:00:12,250 --> 01:00:14,583 Büyük cesaret, her şeyi bırakıp 792 01:00:14,666 --> 01:00:16,583 o yaşta tek başına kiliseye gelmek. 793 01:00:17,208 --> 01:00:20,541 Yetiştirilme tarzı. Gelenekler. Görüyorsun. 794 01:00:21,166 --> 01:00:23,750 Tanrı bir yolunu buluyor. Yolunu buluyor. 795 01:00:27,958 --> 01:00:29,416 Bu gece çıkıyor musun? 796 01:00:29,500 --> 01:00:30,416 Evet. 797 01:00:31,333 --> 01:00:32,708 Ona selam söyle. 798 01:00:33,416 --> 01:00:36,083 -Başı sağ olsun. -Söylerim. 799 01:00:37,416 --> 01:00:40,541 Sen küçük bir çocukken 800 01:00:42,583 --> 01:00:45,125 bana demiştin ki, "Madem adadayız, 801 01:00:45,208 --> 01:00:48,416 neden İsviçreli Robinsonlar gibi ağaç evlerde yaşamıyoruz?" 802 01:00:49,041 --> 01:00:52,541 Ben de "Biz gemi kazasından kurtulmadık Riley" demiştim. 803 01:00:53,166 --> 01:00:54,750 "Biz burada yaşıyoruz." 804 01:00:56,750 --> 01:00:57,791 Ve sen 805 01:00:58,708 --> 01:00:59,750 somurtmuştun. 806 01:01:01,333 --> 01:01:04,500 Burayı hiç evin gibi hissetmedin, biliyorum. 807 01:01:05,541 --> 01:01:08,916 Sanki Crockett yaşadığımız yer değil de, 808 01:01:09,583 --> 01:01:12,250 yardım gelene dek vakit geçirdiğimiz bir yerdi. 809 01:01:15,458 --> 01:01:19,125 İşte yardım geldi. 810 01:01:20,750 --> 01:01:23,666 -Öyle mi? -Artık gözlüğe ihtiyacım kalmadı. 811 01:01:24,666 --> 01:01:27,250 Baban da yıllardır olmadığı kadar iyi. 812 01:01:28,583 --> 01:01:30,250 Burada bir şeyler oluyor. 813 01:01:31,000 --> 01:01:32,625 Olmuyormuş gibi yapamam. 814 01:01:34,375 --> 01:01:35,375 Biliyorum… 815 01:01:37,625 --> 01:01:38,750 Mücadele ettin. 816 01:01:39,833 --> 01:01:43,000 İnancınla ve olanlarla… 817 01:01:43,083 --> 01:01:44,416 Yaptığım şeyle. 818 01:01:50,208 --> 01:01:51,458 Yaptığın şeyle. 819 01:01:52,875 --> 01:01:54,458 Benim güzel oğlum. 820 01:01:55,458 --> 01:01:56,458 Evet. 821 01:01:58,083 --> 01:02:03,916 Ama Tanrı, göremediğin bir şeye inanmanı istemiyor. 822 01:02:04,500 --> 01:02:07,333 Burada değil. Şimdi değil. 823 01:02:08,500 --> 01:02:10,083 Sadece bakmanı istiyor. 824 01:02:11,583 --> 01:02:13,000 Bu müthiş değil mi? 825 01:02:16,583 --> 01:02:18,125 O bir yalancı anne. 826 01:02:19,750 --> 01:02:20,875 Peder Paul. 827 01:02:23,208 --> 01:02:24,375 Belki de haklısın. 828 01:02:26,083 --> 01:02:27,291 Belki ümit vardır. 829 01:02:28,375 --> 01:02:32,125 Belki bana göre bir şey vardır, belki Tanrı ve mucizeler vardır. 830 01:02:33,500 --> 01:02:34,416 Bilmiyorum. 831 01:02:36,875 --> 01:02:40,791 Ama bildiğim bir şey var. Kesinlikle bildiğim bir şey var. 832 01:02:42,416 --> 01:02:44,375 Peder Paul bu gece bana yalan söyledi. 833 01:02:47,250 --> 01:02:50,625 İnan ve benim için dua et. 834 01:02:52,250 --> 01:02:53,250 Ama sadece… 835 01:02:56,541 --> 01:02:58,916 Lütfen dikkatli ol. Tek istediğim bu. 836 01:03:06,250 --> 01:03:07,125 Peki. 837 01:03:23,833 --> 01:03:25,708 …koruyucum, ona geliyorum. 838 01:03:25,791 --> 01:03:28,291 Yanımda ol, aydınlat, koru, hükmet, rehberlik et. 839 01:03:28,375 --> 01:03:30,416 Tanrı'nın meleği, lütfen. 840 01:03:30,500 --> 01:03:32,416 Neredesin? 841 01:03:32,500 --> 01:03:34,958 Lütfen. 842 01:03:35,041 --> 01:03:37,750 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum, ona geliyorum. 843 01:03:37,833 --> 01:03:40,708 Bugün yanımda ol, aydınlat, koru, hükmet, rehberlik et. 844 01:03:53,000 --> 01:03:56,791 Şükürler olsun. Neredeydin? Ben… 845 01:03:59,625 --> 01:04:00,708 Affedersin. 846 01:04:01,375 --> 01:04:04,541 Çok üzgünüm, kaybolmuştum. 847 01:04:05,250 --> 01:04:08,416 Ben… Kutsal şarap bitti. 848 01:04:20,083 --> 01:04:23,208 Tanrı'nın meleği, koruyucum, Tanrı sevgisiyle ona geliyorum. 849 01:04:23,291 --> 01:04:26,166 Bugün yanımda ol, aydınlat, koru, hükmet, rehberlik et. 850 01:04:33,750 --> 01:04:35,458 Tanrı'nın meleği… 851 01:05:12,833 --> 01:05:13,791 Kız kardeşi. 852 01:08:31,083 --> 01:08:36,083 Alt yazı çevirmeni: Selen Akhuy

EN Altyazı:
1 00:00:13,833 --> 00:00:16,041 [Erin] Thank you for getting me in before school. 2 00:00:17,333 --> 00:00:18,416 Do we see her today? 3 00:00:19,166 --> 00:00:22,000 [Sarah] Oh, it's a her? I thought you didn't wanna know. 4 00:00:22,083 --> 00:00:24,500 [Erin] I don't. I just want you to accidentally tell me. 5 00:00:24,583 --> 00:00:26,416 Can you do that? Don't do that. 6 00:00:27,458 --> 00:00:29,250 [Sarah] We are just listening today. 7 00:00:30,625 --> 00:00:32,250 How are you feeling overall? 8 00:00:33,291 --> 00:00:38,458 Overwhelmed. Um, but otherwise, you know, mostly excited. 9 00:00:38,541 --> 00:00:42,083 I'm excited to get huge and slip into that elastic waistband, 10 00:00:42,166 --> 00:00:44,833 and eat everything, and be comfortable all the time. 11 00:00:45,833 --> 00:00:48,333 I'm not gonna be comfortable at all, am I? [chuckles] 12 00:00:50,166 --> 00:00:53,375 I keep waiting for all those weird cravings everyone keeps talking about, 13 00:00:53,458 --> 00:00:56,291 but so far it's just cottage cheese and grapes. 14 00:00:56,375 --> 00:00:58,500 And Lucky Charms right out of the box. 15 00:01:00,541 --> 00:01:01,583 Everything good? 16 00:01:02,541 --> 00:01:04,958 You know, maybe we will take a look today after all. 17 00:01:06,250 --> 00:01:08,916 Is that okay? I thought we weren't supposed to use that too much. 18 00:01:09,750 --> 00:01:12,583 It's okay today. How has movement been? 19 00:01:12,666 --> 00:01:14,041 Lots of fluttering, kicking? 20 00:01:14,125 --> 00:01:20,083 Um, yeah, like a butterfly with little feet. "Not-So-Littlefoot." 21 00:01:20,916 --> 00:01:22,833 Any difference in the last 24 to 48 hours? 22 00:01:23,541 --> 00:01:26,875 I don't think so. I mean, even yesterday… 23 00:01:26,958 --> 00:01:28,625 [ultrasound machine gurgles] 24 00:01:30,541 --> 00:01:31,958 I think I want to know the sex. 25 00:01:33,666 --> 00:01:36,291 You can go ahead and tell me. You can tell me. Just go ahead. 26 00:01:37,125 --> 00:01:39,375 [Sarah] Have you had any cramps? Bleeding? 27 00:01:39,458 --> 00:01:40,458 No. 28 00:01:45,833 --> 00:01:48,041 Where's the heartbeat? We're supposed to hear the heartbeat. 29 00:01:48,625 --> 00:01:50,583 -Here, let me see. What do you see? -Erin. 30 00:01:50,666 --> 00:01:51,625 Nothing. 31 00:01:54,000 --> 00:01:56,958 [hesitating] I mean it. I see nothing. 32 00:01:57,041 --> 00:01:59,375 I mean, there's nothing here. 33 00:02:01,333 --> 00:02:02,500 I don't… I don't understand. 34 00:02:04,083 --> 00:02:05,875 There's nothing in your uterus. 35 00:02:09,291 --> 00:02:12,166 I don't… I don't understand. 36 00:02:12,250 --> 00:02:15,375 In early weeks, people sometimes miscarry without realizing it, 37 00:02:15,458 --> 00:02:18,000 but as far along as you are, you would have… 38 00:02:18,083 --> 00:02:20,458 It would have been noticeable, very noticeable. 39 00:02:21,333 --> 00:02:22,166 Miscarry? 40 00:02:22,250 --> 00:02:24,041 And you wouldn't have been the first person 41 00:02:24,125 --> 00:02:26,958 to go through something like this and maybe block it out, Erin? 42 00:02:27,041 --> 00:02:28,625 But there's nothing… 43 00:02:29,791 --> 00:02:33,458 -I'm just incredibly sorry. I'm so sorry. -No, I didn't miscarry. 44 00:02:34,625 --> 00:02:37,125 There's not much I can do. 45 00:02:37,208 --> 00:02:40,458 We can run a blood panel and send it to the lab, 46 00:02:41,541 --> 00:02:43,625 but it seems you have miscarried. 47 00:02:44,208 --> 00:02:46,041 -You must have miscarried. -I didn't. 48 00:02:47,500 --> 00:02:48,708 Where's my baby? 49 00:02:50,083 --> 00:02:52,916 I'm gonna put you in touch with a colleague on the mainland. 50 00:02:53,000 --> 00:02:54,416 She's a great counselor. 51 00:02:54,500 --> 00:02:55,750 Where's my baby? 52 00:03:26,250 --> 00:03:27,291 [door opens] 53 00:03:29,625 --> 00:03:30,625 How is he? 54 00:03:32,375 --> 00:03:33,333 Not sure. 55 00:03:35,750 --> 00:03:37,291 It's incredible, isn't it? 56 00:03:38,000 --> 00:03:40,291 I mean, I'd seen old photos for years and years, 57 00:03:40,375 --> 00:03:44,291 and still it didn't even cross my mind the first time I saw him this way. 58 00:03:44,375 --> 00:03:45,458 It didn't even click. 59 00:03:46,083 --> 00:03:47,875 I suppose context is everything. 60 00:03:47,958 --> 00:03:51,500 It's amazing how the scales fall from our eyes, isn't it? 61 00:03:52,041 --> 00:03:54,250 Did Dolly and Wade finally head home? 62 00:03:54,333 --> 00:03:55,458 [Joe] Mmm-hmm. 63 00:03:55,541 --> 00:03:58,500 Good. They need sleep. We all need sleep. 64 00:03:59,250 --> 00:04:00,333 Day's just startin'. 65 00:04:00,958 --> 00:04:04,666 How's he doing? Does he have a fever? Is he eating? 66 00:04:06,458 --> 00:04:10,916 I didn't… Well, I didn't get too close. 67 00:04:11,000 --> 00:04:11,916 None of us did. 68 00:04:12,500 --> 00:04:14,458 All three of us, we, um… 69 00:04:15,416 --> 00:04:17,791 we were a little scared shitless, truth be told. 70 00:04:18,500 --> 00:04:19,458 Scared? 71 00:04:25,083 --> 00:04:26,416 [knocking at door] 72 00:04:26,500 --> 00:04:28,416 Father? Oh! 73 00:04:29,250 --> 00:04:33,000 [laughing] Good Lord! Why is it so dark in here? 74 00:04:33,666 --> 00:04:36,416 -Look at you, up and about. -[Father Paul] Mmm. 75 00:04:36,500 --> 00:04:39,458 Looks like God heard my prayers. I was worried sick about you. 76 00:04:39,541 --> 00:04:42,541 Oh! Sorry. It just hurts my eyes. 77 00:04:42,625 --> 00:04:43,500 Oh. 78 00:04:44,375 --> 00:04:45,333 That's all right. 79 00:04:46,666 --> 00:04:48,375 -You had quite the night. -Yeah. 80 00:04:48,458 --> 00:04:49,958 Quite the night. 81 00:04:50,041 --> 00:04:55,250 Here. I made you the chicken ginger soup my mother used to make me when I was sick. 82 00:04:55,333 --> 00:04:58,291 That is very kind. I'm starving. 83 00:04:58,375 --> 00:05:01,833 I don't remember ever being this hungry before. 84 00:05:02,416 --> 00:05:03,500 It makes sense. 85 00:05:04,000 --> 00:05:08,750 Always starving after a long trip, and you had quite the journey. 86 00:05:08,833 --> 00:05:10,500 [chuckles] That's for sure. 87 00:05:10,583 --> 00:05:13,041 Precious few have taken the road you took. 88 00:05:13,125 --> 00:05:13,958 [Father Paul] Mmm. 89 00:05:14,041 --> 00:05:17,291 Widow of Nain's son, Jairus' daughter, Lazarus. 90 00:05:18,166 --> 00:05:21,791 Jesus Christ himself took three days to walk that road, 91 00:05:21,875 --> 00:05:23,625 and you didn't have three minutes. 92 00:05:24,416 --> 00:05:26,875 -You canceled mass? -I did. 93 00:05:26,958 --> 00:05:30,708 Sturge is waiting at the church to explain to people if they miss the sign. 94 00:05:31,958 --> 00:05:33,666 But you're already looking better, 95 00:05:33,750 --> 00:05:36,833 so I imagine you'll be ready by tomorrow if you eat up. 96 00:05:37,916 --> 00:05:39,416 But you have to eat up. 97 00:05:41,458 --> 00:05:43,750 I will. Just not right now. 98 00:05:53,000 --> 00:05:54,625 Maybe, uh, a quick checkup. 99 00:05:54,708 --> 00:05:56,333 -I could call Dr. Gunning-- -No. 100 00:05:56,416 --> 00:05:59,583 That's not necessary, ah, just yet. I feel… 101 00:06:00,541 --> 00:06:06,250 I feel everything that is happening here is a matter of faith, not science, 102 00:06:06,333 --> 00:06:10,041 so I don't want to cloud this area with any doubt. 103 00:06:11,666 --> 00:06:14,458 You've always been a woman of great faith, Bev. 104 00:06:16,791 --> 00:06:20,291 I've always tried. I am blessed you noticed. 105 00:06:21,083 --> 00:06:23,708 I wanna, um, confide something in you. 106 00:06:24,791 --> 00:06:25,666 [grunts] 107 00:06:38,916 --> 00:06:39,833 Something… 108 00:06:42,083 --> 00:06:45,250 is happening, shifting inside of me. 109 00:06:47,291 --> 00:06:48,833 I remember when I was younger, 110 00:06:50,291 --> 00:06:55,291 I experienced times of great spiritual growth. 111 00:06:57,166 --> 00:06:58,750 But that was just… 112 00:06:58,833 --> 00:07:01,291 It's nothing like this. 113 00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:03,625 It's like I can feel God… 114 00:07:06,250 --> 00:07:08,250 -move inside me. -[Bev exhales] 115 00:07:10,083 --> 00:07:11,333 [softly] That's wonderful. 116 00:07:20,250 --> 00:07:21,958 I think I should be left alone 117 00:07:23,125 --> 00:07:24,375 for the rest of the day. 118 00:07:25,583 --> 00:07:26,416 To pray. 119 00:07:32,500 --> 00:07:33,375 [Bev] Mmm. 120 00:07:48,958 --> 00:07:50,541 Dolly and Wade are good people. 121 00:07:51,458 --> 00:07:52,791 They can keep a secret. 122 00:07:53,875 --> 00:07:58,291 Sturge is gonna answer the call, be a good apostle to you. 123 00:07:58,375 --> 00:08:00,250 He just needs some guidance. 124 00:08:00,333 --> 00:08:03,208 We can keep this quiet for a moment. 125 00:08:05,458 --> 00:08:06,666 But, Monsignor… 126 00:08:09,041 --> 00:08:10,208 we should show 'em. 127 00:08:12,666 --> 00:08:14,916 Tell them who you are. 128 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:17,083 Don't hide your light under a bushel. 129 00:08:17,166 --> 00:08:18,291 That's one of the parables, 130 00:08:18,375 --> 00:08:22,916 and it was important enough that Matthew, Mark and Luke all wrote it down. 131 00:08:23,916 --> 00:08:25,916 We'll do what you ask, of course. 132 00:08:26,791 --> 00:08:29,208 And if you don't think they're ready, well, that's okay. 133 00:08:29,916 --> 00:08:32,958 Jesus revealed himself slowly after the resurrection, 134 00:08:33,041 --> 00:08:37,166 but what a wonderful revelation it will be 135 00:08:37,250 --> 00:08:42,791 to know their own dear Monsignor Pruitt was restored by an angel of God. 136 00:08:44,041 --> 00:08:45,000 Think about it. 137 00:08:45,708 --> 00:08:46,666 It will be. 138 00:08:48,125 --> 00:08:49,458 In God's time. 139 00:08:52,291 --> 00:08:53,958 There's no other kind, is there? 140 00:08:55,833 --> 00:08:57,083 [door closes] 141 00:09:02,500 --> 00:09:03,416 [grunts] 142 00:09:12,208 --> 00:09:13,750 [breathes deeply] 143 00:09:38,375 --> 00:09:39,833 [Ed] Thanks for helping out this morning. 144 00:09:39,916 --> 00:09:42,250 [Riley] Yeah. I'm starting to think you don't really need help. 145 00:09:42,333 --> 00:09:44,208 Your back, and you're right as rain. 146 00:09:44,291 --> 00:09:46,291 [Ed sighs] Maybe. 147 00:09:46,375 --> 00:09:48,416 That why you told Warren he could take the day off? 148 00:09:49,333 --> 00:09:50,916 No, not really. 149 00:09:53,083 --> 00:09:56,208 I thought maybe we could talk, just us, 150 00:09:56,916 --> 00:09:58,000 man-to-man. 151 00:09:59,041 --> 00:10:01,291 Oh. Uh… 152 00:10:02,916 --> 00:10:03,833 Okay. 153 00:10:04,875 --> 00:10:07,083 [Ed] I made a confession few days ago, 154 00:10:07,625 --> 00:10:12,583 and Father, well, he encouraged me to talk about a few things with you. 155 00:10:14,125 --> 00:10:15,583 So here goes, I guess. 156 00:10:17,416 --> 00:10:21,166 I guess I've harbored some resentment for you. 157 00:10:23,291 --> 00:10:25,250 Okay? 158 00:10:27,041 --> 00:10:29,166 And I chalked it up to just normal friction. 159 00:10:29,250 --> 00:10:30,958 I didn't take it personal when, 160 00:10:31,875 --> 00:10:35,000 you know, you acted like all this was beneath you. 161 00:10:35,083 --> 00:10:36,291 No, it wasn't that. 162 00:10:36,375 --> 00:10:38,750 Well, you acted like it anyway. 163 00:10:39,750 --> 00:10:41,166 And then you were gone. 164 00:10:42,541 --> 00:10:45,791 Hell, I didn't even know what to tell people it was that you were doin'. 165 00:10:45,875 --> 00:10:48,791 What the hell do I know about starters and what have you? 166 00:10:48,875 --> 00:10:49,791 Start-up. 167 00:10:50,958 --> 00:10:52,666 I guess I resented that too. 168 00:10:53,833 --> 00:10:58,291 Like it weren't worth it for you to explain to your dumb old blue-collar dad 169 00:10:58,375 --> 00:11:00,291 exactly what it was you were doin' out there. 170 00:11:00,375 --> 00:11:02,708 I tried to explain it to you, but I didn't get very far. 171 00:11:02,791 --> 00:11:04,291 You said you didn't care about the Internet, 172 00:11:04,375 --> 00:11:05,916 or about tech or anything else that-- 173 00:11:06,000 --> 00:11:07,458 Look. The point is… 174 00:11:09,625 --> 00:11:11,750 I already had resentment in my heart. 175 00:11:12,791 --> 00:11:14,000 And I shouldn't have. 176 00:11:18,333 --> 00:11:19,291 I shouldn't have. 177 00:11:22,458 --> 00:11:24,208 But then all the rest happened. 178 00:11:25,125 --> 00:11:26,708 And, man, I resented that. 179 00:11:28,541 --> 00:11:31,916 Not just the embarrassment of it all, or the stigma of it all. 180 00:11:34,125 --> 00:11:37,250 But the money we had to spend on your legal fees. 181 00:11:38,583 --> 00:11:42,916 The cost of you living here with us now. A grown man. 182 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:45,208 Gee, I'm really glad we're havin' this talk. 183 00:11:45,291 --> 00:11:46,375 [Ed] Let me finish. 184 00:11:47,791 --> 00:11:49,833 I know I should be grateful. 185 00:11:49,916 --> 00:11:53,375 I… I should be grateful that my son is home and free. 186 00:11:53,458 --> 00:11:56,208 Lord knows your mother is grateful every day. 187 00:11:58,333 --> 00:12:02,666 Children just don't do what you did on their own, 188 00:12:02,750 --> 00:12:06,291 not unless one of their parents has failed them somethin' awful. 189 00:12:06,375 --> 00:12:09,458 And your mother's a saint, so I guess that just leaves me. 190 00:12:11,250 --> 00:12:12,875 So I apologize, son. 191 00:12:14,416 --> 00:12:15,875 For whatever I did. 192 00:12:22,291 --> 00:12:23,333 I love you. 193 00:12:24,500 --> 00:12:25,583 I really do. 194 00:12:29,416 --> 00:12:31,916 It's just, somehow it's hard for me… 195 00:12:34,083 --> 00:12:36,500 It's hard for me to show that when you're here. 196 00:12:38,541 --> 00:12:40,291 So I apologize. That's all. 197 00:12:44,541 --> 00:12:45,708 [clicks tongue] 198 00:12:45,791 --> 00:12:46,791 [exhales] 199 00:12:46,875 --> 00:12:48,125 We should head back. 200 00:12:49,166 --> 00:12:50,458 Before it gets too late. 201 00:13:12,250 --> 00:13:13,375 What are you up to? 202 00:13:14,000 --> 00:13:16,500 [Sarah] Mom. You're up again. 203 00:13:17,375 --> 00:13:18,708 Felt like a walk. 204 00:13:19,625 --> 00:13:21,958 -Let's do it again. -[Mildred] Okay. 205 00:13:22,041 --> 00:13:23,791 What chores did you have to do growing up? 206 00:13:23,875 --> 00:13:29,833 I, uh, kept the house clean and I always did the dishes. 207 00:13:29,916 --> 00:13:32,500 When you were a teenager, what did you and your friends do for fun? 208 00:13:32,583 --> 00:13:34,875 Not much to do in the Crock Pot. 209 00:13:35,583 --> 00:13:36,958 Still isn't, I suppose. 210 00:13:38,541 --> 00:13:43,541 But Uppards for booze and boys. 211 00:13:43,625 --> 00:13:45,000 What was my dad's name? 212 00:13:47,541 --> 00:13:48,416 Mom? 213 00:13:48,500 --> 00:13:51,625 Uh, your father's name was George. 214 00:13:51,708 --> 00:13:52,833 What did he do? 215 00:13:53,500 --> 00:13:57,583 He was a fisherman, and then he joined the Navy. 216 00:13:57,666 --> 00:13:58,750 And how did you meet? 217 00:13:59,416 --> 00:14:02,250 Oh, we met at a dance on the mainland. 218 00:14:02,333 --> 00:14:03,291 And who am I? 219 00:14:05,333 --> 00:14:06,833 You are my world. 220 00:14:07,666 --> 00:14:09,125 My heart and soul. 221 00:14:10,333 --> 00:14:11,791 My daughter, Sarah. 222 00:14:12,875 --> 00:14:13,791 The doctor. 223 00:14:15,583 --> 00:14:19,875 Would you like a cup of tea? I'm going to make some tea. 224 00:14:26,208 --> 00:14:27,458 [sizzling] 225 00:14:39,125 --> 00:14:40,208 [tube shatters] 226 00:14:51,208 --> 00:14:53,916 Been meaning to pack up her things since I got back. 227 00:14:55,875 --> 00:14:58,166 I just couldn't start for whatever reason. 228 00:14:59,791 --> 00:15:02,583 Weeks became months, and it was never really a priority. 229 00:15:02,666 --> 00:15:06,166 And then today I get through two rooms and half the attic. 230 00:15:07,791 --> 00:15:09,291 Whatever you have to do. 231 00:15:14,875 --> 00:15:15,875 [sighs] 232 00:15:17,833 --> 00:15:20,666 A lot of people cross-stitch Bible verses. 233 00:15:22,166 --> 00:15:23,166 But my mom… 234 00:15:24,208 --> 00:15:29,041 My mom goes with the passage from Lamentations. 235 00:15:31,125 --> 00:15:32,875 It's a special kind of self-pity 236 00:15:32,958 --> 00:15:35,375 to identify with the destruction of Jerusalem. 237 00:15:43,208 --> 00:15:45,500 We kept birds when I was a kid. 238 00:15:46,708 --> 00:15:47,708 Doves. 239 00:15:49,458 --> 00:15:51,125 My mom spent weeks, weeks, 240 00:15:51,208 --> 00:15:54,500 building this ridiculous coop outside our kitchen window. 241 00:15:55,625 --> 00:15:57,666 Ordered pet doves from the mainland. 242 00:15:58,583 --> 00:15:59,916 When they finally got here, 243 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:03,041 the first thing she wanted to do was clip their wings. 244 00:16:05,791 --> 00:16:08,833 When she called me over, her seven-year-old daughter, 245 00:16:10,958 --> 00:16:14,291 she told me I had to hold them while she did it. 246 00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:19,958 I asked her why she did it and she said, "So they wouldn't fly away." 247 00:16:20,625 --> 00:16:22,000 And she told me… Now get this. 248 00:16:22,083 --> 00:16:25,583 Again, this is her seven-year-old daughter she's talking to. 249 00:16:26,500 --> 00:16:27,333 She said, 250 00:16:28,875 --> 00:16:31,291 "Everyone gets their wings clipped at some point." 251 00:16:32,625 --> 00:16:34,708 And I asked the next question. 252 00:16:34,791 --> 00:16:38,500 It's the only question a kid's gonna ask when they hear something like that. 253 00:16:38,583 --> 00:16:41,833 I said, "Mom, did you get your wings clipped?" 254 00:16:43,416 --> 00:16:45,416 And she said, "Yep. Oh, yes." 255 00:16:46,041 --> 00:16:47,041 "Day you were born." 256 00:16:50,125 --> 00:16:51,291 "Day you were born." 257 00:16:55,041 --> 00:16:58,833 She's holding those clippers, and I have this bird in my hand. 258 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:04,083 And it's cooing in my palm and it feels like a cat purring. 259 00:17:04,166 --> 00:17:06,000 And it trusted me. 260 00:17:07,083 --> 00:17:09,875 And something came over me and I let it go. 261 00:17:13,375 --> 00:17:14,708 And then she hit me. 262 00:17:18,666 --> 00:17:20,000 Her behavior would change. 263 00:17:22,291 --> 00:17:26,583 Drinking, yelling, hitting, something more nuanced, 264 00:17:26,666 --> 00:17:31,125 something passive-aggressive, but the message behind it was clear. 265 00:17:33,541 --> 00:17:35,041 I ruined her life. 266 00:17:37,791 --> 00:17:38,833 But Littlefoot? 267 00:17:40,833 --> 00:17:43,708 You see, that baby saved mine. 268 00:17:46,500 --> 00:17:48,916 Because I did it. I did what I said I was gonna do. 269 00:17:49,000 --> 00:17:52,166 I ran away at 16. I was gonna be an actress. 270 00:17:52,250 --> 00:17:55,541 I was gonna be a star. And I traveled, and I lived. 271 00:17:55,625 --> 00:17:58,500 And by the time I woke up and the drugs had worn off, 272 00:17:58,583 --> 00:18:01,083 I looked up and I had married my mother. 273 00:18:02,416 --> 00:18:04,708 At first he was clingy, and then he was mean. 274 00:18:05,375 --> 00:18:06,791 And then he was drunk all the time. 275 00:18:06,875 --> 00:18:10,166 And then he hit me. And I knew that posture. I knew it. 276 00:18:11,083 --> 00:18:12,666 I would have stayed with him. 277 00:18:13,541 --> 00:18:15,833 [sniffles] I would have died in that house. 278 00:18:18,500 --> 00:18:21,625 But I woke up one day and I felt different, I felt sick. 279 00:18:23,750 --> 00:18:25,083 And so I took a test. 280 00:18:26,291 --> 00:18:31,083 And I saw that little plus sign, and I stared and I stared and I stared. 281 00:18:32,500 --> 00:18:36,208 And I packed my bags. And I never looked back. 282 00:18:38,458 --> 00:18:40,000 [sobs] She saved me. 283 00:18:40,750 --> 00:18:42,291 And now she's just gone. 284 00:18:43,916 --> 00:18:45,625 And how is that possible? 285 00:18:46,250 --> 00:18:47,791 How is that possible? 286 00:18:50,750 --> 00:18:52,291 I have this, um… 287 00:18:55,166 --> 00:18:56,000 dream. 288 00:18:58,041 --> 00:19:01,041 This recurring dream, I've had it since I was inside. 289 00:19:02,625 --> 00:19:04,625 I'm floating out in the middle of the bay. 290 00:19:04,708 --> 00:19:07,791 Middle of the water. Just gray water. 291 00:19:07,875 --> 00:19:09,041 Morning water. 292 00:19:09,125 --> 00:19:12,666 The sky lightening as the sun's about to rise. 293 00:19:13,458 --> 00:19:16,916 And if I could just point the bow, 294 00:19:18,291 --> 00:19:21,916 find a wind or an oar, paddle with my goddamn hands if I had to, 295 00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:24,208 to a different shore. 296 00:19:25,083 --> 00:19:26,208 Start a new life. 297 00:19:27,958 --> 00:19:29,708 That dream always ends with the sunrise. 298 00:19:30,791 --> 00:19:32,041 Always. 299 00:19:32,541 --> 00:19:34,666 I never get further than that sunrise. 300 00:19:37,041 --> 00:19:39,666 That part I can see, clear as day. That part is… 301 00:19:41,791 --> 00:19:45,875 That part is real, but the rest, whatever life I'm supposed to have after? 302 00:19:45,958 --> 00:19:47,291 That I can't see. 303 00:19:49,000 --> 00:19:50,333 And the more I have that dream, 304 00:19:50,416 --> 00:19:53,750 the more I just know that it's not in the cards for me. 305 00:19:56,750 --> 00:19:58,416 I'm not getting off this island. 306 00:19:59,916 --> 00:20:01,083 I know it. 307 00:20:01,791 --> 00:20:04,708 Late at night, no matter what I might let myself hope… 308 00:20:04,791 --> 00:20:05,625 [sniffles] 309 00:20:06,416 --> 00:20:08,666 or what I might tell my mom or my dad. 310 00:20:10,625 --> 00:20:11,708 I know it. 311 00:20:13,291 --> 00:20:14,458 But you… 312 00:20:17,500 --> 00:20:18,625 You can do anything. 313 00:20:20,625 --> 00:20:22,083 You always could do anything. 314 00:20:24,458 --> 00:20:25,541 Pray with me? 315 00:20:29,208 --> 00:20:30,208 [sniffles] 316 00:20:32,666 --> 00:20:33,666 Yes. 317 00:20:35,666 --> 00:20:36,791 Please, God. 318 00:20:40,250 --> 00:20:41,708 Help me to understand. 319 00:20:47,458 --> 00:20:48,541 Mercy. 320 00:20:50,583 --> 00:20:53,125 Please have mercy on us. 321 00:20:54,375 --> 00:20:58,041 Our sorrow is too much. It's too much. 322 00:21:01,000 --> 00:21:01,875 Mercy. 323 00:21:07,958 --> 00:21:10,458 Our Father, who art in Heaven… 324 00:21:10,541 --> 00:21:12,125 [both] Hallowed be Thy name. 325 00:21:12,208 --> 00:21:16,916 Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven. 326 00:21:17,458 --> 00:21:20,125 [Father Paul] Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses 327 00:21:20,208 --> 00:21:22,541 as we forgive those who trespass against us. 328 00:21:22,625 --> 00:21:25,500 And lead us not into temptation, but… 329 00:21:27,916 --> 00:21:28,791 [groans] 330 00:21:34,666 --> 00:21:36,708 [breathes deeply] 331 00:21:36,791 --> 00:21:38,625 Deliver us from evil. Amen. 332 00:21:40,208 --> 00:21:43,958 Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord be with you, blessed art thou… 333 00:21:45,125 --> 00:21:46,083 [grunts] 334 00:21:52,916 --> 00:21:54,375 [breathing heavily] 335 00:22:02,666 --> 00:22:03,625 [grunts] 336 00:22:15,000 --> 00:22:15,958 [licks] 337 00:22:28,750 --> 00:22:29,750 [groans] 338 00:22:34,625 --> 00:22:35,625 [sucks] 339 00:22:54,583 --> 00:22:55,625 Blessed art thou. 340 00:22:56,791 --> 00:22:59,208 Blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. 341 00:23:03,125 --> 00:23:04,708 Holy Mary, Mother of God, 342 00:23:06,583 --> 00:23:08,000 pray for us sinners, now… 343 00:23:08,083 --> 00:23:10,916 And at the hours of our deaths. Amen. 344 00:23:15,958 --> 00:23:17,208 [exclaims] 345 00:23:17,291 --> 00:23:18,416 Fuck. Fuck. 346 00:23:19,083 --> 00:23:21,166 Whoa. Come on. Come on, come on. 347 00:23:22,125 --> 00:23:23,041 Hey, Joe. 348 00:23:24,166 --> 00:23:26,083 Sheriff. How are you today? 349 00:23:26,166 --> 00:23:27,166 I'm okay. 350 00:23:27,875 --> 00:23:29,041 Day's young, though. 351 00:23:30,500 --> 00:23:32,083 How's my night gonna be, Joe? 352 00:23:32,750 --> 00:23:34,791 Well, shit, how should I know? 353 00:23:37,041 --> 00:23:38,000 You okay? 354 00:23:38,083 --> 00:23:39,666 I'm workin' on it, man. 355 00:23:40,666 --> 00:23:43,000 [hesitating] I'm workin' on it. 356 00:23:45,958 --> 00:23:48,166 [breathing heavily] Fuck you. 357 00:23:52,291 --> 00:23:53,291 [bell chimes] 358 00:24:01,000 --> 00:24:03,083 [chanting prayer indistinctly] 359 00:24:13,166 --> 00:24:14,833 Ever this day, be at my side, 360 00:24:16,500 --> 00:24:17,791 to light and guard, 361 00:24:19,291 --> 00:24:20,541 to rule and guide. 362 00:24:21,375 --> 00:24:24,666 Angel of God, my guardian dear, 363 00:24:25,250 --> 00:24:27,833 to whom God's love commits me here. 364 00:24:28,625 --> 00:24:30,416 Ever this day, be at my side, 365 00:24:31,750 --> 00:24:33,666 to light and guard, to rule and guide. 366 00:24:34,250 --> 00:24:35,833 Angel of God, my guardian dear, 367 00:24:36,791 --> 00:24:38,541 to whom God's love commits me here. 368 00:24:39,208 --> 00:24:42,333 Ever this day, be at my side, to light and guard, and to rule and guide. 369 00:24:43,333 --> 00:24:45,166 Angel of God, my guardian dear, 370 00:24:46,625 --> 00:24:48,750 to whom God's love commits me here. 371 00:24:48,833 --> 00:24:51,791 Ever this day, be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. 372 00:24:53,208 --> 00:24:54,708 Angel of God, my guardian dear… 373 00:24:56,541 --> 00:24:57,458 Father Paul. 374 00:24:57,541 --> 00:25:01,583 Hi. Sorry to call after dark. I was a little ill, held up all day. 375 00:25:01,666 --> 00:25:06,708 But now I'm up and about again, and I thought I owe your mother her mass. 376 00:25:09,333 --> 00:25:10,541 [knocking at door] 377 00:25:16,291 --> 00:25:17,208 John? 378 00:25:22,583 --> 00:25:24,875 Sarah let me in. She said that you… 379 00:25:28,041 --> 00:25:29,541 That you're feeling better. 380 00:25:30,416 --> 00:25:31,416 How? 381 00:25:32,958 --> 00:25:34,250 How? 382 00:25:34,333 --> 00:25:37,208 "Well, truly, I say to you, if you have faith and never doubt, 383 00:25:37,291 --> 00:25:40,916 even if you say to this mountain be taken up 384 00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:44,458 and cast into the sea, it will be done." 385 00:25:45,666 --> 00:25:47,416 With God, all things are possible. 386 00:26:03,833 --> 00:26:05,666 I thought it was a dream. 387 00:26:08,250 --> 00:26:11,375 When I saw you at my bedside. 388 00:26:13,791 --> 00:26:15,250 So young. 389 00:26:16,041 --> 00:26:17,791 [both exclaim] 390 00:26:19,250 --> 00:26:20,958 Maybe it is a dream. 391 00:26:22,750 --> 00:26:24,958 But if it is, we're all having it. 392 00:26:26,583 --> 00:26:27,583 All of us. 393 00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:33,458 I have so much to tell you! 394 00:26:33,541 --> 00:26:34,583 [both chuckle] 395 00:26:37,125 --> 00:26:38,125 But… 396 00:26:39,041 --> 00:26:43,375 But first… your mass. 397 00:26:44,625 --> 00:26:45,791 Your Communion. 398 00:26:48,500 --> 00:26:52,958 In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. 399 00:26:58,375 --> 00:26:59,291 Amen. 400 00:27:02,958 --> 00:27:05,541 I'm just realizing that you must think I'm foolish. 401 00:27:06,916 --> 00:27:07,875 No. 402 00:27:08,750 --> 00:27:10,125 You prayed with me all day, 403 00:27:11,250 --> 00:27:13,416 and I love you for that. [sniffles] 404 00:27:14,208 --> 00:27:15,375 But you don't… 405 00:27:16,916 --> 00:27:19,416 You don't believe it. Any of it. 406 00:27:20,416 --> 00:27:21,416 I understand it. 407 00:27:23,208 --> 00:27:25,833 I do. The appeal of it. The comfort of it. 408 00:27:27,416 --> 00:27:29,083 Everything happens for a reason. 409 00:27:29,166 --> 00:27:31,708 There's good in everything. There's a plan. It's… 410 00:27:36,375 --> 00:27:37,625 I don't know. 411 00:27:39,916 --> 00:27:44,208 I guess I just lived a moment at complete odds 412 00:27:44,791 --> 00:27:46,833 with the existence of a loving God. 413 00:27:48,625 --> 00:27:49,750 So what do you think? 414 00:27:50,375 --> 00:27:53,250 -You think I'm delusional? -No. 415 00:27:55,666 --> 00:27:57,916 -You think I'm naive. -No. 416 00:27:59,333 --> 00:28:00,583 No, I think… 417 00:28:02,916 --> 00:28:04,416 I think we all want… 418 00:28:06,583 --> 00:28:09,708 so badly for there to be a reason. 419 00:28:11,000 --> 00:28:14,958 For everything. And some justice, and some comfort when we die. 420 00:28:15,041 --> 00:28:18,416 Yeah, that's where religion comes from. That's the whole question. 421 00:28:19,708 --> 00:28:20,916 It is. 422 00:28:22,500 --> 00:28:24,041 What happens when we die? 423 00:28:24,125 --> 00:28:25,791 What the fuck happens? 424 00:28:25,875 --> 00:28:27,166 So what do you think? 425 00:28:28,625 --> 00:28:30,458 What happens when we die, Riley? 426 00:28:32,500 --> 00:28:33,708 I don't know. 427 00:28:34,708 --> 00:28:37,541 And I don't trust anyone who tells us they do, but… 428 00:28:41,208 --> 00:28:43,166 I can speak for myself, I guess. 429 00:28:44,083 --> 00:28:45,375 Then speak for yourself. 430 00:28:46,375 --> 00:28:48,333 What happens when you die? 431 00:28:49,458 --> 00:28:50,458 [sighs] 432 00:28:55,166 --> 00:28:56,291 When I die… 433 00:28:59,666 --> 00:29:02,000 my body stops functioning. 434 00:29:03,375 --> 00:29:06,125 Shut down. All at once, or gradually, 435 00:29:06,208 --> 00:29:09,041 my breathing stops, my heart stops beating. 436 00:29:10,333 --> 00:29:11,458 Clinical death. 437 00:29:12,666 --> 00:29:16,708 And a bit later, like, five whole minutes later… 438 00:29:18,875 --> 00:29:20,291 my brain cells start dying. 439 00:29:24,791 --> 00:29:28,541 But in the meantime, in between… 440 00:29:30,958 --> 00:29:33,958 maybe my brain releases a flood of DMT. 441 00:29:34,458 --> 00:29:37,583 It's the psychedelic drug released when we dream, so… 442 00:29:39,416 --> 00:29:40,333 I dream. 443 00:29:42,125 --> 00:29:46,166 I dream bigger than I have ever dreamed before, 444 00:29:46,250 --> 00:29:50,291 because it's all of it. Just the last dump of DMT all at once. 445 00:29:50,375 --> 00:29:52,750 And my neurons are firing 446 00:29:52,833 --> 00:29:56,583 and I'm seeing this firework display of memories and imagination. 447 00:29:56,666 --> 00:29:59,708 And I am just… tripping. 448 00:30:00,250 --> 00:30:05,083 I mean, really tripping balls because my mind's rifling through the memories. 449 00:30:05,166 --> 00:30:09,333 You know, long and short-term, and the dreams mix with the memories, and… 450 00:30:12,250 --> 00:30:13,458 it's a curtain call. 451 00:30:15,708 --> 00:30:18,250 The dream to end all dreams. 452 00:30:18,333 --> 00:30:24,208 One last great dream as my mind empties the fuckin' missile silos and then… 453 00:30:29,583 --> 00:30:30,500 I stop. 454 00:30:33,666 --> 00:30:38,708 My brain activity ceases and there is nothing left of me. 455 00:30:40,958 --> 00:30:41,916 No pain. 456 00:30:44,416 --> 00:30:47,958 No memory, no awareness that I ever was, no… 457 00:30:51,083 --> 00:30:52,333 That I ever hurt someone. 458 00:30:59,791 --> 00:31:01,500 [voice breaking] That I ever killed someone. 459 00:31:05,041 --> 00:31:08,500 Everything is as it was 460 00:31:09,666 --> 00:31:10,750 before me. 461 00:31:13,416 --> 00:31:17,333 And the electricity disperses from my brain till it's just dead tissue. 462 00:31:19,041 --> 00:31:19,916 Meat. 463 00:31:21,750 --> 00:31:22,833 Oblivion. 464 00:31:27,125 --> 00:31:29,833 And all of the other little things that make me up, they… 465 00:31:31,333 --> 00:31:34,708 The microbes and bacterium and the billion other little things 466 00:31:34,791 --> 00:31:39,083 that live on my eyelashes and in my hair and in my mouth and on my skin 467 00:31:39,166 --> 00:31:41,458 and in my gut and everywhere else, they just 468 00:31:43,208 --> 00:31:44,125 keep on living. 469 00:31:46,333 --> 00:31:47,333 And eating. 470 00:31:49,041 --> 00:31:49,875 Uh… 471 00:31:53,166 --> 00:31:55,166 And I'm serving a purpose. 472 00:31:58,208 --> 00:31:59,500 I'm feeding life. 473 00:32:02,708 --> 00:32:03,833 And I'm broken apart, 474 00:32:03,916 --> 00:32:07,833 and all the littlest pieces of me are just recycled, 475 00:32:07,916 --> 00:32:09,916 and I'm billions of other places. 476 00:32:10,000 --> 00:32:14,416 And my atoms are in plants and bugs and animals, 477 00:32:14,500 --> 00:32:17,083 and I am like the stars that are in the sky. 478 00:32:19,833 --> 00:32:23,791 There one moment and then just scattered across the goddamn cosmos. 479 00:32:37,125 --> 00:32:38,041 Your turn. 480 00:32:39,083 --> 00:32:42,000 [chuckles] What happens when you die? 481 00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:46,083 Speaking for myself? 482 00:32:47,541 --> 00:32:48,750 Speaking for yourself. 483 00:32:53,500 --> 00:32:54,416 No. 484 00:32:56,416 --> 00:32:57,500 Not for myself. 485 00:32:59,791 --> 00:33:01,416 I'm not the one that died today. 486 00:33:07,041 --> 00:33:08,375 She was never awake. 487 00:33:10,458 --> 00:33:13,000 When she came down into this little body, 488 00:33:14,500 --> 00:33:16,750 this just-forming little body, it was asleep. 489 00:33:17,458 --> 00:33:19,250 So all she ever knew was dreaming. 490 00:33:22,041 --> 00:33:25,208 She only ever dreamed. She didn't even have a name. 491 00:33:27,125 --> 00:33:28,375 And then in her sleep, 492 00:33:29,791 --> 00:33:32,833 that perfect little spirit just lifted up. 493 00:33:34,625 --> 00:33:37,958 Because God didn't send her to suffer through life on Earth. No. 494 00:33:39,166 --> 00:33:40,208 This one? 495 00:33:42,041 --> 00:33:43,541 This special little soul… 496 00:33:45,458 --> 00:33:47,791 God just sent her down here to sleep. 497 00:33:50,916 --> 00:33:53,750 Just a little nap. A quick dream. 498 00:33:55,666 --> 00:33:57,833 And then He called her back. He wanted her back. 499 00:33:59,333 --> 00:34:00,500 And so she went back. 500 00:34:01,125 --> 00:34:04,916 Same as she floated down, she rose up above the Earth. 501 00:34:06,250 --> 00:34:08,208 Past all the souls in the atmosphere 502 00:34:08,291 --> 00:34:12,041 and all the stars in the sky and then into a light so bright. 503 00:34:15,500 --> 00:34:17,208 And then, for the first time… 504 00:34:19,416 --> 00:34:20,875 she starts to wake up. 505 00:34:26,416 --> 00:34:28,958 She's wrapped in a feeling of love. 506 00:34:29,625 --> 00:34:33,083 Just pure, amazing love. Of course she is. [laughing] 507 00:34:33,166 --> 00:34:34,375 She's pure. 508 00:34:36,708 --> 00:34:38,000 She has never sinned. 509 00:34:38,708 --> 00:34:41,583 She never hurt a single living thing, not even an ant. 510 00:34:42,375 --> 00:34:45,875 And she's not alone. She's home. 511 00:34:47,416 --> 00:34:49,166 There are people there, she doesn't know it, 512 00:34:49,250 --> 00:34:50,583 but they're her family. 513 00:34:51,250 --> 00:34:56,250 Her grandfather and her great-grandfather, and they love her. And they name her. 514 00:34:57,916 --> 00:35:00,500 And then when God reaches down and kisses her head, 515 00:35:00,583 --> 00:35:03,541 and the second He says her name, she grows up. 516 00:35:04,375 --> 00:35:05,416 In a blink. 517 00:35:10,541 --> 00:35:11,625 And she's perfect. 518 00:35:14,916 --> 00:35:18,000 Her body as it would have been on her best day on Earth. 519 00:35:18,583 --> 00:35:22,291 Her perfect age. The peak of herself. 520 00:35:25,583 --> 00:35:27,791 And they tell her about her mom down here on Earth, 521 00:35:27,875 --> 00:35:29,500 and how I'll be there soon enough. 522 00:35:29,583 --> 00:35:31,708 [breathes deeply] 523 00:35:32,625 --> 00:35:37,125 And she's happy. And nothing but joy for all eternity. 524 00:35:39,583 --> 00:35:40,708 And she's loved. 525 00:35:41,875 --> 00:35:43,375 And she isn't alone. 526 00:35:48,041 --> 00:35:50,250 And that's what we mean when we say Heaven. 527 00:35:51,208 --> 00:35:56,500 No mansions, no rivers of diamonds, or fluffy clouds or angel wings. 528 00:35:57,750 --> 00:35:58,958 You are loved. 529 00:36:00,333 --> 00:36:01,541 And you aren't alone. 530 00:36:08,208 --> 00:36:09,333 That is God. 531 00:36:10,958 --> 00:36:12,375 That is Heaven. 532 00:36:14,000 --> 00:36:16,541 That's why we endure all that we endure on this… 533 00:36:19,125 --> 00:36:21,875 big, blue, sad rock. 534 00:36:26,416 --> 00:36:27,916 I'll be there soon enough. 535 00:36:31,666 --> 00:36:33,166 And I'll see my father. 536 00:36:35,208 --> 00:36:36,583 And my grandmother. 537 00:36:37,708 --> 00:36:42,500 And I'll see my little girl, and she will be happy and safe. 538 00:36:45,291 --> 00:36:48,416 And I will be so glad to meet her. 539 00:36:57,791 --> 00:36:59,166 I really hope you're right. 540 00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:14,125 [Father Paul inhales] 541 00:37:14,208 --> 00:37:16,875 Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here. 542 00:37:16,958 --> 00:37:20,458 Ever this day [inhales] be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. 543 00:37:20,541 --> 00:37:23,291 Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here. 544 00:37:23,375 --> 00:37:26,125 Ever this day be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. 545 00:37:26,208 --> 00:37:28,583 [continues muttering indistinctly] 546 00:37:32,666 --> 00:37:34,375 [breathing heavily] 547 00:37:34,458 --> 00:37:36,000 [continues reciting prayer] 548 00:37:46,583 --> 00:37:48,291 [groans] 549 00:37:55,000 --> 00:37:56,500 Where are you? 550 00:37:57,708 --> 00:37:59,125 [sobs] 551 00:38:04,833 --> 00:38:06,875 Why won't you come? 552 00:38:09,458 --> 00:38:11,666 Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom… 553 00:38:12,833 --> 00:38:14,375 [continues reciting prayer] 554 00:38:35,000 --> 00:38:35,875 [knocking at door] 555 00:38:35,958 --> 00:38:36,958 [Joe] Father? 556 00:38:41,875 --> 00:38:43,875 [hesitating] I'm sorry to disturb you. 557 00:38:44,625 --> 00:38:45,625 I'm sorry. 558 00:38:46,416 --> 00:38:47,708 Hello, Joe. 559 00:38:48,333 --> 00:38:52,375 -Hello. -I was just… I, um… I had a hard day. 560 00:38:53,416 --> 00:38:55,541 But I did good. I didn't drink. 561 00:38:55,625 --> 00:38:56,875 Yeah, that's excellent. 562 00:38:56,958 --> 00:39:00,125 But it's a real struggle. You know? And you said come by here 563 00:39:01,083 --> 00:39:02,375 if I ever felt like… 564 00:39:03,333 --> 00:39:07,083 If it got too much. But you're… you're busy. 565 00:39:07,166 --> 00:39:09,708 No, not at all. Here. You come in here. You sit. 566 00:39:09,791 --> 00:39:10,666 [sniffs] 567 00:39:13,291 --> 00:39:16,333 I've been there. I can tell you that. [chuckles] 568 00:39:17,000 --> 00:39:17,833 [groans] 569 00:39:19,958 --> 00:39:22,250 -Are you okay, Father? -Um… 570 00:39:23,166 --> 00:39:24,791 Truth be told, I… 571 00:39:26,958 --> 00:39:30,958 I'm not really feelin' myself today, and I am at a bit of a loss. 572 00:39:39,750 --> 00:39:41,000 Well, that's uncanny, ain't it? 573 00:39:47,833 --> 00:39:49,166 You could be his son. 574 00:39:50,291 --> 00:39:52,375 You know, that was a rumor when I was a kid, 575 00:39:52,458 --> 00:39:55,833 that the old man wasn't exactly celibate. 576 00:39:55,916 --> 00:39:57,833 I mean, who can blame him? 577 00:39:57,916 --> 00:40:00,708 I mean, who am I to judge a man for his vices? 578 00:40:00,791 --> 00:40:01,958 I mean, me? Shit. 579 00:40:03,666 --> 00:40:05,750 None of my business. Really. 580 00:40:07,166 --> 00:40:08,875 Kinda my motto my whole life. 581 00:40:10,916 --> 00:40:12,125 I'll, uh… I'll… 582 00:40:13,125 --> 00:40:14,916 I'll see ya tomorrow at, um… 583 00:40:16,875 --> 00:40:19,625 -At the… at the meeting. -Hey, wait, wait, Joe. 584 00:40:26,541 --> 00:40:28,833 I'm proud of you, Joe. 585 00:40:29,416 --> 00:40:30,375 Thanks, Father. 586 00:40:30,458 --> 00:40:35,583 [hesitating] I'm sorry. I wasn't expecting anyone, but I'm proud of you, 587 00:40:35,666 --> 00:40:38,541 and I'm glad that you found strength today. 588 00:40:40,416 --> 00:40:42,000 Because I know that compulsion. 589 00:40:43,458 --> 00:40:44,875 That hunger, and… 590 00:40:47,000 --> 00:40:49,500 I know how hard it is to fight against. 591 00:40:50,750 --> 00:40:53,125 So I'm proud of you. God is proud of you. 592 00:40:54,750 --> 00:40:55,833 Thank you. 593 00:41:01,750 --> 00:41:03,625 God bless you. 594 00:41:05,166 --> 00:41:07,125 Better late than never, right? [chuckles] 595 00:41:08,416 --> 00:41:09,416 All right. 596 00:41:10,500 --> 00:41:12,791 -[Father Paul] God bless you. -Oh, thank you. I'm gonna… 597 00:41:12,875 --> 00:41:15,916 Um… I'm just gonna… I'm gonna go. 598 00:41:16,000 --> 00:41:17,625 [Father Paul sniffs] 599 00:41:18,541 --> 00:41:21,000 [Joe] I'm gonna go, okay? 600 00:41:21,083 --> 00:41:23,833 -I'm just… I'm gonna go, all right? -God bless you. 601 00:41:23,916 --> 00:41:25,666 What is wrong with you? 602 00:41:27,666 --> 00:41:31,666 The fuck is wrong with you? Stop it! [grunts] 603 00:41:35,833 --> 00:41:37,916 I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. 604 00:41:38,000 --> 00:41:40,041 -[Joe gasps] -I'm so sorry. 605 00:41:40,791 --> 00:41:41,750 Are you… 606 00:41:42,750 --> 00:41:43,875 Are you okay? 607 00:41:44,791 --> 00:41:45,750 What happened? 608 00:41:45,833 --> 00:41:47,041 [Joe gasping] 609 00:41:47,125 --> 00:41:49,625 Are you all right? Are you all right? 610 00:41:49,708 --> 00:41:51,166 [Joe grunts] 611 00:42:06,458 --> 00:42:07,583 What? 612 00:42:10,958 --> 00:42:13,250 -[Joe exclaims] -[Father Paul shushes] 613 00:42:14,750 --> 00:42:16,250 [slurping] 614 00:42:57,833 --> 00:43:00,208 -Hi. -Hi. 615 00:43:06,375 --> 00:43:08,083 I had that dream again last night. 616 00:43:09,500 --> 00:43:12,500 -The one on the water? -Yeah, that's right. 617 00:43:13,875 --> 00:43:17,458 It was all different this time. You know that happens sometimes? 618 00:43:18,125 --> 00:43:19,833 I never remember my dreams. 619 00:43:21,458 --> 00:43:22,625 What was different? 620 00:43:22,708 --> 00:43:23,625 I'm on the water, 621 00:43:25,041 --> 00:43:26,125 just like always… 622 00:43:28,166 --> 00:43:30,000 waiting on the sun. But this time… 623 00:43:38,541 --> 00:43:39,750 you're there too. 624 00:43:42,041 --> 00:43:43,500 What do you think that means? 625 00:43:50,916 --> 00:43:52,208 I should go. 626 00:43:55,500 --> 00:43:57,083 Unless you want me to walk you? 627 00:43:58,500 --> 00:44:00,375 -Hmm? -Church. 628 00:44:02,000 --> 00:44:02,875 Oh. 629 00:44:04,666 --> 00:44:06,583 I don't think I'm gonna go to church. 630 00:44:08,250 --> 00:44:10,291 I think I'm gonna go to the mainland. 631 00:44:12,083 --> 00:44:15,291 You know, not to, like, get a second opinion or anything, but… 632 00:44:18,416 --> 00:44:19,750 To get a second opinion. 633 00:44:20,625 --> 00:44:21,958 Of course. 634 00:44:22,041 --> 00:44:25,000 I wouldn't blame you if you didn't leave this house for a month. 635 00:44:25,083 --> 00:44:26,083 Nobody would. 636 00:44:29,041 --> 00:44:30,583 You could come back though. 637 00:44:31,958 --> 00:44:32,875 Later. 638 00:44:34,708 --> 00:44:35,791 Maybe tonight. 639 00:44:37,208 --> 00:44:40,208 You could come back tonight, maybe. 640 00:44:43,333 --> 00:44:44,541 I can do that. 641 00:44:46,375 --> 00:44:47,291 Okay. 642 00:45:11,041 --> 00:45:12,291 [sighs] 643 00:45:14,000 --> 00:45:16,833 -I'm not gonna do Communion or anything. -I know. 644 00:45:18,208 --> 00:45:19,208 You can't. 645 00:45:20,791 --> 00:45:23,166 They won't let you, because you're not a Christian. 646 00:45:23,250 --> 00:45:25,500 -Dad. Please, we've been over this. -I know. 647 00:45:25,583 --> 00:45:27,041 -You said I could-- -I know. 648 00:45:32,916 --> 00:45:33,791 Look. 649 00:45:35,291 --> 00:45:36,916 I understand you're curious. 650 00:45:38,833 --> 00:45:42,833 I will not tell my son not to look for God. 651 00:45:44,833 --> 00:45:46,041 But, son… 652 00:45:46,916 --> 00:45:47,875 Ali. 653 00:45:49,708 --> 00:45:51,041 We already have Him. 654 00:45:52,583 --> 00:45:53,875 Well, thank you, Dad. 655 00:45:53,958 --> 00:45:58,333 I know this isn't easy for you, so… thank you. 656 00:46:06,125 --> 00:46:07,000 [door opens] 657 00:46:10,833 --> 00:46:11,708 [door closes] 658 00:46:21,875 --> 00:46:23,375 [choir music plays] 659 00:46:42,916 --> 00:46:44,625 You didn't come home last night. 660 00:47:00,208 --> 00:47:01,583 [sighs] 661 00:47:09,916 --> 00:47:11,125 [knocking at door] 662 00:47:11,208 --> 00:47:12,041 [Bev] Father! 663 00:47:14,041 --> 00:47:16,041 Father! We're all waiting. 664 00:47:28,833 --> 00:47:31,083 Father, you're almost a half-hour late, you… 665 00:47:47,833 --> 00:47:48,791 Okay. 666 00:47:51,833 --> 00:47:52,708 Okay. 667 00:48:08,458 --> 00:48:12,125 I don't know why… I don't know why… I don't know why-- 668 00:48:12,208 --> 00:48:15,958 Hush, now. You don't have to say a thing. Not you. Not to me. 669 00:48:16,833 --> 00:48:17,916 We've got to, uh… 670 00:48:21,625 --> 00:48:22,708 [clears throat] 671 00:48:23,666 --> 00:48:24,833 We've got to… 672 00:48:28,666 --> 00:48:29,958 get you cleaned up. 673 00:48:31,083 --> 00:48:32,583 Get you to the church. 674 00:48:37,166 --> 00:48:38,125 Okay. 675 00:48:40,041 --> 00:48:42,333 Um, here's the thing. 676 00:48:46,458 --> 00:48:47,541 Okay. 677 00:48:48,625 --> 00:48:50,250 Lord, Lord, Lord. Okay. 678 00:48:52,208 --> 00:48:54,500 You're gonna stay here. You are… 679 00:48:55,791 --> 00:48:57,583 You are gonna stay right here. 680 00:48:59,958 --> 00:49:01,625 Here's what we're gonna do. 681 00:49:06,541 --> 00:49:08,583 He's fine. Everything is fine. 682 00:49:11,583 --> 00:49:13,375 [indistinct chatter] 683 00:49:25,541 --> 00:49:27,708 Excuse me. [clears throat] Excuse me. 684 00:49:28,375 --> 00:49:29,625 Good morning. 685 00:49:29,708 --> 00:49:31,583 Let me tell you, it is such a delight 686 00:49:31,666 --> 00:49:34,833 to see this church so full every day. God bless. 687 00:49:35,500 --> 00:49:39,375 I'm afraid this morning, though, we'll have to… 688 00:49:42,541 --> 00:49:44,291 I think we'll have to cancel mass. 689 00:49:44,375 --> 00:49:45,291 [indistinct chatter] 690 00:49:45,375 --> 00:49:48,500 Father Paul is bouncing back from a stomach bug. 691 00:49:49,125 --> 00:49:50,375 Poor thing. 692 00:49:50,458 --> 00:49:54,375 I just had to physically restrain the dear man, put him to bed. 693 00:49:54,458 --> 00:49:57,125 He was so determined to be here. 694 00:49:57,208 --> 00:49:59,625 He'll be back on his feet in just no time at all. 695 00:49:59,708 --> 00:50:03,250 But this morning, at least, maybe, uh, 696 00:50:04,250 --> 00:50:06,791 our dear Dolly Scarborough… 697 00:50:08,125 --> 00:50:09,208 Come up here, Dolly. 698 00:50:10,291 --> 00:50:11,541 Come on up. 699 00:50:11,625 --> 00:50:16,208 Maybe Dolly can lead us in some singing and some reading and some prayer. 700 00:50:16,791 --> 00:50:20,625 And we can still celebrate like the Christians of old 701 00:50:20,708 --> 00:50:24,666 who sang praises to God long before there were priests to lead the way. 702 00:50:24,750 --> 00:50:28,500 -Uh, let's start with hymn number 473. -Sure. 703 00:50:28,583 --> 00:50:31,750 "We Gather Together." Dolly, will you lead us? 704 00:50:31,833 --> 00:50:32,791 [Dolly clears throat] 705 00:50:32,875 --> 00:50:34,625 [choir music starts] 706 00:50:37,208 --> 00:50:38,250 Excuse me. 707 00:50:39,416 --> 00:50:46,208 ♪ We gather together To ask the Lord's blessing… ♪ 708 00:50:46,291 --> 00:50:49,000 [Bev] Wrap it up in the carpet, put it in your truck, 709 00:50:49,083 --> 00:50:51,250 take it to one of the empty houses on the west bank. 710 00:50:51,333 --> 00:50:53,416 Do it now, while most of the island is at church. 711 00:50:53,500 --> 00:50:57,958 And then tonight, late, tie an anchor to it and drop it five miles out. 712 00:51:01,041 --> 00:51:02,958 But, I… We… 713 00:51:03,791 --> 00:51:05,250 [hesitates] 714 00:51:05,333 --> 00:51:07,416 Yes. Wade, what would you like to say? 715 00:51:08,166 --> 00:51:09,125 I mean… 716 00:51:11,750 --> 00:51:14,041 We're not… We're not really… 717 00:51:14,125 --> 00:51:17,500 That's Joe Collie, Bev. This is… 718 00:51:19,833 --> 00:51:22,875 This is… This is… What the hell did you do? 719 00:51:25,958 --> 00:51:29,375 "The man who acts presumptuously by not obeying the Priest 720 00:51:29,458 --> 00:51:32,208 who stands to minister there before the Lord, your God, 721 00:51:32,291 --> 00:51:33,958 that man shall die." 722 00:51:35,833 --> 00:51:36,875 Deuteronomy. 723 00:51:38,583 --> 00:51:39,750 You are correct. 724 00:51:41,458 --> 00:51:42,666 This is Joe Collie. 725 00:51:42,750 --> 00:51:47,750 This isn't Ed Flynn or Leeza Scarborough or you, Wade. 726 00:51:47,833 --> 00:51:50,333 This is the man that put your daughter in a wheelchair. 727 00:51:50,416 --> 00:51:55,000 This man has been a scourge to this community his entire life. 728 00:51:55,083 --> 00:51:59,166 He's a sinner, a letch, and a heathen of the first order. 729 00:51:59,250 --> 00:52:01,750 He's a maimer of children and a blessing to no one, 730 00:52:01,833 --> 00:52:03,833 and God has called in his debt. 731 00:52:04,500 --> 00:52:09,083 Father. Monsignor. Tell them. Tell them why you did what you did. 732 00:52:09,166 --> 00:52:12,250 I don't know. Something came over me, and really, I don't even-- 733 00:52:12,333 --> 00:52:15,083 Because something moved through you. 734 00:52:15,166 --> 00:52:17,125 You forget. Wade, you forget. 735 00:52:17,208 --> 00:52:19,666 Our Lord is a warrior, and so are His angels. 736 00:52:20,250 --> 00:52:23,500 Our Lord sent angels to Egypt 737 00:52:23,583 --> 00:52:26,791 to slaughter the firstborn of the Egyptians, 738 00:52:26,875 --> 00:52:30,583 turned cities to salt, women and children alike, 739 00:52:30,666 --> 00:52:35,416 and drowned the world when we were too lost to our sins. 740 00:52:36,333 --> 00:52:41,166 Monsignor Pruitt himself is a miracle of God. 741 00:52:42,416 --> 00:52:45,041 And a performer of miracles, 742 00:52:46,125 --> 00:52:49,166 as you damn well know yourself, Wade. He is a miracle. 743 00:52:50,041 --> 00:52:52,375 God has a plan. He's working through him. 744 00:52:52,458 --> 00:52:56,791 "And we are to do our part to witness and do our part." 745 00:52:56,875 --> 00:52:59,958 "And do not think that I have come to bring peace." 746 00:53:00,041 --> 00:53:03,250 "I have not come to bring peace, but a sword." 747 00:53:03,333 --> 00:53:07,208 It was Jesus who said that! Jesus Christ himself! 748 00:53:07,291 --> 00:53:10,166 So if you wanna question him now, Wade, 749 00:53:10,250 --> 00:53:15,083 if you want to pick and choose which one of his works are palatable to you… 750 00:53:16,250 --> 00:53:19,625 Return all his graces to sender then, 751 00:53:19,708 --> 00:53:24,541 and let your little girl sit back down in that wheelchair. 752 00:53:25,708 --> 00:53:31,333 But do not cherry-pick the glories of God! 753 00:53:32,625 --> 00:53:35,833 Now wrap it up 754 00:53:37,541 --> 00:53:38,625 in the carpet. 755 00:53:42,916 --> 00:53:44,625 I… I… I… 756 00:53:51,750 --> 00:53:53,208 Is your conscience heavy? 757 00:53:54,875 --> 00:53:58,208 Do you have guilt in your heart for doing what you had to? 758 00:54:00,125 --> 00:54:01,083 No. 759 00:54:05,291 --> 00:54:06,416 Not at all. 760 00:54:06,500 --> 00:54:10,125 Then ask yourself why God let that cup pass you by. 761 00:54:12,166 --> 00:54:13,416 And carry on. 762 00:54:16,333 --> 00:54:17,500 [Wade mumbles indistinctly] 763 00:54:19,458 --> 00:54:21,541 His arms. Sturge, his arms. 764 00:54:27,000 --> 00:54:28,333 Get the… And… 765 00:54:29,541 --> 00:54:30,458 [knocking at door] 766 00:54:34,708 --> 00:54:40,125 Okay. Sorry to keep you waiting. We've, um… We've run your labs. 767 00:54:41,083 --> 00:54:43,916 I wonder if perhaps the information you've given me 768 00:54:44,000 --> 00:54:46,125 might not be entirely accurate. 769 00:54:46,208 --> 00:54:48,375 I'll put you in touch with my doctor, 770 00:54:48,458 --> 00:54:51,166 and she can make sure you have the correct information. 771 00:54:51,250 --> 00:54:53,125 I just wanna know how this could happen. 772 00:54:53,208 --> 00:54:56,000 Well, I don't believe anything has. 773 00:54:58,250 --> 00:55:01,666 -What does that mean? -I mean, your tests are all negative. 774 00:55:02,500 --> 00:55:04,000 I know. I lost the baby. 775 00:55:04,083 --> 00:55:07,291 No, I mean your hCG levels are normal. 776 00:55:07,375 --> 00:55:08,208 Okay? 777 00:55:08,291 --> 00:55:12,875 And even after a miscarriage, they'd stay elevated six weeks or so. 778 00:55:12,958 --> 00:55:18,166 Right, I didn't have… There was no evidence of miscarriage. 779 00:55:19,500 --> 00:55:23,916 Um, I don't see any evidence you were pregnant at all. 780 00:55:27,208 --> 00:55:28,541 I had an ultrasound. 781 00:55:28,625 --> 00:55:32,125 Look, I don't know anything about that. I'm just looking at your tests. 782 00:55:32,208 --> 00:55:33,708 I heard the heartbeat many times. 783 00:55:33,791 --> 00:55:36,125 I saw her move. I saw her sucking her thumb. 784 00:55:36,208 --> 00:55:38,583 I am happy to call your doctor on the island, 785 00:55:39,125 --> 00:55:41,708 and maybe she'll share some of her… 786 00:55:42,958 --> 00:55:46,833 But your body isn't the body of a woman who's been pregnant. It just isn't. 787 00:55:47,416 --> 00:55:52,083 -I was pregnant. I was. -Not according to your blood or your body. 788 00:55:52,833 --> 00:55:55,375 And the human body, it can't, well… 789 00:55:56,083 --> 00:55:58,458 It just can't pull a rip cord on something like that 790 00:55:58,541 --> 00:56:01,083 and pretend nothing happened. It's just not possible. 791 00:56:03,500 --> 00:56:06,166 I was wondering if perhaps we could arrange 792 00:56:06,250 --> 00:56:08,625 for you to speak with someone in our psych department. 793 00:56:36,500 --> 00:56:37,708 [sighs] 794 00:56:52,333 --> 00:56:53,291 [Riley] You feeling better? 795 00:56:55,666 --> 00:56:59,083 I wasn't sure if this was happening. No one answered when I called the rectory. 796 00:57:00,041 --> 00:57:03,166 [Father Paul] Nothing to worry about. Feelin' much better as the day went on. 797 00:57:03,250 --> 00:57:04,375 Come on in. 798 00:57:04,958 --> 00:57:05,916 I'm so sorry to hear that. 799 00:57:06,000 --> 00:57:09,166 I'll have to visit her and make sure she's all right. 800 00:57:09,250 --> 00:57:10,916 Yeah, she's takin' it easy. 801 00:57:11,000 --> 00:57:13,458 I don't think she'll really be up for visitors any time soon. 802 00:57:13,541 --> 00:57:14,416 No, of course. 803 00:57:15,625 --> 00:57:21,083 Out of curiosity, what would you have said to her? 804 00:57:24,333 --> 00:57:26,583 That's the thing, isn't it? What do you say? 805 00:57:26,666 --> 00:57:28,833 You say, "I'm so sorry for your loss." 806 00:57:28,916 --> 00:57:31,125 Or, "God works in mysterious ways." 807 00:57:31,208 --> 00:57:33,041 "If there's anything that I can do." 808 00:57:33,125 --> 00:57:35,416 It's so hollow, isn't it? 809 00:57:35,500 --> 00:57:37,000 I don't… Will not… 810 00:57:40,083 --> 00:57:43,750 We can never understand the will of God, 811 00:57:43,833 --> 00:57:47,708 and I wouldn't presume to know what to say to Erin Greene, other than that. 812 00:57:53,541 --> 00:57:56,208 We must trust in the Lord with our whole heart. 813 00:57:58,458 --> 00:58:00,833 And not rely on our own insights. 814 00:58:00,916 --> 00:58:03,750 Give yourself over whether you understand it or not. 815 00:58:03,833 --> 00:58:05,000 That's right. That's right. 816 00:58:05,083 --> 00:58:09,000 That's just… Well, that's just true. Isn't it? For you, for me? 817 00:58:09,958 --> 00:58:12,375 Give ourselves over, maybe for a moment. 818 00:58:12,458 --> 00:58:17,541 You know, stop presuming to know the reason, to understand the meaning. 819 00:58:18,208 --> 00:58:22,291 Sometimes it's okay to just look at the world and say, 820 00:58:22,375 --> 00:58:25,791 "Why? Why? Why? I don't understand." 821 00:58:27,875 --> 00:58:29,166 "And I will not." 822 00:58:31,791 --> 00:58:33,250 Yeah, sometimes that's okay. 823 00:58:36,125 --> 00:58:37,791 Yeah, I actually agree with that. 824 00:58:39,125 --> 00:58:41,000 It's hard not to, isn't it? [chuckles] 825 00:58:41,875 --> 00:58:43,291 How are your amends going? 826 00:58:45,041 --> 00:58:48,000 We gonna get into that now? Shouldn't we wait for Joe? 827 00:58:49,291 --> 00:58:50,541 Oh. Uh… 828 00:58:50,625 --> 00:58:52,875 No. Joe isn't joining us today, actually. 829 00:58:52,958 --> 00:58:53,875 No. 830 00:58:55,166 --> 00:58:57,708 No, please don't tell me he fell off. 831 00:58:59,250 --> 00:59:01,958 I don't know why, I just really wanted this to work for him. 832 00:59:02,041 --> 00:59:04,416 Like, I really, really did. 833 00:59:04,500 --> 00:59:07,791 No, no. I actually saw him yesterday. He was… 834 00:59:08,750 --> 00:59:11,375 He was doin' well. He was proud of himself. 835 00:59:12,000 --> 00:59:14,875 No, he's off-island today, visiting his sister, I think. 836 00:59:14,958 --> 00:59:18,500 Uh, he's not sure when he's gonna be back. 837 00:59:19,625 --> 00:59:21,375 -His sister? -Yeah, that's right. 838 00:59:24,583 --> 00:59:25,541 Oh. 839 00:59:27,333 --> 00:59:31,250 So, shall we begin with Serenity? I'm sure he'll grace us next week. 840 00:59:33,458 --> 00:59:36,166 God grant me the serenity to accept the things… 841 00:59:36,250 --> 00:59:39,416 [both] …I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, 842 00:59:39,500 --> 00:59:41,916 and the wisdom to know the difference. 843 00:59:42,791 --> 00:59:43,666 Amen. 844 00:59:46,458 --> 00:59:48,625 [Annie] I'm just glad to hear that he's all right. 845 00:59:48,708 --> 00:59:51,000 I'm not surprised, as hard as he's been working lately. 846 00:59:51,083 --> 00:59:54,416 Daily mass, packed, and a full schedule, besides. 847 00:59:54,500 --> 00:59:58,583 Do you know that he's brought Mildred Gunning the sacrament every day 848 00:59:58,666 --> 01:00:00,500 since he's been here? Every day. 849 01:00:01,375 --> 01:00:02,500 The man's a saint. 850 01:00:03,125 --> 01:00:06,750 I'm glad he's on the mend. And your little friend Ali. 851 01:00:06,833 --> 01:00:08,625 I was so moved to see him in church today. 852 01:00:10,375 --> 01:00:12,166 I can't imagine how that went over with his dad. 853 01:00:12,250 --> 01:00:14,583 The courage it had to take to leave that behind, 854 01:00:14,666 --> 01:00:16,583 to come to church alone, at his age? 855 01:00:17,208 --> 01:00:20,541 With his upbringing? All that tradition. It just shows you. 856 01:00:21,166 --> 01:00:23,750 God finds a way. God, find the way. 857 01:00:27,958 --> 01:00:29,416 Heading out for the night, huh? 858 01:00:29,500 --> 01:00:30,416 Yeah. 859 01:00:31,333 --> 01:00:32,708 [Annie] Well, give her my best. 860 01:00:33,416 --> 01:00:36,083 -Tell her I'm so sorry. -I will. 861 01:00:37,416 --> 01:00:40,541 You know, when you were a little boy, 862 01:00:42,583 --> 01:00:45,125 you said to me, "If we're on an island, 863 01:00:45,208 --> 01:00:48,416 why don't we live in treehouses like Swiss Family Robinson?" 864 01:00:49,041 --> 01:00:52,541 And I said to you, "Well, we're not shipwrecked, Riley." 865 01:00:53,166 --> 01:00:54,750 "We're meant to be here." 866 01:00:56,750 --> 01:00:57,791 And you, 867 01:00:58,708 --> 01:00:59,750 you frowned. 868 01:01:01,333 --> 01:01:04,500 I know you never really felt like this was home. 869 01:01:05,541 --> 01:01:08,916 Like Crockett wasn't so much a place we lived 870 01:01:09,583 --> 01:01:12,250 as a place we lived through, waiting for help to come. 871 01:01:12,333 --> 01:01:13,250 [chuckles] 872 01:01:15,458 --> 01:01:19,125 And, well, help is here. 873 01:01:20,750 --> 01:01:23,666 -Is it? -I don't need my glasses anymore. 874 01:01:24,666 --> 01:01:27,250 And your father's better than he's been in years. 875 01:01:28,583 --> 01:01:30,250 Something's happening here. 876 01:01:31,000 --> 01:01:32,625 And I can't pretend it isn't. 877 01:01:34,375 --> 01:01:35,375 Now, I know… 878 01:01:37,625 --> 01:01:38,750 you struggled. 879 01:01:39,833 --> 01:01:43,000 With your faith and with what happened-- 880 01:01:43,083 --> 01:01:44,416 With what I did. 881 01:01:50,208 --> 01:01:51,458 With what you did. 882 01:01:52,875 --> 01:01:54,458 [voice breaking] My beautiful boy. 883 01:01:55,458 --> 01:01:56,458 Yes. 884 01:01:58,083 --> 01:02:03,916 But God isn't asking you to have faith in something that you can't see. 885 01:02:04,500 --> 01:02:07,333 Not here. Not now. 886 01:02:08,500 --> 01:02:10,083 He's only asking that you look. 887 01:02:11,583 --> 01:02:13,000 Isn't that amazing? 888 01:02:16,583 --> 01:02:18,125 He's a liar, Mom. 889 01:02:19,750 --> 01:02:20,875 Father Paul. 890 01:02:23,208 --> 01:02:24,375 Maybe you're right. 891 01:02:26,083 --> 01:02:27,291 Maybe there is hope. 892 01:02:28,375 --> 01:02:32,125 And maybe there's something for me, and maybe there is God and miracles. 893 01:02:33,500 --> 01:02:34,416 I don't know. 894 01:02:36,875 --> 01:02:40,791 But I know one thing. Just one thing for a fact. 895 01:02:42,416 --> 01:02:44,375 Father Paul lied to me tonight. 896 01:02:47,250 --> 01:02:50,625 So believe and pray for me. 897 01:02:52,250 --> 01:02:53,250 But just… 898 01:02:56,541 --> 01:02:58,916 Please be careful. That's all I ask. 899 01:03:01,500 --> 01:03:02,625 [Annie] Oh. 900 01:03:03,333 --> 01:03:04,708 Oh. 901 01:03:06,250 --> 01:03:07,125 Yeah. 902 01:03:09,125 --> 01:03:10,125 Oh. 903 01:03:23,833 --> 01:03:25,708 …my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here. 904 01:03:25,791 --> 01:03:28,291 Ever this day be at my side to light and guard, to rule and guide. 905 01:03:28,375 --> 01:03:30,416 Angel of God, please, please, please. 906 01:03:30,500 --> 01:03:32,416 Where are you? Where are you? 907 01:03:32,500 --> 01:03:34,958 Please, please, please. 908 01:03:35,041 --> 01:03:37,750 Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here. 909 01:03:37,833 --> 01:03:40,708 Ever this day, be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. 910 01:03:42,125 --> 01:03:44,125 [continues reciting prayer] 911 01:03:53,000 --> 01:03:56,791 Oh, thank God. Where have you been? I've been… 912 01:03:59,625 --> 01:04:00,708 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 913 01:04:01,375 --> 01:04:04,541 I'm sorry, I've just been lost. I've just been lost. 914 01:04:05,250 --> 01:04:08,416 I don't… I'm out of the sacrament. 915 01:04:09,958 --> 01:04:11,208 [breathing heavily] 916 01:04:20,083 --> 01:04:23,208 Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here. 917 01:04:23,291 --> 01:04:26,166 Ever this day, be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. 918 01:04:33,750 --> 01:04:35,458 Angel of God, my guardian dear… 919 01:04:35,541 --> 01:04:36,833 [continues reciting prayer] 920 01:05:12,833 --> 01:05:13,791 His sister. 921 01:05:37,708 --> 01:05:38,958 [reciting prayer] 922 01:05:56,208 --> 01:05:57,125 Oh. 923 01:06:02,500 --> 01:06:03,750 [creature growls] 924 01:06:03,833 --> 01:06:04,833 [Riley exclaims] 925 01:06:06,500 --> 01:06:07,666 [groaning]

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5. KİTAP: HAKİKAT
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1 00:00:06,125 --> 00:00:09,916 BİR NETFLIX DİZİSİ 2 00:00:32,125 --> 00:00:36,416 V. KITAP: HAKIKAT 3 00:00:36,500 --> 00:00:39,250 Peş peşe iki gece. Onunla konuşmalıyız. 4 00:00:39,958 --> 00:00:42,041 Bilmemek hoşuma gitmiyor… 5 00:00:43,875 --> 00:00:46,916 Söylentiye göre Bayan Greene'le vakit geçiriyormuş. 6 00:00:50,208 --> 00:00:51,333 Aferin ona. 7 00:00:53,291 --> 00:00:56,791 O bir yetişkin. Biraz teselli bulabiliyorsa… 8 00:00:58,541 --> 00:00:59,541 Aferin ona. 9 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:09,333 Bu sabah geç kaldık. Baş başa olacağız galiba. 10 00:01:10,833 --> 00:01:11,708 Hallederiz. 11 00:01:24,875 --> 00:01:26,458 TELOMERLER VE YAŞLANMA 12 00:01:29,958 --> 00:01:31,000 Günaydın. 13 00:01:36,208 --> 00:01:37,541 Vay, sen çok… 14 00:01:37,625 --> 00:01:42,291 Beğendin mi? Yukarıdaki dolabın içindeki sandıktan bulup çıkardım. 15 00:01:43,375 --> 00:01:46,500 Bunların çoğu onlarca yıl gün yüzü görmedi 16 00:01:46,583 --> 00:01:48,250 ama ben de görmedim doğrusu. 17 00:01:49,416 --> 00:01:53,041 Yine de üstüme iyi oldu, sence de öyle değil mi? 18 00:01:54,916 --> 00:01:55,750 Gidelim mi? 19 00:01:57,291 --> 00:01:59,458 Sorunlu bir genç, biliyorum. 20 00:02:00,666 --> 00:02:01,666 Hep öyleydi. 21 00:02:03,375 --> 00:02:06,208 Babası ona da bana da iyi davranmazdı. 22 00:02:07,750 --> 00:02:09,625 Elimden geleni yaptım. 23 00:02:11,333 --> 00:02:13,833 Yaptım ama ben de mükemmel değilim. 24 00:02:17,625 --> 00:02:18,916 İki işte çalışıyorum. 25 00:02:20,208 --> 00:02:23,958 Ana karada. Yine de kız kardeşlerini geçindirmeye yetmiyor. 26 00:02:25,250 --> 00:02:27,750 O yüzden bu işi yapıyor. 27 00:02:29,125 --> 00:02:33,666 Para bir yerlerden gelmeli. Geçimimizi sağlayan o. 28 00:02:36,291 --> 00:02:38,916 Senin için fark etmez tabii, değil mi Şerif? 29 00:02:39,708 --> 00:02:42,666 Kanun kanundur. Şartlar ne olursa olsun, değil mi? 30 00:02:43,208 --> 00:02:46,583 Yargılamıyorum Joanie, sadece duyulmamış şey değil, dedim. 31 00:02:46,666 --> 00:02:48,541 -Bowl'un birkaç gün… -Bill! 32 00:02:49,083 --> 00:02:51,208 Onun adı Bill. 33 00:02:52,583 --> 00:02:56,791 Ot satmaya başladığında sözde arkadaşları ona Bowl adını taktı ve… 34 00:02:58,958 --> 00:03:01,458 Hiç değilse Bong demediler. 35 00:03:02,125 --> 00:03:06,833 Bak, sen ve ada halkı 36 00:03:06,916 --> 00:03:09,333 bir gencin kaybolmasını umursamıyorsanız 37 00:03:09,416 --> 00:03:12,333 neden kiliseye doluşup 38 00:03:12,416 --> 00:03:16,791 sofuluk taslıyorsunuz bilmem çünkü Hristiyan falan değilsiniz siz. 39 00:03:16,875 --> 00:03:19,500 -Değilim zaten. -Ne kastettiğimi biliyorsun. 40 00:03:21,666 --> 00:03:23,791 Ana karadaki meslektaşlarımı aradım, 41 00:03:23,875 --> 00:03:25,333 onlar da Bowl'un… 42 00:03:26,333 --> 00:03:29,625 Bill'in işverenlerine ve tanıdıklarına soracak. Onu bulacağız. 43 00:03:30,583 --> 00:03:33,958 Ya adadakiler, onlarla da konuşsan? 44 00:03:34,041 --> 00:03:37,083 Ana karadakileri bilmem ama adalılar bilir. 45 00:03:37,166 --> 00:03:39,250 Adalılar daima bilir. 46 00:03:39,333 --> 00:03:40,666 Joe Collie'yle konuştum. 47 00:03:41,333 --> 00:03:43,958 Şunu söyleyebilirim, onu adada gören son kişiymiş. 48 00:03:44,041 --> 00:03:45,791 -Ayık mıydı? -Efendim? 49 00:03:45,875 --> 00:03:47,916 Konuştuğunuz sırada ayık mıydı? 50 00:03:48,000 --> 00:03:51,000 Joe için kesin konuşamam. 51 00:03:51,500 --> 00:03:53,791 -Anlamak imkânsız ama o… -Tekrar konuş. 52 00:03:54,541 --> 00:03:57,458 -Bak, bence Joe… -Tekrar konuş! 53 00:03:57,541 --> 00:03:59,083 Onu tanımıyordun! 54 00:03:59,791 --> 00:04:01,375 Buradakiler onu tanımıyordu, 55 00:04:01,458 --> 00:04:03,041 tanısalar bile umursamazlardı 56 00:04:03,125 --> 00:04:05,083 ama bunun bir önemi olmamalı. 57 00:04:06,208 --> 00:04:12,333 Böyle bir durumda hepimiz eşit olmalıyız. 58 00:04:15,041 --> 00:04:17,916 KUTSAL CUMA AYİNİ 20.00 PASKALYA NÖBETİ CUMARTESİ GECESİ 59 00:04:18,000 --> 00:04:22,375 Bir dakika, hep gece mi? Sabah ayini yok mu? 60 00:04:23,208 --> 00:04:24,291 Şimdilik öyle. 61 00:04:25,125 --> 00:04:28,000 Peder Paul'ün nezlesinin geçmesi için 62 00:04:28,083 --> 00:04:29,708 bir iki sabaha daha ihtiyacı var 63 00:04:29,791 --> 00:04:33,333 ama bu gece ayağa kalkmış olur. Öyle değil mi Sturge? 64 00:04:34,458 --> 00:04:35,416 Evet efendim. 65 00:04:36,333 --> 00:04:41,083 Sabah onunla konuştum, durumu çok daha iyi. 66 00:04:41,166 --> 00:04:43,708 Çok doğru. Dolly de onunla konuştu. 67 00:04:43,791 --> 00:04:45,958 Kutsal Cuma hakkında söyleyecekleri var. 68 00:04:46,041 --> 00:04:47,250 Değil mi canım? 69 00:04:48,833 --> 00:04:50,708 Dolly? 70 00:05:02,708 --> 00:05:04,583 Millie. Sen misin? 71 00:05:05,958 --> 00:05:07,291 Benim tabii. 72 00:05:08,208 --> 00:05:11,833 Bugün sabah ayini yok mu? İple çekiyordum. 73 00:05:12,666 --> 00:05:14,291 Hayır, bu… 74 00:05:15,708 --> 00:05:17,916 Vay! Şuna bakın. 75 00:05:18,000 --> 00:05:21,916 Tanrım. Bayan Gunning çok… Anne? 76 00:05:24,500 --> 00:05:25,958 Kusura bakma tatlım. 77 00:05:27,250 --> 00:05:28,291 Sadece… 78 00:05:29,958 --> 00:05:31,875 Bu günleri de görmek varmış. 79 00:05:40,000 --> 00:05:42,291 -Merhaba Bayan Flynn. -Canım. 80 00:05:43,708 --> 00:05:47,000 Merhaba hayatım. Duydum… 81 00:05:47,583 --> 00:05:50,958 Riley bize söyledi. Yalnız değilsin. 82 00:05:51,625 --> 00:05:52,625 O burada mı? 83 00:05:53,875 --> 00:05:58,041 Hayır. Burada değil. Açıkçası ben de seninle sanıyordum. 84 00:06:00,625 --> 00:06:01,500 Joe? 85 00:06:11,125 --> 00:06:12,041 -Aldın mı? -Evet. 86 00:06:33,166 --> 00:06:34,333 Riley'yi gördünüz mü? 87 00:06:48,791 --> 00:06:49,791 Her şey yolunda mı? 88 00:06:50,666 --> 00:06:53,625 Evet, Riley kayıplara karışmış sadece. 89 00:06:55,583 --> 00:06:56,916 Erin Greene'le değil mi? 90 00:06:58,208 --> 00:06:59,125 Belli ki değil. 91 00:07:04,416 --> 00:07:06,041 Kahretsin Riley. 92 00:07:08,958 --> 00:07:11,708 Her şey sil baştan mı olacak? O kadar da… 93 00:07:12,291 --> 00:07:13,166 Tanrım. 94 00:07:14,375 --> 00:07:16,000 Onun nesi var böyle? 95 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:18,500 Bırak onu. Bırak. 96 00:07:20,166 --> 00:07:24,208 Zaten ne halt edebiliriz ki? O hiç… Lanet olsun! 97 00:07:24,791 --> 00:07:26,708 Pardon. Kusura bakma Warren. 98 00:07:28,916 --> 00:07:30,333 Pardon. Al. 99 00:07:36,875 --> 00:07:41,333 Evet, C-O-çift L-I-E. Joseph. 100 00:07:42,833 --> 00:07:44,291 22 Nisan 1969. 101 00:07:45,791 --> 00:07:47,083 Harika. Sevinirim. 102 00:07:47,833 --> 00:07:49,541 Tamam, sağ ol. Sağ ol Mike. 103 00:07:52,083 --> 00:07:53,041 Pardon, bölüyorum. 104 00:07:53,125 --> 00:07:55,291 Hayır. Şeyi soruyordum… 105 00:07:57,208 --> 00:07:58,750 Ne istemiştiniz Bayan Greene? 106 00:08:00,125 --> 00:08:03,000 -Herhâlde önemli değildir. -Çoğu zaman değildir. 107 00:08:03,916 --> 00:08:05,833 Olabilir de, bilmiyorum. 108 00:08:07,625 --> 00:08:11,750 Ne olabilir, bilmiyorum. Resmî bir ihbar da değil 109 00:08:11,833 --> 00:08:14,666 çünkü 24 veya 48 saat geçmedi. 110 00:08:14,750 --> 00:08:17,708 Ne kadar bekleniyor, bilmiyorum. Bana güleceksiniz. 111 00:08:18,708 --> 00:08:21,583 Ama kayıp ihbarında bulunmalıyım. 112 00:08:25,666 --> 00:08:26,541 Kim? 113 00:08:27,208 --> 00:08:28,375 Riley Flynn. 114 00:08:30,083 --> 00:08:32,791 Dün gece evime gelecekti ama gelmedi. 115 00:08:33,583 --> 00:08:35,416 Ailesine sordum ama… 116 00:08:35,500 --> 00:08:37,666 Bu sabah ve gün içinde onu görmemişler. 117 00:08:38,250 --> 00:08:39,500 Eviniz… İkiniz… 118 00:08:39,583 --> 00:08:43,583 Hayır. Yani sayılmaz. Birlikte vakit geçiriyorduk ama… 119 00:08:45,166 --> 00:08:48,583 Feribota binmemiş, sordum. Ana karada değil yani. 120 00:08:48,666 --> 00:08:50,833 Telefonu da çalıp duruyor. 121 00:08:51,625 --> 00:08:52,666 Bir şey dedi mi? 122 00:08:52,750 --> 00:08:56,625 Şimdi dönüp bakınca garip gelen bir şey veya… 123 00:08:56,708 --> 00:08:59,833 Hayır. Evime geleceğini söylemişti. 124 00:09:00,666 --> 00:09:03,583 -Tabii ama belki… -Evime geleceğini söylemişti. 125 00:09:06,750 --> 00:09:07,625 Pekâlâ. 126 00:09:12,458 --> 00:09:14,291 Onu en son ne zaman gördünüz? 127 00:09:15,083 --> 00:09:17,125 Dün sabah uyandığımızda. 128 00:09:17,208 --> 00:09:20,083 Kilisedeki AA toplantısına gitmiş, Joe Collie'yle… 129 00:09:20,166 --> 00:09:22,041 Joe orada mıymış? Emin misiniz? 130 00:09:22,125 --> 00:09:25,708 Bilmiyorum. Öyle tahmin ediyorum çünkü toplantılara gidiyor. 131 00:09:25,791 --> 00:09:29,291 Sonra akşam yemeği için eve gitmiş. 132 00:09:29,375 --> 00:09:34,500 Ailesi öyle dedi. Sonra da benimle buluşacağını söylemişti ama gelmedi. 133 00:09:34,583 --> 00:09:37,250 Peki, dün sabah nelerden söz etmiştiniz? 134 00:09:37,333 --> 00:09:40,583 Günlük planlar, gece gördüğü bir rüya… 135 00:09:40,666 --> 00:09:42,666 Peki, önceki gece? 136 00:09:47,625 --> 00:09:50,708 Dinleyin. Size inanıyorum. 137 00:09:51,291 --> 00:09:53,208 Özel yaşamınızı sorgulamıyorum. 138 00:09:54,041 --> 00:09:57,041 Gittiği yeri anlamamızı sağlayacak bir şey demiştir belki. 139 00:09:57,125 --> 00:09:59,958 Küçük bir şey olabilir. Unuttuğun bir şey. 140 00:10:00,041 --> 00:10:01,666 Zihin durumu önemli 141 00:10:02,250 --> 00:10:05,333 çünkü harekete geçeceksem, ki geçeceğim… 142 00:10:06,791 --> 00:10:09,750 Bir ana kara otelinde kendini içkiye verdiyse 143 00:10:10,416 --> 00:10:14,583 bunu ima etmiş olabilir. Hepsi bu. Tamam mı? Bunu anlamaya çalışıyorum. 144 00:10:16,041 --> 00:10:16,916 Tamam mı? 145 00:10:19,125 --> 00:10:20,375 Ne hakkında konuştunuz? 146 00:10:22,916 --> 00:10:23,833 Ölüm. 147 00:10:24,708 --> 00:10:26,125 Ölünce neler olduğundan 148 00:10:27,291 --> 00:10:28,833 söz ettik. 149 00:10:31,083 --> 00:10:34,083 İşte bakın, bunu demek istiyorum. 150 00:10:35,833 --> 00:10:37,500 Evet, bu yüzden geldim. 151 00:10:37,583 --> 00:10:40,125 Tamam. Konuyu açan hanginizdiniz? 152 00:10:41,416 --> 00:10:43,791 Bütün gün kendime bunu sordum ama… 153 00:10:44,541 --> 00:10:48,250 Sanırım ikimizin de aklında vardı çünkü ben kaybettim… 154 00:10:52,166 --> 00:10:53,375 Düşük yaptım. 155 00:10:58,125 --> 00:10:59,125 Çok üzüldüm, ben… 156 00:11:03,583 --> 00:11:06,416 Konuyu onun açtığından eminim, 157 00:11:06,500 --> 00:11:08,875 ben de üstüne gittim. 158 00:11:10,041 --> 00:11:12,916 -Peki, ne dedi? -Nasıl yani? 159 00:11:13,833 --> 00:11:14,708 Ölüm hakkında. 160 00:11:15,208 --> 00:11:18,541 Korkuyor muydu? İlgisini mi çekiyordu? Ya da… 161 00:11:20,333 --> 00:11:21,416 İyi görünüyordu. 162 00:11:23,791 --> 00:11:28,708 Ama öyle derler ya. İyi olmayanlar… 163 00:11:31,375 --> 00:11:33,708 Kendilerini öldürenler hakkında öyle derler. 164 00:11:34,458 --> 00:11:36,416 İyi göründüklerini söylerler. 165 00:11:39,500 --> 00:11:41,166 Bazen öyle derler, evet. 166 00:12:06,125 --> 00:12:08,375 -Ne yapacağımı bilmiyorum. -Gelecek. 167 00:12:16,416 --> 00:12:18,125 -Gençler. -Peder. 168 00:12:18,208 --> 00:12:19,375 Daha iyi misiniz? 169 00:12:19,916 --> 00:12:23,916 Özel bir gece gençler. Dikkatinizi verin. 170 00:12:31,291 --> 00:12:33,166 Biliyor musun, duymuştum. 171 00:12:33,916 --> 00:12:37,166 Duymuştum. Ama insan görmeden inanmıyor, değil mi? 172 00:12:38,208 --> 00:12:41,708 Mildred Gunning, bu ne sürpriz! 173 00:12:43,250 --> 00:12:44,791 Beverly Keane. 174 00:12:47,916 --> 00:12:52,750 Tanrı seni bize geri gönderdi. Öyle seviniyorum ki. 175 00:12:52,833 --> 00:12:55,625 Bundan böyle bizimlesin. 176 00:12:57,458 --> 00:13:00,416 Çok sağ ol. Ben de burada olduğuma memnunum. 177 00:13:00,500 --> 00:13:03,166 Hem de yalnız değilsin. Sarah Gunning. 178 00:13:03,750 --> 00:13:07,416 Burada olmana ne kadar sevindim, anlatamam. 179 00:13:07,500 --> 00:13:11,166 Teşekkürler. Anne, içeri girelim de seni oturtalım. 180 00:13:11,250 --> 00:13:12,208 Tabii. 181 00:13:16,500 --> 00:13:18,500 "İkisi, İsa'nın cesedini alıp 182 00:13:18,583 --> 00:13:22,166 Yahudilerin gömme geleneğine uygun olarak 183 00:13:22,250 --> 00:13:24,458 onu baharatla keten bezlere sardılar. 184 00:13:24,541 --> 00:13:26,708 İsa'nın çarmıha gerildiği yerde 185 00:13:26,791 --> 00:13:28,750 bir bahçe, bu bahçenin içinde de 186 00:13:28,833 --> 00:13:31,541 henüz hiç kimsenin gömülmediği yeni bir mezar vardı. 187 00:13:31,625 --> 00:13:35,583 O gün Yahudilerin Hazırlık Günü'ydü. Mezar da yakın olduğundan 188 00:13:35,666 --> 00:13:37,666 İsa'yı oraya koydular." 189 00:13:38,375 --> 00:13:41,750 -Rabbin müjdesi. -Övgüler sana İsa Mesih. 190 00:13:51,375 --> 00:13:52,458 Kutsal Cuma. 191 00:13:53,375 --> 00:13:57,291 Yılın en sevdiğim günlerinden biridir. Rabbimizin tutkusu. 192 00:13:58,541 --> 00:14:00,583 Şu kelime, "tutku." 193 00:14:01,166 --> 00:14:06,791 "Tutku" kelimesi. Güçlü ve zor zapt edilen bir duygu demek. 194 00:14:06,875 --> 00:14:08,041 Zor zapt edilen. 195 00:14:08,125 --> 00:14:11,958 Ebedî hayata kavuşalım diye bizim için can verdiğinde 196 00:14:12,041 --> 00:14:14,916 İsa'nın hissettiği şey buydu. 197 00:14:15,625 --> 00:14:20,583 Ne lütuf ve Yuhanna İncili'nde ne güzel anlatılır. 198 00:14:21,208 --> 00:14:27,250 "İncil" müjde demektir! Kutsal Cuma'da gelen müjde. 199 00:14:27,958 --> 00:14:33,000 Bir yandan da derin bir ızdırap öyküsüdür. 200 00:14:33,708 --> 00:14:35,375 Bunda iyi olan ne? 201 00:14:35,458 --> 00:14:41,500 Bu öyküde İsa'nın acı çekmesi gerekli değildir. 202 00:14:41,583 --> 00:14:43,041 İyidir. 203 00:14:44,916 --> 00:14:47,375 Ebedî hayatın bedelidir. 204 00:14:47,875 --> 00:14:51,458 Bu acıyı tek başına çeker. 205 00:14:51,541 --> 00:14:56,458 Diriliş sırasında tek başınadır. Sonra da… Evet… 206 00:14:57,625 --> 00:15:00,791 Birkaç yandaşı vardır. Sonra birkaç tane daha olur. 207 00:15:01,541 --> 00:15:02,666 Bir cemaat. 208 00:15:03,250 --> 00:15:06,833 Derken daha çok sayıda insan o müjdeyi yaymaya başlar. 209 00:15:06,916 --> 00:15:11,666 Bu güzel öyküyü anlatır. Sonra Tanrı'nın bir ordusu olur. 210 00:15:13,041 --> 00:15:15,208 Şu reklamda ne diyorlar? 211 00:15:15,291 --> 00:15:17,666 "Kendini gerçekleştir." 212 00:15:17,750 --> 00:15:20,333 Silahlı kuvvetleri gücendirmek istemem, 213 00:15:20,416 --> 00:15:24,250 bu gerekli ve elbette ki şerefli bir şey 214 00:15:24,333 --> 00:15:27,208 ama kendini gerçekleştirmek sadece bu değil. 215 00:15:28,416 --> 00:15:31,166 Orduda, Tanrı ve ülke için savaşırsınız. 216 00:15:31,250 --> 00:15:35,083 Şimdi bana darılacaksınız ama gerçek bu. 217 00:15:35,166 --> 00:15:38,666 Tanrı, bu ülke için savaşmanızı istemez. 218 00:15:40,208 --> 00:15:43,041 Bu nasıl bir kibir. 219 00:15:44,750 --> 00:15:46,208 Tanrı'nın ülkesi yoktur. 220 00:15:47,666 --> 00:15:49,916 Dünyanın tek bir Tanrısı vardır. 221 00:15:50,791 --> 00:15:53,708 Çektiğimiz çizgilerin, yaptığımız anlaşmaların 222 00:15:53,791 --> 00:15:57,375 ve kapattığımız sınırların onun gözünde anlamı yoktur. 223 00:15:57,458 --> 00:16:01,458 Hayır, bir ülke için savaşmayın. Rabbin krallığı için savaşın. 224 00:16:02,125 --> 00:16:07,916 O krallık ki İsa bize bayrağı veya sınırı olmadığını söylüyor. 225 00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:14,500 Rabbin ordusu. Hataya düşmeyin. Bu bir savaş. Ordu da bunun içindir. 226 00:16:15,166 --> 00:16:21,125 Yani bir cemaat ve Rabbin ordusu olarak savaşın nasıl gittiğini nereden anlarız? 227 00:16:21,208 --> 00:16:24,833 Onu göremeyiz. Karargâhtan durum raporu alamayız. 228 00:16:24,916 --> 00:16:29,458 Elimizdeki tek şey, Rabbin bize verdiği tek şey işte buradadır. 229 00:16:30,166 --> 00:16:35,750 Nasıl hissettiğimiz. Her birimizin içinde bulunan 230 00:16:35,833 --> 00:16:38,833 ve Kutsal Ruh'a işaret eden o pusula. 231 00:16:38,916 --> 00:16:43,833 Vicdan. Rabbin ordusunda vicdan, beylik silah gibidir. 232 00:16:43,916 --> 00:16:47,666 Benzeri pek çoktur ama bu bana ait. 233 00:16:48,958 --> 00:16:52,083 Bunu bir savaş filmi repliği sanabilirsiniz ama değil. 234 00:16:52,166 --> 00:16:54,416 Aslında Piyadenin Amentüsü. 235 00:16:54,500 --> 00:16:57,166 Amentü, tanımı itibarıyla 236 00:16:57,250 --> 00:17:00,000 salt inanç değil, dinî bir inanç demektir. 237 00:17:00,083 --> 00:17:04,750 Yani bu bir savaştır ve kayıplar verilir. 238 00:17:06,375 --> 00:17:08,125 Biz de asker gibi olmalıyız. 239 00:17:09,250 --> 00:17:12,375 Kutsal Cuma bununla ilgilidir. 240 00:17:12,458 --> 00:17:17,208 Tanrı sizden korkunç şeyler ister. Korkunç. 241 00:17:17,291 --> 00:17:19,166 Kendi oğlundan istediği şeye bakın. 242 00:17:19,250 --> 00:17:21,958 İsa'nın bugün neler çektiğine bakın. 243 00:17:22,041 --> 00:17:24,208 "Yeni Ahit" dememiz gerekti 244 00:17:24,291 --> 00:17:28,250 çünkü Tanrı'nın iradesi kusursuz olsa da değişir. 245 00:17:28,333 --> 00:17:30,375 Tanrı'nın iradesi ahlakı belirler 246 00:17:30,458 --> 00:17:33,833 ve o irade değiştikçe ahlak da değişir. 247 00:17:33,916 --> 00:17:37,083 Yeni Ahit'le değişti. İsa geldiğinde değişti 248 00:17:37,166 --> 00:17:41,458 ve onun ordusu olarak bizler Eski Ahit'i bırakıp 249 00:17:42,708 --> 00:17:43,916 sadece bunu dinlemeliyiz. 250 00:17:44,500 --> 00:17:47,208 O pusulaya güvenin. 251 00:17:47,958 --> 00:17:51,125 Kutsal Cuma iyidir. 252 00:17:51,750 --> 00:17:57,541 Rabbin müjdesi, dehşetle dolu olmasına rağmen 253 00:17:57,625 --> 00:18:00,250 vardığı sonuç nedeniyle iyidir. 254 00:18:01,041 --> 00:18:02,166 Diriliş. 255 00:18:02,250 --> 00:18:08,416 Bugün, bu pazarki Paskalya nedeniyle iyidir. 256 00:18:08,500 --> 00:18:13,041 Zira o zaman İsa dirilmiş ve ölümün kendisi ölmüştür. 257 00:18:14,583 --> 00:18:18,583 Korkunç olabilecek şey, vardığı sonuç nedeniyle iyidir. 258 00:18:19,875 --> 00:18:22,041 Rabbin ordusuna hoş geldiniz. 259 00:18:23,166 --> 00:18:25,000 Evet, harika şeyler yapacağız. 260 00:18:36,041 --> 00:18:38,833 Anne. Anne, bekle. 261 00:18:39,416 --> 00:18:42,083 Ne oldu? Anne, dur. 262 00:18:44,125 --> 00:18:47,208 Bir daha asla oraya dönmeni istemiyorum. 263 00:18:47,291 --> 00:18:48,250 Ne? 264 00:18:48,333 --> 00:18:52,833 Orası benim kilisem değil. O benim tanıdığım adam değil. 265 00:19:17,625 --> 00:19:20,833 Neredeydin sen? Bütün gün seni aradım. 266 00:19:20,916 --> 00:19:23,791 -Özür dilerim. -Yapma bunu. Neredeydin? 267 00:19:24,625 --> 00:19:25,458 Neredeydin? 268 00:19:28,291 --> 00:19:30,708 Adadan ayrılmadan birkaç gün önce 269 00:19:31,750 --> 00:19:35,083 pencereme tırmanıp ödümü koparmıştın ya? 270 00:19:36,333 --> 00:19:37,833 Denize açılalım istedin. 271 00:19:37,916 --> 00:19:41,000 Israr edince bir sandal alıp iyice açılmıştık, 272 00:19:42,416 --> 00:19:46,166 bir paket sigara içip güneşin doğuşunu izlemiştik. 273 00:19:49,125 --> 00:19:50,708 Şimdi aynı şeyi yapalım mı? 274 00:19:52,583 --> 00:19:53,958 Denize açılalım mı? 275 00:20:56,625 --> 00:20:58,875 Güven konusunda iyiyimdir. 276 00:21:00,041 --> 00:21:01,875 Evliliğim düşünülürse komik tabii. 277 00:21:03,333 --> 00:21:05,333 O durumdan güvenimi kaybetmeden çıkmam 278 00:21:06,041 --> 00:21:08,208 benim için önemliydi. 279 00:21:09,291 --> 00:21:12,208 Sana soru sormadım çünkü sen de sormadın. 280 00:21:12,875 --> 00:21:14,500 Bir kere bile. Asla. 281 00:21:16,166 --> 00:21:17,708 Sana gelmeme izin verdin. 282 00:21:20,500 --> 00:21:21,958 Karşılık vermeye çalışıyorum. 283 00:21:23,666 --> 00:21:25,250 Ama işte buradayız. 284 00:21:27,833 --> 00:21:29,916 Ve sormam lazım. 285 00:21:33,083 --> 00:21:34,750 Mesele nedir Riley? 286 00:21:37,875 --> 00:21:39,791 İşte her şeyin başladığı yer. 287 00:21:40,875 --> 00:21:41,791 Yıldızlar. 288 00:21:42,916 --> 00:21:46,541 İlkel insanlar bütün gün avlanıp öteberi topluyorlardı 289 00:21:46,625 --> 00:21:47,875 ama geceleri 290 00:21:49,625 --> 00:21:55,416 ısınmak ve yırtıcılardan korunmak için kamp ateşinin etrafında oturuyorlardı. 291 00:21:56,375 --> 00:22:02,000 Vadilerin ötesine bakıp başka kamp ateşleri gördüler, 292 00:22:02,083 --> 00:22:07,250 peyzajda beliren küçük ışıklı noktalara bakınca 293 00:22:07,333 --> 00:22:11,000 orada, karanlıkta başka insanların da olduğunu anladılar. 294 00:22:12,375 --> 00:22:16,291 Sonra gökyüzündeki ışıklı noktalara baktılar. 295 00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:18,458 Bilmiyorlardı. 296 00:22:18,541 --> 00:22:21,875 Uzaydan, yıldızlardan, ışık dalgalarından haberleri yoktu. 297 00:22:21,958 --> 00:22:25,625 Onları kamp ateşlerine benzettiler. 298 00:22:27,041 --> 00:22:29,250 "Orada kamp ateşlerini yakmış 299 00:22:31,083 --> 00:22:33,250 insanlar mı var?" diye merak ettiler. 300 00:22:34,083 --> 00:22:36,208 Birbirlerine hikâyeler anlattılar. 301 00:22:36,833 --> 00:22:37,916 "O insanlar mı? 302 00:22:39,833 --> 00:22:41,583 Müthiş birileri olmalı. 303 00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:44,541 O kamp ateşleri 304 00:22:44,625 --> 00:22:47,875 tahmin edemeyeceğimiz kadar güçlü insanlara ait olmalı…" 305 00:22:50,333 --> 00:22:51,250 Hepsi. 306 00:22:52,916 --> 00:22:53,916 Her tanrı. 307 00:22:55,833 --> 00:22:59,916 Her tanrıça, her din, her kutsal savaş. Hepsi. 308 00:23:02,375 --> 00:23:03,750 Orada başladı. 309 00:23:05,458 --> 00:23:08,583 Gökteki kamp ateşlerini kim yakmış diye merak etmekle. 310 00:23:12,916 --> 00:23:15,416 Sana bir hikâye anlatacağım ama inanmayacaksın. 311 00:23:16,541 --> 00:23:19,333 Sadece dinle. Buna söz verir misin? 312 00:23:21,166 --> 00:23:22,416 Evet. Veririm. 313 00:23:24,666 --> 00:23:28,291 Tamam. 314 00:23:51,083 --> 00:23:54,375 Hey. İyisin. 315 00:23:54,458 --> 00:23:59,791 Konuşmaya çalışma, sakin ol. Nefesine odaklan, tamam mı? 316 00:24:02,791 --> 00:24:06,375 Harika gidiyorsun. Hayır. Tamam. Hey. İyisin. 317 00:24:06,458 --> 00:24:12,083 Bir ablam vardı. Hiç söylemiş miydim? Adı Alice'ti. 318 00:24:12,166 --> 00:24:16,750 Benden büyük olsa da ufak tefekti. 319 00:24:16,833 --> 00:24:21,208 Öldüğünde sekiz yaşındaydım. Çocuk felcinden öldü. 320 00:24:21,291 --> 00:24:23,958 Bunu izlemek korkunçtu. 321 00:24:25,208 --> 00:24:26,958 Korkmuştum da Riley. 322 00:24:27,041 --> 00:24:28,541 Ölümden korkmuştum. 323 00:24:28,625 --> 00:24:30,916 Beni Tanrı'ya götüren de bu oldu. 324 00:24:31,583 --> 00:24:35,166 Ölümün, bilhassa da onun ölümünün 325 00:24:36,125 --> 00:24:39,458 nasıl Tanrı'nın planı olabileceğini anlamaya çalışıyordum. 326 00:24:39,541 --> 00:24:43,250 O soru beni rahipliğe kadar götürdü… 327 00:24:46,125 --> 00:24:48,541 Hey. İyisin. 328 00:24:49,666 --> 00:24:52,375 Bak, Tanrı'nın hâlâ bir planı var 329 00:24:52,458 --> 00:24:55,666 ve ölüm, artık o planın parçası değil. 330 00:24:55,750 --> 00:24:57,083 Bazılarımız için değil. 331 00:24:58,541 --> 00:25:01,833 Artık korkmamıza gerek yok. 332 00:25:28,291 --> 00:25:29,500 Nasılsın? 333 00:25:31,166 --> 00:25:32,458 Daha iyi görünüyorsun. 334 00:25:34,291 --> 00:25:35,875 Gel, otur lütfen. 335 00:25:40,458 --> 00:25:42,666 Hayır, ben olsam yapmam. 336 00:25:51,791 --> 00:25:52,666 Ben… 337 00:25:53,875 --> 00:25:57,541 Tam olarak açıklayamam ama deneyebilirim. 338 00:25:57,625 --> 00:26:00,541 Önemli olan şu anda dışarı çıkmamak. 339 00:26:02,250 --> 00:26:04,583 Pardon, daha önce uyarmalıydım. Şey… 340 00:26:05,875 --> 00:26:08,166 Tekrarlanacak hata değil, değil mi? 341 00:26:10,041 --> 00:26:14,208 Merak etme, boynunun tamamen iyileşmesi altı saatten az sürdü. 342 00:26:14,291 --> 00:26:17,375 Yanıklar sorun olmaz. Hadi, otur. 343 00:26:18,541 --> 00:26:22,250 Söz veriyorum, her şeyi elimden geldiğince açıklayacağım 344 00:26:22,333 --> 00:26:24,416 ve kendini daha iyi hissedeceksin. 345 00:26:25,500 --> 00:26:29,458 Otur. Hiç değilse derinin iyileşmesine fırsat ver. 346 00:26:29,541 --> 00:26:30,833 Toplantı mı yapıyoruz? 347 00:26:31,541 --> 00:26:32,916 Asıl toplantıyı yapıyoruz. 348 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:38,625 İnan ki sorun yok. Uzun bir geceydi, uzun bir yolculuk yaptın. 349 00:26:39,416 --> 00:26:40,333 Otur. 350 00:26:42,083 --> 00:26:43,500 Buna memnun olacaksın. 351 00:26:50,291 --> 00:26:52,916 -Huzur duasıyla başlayalım. -Şaka mı bu? 352 00:26:53,541 --> 00:26:55,708 Kesinlikle hayır. Ciddiyim. 353 00:26:55,791 --> 00:26:59,291 Bugün sana karşı tamamen dürüst olacağım 354 00:26:59,375 --> 00:27:04,958 ve bu dua bugün ikimiz için de çok uygun. 355 00:27:07,000 --> 00:27:10,666 Tanrım, bana değiştiremeyeceğim şeyleri kabullenmek için dinginlik, 356 00:27:10,750 --> 00:27:12,916 değiştirebileceklerimi değiştirecek cesaret 357 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,291 ve aradaki farkı anlayabilmem için bilgelik ver. Âmin. 358 00:27:17,375 --> 00:27:19,875 Sıradan gidelim. Değiştiremeyeceğimiz şeyler. 359 00:27:20,916 --> 00:27:24,125 Ben gençken 360 00:27:24,208 --> 00:27:28,666 küçük bir cemaatin küçük kilisesinde vaizdim. 361 00:27:28,750 --> 00:27:30,666 Bir gün rahip yardımcısı… 362 00:27:30,750 --> 00:27:34,916 Yeni rahip yardımcısı olmuştu. Dokuz on yaşlarında zeki bir çocuktu. 363 00:27:35,458 --> 00:27:36,875 Paskalya zamanıydı, 364 00:27:36,958 --> 00:27:40,375 birkaç hafta Diriliş'ten söz etmiştim. Neyse. 365 00:27:40,458 --> 00:27:43,208 Bir gün o çocuk bana bir ayakkabı kutusu getirdi. 366 00:27:44,333 --> 00:27:47,958 Kutunun içinde kapana kısılmış bir fare vardı. 367 00:27:48,041 --> 00:27:52,000 Kötü durumdaydı, kuyruğu kopmuştu, bacağı kopmak üzereydi. 368 00:27:52,083 --> 00:27:56,250 Acı çekiyordu. Çocuk bana kutuyu verip 369 00:27:56,333 --> 00:27:58,250 şunu sordu, 370 00:27:59,083 --> 00:28:01,833 "Tanrı, İsa'yı dirilttiği gibi onu da diriltir mi? 371 00:28:02,750 --> 00:28:05,333 Onu yapabildiyse bunu da yapabilir." 372 00:28:05,416 --> 00:28:09,291 Kutuyu aldım, dua ettik 373 00:28:09,833 --> 00:28:13,458 ve çocuğu eve gönderip üç gün sonra gelmesini söyledim. 374 00:28:13,541 --> 00:28:16,291 Üç gün geçti, çocuk geri geldi ve… 375 00:28:16,375 --> 00:28:17,958 Ve fare daha iyiydi. 376 00:28:18,041 --> 00:28:20,875 Evet. Küçük kutunun içinde sapasağlam koşturuyordu. 377 00:28:20,958 --> 00:28:25,666 Ayinden önce kilisenin arkasında çocuğun fareyi salıvermesine yardım ettim. 378 00:28:25,750 --> 00:28:26,750 Çok etkilenmişti. 379 00:28:27,583 --> 00:28:29,791 İnancı pekişti. İnanıyordu. 380 00:28:30,666 --> 00:28:34,541 Bu hâli ne kadar sürdü? 381 00:28:35,916 --> 00:28:37,875 On yıl mı? 382 00:28:37,958 --> 00:28:40,208 Küçük fare sayesinde on yıla yetecek inanç. 383 00:28:40,291 --> 00:28:41,875 Tanrı'nın müdahalesi değildi. 384 00:28:42,625 --> 00:28:43,708 Değil miydi? 385 00:28:44,291 --> 00:28:46,000 Farenin acısına ben son verdim 386 00:28:46,083 --> 00:28:48,375 ve ona benzeyen bir fare bulmam 387 00:28:48,458 --> 00:28:50,250 üç gün sürdü, doğru 388 00:28:50,333 --> 00:28:54,041 ama çocuğa olan şey Tanrı'nın müdahalesi değil miydi sence? 389 00:28:54,125 --> 00:28:57,416 Bazen bizim vasıtamızla müdahale etmiyor mu? 390 00:28:57,500 --> 00:28:58,875 Bu olayı nereden biliyorsun? 391 00:29:01,041 --> 00:29:01,958 Kimsin sen? 392 00:29:04,125 --> 00:29:05,375 Kim olduğumu biliyorsun. 393 00:29:07,500 --> 00:29:08,791 Hadi ama. 394 00:29:09,916 --> 00:29:10,958 İyice bak. 395 00:29:12,375 --> 00:29:14,708 Kim olduğumu kendine sor. 396 00:29:16,375 --> 00:29:18,541 Ellerimdeki izleri görmen mi lazım? 397 00:29:18,625 --> 00:29:21,333 -Ellerini yan… -Bu imkânsız. 398 00:29:21,416 --> 00:29:23,083 Hadi, artık bunları geçtik. 399 00:29:23,166 --> 00:29:25,666 "Sonra Tomas'a, 'Parmağını uzat' dedi, 400 00:29:25,750 --> 00:29:28,166 'Ellerime bak, elini uzat, yan tarafıma koy.'" 401 00:29:28,250 --> 00:29:31,708 -Artık bunu geçtik. Geçtin. -Peki, o zaman. 402 00:29:33,958 --> 00:29:34,833 Nasıl? 403 00:29:35,833 --> 00:29:39,416 Aslında sana olduğu gibi. 404 00:29:39,500 --> 00:29:43,416 Sen de geri döndürüldün, kendi en iyi hâline. 405 00:29:44,375 --> 00:29:47,583 Kendi zirvene, Tanrı'nın istediği mükemmel hâline. 406 00:29:47,666 --> 00:29:50,333 Benim senden çok daha geriye gitmem gerekti. 407 00:29:50,416 --> 00:29:52,166 Çok daha geriye. 408 00:29:52,750 --> 00:29:54,375 Neden buraya döndün? 409 00:29:56,041 --> 00:29:57,000 Dün gece. 410 00:29:58,125 --> 00:30:00,750 Bugün bunu düşünüp durdum. 411 00:30:00,833 --> 00:30:03,083 Seni doğduğundan beri tanırım, 412 00:30:03,166 --> 00:30:06,541 bir kere bile gece gelmedin. 413 00:30:06,625 --> 00:30:10,000 Sonra dün gece tam o sırada, neden? 414 00:30:10,916 --> 00:30:13,708 Bir çağrı mı hissettin? İlahi bir çağrı? 415 00:30:16,083 --> 00:30:17,708 Joe Collie'nin kız kardeşi. 416 00:30:22,375 --> 00:30:25,791 O konuda yalan söyledim. Özür dilerim. 417 00:30:27,125 --> 00:30:30,125 Ve o yalan için beni bağışlamanı dilerim. 418 00:30:32,625 --> 00:30:33,958 Bu yüzden geri geldin. 419 00:30:37,416 --> 00:30:40,958 Tam bir dürüstlük. Bugün sana söz verdim. 420 00:30:41,041 --> 00:30:44,916 Pekâlâ, Joe acı çekiyordu, hem de sebepsiz yere. 421 00:30:45,541 --> 00:30:49,833 Kazadan ve toplumun ona muamelesinden sonra iflah olmazdı… 422 00:30:49,916 --> 00:30:50,750 Kim demiş? 423 00:30:50,833 --> 00:30:54,375 Tanrı'nın işine akıl sır ermez demek klişe olacak ama öyle. 424 00:30:54,458 --> 00:30:58,291 Buna şahitlik edebilirim, benim vasıtamla iş gördü. 425 00:30:58,375 --> 00:31:00,666 Joe Collie yuvaya çağrıldı. 426 00:31:00,750 --> 00:31:02,583 -Onu öldürdün. -O kadar basit değil. 427 00:31:02,666 --> 00:31:05,500 Hayır. Onu öldürdün. Sen ve o şey. 428 00:31:05,583 --> 00:31:08,291 Bu değiştirilemez. Olan oldu, geri dönüşü yok, 429 00:31:08,375 --> 00:31:10,583 sana olanın da geri dönüşü yok. 430 00:31:11,166 --> 00:31:13,375 Bu iki şey değiştirilemez 431 00:31:13,458 --> 00:31:16,791 ve şimdi onları dinginlik içinde kabullenmeliyiz. 432 00:31:16,875 --> 00:31:18,500 -Bana ne oldu? -Riley… 433 00:31:18,583 --> 00:31:20,375 -O şey neydi? -Sakin ol. 434 00:31:20,458 --> 00:31:23,666 -Neydi o kahrolası şey? -Bir melek. 435 00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:29,166 -Güzel. Kalkmış. -Biraz perişan. 436 00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:32,750 Siz de pek şen şakrak değildiniz Monsenyör. 437 00:31:32,833 --> 00:31:34,000 İlk başta. 438 00:31:34,625 --> 00:31:37,250 Her şey plana göre gidiyor mu diye baktım. 439 00:31:37,333 --> 00:31:38,875 Sturge'ün temizlemesini… 440 00:31:38,958 --> 00:31:41,583 Daha değil. Henüz işimiz bitmedi. Ama… 441 00:31:43,625 --> 00:31:46,791 İyi ki geldin Beverly. Tam gerektiği anda, ayağına sağlık. 442 00:31:47,916 --> 00:31:51,291 Gel buraya. Lütfen burada dur. Dur… 443 00:31:51,375 --> 00:31:52,666 Burada dur. 444 00:31:53,291 --> 00:31:55,208 -Emin misiniz? -Evet. 445 00:31:56,791 --> 00:31:57,958 İyice yaklaş. 446 00:31:59,083 --> 00:32:02,083 -Sizce iyi bir fikir mi? -Evet. Onu durdururum. 447 00:32:02,166 --> 00:32:04,333 -Durdurmak mı? -Peki madem. 448 00:32:05,375 --> 00:32:08,125 -Neden durduracaksın? -Evet. Tamam. 449 00:32:08,208 --> 00:32:10,500 Bak, sadece… Bırak. Eve gitmek istiyorum. 450 00:32:10,583 --> 00:32:13,875 Sadece eve gitmek istiyorum. 451 00:32:16,208 --> 00:32:17,583 İşte bu. 452 00:32:18,333 --> 00:32:19,583 Hissediyorsun, değil mi? 453 00:32:20,500 --> 00:32:23,541 İşte. Pekâlâ, biraz daha yaklaş. 454 00:32:25,958 --> 00:32:26,875 Evet. 455 00:32:28,875 --> 00:32:32,375 Evet. Birazcık daha. Merak etme. 456 00:32:32,916 --> 00:32:34,916 -Ne… -Tamam. Onu tutuyorum. 457 00:32:36,875 --> 00:32:37,750 Tamam. 458 00:32:42,333 --> 00:32:43,250 Hissediyor musun? 459 00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:46,916 Evet. 460 00:32:54,083 --> 00:32:57,750 Sorun yok. Cennetteki babamız, bize değiştiremeyeceğimiz şeyleri 461 00:32:57,833 --> 00:33:00,750 kabullenmemiz için dinginlik ver. 462 00:33:00,833 --> 00:33:02,541 -Sağ ol Beverly. -Ne demek. 463 00:33:03,333 --> 00:33:05,791 Riley, seni ayakta gördüğüme sevindim. 464 00:33:05,875 --> 00:33:06,708 Tamam. Evet. 465 00:33:06,791 --> 00:33:09,250 Sturge ve ben rahip evinde bekliyoruz. 466 00:33:09,333 --> 00:33:11,375 İşimiz bitince perdeyi açarım. 467 00:33:15,541 --> 00:33:16,500 Hey. 468 00:33:18,083 --> 00:33:19,708 Güçlü, değil mi? 469 00:33:23,791 --> 00:33:25,041 Canın yanıyor, üzgünüm. 470 00:33:26,791 --> 00:33:27,666 Gerçekten. 471 00:33:28,791 --> 00:33:31,833 Ama geçecek. 472 00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:33,875 Geçecek. 473 00:33:37,041 --> 00:33:40,583 Bev sana yaklaştığında ne hissettin? 474 00:33:43,458 --> 00:33:45,666 Cevabı biliyorum, numara yapmana gerek yok. 475 00:33:48,625 --> 00:33:51,875 Açlık hissettin. Canını yakacak kadar. 476 00:33:53,708 --> 00:33:55,250 Bir şeyler de gördün. 477 00:33:55,333 --> 00:34:00,916 Onu yakına çektiğini gördün. Her şey kıpkızıl oldu, değil mi? 478 00:34:01,958 --> 00:34:04,041 İçinde bir şey değişmeye başladı. 479 00:34:05,083 --> 00:34:07,625 Uykuya dalıyormuşsun gibi, değil mi? 480 00:34:08,875 --> 00:34:11,833 Ona hamle ettiğinde kendinin farkındaydın. 481 00:34:11,916 --> 00:34:13,041 Ne oldu bilmiyorum. 482 00:34:13,125 --> 00:34:18,291 Ben biliyorum. Kendinin farkındaydın ama istemsizdi, değil mi? 483 00:34:19,166 --> 00:34:22,541 Sanki bedenin başkasının iradesiyle hareket ediyordu. Öyleydi. 484 00:34:22,625 --> 00:34:26,083 Yine olacak, mesele de bu. Dinlememiz gereken yer burası. 485 00:34:26,166 --> 00:34:29,375 Kutsal Ruh'u, vicdanımızı dinlemeliyiz. 486 00:34:29,958 --> 00:34:32,875 Çünkü ben de bunları yaşadım. 487 00:34:34,541 --> 00:34:36,958 Yenilendim. 488 00:34:37,041 --> 00:34:40,791 Yeniden gençleştirildim. Yeniden saflaştırıldım. 489 00:34:40,875 --> 00:34:44,041 Sonra da benden önceki İsa gibi, öldüm. 490 00:34:45,541 --> 00:34:50,833 Yerde öldüm kaldım, yolun karşısında. 491 00:34:51,666 --> 00:34:55,666 Sonra dirildim ama korkuyordum ve kafam karışmıştı. 492 00:34:55,750 --> 00:35:00,958 İçimde bir itki, güçlü bir irade vardı. 493 00:35:01,041 --> 00:35:04,250 Tıpkı senin gibi hissettim. 494 00:35:04,333 --> 00:35:07,750 Benim iradem onun iradesi oldu, içimde hareket eden oydu. 495 00:35:07,833 --> 00:35:12,416 Joe öldü, ben kaldım. Beslendim. 496 00:35:12,500 --> 00:35:15,708 -Katil. -Sanırım öyle ama mesele şu. 497 00:35:15,791 --> 00:35:18,500 Suçluluk duymadım. Hiç. 498 00:35:19,125 --> 00:35:24,625 Suçluluk duymam gerektiğini bilip de duymadığımı kabul etmeye, 499 00:35:24,708 --> 00:35:29,541 suçluluğun olması gereken yerde lütuf bulmaya karşı koydum. 500 00:35:29,625 --> 00:35:34,291 Dua ettim. Ama sonra Bev Keane bana bunu gösterdi. 501 00:35:34,375 --> 00:35:36,833 İbraniler 9:14. 502 00:35:36,916 --> 00:35:39,958 "Öyleyse sonsuz Ruh aracılığıyla 503 00:35:40,041 --> 00:35:43,666 kendini lekesiz olarak Tanrı'ya sunmuş olan Mesih'in kanının, 504 00:35:43,750 --> 00:35:47,500 diri Tanrı'ya kulluk edebilmemiz için vicdanımızı 505 00:35:47,583 --> 00:35:50,708 ölü işlerden temizleyeceği ne kadar daha kesindir!" 506 00:35:50,791 --> 00:35:54,250 "Diri Tanrı'ya kulluk edebilmemiz için vicdanımızı temizleyeceği." 507 00:35:54,333 --> 00:35:59,250 Bu pasajı okudum ve Kutsal Ruh'un lütfu üzerime yağdı. 508 00:35:59,875 --> 00:36:01,458 Suçluluk duygusunu aldı. 509 00:36:01,541 --> 00:36:05,541 Vicdanımı temizledi çünkü onun iradesini gerçekleştirmiştim. 510 00:36:05,625 --> 00:36:10,083 Onun aracı olmuştum. Bir katil olabilirim. Musa da öyle. 511 00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:13,500 Yusuf. Adaşım Pavlus. 512 00:36:13,583 --> 00:36:15,708 Tanrı'nın askeri olarak tek değilim. 513 00:36:15,791 --> 00:36:21,416 Bu odada da tek değilim. Değil mi? Yani sen de birini öldürdün. 514 00:36:26,958 --> 00:36:28,250 Hatırlamıyorum. 515 00:36:29,166 --> 00:36:31,000 Sarhoştun ve hatırlamıyorsun. 516 00:36:31,750 --> 00:36:35,791 Sarhoştum. Partideydim. Bir partiydi ve çok içmiştim. 517 00:36:35,875 --> 00:36:38,500 -Hadi ama. Yapma bunu. -Olan bu. 518 00:36:38,583 --> 00:36:40,708 Burada bir anlam var. 519 00:36:40,791 --> 00:36:43,875 Burada amaç var ve sen kasten görmezden geliyorsun. 520 00:36:43,958 --> 00:36:47,166 Olanlar çok sıradandı. 521 00:36:50,583 --> 00:36:53,875 Yolun bana ait kısmında fren izi bile yoktu. 522 00:36:53,958 --> 00:36:55,333 Frene basmamışım. 523 00:36:59,208 --> 00:37:01,041 Frene dokunmamışım bile. 524 00:37:01,125 --> 00:37:05,416 Resmen direksiyonda uyumuşum. Olan bu. 525 00:37:07,708 --> 00:37:12,000 Bana içinde hareket eden Tanrı'dan veya onun iradesinden söz etme. 526 00:37:12,083 --> 00:37:15,583 Hakkımda bir halt bilmiyorsun. Hikâyelerimiz de aynı değil. 527 00:37:15,666 --> 00:37:17,458 -Bu suçluluk. Pişmanlık… -Evet. 528 00:37:17,541 --> 00:37:19,000 -Hep hissediyor musun? -Evet. 529 00:37:19,083 --> 00:37:20,958 -İstemeden yapmış olsan da mı? -Evet. 530 00:37:21,041 --> 00:37:26,250 Joe'yu öldürdüm. Ellerimle bunu yaparken kendimi izledim ve pişman değilim. 531 00:37:26,333 --> 00:37:30,875 Hayır. Pişmanlık yok. Bundan kurtarıldım. 532 00:37:30,958 --> 00:37:32,916 -Bu sana ne hissettiriyor? -Tiksinti. 533 00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:34,791 -Sana ne hissettiriyor? -Öfke. 534 00:37:34,875 --> 00:37:37,041 -Hayır. Ne hissettiriyor? -Öfke işte. 535 00:37:37,125 --> 00:37:38,125 Hayır! 536 00:37:39,500 --> 00:37:42,458 Dürüst olacağıma söz verdim, öyle de yapıyorum 537 00:37:42,541 --> 00:37:45,666 ve bana yalan söylemenden bıktım Riley Flynn! 538 00:37:45,750 --> 00:37:49,291 Pek çok kez affettim ama bugün bizim için çok önemli 539 00:37:49,375 --> 00:37:54,166 ve artık sabrım kalmadı! Dürüst ol! Sana ne hissettiriyor? 540 00:38:00,583 --> 00:38:01,583 Kıskançlık. 541 00:38:03,250 --> 00:38:04,958 Tanrımız ve göklerdeki babamız, 542 00:38:05,041 --> 00:38:08,041 bize değiştiremeyeceklerimizi kabul etmemiz için dinginlik 543 00:38:08,125 --> 00:38:11,875 ve değiştirebileceklerimizi değiştirmemiz için cesaret ver. 544 00:38:11,958 --> 00:38:16,583 Cesaret Riley Flynn. Cesaret. Onu bulalım şimdi. Cesaret. 545 00:38:17,750 --> 00:38:19,750 Değiştirebileceklerimizi değiştirmek için. 546 00:38:20,666 --> 00:38:24,875 Tanrı seni geri döndürdü. Tamam mı? Bir sebeple. 547 00:38:25,666 --> 00:38:27,625 Kaza, yeryüzündeki o cehennem anı. 548 00:38:27,708 --> 00:38:30,458 Kimseye hayrı yoktu dedin ama vardı, değil mi? 549 00:38:30,541 --> 00:38:32,458 Çünkü seni bu adaya getirdi, 550 00:38:32,541 --> 00:38:36,333 dünyamızın tarihinin en önemli dönemlerinden birinde. 551 00:38:37,208 --> 00:38:40,208 Biraz cesur ol. Tanrı seni seçti. 552 00:38:42,375 --> 00:38:45,208 Tutunduğun suçluluk duygusunu bırakabilirsin. 553 00:38:46,833 --> 00:38:52,791 Tanrı seni değiştirdi bile. Şimdi sana düşen, cesur olmak. 554 00:38:53,500 --> 00:38:56,333 Biraz cesur olalım. Tamam mı? 555 00:38:58,458 --> 00:38:59,500 Cesaret. 556 00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:09,000 Bu arada, dün gece korktuğun için 557 00:39:10,000 --> 00:39:10,875 özür dilerim. 558 00:39:10,958 --> 00:39:13,833 Başıma geldiğinde ben de korkmuştum. 559 00:39:13,916 --> 00:39:15,541 İncil'e göre 560 00:39:15,625 --> 00:39:20,333 bir melekle karşılaşan hemen herkes korkuyor. 561 00:39:21,208 --> 00:39:26,000 Meryem, Cebrail'den korktu, oysa ona bir müjde getirmişti. 562 00:39:28,541 --> 00:39:31,416 Meleklerin şöyle demesi gerekiyor, "Korkma, ürkme" 563 00:39:31,500 --> 00:39:34,833 çünkü tekrar tekrar aynı şey oluyor, 564 00:39:35,500 --> 00:39:37,666 insanlar dehşete kapılıyor. 565 00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:41,791 Öyle değil mi? Musa yanan çalıyı görünce korktu. 566 00:39:41,875 --> 00:39:44,916 İsa kendi kaderinden korktu. 567 00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:48,083 Getsemani'de diz çöküp dua etti. 568 00:39:48,166 --> 00:39:50,250 Esirgenmek için dua etti. 569 00:39:51,083 --> 00:39:54,750 Mezarın başındakiler kayayı çekince 570 00:39:55,625 --> 00:39:56,666 hepsi korktu. 571 00:39:56,750 --> 00:40:01,000 Hepsi. Mucizeler. Tanrı'nın gerçek gücü. 572 00:40:02,416 --> 00:40:03,500 Ürkütücü. 573 00:40:04,500 --> 00:40:07,291 Ama yine de korktuğun için üzgünüm. 574 00:40:08,041 --> 00:40:09,083 Beslendin mi? 575 00:40:11,041 --> 00:40:14,416 O melek, boynumu parçalarken 576 00:40:14,500 --> 00:40:16,708 kanım yere akıyordu. 577 00:40:16,791 --> 00:40:19,875 Sen de katıldın mı ona? 578 00:40:22,500 --> 00:40:24,125 Tam dürüstlük, demiştin. 579 00:40:24,208 --> 00:40:25,083 Evet. 580 00:40:30,708 --> 00:40:34,583 Burada işler nasıl gidiyor? Tahmin edebiliyorum. 581 00:40:35,458 --> 00:40:39,958 Aslında pek doğru değil. Hepsini tahmin etmeme gerek yok. 582 00:40:40,833 --> 00:40:41,666 Gördüm. 583 00:40:41,750 --> 00:40:43,916 Şunu söyleyeyim, Monsenyör korktu. 584 00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:50,375 Hepimiz sınandık ama bir sebeple Tanrı seni seçti Riley Flynn. 585 00:40:52,083 --> 00:40:55,833 Seni kutsadı ve onun iradesini sorgulamayacağız. 586 00:40:55,916 --> 00:40:57,750 Şu anda önemli olan tek şey bu. 587 00:40:57,833 --> 00:41:03,041 Sınanıyorsun, tıpkı onun gibi, hepimiz gibi. 588 00:41:04,166 --> 00:41:05,458 Senin için buradayız. 589 00:41:06,333 --> 00:41:09,750 Senin için buradayız, tıpkı bedenin bir olması, 590 00:41:09,833 --> 00:41:13,083 her beden parçasının içinde pek çok parça olması 591 00:41:13,166 --> 00:41:15,958 ve çokluğun bir olması gibi. İsa için de böyle. 592 00:41:16,666 --> 00:41:21,708 Seni kutsamak için buradayız. Korumak için. Tanrı'nın isteği böyle. 593 00:41:21,791 --> 00:41:23,916 -Tanrı'nın isteği mi? -Evet. 594 00:41:25,875 --> 00:41:30,083 Evet. Alay etme Riley. 595 00:41:30,750 --> 00:41:33,541 Tanrı'nın isteğiyle alay etme. 596 00:41:34,208 --> 00:41:36,166 Kendi sözlerinden biliyoruz, ha Sturge? 597 00:41:38,375 --> 00:41:43,125 "Etimi kim yer ve kanımı kim içerse sonsuz yaşama kavuşur." 598 00:41:46,125 --> 00:41:51,166 -Ve? -Ve "Ben…" 599 00:41:52,958 --> 00:41:55,083 "Ben onu son günde dirilteceğim. 600 00:41:55,166 --> 00:41:58,625 Çünkü bedenim gerçek yiyecek, kanım gerçek içecektir. 601 00:41:58,708 --> 00:42:01,625 Bedenimi yiyip kanımı içen 602 00:42:01,708 --> 00:42:04,416 bende yaşar, ben de onda." Yuhanna İncili. 603 00:42:04,500 --> 00:42:07,250 Çok kesin, değil mi? 604 00:42:08,083 --> 00:42:10,625 Sözünü sakınmıyor, değil mi? 605 00:42:10,708 --> 00:42:11,583 Ya bu? 606 00:42:12,666 --> 00:42:13,833 Bu da İncil'den mi? 607 00:42:14,708 --> 00:42:15,750 Hayır canım. 608 00:42:16,750 --> 00:42:18,000 O Vahiy'den. 609 00:42:18,625 --> 00:42:21,333 "Dördüncü Melek tasını güneşe boşalttı. 610 00:42:21,416 --> 00:42:24,083 Bununla güneşe insanları yakma gücü verildi." 611 00:42:24,166 --> 00:42:25,541 16. Bölüm, 8. Ayet. 612 00:42:25,625 --> 00:42:29,166 İsa'nın bize geri gelmesindeki mesele de bu. 613 00:42:29,250 --> 00:42:32,083 Hoş olmayacağı başından beri söylenmişti. 614 00:42:33,333 --> 00:42:35,000 Monsenyör Pruitt sarsıldı. 615 00:42:35,916 --> 00:42:36,916 O bile. 616 00:42:37,708 --> 00:42:38,833 Ama bu… 617 00:42:40,041 --> 00:42:42,791 Bunların hepsi kitapta var Riley. 618 00:42:42,875 --> 00:42:45,916 Tanrı'nın öfkesinin yedi tası İkinci Geliş'te boşaltılıyor. 619 00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:47,083 Günlerin sonu. 620 00:42:47,166 --> 00:42:50,458 Dördüncü tas güneşe. Beşinci tas, madem soruyorsun, 621 00:42:50,541 --> 00:42:54,125 Tanrı'nın öfkesinin beşinci tası dünyayı karanlığa gark ediyor, 622 00:42:54,208 --> 00:42:58,583 bu senin için mesele değil. Monsenyör için de. Öyle değil mi? 623 00:42:59,541 --> 00:43:04,375 Sanki seni buna hazırlamış gibi. 624 00:43:05,625 --> 00:43:11,291 Sen kutsanmış olduğun hâlde "Tanrı'nın isteği" dediğimde sırıtıyorsun. 625 00:43:15,458 --> 00:43:16,583 Hüsran içindeyim. 626 00:43:17,666 --> 00:43:18,625 Biliyorum. 627 00:43:18,708 --> 00:43:23,333 Ona ne verildiğinin farkında bile değil ve bu, gücüme gidiyor. 628 00:43:23,416 --> 00:43:24,625 Önemi yok Bev. 629 00:43:26,125 --> 00:43:27,250 Biliyorum. 630 00:43:28,958 --> 00:43:29,958 Biliyorum, tamam. 631 00:43:32,125 --> 00:43:34,250 "Yemek sona erdiğinde kadehi aldı. 632 00:43:34,333 --> 00:43:37,208 Tekrardan teşekkür etti ve övgüler düzdü. 633 00:43:37,291 --> 00:43:39,708 Kadehi havarilerine verdi ve şöyle dedi, 634 00:43:40,583 --> 00:43:43,208 'Bunu alın ve hepiniz bundan için. 635 00:43:43,291 --> 00:43:46,833 Bu kadehte kanım var. Yeni ve sonsuz anlaşmanın kanı. 636 00:43:46,916 --> 00:43:51,500 Siz ve herkes için, günahlarınızın affedilmesi için akıtıldı. 637 00:43:51,583 --> 00:43:54,666 Bunu beni hatırlamak için yapın.'" 638 00:43:54,750 --> 00:43:55,625 Âmin. 639 00:44:00,166 --> 00:44:02,583 -Hayır. -Kalın kafalılık etme. 640 00:44:02,666 --> 00:44:05,083 "Tanrının kadehinden uygunsuz şekilde kim içerse 641 00:44:05,166 --> 00:44:08,166 Tanrı'nın etine ve kanına karşı günah işler. 642 00:44:08,250 --> 00:44:11,958 İsa'nın bedenini düşünmeden yiyip içenler, 643 00:44:12,041 --> 00:44:14,833 kendileri hakkındaki hükmü yiyip içerler." 644 00:44:16,250 --> 00:44:18,458 Sorun değil Riley. Bu olacak. 645 00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:21,958 Değiştirilemeyecek şeylerden biri bu. 646 00:44:22,541 --> 00:44:26,666 Dinginlik ve zarafetle kabul et. 647 00:44:33,291 --> 00:44:34,208 Âmin. 648 00:44:45,958 --> 00:44:46,916 Bilgelik. 649 00:44:47,500 --> 00:44:51,833 Değiştirebileceğimiz, değiştiremeyeceğimiz 650 00:44:51,916 --> 00:44:57,041 ve değiştirmememiz gereken şeyleri ayırt edebilme bilgeliği. 651 00:44:58,291 --> 00:45:00,333 Nasılsın? Daha iyisin, değil mi? 652 00:45:03,041 --> 00:45:05,916 Bilgelik. Sen ve ben Riley, biz ilkiz. 653 00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:08,333 Biliyoruz, gördük. Kutsandık. 654 00:45:08,416 --> 00:45:12,833 Ama şu anda bu adadaki pek çok kişi de 655 00:45:13,375 --> 00:45:15,000 kutsanıyor 656 00:45:15,083 --> 00:45:17,625 ama haberleri bile yok. Bilmiyorlar. 657 00:45:20,041 --> 00:45:24,208 Yaptığımız şey iyi. Yapmamız gereken şey. İyi. 658 00:45:25,750 --> 00:45:28,416 Yapmak istediğimizi düşünmediğimiz şeyler bile. 659 00:45:30,041 --> 00:45:33,041 Açlık, o susuzluk, iyi. 660 00:45:33,125 --> 00:45:36,458 O yüzden ona teslim olduğumuzda suçluluk duymuyoruz. 661 00:45:36,541 --> 00:45:43,041 O yüzden sonrasında daha iyi hissediyoruz. O yüzden bu lütfu paylaşıyoruz. 662 00:45:44,333 --> 00:45:45,458 Olanlara bak. 663 00:45:46,208 --> 00:45:49,583 Meleğin kanının birkaç damlasının hepimize yaptığına bak. 664 00:45:49,666 --> 00:45:54,125 Ebeveynine, Leeza'ya, sana, bu adadaki pek çok kişiye 665 00:45:54,208 --> 00:45:57,458 getirdiği iyiliğe bak. Bunu gözle. 666 00:45:57,541 --> 00:45:59,958 Şu anda sahip olduğun o sıcak hissi düşün. 667 00:46:00,041 --> 00:46:04,250 Bunu düşün ve bana şu cevabı ver. Huzur içinde misin? 668 00:46:05,500 --> 00:46:06,750 Karnın tok mu? 669 00:46:07,375 --> 00:46:09,166 Amacın net mi? 670 00:46:09,250 --> 00:46:15,125 Daha yüce bir kuvvete teslim olacak mısın? Huzurlu musun? 671 00:46:27,125 --> 00:46:28,916 Şükürler olsun. 672 00:46:29,583 --> 00:46:30,583 "Tüm anlayışların 673 00:46:30,666 --> 00:46:34,833 ötesinde olan Tanrı'nın huzuru, kalplerinizi ve zihinlerinizi korur." 674 00:46:35,583 --> 00:46:37,000 Tanrı seni kutsasın oğlum. 675 00:46:40,500 --> 00:46:41,875 Hep kutsanmıştın. 676 00:46:44,125 --> 00:46:47,083 Zekiydin. Ve hep dinlerdin. 677 00:46:47,166 --> 00:46:50,583 Her zamankinden daha önemli olan bugün dinlediğin için sağ ol. 678 00:46:54,208 --> 00:46:56,250 -Bölüyorum, pardon. -Sorun değil. 679 00:46:56,333 --> 00:46:58,875 Güneş batıyor. Birazdan gelmeye başlarlar. 680 00:47:00,125 --> 00:47:01,750 Mükemmel. Evet… 681 00:47:03,750 --> 00:47:05,041 Bence oldu. 682 00:47:06,208 --> 00:47:07,083 Oldu mu? 683 00:47:07,875 --> 00:47:12,208 -Evet. Toplantı yani. -Şimdi ne olacak? 684 00:47:12,291 --> 00:47:14,958 -Artık gidebilirsin. -Öylece mi? 685 00:47:15,041 --> 00:47:16,125 Öylece. 686 00:47:18,833 --> 00:47:21,583 Dışarıda mucizeler yaşayacak, 687 00:47:21,666 --> 00:47:25,166 hiç görmediğin şeyler göreceksin. 688 00:47:25,875 --> 00:47:28,916 Renkler, ışıklar. Bir şeyler duyacak, kokusunu alacaksın. 689 00:47:29,500 --> 00:47:32,666 Dünya, daha parlak yanıyor. 690 00:47:33,416 --> 00:47:38,708 Onun lütfuyla mırıldanıyor. Göreceksin. 691 00:47:39,291 --> 00:47:42,375 Monsenyör, anlaşmıştık, kültür merkezinde kalmalı… 692 00:47:42,458 --> 00:47:44,375 Sorun değil Beverly. 693 00:47:44,458 --> 00:47:47,125 Herkes Tanrı'nın vahyine hazır değil Riley. 694 00:47:47,708 --> 00:47:50,541 İsa onlara yeterince gösterdi ama çok da değil. 695 00:47:50,625 --> 00:47:53,625 -Beverly ve Sturge, Wade ve Dolly… -Belediye Başkanı mı? 696 00:47:53,708 --> 00:47:57,708 Evet. Onlar da kutsandı, seçildi. 697 00:47:57,791 --> 00:48:00,458 Onlara kalsa seni burada tutmalıyız ama katılmıyorum. 698 00:48:00,541 --> 00:48:06,458 Serbest irade. Olay bu, değil mi? Bütün mesele bu. 699 00:48:07,333 --> 00:48:08,708 Sana inanıyorum. 700 00:48:09,541 --> 00:48:14,708 İnsanlar içlerinden yollarını çizerler ama Tanrı adımlarını pekiştirir. 701 00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:21,708 Umarım bu gece ayine gelirsin. Lütfen gel. 702 00:48:21,791 --> 00:48:23,125 Bizimle olmaya gel. 703 00:48:23,208 --> 00:48:25,458 Ailenle gel, hepimiz senin aileniz. 704 00:48:25,541 --> 00:48:29,750 Kefaretin muazzam Riley. 705 00:48:30,416 --> 00:48:33,458 Hepimize, o kilise sıralarında oturup da 706 00:48:33,541 --> 00:48:37,083 seninle aynı korkuları yaşayacak pek çok kişiye ilham verecek. 707 00:48:37,166 --> 00:48:39,833 Burada kalması daha iyi olmaz mı? 708 00:48:39,916 --> 00:48:42,750 -Artık biliyorsun oğlum. -Belki bir iki gece daha. 709 00:48:43,916 --> 00:48:46,791 Sen müjdenin taşıyıcısısın, bunu düşün. 710 00:48:47,958 --> 00:48:50,708 O açlık, Tanrı istediğinde geri dönecek 711 00:48:50,791 --> 00:48:54,458 ve kısa süre sonra kendini ona, onun iradesine 712 00:48:54,541 --> 00:48:57,458 teslim edeceksin ve zihninde onun meleğinin 713 00:48:57,541 --> 00:49:00,791 sesini duyacaksın, önce kendi düşüncelerinmiş gibi 714 00:49:00,875 --> 00:49:03,875 ama sonra ses yükselecek ve Tanrı'nın planını fısıldayacak. 715 00:49:03,958 --> 00:49:08,125 Her geçen gün onu daha net duyuyorum. Kendimi Tanrı'ya verdikçe 716 00:49:08,208 --> 00:49:11,708 meleğinin sesini daha çok işitiyorum, sana da öyle olacak. 717 00:49:11,791 --> 00:49:13,541 Bunda sorun yok, bu iyi. 718 00:49:13,625 --> 00:49:15,375 Eyleme geçmek içinden gelecek 719 00:49:15,458 --> 00:49:17,875 ve değiştiremeyeceğin şeyler olacak. 720 00:49:22,875 --> 00:49:25,666 Ama komünyona girmeyi seçtiğin kişiye, 721 00:49:25,750 --> 00:49:28,500 senin için Tanrı'nın amacına hizmet edecek kişiye 722 00:49:29,500 --> 00:49:31,666 içmesi için kendinden vereceksin. 723 00:49:32,375 --> 00:49:35,666 Onlar senin bedenini yiyip kanını içecek, sen de onlarınkini 724 00:49:36,750 --> 00:49:40,625 ve azizlerle bir olacaksın, unutma… 725 00:49:42,958 --> 00:49:44,583 …bu bir lütuf. 726 00:49:46,791 --> 00:49:48,916 Tanrı bunu kiminle paylaşacağını söyleyecek. 727 00:50:06,875 --> 00:50:11,375 Endişeliyim. Onun hakkında endişelerim var. Güvenilir biri değil pek. 728 00:50:12,166 --> 00:50:16,625 -Tanrı araçlarını seçer Beverly. -Ya birilerine söylerse? 729 00:50:16,708 --> 00:50:19,875 Ne olmuş? Havariler bunun içindir. 730 00:50:20,833 --> 00:50:23,791 Kapılar açık kalacak, geçitler daima açık. 731 00:50:25,166 --> 00:50:26,708 Müjde başka nasıl yayılır? 732 00:50:55,625 --> 00:50:58,625 ANA CADDE 733 00:51:28,333 --> 00:51:31,916 Korkunç olabilecek şey, vardığı sonuç nedeniyle iyidir. 734 00:51:32,750 --> 00:51:34,875 Rabbin ordusuna hoş geldiniz. 735 00:51:36,125 --> 00:51:37,958 Evet, harika şeyler yapacağız. 736 00:51:45,625 --> 00:51:48,458 Anne. Anne, bekle. 737 00:51:49,125 --> 00:51:51,958 Ne oldu? Anne, dur. 738 00:51:53,666 --> 00:51:56,958 Bir daha asla oraya dönmeni istemiyorum. 739 00:51:57,041 --> 00:51:58,208 Ne? 740 00:51:58,291 --> 00:52:02,666 Orası benim kilisem değil. O benim tanıdığım adam değil. 741 00:53:27,666 --> 00:53:28,958 Acayip bir hikâye. 742 00:53:30,666 --> 00:53:37,375 Diyelim ki hepsi doğru. 743 00:53:39,541 --> 00:53:40,458 Diyelim. 744 00:53:44,083 --> 00:53:47,125 Yani bana bu hikâyeyi anlattın… 745 00:53:51,916 --> 00:53:53,708 Beni buraya getirdin… 746 00:53:55,333 --> 00:54:01,916 Beni kaçamayacağım bir yere getirdin. 747 00:54:07,041 --> 00:54:07,916 Çünkü? 748 00:54:10,875 --> 00:54:13,958 Yani beni buraya, 749 00:54:14,041 --> 00:54:17,541 kaçamayacağım bu yere niye getirdin tam olarak? 750 00:54:21,541 --> 00:54:23,208 Yardım istediğini söylemeye mi? 751 00:54:25,958 --> 00:54:26,958 Beni korkutmaya mı? 752 00:54:28,625 --> 00:54:32,083 Beni korkutmak isteyeceğine inanamıyorum. 753 00:54:33,291 --> 00:54:34,458 Buna inanmıyorum. 754 00:54:37,166 --> 00:54:39,041 Öyle olsa bile… 755 00:54:41,333 --> 00:54:45,166 Çok daha kötüler beni çok daha fazla korkuttu ve ben… 756 00:54:47,125 --> 00:54:49,000 Buna bir daha izin vermem. 757 00:54:52,791 --> 00:54:53,833 Korkmuyorum. 758 00:54:57,500 --> 00:54:58,416 Senden korkmuyorum. 759 00:55:02,250 --> 00:55:05,125 Bir tanem. 760 00:55:06,958 --> 00:55:12,083 Hastaysan, yardım lazımsa bundan korkmuyorum. 761 00:55:14,208 --> 00:55:15,541 Gereken yardımı bulurum. 762 00:55:15,625 --> 00:55:18,833 Yargı veya korku olmadan ne gerekiyorsa yaparım. 763 00:55:23,916 --> 00:55:26,375 Ne lazımsa söyle, yeter. 764 00:55:30,041 --> 00:55:32,041 Neden burada olduğumuzu söyle. 765 00:55:34,791 --> 00:55:36,041 Ne istediğini söyle. 766 00:55:40,916 --> 00:55:41,750 Sen… 767 00:55:44,666 --> 00:55:48,041 Bizi neden buraya getirdiğim konusunda yanıldın. Ben… 768 00:55:50,250 --> 00:55:53,000 Seni korkutmak veya yalıtmak için buraya getirmedim. 769 00:56:00,291 --> 00:56:02,541 Gidecek başka yerim kalmasın diye getirdim. 770 00:56:08,708 --> 00:56:10,041 Senin kadar güçlü değilim. 771 00:56:12,041 --> 00:56:13,125 Hiç olmadım. 772 00:56:26,875 --> 00:56:28,000 Ne mi istiyorum? 773 00:56:30,666 --> 00:56:32,958 Sandalı alıp ana karaya kürek çekmeni, 774 00:56:33,041 --> 00:56:35,000 arkana bakmadan adayı terk etmeni. 775 00:56:37,583 --> 00:56:39,250 Ama yapmazsın, biliyorum. 776 00:56:41,208 --> 00:56:43,708 Görmeden inanmayacağını biliyorum. 777 00:56:46,500 --> 00:56:49,375 Kaçmanı istiyorum. 778 00:56:51,000 --> 00:56:52,916 Ama bence oraya dönüp 779 00:56:53,000 --> 00:56:54,916 onları kurtarmaya çalışacaksın. 780 00:56:57,833 --> 00:56:59,833 Bunu görmen gerektiği için üzgünüm. 781 00:57:05,750 --> 00:57:07,000 Seni seviyorum Erin. 782 00:57:10,375 --> 00:57:11,833 Ömrüm boyunca sevdim. 783 00:57:13,041 --> 00:57:14,166 Şu veya bu şekilde. 784 00:57:20,625 --> 00:57:21,916 Ben de seni seviyorum. 785 00:57:24,000 --> 00:57:25,083 Elimden geleni yaptım. 786 00:57:35,458 --> 00:57:36,666 Elimden geleni yaptım. 787 01:00:24,583 --> 01:00:29,583 Alt yazı çevirmeni: Selen Akhuy

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1 00:00:36,500 --> 00:00:39,250 Two nights in a row. We should talk to him. 2 00:00:39,958 --> 00:00:42,041 I just don't like not knowing what he's… 3 00:00:43,875 --> 00:00:46,916 Rumor is he's been spending a lot of time with Miss Greene. 4 00:00:50,208 --> 00:00:51,333 Well, good for him. 5 00:00:53,291 --> 00:00:56,791 He's an adult. If he can find just a little comfort in his… 6 00:00:58,541 --> 00:00:59,541 Good for him. 7 00:01:01,083 --> 00:01:01,958 [Ed chuckles] 8 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:09,333 Late start this morning. Looks like it'll just be us. 9 00:01:10,833 --> 00:01:11,708 [Warren] We can handle it. 10 00:01:16,000 --> 00:01:16,916 [sighs] 11 00:01:21,958 --> 00:01:23,166 [vibrating] 12 00:01:29,958 --> 00:01:31,000 [Mildred] Mornin', you. 13 00:01:36,208 --> 00:01:37,541 Wow, you look… 14 00:01:37,625 --> 00:01:42,291 Do you like it? I dug it out of that footlocker in the closet upstairs. 15 00:01:43,375 --> 00:01:46,500 I mean, most of those haven't seen the light of day in decades, 16 00:01:46,583 --> 00:01:48,250 but then again, neither have I. 17 00:01:49,416 --> 00:01:53,041 Still, I think it fits pretty well, don't you think? 18 00:01:54,916 --> 00:01:55,750 Shall we? 19 00:01:57,291 --> 00:01:59,458 [Joanie] I know he's a troubled boy. 20 00:02:00,666 --> 00:02:01,666 Always has been. 21 00:02:03,375 --> 00:02:06,208 His daddy never did right by him and me, well… 22 00:02:07,750 --> 00:02:09,625 I did my best. 23 00:02:11,333 --> 00:02:13,833 I did what I could, but I ain't perfect. 24 00:02:17,625 --> 00:02:18,916 I work two jobs. 25 00:02:20,208 --> 00:02:23,958 Mainland jobs, and still that don't provide enough for his sisters. 26 00:02:25,250 --> 00:02:27,750 Which is why he does what he does. 27 00:02:29,125 --> 00:02:33,666 Money's gotta come from somewhere, and he puts food on the table. 28 00:02:36,291 --> 00:02:38,916 Not that that much matters to you, does it, Sheriff? Hmm? 29 00:02:39,708 --> 00:02:42,666 Law's the law, no matter the circumstance, ain't that right? 30 00:02:43,208 --> 00:02:46,583 I'm not judging, Joanie, I only said it's not unheard of. 31 00:02:46,666 --> 00:02:48,541 -Bowl takin' off for a few-- -Bill! 32 00:02:49,083 --> 00:02:51,208 His name is Bill. 33 00:02:52,583 --> 00:02:56,791 His so-called friends called him Bowl when he started selling the weed, and… 34 00:02:58,166 --> 00:03:01,458 [sighs] Well, at least they didn't call him Bong. 35 00:03:02,125 --> 00:03:06,833 Look, if you and these folks here on the island 36 00:03:06,916 --> 00:03:09,333 don't give two shits about a missing boy, 37 00:03:09,416 --> 00:03:12,333 well, then, I don't know why you all keep lining up at church, 38 00:03:12,416 --> 00:03:16,791 making a big show of how pious you are because you sure as shit ain't Christians. 39 00:03:16,875 --> 00:03:19,500 -Ma'am, I'm not Christian. -You know what I'm getting at. 40 00:03:21,166 --> 00:03:23,791 [clicks tongue] I've been in touch with my counterparts on the mainland, 41 00:03:23,875 --> 00:03:25,333 and they've been in touch with Bowl… 42 00:03:26,333 --> 00:03:29,625 Bill's employers and known acquaintances. We'll find him. 43 00:03:30,583 --> 00:03:33,958 What about these folks here on the island, you talking to them? 44 00:03:34,041 --> 00:03:37,083 'Cause mainlanders are one thing, but islanders know. 45 00:03:37,166 --> 00:03:39,250 Islanders always know. 46 00:03:39,333 --> 00:03:40,666 I had a word with Joe Collie. 47 00:03:41,333 --> 00:03:43,958 Best I can tell, he was the last person to see him on the island. 48 00:03:44,041 --> 00:03:45,791 -Was he sober? -Ma'am? 49 00:03:45,875 --> 00:03:47,916 When you talked to him, was he sober? 50 00:03:48,000 --> 00:03:51,000 Well, can't say for certain with Joe. 51 00:03:51,500 --> 00:03:53,791 -You never can, but he-- -Talk to him again. 52 00:03:54,541 --> 00:03:57,458 -Look, I don't think Joe-- -You talk to him again! 53 00:03:57,541 --> 00:03:59,083 You didn't know him! 54 00:03:59,791 --> 00:04:01,375 These people here really didn't know him, 55 00:04:01,458 --> 00:04:03,041 and if they did, they didn't give two shits, 56 00:04:03,125 --> 00:04:05,083 but that's not supposed to matter. 57 00:04:06,208 --> 00:04:12,333 When something like this happens, we are all supposed to be the same. 58 00:04:18,000 --> 00:04:22,375 Wait, you're saying every night? No morning masses at all? 59 00:04:23,208 --> 00:04:24,291 [Sturge] Time bein', yeah. 60 00:04:25,125 --> 00:04:28,000 Father Paul probably just needs another morning or two 61 00:04:28,083 --> 00:04:29,708 to recover from that head cold, 62 00:04:29,791 --> 00:04:33,333 but he should be up and about tonight. Isn't that right, Sturge? 63 00:04:34,458 --> 00:04:36,250 [Sturge] Yes, sir. Um… [clears throat] 64 00:04:36,333 --> 00:04:41,083 I spoke to him myself in the morning, and, uh, he's doin' much better. 65 00:04:41,166 --> 00:04:43,708 That's right, and Dolly spoke to him, too. 66 00:04:43,791 --> 00:04:45,958 And he's got a few things to say about Good Friday. 67 00:04:46,041 --> 00:04:47,250 Isn't that right, honey? 68 00:04:48,833 --> 00:04:50,708 Dolly? You… 69 00:04:53,041 --> 00:04:54,166 [indistinct chatter] 70 00:05:02,708 --> 00:05:04,583 Millie. Is that you? 71 00:05:05,958 --> 00:05:07,291 The last time I checked. 72 00:05:08,208 --> 00:05:11,833 Is there no morning mass today? I was so looking forward. 73 00:05:12,666 --> 00:05:14,291 No, it's… 74 00:05:15,708 --> 00:05:17,916 Wow! Look at you. 75 00:05:18,000 --> 00:05:21,916 [Leeza] Oh, my God. Miss Gunning looks so much… Mom? 76 00:05:24,500 --> 00:05:25,958 [voice breaking] I'm sorry, sweetie. 77 00:05:27,250 --> 00:05:28,291 It's just, um… 78 00:05:29,958 --> 00:05:31,875 What a time to be alive. 79 00:05:34,500 --> 00:05:35,500 [knocks on door] 80 00:05:39,000 --> 00:05:39,916 [Annie] Oh. 81 00:05:40,000 --> 00:05:42,291 -[Erin] Hi, Mrs. Flynn. -[Annie] Oh, darling. Oh. 82 00:05:43,708 --> 00:05:47,000 Honey, hi. I heard about… 83 00:05:47,583 --> 00:05:50,958 Riley told us. You aren't alone. 84 00:05:51,625 --> 00:05:52,625 [Erin] Is he here? 85 00:05:53,250 --> 00:05:58,041 [Annie] Uh… no. No, he's not. To be honest, I thought he was with you. 86 00:05:59,375 --> 00:06:00,541 [knocks on door] 87 00:06:00,625 --> 00:06:01,500 [Hassan] Joe? 88 00:06:11,125 --> 00:06:12,041 -[Ed] Got it? -[Warren] Yep. 89 00:06:14,166 --> 00:06:15,208 [crate thuds] 90 00:06:33,166 --> 00:06:34,333 [Erin] Have you seen Riley? 91 00:06:34,416 --> 00:06:36,125 [inaudible conversation] 92 00:06:48,791 --> 00:06:49,791 [Ed] Everything okay? 93 00:06:50,666 --> 00:06:53,625 [Warren] Yeah, Riley's, uh, just MIA, I guess. 94 00:06:53,708 --> 00:06:54,541 Huh? 95 00:06:55,583 --> 00:06:56,916 He's not with Erin Greene then? 96 00:06:58,208 --> 00:06:59,125 I guess not. 97 00:07:04,416 --> 00:07:06,041 God damn it, Riley. 98 00:07:08,958 --> 00:07:11,708 He's just gonna piss it all away? Even after all the… 99 00:07:12,291 --> 00:07:13,166 God. 100 00:07:14,375 --> 00:07:16,000 What the hell's the matter with him? 101 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:18,500 Just let him. Let him. 102 00:07:20,166 --> 00:07:24,208 What the hell can we even do? If he's not even gonna… God damn it! 103 00:07:24,791 --> 00:07:26,708 I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Warren. 104 00:07:28,916 --> 00:07:30,333 Sorry. Here. 105 00:07:36,875 --> 00:07:41,333 Yeah, C-O-double-L-I-E. Joseph. 106 00:07:42,833 --> 00:07:44,291 Four, twenty-two, sixty-nine. 107 00:07:45,791 --> 00:07:47,083 Great. I'd appreciate that. 108 00:07:47,833 --> 00:07:49,541 All right, thanks. Thanks, Mike. 109 00:07:52,083 --> 00:07:53,041 Sorry to interrupt. 110 00:07:53,125 --> 00:07:55,416 Oh. No, no. I was just tracking, uh… 111 00:07:57,208 --> 00:07:58,750 What can I do for you, Miss Greene? 112 00:08:00,125 --> 00:08:03,000 -Yeah… It's probably nothing. -Most things are. 113 00:08:03,916 --> 00:08:05,833 It could be, I don't know. 114 00:08:07,625 --> 00:08:11,750 I don't know what this could be. Um, and it's not an official report, 115 00:08:11,833 --> 00:08:14,666 because it hasn't been 24 or 48 hours. 116 00:08:14,750 --> 00:08:17,708 I don't know how long to wait. And you're gonna laugh at me. 117 00:08:18,708 --> 00:08:21,583 But I need to report a missing person. 118 00:08:25,666 --> 00:08:26,541 Who? 119 00:08:27,208 --> 00:08:28,375 Riley Flynn. 120 00:08:30,083 --> 00:08:32,791 He was supposed to come to my house last night, but he didn't. 121 00:08:33,583 --> 00:08:35,416 And I checked with his family and… 122 00:08:35,500 --> 00:08:37,666 This morning and this afternoon, and they haven't seen him. 123 00:08:38,250 --> 00:08:39,500 Your house… Are you two-- 124 00:08:39,583 --> 00:08:43,583 No. I mean, not really. We've been spending time together, but… 125 00:08:45,166 --> 00:08:48,583 He wasn't on the ferry, I checked. So he's not on the mainland. 126 00:08:48,666 --> 00:08:50,833 And his phone just rings and rings and rings. 127 00:08:50,916 --> 00:08:52,666 Mmm-hmm. Did he say anything? 128 00:08:52,750 --> 00:08:56,625 Anything that you, uh, look at now thinking back that's off, or-- 129 00:08:56,708 --> 00:08:59,833 No, nothing. He said he would come to my house. 130 00:09:00,666 --> 00:09:03,583 -Well, sure, but maybe he just got-- -He said he would come to my house. 131 00:09:06,750 --> 00:09:07,625 All right. 132 00:09:10,500 --> 00:09:11,500 [clears throat] 133 00:09:12,458 --> 00:09:14,291 -[pen clicks] -All right, last time you saw him? 134 00:09:15,083 --> 00:09:17,125 Yesterday morning when we woke up. 135 00:09:17,208 --> 00:09:20,083 He went to AA at St. Patrick's with Joe Collie-- 136 00:09:20,166 --> 00:09:22,041 Joe was there? You sure? 137 00:09:22,125 --> 00:09:25,708 I don't know. I just assume so because he's going to those meetings. 138 00:09:25,791 --> 00:09:29,291 And then he went [inhales deeply] home for dinner. 139 00:09:29,375 --> 00:09:34,500 His parents said so. And then he said he was going to meet me, and then nothing. 140 00:09:34,583 --> 00:09:37,250 All right, and what did you talk about yesterday morning? 141 00:09:37,333 --> 00:09:40,583 You know, plans for the day, a dream that he had last night. 142 00:09:40,666 --> 00:09:42,666 And what did you talk about the night before? 143 00:09:47,625 --> 00:09:50,708 Okay, listen. I believe you. 144 00:09:51,291 --> 00:09:53,208 All right. I'm not trying to pry. 145 00:09:54,041 --> 00:09:57,041 I'm hoping he said something, anything that might tell us where he went. 146 00:09:57,125 --> 00:09:59,958 All right? It could be something little. Something he forgot. 147 00:10:00,041 --> 00:10:01,666 His state of mind is important, 148 00:10:02,250 --> 00:10:05,333 because when I go shaking trees, and I will… 149 00:10:06,791 --> 00:10:09,750 If it turns out he's on some bender in a mainland hotel, 150 00:10:10,416 --> 00:10:14,583 he might have hinted. That's all. All right? So that's all I'm looking for. 151 00:10:16,041 --> 00:10:16,916 Okay? 152 00:10:19,125 --> 00:10:20,375 What did you two talk about? 153 00:10:22,916 --> 00:10:23,833 Death. 154 00:10:24,708 --> 00:10:26,125 We talked about what happens 155 00:10:27,291 --> 00:10:28,833 when you die. 156 00:10:31,083 --> 00:10:34,083 Well, um, see, that's what I'm talking about. 157 00:10:35,833 --> 00:10:37,500 Yes, that's why I'm here. 158 00:10:37,583 --> 00:10:40,125 All right. Did you bring up the topic or did he? 159 00:10:41,416 --> 00:10:43,791 I've been asking myself that all day, I don't… 160 00:10:44,541 --> 00:10:48,250 I think it was on both of our minds because I had lost… 161 00:10:52,166 --> 00:10:53,375 I miscarried. 162 00:10:58,125 --> 00:10:59,125 I'm sorry, I… 163 00:11:03,583 --> 00:11:06,416 I am pretty sure that he brought up the idea, 164 00:11:06,500 --> 00:11:08,875 and I leaned into it pretty hard. 165 00:11:10,041 --> 00:11:12,916 -And what did he say about it? -What do you mean? 166 00:11:13,833 --> 00:11:14,708 Death. 167 00:11:15,208 --> 00:11:18,541 Was he afraid of it? Intrigued by it? Or… 168 00:11:20,333 --> 00:11:21,416 He seemed fine. 169 00:11:23,791 --> 00:11:28,708 But that's what they say. People who aren't okay, people who… 170 00:11:31,375 --> 00:11:33,708 They say that about people who kill themselves. 171 00:11:34,458 --> 00:11:36,416 That they seemed fine. 172 00:11:39,500 --> 00:11:41,166 They do say that sometimes, yeah. 173 00:11:42,791 --> 00:11:44,333 [choir music playing] 174 00:11:51,958 --> 00:11:53,375 [inaudible conversation] 175 00:12:00,333 --> 00:12:01,500 [Ed sighs] 176 00:12:05,083 --> 00:12:08,375 -[sighs] I don't know what to do. -He'll be here. 177 00:12:16,416 --> 00:12:18,125 -Boys. -[Ooker] Father. 178 00:12:18,208 --> 00:12:19,375 [Warren] Feelin' better, Father? 179 00:12:19,458 --> 00:12:23,916 [sighs] Special night, boys. Eyes up. Ears open. 180 00:12:31,291 --> 00:12:33,166 You know, I heard about it. 181 00:12:33,916 --> 00:12:37,166 I did. But seeing is believing, isn't it? 182 00:12:38,208 --> 00:12:41,708 Mildred Gunning, as I live and breathe. 183 00:12:43,250 --> 00:12:44,791 Beverly Keane. 184 00:12:45,666 --> 00:12:46,625 Oh. 185 00:12:47,916 --> 00:12:52,750 God gave you back to us. And I am so glad that He did. 186 00:12:52,833 --> 00:12:55,625 And that you'll be with us for what comes next. 187 00:12:57,458 --> 00:13:00,416 Well, thank you. I'm very happy to be here. 188 00:13:00,500 --> 00:13:03,166 Not alone. Sarah Gunning. 189 00:13:03,750 --> 00:13:07,416 I'm so happy that you're here. I can't possibly tell you. 190 00:13:07,500 --> 00:13:11,166 Thank you. Mom, let's get you inside and get you off your feet. 191 00:13:11,250 --> 00:13:12,208 Of course. 192 00:13:16,500 --> 00:13:18,500 [Dolly] "They took the body of Jesus, 193 00:13:18,583 --> 00:13:22,166 and bound it with the burial cloths along with the spices, 194 00:13:22,250 --> 00:13:24,458 according to the Jewish burial custom." 195 00:13:24,541 --> 00:13:26,708 "Now in the place where he had been crucified, 196 00:13:26,791 --> 00:13:28,750 there was a garden, and in the garden, 197 00:13:28,833 --> 00:13:31,541 a new tomb in which no one had yet been buried." 198 00:13:31,625 --> 00:13:35,583 "So, they laid Jesus there because of the Jewish preparation day." 199 00:13:35,666 --> 00:13:37,666 "For the tomb was close by." 200 00:13:38,375 --> 00:13:41,750 -The Gospel of the Lord. -[all] Praise to you, Lord Jesus Christ. 201 00:13:49,000 --> 00:13:50,375 [Father Paul clears throat] 202 00:13:51,375 --> 00:13:52,458 Good Friday. 203 00:13:53,375 --> 00:13:57,291 This is one of my favorite days of the year. The passion of our Lord. 204 00:13:58,541 --> 00:14:00,583 Just that word, "passion." 205 00:14:01,166 --> 00:14:06,791 The word "passion," it means a strong and barely controllable emotion. 206 00:14:06,875 --> 00:14:08,041 Barely controllable. 207 00:14:08,125 --> 00:14:11,958 That's what Jesus felt when he gave his life for us, 208 00:14:12,041 --> 00:14:14,916 so that we might have life eternal. 209 00:14:15,625 --> 00:14:20,583 What a gift, told so beautifully in the Gospel of John. 210 00:14:21,208 --> 00:14:27,250 "Gospel" means good news! Good news on Good Friday. 211 00:14:27,958 --> 00:14:33,000 And yet, it's a story of such profound suffering. 212 00:14:33,708 --> 00:14:35,375 What's so good about that? 213 00:14:35,458 --> 00:14:41,500 Jesus's suffering in this story, it isn't simply necessary. 214 00:14:41,583 --> 00:14:43,041 It is good. 215 00:14:44,916 --> 00:14:47,375 It is the price of eternal life. 216 00:14:47,875 --> 00:14:51,458 That suffering, he endures alone. 217 00:14:51,541 --> 00:14:56,458 At the Resurrection, he is alone. And then… Well… 218 00:14:57,625 --> 00:15:00,791 Ah, he has a few allies. And then more. 219 00:15:01,541 --> 00:15:02,666 A congregation. 220 00:15:03,250 --> 00:15:06,833 And then more and more people spread that good news. 221 00:15:06,916 --> 00:15:11,666 Tell that good story. And then, God has an army. 222 00:15:13,041 --> 00:15:15,208 What do they say in that commercial? 223 00:15:15,291 --> 00:15:17,666 Uh, "Be all that you can be." 224 00:15:17,750 --> 00:15:20,333 Well, I mean no offense to the armed services, 225 00:15:20,416 --> 00:15:24,250 which are necessary and of course honorable, 226 00:15:24,333 --> 00:15:27,208 but that's not all that you can be. 227 00:15:28,416 --> 00:15:31,166 In the Army, you're fighting for God and country. 228 00:15:31,250 --> 00:15:35,083 Now, I am going to offend you now, but it is the truth. 229 00:15:35,166 --> 00:15:38,666 God does not want you to fight for this country. 230 00:15:40,208 --> 00:15:43,041 The arrogance… of that. 231 00:15:44,750 --> 00:15:46,208 God has no country. 232 00:15:47,666 --> 00:15:49,916 There is one God for the world. 233 00:15:50,791 --> 00:15:53,708 And the lines we draw, and the treaties we draft, 234 00:15:53,791 --> 00:15:57,375 and the borders we close mean nothing to Him. 235 00:15:57,458 --> 00:16:01,458 No, don't fight for a country. You fight for God's kingdom. 236 00:16:02,125 --> 00:16:07,916 A kingdom which Jesus tells us has no flags or borders. 237 00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:14,500 God's army. Now make no mistake. It is a war. That's what an army is for. 238 00:16:15,166 --> 00:16:21,125 So, as a congregation, as God's army, how do we know how the fight is going? 239 00:16:21,208 --> 00:16:24,833 We can't see it. We can't radio HQ for a status report. 240 00:16:24,916 --> 00:16:29,458 All we have, all God gives us, is right here. 241 00:16:30,166 --> 00:16:35,750 How we feel. That moral compass inside each one of us 242 00:16:35,833 --> 00:16:38,833 pointing due north to the Holy Spirit. 243 00:16:38,916 --> 00:16:43,833 Conscience. In the army of God, conscience is standard issue. 244 00:16:43,916 --> 00:16:47,666 There are many like it, but this one is mine. 245 00:16:48,958 --> 00:16:52,083 You may think that that's a line from a war movie, but it isn't. 246 00:16:52,166 --> 00:16:54,416 That's actually the Rifleman's Creed. 247 00:16:54,500 --> 00:16:57,166 And a creed is, by definition, 248 00:16:57,250 --> 00:17:00,000 not just a belief, but it is a religious one. 249 00:17:00,083 --> 00:17:04,750 So, it is a war, and there will be casualties. 250 00:17:06,375 --> 00:17:08,125 And we must be soldiers. 251 00:17:09,250 --> 00:17:12,375 That is what Good Friday is about. 252 00:17:12,458 --> 00:17:17,208 God will ask horrible things of you. Horrible. 253 00:17:17,291 --> 00:17:19,166 Just look at what He asked of His own son. 254 00:17:19,250 --> 00:17:21,958 Just look at what Jesus had to endure today. 255 00:17:22,041 --> 00:17:24,208 We had to call it the "New Covenant," 256 00:17:24,291 --> 00:17:28,250 because God's will, while perfect, changes. 257 00:17:28,333 --> 00:17:30,375 God's will dictates morality, 258 00:17:30,458 --> 00:17:33,833 and as God's will changes, so does morality change. 259 00:17:33,916 --> 00:17:37,083 It changed with the New Covenant. It changed when Jesus came, 260 00:17:37,166 --> 00:17:41,458 and we must, as his army, shed the Old Covenant 261 00:17:42,708 --> 00:17:43,916 and listen only to that. 262 00:17:44,500 --> 00:17:47,208 You rely on that compass. 263 00:17:47,958 --> 00:17:51,125 Good Friday is only good. 264 00:17:51,750 --> 00:17:57,541 The Gospel of the Lord, so full of horror, is only good, 265 00:17:57,625 --> 00:18:00,250 because of where it is headed. 266 00:18:01,041 --> 00:18:02,166 The Resurrection. 267 00:18:02,250 --> 00:18:08,416 Today is only good because of what's coming Easter, this Sunday. 268 00:18:08,500 --> 00:18:13,041 When Jesus is risen, and death itself is lain dead. 269 00:18:14,583 --> 00:18:18,583 What is otherwise horrible is good because of where it's headed. 270 00:18:19,875 --> 00:18:22,041 Welcome to God's army. 271 00:18:23,166 --> 00:18:25,000 Yeah, we're gonna do great things. 272 00:18:36,041 --> 00:18:38,833 [Sarah] Mom. Mom, wait. 273 00:18:39,416 --> 00:18:42,083 What's wrong? Mom, stop. 274 00:18:44,125 --> 00:18:47,208 I don't want you going back there ever again. 275 00:18:47,291 --> 00:18:48,250 What? 276 00:18:48,333 --> 00:18:52,833 That is not my church. That is not the man I knew. 277 00:18:58,416 --> 00:18:59,583 [knocking at door] 278 00:19:10,750 --> 00:19:11,916 [knocking continues] 279 00:19:17,625 --> 00:19:20,833 Where the hell have you been? I have been calling you all day. 280 00:19:20,916 --> 00:19:23,791 -I'm sorry. -Don't do that. Where were you? 281 00:19:24,625 --> 00:19:25,458 Where were you? 282 00:19:28,291 --> 00:19:30,708 Do you remember a few days before you left town, 283 00:19:31,750 --> 00:19:35,083 you crawled in my window, woke me up, scared the shit out of me? 284 00:19:36,333 --> 00:19:37,833 You wanted to take a boat out? 285 00:19:37,916 --> 00:19:41,000 You wouldn't take no for an answer, so we grabbed a rowboat and we rowed out 286 00:19:42,416 --> 00:19:46,166 far, smoked a pack of cigarettes and watched the sun come up? 287 00:19:49,125 --> 00:19:50,708 Will you do that with me now? 288 00:19:52,583 --> 00:19:53,958 Can we go for a ride? 289 00:20:56,625 --> 00:20:58,875 You know, I'm pretty good about trust. 290 00:21:00,041 --> 00:21:01,875 Which is funny, considering my marriage. 291 00:21:03,333 --> 00:21:05,333 It was important to me that I came out of that 292 00:21:06,041 --> 00:21:08,208 situation with trust in my heart. 293 00:21:09,291 --> 00:21:12,208 And I haven't pressed because you never did. 294 00:21:12,875 --> 00:21:14,500 Not once. Not ever. 295 00:21:16,166 --> 00:21:17,708 You let me come to you. 296 00:21:20,500 --> 00:21:21,958 I'm trying to give that back. 297 00:21:23,666 --> 00:21:25,250 But here we are. 298 00:21:27,833 --> 00:21:29,916 And I've got to ask, you know. 299 00:21:33,083 --> 00:21:34,750 What's this about, Riley? 300 00:21:37,875 --> 00:21:39,791 It's where it all came from in the first place. 301 00:21:40,875 --> 00:21:41,791 Stars. 302 00:21:42,916 --> 00:21:46,541 Primitive man, they were hunting and gathering and stuff all day long, 303 00:21:46,625 --> 00:21:47,875 but at night they just 304 00:21:49,625 --> 00:21:55,416 sit around campfires tryin' to stay warm, stay safe from predators. 305 00:21:56,375 --> 00:22:02,000 And they look out across the valleys, and they see other campfires, 306 00:22:02,083 --> 00:22:07,250 just little spots of light in the landscape, 307 00:22:07,333 --> 00:22:11,000 and they know that other people are out there, in the dark. 308 00:22:12,375 --> 00:22:16,291 And then, they see these spots of light in the sky. 309 00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:18,458 They don't know what they are. 310 00:22:18,541 --> 00:22:21,875 They don't have a clue about space or stars or light waves. 311 00:22:21,958 --> 00:22:25,625 They just figure they look a hell of a lot like campfires. 312 00:22:27,041 --> 00:22:29,250 "Who must those people be," they wonder. 313 00:22:31,083 --> 00:22:33,250 "Lightin' their campfires way up there?" 314 00:22:34,083 --> 00:22:36,208 They start telling each other stories. 315 00:22:36,833 --> 00:22:37,916 "Those people?" 316 00:22:39,833 --> 00:22:41,583 "They must be incredible." 317 00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:44,541 "Those campfires, they belong to people 318 00:22:44,625 --> 00:22:47,875 way more powerful than we ever even imagined, so…" 319 00:22:50,333 --> 00:22:51,250 All of it. 320 00:22:52,916 --> 00:22:53,916 Every god. 321 00:22:55,833 --> 00:22:59,916 Every goddess, every religion, every holy war. All of it. 322 00:23:02,375 --> 00:23:03,750 Started right up there. 323 00:23:05,458 --> 00:23:08,583 Just wondering who the hell could've lit those campfires in the sky. 324 00:23:12,916 --> 00:23:15,416 I'm gonna tell you a story, but you're not gonna believe it. 325 00:23:16,541 --> 00:23:19,333 I just need you to listen. Can you promise me that? 326 00:23:21,166 --> 00:23:22,416 Yeah. I can. 327 00:23:24,666 --> 00:23:28,291 Okay. 328 00:23:32,458 --> 00:23:33,916 [cell phone vibrating] 329 00:23:50,125 --> 00:23:51,000 [Riley groans] 330 00:23:51,083 --> 00:23:54,375 [softly] Hey, hey. You're okay. You're okay. 331 00:23:54,458 --> 00:23:59,791 Don't try to talk, you just relax, here, focus on breathing, okay? 332 00:23:59,875 --> 00:24:01,541 [inhales and exhales sharply] 333 00:24:02,791 --> 00:24:04,000 -You're doing great. -[Riley gasps] 334 00:24:04,083 --> 00:24:06,375 [Father Paul] No. Okay. Hey. You're fine. 335 00:24:06,458 --> 00:24:12,083 I… I had a sister. Did I ever tell you that? Named Alice. 336 00:24:12,166 --> 00:24:16,750 She was older than me, but she was much smaller. 337 00:24:16,833 --> 00:24:21,208 I was eight when she died. It was polio. 338 00:24:21,291 --> 00:24:23,958 It was awful to watch that. 339 00:24:25,208 --> 00:24:26,958 I was scared too, Riley. 340 00:24:27,041 --> 00:24:28,541 I was terrified of death, 341 00:24:28,625 --> 00:24:30,916 and that's actually what brought me to God. 342 00:24:31,583 --> 00:24:35,166 Trying to understand how death, 343 00:24:35,250 --> 00:24:39,458 um, her death, specifically, could be part of God's plan. 344 00:24:39,541 --> 00:24:42,958 That question, that brought me all the way to the priesthood, actually… 345 00:24:43,041 --> 00:24:44,416 -[bones crunch] -[Riley grunts] 346 00:24:45,625 --> 00:24:48,541 [shushes] Hey. You're okay. 347 00:24:49,666 --> 00:24:52,375 See, God still has a plan, 348 00:24:52,458 --> 00:24:55,666 and death isn't part of it anymore. 349 00:24:55,750 --> 00:24:57,083 Not for all of us. 350 00:24:58,541 --> 00:25:01,833 And we don't have to be afraid ever again. 351 00:25:28,291 --> 00:25:29,500 [Father Paul] How are you feeling? 352 00:25:31,166 --> 00:25:32,458 You look a lot better. 353 00:25:34,291 --> 00:25:35,875 Here, please, have a seat. 354 00:25:40,458 --> 00:25:42,666 No, I wouldn't do that. 355 00:25:45,166 --> 00:25:46,791 [Riley groans] 356 00:25:51,791 --> 00:25:52,833 I can, ah… 357 00:25:53,875 --> 00:25:57,541 Well, I can't exactly explain, but I can give it a good try. 358 00:25:57,625 --> 00:26:00,541 The important thing is not to go outside right now. 359 00:26:02,250 --> 00:26:04,583 I'm sorry, I was hoping to warn you before. Well… 360 00:26:04,666 --> 00:26:08,166 [chuckles] It's not a mistake you make twice, right? 361 00:26:10,041 --> 00:26:14,208 Don't worry, it took your neck less than six hours to heal completely. 362 00:26:14,291 --> 00:26:17,375 Those burns will be no problem. Here. Have a seat. 363 00:26:18,541 --> 00:26:22,250 I promise, I'll explain everything that I can to you, 364 00:26:22,333 --> 00:26:24,416 and you will feel better when I do. 365 00:26:25,500 --> 00:26:29,458 Sit. Give your skin a chance to heal, at the very least. 366 00:26:29,541 --> 00:26:30,833 We're having a meeting? 367 00:26:31,541 --> 00:26:32,916 We're having the meeting. 368 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:38,625 I promise, it's okay. You've had a long night, long journey. 369 00:26:39,416 --> 00:26:40,333 Sit. 370 00:26:42,083 --> 00:26:43,500 You'll be glad you did. 371 00:26:49,375 --> 00:26:52,916 -[inhales] Let's start with Serenity. -Are you fucking kidding? 372 00:26:53,541 --> 00:26:55,708 Not at all. I am not. 373 00:26:55,791 --> 00:26:59,291 Today you get complete and total honesty from me, 374 00:26:59,375 --> 00:27:04,958 and this prayer, today, it applies to me and you, profoundly. 375 00:27:07,000 --> 00:27:10,666 Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, 376 00:27:10,750 --> 00:27:12,916 the courage to change the things I can, 377 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,291 and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen. 378 00:27:17,375 --> 00:27:19,875 Let's start in order. The things we cannot change. 379 00:27:20,916 --> 00:27:24,125 When I was younger, 380 00:27:24,208 --> 00:27:28,666 I was a pastor at a small church in a very small community. 381 00:27:28,750 --> 00:27:30,666 And one day this altar boy, 382 00:27:30,750 --> 00:27:34,916 he was a brand-new altar boy… He was maybe nine or ten, smart kid. 383 00:27:35,458 --> 00:27:36,875 It's around Easter, 384 00:27:36,958 --> 00:27:40,375 so I'd been talking about the Resurrection for a couple of weeks. Anyway. 385 00:27:40,458 --> 00:27:43,208 One day, this altar boy, he brings me a shoebox. 386 00:27:44,333 --> 00:27:47,958 Inside this box, there's a mouse that he's caught in a trap. 387 00:27:48,041 --> 00:27:52,000 It's in bad shape, the tail's clipped off, leg barely attached. 388 00:27:52,083 --> 00:27:56,250 It's suffering. And the boy hands me this box, 389 00:27:56,333 --> 00:27:58,250 and he asks me, you know, 390 00:27:59,083 --> 00:28:01,833 if God will resurrect it like he resurrected Jesus. 391 00:28:02,750 --> 00:28:05,333 If he could do that, then he can do this. 392 00:28:05,416 --> 00:28:09,291 So I take this box, and we pray over it, 393 00:28:09,833 --> 00:28:13,458 and I send the boy home and tell him to come back in three days. 394 00:28:13,541 --> 00:28:16,291 So three days pass, the boy returns, and… 395 00:28:16,375 --> 00:28:17,958 And it was better. 396 00:28:18,041 --> 00:28:20,875 Yeah. It was runnin' around that little box as right as rain. 397 00:28:20,958 --> 00:28:25,666 And I help the boy let the mouse go behind the church before mass. 398 00:28:25,750 --> 00:28:26,750 He's amazed. 399 00:28:27,583 --> 00:28:29,791 His belief is confirmed. He believes. 400 00:28:30,666 --> 00:28:34,541 This moment, it sustained him for what? 401 00:28:35,916 --> 00:28:37,875 Almost a decade? 402 00:28:37,958 --> 00:28:40,208 Faith enough for almost a decade off that one little mouse? 403 00:28:40,291 --> 00:28:41,875 That wasn't an act of God. 404 00:28:42,625 --> 00:28:43,708 Wasn't it? 405 00:28:44,291 --> 00:28:46,000 True, I had to put the mouse out of its misery 406 00:28:46,083 --> 00:28:48,375 and true, it took me almost three days 407 00:28:48,458 --> 00:28:50,250 to find another mouse that looked just like it, 408 00:28:50,333 --> 00:28:54,041 but what it gave this boy, you think that wasn't an act of God? 409 00:28:54,125 --> 00:28:57,416 That because he's acting through us at times, he isn't acting at all? 410 00:28:57,500 --> 00:28:58,875 How do you know that story? 411 00:29:01,041 --> 00:29:01,958 Who are you? 412 00:29:04,125 --> 00:29:05,375 You know who I am. 413 00:29:07,500 --> 00:29:08,791 Come on. 414 00:29:09,916 --> 00:29:10,958 Really look. 415 00:29:12,375 --> 00:29:14,708 Listen to yourself, you know who I am. 416 00:29:16,375 --> 00:29:18,541 Really? You need to see the marks on my hands? 417 00:29:18,625 --> 00:29:21,333 -Put your hands into my side-- -That's not possible. 418 00:29:21,416 --> 00:29:23,083 Come on, we're past that now. 419 00:29:23,166 --> 00:29:25,666 "He said to Thomas, 'Put your fingers here, 420 00:29:25,750 --> 00:29:28,166 see my hands, reach out your hand, put them into my side.'" 421 00:29:28,250 --> 00:29:31,708 -We're past that now. You're past that. -Okay, then. 422 00:29:33,958 --> 00:29:34,833 Then how? 423 00:29:35,833 --> 00:29:39,416 Well, same as you, basically. 424 00:29:39,500 --> 00:29:43,416 You've been taken back as well, taken back to your best self. 425 00:29:44,375 --> 00:29:47,583 Your peak self, your perfect self as God wanted you. 426 00:29:47,666 --> 00:29:50,333 [chuckling] I just had a lot further to go than you did. 427 00:29:50,416 --> 00:29:52,166 It was a lot further to go. 428 00:29:52,750 --> 00:29:54,375 Hey, why did you come back here? 429 00:29:56,041 --> 00:29:57,000 Last night. 430 00:29:58,125 --> 00:30:00,750 I've been wondering that for most of… most of today. 431 00:30:00,833 --> 00:30:03,083 I've known you your whole life, 432 00:30:03,166 --> 00:30:06,541 never once have you just shown up in the night, 433 00:30:06,625 --> 00:30:10,000 and then last night at that specific moment, why? 434 00:30:10,916 --> 00:30:14,041 -Did you feel a calling? Vocation? -[scoffs] 435 00:30:16,083 --> 00:30:17,708 Joe Collie's sister. 436 00:30:22,375 --> 00:30:25,791 I lied to you about that. I apologize. 437 00:30:27,125 --> 00:30:30,125 And I ask you for your forgiveness for that lie. 438 00:30:32,625 --> 00:30:33,958 That's why you came back. 439 00:30:37,416 --> 00:30:40,958 Complete and total honesty. That's my vow to you today. 440 00:30:41,041 --> 00:30:44,916 So, okay, Joe was suffering, and he was suffering for no reason. 441 00:30:45,541 --> 00:30:49,833 The accident, then what the community put him through, he was beyond repair-- 442 00:30:49,916 --> 00:30:50,750 Says who? 443 00:30:50,833 --> 00:30:54,375 Well, it's a cliché to say that the Lord works in mysterious ways, but he does. 444 00:30:54,458 --> 00:30:58,291 I can testify to that, and, well, he worked through me. 445 00:30:58,375 --> 00:31:00,666 And Joe Collie was called home. 446 00:31:00,750 --> 00:31:02,583 -You killed him. -It's not as simple as that. 447 00:31:02,666 --> 00:31:05,500 No. You fucking killed him. You, and that thing. 448 00:31:05,583 --> 00:31:08,291 It cannot be changed. It's done and cannot be undone, 449 00:31:08,375 --> 00:31:10,583 just like what's happened to you cannot be undone. 450 00:31:11,166 --> 00:31:13,375 These are two things that cannot be changed, 451 00:31:13,458 --> 00:31:16,791 and we must accept them with serenity together right now. 452 00:31:16,875 --> 00:31:18,500 -What happened to me?! -Riley-- 453 00:31:18,583 --> 00:31:20,375 -What was that fucking thing? -You have to calm down. 454 00:31:20,458 --> 00:31:23,666 -What the fuck was that thing?! -An angel. 455 00:31:24,875 --> 00:31:25,916 [door opens] 456 00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:29,166 -Oh, good. He's up. -[Father Paul] Little worse for wear. 457 00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:32,750 Well, you weren't exactly pink in the cheeks yourself, Monsignor. 458 00:31:32,833 --> 00:31:34,000 Not at first. 459 00:31:34,625 --> 00:31:37,250 Uh, I just wanted to see if everything was going to plan, 460 00:31:37,333 --> 00:31:38,875 and if you wanted Sturge to clean up-- 461 00:31:38,958 --> 00:31:41,583 No, not yet. We're still in the weeds of it. But… 462 00:31:43,250 --> 00:31:46,791 Uh, I'm glad you're here, Beverly. Right when you're needed, God bless. 463 00:31:47,916 --> 00:31:51,291 Come over here. Please stand here. Stand… 464 00:31:51,375 --> 00:31:52,666 Stand right here. 465 00:31:53,291 --> 00:31:55,208 -Are you sure? -[Father Paul] Yeah. 466 00:31:56,791 --> 00:31:57,958 Good and close. 467 00:31:59,083 --> 00:32:02,083 -Are you certain that's a good idea? -Yeah. I'll stop him. 468 00:32:02,166 --> 00:32:04,333 -Stop me? -All right then. 469 00:32:05,375 --> 00:32:08,125 -[Riley] Stop me from what? -[Father Paul] Yeah. Okay. 470 00:32:08,208 --> 00:32:10,500 Look, just… Let me go. I just wanna go home. 471 00:32:10,583 --> 00:32:13,875 -I just wanna fucking… go home. -[Father Paul shushes] 472 00:32:13,958 --> 00:32:15,333 [heart beating faintly] 473 00:32:16,208 --> 00:32:17,583 [Father Paul] Right there, that's… 474 00:32:18,333 --> 00:32:19,583 You feel that, right? 475 00:32:20,500 --> 00:32:23,541 There it is. All right, a little closer. 476 00:32:24,875 --> 00:32:25,875 [heart beating louder] 477 00:32:25,958 --> 00:32:26,875 [Father Paul] Yeah. 478 00:32:28,375 --> 00:32:32,375 Mmm-hmm. Yeah. Just a little bit closer. Don't worry. 479 00:32:32,916 --> 00:32:34,916 -[Riley] What the-- -It's okay. I got him. 480 00:32:36,875 --> 00:32:37,750 Okay. 481 00:32:37,833 --> 00:32:39,000 [heart beating loudly] 482 00:32:42,333 --> 00:32:43,250 [Father Paul] You feel that? 483 00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:46,916 Yeah. 484 00:32:51,250 --> 00:32:53,250 [Riley grunts] 485 00:32:54,083 --> 00:32:55,125 [Father Paul] That's all right. 486 00:32:55,208 --> 00:32:57,750 God and Heavenly Father, grant us the serenity 487 00:32:57,833 --> 00:33:00,750 to accept that which we cannot change. 488 00:33:00,833 --> 00:33:02,541 -Thank you, Beverly. -[Bev] Of course. 489 00:33:03,333 --> 00:33:05,791 Riley, I'm pleased to see you up and around. 490 00:33:05,875 --> 00:33:06,708 [Father Paul] Okay. Yeah. 491 00:33:06,791 --> 00:33:09,250 Sturge and I will be in the rectory when you're ready for the next part. 492 00:33:09,333 --> 00:33:11,375 Yeah, I'll draw back the curtain when we're done. 493 00:33:12,333 --> 00:33:14,541 -[Riley grunts] -[Father Paul shushes] 494 00:33:15,541 --> 00:33:16,500 Hey. 495 00:33:18,083 --> 00:33:19,708 It's powerful stuff, isn't it? 496 00:33:19,791 --> 00:33:20,875 [Riley groans] 497 00:33:23,791 --> 00:33:25,041 I'm sorry it hurts. 498 00:33:26,791 --> 00:33:27,666 I really am. 499 00:33:28,791 --> 00:33:31,833 But it… it will pass. 500 00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:33,875 It will pass. 501 00:33:33,958 --> 00:33:35,291 [Riley grunts] 502 00:33:37,041 --> 00:33:40,583 So, what did you feel when she was close to you? 503 00:33:43,458 --> 00:33:45,666 I know the answer, you don't have to pretend. 504 00:33:48,625 --> 00:33:51,875 You felt hungry. Painfully hungry. 505 00:33:53,708 --> 00:33:55,250 Saw things too. 506 00:33:55,333 --> 00:34:00,916 Saw yourself pull her closer, closer. And everything went red, didn't it? 507 00:34:01,958 --> 00:34:04,041 Something started to change in you. 508 00:34:05,083 --> 00:34:07,625 It's almost like you go to sleep, isn't it? 509 00:34:08,875 --> 00:34:11,833 I mean, you were aware of yourself as you lunged at her. 510 00:34:11,916 --> 00:34:13,041 I don't know what happened. 511 00:34:13,125 --> 00:34:18,291 I do. You were aware of yourself, but it was involuntary, wasn't it? 512 00:34:18,375 --> 00:34:22,541 It… It's as if your body were acting under some other will. It was. 513 00:34:22,625 --> 00:34:26,083 It will again, and this is the thing. This is where we need to listen. 514 00:34:26,166 --> 00:34:29,375 Listen to the Holy Spirit, listen to our conscience. 515 00:34:29,958 --> 00:34:32,875 Because, you see, I was there, too. 516 00:34:32,958 --> 00:34:33,833 [hesitates] 517 00:34:34,541 --> 00:34:36,958 Well, I had been restored. 518 00:34:37,041 --> 00:34:40,791 I had been made young again. I had been made pure again. 519 00:34:40,875 --> 00:34:44,041 And then, like Jesus before me, I died. 520 00:34:45,541 --> 00:34:50,833 I died on the floor, just across the way there. 521 00:34:51,666 --> 00:34:55,666 And then I was resurrected, but I was scared and confused, 522 00:34:55,750 --> 00:35:00,958 and this drive inside, this powerful will, 523 00:35:01,041 --> 00:35:04,250 and I felt the same way you did. 524 00:35:04,333 --> 00:35:07,750 My will became His will, and He moved through me, 525 00:35:07,833 --> 00:35:12,416 and Joe was taken, and I was sustained. I was nourished. 526 00:35:12,500 --> 00:35:15,708 -Murderer. -Well, I suppose so, but here's the thing. 527 00:35:15,791 --> 00:35:18,500 I had no guilt. None. 528 00:35:19,125 --> 00:35:24,625 And knowing that I should feel guilt, but accepting that I did not, 529 00:35:24,708 --> 00:35:29,541 finding grace where the guilt should be, I wrestled with that. 530 00:35:29,625 --> 00:35:34,291 I prayed on it. But then Bev Keane, actually, she showed me this. 531 00:35:34,375 --> 00:35:36,833 Hebrews 9:14. 532 00:35:36,916 --> 00:35:39,958 "How much more, then, will the blood of Christ, 533 00:35:40,041 --> 00:35:43,666 who through the eternal spirit offered himself unblemished to God, 534 00:35:43,750 --> 00:35:47,500 cleanse our consciences from acts that lead to death 535 00:35:47,583 --> 00:35:50,708 so that we may serve the living God." 536 00:35:50,791 --> 00:35:54,250 "Cleanse our consciences so that we may serve the living God." 537 00:35:54,333 --> 00:35:59,250 I read this passage and the graces of the Holy Spirit rained down on me. 538 00:35:59,875 --> 00:36:01,458 He had taken that guilt. 539 00:36:01,541 --> 00:36:05,541 He cleansed my conscience, for I had simply done His will. 540 00:36:05,625 --> 00:36:10,083 Been His vessel. A murderer, maybe. So is Moses. 541 00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:13,500 Joseph. Paul, my namesake. 542 00:36:13,583 --> 00:36:15,708 I'm hardly unique as a soldier of the Lord. 543 00:36:15,791 --> 00:36:21,416 I'm hardly unique in this room either. Am I? I mean, you've killed someone. 544 00:36:26,958 --> 00:36:28,250 I don't remember it. 545 00:36:29,166 --> 00:36:31,000 You were drunk, and you don't remember. 546 00:36:31,750 --> 00:36:35,791 I was drunk. I was at a party, it was a party, and I drank too much. 547 00:36:35,875 --> 00:36:38,500 -Yeah, come on. Don't do that. -That's what happened. 548 00:36:38,583 --> 00:36:40,708 Well, there is meaning here. 549 00:36:40,791 --> 00:36:43,875 There is purpose here that you are willfully ignoring. 550 00:36:43,958 --> 00:36:47,166 It was fucking ordinary what happened. 551 00:36:50,583 --> 00:36:53,875 There weren't even skid marks on my side of the road. 552 00:36:53,958 --> 00:36:55,333 I never hit the brakes. 553 00:36:56,708 --> 00:36:57,583 [scoffs] 554 00:36:59,208 --> 00:37:01,041 I didn't even tap the brakes. 555 00:37:01,125 --> 00:37:05,416 I was literally asleep at the wheel. That is what happened. 556 00:37:07,708 --> 00:37:12,000 So, don't talk to me about God moving through you, or doing His will. 557 00:37:12,083 --> 00:37:15,583 You don't know a fucking thing about me. And our stories are not the same. 558 00:37:15,666 --> 00:37:17,458 -The guilt you feel. The remorse-- -Yeah. 559 00:37:17,541 --> 00:37:19,000 -You feel that every day? -Yes. 560 00:37:19,083 --> 00:37:20,958 -Even though you didn't mean to do it? -Yes. 561 00:37:21,041 --> 00:37:26,250 See, I killed Joe. I watched myself do it with my own hands, and I have no guilt. 562 00:37:26,333 --> 00:37:30,875 None. No remorse. I have been spared all of that. 563 00:37:30,958 --> 00:37:32,916 -How does that make you feel? -Disgusted. 564 00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:34,791 -How does it make you feel? -Angry. 565 00:37:34,875 --> 00:37:37,041 -Nope. How does that make you feel? -Fuckin' angry. 566 00:37:37,125 --> 00:37:38,125 No! 567 00:37:39,500 --> 00:37:42,458 I promised you complete honesty and I'm giving that to you, 568 00:37:42,541 --> 00:37:45,666 and I'm tired of you lying to me, Riley Flynn! 569 00:37:45,750 --> 00:37:49,291 I've forgiven it time and again, but today is critical for us, 570 00:37:49,375 --> 00:37:54,166 and I am finished! Complete honesty! How does it make you feel?! 571 00:38:00,583 --> 00:38:01,583 Jealous. 572 00:38:03,250 --> 00:38:04,958 God and Heavenly Father, 573 00:38:05,041 --> 00:38:08,041 grant us the serenity to accept that which we cannot change, 574 00:38:08,125 --> 00:38:11,875 and the courage to change that which we can. 575 00:38:11,958 --> 00:38:16,583 Courage, Riley Flynn. Courage. Let's find that now. The courage. 576 00:38:17,750 --> 00:38:19,750 To change that, which we can. 577 00:38:20,666 --> 00:38:24,875 God brought you back. Okay? For a reason. 578 00:38:25,666 --> 00:38:27,625 Your accident, that moment of hell on Earth, 579 00:38:27,708 --> 00:38:30,458 you say it didn't do anyone any good, but it did, didn't it? 580 00:38:30,541 --> 00:38:32,458 Because it put you here on this island right now, 581 00:38:32,541 --> 00:38:36,333 at one of the most crucial moments in the history of our world. 582 00:38:37,208 --> 00:38:40,208 Have some courage. God chose you. 583 00:38:42,375 --> 00:38:45,208 And that guilt that you're clinging to, you can let it go. 584 00:38:46,833 --> 00:38:52,791 God's changed you already. Now it's just on you to have courage. 585 00:38:53,500 --> 00:38:56,333 So let's have some courage now. Okay? 586 00:38:58,458 --> 00:38:59,500 Courage. 587 00:39:02,750 --> 00:39:03,708 [exhales sharply] 588 00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:09,000 I am sorry, by the way, that you were frightened 589 00:39:10,000 --> 00:39:10,875 last night. 590 00:39:10,958 --> 00:39:13,833 I… I was frightened, too, when it happened to me. 591 00:39:13,916 --> 00:39:15,541 Just about everyone, 592 00:39:15,625 --> 00:39:20,416 when they encounter an angel in the Bible, they are frightened. 593 00:39:20,500 --> 00:39:26,000 Ah, Mary was afraid of Gabriel, and he came to bring her great news. 594 00:39:28,541 --> 00:39:31,416 Angels always have to say, "Be don't afraid, fear not," 595 00:39:31,500 --> 00:39:34,833 because over and over and over again, 596 00:39:35,500 --> 00:39:37,666 people are terrified. 597 00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:41,791 Right? Moses was frightened when he beheld the burning bush. 598 00:39:41,875 --> 00:39:44,916 Jesus was frightened of his own fate. 599 00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:48,083 He fell to his knees in Gethsemane and prayed… 600 00:39:48,166 --> 00:39:50,250 He prayed to be spared. 601 00:39:51,083 --> 00:39:54,750 All the people at the tomb when they rolled away the rock, 602 00:39:55,625 --> 00:39:56,666 they were all frightened. 603 00:39:56,750 --> 00:40:01,000 All of them. Miracles. True power of the Lord. 604 00:40:02,416 --> 00:40:03,500 Scary. 605 00:40:04,500 --> 00:40:07,291 But still, I am sorry that you were afraid. 606 00:40:08,041 --> 00:40:09,083 Did you feed? 607 00:40:11,041 --> 00:40:14,416 When that angel was ripping into my neck 608 00:40:14,500 --> 00:40:16,708 and my blood was pouring out onto the floor. 609 00:40:16,791 --> 00:40:19,875 Did you… join in? 610 00:40:22,500 --> 00:40:24,125 Complete and total honesty, you said. 611 00:40:24,208 --> 00:40:25,083 Yes. 612 00:40:30,708 --> 00:40:34,583 How are things going in here? I mean, I can only imagine. 613 00:40:35,458 --> 00:40:39,958 That's not exactly true. I don't have to imagine, not all of it. 614 00:40:40,833 --> 00:40:41,666 I've seen it. 615 00:40:41,750 --> 00:40:43,916 Let me tell you, Monsignor was scared. 616 00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:50,375 We were all tested, but for some reason, Riley Flynn, God has chosen you. 617 00:40:52,083 --> 00:40:55,833 You, to receive this blessing, and we will not question His will. 618 00:40:55,916 --> 00:40:57,750 That's all that's important right now. 619 00:40:57,833 --> 00:41:03,041 You are being tested, as he was, as we all were. 620 00:41:04,166 --> 00:41:05,458 And we are here for you. 621 00:41:06,333 --> 00:41:09,750 We are here for you, for just as the body is one, 622 00:41:09,833 --> 00:41:13,083 and has many members in all of the members of the body, 623 00:41:13,166 --> 00:41:15,958 though many are one. So is it with Christ. 624 00:41:16,666 --> 00:41:21,708 We are here to bless you. To keep you. As is God's will. 625 00:41:21,791 --> 00:41:23,916 -God's will? -Yeah. 626 00:41:25,875 --> 00:41:30,083 Yes. And don't mock, Riley. 627 00:41:30,750 --> 00:41:33,541 Do not mock God's will. 628 00:41:34,208 --> 00:41:36,166 We know it from His own word, don't we, Sturge? 629 00:41:36,958 --> 00:41:38,291 [Sturge clears throat] 630 00:41:38,375 --> 00:41:43,125 "Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life." 631 00:41:46,125 --> 00:41:52,125 -And? -And, um… And "I will…" Um… 632 00:41:52,958 --> 00:41:55,083 "I will raise them up on the last day, 633 00:41:55,166 --> 00:41:58,625 for my flesh is real food, and my blood is real drink." 634 00:41:58,708 --> 00:42:01,625 "And whomever eats my flesh and drinks my blood 635 00:42:01,708 --> 00:42:04,416 will remain in me and I in them." Gospel of John. 636 00:42:04,500 --> 00:42:07,250 And it's pretty specific, isn't it? 637 00:42:08,083 --> 00:42:10,625 I mean, he's not really mincing words, is he? 638 00:42:10,708 --> 00:42:11,583 And this? 639 00:42:12,666 --> 00:42:13,833 Is this in the Gospel? 640 00:42:14,708 --> 00:42:15,750 [Bev] Why no, dear. 641 00:42:16,750 --> 00:42:18,000 That's Revelation. 642 00:42:18,625 --> 00:42:21,333 "The fourth Angel poured his bowl upon the sun 643 00:42:21,416 --> 00:42:24,083 and it was allowed to scorch men with fire." 644 00:42:24,166 --> 00:42:25,541 Chapter 16, verse 8. 645 00:42:25,625 --> 00:42:29,166 That is the thing about Jesus coming back to us. 646 00:42:29,250 --> 00:42:32,083 They told us from the start that it wouldn't be pretty. 647 00:42:33,333 --> 00:42:35,000 Monsignor Pruitt was shaken. 648 00:42:35,916 --> 00:42:36,916 Even him. 649 00:42:37,708 --> 00:42:38,833 But it is… 650 00:42:40,041 --> 00:42:42,791 It's all right there in the book, Riley. 651 00:42:42,875 --> 00:42:45,916 The seven bowls of God's wrath poured out on the second coming. 652 00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:47,083 The end of days. 653 00:42:47,166 --> 00:42:50,458 The fourth bowl upon the sun, the fifth bowl, since you asked, 654 00:42:50,541 --> 00:42:54,125 the fifth bowl of God's wrath plunges the world into darkness, 655 00:42:54,208 --> 00:42:58,583 which won't be an issue for you. Or for Monsignor. Will it? 656 00:42:59,541 --> 00:43:04,375 Why, it is almost as if He is preparing you for that. 657 00:43:05,625 --> 00:43:10,833 You sit there, blessed among men, smirking when I say "God's will." 658 00:43:10,916 --> 00:43:12,666 I… [sighs] 659 00:43:15,458 --> 00:43:16,583 I'm frustrated. 660 00:43:17,666 --> 00:43:18,625 I know. 661 00:43:18,708 --> 00:43:23,333 He doesn't even recognize what he is being given, and I find it offensive. 662 00:43:23,416 --> 00:43:24,625 It's immaterial, Bev. 663 00:43:26,125 --> 00:43:27,250 I know. 664 00:43:28,958 --> 00:43:29,958 I know, okay. 665 00:43:32,125 --> 00:43:34,250 [Father Paul] "When supper was ended, he took the cup." 666 00:43:34,333 --> 00:43:37,208 "Again, he gave you thanks and praise." 667 00:43:37,291 --> 00:43:39,708 "Gave the cup to his disciples and said, 668 00:43:40,583 --> 00:43:43,208 'Take this, all of you, and drink from it.' 669 00:43:43,291 --> 00:43:46,833 'This is the cup of my blood, the blood of the new, and everlasting covenant, 670 00:43:46,916 --> 00:43:51,500 shed for you and for all so that sins may be forgiven.' 671 00:43:51,583 --> 00:43:54,666 'Do this in remembrance of me.'" 672 00:43:54,750 --> 00:43:55,625 Amen. 673 00:44:00,166 --> 00:44:02,583 -No, no, no. -Don't be obtuse. 674 00:44:02,666 --> 00:44:05,083 "He who drinks from the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner 675 00:44:05,166 --> 00:44:08,166 is guilty of sinning against the body and the blood of the Lord, 676 00:44:08,250 --> 00:44:11,958 for those who eat and drink without discerning the body of Christ, 677 00:44:12,041 --> 00:44:14,833 eat and drink judgment upon themselves." 678 00:44:16,250 --> 00:44:18,458 [Father Paul] It's okay, Riley. It's gonna happen. 679 00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:21,958 This is one of those things that cannot be changed. 680 00:44:22,541 --> 00:44:26,666 Accept it, with serenity and grace. 681 00:44:33,291 --> 00:44:34,208 Amen. 682 00:44:43,625 --> 00:44:44,750 [Father Paul sighs] 683 00:44:45,958 --> 00:44:46,916 Wisdom. 684 00:44:47,500 --> 00:44:51,833 The wisdom to know the difference between the things we can change, 685 00:44:51,916 --> 00:44:57,041 the things we can't, and the things we shouldn't. 686 00:44:58,291 --> 00:45:00,333 How are you feeling? You feel better, don't you? 687 00:45:03,041 --> 00:45:05,916 Wisdom. You and I, Riley, we're just the first. 688 00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:08,333 We know, we've seen. We've been blessed. 689 00:45:08,416 --> 00:45:12,833 But so many others on this island right now, 690 00:45:13,375 --> 00:45:15,000 they're being blessed as well, 691 00:45:15,083 --> 00:45:17,625 but they don't even know. They don't even know it. 692 00:45:20,041 --> 00:45:24,208 It is good, what we're doing. What we have to do. It's good. 693 00:45:25,750 --> 00:45:29,166 Even the things we may not think we want to do. [hesitates] 694 00:45:30,041 --> 00:45:33,041 The hunger, that thirst is good. 695 00:45:33,125 --> 00:45:36,458 And that's why we don't feel guilt when we surrender to it. 696 00:45:36,541 --> 00:45:43,041 That's why we feel better after. And that's why we share this gift. 697 00:45:44,333 --> 00:45:45,458 Look at what it's done already. 698 00:45:46,208 --> 00:45:49,583 Just what a little of the blood of the angel has done for all of us. 699 00:45:49,666 --> 00:45:54,125 For your parents, for Leeza, for you, for so many in this community, 700 00:45:54,208 --> 00:45:57,458 look at the good it has wrought. Look on that. 701 00:45:57,541 --> 00:45:59,958 Think on that warm feeling you have here right now. 702 00:46:00,041 --> 00:46:04,250 Think on that and just answer me this. Do you feel at peace? 703 00:46:05,500 --> 00:46:06,750 Your stomach full? 704 00:46:07,375 --> 00:46:09,166 Your purpose clear? 705 00:46:09,250 --> 00:46:15,125 Your will given over to a higher power? Do you feel at peace? 706 00:46:27,125 --> 00:46:28,916 Praise be. Praise be. 707 00:46:29,583 --> 00:46:30,583 "And the peace of God, 708 00:46:30,666 --> 00:46:34,833 which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds." 709 00:46:35,583 --> 00:46:37,000 Bless you, my boy. 710 00:46:40,500 --> 00:46:41,875 You always were blessed. 711 00:46:44,125 --> 00:46:47,083 So smart. And you always listened. 712 00:46:47,166 --> 00:46:50,583 Thank you for listening today when it's never been so important. 713 00:46:51,375 --> 00:46:52,625 [door opens] 714 00:46:54,208 --> 00:46:56,250 -I'm sorry to interrupt. -[Father Paul] That's quite all right. 715 00:46:56,333 --> 00:46:58,875 [Bev] The sun is down. People will start arriving soon. 716 00:46:58,958 --> 00:47:01,750 [sighs] Excellent. Well… 717 00:47:03,750 --> 00:47:05,041 I believe that's it. 718 00:47:06,208 --> 00:47:07,083 That's it? 719 00:47:07,875 --> 00:47:12,208 -[Father Paul] Yeah. That's the meeting. -What happens now? 720 00:47:12,291 --> 00:47:14,958 -Now you can go. -[Riley] Just like that? 721 00:47:15,041 --> 00:47:16,791 [Father Paul chuckling] Just like that. 722 00:47:18,916 --> 00:47:21,583 The wonders that you will experience out there, 723 00:47:21,666 --> 00:47:25,166 you'll see things you never saw before. 724 00:47:25,875 --> 00:47:28,916 Colors, lights. You'll hear things, smell things. 725 00:47:29,500 --> 00:47:32,666 The world, it burns brighter. 726 00:47:33,416 --> 00:47:38,708 It hums, Riley, with His glory. You'll see. 727 00:47:39,291 --> 00:47:42,375 Monsignor, I thought we agreed, he should stay inside the rec center-- 728 00:47:42,458 --> 00:47:44,375 [Father Paul] It's all right, Beverly. 729 00:47:44,458 --> 00:47:47,125 Not everyone is ready for the Lord's revelation, Riley. 730 00:47:47,708 --> 00:47:50,541 Jesus took care to show them enough, but not too much. 731 00:47:50,625 --> 00:47:53,625 -Beverly and Sturge, Wade and Dolly-- -The mayor? 732 00:47:53,708 --> 00:47:57,708 That's right. They've been blessed as well, chosen as well. 733 00:47:57,791 --> 00:48:00,458 They think you should be made to stay here, but I think no. 734 00:48:00,541 --> 00:48:06,458 I think free will. That's the ball game, wasn't it? That is the whole thing. 735 00:48:07,333 --> 00:48:08,708 I have faith in you. 736 00:48:09,541 --> 00:48:14,708 In their hearts, humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. 737 00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:21,708 I hope you come to mass tonight. Please, come to mass. 738 00:48:21,791 --> 00:48:23,125 Come to be with us. 739 00:48:23,208 --> 00:48:25,458 Come be with your family, of which we all are. 740 00:48:25,541 --> 00:48:29,750 Your redemption, Riley, it's profound. 741 00:48:30,416 --> 00:48:33,458 It'd be an inspiration to all of us, to so many in those pews 742 00:48:33,541 --> 00:48:37,083 who will struggle with the same fears that you've struggled with. 743 00:48:37,166 --> 00:48:39,833 Are you certain it isn't best he just stay here? 744 00:48:39,916 --> 00:48:40,958 You know now, son. 745 00:48:41,041 --> 00:48:42,750 [Bev] Maybe just for another night or two. 746 00:48:43,916 --> 00:48:46,791 You are the bearer of the good news, and think on this. 747 00:48:47,958 --> 00:48:50,708 That hunger will return when God wills it, 748 00:48:50,791 --> 00:48:54,458 and shortly after, you will give yourself over to it, 749 00:48:54,541 --> 00:48:57,458 to His will, and you will hear it in your head, 750 00:48:57,541 --> 00:49:00,791 the voice of His angel, like your own thoughts at first, 751 00:49:00,875 --> 00:49:03,875 but then louder and louder. And he will whisper to you of God's plan. 752 00:49:03,958 --> 00:49:08,125 I hear him more clearly every day. The more I give myself over to God, 753 00:49:08,208 --> 00:49:11,708 the more I hear the voice of His angel and you will, too. 754 00:49:11,791 --> 00:49:13,541 That's okay, that's good. 755 00:49:13,625 --> 00:49:15,375 Know you will be moved to act 756 00:49:15,458 --> 00:49:17,875 and there will be things you cannot change. 757 00:49:22,875 --> 00:49:25,666 But whoever you choose to enter communion with, 758 00:49:25,750 --> 00:49:28,500 whoever serves God's purpose for you, 759 00:49:29,500 --> 00:49:31,666 as you give of yourself for them to drink, 760 00:49:32,375 --> 00:49:35,666 as they eat of your body and drink of your blood and you of theirs, 761 00:49:36,750 --> 00:49:40,625 and you are in the communion of saints, remember… 762 00:49:42,958 --> 00:49:44,583 that it's a gift. 763 00:49:46,791 --> 00:49:48,916 And God will tell you who to share it with. 764 00:50:06,875 --> 00:50:11,375 I worry. I worry about that one. He's hardly the reliable sort. 765 00:50:12,166 --> 00:50:15,125 [Father Paul] Well, God chooses his vessels, Beverly. 766 00:50:15,208 --> 00:50:16,625 [Bev] What if he tells people? 767 00:50:16,708 --> 00:50:19,875 What of it? That's what apostles are for. 768 00:50:20,833 --> 00:50:23,791 The doors stay open as the gates are always open. 769 00:50:25,166 --> 00:50:26,708 How else does gospel spread? 770 00:50:47,916 --> 00:50:49,375 [inaudible conversation] 771 00:51:28,333 --> 00:51:31,916 [Father Paul] What is otherwise horrible is good because of where it's headed. 772 00:51:32,750 --> 00:51:34,875 Welcome to God's army. 773 00:51:36,125 --> 00:51:37,958 Yeah, we're gonna do great things. 774 00:51:45,625 --> 00:51:48,458 [Sarah] Mom. Mom, wait. 775 00:51:49,125 --> 00:51:51,958 What's wrong? Mom, stop. 776 00:51:53,666 --> 00:51:56,958 [Mildred] I don't want you going back there ever again. 777 00:51:57,041 --> 00:51:58,208 [Sarah] What? 778 00:51:58,291 --> 00:52:02,666 [Mildred] That is not my church. That is not the man I knew. 779 00:52:22,750 --> 00:52:24,250 [groans softly] 780 00:52:53,166 --> 00:52:55,166 [hearts beating] 781 00:53:27,666 --> 00:53:28,958 [Erin] That's quite a story. 782 00:53:30,666 --> 00:53:37,375 And let's just say that any of that is true. 783 00:53:39,541 --> 00:53:40,458 [Riley] Let's. 784 00:53:44,083 --> 00:53:47,125 So, you've told me that story, you… 785 00:53:51,916 --> 00:53:53,708 brought me out here, you… 786 00:53:55,333 --> 00:54:01,916 have brought us out here where there is nowhere for me to go. 787 00:54:07,041 --> 00:54:07,916 Because? 788 00:54:08,000 --> 00:54:09,125 [heart beating] 789 00:54:10,875 --> 00:54:13,958 I mean, you brought me out here 790 00:54:14,041 --> 00:54:17,541 where there is nowhere for me to go, to what, exactly? 791 00:54:21,541 --> 00:54:23,208 To tell me you need help? 792 00:54:25,958 --> 00:54:26,958 To scare me? 793 00:54:28,625 --> 00:54:32,083 See, I can't believe… I can't believe you'd want to scare me. 794 00:54:33,291 --> 00:54:34,458 I don't believe that. 795 00:54:37,166 --> 00:54:39,041 And even if you did, well… 796 00:54:41,333 --> 00:54:45,166 I've been scared much worse by much worse, and I don't… 797 00:54:47,125 --> 00:54:49,000 I don't let that happen anymore. 798 00:54:52,791 --> 00:54:53,833 I'm not scared. 799 00:54:57,500 --> 00:54:58,416 Not of you. 800 00:55:02,250 --> 00:55:05,125 My dear, dear you. 801 00:55:06,958 --> 00:55:12,083 If you are sick or if you need help, I'm not scared of that. 802 00:55:14,208 --> 00:55:15,541 I'd get you the help you need. 803 00:55:15,625 --> 00:55:18,833 I'd do that with you, without judgment and without fear. 804 00:55:23,916 --> 00:55:26,375 Just tell me what you need. 805 00:55:30,041 --> 00:55:32,041 Tell me why we're out here. 806 00:55:34,791 --> 00:55:36,041 Tell me what you want. 807 00:55:40,916 --> 00:55:41,750 You weren't… 808 00:55:44,666 --> 00:55:48,041 quite right, what you said about why I brought us out here. I didn't… 809 00:55:50,250 --> 00:55:53,000 bring you out here to scare you or to isolate you. 810 00:56:00,291 --> 00:56:02,541 I brought you out here so I'd have nowhere to go. 811 00:56:08,708 --> 00:56:10,041 I'm not as strong as you. 812 00:56:12,041 --> 00:56:13,125 I never was. 813 00:56:17,916 --> 00:56:18,958 [inhales] 814 00:56:26,875 --> 00:56:28,000 What do I want? 815 00:56:30,666 --> 00:56:32,958 I want you to take this boat and row to the mainland 816 00:56:33,041 --> 00:56:35,000 and leave this place and never look back. 817 00:56:37,583 --> 00:56:39,250 But I knew you wouldn't do that. 818 00:56:41,208 --> 00:56:43,708 I knew you wouldn't believe any of this unless you saw. 819 00:56:46,500 --> 00:56:49,375 I want you… to run. 820 00:56:51,000 --> 00:56:52,916 But I believe you're gonna row back there 821 00:56:53,000 --> 00:56:54,916 and do everything you can to try and save them. 822 00:56:57,833 --> 00:56:59,833 I'm just so sorry you have to see this. 823 00:57:05,750 --> 00:57:07,000 I love you, Erin Greene. 824 00:57:10,375 --> 00:57:11,833 I've loved you my whole life. 825 00:57:13,041 --> 00:57:14,166 One way or another. 826 00:57:20,625 --> 00:57:21,916 I love you, too. 827 00:57:24,000 --> 00:57:25,083 I did my best. 828 00:57:30,833 --> 00:57:31,750 [sniffles] 829 00:57:35,458 --> 00:57:36,666 I did my best. 830 00:58:12,416 --> 00:58:14,125 [screams] 831 00:58:27,625 --> 00:58:28,958 [sobbing]

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6. KİTAP: ELÇİLERİN İŞLERİ
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1 00:00:06,250 --> 00:00:09,750 BİR NETFLIX DİZİSİ 2 00:01:36,250 --> 00:01:40,916 VI. KITAP: ELÇILERIN İŞLERI 3 00:01:53,500 --> 00:01:55,708 ANNE VE BABA 4 00:02:59,291 --> 00:03:02,458 PASKALYA NÖBETİ GECE YARISI AYİNİ HERKESE AÇIK 5 00:03:13,291 --> 00:03:14,291 Kahretsin. 6 00:03:38,208 --> 00:03:39,041 Erin. 7 00:03:41,625 --> 00:03:42,625 Yardımın lazım. 8 00:03:44,666 --> 00:03:46,083 Delirdiğimi sanıyorsundur. 9 00:03:47,666 --> 00:03:52,000 Az önce ağzımdan çıkanlara bakıyorum da, delirmiş olmalıyım diyorum. 10 00:03:54,583 --> 00:03:55,416 Evet. 11 00:03:58,333 --> 00:04:00,750 Deli saçması gibi geliyor. 12 00:04:05,666 --> 00:04:07,041 Hiç duydun mu… 13 00:04:11,166 --> 00:04:13,000 …Ignaz Semmelweis'ı? 14 00:04:18,583 --> 00:04:19,541 Hayır. 15 00:04:19,625 --> 00:04:22,250 1840'larda Macar bir doktordu. 16 00:04:22,750 --> 00:04:25,208 İki doğum koğuşunun başına geçti. 17 00:04:25,791 --> 00:04:27,916 Bir tanesi en iyisinden bir okuldu, 18 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:30,250 doğumdan otopsiye her şeyi yapıyorlardı. 19 00:04:30,791 --> 00:04:34,166 İkincisi tıbbi bakım alamayan kadınlar için bir klinikti. 20 00:04:34,791 --> 00:04:37,125 Doktorlar değil, ebeler çalışıyordu. 21 00:04:37,833 --> 00:04:41,375 Birinde ölüm oranının daha yüksek olması şaşırtıcı değil. 22 00:04:41,875 --> 00:04:43,166 Ama hangisinde? 23 00:04:43,916 --> 00:04:45,250 İlki. 24 00:04:45,333 --> 00:04:48,416 Eğitim veren. Ölüm oranı afallatıcıydı. 25 00:04:48,916 --> 00:04:51,708 Kadınlar sokakta doğursalar daha uzun yaşarlardı. 26 00:04:52,291 --> 00:04:55,875 Ama bu çok saçmaydı ve doktoru deli ediyordu. 27 00:04:56,541 --> 00:05:00,208 Araştırma üstüne araştırma yaptı, hiç sonuç alamadı, 28 00:05:00,291 --> 00:05:02,416 nihayet sonunda 29 00:05:02,500 --> 00:05:05,083 makul bir sebebe dayanmasa da, bir ihtimal 30 00:05:06,166 --> 00:05:08,125 öğrenciler ellerini yıkamalıdır, dedi. 31 00:05:08,750 --> 00:05:12,125 Otopsilerden sonra. Doğum koğuşuna gitmeden önce. 32 00:05:12,666 --> 00:05:15,250 Böylece herkese zorla klorla el yıkattı. 33 00:05:15,333 --> 00:05:17,208 Ve ölüm oranları hızla düştü. 34 00:05:18,916 --> 00:05:21,416 Bilim camiası onu yerin dibine batırdı. 35 00:05:22,916 --> 00:05:25,541 Mikrop teorisinin kabul edilmesine 20 yıl vardı. 36 00:05:25,625 --> 00:05:29,791 O yöndeki fikirlerin karşılığı küçümseme, alay ve dışlanmaydı. 37 00:05:29,875 --> 00:05:33,416 Semmelweis akıl hastanesine kapatıldı. Akıl hastanesine. 38 00:05:34,583 --> 00:05:35,916 Meslektaşı tarafından. 39 00:05:36,541 --> 00:05:37,708 Hatta orada öldü. 40 00:05:38,291 --> 00:05:40,541 Kliniklerin başına başkasını getirip 41 00:05:40,625 --> 00:05:42,958 o saçma el yıkama işine son verdiklerinde… 42 00:05:43,541 --> 00:05:45,458 Ölüm oranları yine yükseldi. 43 00:05:46,875 --> 00:05:49,583 Evet Erin, öykün deli saçması. 44 00:05:53,541 --> 00:05:56,083 Yeri gelmişken deli saçması bir şey anlatayım. 45 00:05:57,333 --> 00:05:58,166 Yani… 46 00:05:59,375 --> 00:06:01,791 Arkadaşlar arasında lafı mı olur, değil mi? 47 00:06:04,041 --> 00:06:06,125 Annemin gösterdiği iyileşmeye 48 00:06:06,208 --> 00:06:09,000 "Görülmemiş" demek yeterli değil. 49 00:06:09,083 --> 00:06:11,791 Şimdiye dek sessiz sedasız anlamaya çalışıyordum 50 00:06:11,875 --> 00:06:14,875 çünkü gördüklerimi tıp camiasından birine anlatsam 51 00:06:14,958 --> 00:06:16,583 beni deli sanır. 52 00:06:17,875 --> 00:06:19,416 Kafayı yediğimi düşünür. 53 00:06:20,041 --> 00:06:22,166 Testler yaptım. Bir dolu. 54 00:06:22,250 --> 00:06:25,791 Analiz için ana karaya göndereyim diye kan aldım 55 00:06:25,875 --> 00:06:28,750 ama henüz göndermedim çünkü bunu yapıp duruyorum. 56 00:06:29,458 --> 00:06:30,625 Tekrar görmek için. 57 00:06:31,583 --> 00:06:32,958 Bilimin olayı bu. 58 00:06:33,500 --> 00:06:36,666 Gözlemlenebilir, sınanabilir, tekrarlanabilir şeylerle uğraşır. 59 00:06:38,208 --> 00:06:41,791 Bugün Riley Flynn güneş ışığında alev aldı mı diyorsun? 60 00:06:42,583 --> 00:06:43,541 Öyle oldu. 61 00:06:43,625 --> 00:06:45,541 Güneşte yanmaya mı başladı? 62 00:06:50,666 --> 00:06:52,208 Haklısın Erin. Deli saçması. 63 00:06:52,958 --> 00:06:58,583 Tımarhane ve tedavi gerektirecek derecede deli saçması. 64 00:07:04,125 --> 00:07:05,458 Acayip uçuk. 65 00:07:14,000 --> 00:07:15,458 Tanrım! 66 00:07:15,541 --> 00:07:17,125 Orada ne yapıyorsun? 67 00:07:17,208 --> 00:07:21,291 Duman alarmının çalışmadığı bir günümüz geçmiyor son zamanlarda. 68 00:07:22,375 --> 00:07:24,166 Evet anne. 69 00:07:25,041 --> 00:07:28,791 Deliyim ben. Tımarhaneliğim. Hepimiz öyleyiz. 70 00:07:36,541 --> 00:07:40,083 Monsenyör, dikkatli olmalısınız. 71 00:07:40,708 --> 00:07:42,958 Perdeler ardına kadar açık. 72 00:07:43,041 --> 00:07:44,125 O yok artık. 73 00:07:46,541 --> 00:07:48,000 Nasıl anladım, bilmem. 74 00:07:49,166 --> 00:07:54,750 Leeza'nın yürüyebileceğini anladığım gibi sanırım. 75 00:07:54,833 --> 00:07:58,750 Aynı şekilde… Meleğin sesini duyabiliyorum. 76 00:07:58,833 --> 00:08:01,041 Güneş doğdu ve anladım. 77 00:08:03,583 --> 00:08:04,416 Gitti. 78 00:08:06,541 --> 00:08:08,500 -Üzgünüm. -Bu bir lütuftu. Lütuf. 79 00:08:09,916 --> 00:08:10,875 Onu ziyan etti. 80 00:08:13,083 --> 00:08:17,375 "Günahın karşılığı ölümdür. Ama Tanrı'nın lütfu, 81 00:08:17,458 --> 00:08:20,875 Efendimiz Hazreti İsa'daki sonsuz hayattır." Serbest irade. 82 00:08:21,666 --> 00:08:26,958 Seçimi kalbinizi kırdı… Tanrı dünya için ne hissediyordur acaba? 83 00:08:27,041 --> 00:08:28,041 Evet. 84 00:08:29,416 --> 00:08:32,166 Riley'nin bu seçimi yapmasına üzüldüm. 85 00:08:33,208 --> 00:08:36,916 Kalbinizi kırdı ama en kötüsü bu değil, değil mi? 86 00:08:38,000 --> 00:08:41,708 En kötüsü, bunu kendileri için mahvetmekle yetinmemeleri. 87 00:08:41,791 --> 00:08:45,458 Başkalarına da zehir etmeleri gerekiyor. 88 00:08:45,541 --> 00:08:48,916 Böyle düşünmek ve bunu söylemek zorunda olduğum için üzgünüm 89 00:08:49,000 --> 00:08:52,041 ama dünya böyle işte ve bu konuda akıllı olmalıyız. 90 00:08:52,125 --> 00:08:55,291 "Yılanlar kadar bilge ve güvercinler kadar masum." 91 00:08:59,875 --> 00:09:04,083 Bütün gece kim bilir kiminle konuştu. 92 00:09:05,833 --> 00:09:09,250 Başkalarını Tanrı'nın lütuflarından mahrum etmek için 93 00:09:09,333 --> 00:09:13,125 kim bilir daha neler yaptı. 94 00:09:14,166 --> 00:09:16,916 Yahuda da Tanrı'nın planının parçasıydı. 95 00:09:17,000 --> 00:09:19,458 Yahuda onun parçasıydı. 96 00:09:22,375 --> 00:09:24,125 Elçilerin İşleri. 97 00:09:25,000 --> 00:09:28,666 O cesur ilk havariler dünyaya kurtların arasındaki koyunlar gibi 98 00:09:28,750 --> 00:09:33,458 gönderildiler. "Tüm inananların kalpleri ve zihinleri birdi. 99 00:09:33,541 --> 00:09:36,958 Kimse mallarından birini sahiplenmezdi, 100 00:09:37,041 --> 00:09:39,916 ellerindeki her şeyi paylaşırlardı." 101 00:09:42,041 --> 00:09:45,125 Riley gibi başkaları da olacak. Hep olmuştur. 102 00:09:45,208 --> 00:09:50,041 İnananları Tanrı'larına karşı zehirlemeye çalışanlar. 103 00:09:51,583 --> 00:09:53,041 Ama bu gece 104 00:09:54,791 --> 00:10:01,708 kilisemize inanalım. Elimizdeki her şeyi paylaşalım. 105 00:10:04,875 --> 00:10:08,916 Paskalya Nöbeti daima bir vaftiz gecesi olmuştur. 106 00:10:10,333 --> 00:10:11,208 Öyle değil mi? 107 00:10:14,833 --> 00:10:19,958 Eritropoetik protoporfiri denen bir kan bozukluğu var. EPP. 108 00:10:20,041 --> 00:10:24,250 O mitlerin çoğu EPP'den çıkmış olmalı. 109 00:10:24,333 --> 00:10:27,041 Bu bozukluğa sahip olanlar ışığa karşı hassaslaşır. 110 00:10:27,125 --> 00:10:31,541 Öyle ki güneşte derileri yanıp su toplar. Çok da kansızdırlar. 111 00:10:31,625 --> 00:10:33,125 Yani bu bir kan hastalığı? 112 00:10:33,208 --> 00:10:34,875 Bu değil. Hayır. 113 00:10:35,750 --> 00:10:38,000 Ama aynı türden olabilir. 114 00:10:38,666 --> 00:10:41,000 Bildiğimiz soğuk algınlığı 115 00:10:41,083 --> 00:10:44,166 ve hıyarcıklı veba da aynı türden. 116 00:10:44,958 --> 00:10:47,791 Bu adada insanların yediği bir şeyden olabilir. 117 00:10:47,875 --> 00:10:51,833 Bir virüs. Bir enzim. Yeni bir tür hücre. 118 00:10:52,625 --> 00:10:55,000 Bir tür parazit. Kim bilir? 119 00:10:55,083 --> 00:10:57,791 Hasarlı hücreleri onaran bir şey. 120 00:10:57,875 --> 00:11:02,125 Işığa karşı aşırı hassas ve müthiş kansızlık yapıyor. 121 00:11:02,208 --> 00:11:05,250 Demire büyük bir iştah. Kandaki demire. 122 00:11:05,333 --> 00:11:08,666 Önce kandaki bu şey sadece eser miktarda. 123 00:11:09,166 --> 00:11:13,208 Ama oran arttıkça fiziksel değişimler 124 00:11:14,041 --> 00:11:15,583 daha da belirginleşiyor. 125 00:11:17,125 --> 00:11:21,291 Anne, kanını güneşe koyduğumda, seninkini de Erin, 126 00:11:22,250 --> 00:11:26,791 bu şey yanıp yok oluyor, geriye normal kan kalıyor. 127 00:11:26,875 --> 00:11:27,875 Benim kanım mı? 128 00:11:28,750 --> 00:11:30,083 Seninki de. 129 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,416 Kan örneği almıştım, şeyden sonra… 130 00:11:34,958 --> 00:11:37,625 Bahse girerim, yürümeye başladıktan sonra 131 00:11:37,708 --> 00:11:39,958 Leeza Scarborough'nunki de aynı sonucu verirdi. 132 00:11:40,750 --> 00:11:45,041 Ama ikinizinki hâlâ normale oldukça yakın. 133 00:11:45,125 --> 00:11:48,041 Bildiğimiz tipik alyuvarlardan oluşuyor. 134 00:11:48,125 --> 00:11:53,333 Ama Riley'nin dolaşım sisteminde daha çoktu belki de, 135 00:11:53,416 --> 00:11:56,333 ultraviyole ışınları derisine, kanına nüfuz edince 136 00:11:57,041 --> 00:12:01,041 kanında baskın olan bu şey alev aldı. 137 00:12:02,458 --> 00:12:03,500 Bu şey… 138 00:12:05,125 --> 00:12:06,291 Sindirilirse… 139 00:12:09,708 --> 00:12:11,666 Hamileysen ne olur? 140 00:12:14,291 --> 00:12:15,458 O zaman ne olur? 141 00:12:19,958 --> 00:12:23,750 Hamilelik, insan bedeninde yabancı bir varlığın olması gibidir. 142 00:12:23,833 --> 00:12:26,875 Annenin vücudu rahimdeki cenine saldırmasın diye 143 00:12:26,958 --> 00:12:30,000 pek çok süreç işler. O zaman bile bazen… 144 00:12:32,458 --> 00:12:38,291 Ama varsayımsal olarak, bu şey vücutta böyle şiddetli değişiklikler yapıyorsa 145 00:12:39,708 --> 00:12:42,625 cenine tepkisi de aynı ölçüde şiddetli olabilir. 146 00:12:54,458 --> 00:12:55,541 Durdurabilir misin? 147 00:12:56,625 --> 00:12:59,166 Kan hücrelerinin çoğu henüz değişmemişse? 148 00:13:00,208 --> 00:13:01,708 Süreci durdurabilir misin? 149 00:13:03,458 --> 00:13:05,958 Bilmiyorum. Hiçbir fikrim yok. 150 00:13:06,666 --> 00:13:10,041 Zehir, alkol falan yuttuğumuzda 151 00:13:10,125 --> 00:13:13,125 belli bir miktarı aşmadığı takdirde 152 00:13:14,583 --> 00:13:16,958 bedenimiz onu dışarı atabilir. 153 00:13:17,041 --> 00:13:20,750 Süzer, tıpkı eser miktardaki diğer zararlı maddelere yaptığı gibi. 154 00:13:22,083 --> 00:13:24,833 Yani böyle düşünmek istiyorum. 155 00:13:26,875 --> 00:13:29,583 Açıkçası anne, hiçbir fikrim yok. 156 00:13:31,041 --> 00:13:32,250 Pekâlâ. 157 00:13:35,333 --> 00:13:36,208 Pekâlâ. 158 00:13:38,791 --> 00:13:40,125 Şimdi ne yapacağız? 159 00:13:43,541 --> 00:13:44,583 Riley. 160 00:13:45,500 --> 00:13:48,166 Son sözlerini hatırlamaya çalışıyorum. 161 00:13:48,250 --> 00:13:50,250 Hepsini hatırlayamıyorum, tam değil. 162 00:13:50,333 --> 00:13:54,500 Ama bir şeyi çok net hatırlıyorum. 163 00:13:57,166 --> 00:13:58,250 Kaçmamı söyledi. 164 00:14:19,250 --> 00:14:20,208 Merhaba? 165 00:14:25,000 --> 00:14:27,250 Ed Flynn! Günaydın. 166 00:14:27,333 --> 00:14:29,708 Merhaba. Acaba… 167 00:14:37,125 --> 00:14:38,166 Böldüm, pardon. 168 00:14:39,000 --> 00:14:41,208 Sorun yok. Geceye hazırlanıyoruz. 169 00:14:44,083 --> 00:14:45,291 İyi misin Dolly? 170 00:14:47,625 --> 00:14:49,250 Ne istemiştin Ed? 171 00:14:53,166 --> 00:14:55,916 Biraz yürüyebilir miyiz? 172 00:14:57,000 --> 00:14:59,000 Söyleyeceğim şey biraz özel. 173 00:15:02,083 --> 00:15:05,833 -Aslında… -Biz de çıkıyorduk. 174 00:15:07,500 --> 00:15:09,458 Bugün yapılacak çok şey var, malum. 175 00:15:10,416 --> 00:15:11,541 Baş başa kalın. 176 00:15:14,916 --> 00:15:15,833 -Dolly. -Ed. 177 00:15:15,916 --> 00:15:16,791 Wade. 178 00:15:16,875 --> 00:15:18,125 -Ed. -Sturge. 179 00:15:20,708 --> 00:15:21,875 Tanrı seni kutsasın Ed. 180 00:15:24,791 --> 00:15:25,625 Akşama görüşürüz. 181 00:15:28,416 --> 00:15:30,708 -Böldüm, özür dilerim. -Sorun yok. 182 00:15:33,416 --> 00:15:36,916 Nasıl diyeceğimi bilemiyorum, o yüzden dümdüz söyleyeceğim. 183 00:15:40,458 --> 00:15:46,375 Oğlum. Ne yaptınız? Ona mektup mu yazdırdınız? 184 00:15:47,625 --> 00:15:49,500 -Telafi için? -Evet. 185 00:15:50,166 --> 00:15:54,916 Evet. İyileşme sürecinin parçası zararın telafisidir. Buna çalışıyoruz. 186 00:15:55,708 --> 00:15:56,625 Şey… 187 00:15:58,291 --> 00:15:59,666 Bence pek iyileşmemiş. 188 00:16:03,500 --> 00:16:07,166 Size, bana veya kimseye sürpriz değil ama… 189 00:16:08,750 --> 00:16:10,125 Bazı mektuplar yazmış. 190 00:16:11,291 --> 00:16:12,458 Bana, annesine. 191 00:16:13,625 --> 00:16:16,916 Önce benimkini okudum, tedirgin ediciydi. 192 00:16:18,916 --> 00:16:20,958 Sonra Annie'ninkini okudum, onunki… 193 00:16:24,375 --> 00:16:26,333 Belli ki Riley iyi değil. 194 00:16:27,708 --> 00:16:29,041 Yani bu şeyler… 195 00:16:31,166 --> 00:16:33,875 Çok saçma. Hayal görüyor. 196 00:16:35,625 --> 00:16:38,291 Nerede, bilmiyorum. Nerede arayacağımı bilmiyorum. 197 00:16:39,208 --> 00:16:42,041 Kime gideceğimi bilmiyorum. Şerif'e gidemem. 198 00:16:42,125 --> 00:16:46,916 Riley kötü durumdaysa, telefonum üzerine kolluk güçleri devreye girerse 199 00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:50,500 ve oraya… Yani hapishaneye dönmesi gerekirse 200 00:16:51,333 --> 00:16:53,541 ve onu oraya yollayan ben olursam… 201 00:16:55,958 --> 00:16:57,458 Onunla vakit geçiriyordunuz. 202 00:16:58,125 --> 00:17:00,916 Ben de size sorayım dedim. 203 00:17:02,500 --> 00:17:03,541 Bence… 204 00:17:05,166 --> 00:17:07,583 Bence kendine bir şey yapmış olabilir. 205 00:17:09,083 --> 00:17:12,875 Bu mektuplar bir vedaya benziyor. 206 00:17:14,375 --> 00:17:16,458 Size sormak zorundaydım 207 00:17:17,750 --> 00:17:22,208 çünkü gördüğü hayaller her neyse, merkezinde siz varsınız. 208 00:17:23,541 --> 00:17:25,708 Hakkınızda çılgınca şeyler söylemiş. 209 00:17:29,291 --> 00:17:31,500 Buna üzüldüm Ed. 210 00:17:34,583 --> 00:17:36,041 Evet, cevap evet. 211 00:17:38,250 --> 00:17:40,041 Riley iyi değildi. İyi değil. 212 00:17:43,333 --> 00:17:44,583 Peki. 213 00:17:50,041 --> 00:17:52,833 Hadi ama. Ed, böyle hissetmeni istemem. 214 00:17:55,166 --> 00:17:56,375 Bana inan lütfen. 215 00:17:56,875 --> 00:18:00,916 Onunla bir türlü geçinemedim. 216 00:18:02,250 --> 00:18:05,208 Sanki bazen farklı diller konuşuyoruz. 217 00:18:10,166 --> 00:18:11,166 Çabaladım. 218 00:18:12,208 --> 00:18:14,250 Bilmiyoruz Ed. Biz… 219 00:18:15,750 --> 00:18:16,833 Belki içkiye başladı. 220 00:18:16,916 --> 00:18:19,333 Belki feribota atlayıp ana karaya gitti. 221 00:18:19,416 --> 00:18:22,041 Kötü durumda. Ama en kötüsünü düşünme. 222 00:18:22,125 --> 00:18:24,416 Hatta en iyisini düşün. 223 00:18:25,958 --> 00:18:28,458 Tanrı, ebeveynlik konusunda bize bunu öğretir. 224 00:18:30,291 --> 00:18:32,000 Onun gibi yap. 225 00:18:33,291 --> 00:18:36,291 Oğlunu sev, Tanrı'nın bizi sevdiği gibi. En iyisini düşün. 226 00:18:39,791 --> 00:18:42,791 Mektupları almamı ister misin? 227 00:18:44,000 --> 00:18:45,833 Belki bir şey çağrıştırır. 228 00:18:46,500 --> 00:18:49,791 Evet, zaten size verecektim çünkü… 229 00:18:49,875 --> 00:18:53,375 Bir tanesi Monsenyör Pruitt'e yazılmış. 230 00:18:53,458 --> 00:18:55,000 Onu açmadım. 231 00:18:56,250 --> 00:18:57,875 Zavallı adamı üzmek istemedim. 232 00:18:59,458 --> 00:19:01,916 Riley'nin kim olduğunu hatırlarsa tabii. 233 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:02,833 Hatırlar. 234 00:19:03,333 --> 00:19:06,000 Ona göndermeli miyiz, en iyi siz bilirsiniz dedim. 235 00:19:08,041 --> 00:19:11,083 Yardımcısından rahibe. Belki de… Bilmiyorum. 236 00:19:13,041 --> 00:19:13,875 Bilmiyorum. 237 00:19:55,500 --> 00:19:59,833 UNUTMA, HEPİMİZ TOPRAKTAN YARATILDIK VE YİNE TOPRAĞA DÖNECEĞİZ. 238 00:20:20,916 --> 00:20:21,750 Erin. 239 00:20:23,291 --> 00:20:24,125 Nasıl… 240 00:20:25,333 --> 00:20:27,500 -Nasılsın? -Şey, ben… 241 00:20:28,500 --> 00:20:32,416 Acaba siz, Ed ve Warren… 242 00:20:32,500 --> 00:20:36,541 Akşam ana karaya gidiyorum, Ada Güzeli'ne bineceğim. 243 00:20:36,625 --> 00:20:39,125 Benimle gelmenizi umuyordum. 244 00:20:40,541 --> 00:20:42,625 Canım, bu… 245 00:20:43,666 --> 00:20:45,500 Ne garip bir istek. 246 00:20:46,375 --> 00:20:49,291 Hayır, bu gece ayin var. Paskalya Nöbeti. 247 00:20:49,875 --> 00:20:51,333 Hem biz neden… 248 00:20:52,875 --> 00:20:54,291 Sen iyi misin? 249 00:20:55,250 --> 00:20:59,416 Bir şeye ihtiyacın olursa biz buradayız… 250 00:21:02,916 --> 00:21:05,875 Aslında acaba 251 00:21:07,708 --> 00:21:09,375 sen bana yardım eder misin? 252 00:21:10,875 --> 00:21:11,708 Ben… 253 00:21:14,333 --> 00:21:15,750 Açık konuşayım. 254 00:21:17,875 --> 00:21:19,416 Riley için endişeleniyorum. 255 00:21:20,708 --> 00:21:24,333 Belki sen ona söylersin, 256 00:21:25,750 --> 00:21:27,458 eve dönmeli. 257 00:21:30,625 --> 00:21:32,458 Onun işine karışmak istemem. 258 00:21:34,000 --> 00:21:35,416 Ama günler oldu. 259 00:21:36,875 --> 00:21:38,708 Belki sen bu gece onu eve getirirsin. 260 00:21:39,916 --> 00:21:41,750 Ayinden önce hep birlikte yeriz. 261 00:21:42,333 --> 00:21:43,333 Riley öldü. 262 00:21:46,958 --> 00:21:47,958 Öldü. 263 00:21:48,875 --> 00:21:50,000 Çok üzgünüm. 264 00:21:52,458 --> 00:21:53,750 Ama o artık yok. 265 00:21:55,708 --> 00:22:00,291 Eğer başarabilirsem ailesinin güvende olmasını sağlamamı söyledi. 266 00:22:00,375 --> 00:22:02,250 -Gitmenizi istedi. -Sus. 267 00:22:03,416 --> 00:22:05,791 -Çok üzgünüm. -Sus canım. 268 00:22:09,291 --> 00:22:13,750 Hep denedik. Ailecek senin yanında olmayı 269 00:22:14,916 --> 00:22:17,458 hep denedik ve olduk da. 270 00:22:18,833 --> 00:22:21,666 -Niye böyle bir şey söylüyorsun? -Çok üzgünüm. 271 00:22:21,750 --> 00:22:24,291 Niye böyle bir şey söylüyorsun? 272 00:22:24,375 --> 00:22:25,833 Hiç komik değilsin. 273 00:22:25,916 --> 00:22:27,541 Senin neyin var? 274 00:22:28,125 --> 00:22:29,833 -Bayan Flynn… -Git buradan! 275 00:22:42,250 --> 00:22:44,291 -Ne? -Aynen öyle. 276 00:22:46,291 --> 00:22:48,541 Öğleden sonra ana karaya gidiyorum. 277 00:22:48,625 --> 00:22:50,000 Örneklerimi götürüp 278 00:22:50,083 --> 00:22:52,583 bulgularımı meslektaşlarımla paylaşacağım 279 00:22:52,666 --> 00:22:54,250 ve buraya döneceğim. 280 00:22:55,166 --> 00:22:56,000 Yardımla. 281 00:22:56,583 --> 00:23:00,666 Kasten bir bulaşıcı hastalık yayıldığını söylüyorsunuz. 282 00:23:01,666 --> 00:23:02,583 Kilisede. 283 00:23:03,375 --> 00:23:06,958 Garip gelse de şüphelendiğim şey bu… 284 00:23:07,708 --> 00:23:11,833 -Benden tam olarak ne istiyorsunuz? -Araştırmanızı istiyorum. 285 00:23:11,916 --> 00:23:14,291 Tam olarak neyi? 286 00:23:15,458 --> 00:23:16,875 Kiliseyi mi araştırayım? 287 00:23:16,958 --> 00:23:19,666 Doğru anlamak için soruyorum, 288 00:23:19,750 --> 00:23:23,125 annenizin kan testinin bozulmasına dayanarak mı? 289 00:23:23,208 --> 00:23:25,541 -Çok şey istiyorum, biliyorum. -Öyle mi? 290 00:23:28,458 --> 00:23:29,291 Öyle mi? 291 00:23:33,291 --> 00:23:35,041 Niye buradayım, söylemiş miydim? 292 00:23:36,000 --> 00:23:38,041 Hayır. Söylediğinizi sanmıyorum. 293 00:23:38,791 --> 00:23:41,125 Şimdi düşündüm de kimseye söylemedim. 294 00:23:42,083 --> 00:23:45,166 Zaten pek kimse de sormadı. 295 00:23:46,958 --> 00:23:50,958 Kuleler yıkıldığında 21 yaşındaydım. 296 00:23:51,500 --> 00:23:54,416 Yurt odamda ağlayarak televizyondan izledim. 297 00:23:55,708 --> 00:23:59,625 Çocukken hiç dindar değildim. 298 00:24:00,916 --> 00:24:04,583 Ama o gün camiye gittim çünkü kan bağışı topluyorlardı 299 00:24:05,208 --> 00:24:06,958 ve kuyruk sokaklara taşmıştı. 300 00:24:07,625 --> 00:24:08,666 Yardım etmek, 301 00:24:10,125 --> 00:24:12,875 bu ülkeyi korumak istiyordum. 302 00:24:14,041 --> 00:24:18,250 New York'a taşınıp polis eğitimine yazıldım. 303 00:24:18,333 --> 00:24:20,541 Bazı arkadaşlarım mutlu olmadı. 304 00:24:21,125 --> 00:24:25,958 "New York Emniyeti bize karşı" dediler. Onlara "Hayır, yanılıyorsunuz" dedim. 305 00:24:26,958 --> 00:24:29,666 "Bizden korkmaları gerekmediğini göstereceğim. 306 00:24:30,916 --> 00:24:32,333 Kim olduğumuzu göstereceğim." 307 00:24:33,750 --> 00:24:35,000 Böylece ilerledim. 308 00:24:36,333 --> 00:24:40,708 Trafik, ses kayıtları dinleyip tercüme etmek, derken Ahlak Masası. 309 00:24:40,791 --> 00:24:45,791 Evlendim. Ali doğdu ve yine terfi ettim. Dedektif olmuştum. 310 00:24:47,125 --> 00:24:52,041 Birleşik terörizm görev gücünde gizli güvenlik bilgilerine erişimim vardı. 311 00:24:52,125 --> 00:24:55,791 Teröristlerle mücadelede FBI'a yardım ediyordum. 312 00:24:57,375 --> 00:25:01,875 Tutuklamalar yapıyorduk. Küçük şeyler, esrar, park cezası… 313 00:25:01,958 --> 00:25:04,125 Müslümanlarsa onları sıkıştırıyorduk. 314 00:25:04,208 --> 00:25:07,458 "Suçlamaları düşürürüz, sana yardım ederiz. 315 00:25:07,541 --> 00:25:09,125 Camiye gidip dinle." 316 00:25:09,958 --> 00:25:12,583 Teröristlerle savaştığımızı sanıyordum. 317 00:25:13,625 --> 00:25:17,625 İşimiz, Queens'teki esrarkeş öğrencileri muhbir yapmak değildi. 318 00:25:18,875 --> 00:25:20,583 Şikâyet ettim. 319 00:25:21,625 --> 00:25:23,875 Nazikçe. Bir kere. 320 00:25:25,708 --> 00:25:26,666 Her şey değişti. 321 00:25:27,583 --> 00:25:30,333 Diğer polisler beni takibe aldılar. 322 00:25:30,916 --> 00:25:33,125 Hakkımda resmî bir dosya bile açıldı. 323 00:25:34,916 --> 00:25:37,958 Sadece benim de değil. Kulelerden sonra 324 00:25:38,541 --> 00:25:42,125 Müslüman memurlar hızla terfi etmişti. Bilhassa dil biliyorsak, 325 00:25:42,208 --> 00:25:44,750 dile ve kültüre hâkimsek. 326 00:25:45,583 --> 00:25:47,458 Bunun için çok revaçtaydık. 327 00:25:48,458 --> 00:25:50,125 Ama şunu düşünmeye başladılar, 328 00:25:51,833 --> 00:25:56,166 teşkilatta yüksek mevkilerde yetki sahibi Müslümanlar çoğaldı, 329 00:25:57,416 --> 00:26:00,041 peki ya başından beri plan bu idiyse? 330 00:26:02,833 --> 00:26:04,291 Ya biz işgalciysek? 331 00:26:05,583 --> 00:26:07,125 Ya casussak? 332 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:13,500 Ya çift taraflı çalışıyorsak? Bunun üzerine paniğe kapıldılar. 333 00:26:13,583 --> 00:26:17,000 İç İşleri her şeyimizi didikledi. Takip edildik. 334 00:26:17,083 --> 00:26:20,791 Fişlendik. Siviller de. Camilerde, kafelerde gözetlendi. 335 00:26:20,875 --> 00:26:24,833 Birdenbire sivil kıyafeti çıkarıp üniformaya döndüm. 336 00:26:26,625 --> 00:26:28,333 Gece vardiyası, sokak devriyesi. 337 00:26:29,083 --> 00:26:32,833 Gittikçe güvenlerini kaybettiğimi fark ettim. 338 00:26:38,000 --> 00:26:38,833 Buna katlandım. 339 00:26:40,041 --> 00:26:41,125 Başımı dik tuttum. 340 00:26:42,958 --> 00:26:43,791 Haysiyet. 341 00:26:49,375 --> 00:26:51,416 Haysiyet, eşimin sözüydü. 342 00:26:53,500 --> 00:26:55,166 "Onlara haysiyetini göster." 343 00:26:57,166 --> 00:26:58,791 Sonra ona teşhis kondu. 344 00:27:01,125 --> 00:27:05,208 Kısa sürede haysiyeti falan kalmadı. 345 00:27:08,333 --> 00:27:09,500 Sonra da vefat etti. 346 00:27:10,333 --> 00:27:11,250 Ve ben… 347 00:27:15,708 --> 00:27:19,833 Ali ve ben olabildiğince uzaklaştık. Bu işi buldum. 348 00:27:20,666 --> 00:27:21,791 Bu küçük adayı. 349 00:27:23,083 --> 00:27:26,625 Ölü gibi hareketsiz. 350 00:27:26,708 --> 00:27:33,000 Seçim yok, kadro yok. Bir marketin arkasında küçük bir oda. 351 00:27:33,083 --> 00:27:37,166 Neredeyse yüz yıldır dişe dokunur, kasıtlı bir şiddet olayı yaşamamış 352 00:27:37,250 --> 00:27:41,083 bir avuç balıkçı. Bu görev için yalvardım. 353 00:27:43,333 --> 00:27:44,166 Haysiyet. 354 00:27:47,500 --> 00:27:49,708 Ali sıkıntıdan patlıyor. 355 00:27:50,583 --> 00:27:51,500 Ama güvende. 356 00:27:53,041 --> 00:27:58,833 Ve hâlâ dünyayı biraz olsun kıpırdatabileceğime inanıyorum. 357 00:28:00,583 --> 00:28:03,083 Belki fark yaratacağımız yer burasıdır. 358 00:28:03,166 --> 00:28:06,041 Büyük şehir değil de bu küçük köy. 359 00:28:06,750 --> 00:28:10,166 Okul Aile Birliği'ni ikna etmeyi İslamiyet için zafer sayıyorum. 360 00:28:11,250 --> 00:28:12,416 Göz korkutmuyorum. 361 00:28:14,750 --> 00:28:20,000 Hiçbir şekilde fazla konuşmuyorum, haddimi aşmıyorum, karışmıyorum. 362 00:28:20,958 --> 00:28:22,458 Silah bile taşımıyorum. 363 00:28:24,708 --> 00:28:25,666 Ama yine de… 364 00:28:27,541 --> 00:28:28,375 Yine de… 365 00:28:29,583 --> 00:28:33,000 Beverly Keane ve birkaç kişi daha 366 00:28:33,958 --> 00:28:37,250 bana Usame bin Ladin'mişim gibi bakıyor. 367 00:28:39,708 --> 00:28:40,958 Siz de bana 368 00:28:42,166 --> 00:28:43,875 kiliseyi soruştur mu diyorsunuz? 369 00:28:54,750 --> 00:28:55,916 Var ya, 370 00:28:56,458 --> 00:29:00,458 yanılmış olmayı çok ama çok isterim. 371 00:29:05,750 --> 00:29:08,833 Bu sürerse kendinize şunu hatırlatın, varsayımı 372 00:29:09,541 --> 00:29:12,500 Riley Flynn'in başkasına anlattıkları üzerine kuruyorsunuz. 373 00:29:13,958 --> 00:29:16,250 Adadaki en güvenilir kişi sayılmaz. 374 00:29:17,333 --> 00:29:18,750 Silah taşımıyor musunuz? 375 00:29:22,541 --> 00:29:23,625 Gerek yok. 376 00:29:58,666 --> 00:30:00,041 Ada Güzeli nerede? 377 00:30:02,625 --> 00:30:05,916 O geminin geciktiği günler bir elin parmaklarını geçmez. 378 00:30:07,416 --> 00:30:08,833 Benim ömrümde en azından. 379 00:30:10,500 --> 00:30:11,583 Ne istemiştiniz? 380 00:30:13,583 --> 00:30:15,916 -Ada Güzeli'ne bakıyoruz. -Bugün çalışmıyor. 381 00:30:17,000 --> 00:30:19,500 Belediye Başkanı tamire gönderdi. 382 00:30:21,125 --> 00:30:23,125 Bazı parçaları toplatılmış. 383 00:30:24,041 --> 00:30:27,000 Ada Güzeli ve Meltem. Bu öğleden sonra yolladık. 384 00:30:28,416 --> 00:30:29,333 İkisini de. 385 00:30:30,083 --> 00:30:33,083 Akşamüzeri adadan giden pek olmuyor diye düşündü. 386 00:30:33,166 --> 00:30:34,541 Genelde sabah gidiliyor. 387 00:30:36,208 --> 00:30:38,416 Bugün adadan gitmeyi mi düşündünüz? 388 00:30:39,708 --> 00:30:41,916 Ama dönemezsiniz. Nöbeti kaçırırsınız. 389 00:30:42,708 --> 00:30:44,458 Meltem sabah dönecek mi? 390 00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:48,625 Sanırım. Ama söylemek güç. 391 00:30:49,500 --> 00:30:54,291 Bir endişeniz varsa Belediye Başkanı'yla görüşün. 392 00:30:54,958 --> 00:30:57,000 Eminim sizi rahatlatacaktır. 393 00:30:59,083 --> 00:31:00,000 Eminim. 394 00:31:02,041 --> 00:31:04,375 Karşıya bir şey ulaştırmak istesem 395 00:31:04,458 --> 00:31:06,833 bir balıkçı beni götürür, değil mi? 396 00:31:07,583 --> 00:31:10,208 Ne de olsa adada bir sürü tekne var. 397 00:31:10,291 --> 00:31:12,500 Hepsine bakım yapıyorsun, değil mi? 398 00:31:14,125 --> 00:31:15,125 Sanırım öyle. 399 00:31:16,791 --> 00:31:18,291 Mesela şu tekneye? 400 00:31:20,125 --> 00:31:22,416 Evet. Tamirat yapıyorum. 401 00:31:29,083 --> 00:31:30,458 Hey, unutmayın! 402 00:31:30,541 --> 00:31:31,583 Paskalya Nöbeti. 403 00:31:59,333 --> 00:32:03,041 CROCKETT ADASI ŞERİFLİĞİ KAYIP İHBARI 404 00:32:38,583 --> 00:32:40,083 -Evet. -Sturge. 405 00:32:40,166 --> 00:32:42,875 Evet, selam Şerif. Ne lazımdı? 406 00:32:43,375 --> 00:32:47,333 Hiç. Markette elektrik kesildi. 407 00:32:47,416 --> 00:32:50,333 -Acaba sen… -Bütün ada aynı durumda maalesef. 408 00:32:52,458 --> 00:32:54,916 -Ne o, voltaj mı düştü? -Ara sıra oluyor. 409 00:32:55,541 --> 00:32:58,333 Bazen suyun altında bir şey gevşiyor 410 00:32:58,416 --> 00:32:59,708 ve hat tuhaflaşıyor. 411 00:32:59,791 --> 00:33:02,666 Ben elektrik santraline uğrayıp 412 00:33:02,750 --> 00:33:04,208 bir bakayım. 413 00:33:05,708 --> 00:33:08,666 -Eşlik edeyim mi? -Yok, gerekmez. 414 00:33:09,750 --> 00:33:12,375 Tamam, bana haber ver. 415 00:33:12,458 --> 00:33:13,916 Tabii, veririm. 416 00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:22,375 Bu sonuncusu. 417 00:33:23,916 --> 00:33:25,250 Ya tekneler? 418 00:33:25,333 --> 00:33:28,625 Yarısını yaptım. Gerisini de nöbetten önce halledeceğim. 419 00:33:29,708 --> 00:33:31,291 Baz istasyonu dursun. 420 00:33:32,583 --> 00:33:34,083 Onu en son yaparız. 421 00:33:34,750 --> 00:33:36,833 Millet uyuyunca ya da kilisedeyken. 422 00:33:38,375 --> 00:33:42,833 Şerif zaten huylanıyor. Cep telefonu da çalışmazsa iyice şüphe uyandırır. 423 00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:45,000 Ben hallederim. 424 00:33:49,875 --> 00:33:53,583 Feribotlar ve elektrik. 425 00:33:53,666 --> 00:33:59,416 Sturge, Paskalya hafta sonunda gece gece balıkçı teknelerine bakım yapıyor. 426 00:34:03,291 --> 00:34:06,666 Baz istasyonu da çalışmazsa tüm iletişimimiz kesilir. 427 00:34:08,208 --> 00:34:09,125 Tamamen. 428 00:34:16,500 --> 00:34:20,000 Ya daha küçük tekneler? Sandallar, kanolar? 429 00:34:20,083 --> 00:34:22,958 Her yönde 45 - 50 kilometre suyla çevriliyiz. 430 00:34:23,041 --> 00:34:26,541 İyi bir seçenek değil. Olmaz. 431 00:34:28,708 --> 00:34:31,291 Herkes bu gece ayinde olacak. 432 00:34:31,375 --> 00:34:34,083 Ben ve Sarah hariç. 433 00:34:34,166 --> 00:34:38,041 Bir daha asla gitme, dedim. Tüm bunları duymadan önce hem de. 434 00:34:39,458 --> 00:34:41,750 Bugün beni konuk ettiğiniz için sağ olun. 435 00:34:46,541 --> 00:34:47,791 Ama gece gideceğim. 436 00:34:50,791 --> 00:34:53,333 -Neden ki? -Çünkü hiçbir şey bilmiyorum. 437 00:34:54,833 --> 00:34:57,166 Bir şey olacaksa ne olacak, bilmiyorum. 438 00:34:57,250 --> 00:35:00,916 Tek bildiğim Riley'nin her şeyi feda etmiş olduğu. 439 00:35:01,875 --> 00:35:02,708 Her şeyi. 440 00:35:03,666 --> 00:35:05,416 Çünkü yardım edebileceğimi düşündü. 441 00:35:07,541 --> 00:35:10,708 Şimdi feribotumuz ve elektriğimiz yok 442 00:35:10,791 --> 00:35:13,250 ama sevdiğim insanlar bu gece orada olacaklar. 443 00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:16,250 Riley'nin sevdikleri. 444 00:35:20,708 --> 00:35:22,333 O yüzden ben de gideceğim. 445 00:35:26,958 --> 00:35:28,000 Orada olacağım. 446 00:35:53,000 --> 00:35:54,166 Namaz kılmanı özledim. 447 00:35:57,833 --> 00:35:59,625 Bana katılsan çok sevinirdim. 448 00:36:04,416 --> 00:36:05,250 Peki. 449 00:36:10,166 --> 00:36:13,708 -Uyuyalım mı artık? -Bu gece Paskalya Nöbeti var. 450 00:36:15,041 --> 00:36:19,875 Gece yarısı. Benimle gelirsen çok sevinirim. 451 00:36:19,958 --> 00:36:22,083 Bunu konuştuk Ali. Ben hiç… 452 00:36:22,166 --> 00:36:25,208 Biliyorum ama bana bu ayinin ne kadar önemli olduğunu 453 00:36:25,291 --> 00:36:26,833 söyleyip duruyorlar. 454 00:36:26,916 --> 00:36:29,041 Ooker, Peder bütün gün hazırlandı, dedi. 455 00:36:29,125 --> 00:36:32,250 Büyük bir sürpriz varmış. 456 00:36:32,333 --> 00:36:34,791 Bu gece mucizeyi paylaşmaktan söz etti. 457 00:36:35,958 --> 00:36:36,916 Mucize mi? 458 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:41,708 Evet, yani öyleyse, bir mucize daha olacaksa 459 00:36:42,375 --> 00:36:45,791 orada olmanı istiyorum. Birlikte görmek için. 460 00:36:47,166 --> 00:36:48,166 Gelir misin? 461 00:37:06,375 --> 00:37:09,375 -Mutlu Paskalyalar. -Size de Bayan Keane. 462 00:37:13,625 --> 00:37:14,916 Nasıl başlayalım? 463 00:37:15,500 --> 00:37:17,833 Bulabildiğim kadar mum topladım. 464 00:37:17,916 --> 00:37:20,625 Kilisede kullanmadıklarımızdan. 465 00:37:21,208 --> 00:37:24,625 Sokaktan başlayalım diyorum, 466 00:37:25,166 --> 00:37:30,166 sonra meydanı geçip doğu yakasından dolaşıp kiliseye gidelim. 467 00:37:31,166 --> 00:37:32,416 Herkes bizi duysun. 468 00:37:34,041 --> 00:37:36,750 İlahiler için çıktı aldım. Wade, dağıtır mısın? 469 00:37:36,833 --> 00:37:37,666 Elbette. 470 00:37:40,583 --> 00:37:42,041 -Bu sana. -Teşekkürler. 471 00:37:42,125 --> 00:37:42,958 Dolly. 472 00:37:44,833 --> 00:37:46,416 "Yeni bir ezgi söyleyin Rabb'e. 473 00:37:47,541 --> 00:37:50,041 Ey bütün dünya, Rabb'e ezgiler söyleyin!" 474 00:39:33,625 --> 00:39:35,875 Teşekkürler. Katılın bize. 475 00:39:44,458 --> 00:39:45,625 Mutlu Paskalyalar. 476 00:40:19,291 --> 00:40:21,000 SERVİS YOK 477 00:43:33,875 --> 00:43:37,416 İşte bu, şimdiye dek gördüğüm en güzel şeylerden biri. 478 00:43:39,375 --> 00:43:43,708 Bazılarınız bu gece yaldızlı cüppe giydiğimi fark etmişsinizdir. 479 00:43:43,791 --> 00:43:45,666 Aslında bunu ilk pazar günü giymiştim. 480 00:43:45,750 --> 00:43:48,291 Yeni Ahit'in ilk gününde. 481 00:43:48,375 --> 00:43:50,541 Hatta Bev beni eleştirdi 482 00:43:50,625 --> 00:43:54,375 ve Olağan Devre'de neden onu giydiğimi sordu. 483 00:43:55,458 --> 00:43:59,000 O sırada ona söyleyemezdim ama şimdi size söyleyebilirim, 484 00:43:59,083 --> 00:44:03,375 onu seçtim çünkü olağan bir pazar değildi. 485 00:44:04,541 --> 00:44:05,541 Hem de hiç. 486 00:44:06,583 --> 00:44:10,166 Kutlamak ve sevinmek için sebebim vardı. Kutlu bir gündü. 487 00:44:10,250 --> 00:44:12,541 Bu gece de farklı olacak. 488 00:44:13,333 --> 00:44:16,708 Bu gece, yeni bir dönem başlıyor. 489 00:44:17,583 --> 00:44:22,166 Ve biz bu gece Diriliş'i kutlayacağız, 490 00:44:22,250 --> 00:44:27,041 hem de herkesten ve her zamankinden daha çok. 491 00:44:27,125 --> 00:44:28,125 Ama önce, 492 00:44:29,666 --> 00:44:32,666 bağışlayın beni kardeşlerim çünkü günah işledim. 493 00:44:32,750 --> 00:44:36,375 Son günah çıkarmamdan bu yana çok zaman geçti 494 00:44:37,291 --> 00:44:40,083 ve geç bile kaldım 495 00:44:41,333 --> 00:44:42,541 ama işte günahım. 496 00:44:44,916 --> 00:44:46,791 Hepinize yalan söyledim. 497 00:44:49,125 --> 00:44:52,541 Buraya Monsenyör Pruitt'in yerine geçmeye gelmedim. 498 00:44:53,500 --> 00:44:57,375 Ana karada bir hastanede iyileşmiyor. Sağlığı yerinde. 499 00:44:58,666 --> 00:44:59,625 Kutsandı. 500 00:45:01,208 --> 00:45:04,208 Tıpkı hepinizin kutsandığı gibi, o iyileştirildi, 501 00:45:04,291 --> 00:45:07,125 sizin gibi eksiksiz, sağlam ve genç kılındı. 502 00:45:07,791 --> 00:45:12,208 Siz bu yüzü görmeden çok önce iyileşti. 503 00:45:13,125 --> 00:45:18,166 Hatta o ilkti ve şu anda karşınızda duruyor, 504 00:45:19,750 --> 00:45:21,500 sizden af diliyor. 505 00:45:24,083 --> 00:45:26,416 Bazılarınız bunu daha önce 506 00:45:26,500 --> 00:45:30,500 aklınızdan geçirmiş olmalısınız. Dünya tarafından eğitilmiş zihinler 507 00:45:30,583 --> 00:45:33,791 o sesi görmezden gelir çünkü bu nasıl olabilir ki? 508 00:45:33,875 --> 00:45:38,500 İmkânsızdır. Ama Tanrı için hiçbir şey imkânsız değildir. 509 00:45:39,208 --> 00:45:40,416 Gördüğümüz gibi. 510 00:45:42,625 --> 00:45:46,458 Yolumu kaybetmiştim, şaşkındım, yaşlı ve yorgundum. 511 00:45:46,541 --> 00:45:48,791 Bir anda büyük bir değişim yaşadım, 512 00:45:48,875 --> 00:45:52,458 Tanrı'nın bir meleği bana göründü 513 00:45:52,541 --> 00:45:55,291 ve Tanrı'nın sağaltıcı lütfunu bahşetti. 514 00:45:55,375 --> 00:45:58,875 Yenilendim, tıpkı sizin gibi. 515 00:45:59,500 --> 00:46:04,125 Hepinize geri döndüm, yanımda da Tanrı'nın o meleğini getirdim. 516 00:46:04,208 --> 00:46:09,625 Hepimizi kutsasın diye. Mucizeleri gördük. 517 00:46:10,291 --> 00:46:11,583 Yeni bedenlerimizi. 518 00:46:12,333 --> 00:46:17,125 Bedenin dirilişini, yeni ve ebedî yaşamı. 519 00:46:17,750 --> 00:46:21,250 Bu gece sınanacağız, sadece biraz 520 00:46:21,333 --> 00:46:24,333 ama tıpkı İsa'nın sınandığı gibi sınanacağız. 521 00:46:25,208 --> 00:46:29,000 Yeni Ahit benim için gerçekleştiğinde korkmuştum. 522 00:46:29,750 --> 00:46:33,666 Kurtarıcımız gibi ben de korkmuştum ama "Ona uyduğunu söyleyen herkes 523 00:46:33,750 --> 00:46:37,458 onun gibi yürümelidir. 524 00:46:37,541 --> 00:46:40,250 İsa'nın taklitçileri olun." 525 00:46:40,916 --> 00:46:44,125 Bilinmeze doğru onu takip ettim 526 00:46:44,208 --> 00:46:46,458 ve tıpkı İsa gibi ölüme göğüs gerdim. 527 00:46:47,166 --> 00:46:51,916 Neyse ki kısa sürdü. Bir inanç adımı, suya doğru bir adım. 528 00:46:52,625 --> 00:46:56,833 Benden tek istediği buydu ve tıpkı İsa gibi, şüphe duyacaksınız, 529 00:46:56,916 --> 00:47:02,625 korku hissedeceksiniz ama bana inanın, söz veriyorum kardeşlerim, 530 00:47:04,000 --> 00:47:07,541 beni izlerseniz, bizi izlerseniz ve onu izlerseniz 531 00:47:08,916 --> 00:47:12,250 o sizi tüm ihtişamıyla tekrar ebedî hayata 532 00:47:13,250 --> 00:47:14,416 kavuşturacak. 533 00:47:16,666 --> 00:47:20,333 Ebedî hayatın bir bedeli var. 534 00:47:20,416 --> 00:47:22,416 Kurtarıcımız için de oldu. 535 00:47:23,666 --> 00:47:26,541 Bu gece her birimiz o bedeli ödeme fırsatına 536 00:47:27,583 --> 00:47:28,875 sahip olacağız. 537 00:47:29,583 --> 00:47:30,875 Ama önce… 538 00:47:33,416 --> 00:47:36,125 Birlikte yaşadığımız her şeyden sonra biliyorum ki 539 00:47:37,333 --> 00:47:41,500 buna inanmak kolay değil. O yüzden İsa'nın Tomas'ı davet ettiği gibi 540 00:47:41,583 --> 00:47:43,333 sizi tanıklık etmeye çağırıyorum. 541 00:47:44,000 --> 00:47:44,875 Sturge. 542 00:47:53,458 --> 00:47:56,916 "Kutsal kentin, yeni Yeruşalim'in 543 00:47:57,000 --> 00:47:59,291 gökten, Tanrı'nın yanından indiğini gördüm. 544 00:47:59,375 --> 00:48:03,166 Güveyi için hazırlanmış süslü bir gelin gibiydi. 545 00:48:03,250 --> 00:48:05,125 Tahttan yükselen gür bir ses dedi ki…" 546 00:48:05,208 --> 00:48:06,625 BİLEŞİM 1080 - ÖLÜMCÜL ZEHİR 547 00:48:06,708 --> 00:48:09,375 "'…İşte, Tanrı'nın konutu insanların arasındadır. 548 00:48:09,458 --> 00:48:13,041 Tanrı onların arasında yaşayacak. Onlar onun halkı olacaklar, 549 00:48:13,125 --> 00:48:16,916 Tanrı'nın kendisi de onların arasında bulunacak. 550 00:48:17,000 --> 00:48:23,583 Onların gözlerinden bütün yaşları silecek. Artık ölüm olmayacak. 551 00:48:23,666 --> 00:48:28,375 Artık ne yas ne ağlayış ne de ıstırap olacak. 552 00:48:28,458 --> 00:48:30,875 Çünkü önceki düzen ortadan kalktı.' 553 00:48:30,958 --> 00:48:33,416 Tahtta oturan, 554 00:48:33,500 --> 00:48:37,458 'İşte her şeyi yeniliyorum' dedi. 555 00:48:37,541 --> 00:48:42,625 'Alfa ve Omega, başlangıç ve son benim. 556 00:48:42,708 --> 00:48:45,541 Susayana yaşam suyunun pınarından 557 00:48:45,625 --> 00:48:49,583 karşılıksız su vereceğim.'" 558 00:48:56,750 --> 00:49:01,208 Bu hepimiz için ürkütücü olacak ama İsa'nın huzurundaki kardeşim Sturge, 559 00:49:02,208 --> 00:49:03,250 korkuyor musun? 560 00:49:04,208 --> 00:49:05,875 Hayır Peder. Korkmuyorum. 561 00:49:10,416 --> 00:49:11,333 Rab seninle olsun. 562 00:49:21,250 --> 00:49:24,375 Ben seninleyim. 563 00:49:28,416 --> 00:49:31,583 Ben seninleyim. Ben onunlayım. 564 00:49:33,708 --> 00:49:35,916 Sorun yok. Tamam. 565 00:49:36,416 --> 00:49:38,166 Tamam. Sorun yok. 566 00:49:40,083 --> 00:49:42,500 Her şey yolunda. O iyi. 567 00:49:42,583 --> 00:49:43,875 Her şey yolunda. 568 00:49:44,458 --> 00:49:47,708 Birazdan geçecek. 569 00:49:49,291 --> 00:49:52,291 Sorun yok. 570 00:49:53,041 --> 00:49:56,625 Sorun yok. İnan! 571 00:49:56,708 --> 00:50:00,250 İnan kardeşim. İnan! 572 00:50:01,583 --> 00:50:03,708 -Sorun yok. -Tamam. Biliyorum. 573 00:50:03,791 --> 00:50:05,416 -Birazdan geçecek. -Tamam. 574 00:50:06,000 --> 00:50:08,625 Birazdan. 575 00:50:13,125 --> 00:50:14,125 İnanç! 576 00:50:14,208 --> 00:50:18,083 Birkaç dakika! Sadece birkaç dakika! 577 00:50:18,166 --> 00:50:21,416 Beden öldü ama bir anlığına! 578 00:50:21,500 --> 00:50:23,875 Paskalya, bedenin dirilişi demektir. 579 00:50:23,958 --> 00:50:26,708 Birazdan tanık olacağımız şey bu. 580 00:50:27,666 --> 00:50:28,958 Şerif, lütfen. 581 00:50:34,125 --> 00:50:35,208 Bakın. 582 00:50:36,458 --> 00:50:43,166 "Seyredin. Tanrının bir meleği onlara göründü. Büyük bir korkuya kapıldılar." 583 00:50:44,625 --> 00:50:45,666 İnanın kardeşlerim. 584 00:50:45,750 --> 00:50:48,458 Gördüğünüz şeyi size göstermem için, 585 00:50:48,541 --> 00:50:51,291 seçeceğiniz şeyi seçmenizi istemem için 586 00:50:51,375 --> 00:50:55,666 önce Tanrı'nın elçisini size göstermem gerekir. 587 00:51:00,166 --> 00:51:04,000 Unutmayın kardeşlerim, inanın ki İncil'de 588 00:51:04,083 --> 00:51:09,041 ne zaman bir melekten söz edilse, ne zaman bir melek biz insanlara görünse 589 00:51:09,625 --> 00:51:11,250 hepimiz korkarız. 590 00:51:12,125 --> 00:51:14,833 "Bu sırada, Rabb'in bir meleği 591 00:51:14,916 --> 00:51:17,916 buhur sunağının sağında durup onlara göründü. 592 00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:24,166 Zekeriya onu görünce şaşırdı, korkuya kapıldı. 593 00:51:37,791 --> 00:51:40,208 Sonra Tanrı'nın bir meleği önlerinde durdu. 594 00:51:40,833 --> 00:51:45,458 Çevrelerinde Tanrı'nın şanı parıldadı ve çok korktular. 595 00:51:45,541 --> 00:51:51,958 Ve melek şöyle dedi, 'Korkmayın, korkmayın, korkuya kapılmayın!' 596 00:51:57,541 --> 00:51:59,458 Bunun üzerine ölü adamın yattığı 597 00:51:59,541 --> 00:52:02,041 mağaranın önünden taşı çektiler. 598 00:52:04,208 --> 00:52:08,958 İsa gözlerini gökyüzüne kaldırarak şöyle dedi, 599 00:52:09,041 --> 00:52:14,583 'Baba, beni işittiğin için sana şükrediyorum. 600 00:52:16,500 --> 00:52:19,166 Beni işittiğin için sana şükrediyorum.' 601 00:52:22,625 --> 00:52:26,250 Sonra yüksek sesle, 'Lazar, dışarı çık!' diye bağırdı. 602 00:52:26,333 --> 00:52:27,791 Ölü, dışarı çıktı! 603 00:52:27,875 --> 00:52:30,708 Elleri ayakları sargılarla bağlıydı, 604 00:52:30,791 --> 00:52:34,916 yüzü peşkirle sarılmıştı. İsa oradakilere, 605 00:52:35,000 --> 00:52:36,791 'Onu çözün, bırakın gitsin' dedi." 606 00:52:36,875 --> 00:52:41,208 Kardeşlerim, kurtuluşa çok yakınsınız. 607 00:52:41,291 --> 00:52:43,208 Mucize zaten içinizde. 608 00:52:43,291 --> 00:52:45,750 Meleğin kanı damarlarınızda dolaşıyor bile 609 00:52:45,833 --> 00:52:47,875 ama henüz tamama ermedi. 610 00:52:47,958 --> 00:52:50,708 Son dönüşümün gerçekleşmesi için 611 00:52:50,791 --> 00:52:56,750 dünyevi bedeninizi öldürmelisiniz ki ilahi bedeniniz uyanabilsin. 612 00:52:57,458 --> 00:53:00,708 Bir inanç anı. Tanrı'nın bizden istediği bedel bu. 613 00:53:00,791 --> 00:53:03,333 Bir anlık cesaret. 614 00:53:04,416 --> 00:53:09,041 Tekneden dışarıya küçük bir adım. Suya doğru. 615 00:53:09,125 --> 00:53:14,875 Küçük bir rahatsızlık anı. Kendi küçük ıstırabımız. 616 00:53:15,458 --> 00:53:19,625 Sunulan bir hediye, sonra tekrar doğacağız. 617 00:53:20,333 --> 00:53:23,833 Açın zihinlerinizi! Açın yüreklerinizi! 618 00:53:24,416 --> 00:53:27,791 Ve o sese kulak verin. Kafanızın gerisindeki o sese. 619 00:53:27,875 --> 00:53:32,250 Dünyanın susturmaya çalıştığı, yok saymanızı öğretmeye çalıştığı o sese! 620 00:53:32,333 --> 00:53:38,291 Meleğimizin sesi "Korkmayın" diyor. 621 00:53:38,375 --> 00:53:39,958 Hayır. 622 00:53:40,041 --> 00:53:41,000 -Hadi. -Baba. 623 00:53:42,083 --> 00:53:44,916 Baba! Dur! 624 00:53:45,000 --> 00:53:48,541 Şerif, yalvarırım kendini mahrum etme. 625 00:53:48,625 --> 00:53:52,625 Oğlunu kurtuluş fırsatından mahrum etme. 626 00:53:52,708 --> 00:53:53,541 Tamam. 627 00:53:55,041 --> 00:53:56,583 -Geri çekilin! -Hey! 628 00:53:57,208 --> 00:53:59,375 Ali, hemen buraya gel. 629 00:53:59,458 --> 00:54:01,041 Hemen benimle geliyorsun. 630 00:54:01,125 --> 00:54:04,250 Sakın oğluma yaklaşayım demeyin! 631 00:54:04,333 --> 00:54:07,458 Şerif, indir onu. Silah doğrultmaya gerek yok. 632 00:54:08,875 --> 00:54:09,833 Geri çekilin! 633 00:54:11,166 --> 00:54:12,625 Ne cüretle? 634 00:54:14,208 --> 00:54:17,708 Ne cüretle Tanrı'nın evine silah getirirsin? 635 00:54:18,333 --> 00:54:22,541 Cesaret örneği sergilediğin için kutsandın oğlum. 636 00:54:22,625 --> 00:54:26,000 Bu delikanlı öz babasının baskısına rağmen 637 00:54:26,083 --> 00:54:28,875 Tanrı'yı seçiyor. 638 00:54:29,625 --> 00:54:32,333 Hepimiz böyle korkusuz olmalıyız. 639 00:54:32,875 --> 00:54:35,791 Teşekkürler. Örnek olduğun için. 640 00:54:37,166 --> 00:54:38,500 Al bunu oğlum. 641 00:54:39,958 --> 00:54:42,458 Hayır Ali. Hey, bana bak. 642 00:54:44,500 --> 00:54:45,416 Hayır. 643 00:54:47,958 --> 00:54:48,875 Tanrı'yı seçiyorum. 644 00:54:50,000 --> 00:54:55,041 Hayır! 645 00:54:55,125 --> 00:54:57,416 Yanındayım. 646 00:54:57,500 --> 00:55:00,541 -Hayır! -Yanındayım. Tamam. 647 00:55:01,125 --> 00:55:03,250 Bir şey yapmalıyız. 648 00:55:04,791 --> 00:55:07,041 -Anneciğim, hayır. -Yok bir şey. 649 00:55:07,125 --> 00:55:08,375 -İçme onu. -Yapma! 650 00:55:08,916 --> 00:55:10,500 Yapma. Lütfen! 651 00:55:10,583 --> 00:55:12,250 -Buna gerek yok. -Hayır! 652 00:55:16,833 --> 00:55:18,375 Hayır. 653 00:55:18,458 --> 00:55:19,333 Sorun yok. 654 00:55:20,291 --> 00:55:23,500 Yardım edebilirim. Dinle, korkuyorsun. Yardım edebilirim. 655 00:55:32,166 --> 00:55:33,791 -Baba, dur. -Yardım edebilirim. 656 00:55:33,875 --> 00:55:36,541 Bana bak. Birlikte yapacağız. Tamam mı? 657 00:55:38,500 --> 00:55:39,625 Yok bir şey. 658 00:55:40,750 --> 00:55:43,875 İnanç. 659 00:55:50,500 --> 00:55:52,916 -Leeza! -Leeza! 660 00:56:01,916 --> 00:56:05,791 İnanç! 661 00:56:05,875 --> 00:56:10,041 Onları kaldırıp kartal kanatlarında taşıdı 662 00:56:10,125 --> 00:56:11,583 ve onları yanına aldı! 663 00:56:23,291 --> 00:56:25,958 Anne! 664 00:56:28,875 --> 00:56:30,041 Kapıları kapayın. 665 00:56:31,291 --> 00:56:33,375 Kapıları kapayın! 666 00:56:36,041 --> 00:56:36,958 Şükürler olsun. 667 00:56:37,666 --> 00:56:38,583 Kilitle! 668 00:56:40,208 --> 00:56:41,416 O iyi. 669 00:56:43,125 --> 00:56:45,833 İyi olacak. İyileşecek. 670 00:56:45,916 --> 00:56:49,000 Tanrı'nın mucizesinin parçası bu! 671 00:56:49,625 --> 00:56:53,333 Bazılarınız o mucizeyi yok edecekti! 672 00:56:54,583 --> 00:56:57,416 Uzun sürmeyecek. 673 00:56:57,500 --> 00:56:59,708 Siz dinlenip iyileşin. 674 00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:03,125 Tutun onu. 675 00:57:03,708 --> 00:57:05,958 Ne yapacağız? Gerçekten iyileşecek mi? 676 00:57:06,041 --> 00:57:07,291 Tabii iyileşecek. 677 00:57:08,375 --> 00:57:10,625 Senin neyin var böyle? 678 00:57:11,458 --> 00:57:13,916 Böyle bir hediyeyi heba ediyorsun! 679 00:57:14,791 --> 00:57:16,583 Şerif'i götürün. Arkadan çıkarın. 680 00:57:17,208 --> 00:57:20,875 Yakında bize yiyecek gerekecek. 681 00:57:23,375 --> 00:57:24,541 Sturge. 682 00:57:25,208 --> 00:57:26,083 Sturge! 683 00:57:41,875 --> 00:57:43,416 Kapılar kilitli kalsın. 684 00:57:44,458 --> 00:57:47,958 Bunu planladı. Dedi ki, "Kapılar kapalı kalsın 685 00:57:48,041 --> 00:57:50,291 ve uyandıklarında onlara yardım edin!" 686 00:57:51,166 --> 00:57:54,375 Kardeşlerim, sevinin! 687 00:57:54,458 --> 00:57:57,583 -Havarilerin ilki uyanıyor. -Ali. 688 00:57:57,666 --> 00:58:01,416 -Ve Komünyon için arzu duyacaklar. -Ali. Hey. 689 00:58:01,500 --> 00:58:06,083 Tanrı'nın kutsaması üzerimize olacak! 690 00:58:06,916 --> 00:58:08,875 -Anneciğim? -Leeza. 691 00:58:24,083 --> 00:58:25,166 Anne! 692 00:58:26,583 --> 00:58:27,500 Ben iyiyim canım. 693 00:58:28,208 --> 00:58:30,166 İyiyim. Ve ben… 694 00:58:31,041 --> 00:58:32,875 -Anneciğim? -Ah, hayatım. 695 00:58:34,125 --> 00:58:35,208 Müthiş bir şey. 696 00:58:36,083 --> 00:58:38,625 Mumlar, şarkı söylüyorlar. 697 00:58:41,125 --> 00:58:42,958 Şükürler olsun. 698 00:58:47,375 --> 00:58:48,500 Anneciğim? 699 00:58:49,333 --> 00:58:51,375 -Leeza. -Anne! 700 00:58:56,125 --> 00:58:57,333 Her şey yolunda. Tamam. 701 00:58:58,208 --> 00:58:59,625 -Yok bir şey. Tamam. -Hayır. 702 00:58:59,708 --> 00:59:00,666 Şüphe duyma. 703 00:59:14,041 --> 00:59:15,250 Wade! 704 00:59:25,583 --> 00:59:27,458 Hadi! Gidelim. 705 00:59:46,083 --> 00:59:46,916 Hayır! 706 00:59:52,250 --> 00:59:54,416 -Gidelim! Hadi, bu taraftan! -Anne! 707 00:59:56,625 --> 00:59:58,916 -Gidin! -Ed! 708 01:00:27,375 --> 01:00:29,250 Birazdan bitecek. 709 01:00:29,833 --> 01:00:32,083 Hepsi ebediyete uyanacak. 710 01:00:32,166 --> 01:00:33,000 Saklandın mı? 711 01:00:38,458 --> 01:00:40,583 Ne yapacaksın Erin Greene? 712 01:00:41,291 --> 01:00:42,500 Silah mı? 713 01:00:43,083 --> 01:00:45,625 Artık onların bir anlamı yok. 714 01:00:46,250 --> 01:00:49,291 Yeni dünyada anlamı yok. Ölümün olmadığı dünyada. 715 01:00:51,083 --> 01:00:54,375 Şimdi beni vurabilirsin. Beş dakika sonra… 716 01:01:00,791 --> 01:01:01,916 Beş dakikamız var. 717 01:02:19,750 --> 01:02:20,791 Ben… 718 01:02:22,083 --> 01:02:23,333 Ne oldu, bilmiyorum. 719 01:02:25,500 --> 01:02:26,375 Sorun yok. 720 01:02:28,416 --> 01:02:29,458 Ben… 721 01:02:31,000 --> 01:02:32,125 Kapıları aç. 722 01:02:33,416 --> 01:02:36,416 Monsenyör onlar uyanmadan kapıları kapatmamızı söylemişti. 723 01:02:37,583 --> 01:02:42,750 Rehberlik edip yönlendirelim ki… 724 01:02:45,500 --> 01:02:46,958 Bu olmasın, demişti. 725 01:02:47,875 --> 01:02:51,083 Onu severim. Gerçekten. Ama bak, 726 01:02:51,166 --> 01:02:54,791 tam da olması gerektiği gibi oldu. 727 01:02:56,000 --> 01:02:59,250 Ne derler bilirsin, "İnsan planlar, Tanrı güler." 728 01:03:00,833 --> 01:03:03,666 Kiliseye gelip komünyon ayinine katılanların 729 01:03:03,750 --> 01:03:05,458 bu gece korkmasına gerek yok. 730 01:03:06,583 --> 01:03:08,166 Diğerlerine gelince… 731 01:03:11,333 --> 01:03:13,125 Tanrı onları bildiği gibi yapsın. 732 01:03:16,250 --> 01:03:17,416 İnanç, Monsenyör. 733 01:03:18,541 --> 01:03:21,041 İnanç ve cesaret. Tıpkı dediğiniz gibi. 734 01:03:24,625 --> 01:03:26,125 Kapıları açın. 735 01:03:27,916 --> 01:03:32,708 Kapılar açık kalacak, zira cennetin kapıları daima açıktır. 736 01:03:36,291 --> 01:03:38,416 Müjde başka nasıl yayılır? 737 01:05:36,208 --> 01:05:41,208 Alt yazı çevirmeni: Selen Akhuy

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1 00:00:10,958 --> 00:00:12,750 [waves splashing] 2 00:00:35,625 --> 00:00:36,708 [sniffles] 3 00:01:01,958 --> 00:01:02,791 [sniffles] 4 00:01:08,875 --> 00:01:09,875 [exhales] 5 00:01:12,750 --> 00:01:13,750 [sniffles] 6 00:01:27,708 --> 00:01:29,708 [eerie music playing] 7 00:01:38,208 --> 00:01:39,750 [rustling] 8 00:01:59,791 --> 00:02:01,000 [inhales sharply] 9 00:02:14,875 --> 00:02:15,791 [thuds] 10 00:03:13,291 --> 00:03:14,291 Shit. 11 00:03:17,333 --> 00:03:18,291 [sniffs] 12 00:03:25,166 --> 00:03:26,791 [knocking at door] 13 00:03:38,208 --> 00:03:39,041 [Sarah] Erin. 14 00:03:41,625 --> 00:03:42,625 I need your help. 15 00:03:44,666 --> 00:03:46,083 And now you think I'm crazy. 16 00:03:47,666 --> 00:03:52,000 Because I just heard that come out of my mouth, and I think I'm crazy. 17 00:03:54,583 --> 00:03:55,416 Yeah. 18 00:03:58,333 --> 00:04:00,750 It sounds crazy. 19 00:04:05,666 --> 00:04:07,041 Have you ever heard of… 20 00:04:11,166 --> 00:04:13,000 Ignaz Semmelweis? 21 00:04:18,583 --> 00:04:19,541 No. 22 00:04:19,625 --> 00:04:22,250 [Sarah] He was a Hungarian physician in the 1840s. 23 00:04:22,750 --> 00:04:25,208 Finds himself in charge of two maternity wards. 24 00:04:25,791 --> 00:04:27,916 One was a teaching school, best and brightest, 25 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:30,250 birthing to autopsies, everything in between. 26 00:04:30,791 --> 00:04:34,166 The second was a clinic for women who couldn't afford medical care. 27 00:04:34,791 --> 00:04:37,125 Wasn't even run by doctors. It was midwives. 28 00:04:37,833 --> 00:04:41,375 No surprise that one clinic had a higher mortality rate than the other. 29 00:04:41,875 --> 00:04:43,166 The surprise was which one. 30 00:04:43,916 --> 00:04:45,250 It was the first one. 31 00:04:45,333 --> 00:04:48,416 The teaching school. Death rate was staggering. 32 00:04:48,916 --> 00:04:51,708 Women had a better chance of living giving birth on the streets. 33 00:04:52,291 --> 00:04:55,875 But it didn't make any sense, and it drove him nuts. 34 00:04:56,541 --> 00:05:00,208 He did study after study after study, and beat his head into the wall, 35 00:05:00,291 --> 00:05:02,416 until finally, he suggested that [inhales deeply] 36 00:05:02,500 --> 00:05:05,083 maybe, just maybe for no reason that made any sense, 37 00:05:06,166 --> 00:05:08,083 maybe his students should wash their hands. 38 00:05:08,750 --> 00:05:12,125 After performing the autopsies. Before going into the birthing ward. 39 00:05:12,666 --> 00:05:15,250 So he started a mandatory chlorine hand wash. 40 00:05:15,333 --> 00:05:17,208 Lo and behold, death rates plummeted. 41 00:05:18,916 --> 00:05:21,416 And the scientific community ate him alive. 42 00:05:22,916 --> 00:05:25,541 Germ theory was two decades away from acceptance. 43 00:05:25,625 --> 00:05:29,791 Ideas in that direction were met with disdain, ridicule, exile. 44 00:05:29,875 --> 00:05:33,416 Semmelweis was committed to an asylum. An asylum. 45 00:05:34,583 --> 00:05:35,916 By another scientist. 46 00:05:36,541 --> 00:05:37,708 In fact, he died there. 47 00:05:38,291 --> 00:05:40,541 Oh, and when they replaced him at these clinics, 48 00:05:40,625 --> 00:05:42,958 got rid of that crazy, silly hand wash? 49 00:05:43,541 --> 00:05:45,458 Mortality rates went back up again. 50 00:05:46,875 --> 00:05:49,583 So, yeah, Erin, your story is crazy. 51 00:05:53,541 --> 00:05:56,083 Let me tell you something crazy while we're at it. 52 00:05:57,333 --> 00:05:58,166 I mean… 53 00:05:59,375 --> 00:06:01,791 What's a little crazy between friends, right? 54 00:06:04,041 --> 00:06:06,125 So my mom has made a recovery that is… 55 00:06:06,208 --> 00:06:09,000 "Unprecedented" doesn't quite seem to cover it. 56 00:06:09,083 --> 00:06:11,791 And I've been trying to understand it quietly for now, 57 00:06:11,875 --> 00:06:14,875 because if I told anyone in the medical community what I'm seeing, 58 00:06:14,958 --> 00:06:16,583 they would think that I'm crazy. 59 00:06:17,875 --> 00:06:19,416 They would think I'm fucking insane. 60 00:06:20,041 --> 00:06:22,166 So I've been running tests. Lots of tests. 61 00:06:22,250 --> 00:06:25,791 Which means taking blood to send to the mainland for analysis, 62 00:06:25,875 --> 00:06:28,750 but I haven't sent them yet, because I keep doing this. 63 00:06:29,458 --> 00:06:30,625 Just to see it again. 64 00:06:31,583 --> 00:06:32,958 That's the thing about science. 65 00:06:33,500 --> 00:06:36,666 It deals in what is observable. Testable. Repeatable. 66 00:06:38,208 --> 00:06:41,791 You're telling me today that Riley Flynn caught fire in the sunlight? 67 00:06:42,583 --> 00:06:43,541 That's right. 68 00:06:43,625 --> 00:06:45,541 He literally combusted in the sun? 69 00:06:50,666 --> 00:06:52,208 You're right, Erin. That's crazy. 70 00:06:52,958 --> 00:06:58,583 That is batshit, hold-the-phone, padded-room, clozapine insane. 71 00:06:58,666 --> 00:07:00,916 -[sizzling] -[eerie music playing] 72 00:07:04,125 --> 00:07:05,458 Fucking bonkers. 73 00:07:06,375 --> 00:07:08,541 [smoke detector beeping] 74 00:07:14,000 --> 00:07:15,458 [Mildred] Jesus! 75 00:07:15,541 --> 00:07:17,125 What are you doing in there? 76 00:07:17,208 --> 00:07:21,291 Not a day goes by lately without you setting off the… smoke alarm. 77 00:07:22,375 --> 00:07:24,166 Yeah, Mom. 78 00:07:25,041 --> 00:07:26,666 -I'm nuts. -[Mildred sighs] 79 00:07:26,750 --> 00:07:28,791 Fit for the asylum, all of us. 80 00:07:28,875 --> 00:07:29,958 [laughs weakly] 81 00:07:36,541 --> 00:07:40,083 Monsignor, you have got to be careful. 82 00:07:40,708 --> 00:07:42,958 These curtains are wide open. 83 00:07:43,041 --> 00:07:44,125 [Father Paul] He's gone. 84 00:07:46,541 --> 00:07:49,083 I'm not sure how I can tell. [inhales deeply] 85 00:07:49,166 --> 00:07:54,750 Uh, maybe the same way I could tell that Leeza could walk, I suppose. 86 00:07:54,833 --> 00:07:58,750 Same way… I can hear the voice of the angel. 87 00:07:58,833 --> 00:08:01,041 The sun came up and I could just tell. 88 00:08:03,583 --> 00:08:04,416 He's gone. 89 00:08:06,541 --> 00:08:08,500 -I'm sorry. -It was a gift. It's a gift. 90 00:08:09,916 --> 00:08:10,875 He spat it out. 91 00:08:13,083 --> 00:08:17,375 "For the wages of sin is death. But the gift of God is eternal life 92 00:08:17,458 --> 00:08:20,875 in Jesus Christ, Our Lord." Free will. 93 00:08:21,666 --> 00:08:26,958 The heartbreak you feel at his choice… How must God feel for the world? 94 00:08:27,041 --> 00:08:28,041 Yeah. 95 00:08:29,416 --> 00:08:32,166 I'm sorry that Riley chose what he chose. 96 00:08:33,208 --> 00:08:36,916 It breaks your heart, but that isn't the worst part, is it? 97 00:08:38,000 --> 00:08:41,708 It's that some people aren't content to ruin it for themselves. 98 00:08:41,791 --> 00:08:45,458 They have to poison it for others, as well. 99 00:08:45,541 --> 00:08:48,916 I'm sorry to have to say this, sorry to have to think this way, 100 00:08:49,000 --> 00:08:52,041 but the world is the world, and we have to be smart about this. 101 00:08:52,125 --> 00:08:55,291 "As wise as serpents, as innocent as doves," He said. 102 00:08:59,875 --> 00:09:04,083 Who knows who he talked to all night. 103 00:09:05,833 --> 00:09:09,250 Who knows what else he has done 104 00:09:09,333 --> 00:09:13,125 to deprive others of God's graces. 105 00:09:14,166 --> 00:09:16,916 Judas was part of God's plan too. 106 00:09:17,000 --> 00:09:19,458 Judas was part of it. 107 00:09:22,375 --> 00:09:24,125 The Acts of the Apostles. 108 00:09:25,000 --> 00:09:28,666 When those brave early followers were sent out into the world 109 00:09:28,750 --> 00:09:33,458 as sheep among wolves, "All the believers were of one heart and mind." 110 00:09:33,541 --> 00:09:36,958 "No one claimed that any of their possessions were their own, 111 00:09:37,041 --> 00:09:39,916 but they shared everything that they had." 112 00:09:42,041 --> 00:09:45,125 There will be others like Riley. There always are. 113 00:09:45,208 --> 00:09:50,041 Who try to poison the ears of the faithful against their God. 114 00:09:51,583 --> 00:09:53,041 But tonight, 115 00:09:54,791 --> 00:10:01,708 let's have faith in our church. Let's share everything that we have. 116 00:10:03,291 --> 00:10:04,333 [inhales] 117 00:10:04,875 --> 00:10:08,916 Easter Vigil has always been a night of baptism. 118 00:10:10,333 --> 00:10:11,208 Hasn't it? 119 00:10:14,833 --> 00:10:19,958 [Sarah] So there's a blood disorder called erythropoietic protoporphyria. EPP. 120 00:10:20,041 --> 00:10:24,250 A lot of those myths probably came from EPP. 121 00:10:24,333 --> 00:10:27,041 People with it are extremely sensitive to light, 122 00:10:27,125 --> 00:10:31,541 to the point of burning and blistering in the sun. And very anemic. 123 00:10:31,625 --> 00:10:33,125 So this is a blood disorder? 124 00:10:33,208 --> 00:10:34,875 Not this. No. 125 00:10:35,750 --> 00:10:38,000 But in the same family maybe. 126 00:10:38,666 --> 00:10:41,000 Kind of like the common cold 127 00:10:41,083 --> 00:10:44,166 and the bubonic plague are in the same family. 128 00:10:44,958 --> 00:10:47,791 Say something has been ingested by people on this island. 129 00:10:47,875 --> 00:10:51,833 A virus. An enzyme. A new type of cell. 130 00:10:52,625 --> 00:10:55,000 Some kind of parasite. Who knows? 131 00:10:55,083 --> 00:10:57,791 Something that repairs damaged cells, 132 00:10:57,875 --> 00:11:02,125 is violently photosensitive, and causes an insane anemia. 133 00:11:02,208 --> 00:11:05,250 A desperate hunger for iron. Iron in blood. 134 00:11:05,333 --> 00:11:08,666 At first, this thing in the blood is only present in trace amounts. 135 00:11:09,166 --> 00:11:13,208 But as that ratio increases, the physical alterations become 136 00:11:14,041 --> 00:11:15,583 more pronounced. 137 00:11:17,125 --> 00:11:21,291 Mom, when I put your blood in the sun, and yours too, Erin, 138 00:11:22,250 --> 00:11:26,791 this thing burns away, leaving your normal blood behind. 139 00:11:26,875 --> 00:11:27,875 My blood? 140 00:11:28,750 --> 00:11:30,083 Yours too. 141 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,416 I took the blood sample after the… 142 00:11:34,958 --> 00:11:37,625 And I bet if I'd take Leeza Scarborough's blood 143 00:11:37,708 --> 00:11:39,958 after she could walk again, it would be the same. 144 00:11:40,750 --> 00:11:45,041 But with both of you, your blood is still mostly normal blood, 145 00:11:45,125 --> 00:11:48,041 made up of typical, boring old red blood cells. 146 00:11:48,125 --> 00:11:53,333 But with Riley, perhaps he had more of it in his bloodstream, 147 00:11:53,416 --> 00:11:56,333 so that when the ultraviolet rays penetrated his skin, 148 00:11:57,041 --> 00:12:01,041 the blood, now predominantly this thing, ignited. 149 00:12:02,458 --> 00:12:03,500 This thing? 150 00:12:05,125 --> 00:12:06,291 If you ingest it… 151 00:12:09,708 --> 00:12:11,666 What would happen if you were pregnant? 152 00:12:14,291 --> 00:12:16,500 -What happens then? -[Sarah sighs] 153 00:12:19,958 --> 00:12:23,750 Hypothetically, a pregnancy is an alien presence in a human body. 154 00:12:23,833 --> 00:12:26,875 A lot of processes occur to stop a mother's body 155 00:12:26,958 --> 00:12:30,000 from attacking a fetus in the womb. And even then, sometimes… 156 00:12:32,458 --> 00:12:38,291 But hypothetically, given how aggressively this thing alters the body, 157 00:12:39,708 --> 00:12:42,625 its response to a fetus could be equally aggressive. 158 00:12:48,041 --> 00:12:49,041 [sniffles] 159 00:12:54,458 --> 00:12:55,541 Could you stop it? 160 00:12:56,625 --> 00:12:59,166 If most of your blood was still yours? 161 00:13:00,208 --> 00:13:01,708 Could you stop the process? 162 00:13:03,458 --> 00:13:05,958 [Sarah] I don't know. I have no idea. 163 00:13:06,666 --> 00:13:10,041 I think when we ingest poison, alcohol, whatever, 164 00:13:10,125 --> 00:13:13,125 before a certain point, if we stop taking it in, 165 00:13:14,583 --> 00:13:16,958 maybe our body can push it back out. 166 00:13:17,041 --> 00:13:20,750 Filter it out, the way it does any other harmful substance, if it's not too much. 167 00:13:22,083 --> 00:13:24,833 I mean, that's what I want to think. 168 00:13:26,875 --> 00:13:29,583 Honestly, Mom, I don't have a fucking clue. 169 00:13:31,041 --> 00:13:32,250 All right. 170 00:13:32,958 --> 00:13:35,250 [inhales deeply] 171 00:13:35,333 --> 00:13:36,208 All right. 172 00:13:38,791 --> 00:13:40,666 -Where do we go from here? -[Sarah sighs] 173 00:13:43,541 --> 00:13:44,583 [Erin] Riley. 174 00:13:45,500 --> 00:13:48,166 I'm trying to remember exactly what he said at the end. 175 00:13:48,250 --> 00:13:50,250 But I can't remember it all, not perfectly. 176 00:13:50,333 --> 00:13:54,500 But I do remember one thing pretty well. 177 00:13:57,166 --> 00:13:58,250 He said to run. 178 00:14:19,250 --> 00:14:20,208 Hello? 179 00:14:25,000 --> 00:14:27,250 [Bev] Ed Flynn! Good morning to ya. 180 00:14:27,333 --> 00:14:29,708 Hi there. You mind if I… 181 00:14:35,125 --> 00:14:36,208 Oh. 182 00:14:37,125 --> 00:14:38,333 Sorry to interrupt. 183 00:14:38,416 --> 00:14:41,208 [Bev] Oh, it's nothing. We're just getting ready for tonight. 184 00:14:41,291 --> 00:14:42,541 [Dolly sniffling] 185 00:14:44,083 --> 00:14:45,291 You all right, Dolly? 186 00:14:46,375 --> 00:14:47,375 [sniffles] 187 00:14:47,458 --> 00:14:49,250 Uh, what can we do for you, Ed? 188 00:14:49,333 --> 00:14:50,875 [ominous music playing] 189 00:14:53,166 --> 00:14:55,916 Would you mind if we maybe take a walk? 190 00:14:57,000 --> 00:14:59,000 It's a bit private, what I have to say. 191 00:15:02,083 --> 00:15:05,833 -Actually-- -We were headed out already. 192 00:15:07,500 --> 00:15:09,458 A lot to get done today, it turns out. 193 00:15:10,416 --> 00:15:11,541 Leave you to it. 194 00:15:14,916 --> 00:15:15,833 -[Ed] Dolly. -[Wade] Ed. 195 00:15:15,916 --> 00:15:16,791 [Ed] Wade. 196 00:15:16,875 --> 00:15:18,125 -Ed. -Sturge. 197 00:15:20,708 --> 00:15:21,875 God bless you, Ed. 198 00:15:24,791 --> 00:15:25,625 See you tonight. 199 00:15:28,416 --> 00:15:30,708 -[Ed] Sorry to interrupt, like I said. -Not at all. 200 00:15:33,416 --> 00:15:36,916 I don't really know how to say this, so I'll just come out and say it. 201 00:15:40,458 --> 00:15:46,375 My son. You've been what? Getting him to… write letters? 202 00:15:47,625 --> 00:15:49,500 -Making amends? -Yeah. 203 00:15:50,166 --> 00:15:54,916 Yeah. Part of his recovery, making amends. We're working on that. 204 00:15:55,000 --> 00:15:56,625 [Ed smacks lips] Well… 205 00:15:58,291 --> 00:15:59,666 I don't think he's well. 206 00:16:01,625 --> 00:16:02,625 [sighs] 207 00:16:03,500 --> 00:16:07,166 It's no surprise to you or me or anybody else, but… 208 00:16:08,750 --> 00:16:10,125 So he wrote some letters. 209 00:16:10,791 --> 00:16:12,458 Uh, to me, his mother. 210 00:16:13,625 --> 00:16:16,916 And I read mine first and it was unsettling. 211 00:16:18,125 --> 00:16:20,958 [smacks lips] Then I read Annie's and hers was… 212 00:16:22,458 --> 00:16:23,458 [exhales sharply] 213 00:16:24,375 --> 00:16:26,333 He isn't well, clearly. 214 00:16:27,458 --> 00:16:29,041 [sighs] I mean, this stuff, it's… 215 00:16:31,166 --> 00:16:33,875 crazy stuff. Delusional stuff. 216 00:16:35,625 --> 00:16:38,291 And I don't know where he is. I don't know where to look. 217 00:16:39,208 --> 00:16:42,041 I don't know where to go. I can't go to the sheriff. 218 00:16:42,125 --> 00:16:44,375 I mean, if he's in a bad way 219 00:16:44,458 --> 00:16:46,916 and it's my phone call that sends in the law, 220 00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:50,500 and he's gotta go back. I mean, he's gotta go back to where he's been, 221 00:16:51,333 --> 00:16:54,583 and it's me that helps send him there… [sighs] 222 00:16:55,958 --> 00:16:57,458 You've been spending time with him. 223 00:16:58,125 --> 00:17:00,916 And I thought you'd be the one to ask. 224 00:17:02,500 --> 00:17:04,375 I think… [sighs] 225 00:17:05,166 --> 00:17:07,583 I think he may have done something to himself. 226 00:17:09,083 --> 00:17:12,875 These letters seem as much like a goodbye as I've ever heard. 227 00:17:13,958 --> 00:17:16,458 [sighs] And I had to ask you about it because 228 00:17:17,750 --> 00:17:22,208 whatever delusions he had, he put you in the middle of 'em. 229 00:17:23,541 --> 00:17:25,708 He said some crazy stuff about you. 230 00:17:29,041 --> 00:17:31,500 Um, I'm so sorry about that, Ed. 231 00:17:34,166 --> 00:17:36,041 Uh, yes, the answer is yes. 232 00:17:38,250 --> 00:17:40,041 Riley wasn't well. Isn't well. 233 00:17:43,333 --> 00:17:44,583 Okay. 234 00:17:45,458 --> 00:17:47,041 [sobbing] 235 00:17:50,041 --> 00:17:52,833 Oh, come on. Ed, I don't want to make you feel like that. 236 00:17:55,166 --> 00:17:56,375 Will you please believe me? 237 00:17:56,875 --> 00:18:00,916 I just never, never could do it with him. I… 238 00:18:02,250 --> 00:18:05,208 It's like we spoke different languages sometimes and I… 239 00:18:10,166 --> 00:18:11,166 I did my best. 240 00:18:12,208 --> 00:18:14,250 [Father Paul] Well, we don't know, Ed. We… 241 00:18:15,416 --> 00:18:16,833 Uh, maybe he's on a bender. 242 00:18:16,916 --> 00:18:19,333 Maybe he's taken the ferry to the mainland. 243 00:18:19,416 --> 00:18:22,041 He's just in a bad place. Don't assume the worst. 244 00:18:22,125 --> 00:18:24,416 In fact, hey, assume the best. 245 00:18:25,958 --> 00:18:28,458 That's what God teaches us about being parents. 246 00:18:30,291 --> 00:18:32,000 Do as he does. 247 00:18:33,291 --> 00:18:36,291 You love your son as God loves us. Assume the best. 248 00:18:39,791 --> 00:18:42,791 Do you want… Do you want me to take the letters, 249 00:18:42,875 --> 00:18:45,833 uh, just to see if it sparks something? 250 00:18:46,500 --> 00:18:49,791 Yeah, I was gonna give 'em to you anyway, 'cause, see, 251 00:18:49,875 --> 00:18:53,375 one of them is made out to Monsignor Pruitt. 252 00:18:53,458 --> 00:18:55,458 I didn't open that one. 253 00:18:55,541 --> 00:18:57,875 [exhales] I didn't wanna burden the poor man. 254 00:18:59,458 --> 00:19:01,916 If he even remembers who Riley is anymore. 255 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:02,833 He does. 256 00:19:03,333 --> 00:19:06,000 I thought you'd know best if we should send it to him. 257 00:19:08,041 --> 00:19:11,083 Altar boy to his priest. I thought maybe… I don't know. 258 00:19:13,041 --> 00:19:13,875 I don't know. 259 00:19:16,916 --> 00:19:18,916 [somber music playing] 260 00:20:20,083 --> 00:20:21,750 [Annie] Oh, Erin. 261 00:20:23,291 --> 00:20:24,125 How, um… 262 00:20:25,333 --> 00:20:27,500 -How are you? -[Erin] Um, well, I'm… 263 00:20:28,500 --> 00:20:32,416 I was hoping that maybe you and Ed and Warren would… 264 00:20:32,500 --> 00:20:36,541 I'm going to the mainland this evening, I'm catching the Belle. 265 00:20:36,625 --> 00:20:39,125 I was hoping you would come with me. 266 00:20:40,541 --> 00:20:42,625 Well, dear. That's… 267 00:20:43,666 --> 00:20:45,500 My, what an odd request. 268 00:20:46,375 --> 00:20:49,291 No, we have mass tonight, Easter Vigil. 269 00:20:49,875 --> 00:20:51,333 And why would we… 270 00:20:52,875 --> 00:20:55,166 -Are you all right? -[sniffles] Oh, yeah. 271 00:20:55,250 --> 00:20:59,416 [Annie] Whatever we can do for you, we're here. We're here for… 272 00:21:02,916 --> 00:21:05,875 Honestly, instead, I wonder 273 00:21:07,708 --> 00:21:09,375 if you would help me. 274 00:21:10,875 --> 00:21:11,708 I, um… 275 00:21:14,333 --> 00:21:15,750 Well, to put it plain… 276 00:21:17,875 --> 00:21:19,416 I'm worried about Riley. 277 00:21:20,708 --> 00:21:24,333 And… maybe if you tell him 278 00:21:25,750 --> 00:21:27,458 he needs to come home… 279 00:21:30,625 --> 00:21:32,458 I'm not about to be in his business. 280 00:21:34,000 --> 00:21:35,708 -But this is days now. -[sniffles] 281 00:21:36,875 --> 00:21:38,708 Maybe you could bring him home tonight? 282 00:21:39,916 --> 00:21:41,750 We could all have dinner before mass? 283 00:21:42,333 --> 00:21:43,333 Riley's dead. 284 00:21:46,958 --> 00:21:47,958 He is. 285 00:21:48,875 --> 00:21:50,000 I'm so sorry. 286 00:21:51,750 --> 00:21:54,333 [sniffles] But he's gone. I'm… 287 00:21:55,708 --> 00:22:00,291 He told me, if I could, he wanted his family to be safe. 288 00:22:00,375 --> 00:22:02,250 -He wanted you away. -Quiet. 289 00:22:03,416 --> 00:22:05,791 -I'm sorry. -Be quiet, dear. 290 00:22:09,291 --> 00:22:13,750 We have always tried. Our whole family, we have always tried 291 00:22:14,916 --> 00:22:17,458 to be there for you, and we have always been. 292 00:22:17,541 --> 00:22:18,750 [sniffles] 293 00:22:18,833 --> 00:22:21,666 -Why would you say something like that? -I'm sorry. 294 00:22:21,750 --> 00:22:24,291 [yelling] Why would you say something like that? 295 00:22:24,375 --> 00:22:25,833 You're not funny. 296 00:22:25,916 --> 00:22:27,541 What is wrong with you? 297 00:22:28,125 --> 00:22:29,833 -Mrs. Flynn-- -Get out! 298 00:22:32,333 --> 00:22:33,333 [sniffles] 299 00:22:34,916 --> 00:22:35,916 [sobs] 300 00:22:41,166 --> 00:22:42,166 [exhales] 301 00:22:42,250 --> 00:22:44,291 -[Hassan] What? -I know. 302 00:22:46,291 --> 00:22:48,541 I'm going to the mainland this afternoon. 303 00:22:48,625 --> 00:22:50,000 I'm bringing my samples, 304 00:22:50,083 --> 00:22:52,583 giving them to my colleagues to corroborate my findings, 305 00:22:52,666 --> 00:22:54,250 and then I'm coming back here. 306 00:22:55,166 --> 00:22:56,000 With help. 307 00:22:56,583 --> 00:23:00,666 You're telling me there's a contagion being spread intentionally 308 00:23:01,666 --> 00:23:02,583 at St. Patrick's. 309 00:23:03,375 --> 00:23:07,625 I'm telling you that is what I suspect, even if it sounds… [scoffs] 310 00:23:07,708 --> 00:23:11,833 -What exactly are you asking of me? -I suppose I'm asking you to look into it. 311 00:23:11,916 --> 00:23:14,291 Look into what, exactly? 312 00:23:15,458 --> 00:23:16,875 Look into St. Patrick's? 313 00:23:16,958 --> 00:23:19,666 On… And just to be clear, 314 00:23:19,750 --> 00:23:23,125 on the basis that some of your mother's blood tests got damaged? 315 00:23:23,208 --> 00:23:25,541 -It's a lot to ask, I know. -Do you? 316 00:23:26,500 --> 00:23:27,375 [Sarah sighs] 317 00:23:28,458 --> 00:23:29,291 Do you? 318 00:23:32,833 --> 00:23:35,041 [clicks tongue] Did I ever tell you why I moved here? 319 00:23:36,000 --> 00:23:38,041 No. No, I don't think you did. 320 00:23:38,791 --> 00:23:41,125 Didn't tell anybody, now that I think about it. 321 00:23:42,083 --> 00:23:45,166 It's almost as if nobody asked. 322 00:23:46,958 --> 00:23:50,958 You know, I was, um, 21 when the Towers went down. 323 00:23:51,500 --> 00:23:54,416 Watched it on TV in my dorm room just weepin'. 324 00:23:55,708 --> 00:23:59,625 When I was a kid, I wasn't religious at all, really. 325 00:24:00,916 --> 00:24:04,583 But I went to the mosque that day, because they had a blood drive, 326 00:24:05,208 --> 00:24:06,958 and the line went for blocks. 327 00:24:07,625 --> 00:24:08,666 I wanted to help. 328 00:24:10,125 --> 00:24:12,875 I wanted to protect this country. 329 00:24:14,041 --> 00:24:18,250 So I moved to New York and enrolled in NYPD training. 330 00:24:18,333 --> 00:24:20,541 Now, some of my friends, they weren't happy. 331 00:24:21,125 --> 00:24:25,958 "NYPD is against us," they'd say. But I'd tell them, "No. You're wrong." 332 00:24:26,958 --> 00:24:29,666 "I'll show them they don't have to be afraid of us." 333 00:24:30,916 --> 00:24:32,333 "I'll show them who we are." 334 00:24:33,750 --> 00:24:35,000 So I worked my way up. 335 00:24:36,333 --> 00:24:40,708 You know, traffic, and translating and transcribing wiretaps, then Vice. 336 00:24:40,791 --> 00:24:45,791 I get married. Ali is born, and I'm promoted again. Detective now. 337 00:24:47,125 --> 00:24:52,041 Top secret security clearance for the joint terrorism task force. 338 00:24:52,125 --> 00:24:55,791 I'm helping the FBI fight terrorists. 339 00:24:57,375 --> 00:25:01,875 We're taking collars. You know, petty stuff, pot, parking tickets 340 00:25:01,958 --> 00:25:04,125 and leaning on them hard if they're Muslim. 341 00:25:04,208 --> 00:25:07,458 "You know, we'll drop the charge, help you out." 342 00:25:07,541 --> 00:25:09,125 "You go to the mosque and listen." 343 00:25:09,958 --> 00:25:12,583 I thought we were supposed to be fighting terrorists. 344 00:25:13,625 --> 00:25:17,625 Not flipping some pothead student in Queens to spy on Americans. 345 00:25:18,875 --> 00:25:20,583 So I complain. 346 00:25:21,625 --> 00:25:23,875 Gently. One time. 347 00:25:25,708 --> 00:25:26,666 Everything changed. 348 00:25:27,583 --> 00:25:30,333 I was surveilled by other cops. 349 00:25:30,916 --> 00:25:33,125 I mean, they even had an official file on me. 350 00:25:34,916 --> 00:25:37,958 And not just me. See, like, after the Towers, 351 00:25:38,541 --> 00:25:42,125 Muslim officers were promoted fast. Especially if we knew the language, 352 00:25:42,208 --> 00:25:44,750 like, linguistic knowledge, cultural knowledge. 353 00:25:45,583 --> 00:25:47,458 We were very desirable for that. 354 00:25:48,458 --> 00:25:50,125 But it started to occur to them, 355 00:25:51,833 --> 00:25:56,166 with so many of us on the force, elevated to positions of real authority, 356 00:25:57,416 --> 00:26:00,041 what if that had been our plan all along? 357 00:26:02,833 --> 00:26:04,291 What if we were interlopers? 358 00:26:05,583 --> 00:26:07,125 What if we were infiltrators? 359 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:13,500 What if we were double agents? And they fucking panicked. 360 00:26:13,583 --> 00:26:17,000 Internal Affairs was suddenly all over us. We were being followed. 361 00:26:17,083 --> 00:26:20,791 We're being recorded. Civilians too. Surveilled at mosques, cafes. 362 00:26:20,875 --> 00:26:24,833 And suddenly I'm out of plain clothes and I'm back in uniform. 363 00:26:26,625 --> 00:26:28,333 Night shift, street beat. 364 00:26:29,083 --> 00:26:32,833 And more and more, I realize I've lost their trust. 365 00:26:38,000 --> 00:26:38,833 I roll with it. 366 00:26:40,041 --> 00:26:41,125 I keep my head high. 367 00:26:42,958 --> 00:26:43,791 Dignity. 368 00:26:49,375 --> 00:26:51,416 Dignity is a word my wife uses. 369 00:26:53,500 --> 00:26:55,166 "Show them dignity." 370 00:26:57,166 --> 00:26:58,791 And then she's diagnosed. 371 00:27:01,125 --> 00:27:05,208 And she's robbed of her dignity so fast. 372 00:27:08,333 --> 00:27:09,500 And then she's gone. 373 00:27:10,333 --> 00:27:11,250 And I couldn't… 374 00:27:15,708 --> 00:27:19,833 Ali and I get as far away as we can. And I find this gig. 375 00:27:20,666 --> 00:27:21,791 This little island. 376 00:27:23,083 --> 00:27:26,625 So sleepy, it could be dead. 377 00:27:26,708 --> 00:27:33,000 No elections, no staff. Just a tiny room at the back of a grocery store, 378 00:27:33,083 --> 00:27:37,166 and a bunch of fishermen without a notable incident of intentional violence 379 00:27:37,250 --> 00:27:41,083 in almost a century, and I beg for the post. 380 00:27:43,333 --> 00:27:44,166 Dignity. 381 00:27:47,500 --> 00:27:49,708 Ali is bored to tears. 382 00:27:50,583 --> 00:27:51,500 But he's safe. 383 00:27:53,041 --> 00:27:58,833 And I still think I could maybe move the world that one millimeter. 384 00:28:00,583 --> 00:28:03,083 You know, maybe here's where we make a difference. 385 00:28:03,166 --> 00:28:06,041 Not in the big city, but in this tiny village. 386 00:28:06,750 --> 00:28:10,166 Win over the fucking PTA and call it a victory for Islam. 387 00:28:11,250 --> 00:28:12,416 So I don't intimidate. 388 00:28:14,750 --> 00:28:20,000 I don't overshare or overstep or intrude in any way. 389 00:28:20,958 --> 00:28:22,458 I don't even carry a gun. 390 00:28:24,708 --> 00:28:25,666 And still… 391 00:28:27,541 --> 00:28:28,375 Still… 392 00:28:29,583 --> 00:28:33,000 Beverly Keane and a few others too 393 00:28:33,958 --> 00:28:37,250 look at me like I'm Osama bin-Fucking-Laden. 394 00:28:39,708 --> 00:28:40,958 And you'd like me 395 00:28:42,166 --> 00:28:43,875 to investigate St. Patrick's? 396 00:28:54,750 --> 00:28:55,916 For what it's worth, 397 00:28:56,458 --> 00:29:00,458 I want very much… very much to be wrong. 398 00:29:05,208 --> 00:29:08,833 -[Sarah sighs] -Well, remind yourself, if this persists, 399 00:29:09,541 --> 00:29:12,500 you're basing this on a third-hand account from Riley Flynn. 400 00:29:13,958 --> 00:29:16,250 Hardly the most reliable person on the island. 401 00:29:17,333 --> 00:29:18,750 You don't carry a gun? 402 00:29:22,541 --> 00:29:23,625 No need. 403 00:29:25,833 --> 00:29:26,875 Hmm. 404 00:29:31,791 --> 00:29:32,958 [door closes] 405 00:29:33,875 --> 00:29:35,208 [seagulls squawking] 406 00:29:58,666 --> 00:30:00,041 [Sarah] Where's the Belle? 407 00:30:02,625 --> 00:30:05,916 I can count on one hand the number of times that boat's been late. 408 00:30:07,416 --> 00:30:08,833 In my lifetime, anyway. 409 00:30:10,500 --> 00:30:11,583 Can I help you folks? 410 00:30:13,583 --> 00:30:15,916 -Just looking for the Belle. -No Belle today. 411 00:30:17,000 --> 00:30:19,500 The mayor sent it for repairs. 412 00:30:20,000 --> 00:30:23,125 Uh… some parts that got recalled. 413 00:30:24,041 --> 00:30:27,000 The Belle and the Breeze. We shipped 'em off this afternoon. 414 00:30:28,416 --> 00:30:29,333 Both of them. 415 00:30:30,083 --> 00:30:33,083 Well, not a lot of people go off-island in the afternoon, he figured. 416 00:30:33,166 --> 00:30:34,541 That's morning business. 417 00:30:36,208 --> 00:30:38,416 Are y'all planning to go off-island this afternoon? 418 00:30:39,708 --> 00:30:41,916 You'd get stuck over there. You'd miss the vigil. 419 00:30:42,708 --> 00:30:44,458 The Breeze will be back in the morning? 420 00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:48,625 I think so. It's tough to say, though. 421 00:30:49,500 --> 00:30:54,291 But if you're worried, Doc, I suggest you bring it up to the mayor. 422 00:30:54,958 --> 00:30:57,000 I'm sure he could put your mind at ease. 423 00:30:59,083 --> 00:31:00,000 I'm sure he can. 424 00:31:02,041 --> 00:31:04,375 If I did wanna send something over, 425 00:31:04,458 --> 00:31:06,833 I could always ask a fisherman to run me, right? 426 00:31:07,583 --> 00:31:10,208 Lots of boats on this island, if nothing else. 427 00:31:10,291 --> 00:31:12,500 You service them all, don't you? 428 00:31:14,125 --> 00:31:15,125 I reckon so. 429 00:31:16,791 --> 00:31:18,291 Like the one you're on right now? 430 00:31:20,125 --> 00:31:22,416 Yep. Just, uh, giving her a tune-up. 431 00:31:29,083 --> 00:31:30,458 Hey, don't forget! 432 00:31:30,541 --> 00:31:31,583 Easter Vigil. 433 00:31:32,916 --> 00:31:34,916 [eerie music playing] 434 00:31:48,625 --> 00:31:50,041 [thunder rumbling] 435 00:31:58,416 --> 00:31:59,250 [exhales] 436 00:32:26,250 --> 00:32:27,458 [exhales] 437 00:32:38,583 --> 00:32:40,083 -[Sturge] Yeah. -Sturge. 438 00:32:40,166 --> 00:32:42,791 [Sturge] Yeah, hey. Uh, hey, Sheriff. What do you want? 439 00:32:42,875 --> 00:32:47,333 Uh, nothing. Well, uh, we lost power at the general store. 440 00:32:47,416 --> 00:32:50,333 -I just want to see if you're aware-- -Whole island, I'm afraid. 441 00:32:52,458 --> 00:32:54,916 -What, brownout? -[Sturge] It happens now and again. 442 00:32:55,541 --> 00:32:58,333 Sometimes as simple as something come loose underwater 443 00:32:58,416 --> 00:32:59,708 and the mainline getting funky. 444 00:32:59,791 --> 00:33:02,666 I tell you what, I'll swing by the power station 445 00:33:02,750 --> 00:33:04,208 and, uh, take a look. 446 00:33:05,708 --> 00:33:08,666 -Uh, you need any company? -Nah. No, I'm good. 447 00:33:09,750 --> 00:33:12,375 Okay, well, um, just keep me posted. 448 00:33:12,458 --> 00:33:13,916 Yeah, will do. 449 00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:22,375 That's the last of 'em. 450 00:33:23,916 --> 00:33:25,250 How about the boats? 451 00:33:25,333 --> 00:33:28,625 Got about half of 'em. The rest I'll hit before the vigil. 452 00:33:29,708 --> 00:33:31,291 Let's wait on the tower. 453 00:33:32,583 --> 00:33:34,083 Maybe do that one last. 454 00:33:34,750 --> 00:33:36,833 When people are asleep or in church. 455 00:33:38,375 --> 00:33:42,833 Sheriff's eyebrow's already up. The cellular might be a bridge too far. 456 00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:45,000 [Sturge] I'll handle it. 457 00:33:46,958 --> 00:33:48,958 [somber music playing] 458 00:33:49,875 --> 00:33:53,583 [Erin] So the ferries and the lights. 459 00:33:53,666 --> 00:33:59,416 And Sturge is servicing fishing boats at the end of the day on Easter Weekend. 460 00:34:00,625 --> 00:34:01,708 [sighs] 461 00:34:03,291 --> 00:34:06,666 And if the cell tower goes down, then we are completely cut off. 462 00:34:07,875 --> 00:34:09,125 -[Erin] Mm-hmm. -Completely. 463 00:34:12,375 --> 00:34:13,541 [Sarah exhales] 464 00:34:16,500 --> 00:34:20,000 What about the smaller boats? Uh, rowboats, canoes? 465 00:34:20,083 --> 00:34:22,958 We're surrounded by water for 30 miles in every direction. 466 00:34:23,041 --> 00:34:26,541 It's not really an option. It's not really. 467 00:34:28,500 --> 00:34:31,291 [sighs] The whole town is gonna be at mass tonight. 468 00:34:31,375 --> 00:34:34,083 Well, not me and not Sarah. 469 00:34:34,166 --> 00:34:38,041 I told her never again, even before we heard all this. 470 00:34:39,458 --> 00:34:41,750 I really appreciate you taking me in today. 471 00:34:46,541 --> 00:34:47,791 But I'm gonna go tonight. 472 00:34:50,791 --> 00:34:53,333 -Why would you? -[Erin] Because I don't know anything. 473 00:34:54,833 --> 00:34:57,166 I don't know what's gonna happen, if anything will. 474 00:34:57,250 --> 00:35:00,916 What I know is that Riley sacrificed everything. 475 00:35:01,875 --> 00:35:02,708 Everything. 476 00:35:03,666 --> 00:35:05,416 Because he thought I could help. 477 00:35:07,541 --> 00:35:10,708 And now the ferries are gone and the power's out, 478 00:35:10,791 --> 00:35:13,250 and there are gonna be people there tonight that I love. 479 00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:16,250 That Riley loved. 480 00:35:20,708 --> 00:35:22,333 So, yeah, I'm gonna be there. 481 00:35:26,958 --> 00:35:28,000 I'm gonna be there. 482 00:35:31,166 --> 00:35:32,541 [reciting Quran] 483 00:35:49,208 --> 00:35:50,416 [sighs] 484 00:35:53,000 --> 00:35:54,166 I miss you praying. 485 00:35:57,833 --> 00:35:59,625 It'd mean a lot to me if you'd join me. 486 00:36:04,416 --> 00:36:05,250 Right. 487 00:36:10,166 --> 00:36:13,708 -Ready for bed then? -Tonight's Easter Vigil. 488 00:36:15,041 --> 00:36:19,875 It's at midnight. And it would mean a lot to me if you came with me. 489 00:36:19,958 --> 00:36:22,083 [sighs] We've been through this, Ali. I don't want to-- 490 00:36:22,166 --> 00:36:25,208 I know, but they just keep telling me what a big deal this mass is, 491 00:36:25,291 --> 00:36:26,833 and how important it is. 492 00:36:26,916 --> 00:36:29,041 Ooker says Father Paul's been scrambling all day. 493 00:36:29,125 --> 00:36:32,250 There's supposedly some big surprise. 494 00:36:32,333 --> 00:36:34,791 Said something about sharing a miracle tonight. 495 00:36:35,958 --> 00:36:36,916 A miracle? 496 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:41,708 [Ali] Yeah, I mean, if it is, you know. If it is a miracle, another miracle, 497 00:36:42,375 --> 00:36:45,791 I just want you to be there. To see it together. 498 00:36:47,166 --> 00:36:48,166 Will you come? 499 00:37:06,375 --> 00:37:09,375 -[Bev] Happy Easter. -Happy Easter, Miss Keane. 500 00:37:13,625 --> 00:37:14,916 How do you want to start? 501 00:37:15,500 --> 00:37:17,833 I gathered as many candles as I could find, 502 00:37:17,916 --> 00:37:20,625 that we aren't using in the church itself, that is. 503 00:37:21,208 --> 00:37:24,625 Figured we will start up the street, 504 00:37:25,166 --> 00:37:30,166 then cut through the square around the east bank and to the church. 505 00:37:31,166 --> 00:37:32,416 Let people hear us. 506 00:37:34,041 --> 00:37:36,750 I brought some printouts for the hymns. Wade, do you mind? 507 00:37:36,833 --> 00:37:37,666 No, of course. 508 00:37:40,583 --> 00:37:42,041 -For you. -Thank you. 509 00:37:42,125 --> 00:37:42,958 Dolly. 510 00:37:44,833 --> 00:37:46,416 [Bev] "Sing to the Lord a new song." 511 00:37:47,541 --> 00:37:50,041 "Sing to the Lord, all the earth." 512 00:37:51,583 --> 00:37:53,208 [singing "Psalm 96"] 513 00:38:33,666 --> 00:38:35,583 [singing continues] 514 00:39:37,625 --> 00:39:39,166 [all singing] 515 00:41:16,458 --> 00:41:17,916 [singing continues] 516 00:42:20,000 --> 00:42:21,291 [organ playing] 517 00:43:24,541 --> 00:43:25,875 [music stops] 518 00:43:33,500 --> 00:43:35,375 [Father Paul] This right now is one of the most 519 00:43:35,458 --> 00:43:37,416 beautiful things that I've ever seen. 520 00:43:39,375 --> 00:43:43,708 Now, some of you may have noticed that I'm wearing a gold chasuble tonight. 521 00:43:43,791 --> 00:43:45,666 I was actually wearing this on that first Sunday, 522 00:43:45,750 --> 00:43:48,291 the first day of the New Covenant. 523 00:43:48,375 --> 00:43:50,541 Bev called me out on it, in fact, 524 00:43:50,625 --> 00:43:54,375 and asked why I was wearing it on a day in Ordinary Time. 525 00:43:55,458 --> 00:43:59,000 And what I couldn't tell her then, but what I can tell you now, 526 00:43:59,083 --> 00:44:03,375 is that I chose it because it was not an ordinary Sunday. 527 00:44:04,541 --> 00:44:05,541 Not even a little. 528 00:44:06,583 --> 00:44:10,166 And I had cause to celebrate, to rejoice. It was a holy day. 529 00:44:10,250 --> 00:44:12,541 And tonight will be different as well. 530 00:44:13,333 --> 00:44:16,708 Tonight is the beginning of a new era. 531 00:44:17,583 --> 00:44:22,166 And we are meant to celebrate the Resurrection tonight, 532 00:44:22,250 --> 00:44:27,041 and, and we will more than anyone ever has. 533 00:44:27,125 --> 00:44:28,125 But first, 534 00:44:29,666 --> 00:44:32,666 bless me, brothers and sisters, for I have sinned. 535 00:44:32,750 --> 00:44:36,375 It has been too long since my last confession, 536 00:44:37,291 --> 00:44:40,083 and it is so long overdue, 537 00:44:41,333 --> 00:44:42,541 but here is my sin. 538 00:44:44,916 --> 00:44:46,791 I've lied to you all. 539 00:44:49,125 --> 00:44:52,541 I didn't come here to replace Monsignor Pruitt. 540 00:44:53,500 --> 00:44:57,375 He isn't recovering in a hospital in the mainland. He's perfectly healthy. 541 00:44:58,666 --> 00:44:59,625 He has been blessed. 542 00:45:01,208 --> 00:45:04,208 As you have all been blessed, he has been made well, 543 00:45:04,291 --> 00:45:07,125 made whole, made young, the same as you. 544 00:45:07,791 --> 00:45:12,208 He was healed long before you ever saw this face. 545 00:45:13,125 --> 00:45:18,166 He was the first, in fact, and he stands before you right now, 546 00:45:19,750 --> 00:45:21,500 asking for your forgiveness. 547 00:45:24,083 --> 00:45:26,416 Now, some of you must have thought it before, 548 00:45:26,500 --> 00:45:30,500 in the backs of your minds. Minds so trained by the world 549 00:45:30,583 --> 00:45:33,791 to ignore that voice, because how could it be? 550 00:45:33,875 --> 00:45:38,500 That would be impossible. But nothing is impossible with God. 551 00:45:39,208 --> 00:45:40,416 As we have seen. 552 00:45:42,625 --> 00:45:46,458 I was lost and confused, tired and old, 553 00:45:46,541 --> 00:45:48,791 on the road to Damascus when lo and behold, 554 00:45:48,875 --> 00:45:52,458 an angel of the Lord appeared unto me and bestowed upon me 555 00:45:52,541 --> 00:45:55,291 the healing graces of God. 556 00:45:55,375 --> 00:45:58,875 And I was restored, as you have all been restored. 557 00:45:59,500 --> 00:46:04,125 I returned to you all and I brought with me that angel of the Lord 558 00:46:04,208 --> 00:46:09,625 so that he might bless us all, and we have, we've seen the miracles. 559 00:46:10,291 --> 00:46:11,583 Our new bodies. 560 00:46:12,333 --> 00:46:17,125 The resurrection of the body, new and everlasting life. 561 00:46:17,750 --> 00:46:21,250 Now tonight, we will be tested, just a little, 562 00:46:21,333 --> 00:46:24,333 but we will be tested, as was Jesus. 563 00:46:25,208 --> 00:46:29,000 I was afraid when the New Covenant was fulfilled for me. 564 00:46:29,750 --> 00:46:33,666 Afraid as was our Savior, but "he who says he abides in Him, 565 00:46:33,750 --> 00:46:37,458 ought himself also to walk just as He walked." 566 00:46:37,541 --> 00:46:40,250 "Be imitators of Christ." 567 00:46:40,916 --> 00:46:44,125 I followed him into the valley of darkness, 568 00:46:44,208 --> 00:46:46,458 and like our Lord, I endured death. 569 00:46:47,166 --> 00:46:51,916 Mercifully short. A leap of faith, a step out onto the water, 570 00:46:52,625 --> 00:46:56,833 was all he asked of me. And, like Jesus, you will doubt, 571 00:46:56,916 --> 00:47:02,625 you will feel fear, but believe me, I promise you, brothers and sisters, 572 00:47:04,000 --> 00:47:07,541 if you follow me, if you follow us, if you follow Him, 573 00:47:08,916 --> 00:47:12,250 He will raise you again in His glory 574 00:47:13,250 --> 00:47:14,416 to eternal life. 575 00:47:16,666 --> 00:47:20,333 There is a price to be paid for everlasting life, 576 00:47:20,416 --> 00:47:22,416 as there was for our Savior. 577 00:47:23,666 --> 00:47:26,541 And each one of us will have the opportunity tonight 578 00:47:27,583 --> 00:47:28,875 to pay that price. 579 00:47:29,583 --> 00:47:30,875 But first and… [hesitates] 580 00:47:33,416 --> 00:47:36,125 I know after everything we've been through together, 581 00:47:37,333 --> 00:47:41,500 this is not easy to believe, so I invite you as Jesus invited Thomas 582 00:47:41,583 --> 00:47:43,333 to witness for yourself. 583 00:47:44,000 --> 00:47:44,875 Sturge. 584 00:47:53,458 --> 00:47:56,916 [reading] "And I John saw the holy city, New Jerusalem, 585 00:47:57,000 --> 00:47:59,291 coming down from God out of Heaven, 586 00:47:59,375 --> 00:48:03,166 prepared as a bride adorned for her husband." 587 00:48:03,250 --> 00:48:05,708 "And I heard a great voice out of Heaven saying…" 588 00:48:05,791 --> 00:48:09,375 "…Behold, the Tabernacle of God is with men, 589 00:48:09,458 --> 00:48:13,041 and he will dwell with them and they shall be his people, 590 00:48:13,125 --> 00:48:16,916 and God himself shall be with them and be their God." 591 00:48:17,000 --> 00:48:23,583 "He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will be no more." 592 00:48:23,666 --> 00:48:28,375 "Mourning and crying and pain will be no more." 593 00:48:28,458 --> 00:48:30,875 "For the first things have passed away." 594 00:48:30,958 --> 00:48:33,416 "And the one who is seated on the throne said, 595 00:48:33,500 --> 00:48:37,458 'See, I am making all things new.'" 596 00:48:37,541 --> 00:48:42,625 "'I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end.'" 597 00:48:42,708 --> 00:48:45,541 '"To the thirsty, I will give water 598 00:48:45,625 --> 00:48:49,583 as a gift from the spring of the water of life.'" 599 00:48:56,750 --> 00:49:01,208 This will be frightening for all of us, but, Sturge, my brother in Christ, 600 00:49:02,208 --> 00:49:03,250 are you afraid? 601 00:49:04,208 --> 00:49:05,875 No, Father. No, I'm not. 602 00:49:10,416 --> 00:49:11,333 God be with you. 603 00:49:21,250 --> 00:49:24,375 I'm with you. 604 00:49:28,416 --> 00:49:31,583 I'm with you. I'm with him. 605 00:49:32,500 --> 00:49:33,625 [groaning] 606 00:49:33,708 --> 00:49:36,333 -It's all right. That's okay. -[all exclaiming] 607 00:49:36,416 --> 00:49:38,166 -It's okay. It's all right. -[all gasping] 608 00:49:38,250 --> 00:49:40,000 [Sturge groaning] 609 00:49:40,083 --> 00:49:42,500 That's all right. He's all right. 610 00:49:42,583 --> 00:49:43,875 It's all right. 611 00:49:44,458 --> 00:49:47,708 It will be over soon. It will be over soon. 612 00:49:49,291 --> 00:49:52,291 -It's all right. -[Sturge groaning] 613 00:49:53,041 --> 00:49:56,625 It's all right. Have faith! Have faith! 614 00:49:56,708 --> 00:50:00,250 Have faith, my brother. Have faith! 615 00:50:01,583 --> 00:50:03,708 -It's all right. -It's okay. I know. 616 00:50:03,791 --> 00:50:05,416 [Father Paul] This will be over soon. 617 00:50:06,000 --> 00:50:08,625 Soon. Soon. 618 00:50:09,875 --> 00:50:11,333 [shushes] 619 00:50:13,125 --> 00:50:14,125 Faith! 620 00:50:14,208 --> 00:50:18,083 Just a few minutes! Just a few moments, really! 621 00:50:18,166 --> 00:50:21,416 The body is dead, but just for a moment! 622 00:50:21,500 --> 00:50:23,875 The resurrection of the body is what Easter's about. 623 00:50:23,958 --> 00:50:26,708 That is what we are about to witness. 624 00:50:27,666 --> 00:50:28,958 Sheriff, please. I… 625 00:50:29,041 --> 00:50:30,666 [ominous music playing] 626 00:50:32,750 --> 00:50:34,041 [all gasping] 627 00:50:34,125 --> 00:50:35,208 [Father Paul] Behold. 628 00:50:36,458 --> 00:50:43,166 "Lo… lo and behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to them. And they were afraid." 629 00:50:43,250 --> 00:50:44,541 [shudders] 630 00:50:44,625 --> 00:50:45,666 Have faith, brothers and sisters. 631 00:50:45,750 --> 00:50:48,458 I would not make you see what you have seen, 632 00:50:48,541 --> 00:50:51,291 I would not ask you to choose what you may choose, 633 00:50:51,375 --> 00:50:55,666 without first showing you God's messenger. 634 00:50:58,041 --> 00:51:00,083 [Sarah breathing heavily] 635 00:51:00,166 --> 00:51:04,000 And remember, brothers and sisters, have faith that in the Bible, 636 00:51:04,083 --> 00:51:09,041 every time they mention an angel, when an angel appears to we humans, 637 00:51:09,625 --> 00:51:11,250 we are afraid. 638 00:51:12,125 --> 00:51:14,833 "And an angel of the Lord appeared to them 639 00:51:14,916 --> 00:51:17,916 on the right side of the altar of incense." 640 00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:24,166 "And when Zechariah saw him, he was terrified and overcome with fear." 641 00:51:32,666 --> 00:51:34,375 [all gasping] 642 00:51:37,791 --> 00:51:40,750 [Father Paul] "Just then, an angel of the Lord stood before them." 643 00:51:40,833 --> 00:51:45,458 "And the glory of God shone around them and they were sore afraid." 644 00:51:45,541 --> 00:51:51,958 "And the angel said, 'Fear not, fear not, be not afraid!'" 645 00:51:52,041 --> 00:51:53,458 [gasps] 646 00:51:53,541 --> 00:51:54,958 [all gasping] 647 00:51:55,041 --> 00:51:57,458 -[murmuring] -[Sturge groans] 648 00:51:57,541 --> 00:51:59,458 [Father Paul] "And then they took away the stone 649 00:51:59,541 --> 00:52:02,041 from the cave where the dead man was lying." 650 00:52:02,125 --> 00:52:04,125 [all exclaiming] 651 00:52:04,208 --> 00:52:05,750 [Father Paul] "And Jesus looked up 652 00:52:05,833 --> 00:52:08,958 unto the sky and said, 653 00:52:09,041 --> 00:52:14,583 'Father, I thank you, for you have heard me. You have heard me.'" 654 00:52:14,666 --> 00:52:16,416 [Sturge grunts] 655 00:52:16,500 --> 00:52:19,166 [Father Paul sobbing] "'Thank you for hearing me.'" 656 00:52:21,000 --> 00:52:22,541 [organ playing softly] 657 00:52:22,625 --> 00:52:24,958 [Father Paul] "And he cried out in a loud voice! 658 00:52:25,041 --> 00:52:26,250 'Lazarus, come out!'" 659 00:52:26,333 --> 00:52:27,791 "And the dead man came out!" 660 00:52:27,875 --> 00:52:30,708 "And his feet and hands were bound with shreds of cloth, 661 00:52:30,791 --> 00:52:34,916 and his face was wrapped in cloth, and Jesus said to them, 662 00:52:35,000 --> 00:52:36,791 'Unbind him and let him go!'" 663 00:52:36,875 --> 00:52:41,208 Brothers and sisters, you are so close to salvation. 664 00:52:41,291 --> 00:52:43,208 The miracle is already in you. 665 00:52:43,291 --> 00:52:45,750 The blood of the angel is already in your veins, 666 00:52:45,833 --> 00:52:47,875 but it is incomplete. 667 00:52:47,958 --> 00:52:50,708 The final transformation will not be yours 668 00:52:50,791 --> 00:52:56,750 unless you let your earthly body die, so that your divine body can awaken. 669 00:52:57,458 --> 00:53:00,708 One moment of faith. That's the price God asks of us. 670 00:53:00,791 --> 00:53:03,333 Just one moment of courage. 671 00:53:04,416 --> 00:53:09,041 A small step out of the boat. Just onto the water itself. 672 00:53:09,125 --> 00:53:14,875 A small moment of discomfort. A small passion of our own. 673 00:53:15,458 --> 00:53:19,625 A gift offered up, and then we are reborn. 674 00:53:20,333 --> 00:53:23,833 Open your minds! Open your hearts! 675 00:53:24,416 --> 00:53:27,791 And listen to that voice. That voice in the back of your head. 676 00:53:27,875 --> 00:53:32,250 That voice the world has tried to silence, has tried to teach you to ignore! 677 00:53:32,333 --> 00:53:38,291 The voice of our angel, telling you, "Be not afraid." 678 00:53:38,375 --> 00:53:40,166 -No. No. -[cup clatters] 679 00:53:40,250 --> 00:53:41,500 -Come on. -[Ali] Dad. 680 00:53:42,083 --> 00:53:44,916 Dad! Dad! Stop! Stop! 681 00:53:45,000 --> 00:53:48,541 Sheriff, Sheriff. I implore you not to deprive yourself. 682 00:53:48,625 --> 00:53:52,625 Not to deprive your son of the opportunity for salvation. 683 00:53:52,708 --> 00:53:54,958 -Okay. -[all screaming] 684 00:53:55,041 --> 00:53:56,583 -[Hassan] Everybody stay back! -Hey! 685 00:53:57,208 --> 00:53:59,375 [Hassan] Ali, come here right now. 686 00:53:59,458 --> 00:54:01,041 You're coming with me right now. 687 00:54:01,125 --> 00:54:04,250 And if one of you fucking people come anywhere near my son! 688 00:54:04,333 --> 00:54:07,375 Hey, Sheriff, put that down. There's no need to be waving a gun. 689 00:54:07,458 --> 00:54:08,791 -[gun fires] -[all screaming] 690 00:54:08,875 --> 00:54:09,833 Back up! 691 00:54:11,166 --> 00:54:12,625 [Bev] How dare you? 692 00:54:12,708 --> 00:54:13,625 [grunts] 693 00:54:14,208 --> 00:54:17,708 How dare you bring a firearm into the house of God! 694 00:54:18,333 --> 00:54:22,541 Blessed are you, my son, for setting an example of courage. 695 00:54:22,625 --> 00:54:26,000 This young man is choosing God 696 00:54:26,083 --> 00:54:28,875 in the face of pressure from his own father. 697 00:54:28,958 --> 00:54:32,333 -[grunting] -That we should all be so fearless. 698 00:54:32,875 --> 00:54:35,791 Thank you. For setting an example. 699 00:54:37,166 --> 00:54:38,500 Welcome, my son. 700 00:54:39,958 --> 00:54:42,458 [Hassan] No, Ali. Hey, look at me. 701 00:54:42,541 --> 00:54:44,416 [breathing heavily] 702 00:54:44,500 --> 00:54:45,416 No. 703 00:54:47,958 --> 00:54:48,875 I choose God. 704 00:54:50,000 --> 00:54:55,041 [crying] No! No! No! No! 705 00:54:55,125 --> 00:54:57,416 I'm with you. I am with you. 706 00:54:57,500 --> 00:55:00,541 -No! [sobbing] -[Father Paul] I am with you. It's okay. 707 00:55:01,125 --> 00:55:03,250 We have to do something. We have to do something. 708 00:55:03,333 --> 00:55:04,708 -[all murmuring] -[Hassan sobbing] 709 00:55:04,791 --> 00:55:07,041 -[Leeza] Mommy, no. No. -It's okay. 710 00:55:07,125 --> 00:55:08,375 -Don't drink that. -Don't! 711 00:55:08,916 --> 00:55:10,500 Don't. Please! 712 00:55:10,583 --> 00:55:12,500 -You don't need to do that. -[Sarah] No! 713 00:55:13,416 --> 00:55:16,750 [all coughing] 714 00:55:16,833 --> 00:55:18,375 [crying] No. 715 00:55:18,458 --> 00:55:19,333 It's okay. 716 00:55:20,291 --> 00:55:21,416 [Wade] I can help you, honey. 717 00:55:21,500 --> 00:55:23,500 Listen to me, you're scared. I can help you. 718 00:55:25,000 --> 00:55:27,041 [Hassan sobbing] 719 00:55:32,166 --> 00:55:33,791 -Daddy, wait. No. -I can help you. 720 00:55:33,875 --> 00:55:37,166 Look at me. We'll do it together. Okay? Look. [moaning] 721 00:55:38,500 --> 00:55:39,625 It's okay. 722 00:55:40,750 --> 00:55:43,875 [murmuring] Faith. Faith. Faith. 723 00:55:46,083 --> 00:55:47,125 Don't look at her. 724 00:55:50,500 --> 00:55:52,916 -[woman] Leeza! -[man] Leeza! 725 00:55:53,000 --> 00:55:54,125 [cup clatters] 726 00:55:56,041 --> 00:55:57,541 [crying] 727 00:56:01,916 --> 00:56:05,791 Faith! Faith! Faith! 728 00:56:05,875 --> 00:56:10,041 When he raised them up, and carried them on eagle's wings 729 00:56:10,125 --> 00:56:11,583 and brought them to himself! 730 00:56:12,416 --> 00:56:13,583 [gunshot] 731 00:56:18,791 --> 00:56:19,833 [screeches] 732 00:56:21,583 --> 00:56:22,583 [Mildred screams] 733 00:56:23,291 --> 00:56:25,958 -Mom! Mom! -[Mildred continues screaming] 734 00:56:28,875 --> 00:56:30,041 Close the doors. 735 00:56:31,291 --> 00:56:33,375 Close the doors! 736 00:56:36,041 --> 00:56:36,958 Oh, thank God. 737 00:56:37,666 --> 00:56:38,583 Lock them! 738 00:56:40,208 --> 00:56:41,416 He is okay. 739 00:56:43,125 --> 00:56:45,833 He will be okay. He will heal. 740 00:56:45,916 --> 00:56:49,000 That is part of God's miracle! 741 00:56:49,625 --> 00:56:53,333 His miracle which some of you would destroy! 742 00:56:54,583 --> 00:56:57,416 It won't be long. It won't take long. 743 00:56:57,500 --> 00:56:59,708 You rest and you heal. 744 00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:03,125 Hold him down. 745 00:57:03,708 --> 00:57:05,958 What do we do? Is he really gonna be okay? 746 00:57:06,041 --> 00:57:07,291 [Bev] Of course he is. 747 00:57:08,375 --> 00:57:11,375 -What is wrong with you? -[groans] 748 00:57:11,458 --> 00:57:13,916 Spitting in the face of such a gift! 749 00:57:14,791 --> 00:57:16,583 Remove the sheriff. Take him out back. 750 00:57:17,208 --> 00:57:20,875 We'll need… We'll need food soon. 751 00:57:20,958 --> 00:57:23,291 [breathing heavily] 752 00:57:23,375 --> 00:57:24,541 [Bev] Sturge. 753 00:57:25,208 --> 00:57:26,083 Sturge! 754 00:57:31,458 --> 00:57:33,458 [heart beating] 755 00:57:33,541 --> 00:57:34,875 [gasps] 756 00:57:34,958 --> 00:57:36,041 [breathing heavily] 757 00:57:41,875 --> 00:57:43,416 Keep the doors locked. 758 00:57:44,458 --> 00:57:47,958 He planned on that. He said, "Keep the doors closed, 759 00:57:48,041 --> 00:57:50,291 and when they woke, help them!" 760 00:57:51,166 --> 00:57:54,375 Brothers and sisters, rejoice! 761 00:57:54,458 --> 00:57:57,583 -The first of the apostles awakes. -Ali. 762 00:57:57,666 --> 00:58:01,416 -[Bev] They will be thirsty for Communion. -Ali. Hey. 763 00:58:01,500 --> 00:58:06,083 [Bev] The blessings of the Lord will be bestowed on all of us! 764 00:58:06,166 --> 00:58:07,375 -[gasps] -[Leeza] Mommy? 765 00:58:07,458 --> 00:58:08,875 -Mommy? -[Dolly] Leeza. 766 00:58:08,958 --> 00:58:10,666 [Leeza crying] 767 00:58:10,750 --> 00:58:11,833 [gasps] 768 00:58:11,916 --> 00:58:12,916 [Leeza] Mommy! 769 00:58:13,416 --> 00:58:15,625 [Dolly] My love. We're saved. 770 00:58:16,375 --> 00:58:17,708 Oh, I was scared. 771 00:58:21,208 --> 00:58:23,708 [people gasping] 772 00:58:23,791 --> 00:58:25,166 [Leeza] Mommy! 773 00:58:26,583 --> 00:58:27,500 I'm okay, love. 774 00:58:28,208 --> 00:58:30,166 I'm okay. And I feel… 775 00:58:31,041 --> 00:58:32,875 -[Leeza] Mommy? -Oh, honey. 776 00:58:33,750 --> 00:58:35,208 Oh, it's amazing. 777 00:58:36,083 --> 00:58:38,625 The candles, they're singing. 778 00:58:41,125 --> 00:58:42,958 [Bev] Thank God. 779 00:58:47,375 --> 00:58:48,500 Mommy? 780 00:58:49,333 --> 00:58:51,375 -Leeza. -Mommy! 781 00:58:56,125 --> 00:58:57,333 It's all right. It's okay. 782 00:58:58,208 --> 00:58:59,625 -It's fine. It's okay. -[woman] No. 783 00:58:59,708 --> 00:59:00,833 -Don't be suspicious. -[woman whimpering] 784 00:59:00,916 --> 00:59:02,875 -[shrieks] -[screams] 785 00:59:04,666 --> 00:59:06,916 [grunts] 786 00:59:07,958 --> 00:59:11,125 [screaming] 787 00:59:14,041 --> 00:59:15,250 Wade! 788 00:59:19,166 --> 00:59:20,916 -[man grunts] -[all screaming] 789 00:59:25,583 --> 00:59:28,291 Come on! Let's go. We gotta go. 790 00:59:32,333 --> 00:59:34,125 [all clamoring] 791 00:59:36,583 --> 00:59:37,500 [grunts] 792 00:59:46,083 --> 00:59:46,916 No! 793 00:59:52,250 --> 00:59:54,416 -Let's go! Come on, this way! -Mommy! 794 00:59:56,625 --> 00:59:58,916 -Go! -Ed! 795 01:00:05,708 --> 01:00:09,125 [all screaming and grunting] 796 01:00:18,708 --> 01:00:20,208 [breathing heavily] 797 01:00:27,375 --> 01:00:29,250 That'll all be over soon. 798 01:00:29,833 --> 01:00:32,083 And they'll all wake up, eternal. 799 01:00:32,166 --> 01:00:33,000 You hid? 800 01:00:38,458 --> 01:00:40,583 What are you gonna do, Erin Greene? 801 01:00:41,291 --> 01:00:42,500 Guns? 802 01:00:43,083 --> 01:00:45,625 Those things don't matter anymore. 803 01:00:46,250 --> 01:00:49,291 Not in the new world. The world without death. 804 01:00:51,083 --> 01:00:54,375 You could shoot me right now. It would mean I'm five minutes behind-- 805 01:00:54,458 --> 01:00:55,583 -[gunshot] -[gasps] 806 01:01:00,791 --> 01:01:01,916 We have five minutes. 807 01:01:05,875 --> 01:01:08,375 [eerie music playing] 808 01:01:12,708 --> 01:01:14,791 [screaming continues in background] 809 01:01:30,708 --> 01:01:32,083 [gasps] 810 01:01:52,000 --> 01:01:53,250 [sighs] 811 01:02:19,750 --> 01:02:20,791 [Sturge] I don't… 812 01:02:22,083 --> 01:02:23,333 I don't know what happened. 813 01:02:25,500 --> 01:02:26,375 It's okay. 814 01:02:28,416 --> 01:02:29,458 I don't, uh… 815 01:02:31,000 --> 01:02:32,125 Open the doors. 816 01:02:33,416 --> 01:02:36,416 Monsignor said we should close the doors before they wake up. 817 01:02:37,583 --> 01:02:42,750 So we can guide them, orient them, so that this… 818 01:02:45,500 --> 01:02:46,958 So that this wouldn't happen. 819 01:02:47,875 --> 01:02:51,083 I love him. I truly do. But look, 820 01:02:51,166 --> 01:02:54,791 it happened nonetheless as it was meant to. 821 01:02:56,000 --> 01:02:59,250 You know what they say. "Man plans, God laughs." 822 01:03:00,833 --> 01:03:03,666 Those who have been coming to church and taking Communion, 823 01:03:03,750 --> 01:03:05,458 they have nothing to fear tonight. 824 01:03:06,583 --> 01:03:08,166 As for the rest of them… 825 01:03:11,333 --> 01:03:13,125 Let God sort them out. 826 01:03:16,250 --> 01:03:17,416 Faith, Monsignor. 827 01:03:18,541 --> 01:03:21,041 Faith and courage. Like you said. 828 01:03:24,625 --> 01:03:26,125 Open the doors. 829 01:03:27,916 --> 01:03:32,708 The doors stay open, just as the gates are always open. 830 01:03:36,291 --> 01:03:38,416 How else does the gospel spread?

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7. KİTAP: VAHİY
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1 00:00:06,083 --> 00:00:09,708 BİR NETFLIX DİZİSİ 2 00:00:28,916 --> 00:00:33,666 VII. KITAP: VAHIY 3 00:02:15,875 --> 00:02:17,833 Canını yaktı mı? 4 00:02:20,541 --> 00:02:21,375 Evet. 5 00:03:12,875 --> 00:03:15,875 Hayır! 6 00:03:49,375 --> 00:03:51,166 İnsanları evlerinden çıkarıyorlar. 7 00:03:51,250 --> 00:03:53,541 -Buradan gitmeliyiz. -Nereye gideceğiz? 8 00:03:53,625 --> 00:03:56,875 Kiliseye, oğlumu almaya. O hâlâ kilisede. 9 00:03:56,958 --> 00:03:58,958 -Ona ne yaptılar? -Eddie… 10 00:03:59,041 --> 00:04:00,500 -Babama ne oldu? -Ne yaptılar? 11 00:04:00,583 --> 00:04:03,083 -Bilmiyorum. -Bu şeyi inceledim demiştiniz. 12 00:04:03,166 --> 00:04:04,375 Örnekleriniz vardı. 13 00:04:04,458 --> 00:04:06,625 -Yapmadım. Bilmiyorum. -Susun. 14 00:04:27,541 --> 00:04:28,916 Telefonu çeken var mı? 15 00:04:36,500 --> 00:04:39,416 Hayır. Baz istasyonunu tahrip etmiş olmalılar. 16 00:04:39,500 --> 00:04:41,541 Feribotları da gönderdiler. 17 00:04:42,166 --> 00:04:44,416 Sturge tekneleri kurcalıyordu. Bugün gördük. 18 00:04:44,500 --> 00:04:48,166 Tekneler, telefonlar, elektrik. İletişimimizi kesiyorlar. 19 00:04:48,250 --> 00:04:51,875 -Tekneler. -Kuzey Bölgesi'nde bir kanom var. 20 00:04:52,833 --> 00:04:55,333 Kimseyi ana karaya götüreceğini sanmam 21 00:04:55,416 --> 00:04:57,291 ama en azından adadan kurtarabilir. 22 00:04:57,375 --> 00:05:01,125 Annemle babam… Oradalar. Bizimle gelmeleri lazım, değil mi? 23 00:05:02,041 --> 00:05:03,791 Onları doktora götürelim. Yer var. 24 00:05:03,875 --> 00:05:07,083 -Balıkçı teknelerinde yer var. -Ben ondan söz etmiyorum. 25 00:05:07,166 --> 00:05:08,833 Gitmekten söz etmiyor. 26 00:05:08,916 --> 00:05:11,041 Çünkü Bev'in dediği gibi, peşimize düşerler. 27 00:05:11,708 --> 00:05:13,375 O yüzden tekneleri batırmadılar. 28 00:05:13,458 --> 00:05:17,208 Sadece devrelerini kurcaladılar. Çünkü tekneler onlara lazım. 29 00:05:18,416 --> 00:05:22,000 Sonrasında gidebilsinler diye. 30 00:05:25,250 --> 00:05:27,166 Sarah, bulaşıcı bir şey demiştin. 31 00:05:28,708 --> 00:05:32,375 Onlardan biri, sadece biri bile ana karaya ulaşırsa… 32 00:06:05,875 --> 00:06:07,083 Ne işe yarar ki? 33 00:06:09,625 --> 00:06:12,166 Bunlar ne işe yarar? Tabancalar ve bıçaklar? 34 00:06:15,166 --> 00:06:16,250 Canlanıyorlar. 35 00:06:17,458 --> 00:06:20,375 Gördünüz, onlar… Çaresi bu değil. 36 00:06:21,208 --> 00:06:22,458 Asla işe yaramaz. 37 00:06:23,833 --> 00:06:24,833 Olabilir. 38 00:06:27,416 --> 00:06:29,000 Birkaç dakika kazandırır. 39 00:06:30,333 --> 00:06:31,791 Birkaç dakika sağ kalırız. 40 00:06:33,958 --> 00:06:35,791 Her şey dakikalara bağlı olabilir. 41 00:06:37,708 --> 00:06:38,708 Belki de saniyelere. 42 00:06:42,583 --> 00:06:44,291 Bana hiç anlamlı gelmezdi. 43 00:06:46,125 --> 00:06:47,541 Hepimiz cennet var, diyoruz. 44 00:06:48,833 --> 00:06:50,083 Bizi bekliyor. 45 00:06:51,958 --> 00:06:55,375 Sonra sonunda birkaç dakikamız daha olsun diye 46 00:06:56,583 --> 00:06:58,458 canhıraş savaşıp yalvarıyoruz. 47 00:06:59,958 --> 00:07:00,958 Birkaç dakika. 48 00:07:02,625 --> 00:07:04,125 Artık mesele biz değiliz. 49 00:07:07,250 --> 00:07:08,916 Dünyadaki diğer herkes. 50 00:07:12,458 --> 00:07:14,375 Tanımadığımız kişiler için ölmek. 51 00:07:16,958 --> 00:07:18,291 Bundan büyük sevgi yok. 52 00:07:19,333 --> 00:07:21,166 İncil öyle demez mi? 53 00:07:25,125 --> 00:07:27,541 Önce siz çocukları emniyete alalım. 54 00:07:27,625 --> 00:07:28,708 -Yardım ederiz. -Olmaz. 55 00:07:28,791 --> 00:07:31,041 -Hayır. -Hayır, lütfen. 56 00:07:32,416 --> 00:07:35,416 Kıyıya inip oradan Kuzey Bölgesi'ne geçsek, 57 00:07:35,500 --> 00:07:37,500 siz de kanoya binip… 58 00:07:41,333 --> 00:07:42,333 Bir daha. 59 00:07:48,416 --> 00:07:49,708 Erin Greene! 60 00:07:50,333 --> 00:07:53,125 Konuşmamızı bitirelim! 61 00:07:55,166 --> 00:07:57,166 -Belki o… -İçeride. 62 00:08:15,958 --> 00:08:16,958 Hayır. 63 00:08:18,500 --> 00:08:21,291 Sen git. Çocukları kurtar. 64 00:08:22,416 --> 00:08:24,000 Ben Bev'le konuşacağım. 65 00:08:24,083 --> 00:08:24,958 Anne! 66 00:08:27,500 --> 00:08:30,000 -Seni seviyorum. -Anne! 67 00:08:30,083 --> 00:08:32,208 -Hem de çok. -Anne! 68 00:08:32,875 --> 00:08:33,791 Git. 69 00:08:45,375 --> 00:08:47,500 Seninle bir derdim yok Annie Flynn. 70 00:08:48,250 --> 00:08:50,833 Erin Greene'le konuşacaktım. 71 00:08:50,916 --> 00:08:52,750 Bir de Sarah Gunning'le. 72 00:08:53,375 --> 00:08:56,916 Hâlâ yanlarındaysa terör sevici Şerif'le de. 73 00:08:57,000 --> 00:08:59,708 Evet. Hepsi içeride. 74 00:09:01,208 --> 00:09:04,208 -İki de çocuk var. -Çocuklara bir şey olmayacak. 75 00:09:04,875 --> 00:09:06,416 Kurtuldular bile. 76 00:09:07,208 --> 00:09:11,041 Çocukları tehlikeye atacağımı düşünmüyorsun, değil mi? 77 00:09:12,833 --> 00:09:15,958 O ne için Annie? Bizim için olduğunu söyleme sakın. 78 00:09:16,041 --> 00:09:18,375 -Artık oraları geçtik. -Değil. 79 00:09:21,958 --> 00:09:23,583 Bev, beni iyi dinle. 80 00:09:25,208 --> 00:09:27,875 Ömründe bir kez olsun bunu duyman gerekiyor. 81 00:09:29,041 --> 00:09:30,583 Sen iyi biri değilsin. 82 00:09:34,208 --> 00:09:35,250 Vay… 83 00:09:36,833 --> 00:09:38,083 Buna hiç gerek yoktu. 84 00:09:38,166 --> 00:09:40,708 Tanrı seni başkalarından daha çok sevmiyor. 85 00:09:42,208 --> 00:09:43,458 Kahraman değilsin. 86 00:09:44,375 --> 00:09:48,041 Kesinlikle bir kurban da değilsin. 87 00:09:48,666 --> 00:09:50,458 Ben olsam vaaz vermezdim. 88 00:09:51,333 --> 00:09:55,791 Önce kendi gözündeki merteği çıkar, demişler ya. 89 00:09:55,875 --> 00:09:59,875 Ölünün arkasından konuşmayı sevmem ama Riley Flynn, 90 00:10:00,541 --> 00:10:03,541 ki ayyaş ve katildi, 91 00:10:03,625 --> 00:10:06,250 yetiştiriliş kalitesinin kanıtıysa… 92 00:10:06,333 --> 00:10:07,333 Öyleydi. 93 00:10:09,333 --> 00:10:10,750 Her bakımdan. 94 00:10:13,916 --> 00:10:15,416 Tanrı onu seviyor. 95 00:10:17,083 --> 00:10:19,041 Tıpkı seni sevdiği kadar Bev. 96 00:10:21,500 --> 00:10:23,416 Bu seni neden bu kadar üzüyor? 97 00:10:25,041 --> 00:10:30,041 Tanrı'nın herkesi seni sevdiği kadar sevmesi fikri. 98 00:10:30,625 --> 00:10:32,875 Bizi oyalıyor. Arka tarafa bak. 99 00:10:37,291 --> 00:10:38,291 Tanrım! 100 00:10:39,541 --> 00:10:42,083 Tamam. İyi olacaksın Annie. 101 00:10:42,166 --> 00:10:45,375 Bana bak. Hemen iyileşeceksin. 102 00:10:45,458 --> 00:10:46,375 Sen… 103 00:11:17,166 --> 00:11:18,250 Serçeler. 104 00:11:18,958 --> 00:11:22,791 İncil'de der ki, "Baba'nızın izni olmadan 105 00:11:22,875 --> 00:11:27,875 bir tek serçe bile yere düşmez. O her ölümü hisseder." 106 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:35,750 Gençliğimde Güney Amerika'da görevdeydim. 107 00:11:35,833 --> 00:11:37,833 Muazzam bir şelalenin 108 00:11:39,375 --> 00:11:40,958 altında durmuştum. 109 00:11:42,416 --> 00:11:46,041 Büyüklüğü, suyun ağırlığı… 110 00:11:49,458 --> 00:11:52,583 Gürültüsü ormandaki her sesi bastırıyordu. 111 00:11:52,666 --> 00:11:57,166 Her kuşu ve her sesi. Sonra yaşlanıp da 112 00:11:57,250 --> 00:12:01,666 ölümü düşündüğümde, her saniye kaç ölüm gerçekleştiğini… 113 00:12:04,250 --> 00:12:07,041 İnsanlar, hayvanlar, serçeler. 114 00:12:07,833 --> 00:12:12,750 O şelalenin her damlası bir ölüm olsa 115 00:12:13,416 --> 00:12:18,000 "Tanrı da böyle hissediyor olmalı" diye düşündüm. 116 00:12:21,958 --> 00:12:25,916 Günün her saati, her an akın akın ölümler, 117 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:28,958 öyle gürültülü ki 118 00:12:29,958 --> 00:12:35,416 ölümlerin o gümbürtüsünün yanında fısıldadığım duaları nasıl duysun? 119 00:12:35,500 --> 00:12:39,083 Bana ne verildiğini görünce 120 00:12:39,166 --> 00:12:43,958 "İşte sonu geldi. Gürültü bitecek" dedim. 121 00:12:46,208 --> 00:12:47,333 Artık ölüm yok. 122 00:12:53,416 --> 00:12:57,583 Ama açıkçası artık başka bir şeymiş gibi yapmanın anlamı yok, 123 00:12:57,666 --> 00:12:58,791 sebep sendin. 124 00:13:01,250 --> 00:13:04,791 Sendin. Ve Sarah'ydı. O yüzden yaptım. 125 00:13:06,125 --> 00:13:08,750 O şeyi o sandığa koydum. 126 00:13:08,833 --> 00:13:11,791 Rüşvetle, yalanla sandığı gizlice buraya getirdim. 127 00:13:11,875 --> 00:13:15,416 Sebebi buydu. Ölmeni istemedim. 128 00:13:26,791 --> 00:13:30,208 Diğerlerinin de elbette ama hayır… 129 00:13:31,666 --> 00:13:35,875 Senin ve Sarah'nın… 130 00:13:36,458 --> 00:13:38,625 Hayatlarımız ziyan olmuştu. 131 00:13:39,125 --> 00:13:42,000 Kilisede kürsüden bakıyordum. 132 00:13:42,875 --> 00:13:45,125 Yanına gelip seninle olmaktan korkuyordum. 133 00:13:45,208 --> 00:13:48,000 Kızımıza gerçeği söylemekten korkuyordum. 134 00:13:51,750 --> 00:13:54,041 Ve hiç günah gibi gelmedi, mesele de bu. 135 00:13:54,125 --> 00:13:58,125 Hiç günah gibi gelmedin, kızımız da bir günah değildi. 136 00:13:58,208 --> 00:13:59,833 Asla bir hata değildi. 137 00:14:01,041 --> 00:14:02,083 Asla. 138 00:14:08,750 --> 00:14:10,083 Ne yapabilirdik ki? 139 00:14:12,333 --> 00:14:13,166 John. 140 00:14:14,541 --> 00:14:17,041 -O farklı bir dünyaydı. -Yani… 141 00:14:20,083 --> 00:14:23,083 Kendime derdim ki… Kendime… 142 00:14:25,083 --> 00:14:28,750 O zor gecelerde, sen yakınken, 143 00:14:28,833 --> 00:14:32,083 birlikte olman gereken adamın yanında uyuyorken… 144 00:14:35,083 --> 00:14:36,208 Sen… 145 00:14:36,291 --> 00:14:40,708 Gelip benden istesen rahipliği bırakır, 146 00:14:41,458 --> 00:14:43,208 seninle giderdim. 147 00:14:45,333 --> 00:14:47,291 Seninle her yere giderdim. 148 00:14:50,958 --> 00:14:53,458 Bunu asla yapmazdım John. 149 00:14:55,416 --> 00:14:57,958 Sana yapmazdım. Kızımıza da. 150 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:03,291 Kocama da. Savaştan sonra olmazdı. 151 00:15:04,125 --> 00:15:06,333 Dört hayatı mahvetmezdim. 152 00:15:09,958 --> 00:15:12,000 Ama artık hepsi geçti John. 153 00:15:13,833 --> 00:15:15,500 Seçimlerimizi yaptık. 154 00:15:16,500 --> 00:15:17,875 Hayatlarımızı yaşadık. 155 00:15:19,416 --> 00:15:24,375 Kızımız büyüdü, biz yaşlandık, böyle de olması gerekiyor. 156 00:15:25,625 --> 00:15:27,458 Bitmesi gerekiyor. 157 00:15:32,583 --> 00:15:34,125 Ama bir şans daha olsa? 158 00:15:36,791 --> 00:15:40,250 Bu sefer aile olabiliriz. 159 00:15:42,500 --> 00:15:48,000 Bundan daha müthiş bir mucize düşünebiliyor musun? 160 00:15:48,083 --> 00:15:52,708 İyileştirmek… Körlüğü iyileştirmek, elbette. 161 00:15:52,791 --> 00:15:54,375 Denizleri ikiye ayırmak, tamam. 162 00:15:54,916 --> 00:15:57,583 Ama ya ikinci bir şans? 163 00:16:00,625 --> 00:16:02,166 Bu gerçek bir mucize. 164 00:16:27,250 --> 00:16:30,666 İmdat! Yardım edin! 165 00:16:30,750 --> 00:16:34,416 Kocam! Bana yardım edin! 166 00:16:34,500 --> 00:16:36,625 -Sus. -İmdat! Yardım edin! 167 00:16:36,708 --> 00:16:38,958 -Gitmeliyiz. Hemen. -Biri yardım etsin! 168 00:16:39,583 --> 00:16:42,083 -Hey, Flynn. -Yardım edin, lütfen! 169 00:16:43,375 --> 00:16:44,541 Ne güzel kokuyorsunuz. 170 00:16:45,875 --> 00:16:48,500 Hatta… Muhteşem kokuyorsunuz. 171 00:16:48,583 --> 00:16:49,666 Çekil. 172 00:16:52,625 --> 00:16:53,541 Sarıklı. 173 00:17:00,291 --> 00:17:02,625 İmdat! Yardım edin! 174 00:17:03,250 --> 00:17:06,708 İmdat! 175 00:17:19,000 --> 00:17:21,166 -Leeza. -Baba? 176 00:17:22,291 --> 00:17:23,333 Baba. 177 00:17:24,291 --> 00:17:25,375 Koş! 178 00:17:34,125 --> 00:17:35,458 Hadi, gidin! 179 00:17:36,708 --> 00:17:37,875 Koşun! 180 00:17:59,791 --> 00:18:01,333 Bunu niye yaptı ki? 181 00:18:01,416 --> 00:18:02,500 Fark etmez. 182 00:18:05,708 --> 00:18:07,083 Yangını söndürmeliyiz. 183 00:18:10,666 --> 00:18:11,750 Bilmem ki. 184 00:18:14,083 --> 00:18:16,000 Fazla büyürse… 185 00:18:17,541 --> 00:18:21,166 Bütün adayı sarar. Bu rüzgârda kibrit kutusundan farksız. 186 00:18:21,250 --> 00:18:23,541 Ada yanıp kül olur, 1984'teki gibi. 187 00:18:23,625 --> 00:18:26,250 Bütün ada değil. Batı kıyısı yansa bile 188 00:18:26,333 --> 00:18:28,291 bütün ada yanmaz, hatta o zaman bile… 189 00:18:30,625 --> 00:18:33,000 1984'te kilise yanmamıştı. 190 00:18:39,791 --> 00:18:40,916 Vahiy. 191 00:18:43,416 --> 00:18:47,791 "Birinci Melek borazanını çaldı. Kanla karışık 192 00:18:47,875 --> 00:18:50,791 dolu ve ateş oluştu, yeryüzüne yağdı. 193 00:18:50,875 --> 00:18:56,625 Yerin üçte biri, ağaçların üçte biri 194 00:18:56,708 --> 00:19:00,416 ve bütün yeşil otlar yandı. 195 00:19:00,500 --> 00:19:05,583 Ama korkak, imansız, 196 00:19:05,666 --> 00:19:10,791 iğrenç, adam öldüren, fuhuş yapan, büyücü, 197 00:19:10,875 --> 00:19:16,083 putperest ve bütün yalancılara gelince, onların yeri, kükürtle yanan 198 00:19:16,166 --> 00:19:21,291 ateş gölüdür. İkinci ölüm budur." Bırak yansın. 199 00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:26,875 Bırak hepsi yansın. 200 00:19:29,041 --> 00:19:30,208 Yeni bir tufan. 201 00:19:32,541 --> 00:19:39,250 Ateş tufanı. Aziz Patrick Kilisesi de gemi olacak. 202 00:19:40,708 --> 00:19:43,833 Crockett sakinleri, iyi vatandaşlar, 203 00:19:43,916 --> 00:19:46,625 fırtınada nereye gideceklerini bilirler. 204 00:19:48,333 --> 00:19:50,291 Al şunu. Benimle gel. 205 00:20:35,708 --> 00:20:36,791 Ne anlamı var? 206 00:20:40,166 --> 00:20:41,166 Birkaç dakika. 207 00:20:57,750 --> 00:21:01,625 Belki bir sandal buluruz, motorlu bir tane. 208 00:21:01,708 --> 00:21:03,333 Sürat teknesi falan. 209 00:21:04,291 --> 00:21:05,625 İyi olacağız. 210 00:21:05,708 --> 00:21:07,250 Sence başarır mıyız? 211 00:21:08,958 --> 00:21:12,625 Ben onu demedim. Diyorum ki, her türlü, 212 00:21:13,625 --> 00:21:14,750 iyi olacağız. 213 00:21:16,583 --> 00:21:17,416 İyi olacağız. 214 00:21:32,625 --> 00:21:35,625 CROCKETT ADASI MARKETİ 215 00:22:11,250 --> 00:22:12,458 Hepsi benim kanım. 216 00:22:13,166 --> 00:22:15,666 Evet. Bunlar da benim. 217 00:22:16,708 --> 00:22:19,666 Onlar… İnsanlara yaptıkları… 218 00:22:20,250 --> 00:22:21,416 Ama sen yapmadın. 219 00:22:21,500 --> 00:22:24,750 -Hayır, ben yapmadım. -Tabii ki. 220 00:22:27,791 --> 00:22:29,791 Ama şimdiden hissediyorum Ed. 221 00:22:31,833 --> 00:22:34,125 -Midem acıyor. -Biliyorum. 222 00:22:35,583 --> 00:22:36,583 Hissediyorum. 223 00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:43,875 Direnemeyen bir hayvandan farksız mı olacağım? 224 00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:46,416 Onları kilisede görünce 225 00:22:46,500 --> 00:22:49,125 ellerinde olmayan bir şey, diye düşündüm. 226 00:22:50,375 --> 00:22:54,583 Yapmamaları imkânsızmış gibi geldi bana. 227 00:22:55,458 --> 00:22:56,958 Ama öyle değil Annie. 228 00:22:59,000 --> 00:23:01,250 Ben de hissediyorum. 229 00:23:01,875 --> 00:23:04,041 Ben de çok açım 230 00:23:05,208 --> 00:23:07,875 ama yapmadım. Yapmadım. 231 00:23:09,291 --> 00:23:10,916 Bu her neyse, 232 00:23:12,125 --> 00:23:13,625 insanın özünü değiştirmiyor. 233 00:23:24,583 --> 00:23:25,791 Yakıyorlar. 234 00:23:27,750 --> 00:23:30,208 Bunu niye yapıyorlar ki? Çok anlamsız. 235 00:23:46,583 --> 00:23:48,416 Umarım çocuklar sandala ulaşır. 236 00:23:50,083 --> 00:23:51,291 Ben de öyle umarım. 237 00:23:54,666 --> 00:23:56,125 Hiç bilemeyeceğiz. 238 00:23:57,166 --> 00:23:58,166 Muhtemelen öyle. 239 00:24:00,791 --> 00:24:01,708 Ulaştılar. 240 00:24:04,583 --> 00:24:06,125 Ulaştıklarına inanıyorum. 241 00:24:43,833 --> 00:24:45,000 Leeza! 242 00:24:46,791 --> 00:24:49,625 Leeza, hayatım, ben baban! 243 00:24:51,583 --> 00:24:54,500 Beni duyuyorsan sesimi takip et! Leeza, lütfen! 244 00:24:57,000 --> 00:24:58,000 Leeza! 245 00:24:59,583 --> 00:25:01,000 Leeza, hayatım! 246 00:25:05,708 --> 00:25:07,833 -Leeza, hayatım! -Leeza, hayatım, lütfen! 247 00:25:08,541 --> 00:25:10,333 Yok bir şey. Çıkabilirsin. 248 00:26:09,583 --> 00:26:10,750 Dur. Yapma. 249 00:26:43,208 --> 00:26:44,458 Hadi. 250 00:27:21,375 --> 00:27:22,416 Leeza Scarborough! 251 00:27:23,875 --> 00:27:25,416 Baban çok merak etti. 252 00:27:26,625 --> 00:27:27,500 Leeza! 253 00:27:38,125 --> 00:27:41,791 Herkese duyurun. Gün doğarken kültür merkezinde olmayanlar 254 00:27:41,875 --> 00:27:43,250 günü göremez. 255 00:27:44,291 --> 00:27:47,916 Boş evleri, karavanları yakın. Hepsini. 256 00:27:48,916 --> 00:27:50,083 Şafak söküyor. 257 00:29:26,541 --> 00:29:27,458 Kalkmışsınız. 258 00:29:28,250 --> 00:29:29,291 Şükürler olsun. 259 00:29:30,666 --> 00:29:31,875 Sen de kalkmışsın. 260 00:29:33,500 --> 00:29:36,791 Monsenyör, benden güçlü bir ruhsunuz 261 00:29:36,875 --> 00:29:41,333 ve insanların yanlışlarını bağışlarsanız cennetteki babamız da sizi bağışlar. 262 00:29:41,416 --> 00:29:43,500 Yani yargılamak ne haddime? 263 00:29:44,791 --> 00:29:46,083 Ama yine de. 264 00:29:46,583 --> 00:29:49,208 -Onları saldın. -Elbette. 265 00:29:50,500 --> 00:29:52,500 Gelin. Göstereyim. 266 00:30:03,416 --> 00:30:06,791 "Tanrı insanlardan hayvanlara, sürüngenlerden kuşlara dek 267 00:30:06,875 --> 00:30:12,833 bütün canlıları yok etti, yeryüzündeki her şey silinip gitti. 268 00:30:12,916 --> 00:30:16,833 Yalnız Nuh'la gemidekiler kaldı." 269 00:30:17,375 --> 00:30:21,750 Aziz Patrick sadece bir kilise değil Monsenyör. Bir gemi. 270 00:30:22,916 --> 00:30:25,708 Seçilmişler için kültür merkezinde yataklar hazırladım. 271 00:30:25,791 --> 00:30:28,875 Gemilerimize sığınacağız, sonra da dediğiniz gibi, 272 00:30:28,958 --> 00:30:30,708 kurtlar arasındaki koyunlar gibi 273 00:30:31,625 --> 00:30:33,666 müjdeyi yayacağız. 274 00:30:33,750 --> 00:30:36,958 Kimin seçildiğine kim karar verecek? 275 00:30:38,125 --> 00:30:40,375 Biz. Siz ve ben. 276 00:30:41,416 --> 00:30:45,041 -Diğerlerine ne olacak? -Bilmem ki. 277 00:30:45,750 --> 00:30:47,125 Orasını ben bilmem. 278 00:30:48,083 --> 00:30:50,041 Onlarla Tanrı arasında, değil mi? 279 00:30:51,250 --> 00:30:52,083 Hayır. 280 00:30:53,291 --> 00:30:54,125 Anlamadım? 281 00:30:55,000 --> 00:30:56,333 Bu konuda yanıldık. 282 00:30:56,833 --> 00:30:59,583 -Saçmalamayın. -Hayır Beverly, onlara baksana. 283 00:31:00,166 --> 00:31:02,791 -Kurt biziz. -Hayır. 284 00:31:04,666 --> 00:31:08,708 Hayır, lütfen. Siz de mi? Siz de mi Monsenyör? 285 00:31:09,666 --> 00:31:14,375 Yanılmışım. Yanılmışız. Yanılıyoruz. Buna bir son verilmeli. 286 00:31:15,083 --> 00:31:16,166 Onlara rehber lazım. 287 00:31:16,833 --> 00:31:20,750 Baksanıza. Rehbersiz, çobansız kaybolurlar. 288 00:31:20,833 --> 00:31:25,750 O siz olmalısınız Monsenyör. Siz olmalısınız. Hep sizdiniz. 289 00:31:25,833 --> 00:31:28,958 Hayır! Ben değildim. Rahipliğin püf noktası da bu. 290 00:31:29,041 --> 00:31:32,625 Benimle değil, Tanrı'yla alakalı olmalı. 291 00:31:42,416 --> 00:31:45,750 Demek artık siz değilsiniz. 292 00:31:47,708 --> 00:31:49,458 Bize söylemişti, değil mi? 293 00:31:50,583 --> 00:31:54,083 Bizzat İsa. Bizi fakihlere, rahiplere karşı uyardı. 294 00:31:54,708 --> 00:31:58,250 Matta'da. "Dünyadaki herkese baba demeyin, 295 00:31:58,333 --> 00:32:01,208 tek bir babanız var o da cennette." 296 00:32:02,833 --> 00:32:07,708 "Vay halinize ey din bilginleri ve Ferisiler, ikiyüzlüler!" 297 00:32:07,791 --> 00:32:09,375 Engerek soyu. 298 00:32:10,375 --> 00:32:13,041 Ama siz Monsenyör… 299 00:32:16,375 --> 00:32:19,791 Monsenyör Pruitt, bu sizin için de böyle olmak zorunda mıydı? 300 00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:26,666 Bedeli ödenmeyen erdem olmaz. 301 00:32:28,666 --> 00:32:31,125 Böyle olacağı belliydi. Siz hep… 302 00:32:32,500 --> 00:32:36,375 İnancımın en sonuncu, en zorlu sınavı olacaktınız. Siz. 303 00:32:41,000 --> 00:32:42,583 "Arkama geç. 304 00:32:44,541 --> 00:32:46,833 Sen benim için tökezleten bir engel gibisin 305 00:32:46,916 --> 00:32:52,500 çünkü aklını ilahi şeylere değil, insani şeylere odaklamışsın." 306 00:32:54,750 --> 00:32:56,166 "Büyük Babil. 307 00:32:57,416 --> 00:33:01,666 Dünya fahişelerinin ve iğrençliklerinin anası." 308 00:33:02,708 --> 00:33:07,416 Umarım ikiniz de güneşin doğuşundan keyif alırsınız. 309 00:33:30,458 --> 00:33:31,750 -Ne oldu? -Hiç. 310 00:33:33,791 --> 00:33:36,750 Onlar için hazırız. Biraz daha dışarıda kalsınlar. 311 00:33:36,833 --> 00:33:38,208 Tam sayıyı bilirsek 312 00:33:38,291 --> 00:33:40,083 yarın kaç tekne gerekeceğini anlarız. 313 00:33:40,166 --> 00:33:41,375 Tekneleri yakmışlar. 314 00:33:43,416 --> 00:33:44,416 Ne yapmışlar? 315 00:33:45,583 --> 00:33:46,916 Yakmışlar. 316 00:33:49,625 --> 00:33:51,541 Fark etmez. 317 00:33:52,875 --> 00:33:57,208 Wade feribotları geri çağırır. Zamanı gelince onları geri çağırır. 318 00:34:00,583 --> 00:34:01,583 Kim yakmış? 319 00:34:23,541 --> 00:34:26,875 Seni seviyorum anne. Seni seviyorum baba. 320 00:34:33,833 --> 00:34:36,375 Tanrım, onları koru. 321 00:34:37,833 --> 00:34:38,750 Onları gözet. 322 00:34:41,041 --> 00:34:45,541 Yüreklerine dokun, endişelenmesinler. 323 00:34:48,666 --> 00:34:51,791 Tanrım, annemle babama huzur ver. 324 00:34:56,291 --> 00:34:57,291 Âmin. 325 00:34:58,875 --> 00:34:59,875 Annem. 326 00:35:02,250 --> 00:35:03,416 Ve babam. 327 00:35:07,375 --> 00:35:09,791 Ve ağabeyim. 328 00:35:13,041 --> 00:35:14,708 Artık hiçbiri yok, değil mi? 329 00:35:15,916 --> 00:35:16,833 Evet. 330 00:35:20,541 --> 00:35:22,583 Ben… 331 00:35:25,125 --> 00:35:28,041 O son yemekte bunu bilseydim 332 00:35:28,125 --> 00:35:30,166 -farklı davranırdım. -Biliyorlar. 333 00:35:33,875 --> 00:35:34,875 Biliyorlar. 334 00:35:59,416 --> 00:36:01,000 Hey. O da kim? 335 00:36:02,500 --> 00:36:03,583 Howard mı? 336 00:36:04,875 --> 00:36:06,250 Howard Hobbs. 337 00:36:06,875 --> 00:36:10,041 Şu hâline bak. Epey zorlanmış olmalısın. 338 00:36:10,125 --> 00:36:11,958 Zavallı adam. 339 00:36:12,458 --> 00:36:17,583 Seni bir gün bile kilisede gördüğümü hatırlamıyorum 340 00:36:17,666 --> 00:36:21,458 ama bu gece kutsandın, öyle değil mi? 341 00:36:22,208 --> 00:36:23,208 Kurtarıldın. 342 00:36:23,916 --> 00:36:27,125 Vaftiz edildin sanırım. Sen mi yaptın? 343 00:36:28,791 --> 00:36:30,750 Bu gece Julie'mi öldürdüm. 344 00:36:32,125 --> 00:36:33,375 Eşini mi öldürdün? 345 00:36:34,250 --> 00:36:36,958 Oğullarımı da. Onları öldürdüm. 346 00:36:41,083 --> 00:36:45,750 Bunu söylemek hoşuma gitmese de, onları geri getirebilirdin. 347 00:36:46,333 --> 00:36:48,958 Sturge seni geri getirmiş belli ki. 348 00:36:49,041 --> 00:36:53,375 Bunu nadiren ve belirli koşullar altında… 349 00:36:53,458 --> 00:36:57,375 Sorun değil. Ama evet, onları kurtarabilirdin. 350 00:36:57,458 --> 00:37:02,041 Hatta inançlı biri olsaydın bunu kolayca yapabilirdin. 351 00:37:03,875 --> 00:37:06,458 Neler olduğunu anlamıyorum. Neler oluyor? 352 00:37:07,041 --> 00:37:08,500 Sonu geldi Bay Hobbs. 353 00:37:09,500 --> 00:37:10,916 Her şeyin sonu geldi. 354 00:37:11,000 --> 00:37:14,875 Ve ibadet etmemeyi seçtiğin, 355 00:37:14,958 --> 00:37:17,791 Tanrı'ya sırt çevirdiğin günler boyunca 356 00:37:17,875 --> 00:37:22,166 kurtuluşunun araçları hep oradaydı. 357 00:37:22,250 --> 00:37:25,208 Kapılar daima açıktı ama sen fırsatı kullanmadın. 358 00:37:28,125 --> 00:37:30,000 Fırsatı kullanmadın işte. 359 00:37:30,750 --> 00:37:36,500 Dolayısıyla da zamanı geldiğinde haberin olmadı. 360 00:37:38,583 --> 00:37:39,916 Şimdi Tanrı'nın yanındalar. 361 00:37:41,250 --> 00:37:42,416 İçin rahat olsun. 362 00:37:44,166 --> 00:37:47,625 Sana huzur ve Tanrı'dan merhamet dilerim. 363 00:37:50,583 --> 00:37:52,583 İçeride ona yer yok maalesef. 364 00:37:54,166 --> 00:37:55,791 Onu kurtardım Bev. 365 00:37:58,333 --> 00:37:59,750 Bana hep iyi davranırdı. 366 00:38:08,708 --> 00:38:11,208 Kusura bakma Howie. Çok üzgünüm. 367 00:38:13,166 --> 00:38:14,750 Düşündüm de, 368 00:38:16,375 --> 00:38:18,125 biraz yürüsek mi? 369 00:38:19,541 --> 00:38:22,708 Kıyıya kadar? Suyu seversin. 370 00:38:23,708 --> 00:38:25,750 Sevdiğini biliyorum. Belki… 371 00:38:28,750 --> 00:38:32,166 Güneşin doğuşunu izlersin. 372 00:38:43,041 --> 00:38:45,500 Tanrı seninle olacak Howie, inan bana. 373 00:38:46,083 --> 00:38:47,166 Zalimlik bu. 374 00:38:52,458 --> 00:38:54,458 Hey. 375 00:38:56,083 --> 00:38:56,916 Getir onu! 376 00:38:59,416 --> 00:39:00,791 Beni izle oğlum. 377 00:39:02,083 --> 00:39:04,000 Aziz Patrick'in kapısı sana açık. 378 00:39:05,083 --> 00:39:06,250 Hepinize açık! 379 00:39:07,875 --> 00:39:10,958 Herkese açık olmazsa Tanrı'nın evi değil demektir! 380 00:39:32,625 --> 00:39:33,458 Güzel. 381 00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:40,541 Arkadan çık, sahanlıktan geç. Suya git. 382 00:39:42,166 --> 00:39:43,500 Fikir buydu. 383 00:39:46,000 --> 00:39:47,416 Seninle gurur duyuyorum. 384 00:39:47,500 --> 00:39:51,375 Üzgünüm, annenle ben sana hiç söylemedik ama ben… 385 00:39:52,625 --> 00:39:53,958 Seni çok seviyorum. 386 00:39:54,791 --> 00:39:56,541 Seninle gurur duyuyorum. 387 00:39:56,625 --> 00:40:00,291 Birbirimizi tanıyabilmemizi çok isterdim. 388 00:40:04,458 --> 00:40:05,458 Ben de. 389 00:40:08,166 --> 00:40:09,750 Arkadan çık. Ben hallederim… 390 00:40:18,833 --> 00:40:20,125 Şey yapacaktı… 391 00:40:39,500 --> 00:40:40,541 John. 392 00:40:44,708 --> 00:40:45,791 John? 393 00:40:55,750 --> 00:40:59,208 Yavrum! Hayatım! Tanrım! Hayır! 394 00:41:00,000 --> 00:41:03,375 Hayır! Sarah! 395 00:41:03,458 --> 00:41:07,500 Bana bak. Hayır. Sarah, yavrum. 396 00:41:15,833 --> 00:41:16,666 John. 397 00:41:21,083 --> 00:41:23,541 Sorun yok. İşte. 398 00:41:25,458 --> 00:41:27,666 Yok bir şey. 399 00:41:28,625 --> 00:41:29,625 Yok bir şey. 400 00:41:42,916 --> 00:41:45,500 Hayır! 401 00:41:47,625 --> 00:41:50,916 Bir tanecik kızım. Tanrım. 402 00:42:01,916 --> 00:42:03,583 Küçük bir kızken… 403 00:42:05,625 --> 00:42:11,500 …adada en sevdiği yer sazlığın oradaki küçük köprüydü. 404 00:42:14,375 --> 00:42:16,583 O küçük köprü. 405 00:43:00,083 --> 00:43:01,583 Dur! 406 00:43:06,041 --> 00:43:08,291 Seni iğrenç engerek! 407 00:43:08,958 --> 00:43:11,166 Yuvamızda bizi yakacaktın, ha? 408 00:43:11,250 --> 00:43:14,166 Bu adaya adımını attığın an anlamıştım, 409 00:43:14,250 --> 00:43:17,375 yapardın tabii. 410 00:43:18,125 --> 00:43:19,166 Terörist. 411 00:43:21,208 --> 00:43:24,125 O binaya girmenize izin veremem. Hepsi bu. 412 00:43:26,541 --> 00:43:28,500 Başka yer kalmadı, eminim. 413 00:43:37,208 --> 00:43:38,250 Açsınız, ha? 414 00:43:40,416 --> 00:43:41,750 Kanı bozuk. 415 00:43:43,333 --> 00:43:44,291 Vay. 416 00:43:44,375 --> 00:43:46,875 İçeri girmemizi beklememene şaşırdım. 417 00:43:46,958 --> 00:43:48,750 Keyfine diyecek olmazdı. 418 00:43:49,666 --> 00:43:52,541 İçerisi boşken harekete geçmene şaşırdım korkak herif. 419 00:43:53,666 --> 00:43:55,000 Ama öyle değil. 420 00:43:56,125 --> 00:43:57,291 Boş değil yani. 421 00:44:09,041 --> 00:44:10,416 Hayır! 422 00:44:29,625 --> 00:44:30,541 Hey. 423 00:44:34,583 --> 00:44:35,416 Delikanlı. 424 00:44:39,750 --> 00:44:40,583 Hayır. 425 00:45:00,583 --> 00:45:04,333 İncil'de aklıma kazınan bir ayet var. 426 00:45:05,416 --> 00:45:08,791 "O, güneşini hem kötülerin hem iyilerin üzerine doğdurur." 427 00:45:10,875 --> 00:45:11,791 Baba! 428 00:45:16,083 --> 00:45:17,125 Baba, kalk. 429 00:46:00,666 --> 00:46:04,625 Başka bir yer olmalı. 430 00:46:04,708 --> 00:46:07,250 Hayır, Bev. Hayır. Başka yer yok. 431 00:46:08,625 --> 00:46:12,666 -Sen yaktın. Hepsini yaktın. -Hayır, ben… 432 00:46:14,333 --> 00:46:18,083 Leeza'yı aramalıyız. Leeza'yı bulalım. 433 00:46:21,125 --> 00:46:22,041 Leeza. 434 00:46:27,875 --> 00:46:29,541 Başka nereye gidebiliriz? 435 00:46:29,625 --> 00:46:31,333 -Başka bir yer olmalı. -Ama yok. 436 00:46:32,791 --> 00:46:35,958 -Tekneler! -Tekneler yok artık Bev. 437 00:46:43,833 --> 00:46:44,833 Hey, evlat. 438 00:46:47,833 --> 00:46:48,833 Evlat, iyi misin? 439 00:46:54,208 --> 00:46:55,125 Hiç sanmıyorum. 440 00:46:57,875 --> 00:46:59,041 Galiba ben… 441 00:47:01,833 --> 00:47:03,958 Emin değilim ama annemi öldürdüm galiba. 442 00:47:06,625 --> 00:47:11,333 Evet. Bu gece yaptığım bazı şeyler var ki… 443 00:47:15,208 --> 00:47:16,375 Bazı şeyler yaptım. 444 00:47:19,000 --> 00:47:20,291 Beni affeder misin? 445 00:47:24,500 --> 00:47:25,500 Affediyorum. 446 00:47:29,625 --> 00:47:32,708 Hadi gel. Sen de Howie, hadi. 447 00:48:22,458 --> 00:48:23,375 Dayan. 448 00:48:25,958 --> 00:48:28,125 Baba. 449 00:48:47,583 --> 00:48:48,583 Orada. 450 00:48:53,416 --> 00:48:54,458 Batıya gidiyor. 451 00:48:56,166 --> 00:48:57,166 Kaçıyor. 452 00:48:57,916 --> 00:48:59,500 Şafaktan kaçıyor. 453 00:49:01,083 --> 00:49:03,916 Ulaşabilir mi? Şafaktan önce? 454 00:49:06,166 --> 00:49:07,375 50 kilometre öteye mi? 455 00:49:08,958 --> 00:49:10,666 Doğru düzgün uçamıyor ki. 456 00:49:13,541 --> 00:49:15,375 Bence gidemez. 457 00:49:33,833 --> 00:49:34,666 Ne oluyor? 458 00:49:43,291 --> 00:49:44,125 Ne? 459 00:49:45,166 --> 00:49:46,083 Biz ölürken. 460 00:49:47,416 --> 00:49:48,416 Ne oluyor? 461 00:49:50,875 --> 00:49:52,375 Evet, ne oluyor sahi? 462 00:49:54,250 --> 00:49:56,500 Biz ölürken ne olacak sence Erin? 463 00:50:00,125 --> 00:50:01,375 Kendi adıma mı konuşayım? 464 00:50:03,708 --> 00:50:04,916 Kendi adına konuş. 465 00:50:16,291 --> 00:50:20,333 Kendi adıma. 466 00:50:22,083 --> 00:50:23,416 Sorun da bu ya. 467 00:50:24,583 --> 00:50:27,125 Bütün mesele bu. 468 00:50:28,125 --> 00:50:30,958 Şu kelime, "kendi." 469 00:50:32,000 --> 00:50:33,541 Doğru kelime değil. 470 00:50:34,458 --> 00:50:36,166 Doğru değil, o… 471 00:50:38,500 --> 00:50:39,750 Yok. 472 00:50:41,375 --> 00:50:43,041 Bunu nasıl unuttum? 473 00:50:43,875 --> 00:50:45,208 Ne zaman unuttum? 474 00:50:47,708 --> 00:50:53,291 Bedenin tüm hücreleri teker teker ölüyor ama beyin nöronlar fırlatmayı sürdürüyor. 475 00:50:54,208 --> 00:50:57,750 Şimşek gibi, havai fişek gibi. 476 00:50:57,833 --> 00:51:02,333 Çaresizlik veya korku hissedeceğimi düşünürdüm ama hiçbirini hissetmiyorum. 477 00:51:03,416 --> 00:51:04,416 Hiçbirini. 478 00:51:05,666 --> 00:51:07,041 Çünkü çok meşgulüm. 479 00:51:08,250 --> 00:51:11,583 Bu anda meşgulüm. Hatırlamakla. 480 00:51:15,625 --> 00:51:16,500 Elbette. 481 00:51:17,583 --> 00:51:22,416 Bedenimdeki her atomun bir yıldızda oluştuğunu hatırlıyorum. 482 00:51:24,791 --> 00:51:29,041 Bu madde, bu beden çoğunlukla uzay boşluğundan ibaret sonuçta. 483 00:51:29,125 --> 00:51:30,625 Somut madde dediğin… 484 00:51:31,458 --> 00:51:36,000 Çok yavaş titreşen enerjiden ibaret ve ben diye bir şey yok. 485 00:51:36,708 --> 00:51:37,791 Hiç olmadı. 486 00:51:40,125 --> 00:51:42,958 Bedenimdeki elektronlar 487 00:51:43,041 --> 00:51:47,583 altımdaki zeminde ve artık solumadığım havada bulunan elektronlarla kaynaşıyor. 488 00:51:48,750 --> 00:51:49,958 Hatırlıyorum, 489 00:51:51,500 --> 00:51:56,125 birinin bitip benim başladığım bir nokta yok. 490 00:51:59,500 --> 00:52:03,166 Hatırlıyorum, ben enerjiyim. Bellek değilim. 491 00:52:04,291 --> 00:52:05,291 Benlik değilim. 492 00:52:06,541 --> 00:52:10,083 Adım, kişiliğim, seçimlerim, hepsi benden sonra geldi. 493 00:52:11,250 --> 00:52:14,166 Ben onlardan önce vardım, sonra da olacağım, 494 00:52:14,750 --> 00:52:18,416 geri kalan her şey görüntülerden ibaret. 495 00:52:19,166 --> 00:52:24,291 Ölmekte olan beynimin dokusuna resmedilen gelip geçici düş parçaları. 496 00:52:24,916 --> 00:52:30,875 Bense arada sıçrayan şimşeğim. Nöronları ateşleyen enerjiyim 497 00:52:32,666 --> 00:52:34,208 ve geri dönüyorum. 498 00:52:35,333 --> 00:52:39,041 Sadece hatırlamakla yuvaya dönüyorum. 499 00:52:42,333 --> 00:52:45,333 Sanki daima parçası olduğu 500 00:52:47,625 --> 00:52:50,291 denize karışan bir su damlası gibi. 501 00:52:51,916 --> 00:52:54,791 Her şey… bir parçası. 502 00:52:55,291 --> 00:52:58,333 Hepimiz… bir parçasıyız. 503 00:52:58,416 --> 00:53:02,875 Sen, ben, küçük kızım, annem ve babam. 504 00:53:02,958 --> 00:53:08,625 Gelmiş geçmiş herkes, her bitki, her hayvan, her atom, 505 00:53:08,708 --> 00:53:11,958 her yıldız, her galaksi, hepsi. 506 00:53:13,708 --> 00:53:17,166 Kumsaldaki kum tanelerinden daha çok galaksi var evrende. 507 00:53:17,250 --> 00:53:21,750 "Tanrı" dediğimizde kastettiğimiz de o. 508 00:53:22,750 --> 00:53:23,666 Biricik olan. 509 00:53:24,958 --> 00:53:28,958 Evren ve onun sonsuz düşleri. 510 00:53:30,750 --> 00:53:34,250 Biz, kendi kendini düşleyen evreniz. 511 00:53:35,083 --> 00:53:38,958 Her seferinde hayatım sandığım şey aslında bir düş. 512 00:53:41,041 --> 00:53:43,791 Ama bunu unutacağım. Hep unutuyorum. 513 00:53:45,333 --> 00:53:47,083 Düşlerimi hep unutuyorum. 514 00:53:51,000 --> 00:53:55,500 Ama şimdi, bir lahzada, hatırlıyorum 515 00:53:55,583 --> 00:54:00,083 ve hatırladığım an her şeyi bir çırpıda anlıyorum. 516 00:54:01,458 --> 00:54:04,750 Zaman yok. Ölüm yok. 517 00:54:05,416 --> 00:54:06,541 Hayat bir düş. 518 00:54:09,166 --> 00:54:10,166 Bir dilek. 519 00:54:11,333 --> 00:54:16,916 Sonsuza dek tekrarlanan bir dilek. 520 00:54:18,416 --> 00:54:19,583 Ben bunların hepsiyim. 521 00:54:20,708 --> 00:54:22,666 Ben her şeyim. Ben hepsiyim. 522 00:54:26,125 --> 00:54:28,041 Ben oyum. 523 00:58:52,958 --> 00:58:53,875 Affet beni. 524 01:00:07,250 --> 01:00:08,375 Bacaklarım hissiz. 525 01:02:26,666 --> 01:02:31,666 Alt yazı çevirmeni: Selen Akhuy

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1 00:00:14,791 --> 00:00:16,250 [crickets chirping] 2 00:00:34,875 --> 00:00:36,416 [gasps] 3 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:39,041 [breathing heavily] 4 00:02:15,875 --> 00:02:17,833 [hesitating] Did it hurt you? 5 00:02:20,541 --> 00:02:21,375 Yes. 6 00:02:21,458 --> 00:02:22,500 [Father Paul sighs] 7 00:02:29,000 --> 00:02:30,250 [banging at door] 8 00:02:42,791 --> 00:02:43,958 [man screams] 9 00:02:44,833 --> 00:02:46,291 [all grunting] 10 00:02:47,416 --> 00:02:50,041 -[exclaims] -[man continues screaming] 11 00:02:51,041 --> 00:02:52,125 [clamoring] 12 00:02:55,375 --> 00:02:56,333 [bites] 13 00:03:04,458 --> 00:03:05,875 [clamoring continues] 14 00:03:07,416 --> 00:03:08,541 [woman 1 screeches] 15 00:03:12,875 --> 00:03:15,875 No! No! 16 00:03:20,333 --> 00:03:21,708 [woman 2 screams] 17 00:03:26,291 --> 00:03:27,916 [woman 3 exclaims] 18 00:03:30,708 --> 00:03:32,375 [man grunts] 19 00:03:39,916 --> 00:03:41,166 [indistinct shouting] 20 00:03:46,166 --> 00:03:47,500 [man screams] 21 00:03:49,375 --> 00:03:51,166 They're pulling people out of their houses. 22 00:03:51,250 --> 00:03:53,541 -We've got to get out of here. -Where are we gonna go? 23 00:03:53,625 --> 00:03:56,875 To the church to get my son. He's still in the church. 24 00:03:56,958 --> 00:03:58,958 -What did they do to him? -Eddie-- 25 00:03:59,041 --> 00:04:00,500 -What happened to Dad? -What did they do? 26 00:04:00,583 --> 00:04:03,083 -I don't know. -You said you studied this thing. 27 00:04:03,166 --> 00:04:04,375 You said you had samples. 28 00:04:04,458 --> 00:04:06,625 -[Sarah] I didn't. I don't know. -Be quiet. Quiet. 29 00:04:08,250 --> 00:04:09,958 [woman screaming in distance] 30 00:04:18,333 --> 00:04:20,000 [screaming continues faintly] 31 00:04:27,541 --> 00:04:28,916 Does anyone have service? 32 00:04:36,500 --> 00:04:39,416 No. They must've knocked the cell tower out. 33 00:04:39,500 --> 00:04:41,541 [Annie] And they sent the ferries away. 34 00:04:42,166 --> 00:04:44,416 [Sarah] Sturge was messing with the boats. We saw him today. 35 00:04:44,500 --> 00:04:48,166 Boats, phones, power. They're cutting us off. 36 00:04:48,250 --> 00:04:51,875 -Boats. -I have a canoe by the Uppards. 37 00:04:52,833 --> 00:04:55,333 I mean, I don't think it gets anybody to the mainland, 38 00:04:55,416 --> 00:04:57,291 but off the island, at least. 39 00:04:57,375 --> 00:05:01,125 My parents… They're out there. They'd have to come with us, right? 40 00:05:02,041 --> 00:05:03,791 Get them to a doctor. There's room. 41 00:05:03,875 --> 00:05:07,083 -On the fishing boats, there's room. -That's not what I'm talking about. 42 00:05:07,166 --> 00:05:08,833 She's not talking about leaving. 43 00:05:08,916 --> 00:05:11,125 [Erin] 'Cause they'd come after us, like Bev said. 44 00:05:11,708 --> 00:05:13,375 That's why they didn't sink 'em. 45 00:05:13,458 --> 00:05:17,208 That's why they just pulled some plugs. Because they need the boats. 46 00:05:18,416 --> 00:05:22,000 So they can leave… after. 47 00:05:25,250 --> 00:05:27,166 Sarah, you said it was a contagion. 48 00:05:28,708 --> 00:05:32,375 If just one of them, just one of them makes it to the mainland… 49 00:06:05,875 --> 00:06:07,083 What's this gonna do? 50 00:06:09,625 --> 00:06:12,166 What's any of this gonna do? The guns and knives? 51 00:06:15,166 --> 00:06:16,250 They get back up. 52 00:06:17,458 --> 00:06:20,375 You saw, they… This isn't the way. 53 00:06:21,208 --> 00:06:22,458 This is never the way. 54 00:06:23,833 --> 00:06:24,833 [Erin] Maybe not. 55 00:06:27,416 --> 00:06:29,000 Maybe it buys us a few more minutes. 56 00:06:30,333 --> 00:06:31,791 A few more minutes alive. 57 00:06:31,875 --> 00:06:32,833 [gun cylinder clicks] 58 00:06:33,958 --> 00:06:35,791 [Erin] And it might come down to just minutes. 59 00:06:37,708 --> 00:06:38,708 Maybe seconds. 60 00:06:42,583 --> 00:06:44,291 [Annie] Never made much sense to me. 61 00:06:46,125 --> 00:06:47,541 We all say there's a heaven. 62 00:06:48,833 --> 00:06:50,083 And it's waiting for us. 63 00:06:51,958 --> 00:06:55,375 Then we claw, fight, beg 64 00:06:56,583 --> 00:06:58,458 for a few more minutes at the end. 65 00:06:59,958 --> 00:07:00,958 Minutes. 66 00:07:02,625 --> 00:07:04,125 It isn't about us anymore. 67 00:07:07,250 --> 00:07:08,916 It's about everyone else in the world. 68 00:07:12,458 --> 00:07:14,375 Dying for people we haven't even met. 69 00:07:16,958 --> 00:07:18,291 No greater love than that. 70 00:07:19,333 --> 00:07:21,166 What the Good Book says, isn't it? 71 00:07:24,708 --> 00:07:27,541 [sighs] First things, we have to get you kids to safety. 72 00:07:27,625 --> 00:07:28,708 -No, we can help. -No. 73 00:07:28,791 --> 00:07:31,041 -No. -Please, no. 74 00:07:32,416 --> 00:07:35,416 What if we head to the beach and hug the shoreline to the Uppards, 75 00:07:35,500 --> 00:07:37,500 and you take the canoe and you paddle out-- 76 00:07:41,333 --> 00:07:42,333 Again. 77 00:07:48,416 --> 00:07:49,708 Erin Greene! 78 00:07:50,333 --> 00:07:53,125 I'd like to finish our discussion! 79 00:07:55,166 --> 00:07:57,166 -Maybe she's not-- -She's in there. 80 00:08:02,916 --> 00:08:04,000 [exhales] 81 00:08:15,958 --> 00:08:16,958 No. 82 00:08:18,500 --> 00:08:21,291 You go. You get those children to safety. 83 00:08:22,416 --> 00:08:24,000 I'd like a word with Bev. 84 00:08:24,083 --> 00:08:24,958 Mom! 85 00:08:27,500 --> 00:08:30,000 -I love you. -Mom! 86 00:08:30,083 --> 00:08:32,208 -So much. -Mom! 87 00:08:32,875 --> 00:08:33,791 Go. 88 00:08:39,333 --> 00:08:40,333 [exhales] 89 00:08:45,375 --> 00:08:47,500 No quarrel with you, Annie Flynn. 90 00:08:48,250 --> 00:08:50,833 I just want to have a little chat with Erin Greene. 91 00:08:50,916 --> 00:08:52,750 And Sarah Gunning. 92 00:08:53,375 --> 00:08:56,916 Maybe that terror-loving sheriff, if he's still with them. 93 00:08:57,000 --> 00:08:59,708 Yeah. They're all in there. 94 00:09:01,208 --> 00:09:04,208 -Two children too. -[Bev] The children will be fine. 95 00:09:04,875 --> 00:09:06,416 They're already saved. 96 00:09:07,208 --> 00:09:11,041 You don't think I would put those children in any real danger, do you? 97 00:09:12,833 --> 00:09:15,958 What's that for, Annie? Please don't tell me that's for us. 98 00:09:16,041 --> 00:09:18,375 -We're past all of that now. -[Annie] It's not. 99 00:09:21,958 --> 00:09:23,583 Bev, I want you to listen to me. 100 00:09:25,208 --> 00:09:27,875 Because your whole life, I think you've needed to hear this. 101 00:09:29,041 --> 00:09:30,583 You aren't a good person. 102 00:09:34,208 --> 00:09:35,250 Well… 103 00:09:36,833 --> 00:09:38,083 That was uncalled for. 104 00:09:38,166 --> 00:09:40,708 God doesn't love you more than anyone else. 105 00:09:42,208 --> 00:09:43,458 You aren't a hero. 106 00:09:44,375 --> 00:09:48,041 And you certainly, certainly aren't a victim. 107 00:09:48,666 --> 00:09:50,458 I wouldn't lecture, Annie Flynn. 108 00:09:51,333 --> 00:09:55,791 Not until you pull the plank from your own eye, as it were. 109 00:09:55,875 --> 00:09:59,875 I hate to speak ill of the dead, but if Riley Flynn, 110 00:10:00,541 --> 00:10:03,541 a drunk and a murderer, 111 00:10:03,625 --> 00:10:06,250 was evidence of the quality of his parenting-- 112 00:10:06,333 --> 00:10:07,333 He was. 113 00:10:09,333 --> 00:10:10,750 Every part of him. 114 00:10:13,916 --> 00:10:15,416 God loves him. 115 00:10:17,083 --> 00:10:19,041 Just as much as he loves you, Bev. 116 00:10:21,500 --> 00:10:23,416 Why does that upset you so much? 117 00:10:25,041 --> 00:10:30,041 Just the idea that God loves everyone just as much as you. 118 00:10:30,625 --> 00:10:32,875 She's stalling. Check around back. 119 00:10:37,291 --> 00:10:38,291 [Bev] Jesus! 120 00:10:39,083 --> 00:10:42,083 [shushes] It's okay. You're gonna be all right, Annie. 121 00:10:42,166 --> 00:10:45,375 Look at me. You'll be up and about in no time. 122 00:10:45,458 --> 00:10:46,375 You'll be… 123 00:11:17,166 --> 00:11:18,250 [Father Paul] Sparrows. 124 00:11:18,958 --> 00:11:22,791 In the Bible it says, "The sparrow will not fall to the ground, 125 00:11:22,875 --> 00:11:27,875 not even a sparrow, without God knowing." He feels every death. 126 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:35,750 I was in South America, in my youth, on a mission, 127 00:11:35,833 --> 00:11:37,833 and I stood beneath this 128 00:11:39,375 --> 00:11:40,958 great waterfall. 129 00:11:42,416 --> 00:11:46,041 The scale of it. The weight of it… 130 00:11:49,458 --> 00:11:52,583 The roar of it, it drowned out every noise in the jungle. 131 00:11:52,666 --> 00:11:57,166 Every bird and every voice. And then when I was older, 132 00:11:57,250 --> 00:12:01,666 I thought about death, how many deaths occur every second… 133 00:12:04,250 --> 00:12:07,041 There's people, animals, sparrows. 134 00:12:07,833 --> 00:12:12,750 If every drop of water in that waterfall were a death, 135 00:12:13,416 --> 00:12:18,000 I thought, "Oh. That must be what it's like for God." 136 00:12:21,958 --> 00:12:25,916 Every moment of every hour of every day, a deluge of death, 137 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:28,958 so loud, how could he hear 138 00:12:29,958 --> 00:12:35,416 my whispered prayers over that thundering roar of deaths? 139 00:12:35,500 --> 00:12:39,083 When I saw what I'd been given, I thought, 140 00:12:39,166 --> 00:12:43,958 "Oh. Well, this is the end of that. It's the end of the roar." 141 00:12:46,208 --> 00:12:47,333 No more death. 142 00:12:53,416 --> 00:12:57,583 But if I'm honest, and there's no point in being anything else anymore, 143 00:12:57,666 --> 00:12:58,791 it was you. 144 00:13:01,250 --> 00:13:04,791 It was you. And Sarah. That's why I did it. 145 00:13:05,750 --> 00:13:08,750 [sniffs] That's why I put that thing in that trunk. 146 00:13:08,833 --> 00:13:11,791 That's why I bribed and lied and smuggled it back here. 147 00:13:11,875 --> 00:13:15,416 That was the reason. [voice breaking] I didn't want you to die. 148 00:13:26,791 --> 00:13:30,208 The rest of them too, of course, but, no… 149 00:13:31,666 --> 00:13:35,875 I didn't want you and Sarah… 150 00:13:36,458 --> 00:13:38,625 I mean, our whole lives have been wasted. 151 00:13:39,125 --> 00:13:42,000 [crying] You know, just staring across the church. 152 00:13:42,875 --> 00:13:45,125 Too scared to come down and be with you. 153 00:13:45,208 --> 00:13:48,000 I mean, too scared to tell our own daughter the truth. 154 00:13:48,083 --> 00:13:49,083 [sniffles] 155 00:13:51,750 --> 00:13:54,041 And it never felt like a sin, that was the thing. 156 00:13:54,125 --> 00:13:58,125 You never felt like a sin, and our daughter, she was never a sin. 157 00:13:58,208 --> 00:13:59,833 She was never a mistake. 158 00:14:01,041 --> 00:14:02,083 Never. 159 00:14:05,791 --> 00:14:06,666 [inhales sharply] 160 00:14:08,750 --> 00:14:10,750 -What could we have done? -Mmm-hmm. 161 00:14:12,333 --> 00:14:13,166 John. 162 00:14:14,541 --> 00:14:17,041 -It was a different world. -Well… 163 00:14:18,041 --> 00:14:19,291 [hesitating] 164 00:14:20,083 --> 00:14:23,083 I used to tell myself… I'd tell myself, um… 165 00:14:25,083 --> 00:14:28,750 on those hard nights when you were so close, 166 00:14:28,833 --> 00:14:32,083 sleeping beside the man you were supposed to be with, that you… 167 00:14:35,083 --> 00:14:36,208 that you… 168 00:14:36,291 --> 00:14:40,708 If you would just show up and ask me, I would have taken this collar off 169 00:14:41,458 --> 00:14:43,208 and I would have gone with you. 170 00:14:45,333 --> 00:14:47,291 I would go with you anywhere in the world. 171 00:14:50,958 --> 00:14:53,458 I was never going to do that, John. 172 00:14:55,416 --> 00:14:58,166 Not to you. Or to her. 173 00:14:58,250 --> 00:14:59,250 [sniffles] 174 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:03,291 And not to him. Not after the war. 175 00:15:04,125 --> 00:15:06,333 I wasn't gonna ruin four lives. 176 00:15:09,958 --> 00:15:12,000 But that's over now, John. 177 00:15:13,833 --> 00:15:15,500 We made our choices. 178 00:15:16,500 --> 00:15:17,875 We lived our lives. 179 00:15:19,416 --> 00:15:24,375 She grew up and we faded away, and that's how it's supposed to work. 180 00:15:25,625 --> 00:15:27,458 It's supposed to be over. 181 00:15:32,583 --> 00:15:34,125 Yeah, but another chance? 182 00:15:36,791 --> 00:15:40,250 Now that we can be a family this time. 183 00:15:42,500 --> 00:15:48,000 Can you think of a miracle more amazing than that? 184 00:15:48,083 --> 00:15:52,708 I mean, curing… Cure blindness, sure. 185 00:15:52,791 --> 00:15:54,375 Or part the seas, all right. 186 00:15:54,916 --> 00:15:58,541 But a second chance? [chuckles softly] 187 00:16:00,625 --> 00:16:02,166 That's a real miracle. 188 00:16:10,791 --> 00:16:12,625 [angel roars] 189 00:16:13,250 --> 00:16:14,458 [wings flap] 190 00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:23,125 -[glass shatters] -[man screams] 191 00:16:27,250 --> 00:16:30,666 [woman] Help! Someone help! 192 00:16:30,750 --> 00:16:34,416 -My husband! Help me! -[shushes] 193 00:16:34,500 --> 00:16:36,625 -Quiet. -[woman] Help! Help me! 194 00:16:36,708 --> 00:16:38,958 -[Sarah] We have to go. Now. -[woman] Someone help me! 195 00:16:39,583 --> 00:16:42,083 -[man] Hey, Flynn. -[woman] Help me, please! 196 00:16:43,375 --> 00:16:44,541 [man] You guys smell good. 197 00:16:45,875 --> 00:16:48,500 Like… you smell amazing. 198 00:16:48,583 --> 00:16:49,666 Back up. 199 00:16:52,625 --> 00:16:53,541 Raghead. 200 00:17:00,291 --> 00:17:02,625 [woman] Help! Help me! 201 00:17:03,250 --> 00:17:06,708 Help! Help! 202 00:17:08,875 --> 00:17:09,833 [screams] 203 00:17:11,958 --> 00:17:14,000 [roars] 204 00:17:14,083 --> 00:17:15,541 [woman screeches] 205 00:17:19,000 --> 00:17:21,166 -[Wade] Leeza. -Daddy? 206 00:17:22,291 --> 00:17:23,333 Daddy. 207 00:17:24,291 --> 00:17:25,375 [Erin] Run! 208 00:17:27,333 --> 00:17:28,750 [Leeza screams] 209 00:17:28,833 --> 00:17:30,000 [man exclaims] 210 00:17:30,083 --> 00:17:31,208 [Hassan exclaims] 211 00:17:34,125 --> 00:17:35,458 Go, run! 212 00:17:36,708 --> 00:17:37,875 [Hassan] Run! 213 00:17:59,791 --> 00:18:01,333 Why did she do that? 214 00:18:01,416 --> 00:18:02,500 It doesn't matter. 215 00:18:05,708 --> 00:18:07,083 [Sturge] We gotta put out this fire. 216 00:18:10,666 --> 00:18:11,750 I don't know. 217 00:18:14,083 --> 00:18:16,000 If it gets goin' too big, it could… 218 00:18:17,541 --> 00:18:21,166 I mean, the whole island. With this wind it's like a tinderbox. 219 00:18:21,250 --> 00:18:23,541 The whole thing could burn to nothin' like in '84. 220 00:18:23,625 --> 00:18:26,250 Not the whole island. It'd take more than the west bank 221 00:18:26,333 --> 00:18:28,291 to do the whole thing, and even then… 222 00:18:30,625 --> 00:18:33,000 I mean, the church didn't burn in '84. 223 00:18:39,791 --> 00:18:40,916 Revelation. 224 00:18:43,416 --> 00:18:47,791 "The first Angel blew his trumpet and there came hail and fire 225 00:18:47,875 --> 00:18:50,791 mixed with the blood, and they were hurled to the Earth." 226 00:18:50,875 --> 00:18:56,625 "And a third of the Earth was burned up, and a third of the trees were burned up, 227 00:18:56,708 --> 00:19:00,416 and all of the green grass was burned up." 228 00:19:00,500 --> 00:19:05,583 "As for the cowardly, the faithless, 229 00:19:05,666 --> 00:19:10,791 the polluted, the murderers, the fornicators, the sorcerers, 230 00:19:10,875 --> 00:19:16,083 idolaters and all of the liars, their place will be in the lake that burns 231 00:19:16,166 --> 00:19:21,291 with fire and sulfur, which is the second death." Let it burn. 232 00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:26,875 Let all of it burn. 233 00:19:29,041 --> 00:19:30,208 A new flood. 234 00:19:32,541 --> 00:19:39,250 A flood of fire, and St. Patrick's will be the ark. 235 00:19:40,708 --> 00:19:43,833 The citizens of Crockett, the good citizens, 236 00:19:43,916 --> 00:19:46,625 they know where to go in a storm. 237 00:19:48,333 --> 00:19:50,291 Pick that up. Come with me. 238 00:20:35,708 --> 00:20:36,791 What's the point? 239 00:20:40,166 --> 00:20:41,166 Minutes. 240 00:20:57,750 --> 00:21:01,625 In case there's a boat, maybe with an engine. 241 00:21:01,708 --> 00:21:03,333 A speedboat or something. 242 00:21:04,291 --> 00:21:05,625 We're gonna be okay. 243 00:21:05,708 --> 00:21:07,250 You think we're gonna make it? 244 00:21:08,958 --> 00:21:12,625 That's not what I said. I'm saying, either way, 245 00:21:13,625 --> 00:21:14,750 we're gonna be okay. 246 00:21:16,583 --> 00:21:17,416 Okay. 247 00:21:46,208 --> 00:21:47,250 [indistinct chatter] 248 00:21:53,791 --> 00:21:55,041 [Annie panting] 249 00:21:59,750 --> 00:22:01,041 [sobs] 250 00:22:11,250 --> 00:22:12,458 It's all mine. 251 00:22:13,166 --> 00:22:15,666 Same. It's all mine too. 252 00:22:16,708 --> 00:22:19,666 They're… What they're doin' to people… 253 00:22:20,250 --> 00:22:21,416 But not you. 254 00:22:21,500 --> 00:22:24,750 -No, not me. -Of course not. 255 00:22:27,791 --> 00:22:29,791 I can feel it already though, Ed. 256 00:22:31,833 --> 00:22:34,125 -My stomach hurts. -I know. 257 00:22:35,583 --> 00:22:36,583 I feel it. 258 00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:43,875 Is that what I'll become, just an animal who can't resist? 259 00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:46,416 When I saw them at the church, 260 00:22:46,500 --> 00:22:49,125 I thought it was something they really couldn't help. 261 00:22:50,375 --> 00:22:54,583 Like… something impossible not to do. 262 00:22:55,458 --> 00:22:56,958 But it isn't, Annie. 263 00:22:59,000 --> 00:23:01,250 I feel it too. 264 00:23:01,875 --> 00:23:04,041 I'm starving too, 265 00:23:05,208 --> 00:23:07,875 but I didn't. I didn't. 266 00:23:09,291 --> 00:23:10,916 Whatever this is, 267 00:23:12,125 --> 00:23:13,625 it don't change who you are. 268 00:23:14,208 --> 00:23:15,833 -[woman screams] -[Annie gasps] 269 00:23:17,958 --> 00:23:19,500 [exclaims] 270 00:23:24,583 --> 00:23:25,791 [Sarah] They're burning it down. 271 00:23:27,750 --> 00:23:30,208 Why would they do that? That doesn't make any sense. 272 00:23:46,583 --> 00:23:48,416 I hope the kids made it to the boat. 273 00:23:50,083 --> 00:23:51,291 I hope so too. 274 00:23:54,666 --> 00:23:56,125 We're never gonna know, are we? 275 00:23:57,166 --> 00:23:58,166 Probably not. 276 00:24:00,791 --> 00:24:01,708 They did. 277 00:24:04,583 --> 00:24:06,125 I'm deciding they did. 278 00:24:37,625 --> 00:24:39,708 [wind blows] 279 00:24:43,833 --> 00:24:45,000 [Wade] Leeza! 280 00:24:46,791 --> 00:24:49,625 Leeza, honey, it's Daddy! 281 00:24:51,583 --> 00:24:54,500 If you can hear me, follow my voice! Leeza, please! 282 00:24:57,000 --> 00:24:58,000 [Dolly] Leeza! 283 00:24:59,583 --> 00:25:01,000 Leeza, honey! 284 00:25:05,708 --> 00:25:07,833 -Leeza, honey! -[Wade] Leeza, honey, please! 285 00:25:07,916 --> 00:25:10,333 -[Leeza coughs] -[man] It's okay. You can come out. 286 00:25:13,500 --> 00:25:16,125 -[flies buzzing] -[Warren groans] 287 00:25:37,166 --> 00:25:38,458 [breath trembling] 288 00:25:46,416 --> 00:25:47,833 [angel slurping] 289 00:25:55,333 --> 00:25:56,458 [Leeza gasps] 290 00:25:57,333 --> 00:25:58,500 [woman sobs] 291 00:26:09,583 --> 00:26:10,750 [softly] Stop it. Stop. 292 00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:20,791 [Leeza breathing heavily] 293 00:26:20,875 --> 00:26:22,416 [woman continues sobbing] 294 00:26:25,875 --> 00:26:27,375 [growls] 295 00:27:11,833 --> 00:27:13,708 [angel screeches] 296 00:27:21,375 --> 00:27:22,416 [Sturge] Leeza Scarborough! 297 00:27:23,875 --> 00:27:25,416 Your father's worried sick. 298 00:27:26,625 --> 00:27:27,500 Leeza! 299 00:27:38,125 --> 00:27:41,791 Spread the word. Anyone not in the rec center by sunrise 300 00:27:41,875 --> 00:27:43,250 won't see another. 301 00:27:44,291 --> 00:27:47,916 Hit the empties, the trailers, everything. All of it. 302 00:27:48,916 --> 00:27:50,083 Dawn's a-comin'. 303 00:28:36,666 --> 00:28:37,875 [fire blazes] 304 00:29:01,625 --> 00:29:02,916 [bell tolling] 305 00:29:16,666 --> 00:29:18,041 [tolling fades] 306 00:29:25,833 --> 00:29:27,458 Oh. You're up. 307 00:29:28,250 --> 00:29:29,291 Praise be. 308 00:29:30,666 --> 00:29:31,875 And you too. 309 00:29:33,500 --> 00:29:36,791 Monsignor, you are a stronger soul than I, 310 00:29:36,875 --> 00:29:41,333 but if you forgive men their trespass, the Heavenly Father will also forgive you. 311 00:29:41,416 --> 00:29:43,500 So who am I to judge? 312 00:29:44,791 --> 00:29:46,083 Still, though. 313 00:29:46,583 --> 00:29:49,208 -You let them out. -[Bev] Of course I did. 314 00:29:50,500 --> 00:29:52,500 Come. Let me show you. 315 00:30:03,416 --> 00:30:06,791 "He blotted out every living thing on the face of the ground." 316 00:30:06,875 --> 00:30:12,833 "Human beings, animals, creeping things, birds of the sky. They were blotted out." 317 00:30:12,916 --> 00:30:16,833 "Only Noah was left for those who were with him on the ark." 318 00:30:17,375 --> 00:30:21,750 St. Patrick's isn't just a church, Monsignor. It's an ark. 319 00:30:22,916 --> 00:30:25,708 I set up cots in the rec center for those who were chosen. 320 00:30:25,791 --> 00:30:28,875 We will take to our ships, to our vessels, and then, 321 00:30:28,958 --> 00:30:30,708 like sheep among wolves, like you said, 322 00:30:31,625 --> 00:30:33,666 we will spread the good word. 323 00:30:33,750 --> 00:30:36,958 And… and who will decide who is chosen? 324 00:30:38,125 --> 00:30:40,375 We will. You and me. 325 00:30:41,416 --> 00:30:45,041 -And what happens to the rest? -Well, I don't much know. 326 00:30:45,750 --> 00:30:47,125 That isn't up to me. 327 00:30:48,083 --> 00:30:50,041 It's between them and God, isn't it? 328 00:30:51,250 --> 00:30:52,083 No. 329 00:30:53,291 --> 00:30:54,125 I'm sorry? 330 00:30:55,000 --> 00:30:56,333 No, we got this wrong. 331 00:30:56,833 --> 00:30:59,583 -Don't be ridiculous. -No, Beverly, please look at them. 332 00:31:00,166 --> 00:31:02,791 -We are the wolves. -[Bev] No. 333 00:31:04,666 --> 00:31:08,708 No, please. Not you too. Not you, Monsignor. 334 00:31:09,666 --> 00:31:14,375 I was wrong. We were wrong. We are wrong. And this needs to stop. 335 00:31:15,083 --> 00:31:16,166 They need leadership. 336 00:31:16,833 --> 00:31:20,750 Look at them. They're lost without a leader, without a shepherd. 337 00:31:20,833 --> 00:31:25,750 That must be you, Monsignor. It has to be you. It has always been you. 338 00:31:25,833 --> 00:31:28,958 No! It was never me. That's the thing about priesthood. 339 00:31:29,041 --> 00:31:32,625 It's never supposed to be about me. It's supposed to be about God! 340 00:31:42,416 --> 00:31:45,750 Well, I suppose it isn't you anymore. 341 00:31:47,708 --> 00:31:49,458 Of course, he told us that, didn't he? 342 00:31:50,583 --> 00:31:54,083 Jesus himself. He warned us against the scribes, against the priests. 343 00:31:54,708 --> 00:31:58,250 In Matthew. "Do not call anyone on Earth 'father,' 344 00:31:58,333 --> 00:32:01,208 you have one father, and he is in heaven." 345 00:32:02,833 --> 00:32:07,708 "Woe to you, scribes, Pharisees, hypocrites!" 346 00:32:07,791 --> 00:32:09,375 Viper's brood. 347 00:32:10,375 --> 00:32:13,041 But you, Monsignor… 348 00:32:16,375 --> 00:32:19,791 Monsignor Pruitt, did it have to be true of you? 349 00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:26,666 I suppose virtue isn't a virtue if it doesn't cost you anything. 350 00:32:28,666 --> 00:32:31,125 And it was always going this way. You were always… 351 00:32:32,500 --> 00:32:36,375 You were always gonna be the last, the hardest, test of my faith. You. 352 00:32:41,000 --> 00:32:42,583 "Get thee behind me." 353 00:32:44,541 --> 00:32:46,833 "You are a stumbling block to me, 354 00:32:46,916 --> 00:32:52,500 for you are setting your mind not on divine things, but on human things." 355 00:32:54,750 --> 00:32:56,166 Babylon the Great. 356 00:32:57,416 --> 00:33:01,666 Mother of whores and all of Earth's abominations. 357 00:33:02,708 --> 00:33:07,416 I truly hope you two enjoy the sunrise. 358 00:33:30,458 --> 00:33:31,750 -[Sturge] What's wrong? -Nothing. 359 00:33:33,791 --> 00:33:36,750 We're ready for them. Hold them outside a few more minutes. 360 00:33:36,833 --> 00:33:38,208 We need an accurate head count 361 00:33:38,291 --> 00:33:40,083 so we know how many boats we need tomorrow. 362 00:33:40,166 --> 00:33:41,375 They burned the boats. 363 00:33:43,416 --> 00:33:44,416 They what? 364 00:33:45,583 --> 00:33:46,916 They burned 'em. 365 00:33:49,625 --> 00:33:51,541 That's… no matter. 366 00:33:52,875 --> 00:33:57,208 Wade will call back the ferries. He'll just call them back when it's time. 367 00:34:00,583 --> 00:34:01,583 They who? 368 00:34:13,041 --> 00:34:14,291 [distant explosion] 369 00:34:23,541 --> 00:34:26,875 I love you, Mom. I love you, Dad. 370 00:34:31,041 --> 00:34:32,000 [exhales] 371 00:34:33,833 --> 00:34:36,375 Lord, keep them safe. 372 00:34:37,833 --> 00:34:38,750 And watch over them. 373 00:34:41,041 --> 00:34:45,541 And touch their hearts, and make it so they won't worry. 374 00:34:48,666 --> 00:34:51,791 Lord, bring my parents peace. 375 00:34:56,291 --> 00:34:57,291 Amen. 376 00:34:58,875 --> 00:34:59,875 My mom. 377 00:35:02,250 --> 00:35:03,416 And my dad. 378 00:35:07,375 --> 00:35:09,791 And my brother. 379 00:35:13,041 --> 00:35:14,708 They're all gone, aren't they? 380 00:35:15,916 --> 00:35:16,833 Yeah. 381 00:35:20,541 --> 00:35:22,583 [Warren] I would have… 382 00:35:25,125 --> 00:35:28,041 If I'd known at that dinner, the last dinner, 383 00:35:28,125 --> 00:35:30,166 -I would have been different. -They know. 384 00:35:33,875 --> 00:35:34,875 They know. 385 00:35:42,541 --> 00:35:43,708 [canoe thuds] 386 00:35:59,416 --> 00:36:01,000 Hey. Who's that now? 387 00:36:02,500 --> 00:36:03,583 Is that Howard? 388 00:36:04,875 --> 00:36:06,250 Howard Hobbs. 389 00:36:06,875 --> 00:36:10,041 Look at the state of you. Must have had a hell of a time of it, 390 00:36:10,125 --> 00:36:11,958 you poor man. 391 00:36:12,458 --> 00:36:17,583 You know, I don't think I ever saw you at mass a day in your life, 392 00:36:17,666 --> 00:36:21,458 and yet you were blessed tonight, weren't you? 393 00:36:22,208 --> 00:36:23,208 Saved. 394 00:36:23,916 --> 00:36:27,125 Baptized, I take it. You? 395 00:36:28,791 --> 00:36:30,750 I killed my Julie tonight. 396 00:36:32,125 --> 00:36:33,375 [Bev] You killed your wife? 397 00:36:34,250 --> 00:36:36,958 [Howard] And my boys. I killed my boys. 398 00:36:37,916 --> 00:36:39,083 [sobs] 399 00:36:41,083 --> 00:36:45,750 You know, I hate to tell you this, but you could have brought them back, 400 00:36:46,333 --> 00:36:48,958 just as Sturge apparently brought you back, 401 00:36:49,041 --> 00:36:53,375 which was something we discussed only doing in rare and specific… 402 00:36:53,458 --> 00:36:57,375 It's fine. But, yes, you could have saved them. 403 00:36:57,458 --> 00:37:02,041 Easily, in fact, if you had been a man of faith. 404 00:37:03,875 --> 00:37:06,458 I don't know what's happening. What's happening? 405 00:37:07,041 --> 00:37:08,500 It's the end, Mr. Hobbs. 406 00:37:09,500 --> 00:37:10,916 The end of all things. 407 00:37:11,000 --> 00:37:14,875 And all those days you decided not to worship, 408 00:37:14,958 --> 00:37:17,791 all those days you turned your back on God. 409 00:37:17,875 --> 00:37:22,166 Well, the tools for your salvation were always there. 410 00:37:22,250 --> 00:37:25,208 The doors were always open, but you didn't… 411 00:37:26,166 --> 00:37:27,000 [sighs] 412 00:37:28,125 --> 00:37:30,000 Well, you just didn't. 413 00:37:30,750 --> 00:37:36,500 So, yes, in the critical hour, you didn't know. 414 00:37:38,583 --> 00:37:39,916 They're with God now. 415 00:37:41,250 --> 00:37:42,416 Take heart in that. 416 00:37:44,166 --> 00:37:47,625 I wish you peace and God's mercy. 417 00:37:50,583 --> 00:37:52,583 No room for him inside, I'm afraid. 418 00:37:54,166 --> 00:37:55,791 I saved him, Bev. 419 00:37:58,333 --> 00:37:59,750 He was always nice to me. 420 00:38:08,708 --> 00:38:11,208 I'm sorry, Howie. I'm sorry. 421 00:38:13,166 --> 00:38:14,750 I was thinkin' maybe, um, 422 00:38:16,375 --> 00:38:18,125 just go for a walk? 423 00:38:19,541 --> 00:38:22,708 Down by the shore? You like the water. 424 00:38:23,708 --> 00:38:25,750 I know you do. Maybe… 425 00:38:28,750 --> 00:38:32,166 That you can just watch the sunrise. 426 00:38:33,333 --> 00:38:34,208 Huh? 427 00:38:35,250 --> 00:38:36,333 [sobs] 428 00:38:43,041 --> 00:38:45,500 [Sturge] God'll be with you, Howie, I promise. 429 00:38:46,083 --> 00:38:47,166 This is monstrous. 430 00:38:47,250 --> 00:38:49,125 [Howard continues sobbing] 431 00:38:52,458 --> 00:38:54,458 [woman] Hey. Hey. 432 00:38:56,083 --> 00:38:56,916 Bring him in! 433 00:38:59,416 --> 00:39:00,791 You follow me, son. 434 00:39:02,083 --> 00:39:04,000 You're welcome in St. Patrick's. 435 00:39:05,083 --> 00:39:06,250 All are welcome! 436 00:39:07,875 --> 00:39:10,958 All have to be welcome or this isn't really God's house! 437 00:39:11,958 --> 00:39:13,375 [liquid splashing] 438 00:39:13,458 --> 00:39:15,125 [breathing heavily] 439 00:39:32,625 --> 00:39:33,458 Good. 440 00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:40,541 You go out the back, through the vestibule. Head for the water. 441 00:39:42,166 --> 00:39:43,500 That was the idea. 442 00:39:46,000 --> 00:39:47,416 God, am I proud of you. 443 00:39:47,500 --> 00:39:51,375 I'm sorry that we never told you, your mother and I, but I… 444 00:39:52,625 --> 00:39:53,958 I love you so much. 445 00:39:54,791 --> 00:39:56,541 And I've been so proud of you, 446 00:39:56,625 --> 00:40:00,291 and I just wish that we had gotten to know each other. 447 00:40:04,458 --> 00:40:05,458 Me too. 448 00:40:08,166 --> 00:40:10,583 -Head out the back. I'll take care of-- -[gunshot] 449 00:40:18,458 --> 00:40:19,750 [Sturge] She was gonna… 450 00:40:21,625 --> 00:40:22,625 [grunts] 451 00:40:25,541 --> 00:40:26,625 [both grunting] 452 00:40:39,500 --> 00:40:40,541 John. 453 00:40:44,708 --> 00:40:45,791 John? 454 00:40:54,375 --> 00:40:55,666 [woman exclaims] 455 00:40:55,750 --> 00:40:59,208 Baby! Honey! Oh, my God! No! 456 00:41:00,000 --> 00:41:03,375 [sobbing] No! Sarah! Sarah! 457 00:41:03,458 --> 00:41:07,500 Look at me. No. Sarah, baby. 458 00:41:07,583 --> 00:41:08,541 [sobs] 459 00:41:15,833 --> 00:41:16,666 John. 460 00:41:21,083 --> 00:41:23,541 It's okay. There. There. 461 00:41:23,625 --> 00:41:24,833 [gurgles] 462 00:41:25,458 --> 00:41:27,666 It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. 463 00:41:27,750 --> 00:41:29,625 -It's okay. -[spits] 464 00:41:31,833 --> 00:41:33,041 [sobs] 465 00:41:33,125 --> 00:41:34,416 [Sarah breathing heavily] 466 00:41:38,666 --> 00:41:39,958 [woman gasps] 467 00:41:42,916 --> 00:41:45,500 No! No! No! 468 00:41:47,625 --> 00:41:50,916 My baby girl. Oh, God. 469 00:42:01,916 --> 00:42:03,583 When she was a little girl… 470 00:42:05,625 --> 00:42:11,500 her favorite place on the whole island was that little bridge by the marsh. 471 00:42:14,375 --> 00:42:16,583 That little… That little bridge. 472 00:43:00,083 --> 00:43:01,583 [Bev] Stop! 473 00:43:03,041 --> 00:43:04,291 [Hassan groans] 474 00:43:06,041 --> 00:43:08,291 [Bev] You disgusting viper! 475 00:43:08,958 --> 00:43:11,166 You would burn us in our homes? 476 00:43:11,250 --> 00:43:14,166 I knew the day you set foot on this island, 477 00:43:14,250 --> 00:43:17,375 of course you would, of course you would. 478 00:43:18,125 --> 00:43:19,166 Terrorist. 479 00:43:21,208 --> 00:43:24,125 [Hassan] I just can't let you have that building. That's all. 480 00:43:25,458 --> 00:43:28,500 [groans] I'm pretty sure it's the last one left. 481 00:43:30,500 --> 00:43:31,541 [breathing heavily] 482 00:43:37,208 --> 00:43:38,250 Hungry, huh? 483 00:43:40,416 --> 00:43:41,750 Dirty blood. 484 00:43:43,333 --> 00:43:44,291 Wow. 485 00:43:44,375 --> 00:43:46,875 Surprised you didn't wait till we were all inside, 486 00:43:46,958 --> 00:43:48,750 so you could really have your fun. 487 00:43:49,666 --> 00:43:52,541 Surprised you made your move when it was empty, coward. 488 00:43:53,666 --> 00:43:55,000 It's not though, is it? 489 00:43:56,125 --> 00:43:57,291 Empty, I mean. 490 00:44:02,875 --> 00:44:04,875 [angel roars] 491 00:44:07,416 --> 00:44:08,958 [Erin screams] 492 00:44:09,041 --> 00:44:10,416 No! 493 00:44:11,125 --> 00:44:12,125 [screams] 494 00:44:14,958 --> 00:44:17,041 [slurping] 495 00:44:29,625 --> 00:44:30,541 Hey. 496 00:44:34,583 --> 00:44:35,416 Boy. 497 00:44:35,500 --> 00:44:37,125 [panting] 498 00:44:39,750 --> 00:44:40,583 [Bev] No. 499 00:44:42,083 --> 00:44:43,333 [crowd gasps] 500 00:45:00,583 --> 00:45:04,333 [Hassan] There's this verse in the Bible, just kind of stuck with me. 501 00:45:05,416 --> 00:45:08,791 "He makes the sun rise on the evil and the good." 502 00:45:08,875 --> 00:45:10,125 -[gunshot] -[gasps] 503 00:45:10,875 --> 00:45:11,791 [Ali] Dad! 504 00:45:13,458 --> 00:45:14,375 Dad. 505 00:45:16,083 --> 00:45:17,125 Dad, get up. 506 00:45:17,208 --> 00:45:18,708 [Erin breathing heavily] 507 00:45:42,875 --> 00:45:44,041 [angel grunts] 508 00:45:54,916 --> 00:45:56,125 [Hassan grunting] 509 00:46:00,666 --> 00:46:04,625 [Bev] There's gotta be somewhere… There's gotta be somewhere else. 510 00:46:04,708 --> 00:46:07,250 No, Bev. No. There's nowhere else. 511 00:46:08,625 --> 00:46:12,666 -You burned it. You burned it all. -[Bev] No, no, I… 512 00:46:14,333 --> 00:46:18,083 We should be looking for Leeza. Let's go find Leeza. 513 00:46:21,125 --> 00:46:22,041 Leeza. 514 00:46:23,916 --> 00:46:25,333 [indistinct chatter] 515 00:46:27,875 --> 00:46:29,541 Where else can we go? 516 00:46:29,625 --> 00:46:31,333 -There's got to be somewhere else. -There's not. 517 00:46:32,791 --> 00:46:35,958 -[Bev] The boats! -[Sturge] Boats are gone, Bev. 518 00:46:43,833 --> 00:46:44,833 Hey, kid. 519 00:46:47,833 --> 00:46:48,833 Kid, you okay? 520 00:46:54,208 --> 00:46:55,125 I don't think so. 521 00:46:57,875 --> 00:46:59,041 I think I… 522 00:47:01,833 --> 00:47:03,958 I don't know, but I think I killed my mom. 523 00:47:06,625 --> 00:47:11,833 Yeah. I done some stuff tonight that I feel… [clicks tongue] 524 00:47:15,208 --> 00:47:16,375 I done some stuff. 525 00:47:19,000 --> 00:47:20,291 Will you forgive me, kid? 526 00:47:24,500 --> 00:47:25,500 I'll forgive you. 527 00:47:29,625 --> 00:47:32,708 [Sturge] Come on. You too, Howie, come on. 528 00:47:43,916 --> 00:47:45,250 [Erin groans softly] 529 00:47:57,000 --> 00:47:58,083 [angel growls] 530 00:48:11,083 --> 00:48:12,625 [roars] 531 00:48:22,458 --> 00:48:23,375 [Ali] Just hang on. 532 00:48:24,958 --> 00:48:28,125 -[Hassan groans] -[Ali] Dad. Dad. 533 00:48:31,375 --> 00:48:33,000 [Hassan breathing heavily] 534 00:48:36,875 --> 00:48:38,666 [angel roars] 535 00:48:47,583 --> 00:48:48,583 There. 536 00:48:50,833 --> 00:48:51,833 [angel roars] 537 00:48:53,416 --> 00:48:54,458 It's heading west. 538 00:48:56,166 --> 00:48:57,166 It's running. 539 00:48:57,916 --> 00:48:59,500 It's running from the sunrise. 540 00:49:01,083 --> 00:49:03,916 Do you think it can make it? Before the sunrise? 541 00:49:06,166 --> 00:49:07,375 Thirty miles? 542 00:49:08,958 --> 00:49:10,666 I mean, that thing can barely fly. 543 00:49:13,541 --> 00:49:15,375 No, I… I don't think it can. 544 00:49:18,708 --> 00:49:20,000 [wind blows] 545 00:49:23,583 --> 00:49:24,750 [fire crackling] 546 00:49:33,833 --> 00:49:34,666 [Riley] What happens? 547 00:49:37,291 --> 00:49:38,500 [chuckles softly] 548 00:49:43,291 --> 00:49:44,125 What? 549 00:49:45,166 --> 00:49:46,083 [Riley] When we die. 550 00:49:47,416 --> 00:49:48,416 What happens? 551 00:49:50,875 --> 00:49:52,375 Yeah, what the fuck happens? 552 00:49:54,250 --> 00:49:56,500 So what do you think happens when we die, Erin? 553 00:50:00,125 --> 00:50:01,375 Speaking for myself? 554 00:50:03,708 --> 00:50:04,916 Speaking for yourself. 555 00:50:12,041 --> 00:50:12,958 [sighs] 556 00:50:16,291 --> 00:50:20,333 Myself. My self. 557 00:50:22,083 --> 00:50:23,416 That's the problem. 558 00:50:24,583 --> 00:50:27,125 That's the whole problem with the whole thing. 559 00:50:28,125 --> 00:50:30,958 That word, "self." 560 00:50:32,000 --> 00:50:33,541 That's not the word. 561 00:50:34,458 --> 00:50:36,166 That's not right, that isn't… 562 00:50:38,500 --> 00:50:39,750 That isn't. 563 00:50:41,375 --> 00:50:43,041 How did I forget that? 564 00:50:43,875 --> 00:50:45,208 When did I forget that? 565 00:50:47,708 --> 00:50:53,291 The body stops a cell at a time, but the brain keeps firing those neurons. 566 00:50:54,208 --> 00:50:57,750 Little lightning bolts, like fireworks inside, 567 00:50:57,833 --> 00:51:02,333 and I thought I'd despair or feel afraid, but I don't feel any of that. 568 00:51:03,416 --> 00:51:04,416 None of it. 569 00:51:05,666 --> 00:51:07,041 Because I'm too busy. 570 00:51:08,250 --> 00:51:11,583 I'm too busy in this moment. Remembering. 571 00:51:15,625 --> 00:51:16,500 Of course. 572 00:51:17,583 --> 00:51:22,416 I remember that every atom in my body was forged in a star. 573 00:51:24,791 --> 00:51:29,041 This matter, this body is mostly just empty space after all, 574 00:51:29,125 --> 00:51:30,625 and solid matter? 575 00:51:31,458 --> 00:51:36,000 It's just energy vibrating very slowly and there is no me. 576 00:51:36,708 --> 00:51:37,791 There never was. 577 00:51:40,125 --> 00:51:42,958 The electrons of my body mingle and dance 578 00:51:43,041 --> 00:51:47,583 with the electrons of the ground below me and the air I'm no longer breathing. 579 00:51:48,750 --> 00:51:49,958 And I remember 580 00:51:51,500 --> 00:51:56,125 there is no point where any of that ends and I begin. 581 00:51:59,500 --> 00:52:03,166 I remember I am energy. Not memory. 582 00:52:04,291 --> 00:52:05,291 Not self. 583 00:52:06,541 --> 00:52:10,083 My name, my personality, my choices, all came after me. 584 00:52:11,250 --> 00:52:14,166 I was before them and I will be after, 585 00:52:14,750 --> 00:52:18,416 and everything else is pictures, picked up along the way. 586 00:52:19,166 --> 00:52:24,291 Fleeting little dreamlets printed on the tissue of my dying brain. 587 00:52:24,916 --> 00:52:30,875 And I am the lightning that jumps between. I am the energy firing the neurons, 588 00:52:32,666 --> 00:52:34,208 and I'm returning. 589 00:52:35,333 --> 00:52:39,041 Just by remembering, I'm returning home. 590 00:52:42,333 --> 00:52:45,333 And it's like a drop of water falling back into the ocean, 591 00:52:47,625 --> 00:52:50,291 of which it's always been a part. 592 00:52:51,916 --> 00:52:54,791 All things… a part. 593 00:52:55,291 --> 00:52:58,333 All of us… a part. 594 00:52:58,416 --> 00:53:02,875 You, me and my little girl, and my mother and my father, 595 00:53:02,958 --> 00:53:08,625 everyone who's ever been, every plant, every animal, every atom, 596 00:53:08,708 --> 00:53:11,958 every star, every galaxy, all of it. 597 00:53:13,708 --> 00:53:17,166 More galaxies in the universe than grains of sand on the beach. 598 00:53:17,250 --> 00:53:21,750 And that's what we're talking about when we say "God." 599 00:53:22,750 --> 00:53:23,666 The one. 600 00:53:24,958 --> 00:53:28,958 The cosmos and its infinite dreams. 601 00:53:30,750 --> 00:53:34,250 We are the cosmos dreaming of itself. 602 00:53:35,083 --> 00:53:38,958 It's simply a dream that I think is my life, every time. 603 00:53:41,041 --> 00:53:43,791 But I'll forget this. I always do. 604 00:53:45,333 --> 00:53:47,083 I always forget my dreams. 605 00:53:51,000 --> 00:53:55,500 But now, in this split-second, in the moment I remember, 606 00:53:55,583 --> 00:54:00,083 the instant I remember, I comprehend everything at once. 607 00:54:01,458 --> 00:54:04,750 There is no time. There is no death. 608 00:54:05,416 --> 00:54:06,541 Life is a dream. 609 00:54:09,166 --> 00:54:10,166 It's a wish. 610 00:54:11,333 --> 00:54:13,250 Made again and again and again 611 00:54:13,333 --> 00:54:16,916 and again and again and again and on into eternity. 612 00:54:18,416 --> 00:54:19,583 And I am all of it. 613 00:54:20,708 --> 00:54:22,666 I am everything. I am all. 614 00:54:26,125 --> 00:54:28,041 I am that I am. 615 00:54:39,000 --> 00:54:40,458 [inhales] 616 00:55:03,458 --> 00:55:05,166 [singing] 617 00:56:11,083 --> 00:56:13,208 [both praying in Arabic] 618 00:56:44,041 --> 00:56:45,500 [all singing] 619 00:56:58,541 --> 00:57:00,000 [singing continues] 620 00:58:17,916 --> 00:58:19,458 [sobbing] 621 00:58:23,666 --> 00:58:24,833 [screaming] 622 00:58:52,958 --> 00:58:53,875 Forgive me. 623 00:59:12,000 --> 00:59:13,750 [screaming] 624 00:59:20,750 --> 00:59:22,000 [singing stops] 625 01:00:07,250 --> 01:00:08,375 I can't feel my legs. 626 01:00:14,625 --> 01:00:15,625 [laughs softly] 627 01:00:27,125 --> 01:00:29,125 [water lapping softly]